#I consider this positive tbh

[peeledstrawberry]

Younger me would be so freaking happy about how I turned out. I have pink hair and I study psychology. I initiate conversations with strangers and I talk the most in class now. I lived past 15 and I found words that could describe what was wrong with me.

It really got better :0

#tw vent #?? I think? #vent post #I consider this positive tbh #but also #tw sui ideation #tw sui attempt #??? I've never had to tag this before #anywayyys #I was really actively trying to kms back in ELEMENTARY SCHOOL #the intrusive thoughts were winning I genuinely thought my 4th grade teacher wanted me to die #I can't even tell if that was real or if my anxiety was just so high that I thought everyone was out to get me #and boom #look at me now #!!!!! #completely flipped to ''everyone loves me and nothing bad ever happens to me'' #little me would've been so happy #she was an ok kid fr #wish she knew how to asked for help but eyy she survived and now I'm living #YIPPPEEEE #seyaposting #vent #?? again I've never had to tag for my own vent post tbh #lmk if I missed anything #this was meant to be positive but my brain was really doing things back when I was little

[fumifooms]

Marchil March 2024!

A ship week event for the Dungeon Meshi pairing Marcille x Chilchuck! It will run from Monday the 18th to Sunday the 24th, in about a week.

The themes for the days are:

Explosion / healing

Fairytale / role swap au

Fashion / modern au

Hair / race or species swap au

Teasing / genderbend au

Gifts / date

Free prompt / food

You’re welcome and encouraged to put a twist on the prompts, pick either of them on any given day or mesh them both into the same piece, stick to them as much or as little as you want. For example, the race swap prompt mainly refers to elves, half-foots, etc, but you could just as well use it to draw them as cats if you’d like! There are essentially no rules, this isn’t inktober and there’s no pressure, feel also free to make things for it in advance rather than day to day. This is a ship week, but feel free to depict them in a platonic or queerplatonic way rather than romantic as well! This week is to celebrate them as a duo, and every work is welcomed: fanart, writing, edits, anything. Join the festivities!

Tag your posts for it "marchil march 2024"!

I’ll be hosting it on the @feedmarchil blog, I intend to reblog every piece made for the week there. Ty to Pupucachi for heavily inspiring the first ad card!

#Dungeon meshi #Delicious in dungeon #marchil #More people than i expected are saying they wanna try and participate! Joy~ #And just to be clear marchil is getting a ship week not bc it’s popular but bc i’m stepping up #Repeat after me the lesson that ao3 marchil is teaching us is that continued hard work does build up into something #Some ship positivity in these trying times #Marchil march 2024 #Marchil ship week #Kaboom kerchack #Gonna make a reminder post the day just before it starts too #If there are prompts you’d have liked feel free to send me some and I’ll consider for future events. There are just so many good ones #If u wanna participate everything is optional tbh. Idk do whatev u want we’re here to have fun. Gdbdgdg I’m a bad event host

[daz4i]

i think we should stop making fun of the way ppl dress. saying this as someone who doesn't know shit abt (current) fashion and doesn't want to. all trends are manufactured by corporations you are not better than anyone else for being able to afford keeping up with them. also clothes can be used for self expression and making fun of anyone who dresses in any way that's not the norm is just kind of disney channel school bully behavior of you (that's not even getting into how certain disabilities affect your ability to wear certain clothes so some people literally CAN'T keep up with trends even if they wanted to and could afford it)

#I'd like to consider myself someone who knows abt fashion as a whole more than the average person #but i definitely do not care about its current state. i think it's evil on so many levels. always have tbh #growing up fat and autistic made me immune to this sort of bullshit ✨️ #i have many many thoughts i could write a lengthy and more coherent thing about but also. I'm lazy. maybe some other day #(didn't get into the weight thing or body positivity as a whole nor into the environmental effects of current day's fashion industry) #(like i said. many thoughts and opinions. this post is just a blurb. sorry)

[fayevalcntine]

The whole "Claudia is now his sister"/Louis' sibling comparisons are never gonna sit right with me because that's never going to erase the fact that Claudia exists as a vampire partly because of him. Their relationship will never have this clearly defined role of siblings in the same manner Louis had with Grace or Paul, even if he was their older brother and was implicitly given the role of providing for them as the successor and manager of his family's estate. Because Louis was never responsible in part for their creation, the reason why they existed the way that they do in terms of behavior and life itself.

It also makes his betrayal of her all the more heartbreaking in ways that him and Grace drifting apart never will. He was her father, and didn't provide emotional support for her. She had to turn the tables and try to assume the role of being on an equal level because of this failure but this doesn't make him not choosing her any less painful than it did the first time. Even as they shift roles, take or give emotional responsibility one has towards the other, the fact that Claudia exists the way she does because of him and Lestat will always be there.

#interview with the vampire #claudia #louis de pointe du lac #it's why in a way Lestat's whole 'I am your maker' rant is relevant #not in terms of him trying to keep his veil of control over her #but in terms of how no matter how she tries to shift positions; switch roles #put on the costume of 'sister/companion/mother/knight' #she will always be on a lesser position than him or even Louis #because THEY are her parents #even on a physical level she's technically weaker because she's in the body of a teenager #her given role of daughter will never be shed; especially when both of them took to physically abusing her #and tbh I personally don't like acting as if Claudia having to take on the role of Louis' protector/therapist/sister #is a positive thing in any way #it's basically his own child being forced by circumstances to be the adult #and it's such a fucked up dynamic to me #i'm not saying Louis is responsible for that because he had his own issues and then there's Lestat who acerbates the whole situation #but consider it from Claudia's angle: she keeps Lestat away from Louis for SIX years #then Louis takes him back; and even tells her to get used to it and to try to be more open with her own abuser #all the while Claudia gives him nothing but understanding and time; pleads with him to run away together #i can't even start on how his betrayal of her after the attempted murder is not only the final nail of the coffin #but the only result she gets after emotionally supporting him throughout this entire situation #anyway no offense to anyone that makes Claudia/Grace/Paul edits in relation to Louis #it's just that even without the ep7 reveal the whole thing feels sour to me in episode 6 #because that is very much not his sister/brother protecting him; that's his daughter #Claudia should not have to do this shit on her own; she should not have to assume another role just to be considered seriously #in any way by either Louis or Lestat

[ziskandra]

listen, listen

I know this is gonna be a controversial take, but the more I think about it, the more obsessed I am with the idea of Varric voluntarily helping The Crimson Knight (especially in a worldstate where Hawke was left in the Fade).

I’ve talked before about how I view Meredith as the type of person who is motivated by her desire to protect her own at all costs, and how this leads her down the path of Well-Intentioned Extremism, and culminating in becoming the embodiment of the uh, Knight Templar trope.

And Varric is obviously motivated by his motivation to protect Hawke: he shielded them from the Inquisition, and when push came to shove and he was forced to expose Hawke to the Inquisition anyway, it can result in Hawke’s death. The Inquisition fails Hawke, who is basically Varric’s moral compass — without Hawke’s influence, he defaults to siding with the templars at the end of DA2.

Most of the Inquisitor’s inner circle scatters over Thedas and Varric returns to Kirkwall. Varric loves Kirkwall; he’s a Kirkwaller through and through: even though he’s never envisioned nor wanted a life of politics, he becomes the fucking viscount, because there’s nobody else left who wants one drop of the poisoned chalice of that role.

And Kirkwall is a city that has always been dependent on its templars for protection. They are the city’s military force, and the city is noticeably weaker once the templars abandon it — depending on world state, it can lose a significant portion of its territory to one of Varric’s former companions. If someone he knew and trusted can do that to Kirkwall, who else might take advantage of Kirkwall in its weakened state?

Varric is isolated and alone, away from anyone who might be able to help him see the situation in a different light: his main support network is Aveline and Seneschal Bran, neither of whom are known for their ardent support of mage rights. They’re doing their best to clear Kirkwall of the impacts of the war, of the red lyrium, and even though they’re doing their best to avoid exposure, being around that much red lyrium cannot be healthy. Slowly, the paranoia and increased penchant for violence settle in. It becomes impossible to resist spending more time around the substance — and sometimes, it talks! And it sounds like Meredith Stannard.

Varric is desperate and scared and has lost everyone he has ever loved. The Inquisition has been downsized or disbanded, and his only purpose is to serve his city: the same intention with which Meredith started, the same intention and fears that the red lyrium feeds upon in them both.

Varric fears becoming his parents: people who failed to protect him because they were too caught up in their past mistakes.

But sometimes, as people, in our attempts to avoid our fears, we end up barreling into them headfirst instead.

#do i actually think bioware is gonna give us a varric tethras corruption arc? no #but the narrative parallels are there and i just think they’re neat! #and like i never expected in my wildest dreams that meredith stannard would have actual plot relevance in 2022 so!! #and back when dragon age exodus the da2 expansion was still being considered #varric was meant to die at the end 🤔🤔🤔 #tbh i don’t expect this to crop up in da:d bc there is SO much to cover and doing the writing for a world state with alive pro-mage hawke #would be tricky #but that’s why we have fanfiction #bless transformative fiction for letting us explore endless possibilities outside of the limitations of commercial interests!! #also emo about how both varric and meredith carry so much GRIEF about their families #and grief can cause people to do dangerous things #and when that’s coupled with positions of power …! #this is also tangentially a meta about the intersection of trauma and how power corrupts #thedas is not an environment conducive to healing lol #anyway i will continue to spin these thoughts around like a plate in a microwave #da absolution spoilers #dragon age #meredith stannard #knight commander meredith #varric tethras #dragon age meta #asha meta #asha’s villain manifesto #also warning that the trope links lead to tv tropes lol #bc I’m tired of people acting like fictional characters (vehicles for a narrative) are real people (capable of causing real world harm)

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Something that SEEERIOUSLY isn’t talked about enough among Rodrigue fans is how Rodrigue (almost? or generally) always refers to Dimitri as “Your/His Highness” except in the moment that Dimitri’s life was at risk right in front of Rodrigue and Rodrigue shielded him with his own body.

Rodrigue is always respectful and aware of their stations, but none of that matters when Dimitri is almost killed. Rodrigue reacts emotionally without station in mind, forgetting to refer to him in an “appropriate” manner and reacting instead in a more intimate manner (i.e. using a person’s name instead of their title).

Most people wouldn’t dare to refer to their prince by their first name, but Rodrigue forgets all that the moment Dimtiri is in danger. He follows up that familial intimacy by calling Dimitri “my boy”. In a way it’s like Rodrigue's formalities are just forced expectations that are ingrained into him, because his actual instinct is to refer to Dimitri in a familial way. If he doesn’t have time to think about what he’s saying, it will be Dimitri’s name that he uses because that’s how he truly thinks of Dimitri.

He doesn’t solely view Dimitri as his prince. He views Dimitri as family, and in a setting where royalty exists, it’s so important to the relationship in question when that societal expectation is broken, simply because it tells you exactly what that character thinks of their royalty.

When royalty’s life is in danger, it would even make sense for people to hesitate because if they do anything, they might also be in danger and generally humans instinctually prioritize their own life (even if they do really want to step in to help). That typically is not the case with humans regarding loved ones, where that instinct instead changes to an instinct where they automatically step in to protect people dear to them - especially parents to their children. Parents - not just in humans but in most forms of life (cats, dogs, etc) - are extremely protective of their children and react without a second - even a first - thought, because it’s not a thought at all when they see their children in danger. It’s a base reaction.

Rodrigue wasn’t witnessing his prince being attacked. He was witnessing his son being attacked, and he reacted as a father would - not as a knight, a vassal or anyone under Dimitri’s station and how they would be expected to react to protect him. Dimitri didn’t have to be his blood son for him to react the same way a blood parent would. Dimitri wasn’t born to him but he was Rodrigue’s son all the same and he couldn’t accept his boy being harmed.

I love that his reaction is exactly the same as what Lambert would have done. I love that in that one moment when he didn’t have time to think about his word choice, such important stations meant absolutely nothing to him. I love that what was important to him was Dimitri the person, and not Dimitri the prince. I love that at the very end, he died knowing his boy was safe and alive. I love that, when he starts reusing “Your Highness”, it’s only after the immediate danger has passed and he has time to actually process his word choice again, because it really drives home how quickly and thoughtlessly he reacted to seeing Dimitri in danger when he dropped formalities to use his first name.

He also didn’t tell him to live for the people or live because he was a prince. He wanted Dimitri to remember to live for himself and likely died with the hope that those being his last words would be taken much more heavily and sincerely, and give Dimitri a lot to think about in regard to caring for himself as a person and not just seeing himself as a prince/future king, because Rodrigue also saw him as a person.

Not only did Rodrigue protect his son (which mind you must have been extremely important to him after already losing a son. Can you imagine how devastated he would be to lose another child? This time he saved a son from death, which he was unable to do previously and he wasn’t present to be able to even try), but he gave Dimitri the thing Dimitri desired the most from those he loved: he treated Dimitri like a regular person who needed to live his own life for himself, and in the single most critical moment to Rodrigue, forgot to use titles and formalities and openly expressed his true feelings just by using Dimitri’s name alone.

Dimitri never liked all those stuffy behaviors and titles. He just wanted to be a person. Rodrigue, his family, gave him that at Rodrigue’s very end, explicitly informing Dimitri that was how this man always thought of him just from that one moment of Rodrigue’s feelings slipping through. He was always keeping up appearances, but Dimitri was always just Dimitri to him.

Also, Rodrigue says “please tell me it wasn’t in vain”. Remember, Rodrigue’s son died in vain. Glenn didn’t actually get to protect Dimitri. Earlier, Rodrigue stated that Dimitri’s injuries left him on the verge of death. Glenn didn’t die protecting him. Glenn died in a tragedy. Nothing Glenn did that day that led to his death actually helped Dimitri survive. Dimitri survived because Gilbert found him in time.

Rodrigue knows that and doesn’t want another person dear to Dimitri to die a death that didn’t need to happen. He also doesn’t want it to be in vain because if it was, he would have died being unable to protect his son. Rodrigue “died for what he believed in”, but he died because he thoughtlessly, without hesitation, died to save his son. He believed in Dimitri, but he also believed Dimitri to be his child as much as Glenn and Felix ever were.

Even though Glenn did die in vain, he attempted to die keeping his best friend alive. He believed in his best friend, just like Lambert believed in his son to be able to saved if he ever went astray.

Before Rodrigue dies, he last thoughts are of Lambert, but also his promise to Lambert, which was about Dimtiri.

Rodrigue was always thinking of his family throughout the whole game (literally, he brings up Felix to Byleth regularly and brings up Glenn throughout the story as well), and that extended to Lambert and Dimtiri. At the very last, he literally died like he lived, and that was for his family.

#DCB Comments #Rodrigue #Rodrigue Achille Fraldarius #I just love that Rodrigue wasn't living solely as the right hand of a king #It wasn't about who was in power that he acted like he did for them #If you notice too he never really talks about Rufus as if he simply doesn't care for him either way #Rufus is still part of the royal family but he doesn't get the same treatment from Rodrigue as Lambert and Dimitri #It's not about ''they're my king and prince''. It's not about being in a slightly lesser station than them that he saved Dimitri #For him it was always about family first and his position after even if HE himself didn't realize that #If Rufus was about to die would Rodrigue die for him? Probably not. He may be a royal but if Rodrigue died for him #he couldn't be alive to watch over the people he actually cares about. Say Rufus was about to die but Lambert and Dimitri weren't even there #Here he wouldn't even have a choice to make of ''do I die for Rufus or live for them''. I think he simply just... wouldn't do it #He might /fight/ to keep him alive but I don't think he would shield Rufus with his own body. That line of thinking makes me think #that again it's not about status. It's about who he considers family and who is important to him just like any other person would react #It's bc he loves those two that he behaves the way he does and does what he does for them. I think if he didn't love the people in power #he wouldn't treat them like he does simply bc they're in power. I think he only treats him like he does bc of affection #Like I really think if Rodrigue had to choose between Faerghus or Dimitri and/or Lambert that he'd pick those two over #Faerghus itself bc tbh Rodrigue is really just like anyone else. He has priorities preferences and biases #I ofc think he'd be torn abt it but I think he'd ultimately choose people he sees as family over anything else #i love you rodrigue achille fraldarius

[prolibytherium]

Guy at my job has a one sided beef with me and now my emails are a war zone. Trench warfare in the emails. Fire and screaming and etc.

#I mean I don’t like him either but I have not been the one firing the shots #I’ve been specifically told not to respond and let my bosses handle it but he has a tendency to show up and #corner me in half hour long one sided conversations so I’m living in fear of that now #Basically dude is a massive overachiever and constantly takes on extra work that literally No One is asking him to #do nor is he getting paid for and he’s decided that everyone else (especially me) is lazy for #just doing our actual jobs and not reacting positively when he delegates work to us (he is not our boss) #Like if I breathe wrong he’s sending emails about it but on the rare occasion where I have to note that #he has left some work unfinished (as I am required to do) he acts like he is under fucking attack #It’s really stressing me out tbh #Like my boss is on my side and his behavior is considered inappropriate but like given he’s a company bootlicker who #goes above and beyond for the same pay while I just Do My Fucking Job #He’s definitely of more value to them as a worker than I am

[its-tea-time-darling]

my roommate has a girl he‘s started to date, and his room has a common wall with mine and i did hear them have sex on the first date they had at our place and now, tumblr fam, im gonna be honest im terrified of what the future will bring regarding sex noises 😭😭😭😭

#im like. not judging him for having sex in the first place good for him im happy for him #but i‘ve just only ever been in the other position so this is a first and tbh im just. not very excited about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i’ll probably uh #get used to it??? #idk #but right now im despairing and feeling terribly sorry for myself 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #txt #cry cry cry #i never considered how lucky i was for him not having brought home any girl EVER during the more than 2 years i‘ve lived with hi #m #but again i am happy for him #just not necessarily for myself nyehdbdhdndhendjns

[ectonurites]

Coming off Tim's Sixteenth birthday arc is so funny to me like- Robin 120: Batman is a terrible, abusive person and the only reason Tim doesn't cut him off right now is because he knows he'd loose all of the friends and family he'd made as robin in the process. Robin 121: And then he makes him go to bed on time- and then the next day he has him do his homework- and the worst thing Tim can imagine from him is his disappointed dad face <3 Like yea I do heavily prefer the latter and will accept the jarring as hell transition if it gets me out of the former faster but gosh golly is that some narrative whiplash

LMAO YEAH. YEAH. what a switch over of writers does to the General Vibe And Narrative of a book is so fucking funny sometimes

#tbh overall i far prefer the lewis run to the willingham run BUT the last arc is definitely the low point of it #because the. i guess the complicated problem for me is that i think at core Bruce should not be portrayed as a bad person like that #HOWEVER. it's not like that story was the first time. and if it had had a different ending where it became a more... teachable moment #for Bruce about how he can't prioritize the mission and training above like These Individuals Who Are His Family #then it would have been sooo much better. but considering everything was a) gearing up for War Games where Bruce was going to #continue to do assholish things and b) it was the end of a run so the arc needed to be tied up quickly #it just wasn't in the cards. #but the earlier arcs of lewis' run i just. so near and dear to me. just like a lot of Fun and some utterly heartbreaking steph stuff #that is like getting punched in the face (positive) for me personally. so im willing to forgive the birthday mess #vs willingham's run overall is just a far less enjoyable read to me outside of like the batgirl crossover/the early blüd days

[viksalos]

reading up on autism to figure out what the fuck is going on with me and making a list of personal pros and cons to figure out whether i should feel good or bad about it. as one does

pros: hyperlexia, deeply compassionate, talent for mathematics and the sciences/can do calculations of reasonable complexity in my head, visual hypersensitivity/decent artistic ability when replicating from still life/good at distinguishing subtle colors, acute hearing/good at identifying distinct sounds and sonic textures/deeply moved by music, can rotate some shapes in my head really fast i guess

cons: people can tell something is "off" about me in a fraction of a second and will be anywhere from begrudgingly polite to overtly hostile about it, terminal "not like other girls" disease/feeling of disconnect with existing in a feminine body, can pace for hours on end until my legs hurt, frequent crying & shutdowns, talk about myself and my interests extensively and can't seem to find a way to stop or better relate to others outside of mirroring them, productive work that actually *utilizes* my talents seems to only happen in increasingly infrequent bursts of hyperfocus, recurring identity issues stemming from a fundamental feeling of being born wrong and belonging nowhere, visceral hypersensitivity means i'm in pain from the normal functioning of my own organs for most of the day, people have compared me to sheldon cooper and elon musk, i am constantly begging for the sweet release of death,

#text #hmm. this post was funnier in my head #to be clear i am not one of those ''aut1sm is a superpower'' people and i'm aware that my ''gifts'' afford me significant privilege #but they also used to be things i liked about myself even when i was depressed #now that i'm anywhere from 3-5 yrs into burnout and can't rly *access* my gifts in the capacity i used to be able to anymore #it's rly hard to be positive about things. lol #i used to think that if people were going to think i was weird forever that i should at least be useful #which may not be possible to the degree it once was. and i realize was also a damaging and unhelpful mindset to begin with #tbh i'm rly jealous of the zoomers who seem to have more knowledge about/be more accepting of this stuff. #i think i was just in denial for years. but after looking into it more i'm more certain i'm aut1stic than i've been of anything in my life #which is significant considering the; yknow; identity issues. lol #it's kind of hilarious how many of my old text posts just scream ''undiagnosed aut1stic burnout'' in retrospect #sorry for all the behaviors and stuff. i love my mutuals but i think i have to be on this website less #while i figure my stuff out. i'll still check in but not as often #feel free to reach out in the meantime. i already miss a lot of my friends i lost contact with while going thru it <3 #wow these tags got away from me. ok bye

[zvaigzdelasas]

I don’t have a tumblr, I just lurk blogs I find interesting. Not joking. Don’t know why you are responding in this way, if I am honest.

Tumblr allows that?? that's so funny

#not trying to respond in any way tbh 🤷‍♀️ #think youre too focused on treating the agencies as subjective actors themselves #vs as organs of a larger body #like. what interests are being served by congress holding the hearings in the first place #theres factional struggles between those who want to hollow out the state and privatize everything #but i think its also naive to consider that privatization as purely economic instead of as always-already political #Private monopoly power is useful specifically because its actions are *necessarily* political #monopolies are more 'real' economic actors than near anyone else - monopolies (incl cartels) r agents making choices for the whole market #but i also dont know anything abt ur positions since you seem to both want to not be on this website while also on it? #just join us man #water doesnt bite

[dazais-guardian-angel]

something I’ve been thinking about lately is that, if Fukuzawa really does eventually die, and we get the Ranpo breakdown/corruption arc like the new op might be hinting at....... I really hope Mushitarou is a key person who can bring Ranpo back from his senses/save him. Considering that the perfect crime arc was when Ranpo’s Fyodor parallels were first shown, and Mushi’s arc is all about him learning to overcome grief..... I think it just makes sense in a lot of ways, and that it would be really moving to see Mushi try to help Ranpo overcome his loss, after how Ranpo initially helped him

#bungou stray dogs #......or maybe i really really just want Mushi back okay #but considering how much Asagiri loves him....... I think this is a possibility #yeah I know Yosano and Poe probably make more sense for people who could/should save Ranpo #but Mushi would understand........ he's already been put with Ango to empathize with him and now I want to see the same with Ranpo #Yosano would be just as much of a mess if Fukuzawa died tbh so I don't think she'd be in any position to save Ranpo at least not right away #and personally I want her character to have an emotional conclusion with Tachihara instead but that's just me #as for Poe........ yeah idk. I want Poe development and I think this would be an opportunity for him to realize Ranpo isn't perfect #but he wouldn't really be in a position to do much imo #that leaves Mushi as the perfect candidate in my eyes

[deus-ex-mona]

man.

something midosena never prepared me for was just how comfortable the train seats are

#like. no joke. most (if not all) of them are soft!!!! carpeted!!!!! and comfy!!!!!!!! #and that’s just the regular seats!!!!! the special reserved seats are forward facing and!!!! they even have those little seat tray tables!!! #[insert home country]’s train seats are ruined for me now wtf i used to think that the wide new plastic seats were the best seats ever and— #and the structure of the train is p. great too ngl~~~~ like the seats are positioned a little ways back from the side divider thing #so there’s tons of standing space if you’re unlucky enough to not get a seat #but maybe that’s just my perspective bc the train cabins seem wider than [insert country]’s so maybe i’m too used to the cramped cabins idk #but g o d yes i understand you now midori the seat at the extreme end is the best most comfy seat ever fr #though!!!! another thing that made me 👁️👄👁️ about these trains is that!!!! eating and drinking (on trains) is not prohibited????? #like man. you’d get fined and get photographed + tabloidified in [insert country] if you did that here.. #(if you get caught by some weird nitpicker who can’t mind their own business that is.) #but train exchanges are kinda complicated. ye a h. ig that’s one thing i miss about [insert country]’s trains. aside from the train fares. #m a n. train fares are so high here. bus fares too tbh. 170 yen for just two stops and all that.. #but!!!! the seats are comfy so they get a pass from me~~~~~~~~~ #the buses are tiny and cute thoughhhhh. but the boarding/alighting/fare system caught me off guard. ig i’m too spoiled by [insert country] #all things considered…. it was a really fun trip~~~~~ would’ve been better if i didn’t fall sick right off the bat though lmao #anyways!!!!!! happy kinyoubi my dudes~~~~~~~ #inedible blubbering

[ratzmatazz]

truly the only thing that matters in this world is trans people finding community,,,, a person I knew for 3 months on a farm gave me a tip for wearing a binder that I still use daily, a friend of mine who took my deadname as her own helped me clean my depression room and gave me the realization I wanted to start hormones, an older camp counselor pulled me aside to chat about dysphoria and reassure me about my future ... the loveliest form of care is finding people on the same wavelength as you and sharing in the communion of transformation and realization.

#transgender #trans positivity #t4t #trans pride #feel free to share yr own moments I would like the positivity tbh considering the post flooding my notes rn is just a terf blocklist atp #the lovely thing also with writing this post is realizing I had so many experiences to draw on #love being in a place where I'm surrounded by friends

[the-annotated-antichrist]

Hey, hello, buddy. I would like to ask you something. It turns out that I really liked the song "Who's your God?" from Therion, but not being an English speaker, it's hard for me to understand the lyrics. I would like to sing it, but it is impossible for me. Do you manage to know the complete lyrics of the song?

I wish! Lori's singing is pretty hard to understand in the bootlegs we have. I tried my best to transcribe the text, but her parts are tough. Also some words or lines are different in different versions:

All: Who's your only god? Tell me, who is he? I have seen the darkness inside. Lori: [sings something, I find it impossible to understand] Thomas: I am the one The one and only Who'll bring the darkness back into the light OR (in some versions): Who has the darkness inside of my heart Lori: [Sings something, I THINK she's saying "You think your rule will bring a brighter day", but I'm not sure] But I can see you will [take OR lead] us into darkness Linnea: Is he the [dark god OR darkness]? Is he the Antichrist? All: Who's your god? And what is his name?

Hope this helps a little, I would love to know the complete lyrics too, but this is all I could make out.

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