#HI WORLD. i havent posted on here in so long.... life stuff getting in the way of me making work i liked

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scans from a minizine from late last year! risograph with collage. part of a bigger project on trans relationships to the body thru cyborgs but i got distracted making pinups

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#HI WORLD. i havent posted on here in so long.... life stuff getting in the way of me making work i liked #but im back on it and excited to share the stuff im working on now yayy #trans art #cyborgs #risograph #my art

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MASTERLIST

✨Masterlist ✨

READ ME BEFORE YOU REQUEST

Please note I don’t write anything that is illegal or borderline inappropriate. This includes sibling smut, adult baby kink (I dont even know what its called), teacherxstudent relationships and anything else I deem off. I also havent been to high school for many years so even if it’s innocent fluff I do not write HS AUs. If you’re unsure just ask! Can even be anon and if you don’t get a reply to your request then it’s a no. I’m fine with Daddy kink and most sex stuff as long as it doesn't cross lines into over infantilising, acting like an actual baby. 

As much as I’d love to sit in my bed all day and write fics... I have a big girl job and answer my requests in order I receive them (lol OCD tings) and I cant start one until the other is done (again sorry OCD tings). So please note there is a 3 week ish turn around for requests at max. And sometimes if I get a good idea I’ll write my own first cause I have to get it out of my head. But if you want updates feel free to message me or I’ll post an update if I get caught up in life! 

I’m always up for a chat and am pretty active on here so you’re welcome to talk to me about whatever, ask questions or just chat! Please note it’s an 18+ account and if you don’t specify that I won’t reply. 

Ty x

Clover ☘️

Dividers from the brilliant @firefly-graphics 💕

Gifs and images are not mine! 

KEY:

☁️ - Fluff 🔥 - Smut/NSFW 🌤 - Platonic 

🌧  - Tear Jerker / Sad

🌪 - Angst

SERIES: 

COMING SOON: Third Times A Charm | A Chris Evans X RDJ Sister!Reader (description here)

Take Me Home | Nick Vaughan X Reader:

Part 1 -  Meet Cute ☁️

Yes, No, Maybe | Chris Evans X Curvy!Reader:

Part 1 - Chris meets you and has to have you. ☁️🌪

Part 2 - your first date. ☁️

Part 3 (Virgin!Reader) - Chris takes your virginity 🔥☁️

Bubba | Dad!Chris Evans X Pregant/Mom!Reader):

Part 1 - You tell Chris he’s going to be a dad for the first time. ☁️🌧

Part 2 - Protective!DadChris ☁️

IMAGINES/ONE SHOTS & HEADCANONS:

Chris Evans

You’re Mine (Curvy!Reader) - You’re Chris’s FWB and you wonder if you’re the only one 🔥☁️

All Worth It (Curvy!Reader) - You and Chris go public with your relationship. ☁️

Chris Evans Alphabet (Curvy!Reader) - smut implied but mainly fluff. ☁️

Chris Evans Alphabet NSFW - 🔥

What A Girl Wants - You’re a str!pper and Chris wants you for the night. 🔥

Happiest Man Alive - You’re a florist and Chris proposes at the Oscars ☁️

No One Disrespects Chris’s Girl - A journalist insults you to Chris’s face. 🌪

Best Birthday Ever (Curvy!Reader) - You usually dread your birthday but Chris has a surprise in stall. ☁️

Bed. Now. - Finals week has hit but Chris wants you to sleep. ☁️

Boston Boy Documentary - Your segment in Chris’s documentary. ☁️

Can’t Believe They’re Real - Chris is an ass guy but with tits like yours he cant help be obsessed.  🔥

Favourite Pillows - Chris’s favourite pillows are conveniently on your chest. ☁️

My Angel (Model!Reader) - You’re a Victoria Secret Angel ☁️

Because I Want You - Your bestie, Chris gets a bit jealous...  ☁️🌪

Cookie - Baking cookies doesnt go as planned.  ☁️🔥

High On You - You and Chris enjoy a joint together. ☁️

I’m in Chwarge (Blurb) - No one tells you whhat to do besides Chris ☁️🔥

Tik Tok Leggings - You could say Chris likes your new leggings… 🔥☁️

Eat Shit Ransom - You’ve got a huge crush on Ransom 🌪☁️

Pork or Pasta? - You meet Chris for the first time but arent so sure about him... 🌪☁️

Mint Condition - Captain America Roleplay  🔥

Sexiest Girl Alive (Curvy!Reader) - You get hate for your body and Chris comes to your defence. 🌪☁️

Headcanon!Chris Evans - Chris start to cheer his gf up. How? With stupid cheesy pick up lines ☁️

Steve Rogers 

I’m The Captain Now - Taking Steve’s virginity 🔥

Off to College - You & Steve send your little girl off to College ☁️🌧

Family Matters - Steve’s sister dies 🌧🌤 

Roped Up - Steve ties you up 🔥

Soxs - You get Steve a cat to help with his nightmares. ☁️

Prettiest Girl In The World (PreSerum!Steve X Plussize!Reader) - Steve thinks you’re the best even if you don’t. 🔥☁️🌧

Get A Life - Shortsized!Reader working for Bruce Banner as a lab assistant and Steve has a total crush on her. ☁️

Frank Adler 

Disneyland - You and Frank take Mary to Disney ☁️

Put It On My Tab - Frank introduces Female Bartender!Reader and introduces her to his niece. ☁️

Andy Barber

What To Wear (Curvy!Reader) - Andy helps you find a shirt that fits for your date night. ☁️

Sparks Fly - Soulmate AU ☁️

You’re Sick (Blurb) ☁️

Our Home - Laurie shows up unannounced. 🌪☁️

Knock Knock - You surprise Andy at work. 🔥

Lloyd Hansen

You’re Not Sorry - You act like a brat but Lloyd is going to make you pay for it. 🔥🌪

Ari Levinson

I’ll Take Care of You - Ari is married to your sister but he has you on on his mind. 🔥

Neighbours - You get very friendly with your neighbour, Ari.  🔥

Ransom Drysdale

Good Bunny - Ransom wants to explore the hole God can’t see... 🔥

Liam Hemsworth

Nostalgia - You and Liam reunite but its a little different now. ☁️🌪

#chris evans fics #chris evans masterlist #chris evans fan fiction #chris evans fanfic #Chris Evans fandom #chris evans x reader

[squidinkedcreative]

been working p hard on a new doctor who fic!!!!!!! it all started with an option in a poll somebody i follow posted about “which would you let into your home?” and listed some beings you normally wouldnt see appear on your doorstep asking for shelter for the night, and it’s spiraled so hard /pos

my beloved oc Vincent is making a return!!!!!!!! i finally got the prop of his head i made in 2022 back, so once he’s all patched up, i’m going to be doing some cosplay stuff with him :,)

im currently still fleshing out the plot (3k or so words into the fic……….. lmfao) but i have most of the world building done. for the plot, the tenth dr and donna arrive on [planet name tbd], a desolate city completely overrun by vines and moss and underbrush. the clouds don’t move and there is no breeze, and there is not a single living thing besides the vines/moss/underbrush to be seen or heard. as they explore the area, memories of seeing this before come back to the doctor and he starts piecing some things together about the nature of what happened here. both of them see faded keep out posters and graffiti depicting a specific being with an alarm clock for a head, which strikes a chord with the doctor, as vincent was a good friend of his he hadn’t seen in a long time. they explore more and find the seed(the “beginning” of the vine and plant growth), to which the dr explains his past knowledge about this planet eating parasite that lays waste to planets that are on a downward trajectory. theres nothing they can do to save the planet at this point, but the dr still feels tethered because of the symbols of his friend everywhere. they end up finding vincent, who was going to be consumed by the vines, and rescue him. the two of them reunite, and the trio sets fire to the seed anyway, even though it most likely wont bring the planet back. aaaaaand thats about all i got so far lmao

i havent named the planet, thought much about the life on the planet or the area that they land in, nor have i named the parasite either lmao but the gears are turning!!! i have some good ideas for vincent’s lore and how being on that planet affected the abilities he has(he gets randomly glitched from one planet to another, sometimes even dimensions and galaxies, without warning. so it’s not something he really enjoys or can use to his advantage) thought!!!

anyway, i just wanted to share loll i have a few different wips in different mediums for this idea specifically(fic, art for the fic, and paper dolls of vincent, ten, and the tardis) that i’m hoping to share more about soon!!!!

#doctor who oc #doctor who #david tennant #the tenth doctor #tenth doctor #squid’s ocs #squid’s oc #vincent oc #dw oc #dw #doctor who fan art #doctor who fanart #doctor who fanfiction #dw fanart #dw fanfic #planet of vines: dw fic #clockhead vincent oc

[thegeminisage]

STAR TREK UPDATE TIME quick fast. last night we watched tng's "gambit part ii" and ds9's "cardassians"

gambit part ii (tng):

well, this continued to be underwhelming and frustrating for reasons outlined in my previous post

i will cop to maybe not following the plot as closely as i could have been but i thought the artifact turning out to be a weapon was fucking stupid, especially considering it was a Mind Weapon. girl what on earth. we didn't even get to visit vulcan properly

i DID however call that vulcan racefaking as romulan which i was quite thrilled about

vulcan race purity extremists right as we're having bajoran race purity extremists in ds9...girl what is in the water out there. everybody calm down. globalization (galaxization?) is not the end of the world

i did perk up a little when riker was forced to play his literal charade with other people, such as worf and beverly, but it was so brief as to be nearly insulting

this is the only time i think i have not sided with data in an argument...i don't think there was any reason to take poor worf to the woodshed like that :( i'm glad they're still friends though

cardassians (ds9):

oh i had STARS in my eyes this entire episode. i have been COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS until we see garak again and he did NOT disappoint

from what i saw of gifs i never expected his and julian's relationship to be like this...i expected julian to be mister stammery and for garak to enjoy making him squirm. which would have been great and i would not object to it in future content but what we got was a welcome surprise in that it was way more complex!!

like, julian as the garak whisperer...sisko didn't summon garak to his office directly he told julian to have garak there at a certain time. "he never tells me what he's actually thinking i just sort of deduce it"etcetc. i also like julian instinctively knowing when to let garak come to him and when to be firm with him ie stop the whole fucking shuttlecraft until his ass gets some real answers. we havent seen much of his bedside manner yet so to speak but he actually CAN be good with people! or maybe just good with garak

i can't wait to find out more about garak. the worst part of a garak episode is knowing now you have to wait a long time until the next garak episode. i love that he deliberately keeps us out of the loop even though i am DYING to know everything about him. you get the idea that he's really been through something

side bar how and why is he able to get into julians room in the middle of the night???? did julian give him the door code jic 👀other side bar i love this mans little silk pajamas. actually everybodys pj game was on point

cardassian war orphans FUCKED UP. no one is coming to take them back to cardassia, except the one who doesn't want to go. i am SO relieved they didn't pull a tng here by the way. going in i was almost sure they wouldn't but still

bonus points for obrien being fantasy racist in front of his japanese wife. she used her teacher voice to set him straight and not another word of that came out of his mouth for the entire episode. one that man knows about happy wife happy life. two it's a good callback to him also having a card in the cardassian-hating game. pretty sure we said "that was a very ugly thing you just said i dont need to hear it twice" about 1000 times to each other during the rest of the episode

my only gripe with this episode is that i would have liked to hear where kira comes down on this...this episode was very full and not really About her, but the absence of her felt very weird, especially when most of the cardassian stuff involves her so heavily. you can sort of guess where she'd stand ("if they don't like the way we parent they shouldn't have left them here and also we're being way nicer to them than they ever were to bajoran children") but i'd still like to hear it FROM HER. a shame we just didn't seem to have room

of course, i cannot possibly end this post without a shoutout to my very best friend sisko. my favorite sisko moment in this episode was his increasing incredulity when bashir interrupted his MEETING WITH A CARDASSIAN POLITICIAN to interrogate him without warning and then said "it was the highlight of my day. don't do it again." and then bashir did it again. my second favorite part was when bashir woke him up at fuck o clock and said he needed a runabout and sisko was like girl why and julian was like im sorry i have no idea and sisko was like well by all means. will one runabout do. like. he's so wry and sarcastic and at the same time so chill with breaking the rules when it matters - he trusts julian enough to know he wouldn't ask for a shuttle without a good reason and julian trusts him enough not to get mad at the request even when it comes at fuck o clock in the morning. like, he's so GOOD with his people and they respect him so much. im anxiously waiting for more sisko-centric content almost as much as i am for more garak content!!!

TONIGHT: tng's "phantasms" and ds9's "melora."

#personal #star trek blogging #tng lb #ds9 lb

[taki118]

SuyaLight Master Post Part 11

I really like these two there’s not a lot of content for the fandom as a whole soooo here’s my submission as I get every moment of these two royals who literally share a braincell (and I love them for it) First up this is just on the manga if you are anime only its going to have stuff you havent seen, yes even with what the anime covers (so read it) and there will be spoilers so beware. If you prefer Demon Monk/Cleric/Leo (which I don’t really get) I am sorry this isnt for you. Lets go! Part 1 is here Part 2 is here Part 3 is here Part 4 is here Part 5 is here Part 6 is here Part 7 is here Part 8 is here Part 8.5 is here Part 9 is here Part 10 is here

Suya and Twilight make a visit to Spines home, they look so weirdly domestic

I do love how she likes to mess with Twilight

Suya is having fun 

Another of those moments where Suya and Twilight are very similar they wanted to have a normal experince.

They are so cute though the chapters where they share a braincell are the best ones

Suya makes the best of a bad situation

And Twilight is the first to fall cause he really wants to have fun camping

Twilight regrets his life and choices

So they are trying to get the queen to leave cause but we see where Suya gets it

Both are terrified to interact with her seeing her take down everyone else. 

But as Twilight bring the Queen home they have a heart to heart where she confesses she knows Suya is a lot.

She warns Twilight it will take alot to reform relations between humans and demons but she seems to know he means well.

Again Twilight feels pity until he sees Suya again.

With her mom gone Suya wants to do more parent/child things and makes Leo act as her mom ..... (i just i dunno with how often she calls him grandpa and now this I can’t see her interest in him as romantic) also Suya’s weird tastes.

Like she keeps bringing this up 

Zues joins the army to be closer to his siblings and Suya takes advantage of the Q&A Twilight holds

Twilight is so upset for Zues.

They know Suya’s plans well. (she claimed to help Zues fit in with things to say we all know better)

We get to see the day Twilight kidnapped Suya

Twilight is too pure for this world he never wanted to harm Suya even at the start.

We even see Twilight grabbed some clothes for her.

Seriously Twilight is too cute

And innocent he really thinks he’s being supported here.

And Suya is touched by this earnest display

Dork has to rehearse. But I do think this moment Suya getting to see Twilight’s plans first hand starts a shift in their interactions. She has thought of him as innocent for a long time but I think here she truly knows just HOW innocent he’s been from the start, and how he thought her kidnapping was really his only choice.  

#suyalight #sleepy princess in the demon castle #sleepy princess #demon king twilight #princess suya #aurora sya lis goodereste #maou jou de oyasumi #maoujou de oyasumi #long post #manga

[meikostan]

OK finally watching oshi no ko anime, it turns out all i needed was to go outside for like an hour and im normal again

my thoughts under the cut (writing as i watch) (long) (lots of thoughts) (beautiful and true?) (manga reader) (don't read if anime only) (spoilers) (seriously) (i talk alot) (lots of thoughts)

at this point i've reread oshi no ko enough times that even if i didnt already know japanese i could probably make it without the subs SDJLF but its so cool to see lines and panels that im so familiar with brought to life!! i also liked goro's death scene, especially the way they used static and cut between shots. i keep on pulling out my physical copies of onk (well mostly vol 1) and pointing at my screen and the corresponding part of the book like

2. AIIIII little known fact about me is that ai is genuinely my favorite character... WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE SHE DIES IN THE FIRST VOLUME. seriously we only ever get to see her after this when a. her name or demeanor is invoked by another character b. aqua has his numerous mental breakdowns or c. flashbacks (including but not limited to aqua's mental breakdowns). i am always down for ai content!!!

3. its so much easier to ignore the weird vaguely sexual stuff from their babyhood because i know the rest of the series is normal and cool and not into that sort of stuff👍

4. speaking of normal yayayay it's aqua back when he was actually normal and not "normal" :D like he is just a baby. do you think now that oshi no ko is popular people will get into internet arguments about whether you can ethically have aqua as your favorite character post-normalification. actually wait this may already have been happening in the dark depths of some discord server out there.. but i dont use discord so im blissfully unaware

5. OH i dont think ive seen all of the OG b komachi before? or at least not in high detail. epic!

6. infant ruby telling people on the internet "kys" before age 2... truly a model twitter user

7. not gonna lie i havent really ever liked the way babies are drawn here (including manga)... idk their heads just look way too big like adult heads drawn on toddler bodies then ""cutified"". but this is a personal gripe

8. do you think because of infantile amnesia the twins forgot about the whole pretending to be amaterasu moment. do you think miyako still remembers. can you imagine being the foster mother of two kids who you believe to be gods sent to earth. do you think she remembers that she was "charged by the gods with keeping ai's secret" and then aqua. you know.

9. imagine: you married the ceo of a mid production company because you want to date hot men. there are no hot men in sight. you have to watch over one of the idol's twin infant babies. they reveal to you that they are divine messengers of god and also they can speak normally. there are no hot men in sight. you tend to their every need because you don't want divine retribution. you explain the intricacies of the idol industry in detail every couple of days when they complain about the injustices of the world. there are no hot men in sight. you become their foster mom after they witness the traumatic death of their mother, whose secrets you where charged with keeping safe. at least 12 years pass. they never mention any of this again. you manage the idol group one of them is in. there are still no hot men in sight. your name is miyako. every day you wake up.

10. i like how gotanda gives his business card to a toddler. whats he gonna do, call you on his fisher price dial phone? well actually nevermind aqua is probably the only other toddler (alongside ruby) who could make use of a business card

11. KANAA LETS FUCKING GOOOOO but also nothing will ever top 'lick a lying snitch/flick a crying switch'...... nothing ever... :( also taking the opportunity now to say ive always found it hilarious she assumed 'aqua' is his stage name and not his actual legal name, that's how ridiculous it is DSKLFJ

12. sobbing at the ruby ai dance... dont even have that many words i just really like it.. do you guys think ai was thinking about her own mom [& abuse/lack of relationship thereof]? not even just in this scene but in her more serious moments when she's thinking about her kids it's like "i want to make millions so they can go to the nicest schools and have the nicest things" "i want my daughter to dance freely and happily and i will support her in this" which ig can also be excused as 'thats just what a normal parent wants' but idk i like taking into consideration her own past and lack of parental support when looking at the way she tries to raise her children (not that she exactly got a chance to, even while still alive)

13. also i realized at this point that ep 1 is like an hour long not just because of the whole 'we gotta make sure no one drops this before the reveal that shows what this story's actually gonna be about', but also because it would be kinda awkward to have cut any of these scenes out? or not like out completely but like from each other. like if we had ended ep 1 at for example where they do their silly baby dance and go twitter viral (chapter 5 aka the midpoint of vol 1). that wouldve been terrible. but we can't cut it any earlier, or any later. ai's death feels like the natural conclusion to this problem. also i can't really see much of the other sections being stretched out to fit a full episode length being done very well. having ep 1 be a full 90 minutes lets them be as long as they need to be, aka a 1:1 adaptation of the manga.

14. oh boy chapter 9 time

15. i don't have anything to say about ai's outlook that has not already been said but this is the scene that made her my favorite character. not being able to tell at what point your lies become reality.. not really knowing if you've ever loved or been loved truly because your entire concept of 'love' was based off insincerity necessary for survival.. and now not ever being given the chance to explore what 'real love' means to you. FUCK

16. aww i love all these little family moments they added! very cute ^_^

17. yayy go kids get traumatized ^_^ also for some reason i remember the stalker as having really light hair o-0 fascinating. i remembered his name though!! just like ai fr

18. speaking of hair i also did not realize saitou was blond i thought he had brown hair..

19. hey the bandana (? i forget the word) guy holding the ai fan sign during the news montage is from one of the intros to the vol 1 chapters where hes like 'oh yeah i wonder where those dancing babies are now'!

20. another part of that montage shows a house with a wii in it, which came out november 19 2006. characters are shown using twitter which started earlier that same year; it was a pretty popular website even in 2008, but the mobile app only became a thing in like 2010. i'm seeing a mix of flip phones and smart phones so this has gotta take place sometime around 2010. it's kinda difficult to tell exactly what age the twins are in the main story because like the first page of vol 2 has ruby listing her age as 14, but - and the proof is not at my finger tips rn - i swear to god they're like 16 at this point. i have legitimate reasons to believe this but i need to grab exact proof adding to that we also have 15 years of lies, which if im remembering right would be referring to the twins age? i was trying to logic out exactly what year oshi no ko takes place in even though i already know the answer is 'in the modern day' but anyway yeah i'll just finish my episode and move on

21. THE IPHONE RUBY IS HOLDNIG HAS A HEADPHONE JACK. i want so badly to say that's an iphone 4 but there's like a separation between that and the power button. i also dont have an iphone 4 with me so i cant check it irl :( but anyway the iphone 4 was released in 2010, meaning the evidence is piling up for this part of the story taking place some time around 2010. or maybe i'm looking too deeply into this and should go back to actually watching the episode.

22. this is reminding me i was gonna write a fic specifically about this time period where the twins go to therapy and have to adjust to life without ai, having miyako graduate from fake mom to actual mom, aqua faking being fully recovered from the incident so he'd be released from therapy (fic concept was inspired from him stating this in like vol 6), etc. i never did because i spent like 3 hours researching play therapy and never got anywhere with it.. but maybe...

23. THE KIDS HAVING TO WATCH HER FUNERAL THROUGH THE FUCKING CAR WINDOW... I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF

24. YESS AQUA NORMALIFICATION COMPLETE

25. AM I INSANE OR IS THAT AKANE? HER HAIR COLOR IS THE SAME BUT IT'S SO SHORT

26. MEM!!!!

27. AHHH POST CREDITS AI MAKING HER VIDEO FOR THE TWINS "i don't think i'll still be an idol by then" YEAH BUT AT WHAT COST 😭

FINAL THOUGHTS: i liked it alot ^_^ i dont really watch that much anime anymore (not that i watched an incredible amount before, but i am familiar with it) but i really liked this. i think they did a very good job of adapting the first volume! i know the rest of the episodes will be not-film length which does make me a bit sad because i think it would work out well, or at least not badly, if they were. it does also make me really excited for the future, seriously i will actually explode when i see the theater arc in full. cannot wait to see aqua mental breakdowns and ruby evil arc and and and and

the only thing i would've liked is if they could somehow have found a way to incorporate the pre-chapter intro scenes from the manga where they're talking about 15 years of lies, interviews with their pre-school teacher, etc. though both the pre-school teacher and the aforementioned bandana guy appear which may have been their way of doing it? like adding a fun detail for obsessives like myself to point at like 'my god it's those guys from exactly 2 panels in the manga'

tumblr ate my post and erased everything up to #2 while i was writing it and i was about to flip but it turns out that it automatically saves posts while youre writing them now and it was in my drafts safe and sound soooo crisis averted ^_^ anyway those were my thoughts on ep 1

#oshi no ko #animanga

[puzzlepop]

hi good morning. this post is the cain (my oc) post ever

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[id: a tumblr post by user meershweinchen1993 posted on january first that says: “came back from death wrong trope? you can easily avoid this by just never dying at all (stays alive wrong stays alive wrong stays alive wrong stays alive wr)”. end id.]

and im gonna talk about them and im not even putting it under a read more this time

so cain is my first ever dnd pc who’s life i’ve expanded way beyond the campaign ve was in (and i also have a billion aus with ver — including, coincidentally, the world i originally created ver for which doesn’t really feel like vis canon anymore 😅). ve’s a half-elf druid and shepherd who got roped into this big journey after an attack from a hill giant kind of scattered vis family and flock that originally started with like that pre-written “storm king’s thunder” campaign and then sort of spiraled out from that as our party got more well known in the world and stuff. but from the very beginning, cain didn’t think ve should have been alive. ve thought ve should have been killed by that giant. so ve was kind of “alive wrong” from the beginning.

but as the campaign progressed the party got more and more involved with the undead and people seeking out immortality through undeath and at the detriment of the living around them — including cain’s father, who tried to get cain to join him — and cain really resented the concept of cheating death and achieving immortality in a way that was unnatural hurt other people

but the craziest thing about cain is that, you know, ve’s a half elf and a druid — specifically, by the end of the campaign, an arch druid. which gives them an insanely long natural lifespan anyway? but during the course of their story, cain ends up basically being adopted by a goddess and becomes her holy champion and through her essentially becomes, like, an angel, or a demi-god, or something along those lines, and pretty much becomes immortal through that. so basically they achieve immortality in a way that doesn’t interfere with the forces of nature and doesn’t harm other people.

and they still hate it! they don’t really want it! they accepted the gift from their goddess and she is basically their mom they love her to bits and they do… i feel weird saying “serve” her considering they have a really personal relationship you know but they’re whole thing is that they carry out her wishes in the material plane essentially (she’s a goddess of natural cycles + life & death so essentially cain’s job is to help lost souls pass on and stuff). but ve’s alive wrong now because ve still hardly feels like ve should be alive in the first place. ve feels like there have been many times ve should have died but havent, and ve feels hypocritical being immortal after rejecting vis father’s path to immortality despite vis father’s path involving essentially destroying the material plane and feeding off of the living and cain’s just. here. and also didnt ask to be immortal in the first place. and because ve’s lived for eons and eons, repeatedly ve’s witnessed practically the entire lifespans of vis loved ones, and spends years and decades and centuries alone because ve’s alive and shouldn’t be.

anyway i dont know how articulate that is but. yea. cain my beloved

#🌀.txt #in the ‘modern day’ world ve exists in now ve’s adopted celestine who is half-angel in the literal sense so ve’s not alone forever #and while celeste isnt IMMORTAL…. well. she’s got somethin special goin on regarding her lifespan(s). so #my ocs #oc: cain oliviera #long post #about death #death discussion

[crayonverse]

Alright nobody asked or actually cares but here’s a bunch of my physical video games that I love

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Starting off weak: a bunch of my normal sims stuff. I have a lot of the sims 3 packs but they’re at my dads house (Along my with supernatural s1-15). i also have more sims 4 because i, stupidly, paid money for them (and i also dont understand how to pirate the rest)

Fantasy Life (best toh game ever I love it so much also one of the characters was accidentally trans coded please play this game🙏🙏h). also i could never complete the Bratz ponyz. i just kept cleaning the horses and then gave up lmao

Xbox games I can’t play because I don’t have an Xbox at my Mums and the one at my dads broke. I hope to find a new one sometime🫶. but also Viva Pinata is a brilliant game and is the best ever actually. everyone needs to a look a whirlim forever

Most goated Pokémon game ever. Real. God it’s so much fun I love this game sm. It was one of my first ever Pokémon games and I loved just running around and making friends. Truly amazing

Not games but movies I have. That arceus + the Lucario and mew movie were my only Pokémon media n shit. I rewatched them sm

When wii party and worms battle came out you know the sleepover got so good. the diseny enchatned princess was my childhood i just kept making a new princess and running around doing nothing

Switch games!!!!!!! I really like Pokémon games and eevee is my favourite little guy ever. i can never get far in ary bc my switch doesnt have enough space to keep playing :( it does seem cute with the small time i can play through

Scribblenauts has been like. One of my fav game series. Maxwell ur a sweet little man and I love him. also nintendogs those games have been so cute throughout my life. i love animals

i also consisently buy every single one of each of these games in their series bc they always slap so hard

The imagine series is also a staple those fucking things r COOL. ive just recently restarted my tomodachi island <3

PS3 stuff. Me and my dad used to play Rayman together

imagine teacher was my fav out of the imagine games i have. i got so invested in those fake preschoolers (the pottery level is the suckiest tho i hate it). moshi monsters cool tho i like it

Mod Nation was my mysims racing since i didnt have it and its. actually kinda fun. i think it also had an online element but idk if the servers are still active at this point. bugsnax is also revoulutionary play it play it play it play it

diseny universe was like a big game i kept trying to play with my friends but i think they fucking hated it LOL

my time at portia goated (saving up for the sequel rn)

outer worlds was also one of the only games i full on cried at the end. also at the time i ID'd as a asexual lesbian and Parvati, who was an asexual lesbian, made me feel very seen at the time. shes still my fav companion from that game.

lego dc supervillains has been my fav lego game so far and i hope more lego games are like it in the future because it was great

my lbp stack💪💪💪 i havent done much of A Big Adventure yet bc its more of an adventure game than the others and also you cant save normally in the game For Some Reason. like you cant just. save and quit. idk why that isnt in the game.

sorry for showing you all danganronpa

this has been my most recent video game. my dad went garage sale hunting and came back with two of these so i just stole one out of his boxes and took it home. havent played it yet but it looks cool

my sims games 💪💪💪💪💪💪 yes the fact that skyheroes is on the ps3 does in fact annoy me greatly no i will not tell my lovely mother that at all

ok yeah thats all the ones i want to show. i do have a bunch of other stuff but theyre not that cool

[hyunjining]

Hello, I dont usually speak on much but as someone whos also been here for an absurdly long time I too understand how you feel haha and just wanted to give a friendly metaphorical pat on the back because it really does fuck me up too sometimes. I guess ive been wanting to talk to Someone about any part of larry for a long time but for me I guess I dont feel much most of the time because im just waiting :/ I really do believe at some point we will get answers and see whether louis and harry do get to be publicly together (or broken up) but either way its knowing that at some point I will be proven Right that keeps me mainly unbothered by the crap we see day to day. Not to say that I dont get the initial "what the actual fuck are his team doing/ who decided this/ why is this happening for the 100th time" when a new stunt or absurdity comes along - this probably applies to the documentary aswell like I know ill groan and feel terrible for half a minute if Babygate is included but I guess I managed to at some point not let it get to me as like a personal problem? I guess and not feel emotionally attached, and I hope that you too could not have it plague you so much, I wish you the best haha and hope that at some point you would be able to continue to enjoy larry even during absurd times.

Sorry if this is like a rant you dont have to post this I guess I just felt bad seeing your post and would throw in some tiny speck of hope haha but yeah its funny cause I dont think ive ever really doubted the idea that I know they were together - obviously we dont know whether its the same now but since I havent really been proven otherwise whos to say im wrong if I were to believe they managed to have a beautiful long term relationship up until now lol but yeah thats all I got for now since I dont want to make it any longer but yeah im sorry you feel that way and I hope you manage to feel even the slightest bit better about this whole ridiculous circus we all managed to be drafted into hahaha

hey, thanks for your message 💕

i’ve definitely learned to detach myself from a lot of things over the years but idk lately it feels like something has changed and i don’t fully understand it? and i’m ok with acknowledging that there are things i’ll never know and that it’s not my life. i’ve always preached that on here. but some of the more recent stunt stuff/public image decisions really don’t make any sense to me in terms of pleasing fans or marketing to a wider audience or protecting their closets. like it all just seems completely nonsensical and unnecessary and it’s not fun to sit by and watch. i’m not gonna act like i’m being forced to be here, that’s totally on me. but idk i’m just sad that this is where we are now.

there is absolutely nothing in this world that could ever convince me that h&l aren’t gay or that they’ve never been together or that louis is a dad but i hate watching their images rapidly devolve for a reason i can’t begin to fathom. i’ve always been able to be dramatic for a minute and then laugh and move on but the feeling of dread has been more and more frequent and i feel like i’m doing myself a disservice by continuing to act like stuff isn’t affecting me. i don’t really know what to do right now, because i’m not happy but i love h&l so much and they’ve been a huge part of my life for so many years and i don’t know how to let that go. i feel like the doc is going to be a decider for me, but then again i have a louis concert in june lmao so who knows man.

anyway that was massively dramatic fkfjfk but thank you for the metaphorical pat on the back and for giving me a reason to vent some more lol

#ask

[swampgallows]

the usual

im mad because im trying to read books again, specifically trying to pick up toxic parents and body keeps the score again so i can try and Help Myself basically now that im back in the limbo of having no therapist. but trying to concentrate on shit and hunker down and learn things when i know it’s good for me i swear it’s like a flashbang goes off in my brain and everything just whites out. ‘concentrate’ isnt even the right word for it because it’s like i cant even begin to get started. it’s like staring into the sun to even begin to think about stuff i guess, it’s all so overwhelming. i want so much about my life to change, so much, so badly, so drastically, but so much of it just doesnt feel feasible that it’s like ive implanted this mental block in my brain to even dream of change because it’s too caustic. 

that ‘autistic masking’ article about the boy who would build and paint his models at night then clean everything up so he left no trace of himself... i think about how much ive whittled myself down and have tried to take up very little space. how i dont play my music on speakers, dont draw anymore, basically only took up writing more because it was something that was between me and a notepad document and didnt take time the same way as drawing, and wasnt possible to immediately consume like a drawing (people grabbing my sketchbook and just flippantly turning the pages, skimming past drawings that took me hours in favor of minute long sketches, glancing at drawings that were supposed to express my deep feelings and having immediate reactions of disgust or ridicule)

i make kandi put it on a chain then put it away. it cant really go anywhere anyway, not like i’ll be attending raves again any time soon. i have no reason or place to wear my ‘fun clothes’ anymore. i wore what i thought was a cute outfit at christmas and even my immediate family had some shit to say about it. i wore a pair of stockings that ive had (and worn) since i was 14  years old. i wore them to my very first raver day at disneyland. and theyre surprised when i wear them now? like they havent seen them before????

even here i was about to say “i tire of myself” and close this window or hit post and stop here, but literally my blog is one of the only places i can actually express myself somewhere and send it out to a place where it’s seen. yeah i can write things down in my journal and ‘express myself’ there so that “personal stuff” isnt online but... i already do that. set up my models and paint them late at night, then put them away before anyone sees in the morning. djing only in my headphones at 4am, pulling them off periodically to make sure they arent too loud even through the headphones. lighting candles but opening the window so there isn’t “too much” scent. 

if im autistic or have adhd or some combination of the two, then my whole family is too and all undiagnosed (save for maybe my dad. i think he’s the closest one of us to being ‘normal’). i took that blorbo quiz and it asked “How would they describe themselves?” 

how would -i- describe myself? i dont know. people tell me im smart and funny. i think it’s because they cant think of anything nicer to say.

Part of me is still chasing the approval of all the world’s English teachers. Getting compliments on my writing makes me feel like my life matters. And I still struggle to ask for love and affection when a real, flesh and blood human is looking me in the face. It’s difficult for me to believe someone might care for me as an equal, and like things about me other than my intellect. I frequently have to remind myself I’m no longer a child, and don’t need approval of the “adults” anymore.

as long as im stuck living with my parents im going to perpetually be the child. it’s also really fucking frustrating knowing how ill prepared i am to live as an adult. even when i had a job i had to quit it so i didnt kill myself. i dont think just getting a job is the answer, though i know it’s a mandatory piece of the puzzle. ugh god

#blathering

[cryptidofthekeys]

Spooky Month Mans (bc i have in fact not shown him off)

You WILL look upon my OC, his description is fairly old btw,, but im w a y too lazy to look back and see if I need to re-edit shit but i cant believe i havent,, actually posted his description bc it was,, no where on my blog

but here,, take- take my poor pathetic meow meow of a man

TW: Smoking mentions

| Name: Fredrick Myers

| Nicknames: Fred or Freddy (you can call him Felix too)

| Gender: Trans FTM (He/They)

| Age: N/A but he is an adult (I gotta look up some stuff before I give him a proper age, bc uh if i do it wrong then it’ll conflict with shit)

| Height: 5’7”

| Hair Color: Black (his hair is short, messy and p spiky tbh)

| Eye Color: Dark Brown

| Occupation: Just works where he can tbh, lives in an apartment just on the outskirts of the town.

| Skin Color/Body Type: He’s extremely pale but that’s because he doesn’t get out much tbh and he’s overall kinda skinny ngl

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| Appearance: His main outfit is a black hoodie that definitely looks worn out, there’s lot of sewn places (those used to be holes) he’s tried to mostly find black material to match the hoodie but because he doesn’t have many clothes he’s settled for anything so long as he could repair the hoodie, he wears black skinny jeans that are ripped at the knees and finally he wears black  boots (he calls them combat boots but they REALLY aren’t

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…just let him live out the fantasy ok?) even the boots look pretty scuffed up though tbh, he usually keeps the hood up over his head (bc it’s cold but he also doesn’t,, wanna attract any attention to himself) the last piece of clothing is his binder they usually keep on …They TRY not to wear it constantly but oofy…

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They don’t have any scars (they can’t afford any kinda top surgery or nothing like that …Yet) the only notable thing I can say aside from clothing-wise of course is he has some stubble and he has really dark circles under their eyes he looks REALLY tired, so uh yeah other than that nothing really special about him, no claws, no sharp teeth, etc- just a normal looking dude!

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| Personality: He’s p much shy, usually considered a loner and even antisocial but that’s really not true, he’s just really anxious and gets nervous around others real easily, he keeps to himself as BEST as they can physically manage which is why they usually lurk around, never one to get involved in anything even if invited by someone.

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Loves a good movie and some cheese n crackers, his favorite genre is usually sci-fi or just fantasy movies in general, sometimes a cheesy rom-com or two tbh, overall they are just an average dude tryna live their life, tryna make it in the world… There’s genuinely NOTHING special about him, they just exist and that’s it ya know? They got no interesting backstory either really-

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I mean sure bad parents and a lil bit of trauma in those regards but in the end that's probs just me projecting …A G A I N lmao

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The ONE bad habit I can say he has is he’s a smoker, like he doesn’t smoke EVERY single day I suppose but it’s not a good habit for him to gain (basically what I’m tryna say is that he needs a healthier outlet for his anxiety)

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| Side Facts: I’m so not used to making just normal ass characters but I think I’m managing so far gfhjkdfgjd so uh I won’t deny? Fredrick is kinda poor tbh, like they’re still managing to feed themselves and keep their apartment but that’s about the extent, they can’t really treat themselves to much, and sometimes he’ll dumpster dive for things he could use

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(ya gotta do what ya gotta do) so it’s uh definitely no wonder he looks constantly tired and even borderline stressed, having to make sure to keep up with the rent money n such, making sure he keeps himself healthy food n water wise, etc- it’s stressful trying to keep up with that, keeping up with work, etc

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They’ve heard the rumors about the town nearby (which is why they kinda moved near it but not fully into it), they figured maybe just maybe one day they’ll get some excitement in their life, even if it could be a bit …okay a great deal of danger, it’d be something INTERESTING ya know? But uh, Freddy isn’t gonna go outta their way for something, they just kinda… Hope he’ll get lucky and it’ll come to them instead even though it’s not likely, Fred’s just bored because it’s really just the same things over and over again, never nothing new or exciting happens …But maybe just maybe, one day… All that will change :)

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Freddy’s pass time, I wasn’t lying when i said they enjoy cheese n crackers and a good movie, that’s usually what he does in his freetime, they watch random movies they got and just eat some of that- another random fact- Fred seems like they’d be a horror movie guy but he’s actually never fucking watched a horror movie in his life (god if somethin spooky does happen they’d have no idea what to do or how to deal with it fgjkljhfkgdfl they don’t know the basic rules to survival in horror situations!) I’m not saying he’d HATE horror movies, it's literally just they haven’t watched any. They’d probably genuinely love horror movies if they ever got the chance to snag one.

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Just an average dude, living his life the best he can, tryna make it on their own, nothing special, they just… Exist.

#spooky month #spooky month sr pelo #spooky month oc #original character #oc #Fredrick Myers- my poor pathetic meow meow of an oc #y'all dont even know bc like- I originally created him for #and i shit you not- I fucking created him to go with Dexter JHFKDLJFVDKS the fucking happy fella doll no less #so this means basically... Freddy is literally going to have so many horror bfs #tw smoking mention

[mtonette]

top 7 survivors to compress into a cube

i think the post single handedly ruined my life after death. anyway heres the real one.

7. emil. ada is on it that doesnt change i wasnt lying. she cubes him i believe it

6. orpheus. hes a nerd what do you want from me. i could break him like a little glass figure. this goes for the survivor and a little less for the detective but detective is still above emil. i think he should sit in the chair with his notebook and think about what hes done (take me out of the basement so the surv with him can rescue the other half of the team.) ive seen a couple really good players and a couple really bad ones. a great performance is world-ending in the moment but it isn't hard to get back from

5. aesop is like the little autism creature. i want to squish him in my hands. his ability is really annoying if you let him use it. im waiting to go into a match where he does it for a teammate but they dont know how to use it. the long chases are fine i guess but eventually it just gets tedious. get on the chair aesop. have to down him and immediately spot the coffin. making me run across the map to resume chase is annoying as hell. you could at least sit on the chair for a while to lure someone over here.

4. luchino. i have a soft spot for the identity switch survs i think. this fucked up guy is going to get worse whether i chair him over and over or not. he also makes the game soooo annoying if other survivors are aware of him like people are getting free hits left and right.. hes got that smug aura about him i think that makes you wanna punch him. and i do. the stun? one of the worst. he's hell to chase but that makes the satisfaction of chairing him 100% better

3. joker. havent seen a player who knows how to use him yet but if i did this place would absolutely be earned. his hunter counterpart/self is really really scary so i imagine he could be really really annoying with rescues and stuff. like the mercenary with a stupid run but with another survivor halfway across the map. i bet the player would need to know the area if they wanted to get out of a corner, but if theres open space. sheesh

2. victor is a little sad i think. i like letters and writing them and he also is like that. imagine never getting one back. couldnt be me (is literally me) i know what his dog sounds like and usually his players rely on it too much. the cooldown will kill him if you have excitement equipped. which i need to start doing because i cant ban every stunner in rank. and theyre annoying i hate being stunned im going to cube you. i think victor is really cute too all of his skins are adorable. survivors that get circles when you chair them every time

1. edgar is like if bitch was a derogatory word for a boy instead of a girl but apparently he has tgirl and tboy swag. whenever im in matches with him usually his player isnt that good at the game. hes also a stunner but not really. his recharge is worse than eli's, having to see your face and not just you in general. ive had one match where i think i got paintinged three times and i think it pushed me over the edge i need to kill him in real life. affectionate

#yes this is a different post. i took off eli and andrew bc it was more about the people than the survs you know #like i dont know anyone who would play luchino so my opinion on luchino cant be influenced by association #anyway #identity v #sorry for tagging the survs again. its okay to block me i understand #emil idv #omg do people tag him emil memser #they should make it canon i believe #orpheus idv #aesop carl #luchino diruse #joker idv #victor grantz #edgar valden #there you go. promise im not lying to you this time this is the order i go for survs out of affection #luca and helena are annoying but i hate them so they transcend the list. first kill but i sneer at them instead of whining when rescued #its so funny if i streamed idv anyone watching would be like'this is so deranged..' and i am. thank you #andrew is my favorite survivor but i cant in good conscious cube him. so idk really how to handle matches w him

[pikawarrior]

Welp welcome back to my random rambles im just gonna talk bout alot of random stuff mainly my stories so here for go lets hope this is understandable

Story/maybe comic stuff

Turning of the orange | The Strawberry Patch - Old soon to be remade/written stop motion strawberry shortcake zombie movie me and my dad were making when i was in elementary schoolish. We unfortunately didnt make it that far since he had to leave often and for long times cuz work, but recently i found my old tablet with all the pics and my notes so rework time baby. Im about to use all my years of angst/horror writing to fuck these bitches up even more

The Butterfly Effect and It's Consequences | The Phoenix Effect -

The Butterfly Effect is my main rottmnt fanfic series. About my little rottmnt oc's (Ame) life and how the gang adopting them into the family changed everything mostly for the better but the bad things kinda got alot worse. Idk been focusing on the phoenix effect more

The Phoenix Effect is kinda an extension of that. Its basically the same thing but adds the cass apocalypse series into it. Basically how future Ame being there also changes things and how oopies mystics powers are hard to control after being half dead in stasis for about 12 years hope Ame does trys to leave to protect everyone from himself only to get kidnapped putting everyone in worse danger also oopies isnt that the super dangerous alien someone accidentally freed awhile ago

The Future Diary - So i watched The Hot Box's video on the anime future diary and well here we are

Another rottmnt oc thing. Ame obtains a diary from his future self being like "hey so the world is gonna end soon here's how i think you could possibly stop that. Pls dont do this all alone ur like 5" and ame decides to do it all by himself.

Got all eight chapters planned out already with two already at stage two (aka fully written out just needs to be edited and stuff). I just dont know how to use ao3 in this sense or how to tag stuff plus i got anxiety so its just sitting in my notes app

Video stuff cuz yes

Currently working on a few more special videos. On my channel ive technically reached 100 videos (i unlisted alot of old ones/never posted a bunch more so technically i reached that months ago but shhh let me have this) plus i got 135 subs now so celebrations are in order. Idk what to say bout this, am making a video using the ok ko ending song idk the name, one is a fake collab a friend made and another is an original meme a youtube mutual/friend by association made. Plus like so mant mini things for my ocs, Dimension and Watcher are gonna get so much development and cute couple moments.

Also everyone else is gonna go through so much trauma my gods its gonna amazing.

Also ive been trying to like voice things, audio quality sucks cuz im working off of my tablet but like ive voice a few of my own videos (only one posted) and like its so fun i wish i had proper stuff to do this so i can do it more

Other art stuff

I got a toyhou.se (its EnviousDeath), pls enjoy these characters and stuff

Im trying to make my art more mess and chaotic while staying clean? If that makes any sense. Still a lover of doing gacha stuff but am trying to branch out more.

Also btw how do people just idk do social stuff like trade characters, comment, and just aaaa idk what am doing i forgot how to do social stuff and also i never understood how to do this type without being awkward as hell

Character stuff

Watcher - *slaps religious trauma onto them* bitch gets sacrificed. Okay okay so Watcher, wasnt always Watcher. Before they used to be Ena a simple kid who was sent away for reasons i havent thought of yet to a church. Blah blah corruption, Watcher gets sacrificed for not falling in line blah blah they were saved and given a second chance.

Dimension - *slaps alot of anxiety and identity issues onto her* bitch got issues. Same as Watcher, Dimension wasnt always Dimension. Before she was Ellie a poor girl hated by her whole town because of the lies their mother spread about them and their father who had left years ago. She only had one friend, Watcher. Somehow they managed to make contact with each other despite being in different universes. Eventually Dimension snapped and went on a killing spree, slowly ripping apart her world in the process because this wasnt supposed to happen (think spiderverse canon events but different ill explain later) with her world crumbling around her, Dimension messages Ena one last time, not knowing Ena was already long gone, and accepts what they assume to be death only to fall into whats basically the anti void from utmv, gets corrupted and became a villain technically more of a multiversal criminal.

(For time and length reasons im cutting this segment short)

Multiverse stuff

OKAY TIME FOR WORLD BUILDING

How does what happened to Dimension's universe work? The way i explained it is like spiderverse canon events but different, but heres the details. Idk how to explain this but bare with me

Imagine each universe as a game in a folder on a computer. Each game has different code, story, art assets basically all are mostly different.

Most games are coded to have very specific story events and when something goes wrong everything breaks. Like take a spaghetti thing of code that shatters the moment you try to do something like trying to talk with an npc while having a status effect and thats how some of these worlds are like. And Dimension's was very much one of those worlds, and her breaking down like that shattered the code of their world and everything fell apart.

Im too tired to continue but my main multiverse is like one big computer own by a game creator who only sometimes knows how to make a stable game

Feel free to ask about any of what ive just ramblef about am always willing to ramble bout my stuff

#reaperspeaks

[daisyvisions]

omggggg attacks of any kind are terrifying 😦 i hope everything gets better!! sending comforting things your way (tmi i love hugs but i know some people dont so just whatever comforts you <3)

recently ive been sucked into the weird dystopian pirate world of ateez 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 the brainrot is real im drowning over here 😭 how are they all so—i— *gunshots

also idk but lately ive been appreciating and respecting kevin more hes just so thoughtful and genuinely interesting as a person 🫠 whenever i see his pm threads on twt i just think to myself how much id love being his friend 😭

also im too scared to post on weverse but omg @/ilovechanhee has insane powers getting noticed by juyeon 🫡

completely off topic but txt's sugar rush ride has been stuck in my head ever since it came out even tho im not a moa like gimme gimme more 👉👈 the entire ep is so so good

wow this got kinda kinda long lol ive also seen you around but am also kinda shy around cool people so yeah hehe

im not usually a hugger but ill gladly accept bcos I need it so bad :< thank youuu 🥺

oooh I've been meaning to get into Ateez soon heavily because of @jasminexox5's influence (as well as svt haha 😂) who's your bias!!

I really admire Kevin too like he must be really busy but he's taking the time to be active on weverse and reply to as many people as he can! Speaking of which, you should just post!! you never know if any member will see it ✨ (AND there's higher chances since the membership is not at 1M if you get what I mean)

Honestly ive been so out of the loop with many Kpop related stuff bcos of life im literally playing the same 20 songs in rotation almost everyday skdfnksdjnf 😭 but ill def take a listen to sugar ride! not a moa BUT the songs I do like are New Rules & Summer (yeah I havent listened to the new stuff if that wasn't obv lol) my asks are always open btw or chat (whatever floats your boat hehe)

#Daisy & maybeifyoutrieddd 💐 #💐Daisy Speaks💬

[sitp-recs]

long fic anon here!! (very glad you answered i love your blog and i think you’re super neat so that was a good treat for my day) i’d say 100k+ and ill even take older recs for 200k+ cause i’m sure there’s plenty i havent read!

Hi again! So in the end this did become a reclist lol. I tried to keep it under 30 fics, tbh most of my favourites are pretty popular so I won’t be surprised if you already know them. I haven’t invested much time or energy in 100k+ fics in recent years, and at this point in my life with a demanding job and running the blog I don’t see myself going for them unless I get completely obsessed lol they make for great canon rewrite AUs which aren’t really my thing, but I’m sure I’m missing out on a lot of great stuff. I hope my followers will join in and share more recs. Enjoy!

Over 100k:

A Thousand Beautiful Things by geoviki (M, 104K)

Draco Malfoy struggles with changed fortunes, shifted alliances, an ugly war, and an unusual spell, with the help of a concerned professor, an insightful house-elf, and an unexpected Gryffindor friend.

Changing Tides by @carpemermaidtales (E, 109k)

Draco has spent half of his life spouting the things his father has taught him without much thought about how he feels about what he says. When he unexpectedly comes face to face with the Dark Lord, he grapples with the harsh realities of the world and struggles with his changing views on life.

Far From the Tree by aideomai (E, 112k)

The arrival of Harry Potter’s children—snapped back in time, the children themselves guessed, twenty or so years—was the most interesting thing to happen at Hogwarts for years.

Written on the Heart by who_la_hoop (E, 114k)

Unnerved by the attention he’s attracting from everyone – the Slytherins are the least of it, to be fair – and struggling with a raft of changes to Hogwarts itself, Harry wishes he could be happy that one constant remains: Draco Malfoy really fucking hates him.

All Life is Yours to Miss by Saras_Girl (M, 114k)

Professor Malfoy's world is contained, controlled, and as solitary as he can make it, but when an act of petty revenge goes horribly awry, he and his trusty six-legged friend are thrown into Hogwarts life at the deep end and must learn to live, love and let go.

Grounds for Divorce by @tepre (E, 122k)

Malfoy finds a coin. Harry finds a letter. A story about histories, a story about families. A story about a lemon tree somewhere in Upper Egypt.

A Sword Laid Aside by @korlaena (E, 128k)

When Draco’s cover is blown during a deep undercover operation and the Ministry is compromised, Ron takes Draco to the only safe place he can think of—Potter.

What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym (M, 131k)

Seven years out from the war, Harry learns the hard truth of old history: it’s never quite as far behind you as you thought.

All Our Secrets Laid Bare by @firethesound (E, 150k)

Over the six years Draco Malfoy has been an Auror, four of his partners have turned up dead. Harry Potter is assigned as his newest partner to investigate just what is going on.

Away Childish Things by @letteredlettered (T, 153k)

Harry gets de-aged. Malfoy has to help him.

Things Worth Knowing by Femme and noeon (E, 164k)

After the Battle, Harry thinks he's left Hogwarts for good, but Minerva insists that all students return for an Eighth Year if they wish to sit for NEWTs in the spring, and Harry needs those NEWTs to go into the Aurors. Draco's just grateful not to be in Azkaban. Or the Manor.

Temptation on the Warfront by alizarincrims0n (E, 180k)

Draco Malfoy is forced into hiding with the Golden Trio and dragged into their search for horcruxes. What ensues is a journey of redemption, unexpected friendships and an unwanted, turbulent romance with Harry Potter. Warnings for swearing, sexual content, and dark themes.

Over 200k:

A Secondary Education by Thunderbird587 (E, 234k)

Fleeing the aftermath of his recent divorce, Draco Malfoy takes up a post as the new Potions Master at Hogwarts. At first he believes his hopes for a fresh start are dashed when he sees that a certain boyhood rival is on staff there as well. But Harry Potter is being weirdly nice to him, leaving Draco no choice but to play along.

Left my Heart by emmagrant01 (E, 236k)

Auror Draco Malfoy has disappeared, and Harry Potter has been sent to San Francisco to find him.

Where The Falcons Fly by MyNameIsThunder (M, 283k)

Where the Falcons fly, there’s blood. Where Draco goes, there usually is too. That’s his job, after all – heal morons and the people who get in their way. He could deal with that, he thinks, if only there wasn’t Harry fucking Potter, Seeker, who gets injured a lot even by the Falcons’ standards and seems to have made a habit of inserting himself in Draco’s private life.

Eclipse by Mijan (T, 287k)

Draco swore his revenge on Harry for Lucius's imprisonment, and Harry all but laughed at him. But Draco is planning more than schoolyard pranks this time.

Turn!verse by Saras_Girl (E, 314k)

One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.

Twist of Fate by Oakstone730 (T, 315k)

Draco asks Harry to help him beat the Imperius curse during 4th year. The lessons turn into more than either expected. A story of redemption and forgiveness.

Foundations!verse by Saras_Girl (E, 364k)

Harry is about to discover that the steepest learning curve comes after Healer training, and that second chances can be found in unexpected places.

Tales from the Special Branch by Femme (E, WIP)

When Gawain Robards asks him to form Special Branch seven-four-alpha, Harry Potter knows they'll have to work outside the confines of the law--even though they are the law.

Bonus: new fics! These 5 were all written last year so I’d make sure to check them and give them some extra love:

The Liars Department by @dorthyanndrarry (T, 103k)

This is a story about Harry meeting up with Draco Malfoy four years after the war. And a story about Harry, well, not hating his job per say, but it's not like he has much to compare it to and it seemed fine. His whole life seemed fine.

This Ain't the Garden of Eden by @romaine2424 (E, 131k)

The assumption is that 'all is well' in the British Magical world, and that Hermione Granger-Weasley will easily be voted in as the next Minister for Magic. However, Draco knows better.

By the Grace by lettered (T, 139k)

Harry is an Auror instructor. Malfoy wants to be an Auror.

The Secret Keeper by @the-fools-errand (M, 225k)

On Halloween 1981, Albus Dumbledore made a decision that would change the course of history, concealing Harry Potter’s survival at the hands of Lord Voldemort underneath a Fidelius Charm.

The Ordeal of Being Known by @lou-isfake (E, 307k)

When Auror Potter is anonymously cursed with silence by being forced to hide his own voice inside his mind, there's unfortunately only one person in the country with the qualifications to fix it: Certified and Licensed Healer Legilimens, Draco Malfoy, specialist in Mind Curses and Afflictions.

#asks #anon #drarry reclist #long fics #over 100k

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thought of this way back in mid-september and then never finished writing the fic for it because exams happened and i lost all motivation afterwards. anyway i was thinking about lumi’s (@alluminightmare) post about minecraft death mechanics, especially the parts about how someone who is in limbo (aka hasn’t respawned for a while) would fade away once other people stopped remembering them. rest under the cut because this got kinda long

so, say this is an au where illumina’s stuck in limbo. i dont know what causes him to be stuck there and quite frankly i cant think of a reason that wouldn’t be out of character but just suspending disbelief here for a second. illumina is stuck in limbo. the void takes and takes and none of the memories he gives is ever enough—nothing is ever going to be enough, he realises, far too late. what is it like to fade into the air, with nothing but other people to remember you by? 

since souls and bodies are two separate concepts here, he still has a physical body that appears to be unconscious (if you checked for a pulse you could be forgiven for thinking that he’s a corpse). the universe is vast and neutral to most, but Illumina is part of the universe in a way that no one else has ever been and so it keeps guiding people to it’s player, until Illumina wakes up, disorientated and in a body that doesn't feel quite like his own.

backtracking a bit—memories are what keeps a person's soul from fading away. fruit keeps stumbling upon the same world with a decaying forest and an unconscious runner, like some sort of fucked up version of telephone where he keeps getting the wrong number. the universe keeps guiding fruit towards illu over and over again and fruit isn’t the first person to have been brought here to a dying world but he’s the first to keep coming back of his own free will 

(fruit tells himself that he doesn’t come back to the same worlds, but something stops him, makes him note of his surroundings. there’s a patch of dark, muted colors in the distance and he thinks of the runner being pulled into the depths of the earth. when he finds himself in a familiar forest two, three worlds later, there’s something fond and knowing in the way the birds chirp from their perches) 

and fruit keeps going back to illumina and talks to him, brushes the leaves off his hood and keeps illu from fading away entirely. illumina isn’t entirely conscious of things but he can hear fruit, can see flashes of sunlight, shades of green and the faint impressions of a smile (he has never met this person before. he has known this person all his life). he remembers enough to wake up, eventually, because the universe loves illumina and can’t bear to let him go and fruit grows to care for him too and as long as you care about and remember someone their soul won’t fade away and they will endure. 

illumina wakes up. kinda just takes a while getting used to stuff like having limbs and feeling the dirt under his fingers and breathing. he doesn’t look entirely human (void eyes void eyes void eyes) somewhere in the region of uncanny valley. any wounds he sustains drip ink-black and stardust coats his cheeks. maybe the void had a hold on him for too long or maybe it’s a side effect of being adored by the universe, who knows. possible fruitninja roadtrip montage. they’re bonding your honor. not a SINGLE thought going on behind either of their eyes but they have fun and leave the forest behind. this was the au i was supposed to write about them building a house for. maybe they meet up with the rest of hbg idk havent thought that far

also partially inspired by the post about non-romantic love saving people in fairytales

#ramblings #this is very self-indulgent ngl #had an entire outline for this #might go back to it someday #i was gonna post this in the discord group but it got way too long lol