take this to your grave, 2003 // "...i'll take it to mine: the untold story of designing take this to your grave," the bad habits collection, 2021 // where did the party go, the youngblood chronicles, 2013 // fall out boy vh1 commentary on the youngblood chronicles, 2014 // "how fall out boy beat the odds and rose again," rolling stone, 2013 // "the giant white unicorn in the room," pete wentz, 2014 // alternative press #303, 2013
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but fr outside of my contracted madness i absolutely refuse to give joe alwyn gold rush like how is that song at all related to their relationship the lyrics clearly spell out a relationship that either never existed or only existed in implication and fantasies and maybe-maybe nots and its so bitter and yet desperately soft in the bridge where it almost projects a sense of envy, of wanting to be them as much as you want them. It continues an interesting oft ignored lyrical trend of taylor wanting just as much to be her lover as to have them, envying their easy charisma (you were flush with the currency of cool/i was always turning out my pockets) or quiet dignity (your integrity makes me seem small) dating back to her earliest songs (the kind of flawless i wish i could be). Theres a projected self hatred and yearning to be better that twists itself into both romantic and sexual lust for her partners thats so fascinating and speaks to how all of her songs regardless of who theyre about are also an act of self reflection on who she is and who she wishes to be.
keep hearing maggie rogers sing "my friend molly's got a guy she swears could be her family, says he has the greenest eyes you've ever seen, but it's crazy the days she spends just following him to parties she seems happy but that's not love to me." over and over in my head
sorry, community posting. what's crazy about jeffannie is not just how weird their age gap is (though um. you know keep that in mind) it's that jeff and britta just like, should be together. they deserve each other completely. they should every few years have a few month long, completely disastrous thing going on and then call it off and then just be very good friends with sexual tension again until they start up again. and then they should keep doing that until one day they realized they've just kind of spent their entire life together, more or less. that's the only happy ending foreseeable for jeff, i think. if he and annie had ever actually dated she would've gone girled him almost immediately.
if seto kousuke has a million fans i'm one of them. if seto kousuke has 5 fans i'm one of them. if me inside and i can laugh, our hearts are one and i'm leaving the past. maybe even now my heart that's saving others is something closer to "brave". if seto kousuke has zero fans it's because i forgot it was his birthday
not to sound ancient but i had a delicious breakfast of hash and eggs and now im listening to jazz and reading and feeling pleasantly slow and full. i think im mostly making this post as a point of record (for myself almost entirely), that there are good times and there are lots of little joys in life
overall i really like that space sweepers has next-to-no romance in it; like, even the grieving father never had a partner, he was a single dad. bubs isn't boy-crazy, just super girly, and we know nothing whatsoever about tiger's romantic history (i think he's gay, specifically in a belligerent 'whaddaya got, a problem? a brutally violent cartel hitter can't be gay? get off my ass' way). and i think this opens a lot of room up for other interesting kinds of relationships. but i also love that the only person with what MIGHT be a sexual history is captain jang, with a stereotype of a Lovelorn French Man who she POSSIBLY had a one-night stand with and he's still thinking about it years later while she behaves as if she's never even heard of him to such a doth-protest-too-much degree she is almost certainly also, sometimes, thinking about it. it's a very minor subplot but at the same time i got the distinct impression that jang doesn't really hate him per se, he's just, like, her embarrassing ex-friends-with-benefits who she wishes wasn't actually a pretty nice guy