#I do not write cishets

[tippenfunkaport]

That viral post that's going around about how people who write "book quality" mlm fic are too "normal" to publish and have real jobs so only "weird" people publish their "shitty" fanfic is so completely out of touch with reality and I am giving a massive side eye to everyone reblogging it.

Not only is it completely, easily verifiably untrue (you cannot enter any professional writing space without tripping over a dozen grizzled scifi writers who got their start by filing off the serial numbers and publishing their Star Trek fanfic even going back decades ago??? it's a whole thing?? plus how can you look at the mlm category on Amazon right now and say with a straight face that people aren't publishing shitty Spirk and Stucky fanfic??? Oh, honey...) it's also the perfect example of this kind of sneering elitism that true artists would never sully themselves by seeking profit, they do it only for the purity of the thing that always somehow leads back to, "no one should be paid to make art, actually."

The only reason you're seeing more published fanfic right now has nothing to do with the idealistic purity of your hypothetical government employee written smut of the past vs the debased scribbles of those awful straights of today and everything to do with the fact that a) self-publishing has created a voracious readership that wants a ton of content so it's become a viable, flexible income stream for many, especially disabled people b) anyone can publish now with self-publishing tools so there are less gatekeepers and c) lockdown got a lot of people into fandom and therefore writing who never tried it before.

And if you really think there's no "shitty" published mlm and no "book-quality" m/f writing out there that started as fanfic, then you are clearly not a reader so why are you even talking about this?

#love how they manipulated people into spreading that post by making it seem like a cishet vs gay thing #when the real message is OP thinks trying to sell your writing is cringe and 'weird' and 'normal people' with jobs would never #which would of course never have flown on the fandom website #so they played into the queer shipping is purer than cishet shipping puriteen thing #and it worked! #because my god people are gullible #this is the direct pipeline that leads to AI thievery #''normal' people write for the joy of it anyway so why do you need pay? you are just greedy and 'weird'!' #'oh no this isn't about who we get to call cringe and who gets to profit from art it's about um... #(quick what's a hated m/f ship?).. oh uh 'shitty' REYLO #and not our super pure uh... (spirk is still popular right? lets throw in that avengers one too to make it seem timely) stucky!' #I'm sorry if I have no sense of humor about this but the year is 2024 and people are still way too ready to sneer #about writers trying to earn a fucking living in the shittiest timeline #and i need you to look deep into yourself and ask you why it's so important to you to tell yourself that only people writing what you like #are 'normal' with real jobs and to vilify everyone else as 'weird' and 'shitty' #for trying to make an income during a financial fucking crisis #i would say sorry for ranting about this but I'm not sorry because wtf #write whatever you want #publish whatever you want #there is no moral fucking purity in what the content is #and one thing certainly doesn't make you more 'weird' or 'normal' than the other #like there is soooo much shitty mlm that started as fanfic??? #that post is 100% OP made up some guys to get mad about and called them relyos for the clicks #writing #publishing #writblr #writeblr #i wasn't going to tag this anything but you know what fuck it I'm mad #i had like 5 more tags but tumblr cut me off which is fair 😅 #fan fiction

[whiskingskin]

Dudes will have millions of dollars and all the free time in the world and a cool car and their own company and endless free time and with all that power they will sit at their computer and bash 1/3rd of the very website they own

#predestrogen #hammercar #like how stupid do you have to be... #“Im gonna buy the transgender website. sure hope theres no transgenders 🫶” #how long until there is no more safe space online for trans women??? #and from then? then what? there will be no space for them at all #fuck u matty-poo i hope you have a very inconvenient day and step in a puddle and your socks get wet #*gets banned for having an opinion the cishets dont agree with* #i also hope that a car covered in hammers that sometimes explodes and throws the hammers everywhere #is somewhat near you <3 #babes ur not winning this.... the silenced do not try to be heard with whispers. prepare for the screams lol #ik hes a wimp when one person writes out a vague threat n he gets so scared he nukes a third of the website #like #girl

[heartslobbf]

queer representation peaked with revolutionary girl utena because the show manages to deliver a nuanced portrayal of so many varied queer experiences through its characters without once restricting or rigidly defining them. it’s a show about adolescence— for that reason i think the one aspect of queer experience it misses out on is that of elder queers, adult queers, queers who don’t realise they’re queer until later in life, though you could argue the majority of the cast’s inability to reckon with their queer identity alludes to that— where none of its characters are able to define or recognise themselves as…… whatever. they’re all ‘up to interpretation’ but in this amazing flexible capacity where i can say ‘all of the main cast are in some way trans’ and someone else can say ‘utena is a cis woman’ and both can be fascinating interpretations of the text. revolutionary girl utena is a show that touches every single queer person in giving them something to see themselves in, but it is also an exercise in seeing the ‘other’, and therefore encourages you to challenge what you would be most comfortable seeing; and i think in our age of hellscape discourse, the queer community could really do with a dose of ‘i don’t understand the nuances of your identity but that doesn’t matter because my understanding has no bearing on your existence or right to respect’. again, respect and compassion in the absence of understanding is a core value that the show encourages. ikuhara you genius. i love gay people

#revolutionary girl utena #the only character that isn’t up to interpretation is juri but i don’t think her definite lesbianism diminishes this #like first of all her gender is super interesting and second. her role is so enhanced by being a lesbian if juri wasn’t a lesbian + #her character wouldn’t work in the way that it does #like there is no queer identity that is ‘integral’ to understanding any other character juri is the exception to that #< and in having her as that exception it makes her sooooo interesting esp when comparing to her fellow freaks #tbh i would argue pretty hard that reading some characters in certain ways is…. a Reach but like you get what im saying #ppl who argue the cast r cishet r silly tho like. could do essay after essay about how queerness in rgu is impossible to ignore #but im sort of writing these essays in the tags rn lol #shut up daisy #rgu

[shynerdwantscuddles]

Gonna say something controversial: some people out there only pretend to respect nonbinary people’s identities to try and get in our pants.

#and I’m gonna specify this is not just about cishet people #because every time I write something about #this there’s a queer person who slightly derails the post by making it seem like only cishet people do this #but other queer people absolutely do this #like a lot #I know there are a lot of people who view me as just some exotic or spicy women #not as nonbinary #by all means other queer adults are welcome to try and get in my pants #but not if you see me as a woman #my post #nonbinary #fetishization

[soloorganaas]

Cupid

A tempest of emotions is still swirling between them, its force only growing with their futile attempts to push it aside because of everything they have to focus on right now. The world is falling apart around them and there’s no room for mistakes. Not again.

The shadow of the past is indiscriminate though, and longing born of thirteen years of separation is dragging them helplessly towards one another.

Then one night they come within a hair’s breadth of finding each other again, stretched out under the stars on the rooftop of Grimmauld Place in a rare escape from the ruckus below. Perhaps it’s the calm that emphasises everything so unfair still pushing them apart, the moment of intimacy that clarifies how much they need to do this together.

But suddenly they’re staring silently at each other and Remus can see the Cupid’s bow atop Sirius’s fuller, healthier lips trembling and he just can’t help himself.

“Moony,” Sirius pleads under his breath, so quiet it’s barely discernible through the autumn breeze.

Remus leans closer, closer, so close he can feel the achingly familiar warmth of Sirius’s breath, smell the dust of the house on his skin, and something underneath it all so rich, so dangerous, so utterly made for him it’s unthinkable he could ever live without it again.

Then a crash from the loft below shakes through the rafters, Ron and Harry’s shouts echoing into the night, and Remus’s whole body sinks with a mournful sigh. He lets his head rest on Sirius’s shoulder for a brief moment, before he pulls himself away without meeting his eyes.

“Come on. Better go see what’s happened now.”

@wolfstarmicrofic

#look do i sometimes write like an overly dramatic trashy cishet fantasy romance novelist yes yes i do #but sometimes the moment calls for it #there was another (happier) part to this but it was getting too long #so i guess that’s a post for tomorrow #wolfstar #wolfstar microfic #sirius black #remus lupin #otp: i’m mental about you #hp

[taikk0]

i dont think anon was referring to sps simple style, sp is a pretty controversial show. from what i've seen, it seems pretty bigoted? i could be wrong. sorry if this ask is rude, i don't mean to be rude, but yeah i think that's what anon meant

Oh no, not rude at all!! Sorry you have to apologize my response to that anon was a lot more srs than I intended I just wanted to get my point across, I'm all for open discussions :] to answer the bigoted question, I wouldn't entirely say no. but I can say that South Park was not made to make fun of minorities and spread harmful messages. The show presents bigoted behavior from the antagonists who are too stupid to realize they're wrong, it's up to you as the audience to realize that what they are the antagonists and that their actions should not be justified and supported. And even then, there are characters who outwardly speak out and work to fight against said bigots in the episodes they're in. However, the show also relies on shock humor. And this is a criticism on the fans part, but they really gotta stop saying "why are you surprised? It's South Park" as if being surprised over something gross or offensive wasn't the point in the first place. The ridiculous shit in the show isn't supposed to be normalized!! It's supposed to be absolutely ridiculous to the audience and catch them off guard!! You're not supposed to get used to it!! You're not supposed to like it, but you're not supposed to read too deep in it either, breaking down why it's wrong and why you found it shocking and why this is SUPER PROBLEMATIC!! Isn't the point. You just gotta acknowledge that "oh that's fucked up I cant believe they did that, that is so wrong" and just sit in shock for a bit and move on. Like, you can't tear the show apart for one joke when its purpose was for you to realize it's supposed to be ridiculous and wrong at the same time, and the show itself being aware of that fact. A lot of the offensive material circulating around on why South Park is bad lacks context. Cartman and Butters dressing up as chinese stereotypes? They are at a normal Chinese restaurant, harassing a Chinese family because they're idiots who believe that china will overthrow the world, they are asked to leave. Ike in a relationship with his teacher? Ike is a victim of a grooming that is not taken seriously by the police because the predator was a woman, portraying how male victims situations are overlooked in real life, the teacher dies in the end. Randy saying the N-word on live television? He is ridiculed and seen as a total asshole, he gets called "N-word guy" by the people around him and retaliates by making it illegal to call him that name, a satirical role reversal portraying the hypocrisy and sensitivity of white people (oppressors) where they make the "slur" against them illegal but not the slurs against the people they have oppressed for years.

But even after all this, I can see that there are other examples that I can't, and I am not willing to justify. At the end of the day, we all have to acknowledge that South Park was made by two cishet white men. (this was why I said I can't entirely say no) Their opinions will not always be right, and I'm sick of fans trying to justify some of their episodes and jokes just because they like South Park, South Park is not one of those shows you want to ride or die on. I personally have a few jokes and episodes I dislike and will absolutely never watch again, but that is not my main focus. Discrimination is not my draw, and I don't think that's the show's either. Now we're going out to discussion territory and more of personal opinion. I personally enjoy South Park because I feel very drawn to the characters and I find their character driven adventures and antics to be really entertaining. I don't care much for the social commentary. Not that I completely ignore it, it's just something I acknowledge is important in some episode's narratives, but not something I pay too close attention to.

I don't think I watch South Park for the intended reasons, and I don't think most of the fans over here on Tumblr do either. I can admit that I enjoy a version of South Park that isn't technically South Park entirely. I enjoy South Park for what it isn't, and that is a situational comedy with four little guys getting into all sorts of trouble <3

And the funny thing about this whole post is that I used to be a South Park hater.

I thought it was just a bigoted show where the only jokes it had were slurs and children saying fuck, right before I actually gave it a chance and was surprised to find out that it was more than I thought it was, and that I actually somehow enjoyed it.

It's kinda crazy to me that I'm technically defending SOUTH PARK of all things right now.

But uh yeah, I like South Park, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was, and I ended up hyperfixating on it. I'm not here to change anyone's mind and make them watch South Park because "it's ACTUALLY spotless and politically correct all the time, you're just sensitive ☝🤓" People are right to label South Park as controversial, and people are right to be offended by it when it's making fun of something it doesn't understand or without the proper nuance, and people are allowed to discuss and criticize the show for it. With all that said, The show is not emblematic of its own fans, and some of its own fans need to stop looking up to it like it's the bible.

Matt and Trey can be wrong, and even fans like me who enjoy it aren't too dumb and ignorant to recognize and rightfully not be in support of certain aspects of it when a line is being crossed.

This whole thing was supposed to end right after I attached the photo of the characters, but then I just decided to write more and so I puked this extra fluff out, sorry about that lol

#taikko asks #me and my homies hate matt and trey meatriders sorry 👎 #<- the meatriders who defend them at every turn and justify everything they do. theyre grown ass cishet white men dude #meatriders who just have a crush on them.....you do you idc its none of my business LOL #SORRY YALL THIS IS LONG #do not ask me about my opinions (walls of text that is too long) #im new to the fandom/south park in general but i watched the whole series already so sorry if this screams 'NEW FAN!!' #be GLAD im a new fan i was too young and impressionable to watch it before #do NOT let 13 year old mikyomix near south park EVER #i dont usually write essays or stuff this long idk if i did good or not lol #south park

[donnie-and-their-backup-turtles]

i kinda think part of why people treat donnie as less caring than he is is like. sometimes not knowing when he's joking? like that time he threatens to be "semi-lethal" when splinter's in the truck with meat sweats. like i'm sure most of you knew he was joking but like. do some of you realise he like, would not have done that? like remember how he was sad? when splinter actually got hurt? same with leo in the movie? and all of them at every other time?

like he's self proclaimed funniest. and also a mad scientist aesthetic doesn't make a character a villain by itself it's what you actually do with that (yes he has done bad things within that area (haunted stare towards mind meld) but you have to admit he like. did fix those. and feel bad and hopefully learn his lesson but hey that's another analysis)

i have mixed feelings on villain donnie stuff, as an example, because like. ANY character put in a situation where they lose their way is really fun and if in character is really interesting as to what could cause that.

but when it's treated as like. inevitable. who he is, or phrasing his brothers are the only thing stopping him being evil. it's like hm. ugh. kind of hurts a bit actually but that's probably because i relate to him ghfdjk

like the seen in snow day with the tech bo chainsaw like. all he really DOES is cut a snowman there but he's just like. leaning into being "evil" with the chainsaw but like he's just being silly with it. acting like that's proof of anything is wild to me, without any other data points.

also kind of separate but i think there's a dissonance between what is like. seen as evil? between me and like most people lol. like the scene in the movie as well with like "finally, man and machine, entwixt in perfect bionic synergy" someone i watched it with was like "haha evil moment" or whatever where i was just like. yeah real that would be rad as hell. honestly gender also.

not saying he's never done anything wrong but i am saying he immediately tries to fix all of those things

anyway he does have a really interesting relationship with morals in my eyes but like, at his core he really cares about people, you know?

this isn't hate to anyone btw i just care about donnie a lot as a character and as really layered autistic representation

#rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #donnie analysis #making that a tag now because i know what i'm like #rottmnt analysis #i can write so much about donnie. idk if it's good. or accurate. but i can write it #unrelated but it's so funny when people say donnie's cishet or homophobic even (the latter as a joke but. not my type of humor personally) #and then say he's villain coded. like lol. i laugh. i know it's probably different sets of people for the most part but yeah #especially if they compare him to megamind specifically. like okay #megamind famous bisexual neurodivergent and you know. no longer even a villain at the end #like i'm not saying you're wrong i'm saying that it's actually more than just surface level theater kid stuff there (that too though) #like donnie has people who care about him from the start. they're not “keeping him in check” (yikes?) they're caring about him. nuance #but yeah like. genuinely i think it's interesting how he's seen as villain-coded #like i know villains and queer-coding is a known thing but i'm just wondering. is that also a thing with autistic-coding #or do people just naturally not get autistic people in real life and find them scary and that just carries across in responses to fiction #idk #donnie villain fic where he sees how he's perceived anyway by fanon and just gives up on being good #joke but i guess you can steal that just write it well if you do. for me. idk if it'd even be a villain concept really there #he'd probably just be like. sad. and try even harder to be good. #also what about mikey villain fics huh. there's literally a cut episode that would be so fun to play with #anyway feedback appreciated #this was so train of thought i'm sure some of it's unclear

[illputdownmyrootswhenimdead]

someone: jkr is horrible-

me: yeah, i completely agree with you there

someone: -which is why you should stan uncle rick rick riordan instead :)

me:

#rick riordan critical #PLEASE take your head out of your ass #rick riordan is not as bad as jkr but posing his books as the ‘more diverse’ and acting like he’s a great awesome ally to minorities #is just. incredibly naive #piper with feathers! unhealthy age gaps in relationships! the only gay character (at that point) suffering constantly and then being outed- #in front of a complete stranger! incredibly shallow and often misogynistic portrayal female characters! general insensitivity and ignorance #of other cultures! a transphobic portrayal of a genderfluid person who gets called a slur by one of the GOOD characters! shallow and ableist #portrayal of adhd! ableism in saying his characters don’t have push because they’re ‘too strong’! no physically disabled characters! #his incredibly lesbophobic response to people saying reyna reads as gay to them! #this is literally just the tip of the iceberg #rr is NOT some woke intelligent savour he’s a grown ass man who doesn’t have people of the cultures/groups he’s writing about to check if #it’s harmful or incorrect or stereotypical!! #he’s a rich cishet white man with a victim complex when people call him out on his shit. #rr stans don’t interact with me i do not want to hear it #tbh the only reason why he’s ‘better’ than jkr is because he doesn’t have her level of influence #god. shudder. i don’t want to think about that #dove talks #hi it’s 4pm and im so angry. #will admit that anyone saying percy jackson would beat harry potter in a fight is 100% #like we can agree on that one.

[iridescentis]

something i just remembered which i WISH i did not remember is i used to have a reasonably successful tiktok marvel/harry potter account during lockdown and i completely forgot the user and password so that stuff is just out there forever and i have no way of finding it or deleting it

i mean i don't mind the aus i came up with, the ocs were fine and the plots were average but damn i hope that can't be traced back to me

#i remember i quit doing it because i didn't want to make a spicy episode #i led up to it in whatever plot i was doing then panicked and never touched the account again #i was NOT qualified to be writing cishet romance aus as an aroace lesbian #it felt very awkward and uncomfortable #it's very difficult to write something when you are entirely repulsed by the subject matter

[authoralexharvey]

Tired of the ~anti woke~ crowd just absolutely exhausted please stop telling me how the diversity of the real world is too much for you and society is decaying because *checks notes* a character happened to be black or smth.

Actually, keep telling me. So I can block you.

#'Anti-Woke' People Are a Fucking Joke #I Hate All of You and Wish You a Very Merry Get the Fuck Away from Me #If You Think Writing People Who Arent Cishet White Neurotypical People is 'Being Woke' #Then Boy Do I Have Some Fuckin News About the Real World for You

[apricote]

sorry lads but i do think that some people are genuinely allergic to wlw and mlm

#listen. #even when i thought i was 100% straight i had gay ocs #and i know several cishet women who write f/f fanfiction #i just think that it's weird that all your ocs/sims are straight even if you're straight yourself #like you really hate gay people huh? /hj #not every oc you make has to be a literal self-insert lmao #not that there's anything wrong with them per se #but i do think it's a lil weird #if they all are #💬

[annwrites]

i love the way you write, the nate fic is so good i screamed when i saw that you uploaded two more parts, literally the best one out there!! <3🫶🏽 how many parts do you plan on releasing?

Thank you so much! You all have no idea how much all these kind asks, comments, notes on reblogs, & tags mean to me. I haven't stop smiling all week, literally.

And I honestly have no idea. 😅

I'm struggling to envision the ending to this series. I have the next 2 chapters planned, but idk where to go from there. I'm trying not to worry about it & am instead telling myself maybe more will come to me after the next 2 chapters are published (I'm working on part 5 rn & until this morning, I had no idea what all I was going to do with it, so hopefully more will come to me again when I need it to).

But, I will say that I don't envision my Nate story having a happy ending. Because I will not be giving him a redemption arc.

It will either end with him trapping the reader into an abusive relationship via a baby & threatening to take his life if she doesn't stay with him, or she gets out somehow, & after a bit of stalking he finally lets her go.

Idk, I guess the more I write, those possible endings may change in time/get scrapped. We'll just have to see!

#'i can fix him' - baby i am making him so so much worse you have no idea #the baby trapping ending gets more fucked the more i write it in my head #like nightmare fuel for a cishet relationship lmao #to the point where i'm like...idk whether i want to post such things on tumblr dot com bc it will have a lot of triggering shit #like i'm going to kind of be using the maddy-gun-bedroom scene but obvs with him & reader #& he won't be asking for no damn disc but demanding they fuck so he can try and get her pregnant #so she can't leave him #& that if she tries to leave or tell him no he'll kill himself & she'll have to live with that #maybe i'll do a poll eventually & let the readers decide what they wanna see in terms of a conclusion idk #let me know if that ending sounds interesting lmao! #💌: anon

[waterbottlqueen]

my repost policy is: no reposts. except if youre me LMAO 

#shui talks #if youve ever seen that person on reddit who posts my art.... yeah thats actually just me lol #im not well known enough for my art to get stolen! #the day that i get my art stolen seriously will be a wonderful day i will celebrate there will be confetti and cake #but in all seriousness my actual repost policy is: #ask for permission and credit me when you post it #the shui_w account is just for me to talk in an actually educated way #but i cant do it on my main because #well i learned my lesson about that when i got into an argument with someone and they started pulling up my old posts as 'receipts' #so i cant just change my way of talking online like that because people will see the difference between how i talk #i have taken up the persona of a cishet man #it is very strange #also fun #it means i can write full length essays with proper punctuation and grammar #while also saying some pretty out of pocket stuff about male characters without coming off as being serious #be a man and say that you want to breed sonic and no one bats an eye... #but be a woman and say that you want sonic to breed you and everyone loses their minds #i wouldnt say that ofc #not my type of guy #yk i probably shouldve wrote all of this in the actual post. #welp

[novelconcepts]

The degree of RAGE I feel every time I listen to an interview with and/or about a nonbinary person/character, and the interviewer just is allergic to they/them pronouns. Like. My dude. My good bitch. My brother in Christ. The whole POINT of this conversation is the enby thing. How are you failing THIS badly?!

#this dude bringing up an enby actor to an enby actor and using ONLY she/her pronouns for like two straight minutes #they should not HAVE to say ‘them. them.’ to correct you. you should be SO on that #I mean do better in general but ESPECIALLY in these circumstances #it’s so apparent when people just. refuse to try. and it’s fucking infuriating #also for this man to be talking about a movie that is LARGELY about gender expression and being nonbinary #and just be constantly reducing it to a 'love story' #like. no. it's not that. i mean you can take that out of it if you like (that man was AWFUL so i choose to uh. not.) #but the story was ABOUT gender. and gender presentation. and gender identity and looking a certain way but BEING a different thing inside #and to reduce that to 'a love story' to ensure this story is given half to this man who frankly does not narratively deserve it #is such a dude thing to do. to write and then to see in the finished product. whereas a queer person. an enby person. is gonna be like. #well. LOT more going on there actually. the 'love' is a weird complex backdrop for the actual things going on. #anyway. apparently that's my soapbox for the day #just reminds me of a few famous queer female movies where the story inevitably becomes ABOUT the bland white man who somehow convinces them #to sleep with him/date him/whatever. like. i. hated those movies as a teen and i hate them now. let non-men have their stories without dude #if they must be there do NOT pull the focus from the non-men to make sure the cishet boys aren't left out. this isn't for you. stop it.

[theophagie-remade]

I don't have much to say about Magne other than there was an Attempt, but. That time when Twice and Toga got angry with Overhaul for misgendering her was already indicative of what I'm going to get at in a sec, and obviously it was especially relevant because it was a direct show of respect and support from people who very clearly cared about her (and who called her big sis already as it was!!) (×2 imo because Twice was intentionally written to be the readers' insight into the LOV, and the character with whom they were supposed sympathise with the most at/since the beginning, so it's especially important that the first one who spoke up was him), but the story's progression (especially in recent years) is what most assures me that despite a rather poor execution (definitely not the best, but also certainly not the worst) Horikoshi did mean well with her. "People bound together by the chains of society always laugh at those who aren't" :(

#^ when she quotes her friend. like had the manga not gone on like it has that could have very well been a generic #We Live in a Society moment. but it wasn't. and that's what's comforting tbh #in general i think a big issue with magne from what little we know of her is that her reason for joining the lov was fighting back against #a tangibile real world issue (transphobia) vs all the other villains. whose situations Are partially real world issues as well #(eg child abuse) but they also very much present fantasy elements to them (eg toga's treatment due to her quirk) #and i'm not saying this as a justification for killing her off but. when you're writing a superhero comic with a target audience of young #cishet men it is much easier to present them with fantasy solutions to fantasy problems. again not that i think it's right!!! #but i do assume that horikoshi's thought process was more or less this. like. tiger is there alive and well #but he passes and was confirmed to be trans only via word of god so his identity has no bearing on the story itself #while magne's did. which doesn't make tiger's transness any less ''real'' than hers ofc but again i think it was a matter of what horikoshi #could actually deal with (fantasy problems) with the average readers that he has. it sucks all the way around. #which begs the question. ''why create her character in the first place then'' to which i answer: i don't fucking know man #bnha #animanga #mytext #in general. i've seen lots of people do this even with eg toga and her bisexuality (and when it comes to her i completely disagree but w/e) #but. authors who want to depic queer characters in good will but make mistakes or do it awkwardly or anything else #should Not be put on the same level as actively queerphobic authors. at all. do criticise what's worthy of constructive #criticism when you see it but don't even pretend that those two are remotely the same thing #(jic i didn't explain myself well bc i don't think that i did. what i wholly disagree with is that ''toga is a bad bi stereotype''. #i am bi people and i disagree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[astramachina]

seeing a Donnie Darko gifset and remembering this huge argument i had with my film professor a couple of years ago where she was constantly saying that she didn't understand what was going but how that didn't take away from being able to analyze a scene from a technical standpoint.

that was the first time i had ever watched the movie and i instantly fell in love because it has so much of what i love in it, so much so that i decided to write my term paper on it (alongside A Cure for Wellness). this meant that i ended up watching the movie a good ten times over the course of two months, and by the end of it i had a pretty good grasp over the story and the themes and its continuity.

and she got so mad at me for "trying to make sense of it".

my paper ended up being me trying to defend myself by stating that, yeah, while an understanding of the narrative isn't necessary to be able to dissect a project, it sure does help add a layer of why certain artistic choices were made, deepening whatever cognitive response they trigger in a viewer.

she begrudgingly gave me a 98/100 because i forgot to add the timestamps to my screenshots, but she also sent me an email saying i shouldn't be a tryhard because i was ruining it for everyone (ie trying to make sense of a story rather than just sitting there and admiring the pretty scenes).

anyway. college was sure a time for me.

#texts. #sorry my job is over-analyzing narratives. like i will die if i don't do it. #she did say she appreciated how i just decided to write my paper in script form rather than use an academic tone. #like no ma'am i've been in academia long enough to know how to write an academic paper #you just told us to 'get creative' so i wrote it in the tone of an 'internet analyst'. #my whole life is me doing as i'm told and then having authority figures get mad at me because i did just that???? #same energy as 'no we skipped you for nomination because your skill set is leaps and bounds ahead of the rest and that's not fair'. #like. thanks. i sure love sitting at the intersection of 'you have to be flawless and pour 110% effort into everything you do #in order to be recognized among your white male cishet counterparts' only to still get my hand swatted for 'trying too hard'. #shout-out to my theater professor for being the only person ever to have my back during those hellish six years.