#I couldnt ask for anyone better

[theclosetedskeleton]

WHOLESOME POSTING STARTS NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333333

#you dont get how much i wanna explode right now #/VVVVPOS #i dont wanna go rest because i need to feel this joy and whimsy #hmmmm!!!!!!!!!! i really wonder who is the cause of this !!!!!!! #you guys will never guess (camera pans to my qpp) #!!!!!!!!!!! #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH <3333333/GEN/QP #EVERYTHING. about my qpp is PERFECT #“but--” your argument is instantly rejected. Why? because its WRONG!!!! MY QPP IS SO AMAZING AND PERFECT AND WONDERFUL AND AND #THE LOVELIEST PERSON ALIVE IS MY QPP???? HOWWW <333 #HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY #i feel like that one person trapped and then my qpp is just that one mercy angel image DO YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABT #LIKE THERES 8 BILLION PEOPLE OUT THERE. ME??? #I couldnt ask for anyone better #because NOBODY is better than my qpp <33333 #I have never wanted to shake and smile and grin and bounce off the walls because of someone before meeting it i guess thats saying a lot #guys i literally STIMMED thinking abt my qpp <3333 #jarvis show me how i can give all of my love and more to this lovely person #its 12am and instead of sleeping or studying for a test i have in 8 hours I am filled to the brim with sappiness #no WONDER music artists write about love all the time <333 #/qp #/gen #closet rambles again on tumblr #<333333

[skunkes]

the way I've been raised has shown itself in a recent awful experience I had and the realization won't leave me because I'm not sure what to do about it.

I don't like feeling anger/upset and it's rare for me to feel it anyway but it's led to me being unable to tell what's worth getting upset over anymore. If my wants upset somebody, then, well, maybe I shouldn't have them? What is so serious that I need it to go completely my way...? What desires am I allowed to have. It's not that serious, it's okay if not, you can't always get what you want....

every time I feel Upset I am later wracked with guilt because it wasn't a big deal and I was just being selfish... What IS a big deal then? How can I tell? Its admittedly never a big deal... But I keep being upset. And stepped on....

#talkys #this is what led to me Staying for as long as i did #there would be issues but if I brought them up i wld then be made to feel guilty for feeling that way #but i cant reverse that bc well!! its true like is it really a big deal? life isnt that serious I dont need to get upset... #i get upset at something my parents do and in the end i feel ungrateful and selfish #i really cant tell anymore which is why i Stayed as mentioned above #in the sense of well yeah the way im being treated doesnt make me feel good but why do i need to feel good? #isnt that selfish...isnt that asking too much...isnt that making yourself out to be Better Than... #i really dont know. i get so ready to give up my position on anything because I dont want to be selfish #and because im no better than anyone else #my mom caused some drama on my birthday wrt my sister's family and it led to me not being able to go to the duck #pond on my birthday... which is the only thing i really wanted to do on an otherwise uneventful day #i was meant to feel shame abt it because well we can always go any other day!!! relax!!! #and it is true....! #we can go any other day why did i get upset? its not that serious...nothing is that serious...i feel so guilty + spoiled + selfish #i just felt humiliated for wanting to go in the first place. and for getting upset that we couldnt go. like a toddler. #*not that i actually get Toddler Level upset...but it always Feels like i did...ykwim #i just dont understand......idk if i can Repair this....

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[martyrbat]

the man who falls – secret origins (1989)

[ID: Two cropped comic pages of Bruce Wayne as a child after falling into a cave and being ambushed by a swarm of bats. There's multiple narration boxes over the pages:

Page One: a three panel sequence of Bruce being rescued by his father. In the first panel, Bruce is screaming with his eyes squeezed shut in fear. He has his fists clenched in front of him and is wearing a reddish pink turtleneck sweater. The narration says, ‘Again, he shrieked — not in terror, but in despair...’ In the second panel, Thomas Wayne is shown from behind in a low angle. He's wearing a red sweater similar to Bruce and is holding a flashlight as he jerks Bruce into him. Above them is bats surrounding them and the broken wood floors that Bruce fell through. The narration continues, ‘The arm curled around him, muffling his voice, and his cheek rubbed against the rough wool of his father's jacket... He squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself to be away from here—’. In the third panel, they're standing outside. The narration reads, ‘When he opened them, he was in the area behind the mansion, in the pale light of the autumn afternoon, and his father's words pounded at him—’. Thomas is kneeling down in front of Bruce in front of the hole he fell in. He's gripping the child's shoulders as he scolds him, “Idiot! I told you never, never to go off alone. Didn't I? Didn't I?” Martha Wayne is behind them with her hand on the side of her face as she looks at them with relief that Bruce is okay.

Page Two: Martha is defending Bruce as Bruce has his head down. Thomas is still squeezing Bruce's shoulders as Martha tells him, “Thomas, he's frightened.” Thomas replies, “He damn well ought to be. He could have been killed.” Martha replaces Thomas's spot in front of Bruce, kneeling to gently place a hand on his upper arm and using a handkerchief to wipe his forehead. Bruce is standing with his fist still clenched and grimacing as Thomas angrily says, “He's got to learn.” Bruce is shown in a low angle, looking up at his mother with wide eyes. The narration continues, ‘He listened to his father's boots crushing the dead grass, and when he could no longer hear them, he dared to ask:’ “Mommy, was I in hell?” Martha soothes, “No, baby, that was just some old cave. You're safe now,” as she hugs him. His cheek is pressed against hers and she has her eyes closed as Bruce still looks uncertain. END ID]

#once again pushing my 'thomas wayne was a piece of shit' propaganda #tied in with the panel of him hitting bruce #and then the alt timeline where they live and martha expresses concern that her eight year old has an obsession with criminology now #and stopped being talkative or wanting to see some train (his special interest) and thomas says good and that it was worth the scare #and ! being autistic. for me when im emotional all sound is so much louder and more overwhelming #the fact that he waited until he couldnt hear his father walking away before asking his mother if he was in hell.... #and being no older than 8 and still waiting. just tensed and taking the verbal lashing and them fighting before speaking up?? yeah. #also think it'll be interesting in the 'bruce is constantly seeing the best in people even shitty people that dont 'deserve' a second #chance or for someone to fully believe they can change. that you do bad things but aren't a bad person. that you can do good and not #be a good person. that its making a choice and that anyone can choose and decide to do better than they were yesterday' #sorta deal yknow? #just the conditioning of forgiveness for something theyre not sorry for and wanting to believe everyone is capable of being good #that traumatized 'mommy was i in hell' like god sorry brucie for the trauma but itll have a payoff in a decade or so trust me kid #also martha?? love her. hes the biggest mama's boy you cant change my mind. #bruce wayne #thomas wayne #martha wayne #baby brucie #crypt's panels #c: secret origins | the man who falls #bruce & martha #bruce's childhood

[periwinkle-the-11th]

Plsplsplsplsplspls

#for anyone who doesnt know you pretty much just leave a little message and it saves as a decoration on the tree #and i get to open and read them all on Christmas #ask game #kinda #not really but i couldnt think of a better tag lol #peri personal

[caffeinatedopossum]

Ok so apparently it's not normal that whenever someone goes to a restaurant and I'm with them, I expect them to get just themselves food and then we leave. Like if you get me food or ask if I want anything I will in fact look at you like you're a stranger who just walked up and offered me a 100 dollar bill

#what can i say im just used to getting nothing #both my parents and my older sisters would go to get food and basically never get me anything #if i did get anything it also wasnt 'what do you want' it was 'heres what im getting you youre welcome' #lol and i was okay with that? guys. guys am i supposed to raise my standards #is this like. am i not respecting myself enough #like this is me having gottwn much better too. i used to be even worse #if i went to your house and you let me sleep on something that wasnt the floor i would stare at yoy in shock #i was mentally incapable of comprehending that i could get whatever i wanted off of a menu #one time my friends mom actually yelled at me because she took me to dunk8n donuts and asked what i wanted #and i froze up so bad that i just couldnt say anything because i didnt know what she meant #i was like 'oh you dont need to get me anything' 😭😭 and she INSISTED she had to get me something #for context i mustve been like 9 and i had NEVER had anyone ask my what i wanted before #i also was so prepared to just skip breakfast due to the anxiety of this situation #turns out having kids skip breakfast is also not super normal? me and my sisters usually wouldnt eat breakfast #especially on sunday mornings before church because there was snacks there

[skeletalheartattack]

i did an insane deep dive into why the last tf2 comic never launched and im pretty sure its for a fairly mundane reason - the artist and the writers ended up all getting too busy with other projects. this is at least what theyve said publicly. the artist has a blog on here she doesnt really post much on anymore but i cant recall the url at the moment. sadly the fact that the creatives all got too sucked in2 other projs is the most Valve reason ive heard for the the tf2 comic staying unfinished

yeah no that lines up, similar to how TF2s core dev team split off into working on stuff like Dota 2 after MVM shipped or so. it honestly makes me really sad to realize that even devs have burnout on such a scale within a company like valve. i definitely get why it happens, TF2 is their oldest actively supported multiplayer game, it's hard to keep motivated when this game's been running hard since 2007.

#ask #anon #(also i mean actively supported as in valve still push content updates to it) #legitimately it makes me so sad. ive grown up with TF2 for a lot of my life and it makes me sad to know we probably wont see certain things #and all the leaks from the dev repo as of late cant make anyones motivation over there any better i feel #it really sucks honestly #i dream a lot about tf2 stuff. from content updates to maps and weapons #or i mean like sleep dreams #''would you be excited for a TF3?'' i dont think you can recreate what TF2 had and make something better #like. i dont feel like you could ever encapsulate the magic of what TF2 is. in its artstyle. its humor. its gameplay. #hell theres not much you can improve upon with TF2. so making a sequel is like making overwatch 2 #but i do think its nice that community support for the game is still strong. like maps and custom tf2 mods and sfuff like that. #so im gonna leave my tags on that positive note #thank you for the research anon. i think i set my hopes a little too high in expecting it couldnt release because of a content patch #maybe someday that burnout will fade and well see issue 7 some day

[dodecademons]

Sorry not sorry I watched Warrior Nun again. William Miller being so active with the fans and what not got me thinking about Adriel again. Becaaaause was he the villain we thought he was? Sure he was tricking people into getting possessed by wraiths. Sure he killed some people. He is bad. Fact. Morally grey man. But he was enslaved (pretty sure he mentioned that) and kinda had to serve Reya without a choice. It isn't heaven or hell, it's some third thing. Reya though, had a child get transported into her land, saw the divinium in him and decided to make him a walking bomb. Trained him so he could take punches, not necessarily fight back, (as seen per Ava and Beatrice intervening, he can fight but he needs help) and told him the only way to win was to sacrifice himself. Also told him, and Ava, that the only way to end Adriel was to sacrifice themselves and there was no other way. Idk sounds pretty convenient to me. Three powerful beings carrying some sort of power from the other dimension (world?) and Reya's only goal is to get rid of Adriel and the only way to do that is full charge sacrifice two people who also have power from that world? Turns out it didn't work, so Reya was wrong anyway. Reya also kind of just stood and watched as Ava was fighting to defeat Adriel and once she realized the divinum bomb didnt work, one down, and the tarasks did their job, two down, Reya was like "as a treat you can have your dying breaths be with your gf" because she knew Ava couldnt heal from the divinium shards, three down. IDK REYA YOU SURE DO ACT PRETTY HUMAN HUH, all this "Reya is so powerful, she is everything" talk and she sure didn't do all that much except manipulate some people huh. I mean, Adriel got away, he almost won. Just saying.

#netflix give me season 3 now #I'm asking for the bare minimum here just season 3 so we can close the story #these thoughts probably because I'm back on my dragon age hype #a powerful being that people say is a god but turns out they enslave those who dont know better and punish those who stray only for a #random mortal to find out they werent a god at all and just a really powerful person who made sure others couldnt be as powerful as them #thus shattering the religion and worship that revolved around said false god and the false god was planning something behind it all #anyway #give me ava and beatrice thank you #also anyone losing hope about a season 3 #have hope because there are lots of people fighting for the show and it might not happen right away but the louder you are the more likely #it will actually happen #some shows got renewed years after it was cancelled it's been like 4 days or something and the fandom is already half way there #the cinematography and score alone is enough for me to want more let alone the cast and crew doing the mostest for us #warrior nun #adriel is bad but so is reya #i said it oop #this is how i cope

[cosmicseaslugs]

I know a while back you made a post with how you thought villain!13 would go down and one was she got like disillusioned and turned. How do you think the other teachers would react to their friend/coworker becoming a villain

There's a general sense of shock when they see the news: Space Hero, the rescue hero, Thirteen has killed someone. The teachers sit at the conference table, eyes glued to either the TV screen at the front of the room or at Thirteen's empty chair. Unease permeates every centimeter of the room, and no one knows what to say.

To an extent, they think they can understand. The villain she felled had done nothing but kill and abuse their power for the past two years, not even sparing the lives of children who crossed their path. Or maybe, maybe it was just an accident. Her quirk was dangerous and hard to control at the best of times; how easy it would be for her to make a mistake, for the villain to have gotten to close, for her quirk to misfire, for her to cause irreparable harm.

But then, why hadn't she come in that day? Or called? Or spoken to the authorities?

Thirteen had run, and in a few more days, she'd kill again, this time with unmistakable purpose.

She'd protect civilian lives no matter what the cost.

#mha thirteen #ask #i think aizawa mic and midnight understand better than anyone else #they dont exactly agree #but her motives are clear and her targets are always the villains who would hang at a trial anyway #thirteen is just serving justice the fast and messy way now but also the way that will put her on death row too #i think thats the part that scares them most #maybe second only to the fact that it was thirteen of all people to change sides #their gentle and kind friend who always insited on doing what was right #their friend who couldnt even lie to them #who was scared of breaking even tiny rules #who worried even the gentlest of pranks were too much to pull on people #and who sometimes cried over plants #and now the national news is telling them That Thirteen is killing in cold blood and breaking more laws than they can count on two hands #if it werent for the murder i think several of the teachers would even condone the behavior in secret #theyre all furious about the state of things with the commission #and a few of them even think faintly that the murder is deserved but are afraid to say it in fear of being written off as an accomplice #that said tho. if 13 showed up on any of their doorsteps hurt and in need of a place to hide. very very few of them would actually refuse #and none of them would report her when all was said and done #even if morally they really want to

[elirluna]

im being such a fucking crybaby i need to get my shit together so that i can study for my exams tomorrow WHICH actually thinking about makes me feel even more miserable

#i cant stop sobbing #if anyone asked why i couldnt even be able to explain it #i facetimed my mom hoping it would make me feel better but she asked if i cried and i said no #and then she said she would hop on a plane if i wanted to #and i think it just made me feel worse

[echo-s-land]

Someone told me that he 'like hanging around with me' and he 'love my smile' today

#years after my birth im finally finding out the genuine joy of making friends #also relief. ive got so used for my mere existence to be an annoyance to other people as a child so its so important to me when people say #they like to have me around #had to turn down a very big socialization opportunity bc i was hungry and i couldnt come with him - will try to make up for it next time #what he said was totally platonic btw hes gay and im not a man #he also told me 'when i first met you i thought you were trans' and the urge i felt to come out to him and say 'YES ACTUALLY (but also here #the nuances:') but it came out of nowhere and there were bystanders so i didnt want to risk it and just. 'honestly im not sure' was the bes #half-truth half-lie i could muster #but hey he made me comfortable with coming out to him so one day perhaps #gosh i wish im not going to mess up this newly forming friendship (?) with my little to non-existent social skills #man also has the same dumb humor as me. i have to find a way to keep him around #my mom would burst into tears if she knew how much i smile talk and am open around him. not my fault he is a person whom you naturally feel #safe around #normally people ask me if im 'angry/pissed/annoyed/sad' because i have a resting bitch face and dont talk much to anyone #the surprise people must feel once they get to know me better.. granted i cant name any but whatever lol

[sinha-ri]

How would you decribe white middle class mentality?

White middle class truly believe in working hard will get you a good life, but because most are born into middle class it ..kinda holds no merit. Many are born with a home their parents own and they can inherent. They believe studying hard is all they need for a good school, because they don't need to worry about being unable to financially afford school or pay back loans. It's why they're accepted to private schools most often, because they can afford to.

Essentially, because their dreams aren't out of reach but they weren't born millionaires, their "work hard" mentality and seeing book studying, time for community service, and being able to go through college without a job is easy and a must for success.

As someone who is first gen from an immigrant family living in California, I don't resent white middle class. But I am aware many of their ideals are based on their own easy experience that cannot be applied to anyone who isn't white middle class. They are ones who just don't get that memo, that their work and experience cannot work on everyone and least of all to those of working or low class.

#ask #as someone of poc i feel like its an unpopular opinion to not hate white people just for being them lol #everyone is capable of ignorance due to how they were raised and no one chooses how they were raised and taught #i hate them persay but i am fully aware snd think they should be too of their privilege #because this country was started by white people wanting a better life for themselves #so it benefits anyone who is white to live here #as opposed to someone who is poc and has to deal with no guarantees in my life #i had to reject art schools that accepted me because i just couldnt afford it #this country and state arent meant for me but for the middle class that is prominently white

[spacebugarts]

Leaf was separated from the party for a while and tonight we FINALLY got our reunion which means the party finally found out that they met Snod (snail god that gave them cool fire powers :3)

#snod has been a meme in our party ooc for so long when i met them i was So Stoked #but I needed to keep it quiet for ~suspense~ #mostly tho just bc I thought itd make the reveal even better #i thought it was a joke at first too lol #but finally Leaf got to see their friends again and i couldnt keep it to myself much longer abdjsbsjb #so they asked if anyone knew anything about a snail god and now everyone knows... #snod real #dnd 5e #dnd #dnd stuff #hiraeth campaign #leaf greenfoot #marshmall-ocs #snod time bbyyyy

[daechwitamv]

story time with sari 😀

#im working on my CV rn and it made me rmb my first job at uni and how it ended and oh god why #i had to quit bc my mental health was so fucking shitty i couldnt deal with the work load so i went to one of my colleagues whos- #responsible for us student workers and i told him i had to quit and he asked why and i said bc of my health bc i cant lie but also didnt- #wanna tell the full truth and he very carefully asked whats wrong and i said i didnt wanna talk abt it was so awkward #AND THEN #at the time he wasnt only a phd student but also doing his psychotherapy training (insane man) and he happened to work at the practice- #where i went to get therapy at the time so basically what happened was that i sat in the waiting area and suddenly he comes walking around- #the corner and we just look at each other like 👁👄👁 #and he left bc he was with a client but ten minutes later he came back super nervous and reassured me that hes under- #patient therapist confidentiality and that he wont tell anyone at work that he saw me there etc etc and it was NICE #but it was also . such a weird situation and my lil anxious mind was like well at least he knows i wasnt fucking lying ! #why would he think that in the first place but oh well dhjdjdk #anyways i just got reminded of this bc i read the certificate i got from working there and it said i quit out of my own choice hdjdj #ah memories #also reminded me how im in a much better place now mentally which is nice bc i felt rock bottom yesterday lmao #okay story time with sari is over i gotta get back to writing that CV

[combeauferre]

opening my messages with my bf in the morning and seeing all the cute good night messages from the night before is just. god i love him so much

#i rly never thought after all this time id have someone who still wants to be sappy and cute and all that shit #and he does and it's just 💝💓🩷💓💝💞 #he's so sweet and so cute and i literally couldnt ask for anyone better #i am so fucking in love with him #ollie has a life

[strwbrymlkshake]

I feel like there's an obsession in me waiting to burst out, but so many horrible things have happened due to that, it's rotting in there. I'm worried.

#mine #yandere #yandere vent #im not even sure if i WANT to be obsessed. its all clouded up in my head nothing makes sense #like my immediate obsessions have migrated from all of them being romance to all of them being plain admiration #which is way way way way WAY better because then no one will think its as creepy. im not a creep. for the love of god #he was such a fucking liar. made me feel safe and then ripped everything out from under me. #OK ANYWAYS thats not the point of this post . i literally cannot tell what my feelings for anyone are anymore. i cant differentiate them #im just waiting for someone to ask me if i Like Him because ive been acting so attached to him but i couldnt give a straight answer. #i dont even know ! yes this vent is caused by a minor inconvenience. ok well its technically bc i wouldnt be able to hang out w him #i dont fucking want to be dependent on him i dont want him to influence my emotions this shit has happened so often it has to be over #still thinking abt the 'you think hes in love with you?? he doesnt even like you' post 💀 #i dont know what my feelings ARE but i know theyre bad ausuaufjfjf i dont wanna be overbearing #im 'less annoying' in the sense i try to barely message him at all. like he doesnt care lol. he probably values me as a friend ig #not sure why im so torn up over this. i doubt we are compatible in the first place but i have the horrible obsession again #i dont feel a particularly strong emotional connection to him ig. like he is nice he is fine but im not insane yandere abt it #more just distressed dere about it –_– i mainly just want him to talk to me and tell me about stuff like thats IT #just respond to my annoying questions. its so sad that im desperate for the bare minimum :/ #genuinely dont know if its a romantic attachment? i feel wrong if i imagine stuff like that. i dont want to be thought of as a freak again #i just want everyone to feel sorry for me!? but no one is gonna wanna hang out with me if im begging for sympathy all the time !!! #i just like his voice and his vocabulary etc a funny guy . but hes my friend so i feel fuckin dirty imagining even mildly romantic things #last time i did that i got called a creep <3 im physically unable to think of that anymore! it feels so disgusting! #im happy because i wont have delusional one sided romances anymore but also upset at the fact i cant imagine situations to make me happy #thats what regular teenagers do. they daydream abt crushes they have. but i cant do that. it feels so horrible #i wanna be like 'omg i love him<3' but i dont know if i do. i really dont know. i cant distinguish love #all my 'crushes' feel like broken watered down messes. they dont make any sense. i want clarity. i want to be healthy for once #i dont know if any of my feelings are real or long lasting ^_^ and if they were they have a 0.0000001 chance of being reciprocated #im not going to lose my mind over this strange feeling again. its happened so many times w so many different people #i ought to be used to it by now! i dont know if i will ever be able to truly be IN LOVE again. im not sure i ever was #💿