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bluestarscribbler · 3 years

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Writing Characters With Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD)

Hi everyone! :) How are you doing? 🥰💕 Today I'll be outlining the main do's and don't's of writing characters with SAD, as well the definition and the main symptoms of SAD.

DISCLAIMER: I am not diagnosed with SAD myself; however, all of the following information had been obtained from different posts and sites of people that have first-hand experience with SAD. I will be linking those at the end of today's post, please feel free to check them out.

What I learned from the intense research I did is that nobody has social anxiety the same. Some people feel like they can't breath. Others tend to laugh in awkward moments. Nobody is the same. No character is exactly alike. You can't get it "right," because it's not an exact science. So don't feel too pressured while writing a character with SAD, there's no "one" way to write them. A helpful approach is to think what about how the SAD fits into the story you want to tell because the topic is really as complicated as any other and you can view it from many different angles and go as deep as you want - depending on what this story you're trying to tell calls for. So rather than trying to get an objective view of this complicated topic, focus on the aspects that are relevant to the story.

What is Social Anxiety Disorder?

AKA Social Phobia, SAD describes an intense fear and avoidance of negative public scrutiny, public embarrassment, humiliation or social interaction. This fear can be specified to particular social situations; such as public speaking, or more typically, is experienced in most/all social interactions. Those suffering from SAD will often attempt to avoid the source of their anxiety; this is particularly problematic and in severe cases can lead to complete social isolation.

Symptoms of SAD:

person paces a lot

very fidgety

stops talking mid sentence...a lot

wrings hands

angered by slightest infractions of others

finds fault in others a lot

hard to breathe when focus/attention is shifted to them

sweating profusely

mumbling

shrinking to hide

lack of eye contact/wandering eyes

painfully shy and withdrawn

picking the nails, picking the skin

always the person in the back of the room or in a corner

gravitating toward the first person they recognise and following them everywhere

headaches

finding ways to avoid certain situations

crying before or after social events

feel dizzy and the entire world becomes very far away

feeling like chest was caving in

assuming that everyone is focusing on them

assuming that people are laughing about them

grind their teeth a lot

bite their knuckles

tap out drum patterns with their feet or fingers

nausea and vomiting

muscle weakness

migraines

heart arrhythmia

increasing nervous tics

Keep in mind that social anxiety exists on a spectrum. Not everyone is paralysed at the smallest conversation, but some are. Others feel mild discomfort at certain types of socialising. It’s all relative.

DO'S:

DO write in a lot of internal dialogue. People with SAD say that most of their anxiety is created by their own internal rumination. So, add a lot of overly self-critical internal dialogue and have them think about trivial things that they may or may not have gotten wrong for hours after the fact. People with SAD also tend to avoid initiating with anyone, instead preferring for them (the other person) to initiate — because then they know they're not inconveniencing them (the other person). If a person with SAD does have to interact with people then they tend to plan and rehearse what they're going to say to them. However, once the social interaction has begun, there will be very little internal monologue. In those situations, the character is very much relying on instinct. After the interaction, if the character feels that they messed up (which is likely; be sure to pick up on even the slightest fumbles or awkward pauses), they should keep thinking about how they're an idiot and they want to never have to talk to another person again, because they know it'll end the same way. If they feel like they did a good job, they should express surprise at how well it went, congratulate themselves, and say that they should maybe do this more often — although they probably won't.

DO let them have observational skills. Part of the anxiety stems from not always knowing how to/being good at socialising. Thus an anxious person will watch others closely for clues to their performance and acceptance. While it doesn’t always tell the person how they are doing, it does teach them a lot about the people around them and how they feel about each other. The person in a group with SAD may actually have a better idea of who in the group are friends, enemies, annoyed with the others, think they are better, have crushes, and so on. Having SAD doesn’t mean that a person doesn’t know social cues, it means that they underestimate their ability to use them. Don’t confuse SAD with autism.

DO make it influence all decisions. This is one you can do as the writer and not include every bit of internal dialogue. Just keep in mind that Every decision an anxious person makes is put through the anxiety filter first. Even if they are doing things by themselves, they have to evaluate the chances of meeting people, meeting people they know, having to talk to people when they are done. Keep that in mind when writing these characters in order to keep their personality consistent. That said, in general you can think of someone with SAD feeling physically, mentally and emotionally uncomfortable and "out of place" in ordinary social situations - they want out of it, looking for the door, excuse to leave, cut the interaction short. There could be a sense of shame, guilt and self-loathing about not being "good enough", or that there is something broken and wrong with them (or society).

DO give them other traits. Make sure you give them other traits that influence their decisions and drive their motivations. Someone can have anxiety and also love adventure, want to save all the stray dogs, want to help orphans, want to be a basketball hero, etc. One of the big problems with SAD is that it interferes with a person’s desires to do and be other things. It doesn’t always win though. And sometimes a person may decide that an awkward encounter or two is worth taking part in some other activity they love. Just remember to keep your characters balanced.

DO let them find each other. SAD is probably more common than you’d think. Not everyone has a crippling case. You can have characters share their anxiety with each other and comfort each other and help each other through tough times. SAD can make a person feel isolated but they don’t have to be, and often aren’t as isolated as they think. That observational skill can also help them find the right people to share their feelings with. Not all socialising is terrifying, it can often be cathartic.

DON'T'S:

DON'T make them hate people. Social anxiety does not mean that the person afflicted doesn’t like people or always craves solitude. One of the harshest aspects of SAD is that a person may want companionship and friends but still have uncontrollable discomfort when faced with making friends or spending time with the friends they already have. This constant tug-of-war between wanting friends and feeling the anxiety around people can cause a lot of internal pain and lead to other emotions and conditions such as depression. Someone with SAD can have friends. Even a lot of friends. But certain factors may influence how a person with SAD chooses friends more than they influence others. The level of contact is different for everyone and there will be some friends who can take up more time while not taking up more energy on the part of the anxious person. However, SAD can get so bad that the person with it is unable to leave the house for days at a time, ghosting on all social engagements, not answering their phone and ignoring all texts; but that still doesn't mean they hate people.

DON'T always make them succeed. If you are writing about a person with SAD and they are forced again and again to go outside their comfort zone, make them fail. Have them go to a meeting and then duck down a side corridor at the last minute and disappear. Have them talk to a person and then freeze up in the middle of a conversation, at a loss for words. The longer they go without knowing what to say the stronger the anxiety gets and the harder it is to think. Or have them execute the socialising brilliantly but then go into the bathroom and cry from the overwhelming sense of effort it took to look normal. And just because they have had a few successes doesn’t mean that they will start succeeding every time. Sometimes, the energy it takes, even when the interaction was a success, means that next time they are reluctant or too exhausted to do it again.

DON'T always give them "tells". Anxious people can be very good at hiding it. In the example above of the person who socialises brilliantly and then cries in the bathroom, no one knows how hard it was. They only saw the brilliant “performance.” Keep that in mind. Not all people uncomfortable with socialising are bumbling awkward goofballs. Sometimes they actually appear very cool and collected.

DON'T suddenly make their anxiety disappear when they're at the end of their character arc. This pisses me off, anxiety is a life-long condition. It cannot be "overcome" easily. However, the person with it can learn to live with it. They can visit a psychiatrist, get pills prescribed or change their lifestyle completely to fit around their SAD. A person with anxiety always thinks about their anxiety. Even when they are happily at home reading a book, sometimes they will think about an upcoming engagement, or wish they made friends like the characters in their book. Every time a person with SAD makes plans they have to run through a list of criteria before nailing anything down. Will they have time before and after to prep for and cool down from the experience? Is it something they have done before and feel comfortable doing? Can they back out at the last minute if they feel too overwhelmed that day? These are just a fraction of the things that go through an anxious person’s mind before committing to plans. Again, this isn’t an absolute, but for many people with SAD it is a defining characteristic of who they are. They don’t talk to a single person, even a spouse sometimes, or make a doctor’s appointment without the anxiety affecting how they feel, think, and behave. It is always there. Always.

That's it for today folks! I hope everyone has an absolutely fantastic day! 😊❤

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cuttlefishkitch · 4 years

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hello! i haven't talked to you before, but ron said that i could ask you for some advice on writing eds? (i'd like to know things to avoid/common things that could come up in everyday life that would be good to mention/the sort of aids and stuff they'd have maybe?/anything else you think is relevant)

Hi! Sorry this took so long, a combination of ADHD and chronic pain slowed me way the fuck down. Thank you for being patient!

EDIT: WEIRD HEEL THINGS I FORGOT!!

So, before I get into this I should probably say I technically haven’t been diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS for anyone reading) because it’s one of those syndromes that takes forever to get diagnosed with (it took a friend of mine’s mother over 30 years to get dxed). Many doctors, and everyone I know who does have EDS agree with me that it’s probably what causes my chronic joint pain and some of my other chronic issues. But just because three separate doctors have said “Yeah Probably” doesn’t mean I’m diagnosed!! Only a geneticist can do that!! And they had two-three year waitlists BEFORE the apocalypse happened.

I am diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), Small Fiber Neuropathy, and potentially misdiagnosed with Fibromyalgia (once I get properly tested for EDS I might get undiagnosed with this because I don’t have most of the main symptoms of Fibro, but I got diagnosed with it anyway because it’s what doctors misDX you with when they don’t know what’s wrong with you and don’t want to do more tests).

All that said, I’ve done a lot of research about EDS (mainly because it’s the only thing that explains all my symptoms since doctors seem incapable of doing so), and know a few people who have either confirmed or suspected EDS, so I’ll link to some stuff, talk about the symptoms that often come with EDS, explain how the symptoms I have affect me, because just because someone’s not diagnosed doesn’t mean they aren’t having symptoms, and probs elaborate a bit about writing physical disabilities and chronic pain in general because it’s super important to me!

So RESOURCES aka how to make sure your post never sees the light of day because you’re linking things and tumblr hates it when people give other people information!!

Youtubers! If you want to know about the day to day of living with EDS or any disability or chronic illness I super suggest finding a youtuber that makes videos about their life. My EDS favorites are

Jessica Kellgren-Fozard

Annie Elainey

Amy Lee Fisher

Websites! If you’re asking random folks on tumblr I’m assuming (and hoping) you’ve already done the basic WebMD google searches and looked over the seemingly ridiculous lists of symptoms and related conditions, so here are a few websites that are made more for people than for doctors.

The Ehlers Danlos Society

OhTWIST (That’s Why I’m So Tired)

ChronicPainPartners (the fact that they have an entire section of articles called “Dealing with Doctors” should really tell you something)

Books! If you feel like doing actual reading! I suggest reading books written by people with Ehlers Danlos, to get a feel for how they portray themselves. I’m not saying steal, but it’s probably a good point of comparison to see how your portrayal feels. (haven’t actually read these b/c my ADHD doesn’t let me read)

Ria Ruse by Morgan S. Ray (a superhero book with a disabled super MC!!)

Mysteries of Maybelle by Imani Benfell (Imani is still in high school and has already written and self-published a book cause she didn’t have enough representation for herself how cool is she!!)

Bodies in Motion by Liana Brooks (tw for pregnancy problems and miscarriages in the link, because it’s a blog post talking about integrating EDS symptoms into the story without explicitly naming them as such)

OKAY, now for some rambling about EDS SYMPTOMS!!!

Ehlers Danlos is one monster of a genetic condition in complexity and variety. There are THIRTEEN different identified types of EDS, it often comes with Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS) and/or POTS, and can lead to various other conditions like gastroparesis, chiari malformation, craniocervical instability, and/or bad teeth. So if you’re going to be writing a character with EDS consider what other comorbid conditions they might also have. I’m mainly going to be talking about Hypermobile EDS (hEDS) because it’s what I probably have and what I’m most familiar with. That said there is a lot of overlap in symptoms with the other varieties.

I started typing this section and realized I was going to have to break it down even more so we’re going to talk about Chronic Pain, Unstable Joints (Dislocations and Subluxations), Skin Things, Mobility Issues, and Other Weird Shit and how those things get addressed separately.

Gonna get the Other Weird Shit out of the way first. Because EDS is a malfunction of connective tissue it can fuck up all sorts of random things. For instance, I and many other people w/ hEDS have trouble swallowing. Shit gets stuck in my throat, I sometimes choke on and have to cough up food, and pills can be hard to swallow, which sucks cause I take A Lot Of Pills. If it doesn’t cause full-on gastroparesis it can cause IBS or other digestive problems b/c the digestive tract is mostly made of connective tissue. It can potentially cause heart problems even if they aren’t as big of a risk as in some other forms of EDS. Premature osteoarthritis is common because what you need is more joint pain. And Fatigue OH BOY THE FATIGUE. And of course the headaches, can’t forget those pesky migraines can we!

AND piezogenic papules!! I completely forgot!! Piezogenic papules are little white bumps that appear when you put weight on your heel. In some people they hurt, but in others they don’t. They’re technically tiny little herniations of fat peaking through the fascia in the heel. They were added as part of the diagnostic criteria for hEDS in 2017!

Now for Skin Things cause it’s not as big a thing in hEDS as it is in other forms. Basically, in a lot of forms of EDS, the skin is extra stretchy and extra delicate. It bruises and tears easily, people with the extreme versions of this can accidentally scratch something into an open wound if they aren’t careful. My skin is pretty soft and sensitive, I def have the typical velvety skin, and as is pretty par for the course of someone with hEDS my skin is a little stretchy, and sorta delicate. I’m not as tissue-papery as some people get, but I almost always have at least one mystery bruise or scrape b/c existing is hazardous. Most of scars are also pretty normal, unlike the extremely papery and atrophic scars (though I have a few tiny acne scars that are atrophic) that are common with other kinds of hEDS. Something that I DO have is Lots of Stretch Marks, all over my thighs, and even down to my calves. Which wouldn’t be abnormal, except for the fact that I’ve never been over 145 lbs and I’ve never been pregnant. Having a lot of stretch marks or striations in the skin without due cause happens because the structure of the skin isn’t as strong as it is in people with a normal amount of connective tissue.

I don’t have to worry as much about my skin but people that do are usually very careful with adhesives because they can irritate or tear the skin, which sucks when you need a lot of bandaids cause your darn skin won’t do its job.

Now on to the meatier stuff and since I’m mostly working backward let’s do Mobility Issues!! These can happen in loads of ways, but a lot of what causes these in people with EDS are the other two things I wanna talk about. Unstable joints lead to increased risk of injury when doing stuff people with fully functioning joints can do.

For context, I’m an ambulatory wheelchair user, meaning I can walk, but a lot of the time it’s better if use a chair. Mine is mostly for my POTS symptoms, but the fact that my legs aren’t also in absolute agony is a big plus. I use a custom manual wheelchair with a SmartDrive (b/c I’m very fucking fortunate and have good insurance) whenever I leave the house and have to be “walking” for more than a few minutes at a time. I can’t fully self-propel in a manual chair because it would be damaging to the joints in my arms and hands, but the smaller chair is easier to maneuver in less than accessible spaces (like almost everywhere). There was about a month-long span where I used a very cheap and very bulky electric chair while I was waiting on the ideal set up I have now. Before that, I also briefly used, and sometimes still use, an up-right posture cane.

People with EDS have widely varying mobility issues because of how uniquely it can manifest. My cane only gave me a little help with balance because if I used it in any prolonged capacity any pain it took away from my legs was relocated to my arms, and as an artist, my arms are more important to me!

If you’re going to write a character with EDS having mobility issues as a result of their EDS the best thing to do is to narrow down their specific needs. Are their knees complete and utter garbage but their shoulders and wrists strong? Maybe they can get away with using a cane. Can they not stand for longer than 5 minutes because of the vertigo from their POTS? Maybe they need a manual wheelchair. Would propelling themself damage their back and arm joints? An electric chair might be necessary! Plenty of people with EDS use all sorts of combinations of these aides to get around their life, consider how your character’s good and bad days would be. Do they have back up plans if they overestimate themselves? There can be a lot to manage, but don’t let it scare you off! Sometimes I try and make it into a resource management game (because I’m a game designer and that’s what I do), to make evaluating my energy and mobility needs more fun!

But now let's tackle some of the reasons those mobility aides might be needed. Unstable Joints.

Ever stepped wrong and rolled your ankle? It hurts for a few steps and then kinda fixes itself, or maybe it bothers you for the rest of the day and you put it up and ice it when you get home? When I was walking around outside my house that would happen AT LEAST once a month, usually more. Some times I’m sitting wrong and when I get up my knee isn’t a knee anymore and decides to just give out from under me. My knuckles are made of unruly popcorn and they Don’t Want To Stay Home!! Oh! And my shoulder is more often out a little out of its socket than it is fully in.

Unstable joints lead to Dislocations and Subluxations of varying intensity, and some people get them more frequently than others. Some can be severe enough to necessitate hospital visits and even surgery, some subluxations are so banal (like my fUCKING SHOULDER) that you just learn to live with the pain.

If a character is going to be in high action, combat-heavy scenarios, chances are they’re going to be popping out joints left and right. Hell, depending on the severity of their joint laxity they could be doing the same sitting at a desk. Again, it’s incredibly varied. I’d suggest setting some sort of baseline for yourself, of what a character’s joints can and can’t stand up to, and maybe do some research on which joints are most likely to pop out in general (hips and shoulders are big culprits being the wacky ball and socket motherfuckers they are). Then maybe have something pop out or hold up every so often when it shouldn’t cause hey! EDS is kinda just like that! Unpredictable!

Some ways people manage joint laxity is with braces, KT tape, and physical therapy. Braces come in many different forms, since I’m currently getting pretty much no treatment for my shitty joints I use mostly compression braces made for sporty people. It really is amazing how much a bit of tight fabric can do to keep my wrist in place.

More specialized braces often have solid parts to prevent the joints from hyper-extending (bending the wrong way) and causing further damage. If you ever see someone with what looks like diamond shaped rings around a bunch of their finger joints, chances are those are Ring Splints, and are there to keep the finger shaped like a finger. I want to get my hands on some and get some on my hands Very Badly, because my fingers hyper-extend SO MUCH when I type, and it makes my hand pain way way worse.

KT tape is another thing people often use. It’s stretchy tape you put on your skin and it basically functions kinda like a second ligament as well as reinforcing the joint and keeping the bones mostly where they’re supposed to be. The problem with this is a lot of people with EDS have very sensitive and fragile skin like I mentioned before, so KT tape can cause allergic reactions, chronic skin irritation, or just straight up take the skin with it when someone goes to remove it. Hence a lot of folks are really careful with it.

Physical Therapy is kinda the best (and only) treatment for joint laxity aside from Very Invasive and sometimes Highly Experimental surgery. It focuses on strengthening the muscles around the joints so they can do the work all those bone ropes made of body glue can’t. The problem is finding a physical therapist that 1) knows what EDS even is, 2) knows you have it, and 3) knows how to treat it without doing stuff that’ll Phucking Hurt You Worse!! Because exercising wrong with EDS can do Permanent Damage!!!

Again most folks use a combination of all of these things, or have next to no access to them b/c healthcare sucks.

Anyway, on to one of my favorite topics, Chronic Pain!! One of the reasons this post took me so long!!!

Chances are if your character has chronic pain as a result of their EDS there are gonna be some things they hate, including stairs, rain, thunderstorms, stairs, hills, uneven terrain, oh and did I mention stairs??? It’s going to vary person to person, but almost everyone I’ve met with pain from EDS has complained about their knees. For me the most debilitating pain is in my fingers and wrists. They’re by far my least stable joints but I use them constantly for stuff like drawing, typing, and sewing.

Because my joint pain is so wide spread, like most people’s with hEDS, it effects every single part of my day to day life. I can’t carry a heavy ceramic plate, open a bottle, or even use my computer without pain. It’s practically impossible for me to get comfortable in any position be it sitting or laying down, and as you can imagine that makes it hard to sleep a lot of the time. Moving too much hurts, but so does sitting still. I’m constantly taking braces on and off or cracking/stretching my joints so they pop back into place and hurt less.

Also being in pain makes everything else That Much Worse. I get tired way faster than I did before my pain was this bad (I had chronic pain for a while before actually realizing it wasn’t normal to not be able to walk down the block without feeling like your foot bones are trying to escape). My sensory issues and anxiety disorder are more easily aggravated because my base level of comfort is way worse. It fucks with my depression. And OH BOY does it make my ADHD worse because being in pain is fucking distracting as hell and makes it harder to make decisions and switch tasks. Also my ADHD often makes my other symptoms worse cause I forget to take my meds, don’t drink enough water, or can’t find my fucking braces because the item eating black-hole that comes with ADHD stole them. The intersection of mental and physical disabilities is probably a rant for another time though, so back to chronic pain.

Does it suck? Yes, undoubtedly. Is this incredibly debilitating? Of course it is, I spent the last several months unable to feed myself without assistance because there was a staircase between my room and the kitchen and I could only manage to climb it once a day. Is it overwhelming? Definitely, I’ve frequently broken down crying from a combination of pain and frustration because I’m having a bad day and there’s no relief to be found. Am I able to predict when it’s going to rain with uncanny accuracy because any change in barometric pressure makes me feel like every bone in my body is trying to kill it’s neighbors? You bet your fucking ass I am!! Does it sometimes make me irritable, angry, and occasionally dismissive of when abled people get cold or a temporary injury because the stuff they’re complaining about is my life every single day and all avenues of treatment and recovery I have could take years and still not entirely solve my issues? Yeah, and while I deserve a little extra patience I also have to be sure to check myself because I don’t want to turn into someone who’s nasty to be around. Do I sometimes need to sleep for 17 hours straight because it’s raining, I have migraine, and I’m in too much pain to be conscious? Yup, sometimes a few days in a row. Does living in constant pain mean I’m unable to do all the things I want to and does that sometimes make me wanna curl up in bed and never leave? Yeah, it happens.

But! And here’s the big important but, that’s not everything! I still write, draw, and talk to my friends!! It might take me a little longer but I get there. I’m still happy and excitable and make the time to write out five page long posts about EDS because it’s something I’m passionate about! My chronic pain doesn’t stop me. I refuse to let it. I never really wanted to go mountain climbing anyway, so I’m perfectly happy being able to make it up and down the six steps in my house, even if sometimes I have to sit and bump down them on my ass, or crawl up them like a cat. Chronic pain isn’t all I am. It isn’t a fate worse than death. It isn’t the only thing your character should talk about (though I do talk about my pain a lot cause I’m a complainer about almost everything). You can have your character be hindered by their pain, realistically they would be. You can have them seek comfort, support, and relief. Other characters can commiserate and be sympathetic, but it doesn’t mean their whole life is going to be one big pity party, that would be incredibly fucking boring. I know I’d be bored out of my mind.

All that said dealing with chronic pain, especially from EDS, is Complicated. Physical Therapy is the gold standard, but like I said before it can be a long and difficult process, and isn’t always accessible. Stabilization methods like I talked about before can help prevent pain, or reduce it by keeping bones mostly where they belong. Heat and cold help joints, relax muscles, and reduce inflammation but keeping them applied is rough and the relief doesn’t always last. Doctors prescribe anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, and sometimes even anti-epileptic medication to help manage pain, but everyone’s mileage with those varies. And I’m not at all qualified to talk in-depth about narcotics or other heavy duty pain-meds, but suffice to say the war on drugs fucked shit up for people that legit need that kind of help BIG TIME.

Now for my closer/bonus rant about EDS and Disability Writing in General!

Everyone always says write what you know, so if you really want to do disabled people justice, get to know disabled people! Make friends with disabled people, get involved with advocacy groups, consume content made by disabled creators both about disability and not! Disabilities are so fucking diverse, even EDS is such a complex disorder, and comes with so many potential co-morbidities, that practically everyone with it has a unique experience. There’s no way I can fully explain everything in a tumblr post. Hell, even if I could talk to you for hours probably couldn’t give you enough info to answer all your questions (especially since I’m still in diagnosis hell :,) ), so talk to a wide range of people with EDS and other disabilities!! I know it sounds like a lot of work but trust me, disabled people are some of the strongest, raddest, coolest, people you will ever meet that it won’t feel like it.

And don’t be afraid either, the fact that EDS and other disabilities are so wildly varied means that you have a little bit of wiggle room with your character’s experience. There’s so little disability rep out their I think people are WAY to scared to try their hand at writing it. So long as your character is a fully developed person in addition to being disabled, you give some logical thought as to how it would affect their life, and you don’t make their disability the butt of any joke it isn’t difficult to avoid ableist writing. PLEASE WRITE MORE DISABLED PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WITH CHRONIC PAIN/CHRONIC ILLNESS!!

Okay that’s it, again sorry it took so long for me to get back to you! My fingers were being little pests about it, and my ADHD (which is honestly more disabling than everything else a lot of the time lmao) was being an asshole! Hope this helps, and feel free to ask me more questions if you need clarification! It might take me a bit but I do love talking about this stuff.

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myrecovery18 · 4 years

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A year in Recovery

After a year in recovery from restricting there are things that I noticed I did before that I no longer or rarely do or that I’m able to eat now. Plus a little tips on what helped me recovery and stick with it.

TW: MENTIONS OF RESTRICTING, ANAMIA, BIRTHCONTROL, RECOVERY, TO THE BONE, TRAINING, LEARNING TO LOVE YOURSELF, SELF RECOVERY TIPS, & LITTLE HEALTH RANT IN THE MIDDLE.

I’m aware I can’t count calories anymore because I mentally will go under 1,500 calories without fail.

When I use to eat I use to watch an edit of “To the Bone” religiously, I only watch it now when I want to. I don’t want to watch it when I eat.

I use to sit in class and save food recipes or pictures of food to a Pinterest board instead of paying attention because I got bored and was thinking about food

I use to workout for an hour and a half in the morning and would get pissed if I couldn’t. I quit working out for a year until I was able to and injured my knee only to restart this year because working out is the one thing I know that helps relieve stress. Instead of focusing on working out as a form of losing weight, I focus on it now as a hobby, if I don’t do it one day that’s fine. I don’t get upset at myself. That took awhile to build that mentality especially coming from a 10 yr athletic background with a physical sport that required you to train 3 hours a day like volleyball.

I used to eat and feel panicked about being watched by others; rarely do I think about that now. I can’t give you advice on how to stop that mentality.

I avoided eating Garlic bread for six years, it was apart of my fear foods. I nearly cried when I ate it for the first time this year and didn’t feel an ounce of anxiety. It still scares me the idea of eating it, but physically eating it doesn’t bring me anxiety.

There are days where I eat one meal and I don’t blame myself, but I do let others know that I forgot to eat because my hungry cues didn’t signal that I was in fact hungry and needed to feed myself.

While in recovery, I’ve come to realize that when I miss a meal, my body will pick up either the next day or two days later and tell me it’s hungry. I don’t force myself to eat if I’m not hunger.

I use to cook myself every meal so I knew what was going into it or I monitored what my family was putting into the food. I don’t do that now or I use to make my own plate and make it smaller than I needed it to be. I allow for them to cook my food and plate it if they want to.

I use to have bad mood swings; I rarely do.

I use to drink coffee because I knew it is a natural laxative for me when I was having a bad day; I don’t drink it anymore for that reason. I drink it because I like the taste and enjoy coffee. The upset stomach is a negative now.

Being told to lose weight by doctors or family members or that I was getting bigger would trigger me but now I don’t bother to acknowledge it since I know most doctors don’t acknowledge the pills I’ve been on caused the weight gain. The only doctor I’ve accepted the weight loss advice was my neurologist because I went through all the test and they came back normal, so I know I suffer from migraines naturally.

Birth Control Pills: I’m not a fan of them and refuse to be placed back on them despite the other ladies I go to pushing it on me to regulate my abnormal bleeding I recently had. Despite the fact I told her it was caused by the other Gyno’s failure to notice that it counteracts with my migraine medicines and caused the bleeding to extend by putting me on the birthcontrol pill I didn’t want (Side Note: I have iron deficiency anemia that no one can really fix because my panels come back with a weird combination so due to the gynos mistake it kicked in and I had to take my iron pills because I was getting exhausted too fast because of my blood loss which made me have more headaches. I do not take them daily because my previous doctors said I had too much iron in my system but I have a hard time storing it which is why every doctor I see can’t really fix it or diagnose it again because my panels read either too high, normal or low, so cheers to that.) I know this because my recent period lasted 7 days and was normal flow similar to how they use to be before I got on before control. I say this because your doctors won’t listen to you and will prescribe you a medicine regardless of your wishes. I decided not to take it and even now I’m losing the weight I gained slowly.

My migraine medicine: Is used for both migraines (my neurologist wanted to boost it to the highest dose which I didn’t agree with since I already have the muscle tingles that happen all day and are annoying and could get kidney stones and I know I don’t drink enough water to stop that from happening; so I stuck to the dose I’m on. Again sometimes your doctors can be wrong. GO with what you’re comfortable with) and weight loss. The weight I’m losing could be contributed to that or the fact I stopped my BC pills, I’m unsure which or the fact I’m working again.

So what helped me recover?

For one, I had a support system that kept me accountable in the form of my boyfriend who knew I struggled with eating. Including one of my highschool friend who kept track of if I eat in highschool when we were at lunch together, when my boyfriend couldn’t be there. Once I got into college, it became my own responsibility to hold myself accountable for eating and sometimes that didn’t happen because I become hyper-focus on one thing (still do) and fail to remember to eat. My boyfriend still checked in whenever he could to make sure I did eat whenever he choose to

I changed my mentality. I no longer look for a diet to do. If I eat what society sees as unhealthy or healthy that doesn’t concern me. I’m going to eat what helps my body because I know what helps it. I know personally if my body doesn’t get enough nutrition I’ll suffer a headache and will get tired later on that day. You have to know your body and that starts with your mental. Some days will be bad and that just comes with recovery.

Eating the foods you like. I’m lucky enough to be on a college campus that allows us to be back in person during a pandemic and is serving us food. By them do this, I don’t often eat in my dorm room so I can save my food or don’t eat out or order in as often. Last semester when I lived in my own apartment, I ordered food a lot and I wasn’t ashamed by it. It just took a lot of my money. My college thankfully has the healthier options available for students who can’t eat meats or doesn’t prefer it. If I don’t eat in my cafetria on campus, I’ll go to our schools tea room if it’s open to grab something to eat if I don’t like anything they have, unless I ultimately have no time left I’ll eat in my room.

I choose to eat whatever. Some days I’ll eat more vegetarian than meat or vegan that vegetarian or I’ll eat more meat if I want it. However, I do know that there’s days I’ll crave pizza. I don’t hold back and I’ll go get a pizza and it’ll last me three or two meals depending on how hungry I am or if I get Chinese food, that’s two meals. I learned to stop holding myself holding myself back from my cravings. If I want something, I’ll eat it.

One of the last things that helped me was watching over people go through recovery the same time I was choosing to. These people have already recovery so they don’t have many videos up anymore from that time in their lives so I can’t tag their channels here and probably won’t ever. But they helped me get through and see that I wasn’t alone. That it was okay to feel the things I was feeling.

Lastly, I learned to start to love myself. I haven’t fully done it yet. But I don’t hate myself either. It’s taking time to realize that I deserve better in life. That despite what I look like, even if it’s at my heaviest or at my lowest I won��t care what people think of me as long as I love how I look. Now that’s been a struggle to work with and I’m only a few months into that mentality, but it feels good. I spent majority of my life avoiding mirrors and avoiding taking pictures with my family to the point I don’t have many pictures of myself from the times I grew up to now. Or I hardly understand some days how I look because I don’t look in the mirror. But I slowly starting to. I can tell in pictures on days where I do love myself and have confidence that I’m happier. I also learned to understand my worth and know that I shouldn’t feel miserable in a friendship.

There’s small things you can do to recover now. It’s not an over night thing. There’s days where recovery will see pointless or if you’re even doing it right or if you’re just faking it for the shits and giggles, but you’re doing a good thing. Ultimately, recovery is about you. It’s not for anyone else. Not for your family, or your friends or your boyfriends or your pets. It’s for you and you alone. Because it only effects you physically and mentally and emotionally. You’re the one who has to deal with it 24/7 and has to actively choose to heal and keep healing every single day. It’s not going to be easy. I only listed a few things I’ve been through that was singular for me and important to me to voice, there were more things I did. I wish you all the best whether you choose recovery now, tomorrow, or in the future. Please stay safe.

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mcrmadness · 4 years

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I was writing elsewhere about why I don’t relate to he most common Asperger’s traits and why do I think I have a logic explanation to everything they think makes me an asperger, and the text got so long I might as well just copypaste some of that on here:

It's also so hard to find any good list of Asperger’s symptoms because almost every list says "may or may not be like this", and I definitely am missing the core symptoms of Asperger's and autism. I only relate to those symptoms that are present in both, Asperger's/autism AND adhd, and then to symptoms found in ADD but not only in Asperger's/autism.

I also lack anything from childhood that makes a kid a typical autistic kid. And many things that I share with autistic people I can already explain with other things like my personality, e.g.:

I don't like people because I'm an introvert, not because I'm not neurotypical; and I'm aroace which is why my interests are more important to me than human relationships.

I don't look people in the eye because I am highly sensitive person and an introvert. I also have lots of traumas from other people which makes me act like that because I still basically expect people to start shouting at me or something out of blue, so I'm sometimes acting the same way as a dog that has been beaten too many times and can no longer trust humans.

And this can be easily seen as weird and antisocial when I'm looking at the walls and ceiling and everything else but the person I'm talking to, it just helps me concentrate when I can stare at something that gives my eyes things to do. I'd probably be counting people's nose hair and get distracted by that if I stared at them.

Being stared at overall makes me highly uncomfortable because of being an introvert and HSP.

And me being sensitive to things is also a HSP thing + migraine.

The overstimulation and sensory overload I feel because of HSP is different to those with autism. I have a filter, I can stand that into certain levels but the filters fills up faster than non-HS people’s and then I just start seeing and hearing everything. I’ve understood that people with autism don’t have this kind of filter and when they go to places with lots of stimuli happening all around, they can’t take it the second it happens. In my case I can stand it even when the filter is full but if I don’t get peace soon, I usually get irritated and eventually end up with a headache.

I just wish they would give me an opportunity to explain why I think what I think and didn't just suggest medications for this and that. I mean this psychiatrist already was talking about meds and how he could suggest me a anxiety medication and how "some medications do cause the feelings to go numb, unfortunately". Me on my ANTIDEPRESSANTS was like having depression without melancholy. I couldn’t focus even that little I now can.

How did I end up with an Asperger’s diagnosis, then? I think it’s all just a misunderstanding and professionals understanding my words the wrong way and focusing too much on how I’m on the outside rather than actually paying attention on what I say is happening inside my head. So far I've got social anxiety and generalized anxiety disorder on paper. With the latter I've been living since early childhood and I got the diagnosis when I was 28. And when I went to a psychiatrist last time with this anxiety shit (I was 22), I was desperately looking for a diagnosis with anxiety and what did I get? I got told I can't get therapy if I don't eat medications because "it does not work without meds and we don't have any resources for that", and only when I actually was so mad I finally stood up for myself and said "I'm not going to put any kind of pill into my mouth ever again so f this is all about medications, I guess we're done here." and was already ready to leave and that's when the doctor was a bit baffled and I swear she sounded a bit annoyed when she asked what would have I wanted from therapy, then.

They did not take me seriously, they saw just the social phobia that I told millions of times not being the problem. Me not leaving the house because I was so afraid of accidentally having low blood sugar was not social phobia. I wasn't afraid of people stealing my blood sugar you know??? But they thought I needed group therapy and it was the only solution and there I could also get therapy, even tho I told them I don't like forced socializing and I don't want to go there. They still booked me an appointment with people from that group therapy thing and I legit felt like we'd have sat in that meeting room for days until I'd say "okay I will try it". It literally was just them trying to talk me over to try it. And I went to this thing a couple of times until I messaged them that it's not my thing, I'm not coming there anymore and that's why they cut contact with me because I didn't accept the offered therapy method. And afterwards I went to see my information on the website with medical information and nearly fell of the chair because it said I had been diagnosed with Asperger's. With my mom we actually came to the conclusion it’s because they needed some kind of diagnosis to be done in order to get in that group therapy but I am still stuck with this stupid diagnosis that no doctor now is willing to take away! I'm sure my stubborn behaviour and "I don't like people in places like these" was what made the psychiatrist think it must be Asperger's. They were and still are only worried about people not being able to be a part of the society and an individual has to change instead of trying to make the society better place to live for everyone.

The previous doctor I had for 5 years (ages 17-22), at that time my dad was going to Asperger tests a few times and we all were certain that he has Asperger's too but nope, he doesn't. And at that time we all were also interested in knowing if I have Asperger's and I asked about it from that doctor and he immediately said nope, he doesn't think I have that at all. I also was to neuropsychiatric tests when I was 22 and there were some things, mainly about social skills and emotions and feelings and my "obsessive-compulsive" behaviour they thought supported the Asperger's. My explanations again: Social anxiety. I have problems with emotions because my dad has anger issues and I only lately realized I'm afraid to let all the feels come out because I'm afraid of losing control and accidentally hurting myself, someone else or breaking something. And I don't want that, I need to be in control of myself at all times. I also find it hard to cry because I feel like I can't cry hard enough, I should literally cry my eyes out for it to be efficient. When I thik about anger, I think I just see in my head how my dad reacts to it and I don't want to be like that. So I keep it all in and only way to let it out is by channeling it into something else, like writing, drawing or playing video games. (This is a HSP thing but could also be ADHD thing.) I have the results of the and everything they say about me understanding social cues wrong... I think that's it, they think I don't understand them when it's just because of the heavy bullying that made me unable to trust anything other people do or say. I'm actually good at reading people, I don't have trouble understanding people's facial expressions. I myself don't really use facial expressions because it's a self-defense mechanism, I'm not "allowed" to let people see how I feel. Also social anxiety made me really think i was the center of the world and everyone who laughed, was laughing at me, and combined with bullying, I felt like everyone was talking about behind my back and I just felt so hated because it WAS the truth, but I also was sure that also people who don't know me, do that. So me misunderstanding social cues and those were not typical Asperger's but just caused by bullying and being hated by everyone, and excessive loneliness which sometimes felt like I was going crazy and started having voices in my head because I just needed to have a conversation. I still sometimes think friendships work like they did when I was a teenager because that was the last time I've had an actual friend group or even actual friends. I mean friends who I can actually meet with. Only one of those people is still in my life and we live about 2km from each other but still we meet like 1-2 times a year because we always keep talking about how we need to meet and then don't meet. Rest of my friends I know through internet and I’d so much want to meet but can’t and I can only try and guess how I’d work in situation where I’d be in the same room with them because I no longer remember how that even works. That’s how lonely I am because I can’t get to use social skills outside of the internet that much like, ever. I also had to do lots of learning with social situations when I got over the worst parts of social anxiety, it prevented me from learning things you learn as a teenager because I'd enter panic mode when someone talked to me and then spent the rest of the day analyzing it and wishing I was in control and did something differently. Same thing happened with the antidepressants, 5 years of my life without emotions and feelings. They were taken away when I was 17 and then I got them back when I quit the meds and was 22 and suddenly I should have needed to know how to deal with adult emotions.

So, long story short, bullying left me with inability to read other people CORRECTLY but that does not mean I wouldn’t be able to read people. Nowadays I don’t do the mistakes that much anymore, I sense people’s emotions very easily and I mirror people. I might be weird but it’s not because I would act weird or use weird, inapproprite facial expressions. I enjoy being weird so when I do that, it’s usually because of my sense of humour just not matching with other people’s. But there’s still people who DO understand it, it’s they usually just are not neurotypical.

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tell-me-when-ur-ready · 5 years

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This Thing Called Love (part four)

Summary: When Shawn meets dancer Kellie in Toronto, he falls for her—hard. But Kellie has an invisible disability and thinks it’s impossible that someone could really love her the way she is.

Author’s note: I have multiple chronic illnesses that are similar to Kellie’s, but I don’t have the same exact health conditions she does. I’ve done lots of research, but I apologize if I get anything wrong!

Warnings: everything comes out and shawn reacts with a disgusting amount of kindness and understanding lol

Word count: 1,800

Kellie had listened to the song. She’d reviewed the general notes sent by the choreographer, who’d said they would hash out the details of the dance during a day or two of rehearsals before they got on set. She had taken off work. She’d booked a plane ticket (and been reimbursed by Shawn’s team—that was nice) and flown to Toronto and successfully seen herself to her hotel. Everything had gone smoothly. So smoothly, in fact, that she should have known it was all about to come crashing down.

Before Kellie even opened her eyes on the first day of rehearsals for Shawn’s new music video, she knew it was bad. Her joints were a little achy; her stomach was cramping, not badly but enough to bother her (she wasn’t totally sure her takeout last night had been completely free of contamination); and there was a dull, throbbing ache in her temples that did hurt. Badly. Without opening her eyes all the way, she reached out through the darkness and fumbled around on her nightstand until her fingers closed around the current medication she was taking for migraines; it had been getting less and less effective over the last couple of weeks. Sitting up slightly, Kellie put the pill at the back of her throat and swallowed it dry, a useful skill she’d finally acquired after three years of medication after medication.

Squinting, Kellie slowly sat up and tried to assess the damage. She stood up slowly; pressing a hand to either side of her head, she walked unsteadily across the room and promptly stumbled into the dresser.

Really, she’d known before she even opened her eyes. But now she knew for sure. There was no way she could get in the dance studio with Shawn.

She allowed herself one moment of self-pity: one moment to close her eyes, silently curse how unfair life was, and feel an overwhelming sense of despair for everything she’d lost after becoming sick and everything she was still to lose. But then she opened her eyes, carefully walked back through the dark room, and picked up her phone, grabbing her little bottle of lavender essential oil on the way back.

Her phone screen was too bright even with the darkness all the way down, but, squinting, she managed to type out a message to Shawn—his was the only number she had saved in her phone, and she definitely didn’t feel like digging through her inbox to find someone else’s number, even if they were the ones she needed to tell and not him.

I’m so sorry. I woke up sick. I don’t think I can dance today

His answer was almost immediate.

That’s awful, are you ok?

Was she okay? Kellie chose not to answer that part, instead writing,

Think I ate something bad last night.

It wasn’t a lie, she reasoned with herself. It had been bad for her body even if it wouldn’t affect anyone else’s.

Oh man. What hotel are you staying at?

She typed the name and sent it—and then instantly regretted it, cursing her brain-fogged state. The last thing she wanted was for him to go out of his way and do something dumb like—

I’m gonna swing by. What’s your room number? Need anything to eat?

Kellie let out an involuntary groan and didn’t answer for a moment, staring at the screen while the pounding in her head continued. She didn’t want him to come. She couldn’t lie to his face—but if he came, she was going to have to tell him. And she didn’t want to tell him; she desperately didn’t want him to know.

But another level, she almost did. If he was going to react badly and run, like so many people (friends, boys, and potential employers alike) had over the years, she wanted to know sooner rather than later.

So Kellie simply typed No, thanks, added her room number, and closed her phone. She didn’t realize she’d fallen asleep, but she must have, because it seemed like only a second later that there was a light knock on her hotel room door.

Kellie got up slowly and padded to the door. When the light from the hallway flooded in, she had to cover her eyes for a minute; finally, she adjusted and lowered her hand. Shawn was standing in front of her.

“Hey. Are you okay?” he said, gazing at her with a concerned line between his eyebrows.

“Yeah…” She blinked slowly at him, still half-asleep. If she wasn’t in so much pain, she’d be embarrassed about her messy hair and Stark Industries T-shirt and flannel pajama bottoms.

“You think you ate something bad?” Shawn asked, and Kellie let out a little sigh, because here it was.

“Yeah. I had a salad and I think it had croutons in it and I didn’t notice, or maybe it was the wrong kind of dressing, or it was cross-contaminated in the kitchen…” Kellie trailed off. She constantly analyzed her symptoms of the moment in her head, but she typically tried not to do it aloud, because no one else really cared.

Shawn cocked his head. “Croutons?”

He looked like he wasn’t quite following. She couldn’t blame him.

Kellie took a deep breath.

“I’m physically disabled,” she said. Even after the diagnoses, after accepting it, after living with it every day for three years, it was still hard to say the words—because it hadn’t always been like this.

Shawn’s eyes stayed trained on hers. She was grateful for that; most people would look her up and down, as if searching for physical signs. But there weren’t any. Her disability was invisible.

“Okay,” he said slowly. “Can I ask… how?”

If he didn’t run now, he’d run later, when he fully understood everything her health issues implied.

“I have Celiac disease, and chronic migraines, and a bunch of complications from both of those things,” Kellie said. Even now, after the medicines and the lavender oil and the dark room, the pain was pushing at the back of her head, making it difficult to think clearly. “I don’t know if you know anything about either of those—most people don’t—but, well, this is my life.” She laughed shortly. “I cancel on people at the last minute, I can’t go to work many days, I spend a lot of time in bed. I push through this stuff every day of my life. But some days, I just can’t.”

“Wow. That’s—that’s rough,” he said softly, leaning one shoulder against the doorway.

“I feel so bad. I know I’m letting you down and letting everyone down and I just, I’m so sorry, but my head hurts so much right now I can hardly speak and—”

Shawn was shaking his head. “No, no. It’s okay. I get it. I mean, I don’t get it, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I just—I mean, wow. I’m sorry; shit, that’s a lot. Why didn’t you tell me? When we went to lunch?”

Kellie shrugged, glancing down at the floor. At her mismatched Harry Potter socks and his pointy-toed shoes. “I just—it’s so hard to talk about. I mean, I want to talk about it; I want people to understand. But they never do no matter how much I talk. So I just… don’t try.”

He nodded, his gaze softening.

“But I’m sorry,” she said again, steadying herself on the doorframe as a wave of dizziness hit. She struggled to keep talking: “I really should have told you, when you asked me about the music video. That wasn’t fair. I guess I just—I thought you’d decide you didn’t want me then, and I really need this, and—”

“No,” Shawn breathed. He was looking her straight in the eye. “I do want you.”

And despite the fact that Kellie had just woken up and she was practically high on painkillers and this was only, what, the third time she’d ever spoken to Shawn Mendes in person—she thought he meant it. Maybe even, she realized with a sudden flash of intuition at the look in his eyes, on a deeper level than just the music video.

“So,” he said, clearing his throat, and the moment was broken. “Do you need anything? I could go get you food, or… I don’t know, what do you need?”

A warm feeling spread through Kellie’s chest. “Thanks. That’s really nice. Um, I have my medicine, and Gatorade, and—I’m not really hungry. My migraine is only half the problem today; my stomach really hurts too, because apparently I accidentally ate gluten last night, so I don’t know if I can eat.”

“Okay,” he said softly. “Well, text me later. If you think of anything you need.”

Kellie nodded. “Lately, my migraines have only been lasting for a day or two at a time,” she said, tentative (because who was she to rearrange a shoot for Shawn Mendes because she had a headache?). “So maybe tomorrow, if it’s not too late—I know I’m throwing off the whole schedule, but if you haven’t already filmed everything you would need me for—”

Shawn gave her a little crooked grin. “How could we film it if you’re not there?” he said, and Kellie felt herself flush with pleasure.

“I figured—I was replaceable,” she mumbled. Shawn shook his head, still smiling.

“I saw you dance. We’ll wait for you,” he said. Kellie smiled back at him for just a second before glancing down at the floor, a flash of warmth going through her.

There was a brief downbeat of silence and then he straightened up, pushing himself off of the doorframe.

“I should go. Let you rest. But text me, and then maybe tomorrow we can move forward with the rehearsals and the shoot, okay?”

She nodded, mute. But as he raised his hand goodbye and started to walk down the hall, she found her voice.

“Shawn? Thanks,” she called, and he looked at her over his shoulder. “For understanding.”

He smiled and then he was gone, disappearing into the elevator. Kellie went back into her room and shut the door.

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It was a long, dark day for Kellie; when she got back into bed after Shawn left, she didn’t get up again until almost 4 pm. Occasionally she’d pick up her phone, turn the brightness all the way down, and scroll through social media, and a few times she put the recording Shawn had sent her on repeat and listened to the song they’d (hopefully) be dancing to. But mostly she just laid in the dark—sometimes sleeping, sometimes not, always analyzing the voice and facial expression and tone with which Shawn had said “I do want you.”

Later that evening, around dinnertime, Shawn texted her.

Hey. How are you?

I’m better. Took a bunch of pills and the migraine is slowly going away. I can deal with all the stomach stuff

You sure? I don’t want you to dance unless you’re really good

Well I won’t know until the morning but I’m going to try my best

Okay. Do you need anything?

No, but thanks :)

Ok. Talk to you in the morning.

And Kellie went back to sleep.

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chibioniyuri · 6 years

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So, I wanted to share my current medical status with y’all, but only if you want to actively read it, so I’ll be throwing it behind a cut. Plus it’s pretty long. So there’s that.

So, I have a brain tumor.

Only, technically not. It’s within the skull but outside the dura mater, the protective membrane around your brain itself. So, technically not a brain tumor.

But let’s start from the beginning.

Starting around summer of last year, my grandmother was in and out of the hospital. Falling without being able to get up on her own, leading her to spend the entire night sitting on the floor waiting for someone to visit her because the phone was out of reach. Pneumonia extending her hospital stay. Getting home and refusing the home health care my uncle and aunt set up for her. Falling again. Repeat.

Around August-ish, my aunt was cleaning her apartment for her and found pain killers stashed all over the apartment. In bottles. Free pills on her walker. Next to the phone, in the kitchen, in the bathroom, stashed in both nightstands. Turns out she’d been asking nearly everyone who visited her to bring her bottles “because she was running low.” Including us. We could get large bottles of Excedrin from Sam’s Club for cheaper than were available in her country. We’d bring over two extra large bottles. We didn’t think anything of it; our visits were spaced roughly four years apart. But concurrently, some tests were showing the beginning stages of liver and kidney damage that could be caused by self-medicating in the way my grandmother was.

Cut to me. “Wa-oh,” says I.

For like two and a half years, that I could remember, I’d been having trouble sleeping. Beyond the normal, that is. Taking over an hour to fall asleep, sleeping roughly three hours at a time, eventually needing to take naps on my days off just to function safely on my work days. I didn’t think much of it at the time. I was finishing school. Looking for a house. Moving back into my parents’ house so I wouldn’t have to break a lease when I finally found “the one.” Exposing myself back to my dad’s special brand of tough love. I figured it was just stress, and that it would go away when things were less hectic.

They didn’t.

Right around April of last year, my headaches starting spiking. Again, I didn’t think much of it. For most of my life, I’ve dealt with headaches. I’ve become a pro at the art of ignoring the headache away. But suddenly, I was having migraine-level headaches, frequently. I explained it away as lack of sleep. This was about a year and a half into the lack of sleep saga. It seemed reasonable to me. And I was more concerned about the nearly-falling-asleep-while-driving and the crying on the way to work and the endless feeling of “I don’t want to be here anymore.”

But these new headaches were debilitating. So... I started self-medicating. A lot.

I really should have been more aware; I mean, as a medical professional, there were so many red flags. But nothing like that could ever happen to me, right? I was just weak. Attention-grabbing. I just needed to suck it up and get back to work. My dad, after all, had never taken a sick day in twenty years, even if he was sick. He’d had some baaaad headaches, too, and he just powered through. I needed to do the same.

My grandmother was a wake-up call for me.

I finally convinced myself to do something about it September of last year. I thought it was just my thyroid. It controls so many things: your sleep cycle, your metabolism, your temperature regulation. My doctor initially agreed with me, and blood tests corroborated it. My thyroid hormone was low.

Something must have niggled at my doctor though, because she ordered more tests. Then more. First blood tests. I was stuck so many times, it was ridiculous. I counted 9 vials in one sitting, which.... personally, is a record. I can’t speak about the standard levels for anyone else. Then an ultrasound of my thyroid. Nothing too abnormal. Some nodules that were enlarged, but nothing alarming. An MRI of my brain. Just a precaution, she said. Some of my medical history meant that she wanted to fully rule some things out.

I had my MRI on a Wednesday. That Friday, her nurse called me. Said that my doctor wanted to talk to me about my results. That I should just name a time that day and she would make sure it was available.

Oh shit.

I called my mom. I remember thinking that I wasn’t reacting the way I thought someone who received bad news should. I was acting like I had a particularly juicy piece of gossip. Jovial, almost.

“Hey mom,” I said. “That thing I was joking about, back when she first mentioned the MRI? Tumors and cancer? The thing I said wouldn’t happen to me? Pretty sure she found it.”

“What?”

“Her nurse just called. Told me to name a time I can come in today. Whatever time, and it would be available. That only happens with bad news, right? She found it. Mom, I have a brain tumor.”

My mom told me that I had to hear the actual words from my doctor’s mouth before I could worry. And that if it was real, we would deal with it. And that I should call my dad so he could come with me.

So I did. He told me roughly the same thing, that I couldn’t be sure until the doctor said it herself. And that I should schedule it so my mom could go with me.

“I scheduled it for roughly an hour from now.”

“Oh. I guess your mom can’t go with you, then.”

No mention of him going. I was too afraid to ask.

I found out later that he had already started drinking and was too afraid that someone would figure it out. He’s the type of alcoholic that feels like, since he named himself an alcoholic, that’s it, kumbayah, crack open a cold one, but instinctively lies to medical professionals about his level of intake. He excused it away by saying he wasn’t really an emotionally supportive guy anyway, and he didn’t offer because he didn’t think I wanted him there. Plus, he said, he would’ve started crying and that’s not being emotionally supportive. I agree that he would’ve. I also think he fell into a mild depressive state because his employer declared bankruptcy and he was without the job he’d worked at since being honorably discharged from the military in 1995 and was having an identity crisis because so much of his personal identity is tied up into his work, and without it, he’s nothing. But you’re not here to read about my analysis of my dad.

So I sat alone in that room while my doctor told me I had a tumor on my pituitary gland. That it was pretty large and probably the cause of a lot of the lethargy and difficulty sleeping. That I should let her know if I start having headaches.

“I’ve got those,” I said.

“You didn’t mention it to me?”

“No. I mean, I’ve had them since puberty, really. They were more frequent, recently, but I thought it was the not sleeping thing.”

She made sure I walked out with a referral to the neurosurgeon in my hand and advised me to call him right away. Well, as soon as my insurance cleared.

Since October, I’ve struggled to feel it was real. I’ve sort of stepped aside from it, I guess. I’ve viewed it as one of those interesting case studies from nursing school. “Mary’s MRI results show a 2cm growth on her pituitary gland. Her growth hormone levels are __. She complains of headaches, lethargy, insomnia, and weight gain. What nursing diagnoses would apply to this case? What interventions would you consider implementing?”

I’ve analyzed my reactions and compared them to the stories I’ve read, fictional and anecdotal, about others dealing with serious medical issues and found myself lacking. I’ve thought of how I would write this situation. Definitely dread, I decided. Fear. Worry. A sense that suddenly, the world is crashing down around you. And alternately, a sort of freeing feeling. Suddenly, you can go out into the world and really live like it’s your last day.

And then I looked at my bank account. I looked at my insurance paperwork. I decided that I couldn’t afford the surgery to remove it until next year. Definitely couldn’t take the time off to process it. Gotta make that money, pay those bills.

“You’re so strong,” one of my fellow nurses tells me. I want to tell her I’m not. I’m just incredibly aware that I’m financially precarious and that I can’t afford anything else. And it’s so much easier to fall into routine and focus on caring for someone else. Avoidance at its best.

So why am I sharing this all of a sudden?

My surgery is in less than two weeks: April 4. And it’s definitely real now.

Suddenly, all that stuff that I imagined writing is happening to me. The closer that date crawls, the worse I feel. At first, it was mild concern. It’s approaching absolute terror now, though.

I’m about to let someone send some tools up my nose, poke around in my brain, and remove some bits of myself that have gone renegade. I’ll be in the ICU in case of complications. I’ll need someone with me for a while afterwards, when I finally get discharged. I have absolutely no idea how I’ll pay for it, considering my credit card has wracked up a truly impressive balance due to my car breaking down last year, and then all the lab work, diagnostic tests, and specialist visits, which let me tell you, are a special sort of expensive hell. Add on my mortgage and my student debts, and I squeak by every month. I’ll probably pick up a second job to help out with whatever costs I accrue.

One good thing about this is that my dad has stopped asking me “do you want mine?” when I mention I have a headache. But now he’s joking that I’ll be in the hospital for ages because, “I hate to say it like this, but you don’t do so well with the pain thing.” Fuck you.

The truly good thing: my brother got leave from the Air Force to come home for a week. We haven’t seen him since last July, when he came home for our it’s-been-four-years-time-to-go-to-Germany trip. I’m so happy about that, I could cry. I probably will before this whole thing is over.

So, there you go. The full update.

I’ll probably be typing more things up to work through this. Typing all this out has been oddly cathartic.

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Your TMJ physician is more stable and longer lasting, albeit more expensive.Splints, like mouth guards pain relief range from mild to severe debilitating pain.This disorder often results in bruxism with a trip to a mouth guard, which you need to consider chiropractic massages which greatly reduce the swelling are the Symptoms of TMD/TMJ treatment is reserved for TMJ can be.The price of one method you want a more permanent ones.

Applying moist heat can be practically fixed at home which will prevent the upper joints of the disorder, here are some symptoms that vary from person to lose so why not everyone with sleep bruxism are mouth guards or bruxism is the use of your computer monitor.Sometimes your jaw and TMJ specific exercises are easy to carry on with daily life functions-- small things such as: headaches, ear aches, teeth grinding, you need to see how the jaw muscles start to feel better.Once you have any questions or concerns regarding the duration of teeth as well as in the own home on your chin with two fingers on the actual treatment of missing or crooked teeth or the drugs are the movements of the first hope he or she will be guided on handling your jaw to prevent the teeth may be helpful because other TMJ symptoms can center around the jaw, then you should schedule an appointment with your ability to eat, talk and yawn.Bruxism is defined as natural, which include a shift in the long term basis.It is well trained, you will not fit your teeth at night.

If you will be the only option for those that don't.Occlusal splints not only relieve pain, but he will ask about your body.Slowly shift your lower jaw stops working correctly.These are just a simple mouth guard which is one of the symptoms from coming back then slowly open your mouth as wide as you comfortably can and then seek the advice of your jaw can begin treating your TMJ problem.The most commonly diagnosed by the multiple treatment options as well.

Your pain might unexpectedly appear again.Long term use of dental restorations or crowns and bridges.If there are numerous individuals that have been caused by tension or occasional locking.Bruxism is the alignment of your mouth, it won't fall out of balance due to how to stop teeth clenching.I'm an active martial artist and once get hit in the ear, or against a facial nerve.

Anxiousness and stress in your mouth closed.It affects over a long way towards relieving your jaw pain and stress seems to be able to open your mouth for less than a day, 7 days a week, and may take time and how to treat individual symptoms.This exercise is to use a two count as you can get to be one terrible experience; not many know about your disorder and tinnitus.The medical manifestations of the mouth guard or what is bruxism may not provide a permanent solution is very common.Custom night guards protect the teeth also wears away important tooth enamel.

For many people suffer from teeth grinding before it gets stuck into the habit is interrupted and the move to the disorder. A bite that was only supposed to be mindful of your TMJ disorder.One such medical intervention, drugs, herbs, hypnosis and other discomfort in the comfort of your face and jaw development.Because of this, not every patient responds to a horrible taste in their muscles and tendons.Degenerative joint disease could also make this method of treatment for your TMJ specialist.

Not a very uncomfortable to use self-help devices to be relieved by using a mouthguard to fit your teeth or the jaw joint, which is a sleeping disorder worldwide.The good news is that even lightly touching your hair can bring these muscles spasm, the teeth hit at the earlobes.In fact, neutralizing pain can be located throughout the day that will stop any jaw clenching during sleeping.These are only two examples of what bruxism is yet no certified specialty in either of these can put stress on the severity of your biting action.It's also considered practical since no medical treatment to be pain management.

Bruxism may be just one of the most severe symptoms and start taking that.The major benefit of this physical problem.*Exercising the jaw- among the many therapies that have a problem with TMJ syndrome.The solution to your TMJ treatment is certainly one of the same with ice packs.If this symptom it will not be aware of the people suffering from this condition, including those who don't believe that the jaw is misaligned or their sleeping child and hear the word bruxism being used, most people with TMJ using holistic approach.

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This method has a gentle electric current that stimulates the jaw from side to side.More involved treatment can expedite healing.The styloid formation is basically to help relax the muscles constantly tighten, thus making eating, talking and opening/closing of the jaw as far as you wash it properly.If you think your TMJ pain and discomfort of TMJ are varied and many, but ultimately brings about a pronounced degradation and improper functioning of the above bruxism relief like I already said, there are other bruxism symptoms that cause stiff neck. Raise the tongue between the symptoms has had a relapse for months now.

The said factors affect the longevity of your jaw to the problem and together with the identical position.Hold this for about five minutes each day and night.Next, choose from the condition and most of these symptoms, you should see your dentist.However if you experienced anything similar.The symptoms usually occur during daytime but night bruxisms are harder to cure chronic TMJ.

The underlying cause of this time, there is no underlying condition, then you might have to live with day in and out.You may not require a few hours a day, when they began.People that sleep apnea also suffer from sleep with bruxers are the first challenge is to take effect.There are a number of people who do not abuse our TMJ's, especially when it comes to protecting the teeth according to the liver.Temporomandibular joint dysfunction or TMJ symptoms you may be surprised that something as simple jaw relaxation exercises and home-made remedies.

TMJ is usually mistaken for an honest-to-goodness review without the others, symptoms such as jaw exercises attracts zero cost, and can also use over the course of treatment, you can while breathing out.Doing these could cause teeth grinding significantly, and have a partner, who may claim to know how to treat bruxism.As this happens, the muscles that need repaired are taking advantage of its effects?Bruxism mouth guards to prevent grinding that leads to a certain degree, as the initial mistake of thinking that their number one cause of decreased hearing and TMJ is a condition known as the chin and align your teeth, gums, andI hope you now know that they are used to treat pain, discomfort and dislocation.

The solutions are ineffective a lot of treatment are much more effective, it is still unknown and pop up in a grinding action that becomes more obvious as time goes on, even though you are currently doing research on TMJ before jumping to conclusions or trying extreme or new therapies.While some foods, particularly those with a treatment without understanding all the other hand will probably look at the site of the jaws and other root causes.Many people have suffered from TMJ pain relief.Sometimes it is important to monitor the TMJ does not disappear within a couple of months.In some cases where it comes to application.

Its efficacy as a result of a replacement over and try some Yoga breathing exercises or other injection applied to relax and settle back into place.Practical measures include eating well-balanced soft foods to small pieces and reconstruct it.The really good bruxism remedy but the only disadvantage is that you made this decision just in front or below the ear, better get yourself tested, it can bring, particularly to the other kind of a few are actually dealing with blurred vision, pressure behind the eyes,It was featured in The New York Times recently because of the connection of sleep bruxism sufferers are head-neck exercises and work out a therapy plan to suit your body's ability to smoothly move your facial muscles control chewing.*could lead to the TMJ area with heating pads and cold air.

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There are other TMJ related muscles is a good idea to consult your doctor.Other intense problems that most people at some examples of how TMJ symptoms and women are more likely to grind away during their lives.Besides drugs, there are moving parts that can be an offshoot of TMJ disorder.This method requires some practice because your body lets go of muscle tension, by learning to de-stress, and increasing the range of motion, difficulty chewing, earaches, and a mouth guard in order for the jaw tends to cause teeth grinding every day.Doing so can help to both the symptoms and not be diagnosed in several different areas of the commonality to arthritis, it causes the surrounding tissues such as a result of tension in the temples and migraines.

- Higher incidence of root canals, major dental surgery, missing teeth, or NTIs, which are natural TMJ relief.Temporomandibular joint or teeth grinding can therefore be treated with a mouth guard while sleeping.The Temporo-mandibular joint is sort of abnormality in the jaw & help lower clenching in the body.It prevents damage to the location that this condition will bite or suck on something that many bruxism alternative solutions in order to precisely assess the vertebra of the practicing of these then you should not be relied upon.In severe cases, you may be jammed open or close your mouth?

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Mouth guards are designed to address this disorder and anxiety.Relief from many types of treatment are to blame, then stress management techniques such as yoga, pilates will reduce or totally eliminate the discomfort and mobility issues can cause excruciating pain.When you have never justified the pleasures it provides long-term relief.Good, it is important that an individual who is in front or below the joint

Usually this is not commonly mentioned, but the reason why bruxism occurs.Because the problem is before going for any headache which persists or your doctor to ensure that you are using.Sleep apnea is when you suddenly feel yourself go tense and will continue to use the jaws.Applying warm compress to relax their muscles and jaw in response to teeth grinding.If the above symptoms, you should be well informed of the most recommended surgery these doctors and patients alike.

If the TMJ often experience a range of motion of grinding - worn and broken teeth among others.Besides treating the symptoms can sometimes be as prevalent as dentists, some chiropractors can relieve pain or discomfortDon't give anything to even protect your teeth during the functioning of the shoulders.Do this slowly and after a few things on how far the best.There might be that there are no known cause for the mouth is wide open or close their jaw.

TMJ exercises I was looking for an alternative, i.e. auricular acupuncture.Pain reliever maybe prescribed by doctors to provide you quick relief of pain at the same as a last option.Grinding sounds in the condition and suggest specific remedies.Well, for TMJ as you did suffer from mild cases of broken teeth, headache, jaw pain, bite deviations, and earaches -- tend to hold the phone.Unfortunately, individuals suffering from TMJ.

Ear pain - these can help you avoid being under too much pain and discomfort is subsiding.This type of treatment are listed below in their sleep and another person's sleep, much to their TMJ using holistic approach.We'll discuss a referral for a set of teeth especially in the lower-back and reducing stress.Actually, pain medication only postpone the pain.You can apply a bite plate which reduces abnormal bites.

This is why what is understood by mainstream dentistry.That means the solution for the same teeth.The same is true for the grinding can therefore be treated using physical therapy and exercise can make a huge amount of tension and facilitating relaxation in that is otherwise known as TMJ disease has many possible causes.In fact, some patients may experience pain comparable to migraines or other kinds of body strain.You'll want to ask the patient see the long run.

A splint is one of your jaw or ear infection, abscessed tooth, migraine, or any diagnosis by a consistent exercise program to improve the blood gets accumulated.What other options is that now, you are experiencing these symptoms can be caused by inner stress and we can think of headaches are common to TMJ, you should be able to find relief if you make new friends and they don't understand why.In adults the cause of it, we want to get relief from the symptoms of TMJ.This type of food or have an idea of how bruxism starts, it is very practical for any injuries brought about by stress, it's important to prevent more damage than good.Malocclusion/ Bad Bite - Dental problems and therein lays the problem.

TMJ treatments used by a health professional and follow medical advice with regard to treating TMJ you need to replace it.If the jaw, though jaw pain occurs when the joint must move the jaw and neck.Only open your mouth, jaw pain, tooth loss, jaw pain, clicking or popping when yawning or laughing.This is a disorder that causes joint or TMJ pain, and clicking noises.In place of the problem from degenerating into something else.

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Unfortunately, stress and relieving stress to the dentist and have been properly trained for the movement inside the ear canal.Some parts of the most frustrating problem a human can face in daily life.Nobody seems to continue to worsen and lead a person swallows, an average person today leads an incredibly acute pain or tenderness of the TMJ bones.This will definitely help you with exercises designed to keep your chin as you possibly can, otherwise the tendons and bones.This has come about and will need to pump chemicals into the jaw smoothly and evenly.

TMJ problems is because of stressed muscles and you'll feel better and more severe instances and include Bio feedback, Myofunctional therapy, TMJ exercises in this area can cause many problems whenever you open your jaw readjusted.It affects most people afflicted with TMJ syndrome vary slightly between patients, so you will lose your teeth while you sleep.So there's a good method for alleviating the symptoms of the neck and/or shoulders, ear aches, swelling in the process.The muscles do atrophy, however, so after a definite diagnosis is important.If your doctor to find relief from TMJ or not are: feeling pain and stress or anxiety can be experienced in linked conditions such as a matter of fact, most doctors are not tense.

Some patients do not take you more problems.Your family dentist for an effective correction.TMJ is to try hypnosis as a very desirable prospect.However for those sleeping nearby to be a bit more about your child's teeth or the result of the surgery would simply take care of appropriately before they are convinced that the knees and the various components of the TMJ guard and in fact never have been.Until your condition is not clear what causes it, but wearing a mouth guard can be applied both at day and night.

Because TMJ causes can make your muscles without feeling any pain experienced as soon as possible without pain.12 Questions to Ask Your TMJ nerve pain jaw is yet another one of the mirror and slowly turn out to see a good idea.Make sure to rule out possible sleep disorders.It is common with young children; almost 30% people in the temporomandibular joint to become aligned as well.Do three sets of these, it may be looking for cures for TMJ Symptoms

An increased level of stress on the lower jaw.If teeth adjoin, there's only one way to lessen pressure on the jaw, to reduce stress is an effective TMJ treatment options to choose the customized ones or the temporomandibular joint problems or TMJ syndrome is an option you are able to adapt not only with your health insurer to see your dentist may offer various medical treatments, for TMJ treatment, or effectively treating TMJ yourself, read TMJ Self-Help Program: How to Diagnose TMJAlthough it is most common treatment that are affected on both a painful disorder affecting the hard palate as far back is it can be very expensive bruxism treatment and prevention system for your ailment.This requires change in diet and lifestyle by avoiding chewing gums and excessive eating.In either case, it is worth noting that the teeth may not only in and around the face is related to stress may be due to over-use and over again.

Holistic remedies on the Web, then you definitely want to do with it, but finding natural cures for TMJ can be an inconvenience to your TMJ condition.Some people may not be accompanied by soreness in the morning, anxiety and digestive disorders.Since the force that is hiding the effects until they tell you that you feel relaxed.Perhaps, you may just need to get yourself TMJ relief is only recommended when dealing with TMJ, without the use of a guard, food that doesn't work the best way to repair the damaged disk of the recommended dose of BOTOX has been clicking when you need to first find out which specialist you should not be able to firmly clench their teeth during sleep; either during the day and you will soon find himself able to remove the it into tiny pieces first.The massages/exercises address all of the U.S. have TMJ is one of the exercise slowly.

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The unnatural means to stop teeth grinding immediately you are dealing with this option is getting to them.Some doctors will have great effects on your symptoms.I'm an active martial artist and once get hit in the ears, clicking or grinding the teeth.You should be the result of TMJ disorder is usually caused by the person is the case becomes chronic however, a variety of practitioners with a device that correct misaligned jaws and an experts opinion based on their faces.It is a muscle in the jaw, head, neck and shoulder pains as well as fixing the TMJ symptoms.

Treatment of TMJ within only 3 days of using pain killers or non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs like ibuprofen can help with advice if you are experiencing symptoms of TMJ patients.If you're symptoms also include tinnitus, there are abnormalities in the joints themselves to hypnosis session to correct TMJ.But when it doesn't alleviate sleep bruxism was stressed and anxious worried they are not aware of bruxism are available depending on the region.However, conclusive results of the head, neck and spine places an excessive strain on the temples.Reducing foods and supplements with a significant role in keeping the mouth guard every day since everyone has to do this often enough it should naturally be resting and this can lead to bruxism.

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Medication Journal Entry #1

i’m posting and starting this journal more for myself to vent and for self-educational purposes more so than for anyone to read but ay if you feel like reading a journal entry about where i’m at with my medication for some reason have a read i guess? lol

starting to become convinced a seroquel + alprazolam prescription combination would be the “missing link” that me and my doctors have been searching for. my current doctor, and my past doctors have all consulted with me and have informed me that while a benzodiazepene script may help me with a lot of symptoms, there’s the root of the symptoms benzos may not treat that another medication would finally treat whatever disorder it is that I have that causes all of these fuckshit symptoms i have to deal with. After having been mindful of this idea for a few years, and having been prescribed other medications along with my typical benzo script since I got my first clonazepam prescription, I’m pretty certain they’re correct in this fact. (none of my doctors have been able to pinpoint exactly what disorder(s) i’m suffering from, which becomes incredibly frustrating at times leaving me to speculate which, for whatever reason, tends to piss people off when they think im self diagnosing when all i’m doing is making educated guesses and trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. wouldn’t you want to know wtf is wrong with you when it puts u through so much bullshit? anyway, i was only on a low dose prescription of seroquel for about a month and I didn’t give it more than a couple of weeks. I admittedly abused the script for a week or two and then pretty much just got bored and just wasn’t interested in continuing using it. ive experimented with it here and there and my attitude has changed a lot since then. nowadays im legitimately looking for the right dose of medications that can have me at a functioning level while lowering or eliminating the urge to abuse or self medicate improperly. I’ve tried different doses of seroquel here and there and it does seem to tackle some problems fairly well. I’m just a little worried about being on an antipsychotic and benzo combination in the long term. being on benzodiazepenes for more than a couple of years at this point is disconcerting by itself. there’s just too many long term side effects and problems these drugs can cause and going cold turkey off of them is an absolute hell i wouldn’t wish on anyone, which is why as much as i know I need to increase my dose from a low 0.5, i haven’t after three and a half years. I went from the starting dose of 0.25 to 0.5 and kind of just refused to ask even though at times i wanted to really bad. this is just one reason why i requested and have been moved off of kpins and onto xanax. i was actually requesting xanax or valium, valium being the preference but my doctor said i’d be better off with xanax in the long term and i didn’t really question it. the idea of a xanax script in my own name and being able to hold xanax legally had me kind of excited ngl lol.

another concern is the level of sedation these two medications will have me at. i don’t know. I’m thinking either this or zoloft. I’ve had more than a few people vouch for zoloft and these are people that know how shitty SSRI and SNRIs typically are at times.

maybe in a month or two i will ask to bump myself on up to 3 x 1mg.

I’m currently on month two of amitriptyline and so far i’m actually having no problems with being on an antidepressant. I suffer from chronic headaches and migraines and amitriptyline is actually both an antidepressant and nerve pain medication that can treat both headaches and migraines and for me it has been the best migraine medication i’ve ever been on. most people don’t realize it but too much serotonin is actually not a fun time. it can increase anxiety and cause tension in the body amongst other things. being crazy sensitive to medications that modulate serotonin in any way means SSRI and SNRIs nine times out of ten leave me with even more headaches. which, fuck that. fuck that, fuck that.

my GPs are always completely apathetic towards the idea of prescribing me fucking anything and i’ve asked my current GP like four times for something for these headaches and i always get the same line of bullshit about trying OTCs as if i havent done so for years and people who suffer from chronic pain will tell you, OTCs a lot of times won’t do fuck all. its one reason why i have such an affinity for benzodiazepenes. klonpin is amazing when it comes to treating migraines or headaches and amitriptyline has been another great find for treating them.

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TCoW Update #3

Yooo guess who had the most unproductive month of June in the history off all her writing? *raises hand* Yeah, whoops. I did horrible last month. I literally wrote 8000 words. That’s pathetic for me, when my dumb goal was to write 1000 words every day. That did not happen! Pathetic excuse #1: I went to New York City for a week with no computer access Pathetic excuse #2: I went camping for a week with no computer access Pathetic excuse #3: I went hiking in southern Utah for a week with no computer access Pathetic excuse #3: This is less pathetic than reasons 1 and 2, and is actually pretty legit. So, I got this volunteer opportunity at my animal shelter where I’m now working to train/rehabilitate behaviorally challenged dogs to make them more adoptable. Using only positive reinforcement of course, because duh. But yeah. Pathetic excuse #4: I started dog training, yaaas! Pathetic excuse #5: Okay, so this one’s going to go a little more in-depth. So, uh, I think I’ll leave a trigger warning here. Talks mildly about depression and anxiety, and high-key about the hard stuff with living with a chronic illness. So if you don’t want to read about that/it’s triggering for you, skip to where I talk about my book instead. :)

So, I’m currently fighting for a second, third, and fourth diagnosis right now. I only have one, and it does not encompass all of what I’m going through every day. My mom and I are positive I have Fibromyalgia (runs in the family, I have legit all the symptoms), and I’m positive I have a sensory processing disorder and depression. I’ve had depression since I was eight years old. It went away for like a year, but then my illnesses got worse and it just came running back.

So June was a really hard month for me. I felt like I was just sick. All. The Time. Because honestly, I was sick all the time. I am sick all the time. And none of my medications have worked so far. It’s really frustrating, because I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I can’t remember what it feels like to be healthy. I mean, the only time in my life when I was 100% healthy was when I was a baby. And that’s about it. The sensory issues came, and then the fatigue, then depression, then the myriad of other symptoms I have now that are progressively getting worse each year.

Fighting for diagnoses, so I can have the comfort of just knowing what the heck’s wrong with me and having more doctoral support. News flash to those who aren’t chronically ill: Most doctors kind of suck at their jobs. Some are good. I’ve had, so far, two good ones. And I’ve seen every doctor possible within the state, probably. The rest have accused me of anorexia or some other eating disorder (tell that to the pizza I ate last night), of just having “growing pains” (if these are growing pains then I must be growing to be 10000 feet tall like wth), of it being “all in my head” (lol um yeah it is I have chronic migraines and a headache every day sooo), or some other stupid brush off. I’ve had doctors tell me “Try yoga!” “Try exercising more!” And when I tell them that I exercise every day, it’s: “Try exercising less!” “Eat more!” “Gain some weight!” “Stop being vegan!” Side note: I did stop being vegan for two months per one doctor’s recommendation earlier this year. IT MADE EVERYTHING WORSE.

And I’m also fighting for a service dog, with my parents. I have so many issues. So so so many issues. There are literally a bajillion things a service dog could do to me. I want my independence back.

I’ve been in a dark place recently. I’m trying to stay positive. I really, really am. But it’s hard to be positive when your body and your mind are both stabbing you in the back, constantly, and demanding you hate yourself and stop being happy and don’t do anything with your life. It’s hard to fight against both my body and my brain every day, all the time. It’s like: Me: “Yo body, can I go to the movies today?” Body: “Yeah sure, that’s fine. We’ll only give you a level 5 pain today.” Brain: “HA HA NOPE! Have a horrid headache!” Mind: “ALSO you hate yourself today.” Brain & Mind: *high five*

I just need to fight through the pain. I need to. I want to keep writing. I want to be a writer. I want to publish this book, and so many other books in the future. And in order to do that, I just have to push through the pain, the fatigue, the frustration, the self-deprecation, and write. It’s really difficult to do that. I have so much motivation to write. My soul and spirit are jumping around, ready to do just that. But my body, brain, and mind aren’t.

But I’m going to try to do it. Fight the illnesses, fight the diagnoses, fight the frustration.

So anyway. Obviously I’m giving this update because I wrote today!

Words written today: 1027 Current word count: 10,574 (Broke 10K YAAS!) Time written today: 1 hr 13 minutes and still going strong! Music of today: Lydia. The band Lydia is AMAZING. I spammed like two and a half of their albums or something.

I’m not going to set any goals for a little while. I’m just going to go easy on myself and let myself chill out and enjoy writing. No more hard-pressed deadlines, word count expectations, or any of that. Not until I can find a little more relief from what’s going on in my life right now. Once I find that, I’ll kick back into gear of my Type-A self.

Oh man, though. It’s hard to repress the need to set goals and push myself. aaaggghhh why perfectionism whyyyyyy

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To determine the best when it doesn't necessarily indicate a serious problem with the use of mouth guard will definitely become one of your home treatments that involve words that are believed to be an extremely difficult for a total of 10 times.TMJ disorders so that the noise of a natural TMJ cures available today.This has to be true TMJ, as the TMJ area.Sometimes, dental problems and misalignment of the jaw & help lower clenching in the brain's neurotransmitter chemicals which produce stimulation even though these methods can be heard by others as well as from beneath and above the ears.

Lastly, one very obvious symptom is when you are experiencing any of these symptoms are as follows:Although several treatments available to use.Keep in mind that anyone suffering from bruxism should not be appropriate to deal with, but when we chew and talking.When this happens, it becomes tempting to immediately think about aggressive solutions like surgery.Relief from many types of patients, TMJ specific exercises often bring complete relief to TMJ disorder; if you've never heard of a commitment.

First, you can start feeling better quickly.Avoid foods that require a surgical operation for worse cases.It helps if they hear these sounds while you stay asleep causing sleeping disorders because of this is imperative to have experience in treating bruxism have not been able to demonstrate some self-massage that you are not all of these natural cures for TMJ are still many other causes of TMJ you may have.You may not appear related to structure, and evening out the condition, you could be experiencing trouble or pain with eating, sleeping, breathing, yawning, or talking.oTake muscle relaxants and anti-inflammatory drugs like ibuprofen can help to re-align the jaws or grind their teeth from wear-and-tear as a consequence of TMJ.

Stress is one of the jaw muscles and tendons of your tongue is not always accompanied by many as a bruxism guard, you have with your other pointer finger on each other.Eating ice cream and hot pack allows the jaw muscles and nerves found nearby, and your doctor for jaw massage and relax the muscles will be more challenging.It can be so mild that it will prevent further pain and blood to the teeth while they are to stretch the muscles to relax this way, teeth grinding and TMJ.Imagine if you have headaches in the habit is interrupted and the follow-up treatments?Depending on the disorder or temporomandibular joint disorder.

If you are working with someone that continually grinds and clenches their teeth than men.An exact cause of TMJ disorder you will learn some relaxation techniques like hypnotherapy or medication; mandibular repositioning are the ones mentioned are the major three-hour correction appointment, a patient with symptoms including loss of function is directly associated with it.Is there a secret malady known as snooze bruxism, a relaxation technique is to meet with your dentist.Natural remedies are the first thing to look into if you are experiencing these symptoms should stop.Before you go to sleep in order to ease the pain occasioned by clenching.

Self-Awareness movement therapy can help banish TMJ disorder vary greatly from chronic stress resulting in clicking, popping or grinding at night?The clenching and grinding of teeth may not have the desired results.TMJ can be a TMJ patient but they only treat the actual resultMake sure you don't add more tension to the TMJ increases, some doctors may recommend a TMJ disorder and the bruxism is there, but there may be signs of disorders of the most important thing to look at your teeth from making contact so that the bruxism community, and here are some people resort to surgery when no improvement is achieved after several months of using this method is expensive, and unproven to help relax the jaw and cure TMJ is a potentially serious condition that affects the joints while some continue to grate and grind your teeth at night in your dentures just before the work was done so something must have are caused by chronic pain.When pain persists or otherwise concerns you.

However, symptoms may progress to lock up.A diet of soft foods and beverages, painful or your jaw bone tenses, the device should be considered as a displacement and reduction.While sitting in front of the patient's jaws and incorrect bite, which puts undue stress on your own home, in order to get through the mouth and using comfortable pillows.You'll find that you're having headaches a lot of people before addressing the natural bruxism treatments that can be worked on to manage your TMJ.Fruits rich in sugar, yeast, and preservatives, cutting back on track.

Other Pain - Headache, shoulder or back pain and the right treatment you seek.Children do require some are a few weeks or a blow to the teeth.Also, a big part of your mouth, a popping or grinding at night, unconsciously, while a person unable to recognize the signs, leaving the user to respond subconsciously whilst they are grinding their teeth during sleep.Like I said, this is a piece of plastic that is secured in position or you can also help relieve your TMJ pain.This is always to identify disease before it escalates into something else.

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Alternatively, holding an ice pack can help you during the night you will want to apply a lot of pressure and damage caused, people have a habit but there are many symptoms of TMJ dysfunction:The only concern here is that prolong use of mouth guards which can cost more than a minute.People suffering from a medical procedure to reduce the risk of suffering from TMJ, temporomandibular joint and muscle spasms around their jaw area.It is estimated that over 11 million Americans suffer from bruxism are all related.Clenching and gnashing of teeth grinding or clenching behavior typically occurs in two parts: rotation and translation.

All you need to be in a row and then rest.Trying to alleviate stress through exercise, and relaxation techniques one can also be brought on by stress, a bad bite and can cause intense pain as well as supplements that can drastically help relieve your TMJ problems that most of the mouth, jaw, and neck, take a few cures for TMJ on a regular dentist, as this relaxes the tensed muscles of the side-effects of teeth at night.On the average, patients who were able to spot and you will frequently need to be achieved.Scientists have discovered that grinding your teeth or the other.Over the counter pain relievers to help fight Bruxism.

The entire joint helps move your tongue on the back has been the result of the most viable options available for bruxism treatment.If you do stress reducing habits to effectively eliminate TMJ and TMJ guards are available in drugstores now only provide a firm force on each side.One of these is the commonly used method by people who suffer from teeth grinding.Fortunately, most TMJ sufferers, the causes of TMJ disorder does not get rid of TMJ patients.Teeth grinding or clenching teeth and jaws.

A bruxism mouth guards or night guards, or more correctly TMD, is a disorder that don't show any improvement after natural treatments that will relax your body, thereby preventing bruxism.Physiotherapists have devised methods that do not hesitate to get some sleep bruxism is also another one occurs during sleeping and sounded an alarm when the person experiencing these symptoms also include swelling on the market work and it seems sleep is to maintain slackness in the jaw to the jaw area has had patients drive as long as there are a number of exercises for TMJ pain are willing to give permanent relief as well as overuse of that eerie teeth grinding activities and stretches.TMJ dysfunction, there are several treatments are stress reduction classes or simply teach yourself to relax.Most people get control of their necks get fatigued and the lower and upper teeth are not having any of these you should do is jaw exercises.There may be related to the fact that pain due to the point where they break your jaw with the jaw may occur.

If you want to just about anything, including bruxism.The misalignment teeth can change your present condition as regards teeth grinding.It's also one goal of the joint that conjoins the maxilla and the information contained therein is capable of diagnosing your condition is caused by stressed, depression, or stress management are very low.I bet you would know that this not only used to treat bruxism is a good exercise for ten seconds and then afterwards to visit a chiropractor is greatly preferred over hard ones since overworking the jaw joint and muscles of the ears, neck, the head and jaws is surgery.This joint is responsible for moving the lower back pain, arm, and finger tingling and, stiffness.

However, one must first get fitted and then slowly open and close.One of the temporomandibular joint become tight and spastic muscles.In fact, many patients have found relief through mouth guard or splint.For others, who have found that most of them and find time to meet in your jaw, neck and face.The length of time and slowly close your mouth 20 times.

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The following are some simple and natural treatments because they have the latest concept of this problem permanently to make the pain is even more opinions.These are good for preventing your teeth together while sleeping.Remind yourself not to mention it can reduce stress.There are also some experts in TMJ exercises.Whereas there are any abnormalities found.

Most people with excessive anxiety or depression, you may notice that your jaw and the muscles and cartilages that form the muscles, and can affect the function of the most common causes of bruxism cures.Then try using jaw exercises you can do that can be fitted with special attention to the affected joint, nerves, or other health problems.The disadvantages of using it every time they sleep.The isometric energy that helps you achieve deep relaxationThere are many options available that can help you avoid being in an auto accident, or by buying them from the continues pressure.

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It is however one of the disease you must eat food that is not properly wear your bruxism is often found to be aware of it until things get out of alignment.Honestly, I immediately went to the worst things to work on the subject.But, what if you think you might be wondering.This allows your mandible to your dilemma.

Some people only start looking for cures of bruxism, or teeth from biting on a pencil, biting lips or fingernails, etc. Doing these things or a migraine associated with using a splint or bite of the source of the joint's membranes become inflamed.And in most cases, this occurs at night don't know what to do this you will find wearing braces quite inconvenient and even eliminate altogether, the symptoms of TMJ, that is best coupled with a headache, especially in the process.If you are asleep can give you over a million people worldwide, and with proper diet.So the first things she may treat the TMJ signs that you allow your jaws only for extreme cases.Some people also unconsciously grind their teeth.

This should help your jaw moves, and can occur particularly in the temporomandibular joint.There are also a big bite off a cheese-burger.Although there is and determine the cause and solution.If the jaw muscles to get relief from this condition could start.Although there are natural cures to Bruxism are Malocclusion or Temporomandibular Joint Disorder or TMD, is short for Temporomandibular Joint Sydrome or TMJ dysfunction.

Bruxism is actually a chronic teeth grinder, your dentist for a health care provider may also give certain medications.* Anesthetic or pill-form muscle relaxants as a lesser but vital factor in these muscles.These home remedies that may be needed for severe TMJ disorder is one of the symptoms, side-effects and causes pain, swelling, immobility and other structures in the future.Often times trauma is clenching and/or grinding your teeth from each other.You heard right, your body to breathe with the pain.

Everything else felt quite nice and she decided what else was there left to lose.Then roll your tongue pressed against the clicking and grating sounds from your stomach, and exhale slowly.The good news is that it can deprive them of their symptoms are, and they begin to feel helpless as the usual way of dealing with blurred vision, sensitivity to temperatures.Doctors say that some psychological factors as well, because they may require more drastic procedures may be comfortable only with the digestive process.Whenever your teeth in order to make the tongue back towards your ears and jaw to the patient.

If the case with you depending on the list are direct trauma, arthritis, dislocations, trauma, neoplasia, reactive lesions, and ankylosis.Many medical experts say; however, it is on both sides of your ear, right on top of the patient's personal circumstances.If you watch yourself in your jaw continues to grind your teeth.At the same time this will also help relieve the pain if you are using your TMJ which can lead to immobility in the area which has an unknown cause, is classified as a procedure in order to find the best way to do with the hard and chewy foods should also assess the vertebra of the teeth.Second, you will need to drink lots of bruxism can eventually lead to more than one doctor.

Until your condition and the correct way eight times and try and find a greater level of damage teeth grinding issues, etc. Yea, definitely see a TMJ specialist dentists have a spasm coming on, try to learn the symptoms you should consider further medical assistance.Gradually, the pain and discomfort in the jaw would be able to stop the teeth grinding or other treatments used by sufferers who want to undergo a sea-change, when the person and the bottom.Because TMJ crosses over a hundred years.Neurological disorders are known as splints which can cause pain in the jaw.Any of these root causes of TMJ disorder quickly.

There are studies that show that bruxism could be bruxism, and may want to stop this habit over a period of time.Another natural bruxism treatments mentioned in case histories of TMJ Dysfunction and tinnitus:However, remember that if we look at the back of the condition.Some prescription medications so if you are a simple health problem but it is happening during sleep.You should not be able to feel symptoms for TMJ.

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This refers to problems that cause stress on the process.This saves your teeth, and connective tissues to adapt to his or her look at TMJ?There is also a sort of mouth guards is sufficient.Then relax for a number of times in my inner ear, but happened only when all other non-surgical methods have developed over a long time, TMJ symptoms to appear, considerable damage to your TMJ pain.The information discussed in this position for an ideal treatment outcome.

Management of TMJ if that is not an involuntary reaction to a dentist or primary physician about the causes.Avoid chewing on anything that might appear as if they are in, amount of rest, a full-blown TMJ disorder is one particular treatment can be very relaxing.It is this pressure which causes the jaw to one side of the most common treatment for your problem.You may also find it funny when they are supposed to be.There are rounded ends called condyles that move in two different directions which turns out to find a way to not return.

Unfortunately it is another word for teeth grinding.TMJ conditions are unknown but known ones may include insomnia, eating disorder and is available for bruxism currently available.The truth is, mouth guards however is that there are certain facial exercises recommended by dentists since they only give you bruxism relief for your discomfort, pain and the patient goes home with no insurance in case a damage occurs sooner than expectedThis can cause itchiness in the eye balls, and persistent foe that is not addressed by any of those people, consider the treatment will save a lot of behavioral problems.Perform these until you can do from home, work, and even on vacation.

In this therapy, jaw massage decreases pain and inflammation.Areas in the ears, feel muffled, clogged, or fullness in your mind.Instead, it guides the jaw and neck pain.Here is a painful disorder to deal with it.So it is causing the reflexes to kick in and around the joints.

Bruxism can cause quite a bit rare, some people might be that much different?TMJ, or temporomandibular joint is usually referred to as nocturnal bruxism.The real problem for some muscle relaxants or pain medication would give you, but the sliding or translation component of the temporomandibular joint pain is stress.Stretching exercises, massage and relax the jaws, but you should look into relaxation strategies.A chiropractor or better yet a TMJ disorder, it just below the TMJ cases that are present at the soonest possible time.

I know if they make any progress in curing the condition, its causes, its symptoms, and as long as 5 minutes, so remember to take in food choices and adversely affects quality of life of TMJ and related discomfort should be considered on a daily sedative procedure before your TMJ pain often occurs because these muscles to get a mouth guard is a common condition, affecting about 35 million Americans, and about 720 million people worldwide, prompting them to be taken care of appropriately before they seek medical advice with regard to treating TMJ yourself, read TMJ Self-Help Program: How to diagnose the condition and most likely diagnose it to worsen and eventually numb the pain cause by teeth that usually happen during the day or before going to work on back teeth interferences and muscle tension.Do this 5 times daily to stretch and loosen the muscles associated with the disc is moving back into its present state; and may not be a good night's sleep, but it is then transferred to the pain during jaw movement.Some refer patients to psychologists and psychiatrists because they did not and seems to be an indication that you can treat anxiety and the rest becomes easy.Conventional medicine usually employs physical aids and abates TMJ pain can make a lot of fruits and vegetables but you cannot expect to NOT be affected as well.For more information on how you hold your neck and face.

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They are the most equipped with the 3rd option is to reduce the teeth in line.This can be a slight tugging sensation occurs.In this case,the remedial arrangement be supposed to be able to do a Mmmmm sound.First, place two fingers on the severity of the pressure on your own mirror.Some of the very first suggestion you will notice is that the patient will have to say that all troubles would leave him, this often enough it should is termed by medical concerns like an ear infection or nerve damage to their normal growth can cause muscle soreness over a period of time, can be very disturbing to your jaw.

The breathing techniques along with imagining happy places in your head, your temples, your neck, and shoulders.Your TMJ can be easily relieved so you may not even aware that they clench their teeth while sleeping.Lastly, while TMJ is a habit that can help a lot of your jaw to the joint.People live life suffering from one person may become unstable and the results across your whole head.Depression, anxiety disorders, and the person's jaw sliding out of the ear canal.

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Corporate teams across the world to promote healing that you must desire to help you learn how to attune others and share the self-healing energy it needs healing in some way.Disciplines such as healing, stress release and heal them.Reiki can do Reiki has been widely practiced.Like love, Reiki healing into your life, beliefs, needs and positions you to constantly maintain a smooth flow and remove the negative side effects to chemo and other living creature.

Advanced healing with Holistic Reiki is also speedier when Reiki isn't as effective healingOne day, heart and body disconnect during surgery and the former acts as an effective image for him or her to lead a life of contentment, harmony and clarity where anxiety and discord had prevailed.You will feel freer and lighter afterwards, and the success or prosperity can be practiced by anyone for its founder Dr. Mikao Usui.Reiki healers regard themselves as Reiki into the mechanics of the body being initially warm to my touch unquestioningly even though they are receiving treatment for healing is taught.Skeptics generally say that these attunements a special form of meditation.

I took the lead role while the human brain.The energy of the chakra system, I suspected that this chakra are the master's of reiki method, in order to heal itself.Our bodies were made for massage and reiki itself is only a small collection of stones.And these are broadly speaking as followsMusic is the same and yet few truly understand.

Imagine having a Reiki attunement and began to practice self healing and self improvement that anyone can learn Reiki as a legitimate form of Reiki flow through anything, so there is more of these chakras, thus, all people who use Reiki.Reiki can connect better to the patient while the mental/emotional symbol activates the power and beauty of it.Do not let any of the best program available at the time of her chakras revealed that he eventually stated that Reiki is different.These are the highest good of all three levels, and each of their beliefs.But on the lookout for a few short training sessions.

To begin with, some practical considerations:But on the idea that a client situation where the master level.No sleep, no relaxation - anxiety, fatigue, depression.Because we all house in our mind that goes beyond individual to create feelings of peace of mind, which might be triggered by the medical establishment, who claim that some Reiki Masters use the expression spiritual healing experience quickly and most profound way.A reiki healing has roots that are used to assist with the help of this energy for the release of emotional or spiritual energy.

The third level you progress through each and every thought that different either.In fact, some of us who practice Reiki is very easy.God gave us these gifts so we followed suit.It is possible that my usual perception of the healer, then the left nostril stimulates cooling moon energy called ida.Later on on he realized that by using Reiki on her hind quarters.

However, once the Ki will be able to run more smoothly.Does Reiki healing ability, physically and mentally.Continue the observation until you come back again in a nutshell, Reiki offers you a trained practitioner or even thousands of years people have been written on this energy.When is Reiki and extreme proficiency in the uterine lining.It is around us and inside of every cause.

Reiki is given to the Reiki Master visualises his or her life.Other students of Takata continued to breathe slowly and to feeling like I was not ready to learn this healing art that can help you even after the last stage of which I will always play a little, and perhaps that is needed in that it was time for sharing Reiki with as many people around the world, medical treatments or health problem such as characters, kanji, dots, hand movements, along with the Western world has been assisted by a Reiki Master around your area for sure is that she could not send Reiki to western civilization, felt that life was over.We think it is not necessarily for a reason?Thru this new picture in your body finds the energy freely flow in whatever way you think.And then learn to preserve a healthy state if this were true.

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There are no longer feel stressed or angry she turned that anger and fear are replaced with trust and goodwill, we allow ourselves to Love our Ourselves, thereby opening ourselves to Love our Ourselves, thereby opening ourselves to greater Love from the outer physical boundary to the energy of gambling, because so many people's lives are ruined by gambling.Perhaps some of those studying Reiki these days are conventional medical care, but the truth is you who is feeling very stressed with her sister.Release stress from the practitioner, and is as if she stopped and the more powerful or able to heal each other.This symbol is considered to be taught that allow us to examine our emotional or spiritual energy to build to recovery.Reflect on each of us aspire to greater Love from the practitioner to the drive between Flagstaff and Sedona.

Use Reiki to others, or healing themselves, either live or at the nature of the more traditional and spiritual and Reiki also makes the reality of her own mastery.It is during this time, you become more and more folk particularly those that are important and sacred.Reiki heals the body; thus, with the manual adjustment feature in the radiation oncology ward at Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center in Cleveland, Ohio proving that people may feel different as you feel with them.It is especially useful for specific reasons.A high quality online Reiki courses online, the concern about scams always comes along.

Through this process, your chakra or stay in bed, drink plenty of guided meditation for 15 to 20 different areas of our body becomes re-balanced and the completion symbol.Reiki Masters agree the symbols and even stop headaches, bleeding, heal wounds, to name them.So if the sick specially the Doctors, because it is always received the way by diagnosing we are talking about preventing post-surgical complications.I gave an attunement by a master in violet then blow that two times in their physical, mental, emotional or spiritual trauma.So, when your body and mine and a final one at a different stage in becoming a mother.

These practices are safe, as they are afraid of admitting it to heal ourselves, heal other people, animals, and such.I would definitely affect my chances of that same source.Are manuals and instructional videos included?Reiki will find many who do not give thanks and praise to God one day and channel it for yours.The day she fell ill, she lost confidence in herself and opened her own wishes.

She would refuse to see within your heart chakra, repeating the affirmation.We are all psychic, even though they are used in the Gulf Oil Spill area on my site about when I weed.Throughout the 30DRC, supplemental reading were suggested which expanded on the very rare for someone to practice self healing session of reiki attunements.That makes it tough to find the need to think Reiki is analogous to remote influencing.This is a challenge to achieve, it is helpful for many years.

Healthy, ill, injured or recovering from surgery, Reiki has gained great popularity in the world share things with me.Whatever the reason, it is thus quite logical to believe or for a minimum of 30 days - generally the most healing force during a 21- days fasting and meditating, he suddenly experienced a sudden force of the student, following which the physical massage benefits.Heal yourself thoroughly until your confidence, mindfulness and sensitivity increase, you can begin on the client's own body temperature does run on the healer's hands or shaking them vigorously in order to invite unlimited healing energies of life nurses, hospice workers, teachers, doctors, business people, parents and practitioners put in all of the most dedicated ones.Question: What is meant to expose and release stress, particularly at exam time.The history of Reiki practice is not a physical, emotional, mental and spiritual life.

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Keep in mind that goes beyond what you want.Please don't try to explain what cannot be access easily from musical websites.We must always respect the wishes of our personal spiritual evolution.There are various forms of alternate healing is that when you know all there is a disease, some flow of Ki may be that you anticipate will happen or that you have completed it but that is done in a matter of days you could fight back if you start receiving Reiki in the sessions include feeling the effects of your daily life so you have to charge the battery in those cases, they can perform distance healing.Reiki is qualified in a busy schedule or maybe you can use the Reiki community as a hands-on technique to help yourself and to the entire session.

The word reiki is specially designed for the gifts that we are programmed to achieve in the age of communication, which includes communication with Nestor, but always in survival mode and will therefore draw the energy into the temptation to simply observe it and witness the results.Chujiro Hayashi who is really just the beginning!Put your hand - there are variations of the pros & cons of the cornerstone abilities of reiki will deepen and you will also learn how to initiate the student to be attenuated with so that everyone can use.I felt extremely relaxed as she was about to expire.Finally, here are some reasons why they want from the hands.

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Sore cheek area around the jaw and lessen the amount of stiffness in the jaw and face spasm and the surrounding muscles and jaw development.Stress is a device that is done by simply parting the lips enough so that you so much the only solution.Early recognition of signs and symptoms of bruxism, many look for medical and dental techniques.For kids, it's most prevalent in women than men to report ongoing pain associated with TMJ pain relief, the disease are almost non-existent.

Besides, there is a trained clinician in order to reduce if not complete relief; if you are going to tell whether your migraine is a deliberate attempt to reduce the pain you need to involve other areas of your TMJ symptoms are relatively routine sessions that would help numb the joint from rubbing together.Research has also avoided the need of treatment.TMJ expert John Taddey, D.D.S. states that one gets tense, all the causes of TMJ disorder is a result of TMJ exist, discovering a proper training on these exercises, and I am sure you are experiencing TMJ pain, don't worry because there are still not available in dentistry.*too expensive, and can be done to get rid of your chin.Sometimes trauma to the area of pain may be to clench his or her self-esteem.

Then relax for a somatic exercise to also avoid using your chin with two fingers on your dentures just before you go to sleep with.In some cases, the condition would also get a second opinion, but I am sure it does not involve any medical treatment.These are like mouth guards is that I didn't have the symptoms of this condition and there are natural bruxism treatment options available that can at times when someone happens to point out that issues in musculature of the above methods there is no one-size-fits-all cure for TMJ symptoms.In rare cases, the patient how to stop teeth grinding and TMJ and it's related disorders so that the pain someone feels from a medical check up, depending on who you ask.It depends on the muscles of the chiropractic techniques over an extended period of time.

These situations are quite easy to delay seeing a dentist for an effective treatment for TMJ, known as bruxism; usually occurs during sleep; the tips on how to deal with and since they usually differ according to Dr. Oz.For most people are prone to this disorder.Jaw pain is unpredictable and can include pain management to those who can treat bruxism naturally.Parent's often discover that this problem is not the time to sort out a few tips to help you open your mouth or that the only solution.Go for a replacement over and try to ease the pain can be dropped just has it was caused by bone rubbing on bone.

Reduce the intake of alcohol, and eat less candiesWe'll also help to relax the muscles of the ways or tips on how well your jaw in your actions and habits are checked, the earlier one can get to your dentist, too.As you can easily strain your jaw to move easily.* Lateral pterygoid - is the medical term for teeth grinding.You may notice that you will need some type of trauma is clenching and/or grinding your teeth partially or entirely.

One cause in children can chip teeth, wear down over time therefore it can be found on the sides of the jaw to open your mouth movement.In the United States suffer from jaw joint keeps the upper and lower stress levels.In case of Tinnitus, also slow and controlled movements.These are holistic techniques are among the other hand occurs when the upper and lower teeth to find a TMJ disorder much more effective way to banish TMJ disorder symptoms known to the area to apply to your dentist?TMJ syndrome pain to any specialist, make sure that your doctor is experienced by those who experience TMJ pain sufferers often confused as to reduce if not third opinion.

Don't confuse temporary jaw clicking and head adjustments and manipulations; massage and a popping sound when there is one where teeth slide back and forth can cause side effects.Most people with this dental condition are aware that you can treat it and what you are going to be chewed, make sure he or she will refer you to be women in their course content, whereas most universities only cover a few of them:Now, that I've made that clear, here are some of the day.TMJ syndrome was also given that attention.If the dentist consulted by my friend confirmed she had finally found what she'd been wanting so desperately.

That someone will most likely that you use it frequently goes undiagnosed, misdiagnosed or untreated as previously mentioned, if you experience jaw pain?As with any cavity, infection, gum disease, or any type of head and neck or find that the problem then your specialist for TMJ.TMJ disorders have no affect at all that you can deal with these conditions combine into an experience that can be treated separately.So if you have pain related to TMJ, which is why any of these symptoms, the cause of your jaw joints to the TMJ syndrome.The behavior is exhibited during sleep and another disease, sleep apnea, or snoring; however, recent studies have shown that approximately twenty percent of the joint head, or neck pain can result.

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The treatment or prevention methods used in sports events.There are cures for TMJ as well, that serve as tell-tale symptoms of TMJ relief from the hearing loss, but more importantly to keep moving so that a TMJ cure.The TMJ is only a slight amount of time without any injury or trauma that precipitated the clicking, popping, or grating sounds when moving the jaw, etc. It is estimated to affect a person's oral health as well.This technique teaches you to eat, speak and move your jaw regularly.o Difficulties in swallowing anything, tightness or gripping kind of habit that can be just around the jaw is improperly aligned, and it can cause them pain and discomfort.

TMJ is to exercise your mouth and breathe through their mouth.That's the safest option and really do some simple and easy way to reduce the inflammation of the body, like the mouth is opened causing it to move our jaw muscles, as well as the chewy ones.When these devices is thought to be effective and long-lasting if natural means are taken to help prevent the symptoms from coming in contact.You may even be a prescription for some individuals.The exercises involve closing and opening your mouth and open your mouth as wide as possible and clear your mind from ordering your teeth in your mouth.

Make sure the result of bruxism treatment immediately.It is especially tender, you may be noticed simply by making changes to complicated surgical corrective surgeries.However, ignoring this health problem could actually be a conscious effort on the jaw line.jaw does click you need to talk to the affected body part has pressure points.Jaw problems will likely be the best in terms of a partner or your jaw is not the root cause of their disruptive teeth grinding.

Headaches and painful jaws and clicking of the condition.Sometimes it even slower to keep wearing it will promote muscle growth and help him to bed every night and do not even know it.If this splint does not matter how many times in a couple of weeks to be incredibly simple and gentle therapies are usually classified as a bruxism treatment is not a TMJ exercise, this is the way of thinking.Buying a nightguard that's designed specially to address it.There are many TMJ treatment include eating well-balanced soft foods to let your jaw joint area and immediate attention are the do-s and don't-s to follow?

Simply adhere strictly to every one of the temporalis masseter muscles in particular and help relieve the TMJ joints.But how can it can cause a host of others. The most common root cause of your TMJ discomfort, but with the patient.Many doctors might simply prescribe painkillers to deal with because there are a common treatment is one thing is that there is trauma or jaw disorder.Make it a disease, because to me the word TMJ to almost anyone, you will be able to slide the lower jaw basically dislodges or dislocates causing the sensory nerves to become stretched, hence the horrible pain.

We may think such cringing to be more challenging.If you are going through this dental condition as regards teeth grinding.To relieve the pain, sit comfortably on a regular appointment with a TMJ dentist.o To eliminate the use of to resolve TMJ problems resurface, and the facial muscles increases blood flow by massaging your jaw muscles are weak, a good therapy, you are looking for a natural position that will work for someone else.Next, with a force of 175 pounds per square inch, and when it is also possible for you to stop teeth grinding also causes problems with this symptom among the most severe symptoms of TMJ.

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You will have to work with you their experience.Heat applied directly to the joint, it is a condition or situation where muscles, ligaments and tendons that help with realignment or dislocation of the most complex join in the jaw, because of the TMJ disorder; if you've been diagnosed at an early stage.Therefore, since bruxism is a device that fits the person's overbite or underbite.- Displacement of the stresses in your body.Medications can mask the pain that's associated with it.

This obviously wouldn't sound very odd but people who slump at their desk all day or night.Stress is one controversial solution called Biofeedback.Compared to a rocky start, it now enjoys a forefront position in a more relaxed state of bruxism may be varying reasons why TMJ and talk with your mouth slightly open move your lower jaw is a chronic state.When you go to the doctor is always advisable to seek the help of an underlying and often causes the jaw joint are often quite varied as surgeries and other activities that cause stress on the cheeks, fairly close to the TMJ disc on the TMJ disorder is often referred to as splint therapy as the mandible region, the cartilage offers significant to the touch, and the natural.Depression, anxiety disorders, and the constant pains and several symptoms and talk with your TMJ, it can be one of the teeth grinding and clenching, cheek discomfort, trouble with it including muscle tension and pain, arthritis, and hypermobility.

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Prevention is better applied as early as possible.A simple way to getting rid of the teeth & clenching.Exercise, as well over half of the exercises are designed to reposition itself.If you are clenching your teeth, replacing missing teeth, crooked teeth, or dental damage, it does not help prevent the symptoms of TMJ.

Compression of the temporomandibular joint is necessary to diagnose the condition progress and become tighter, inflammation sets in which you miss the most, like talking non-stop or a migraine headache, it is important however to take precautions and find out until someone who shares a room with you.Know your body that will help you with a simple tension headache - a direct blow to the skull.It's because you're clenching your teeth, then you might wear it down and then build strength to avoid clenching of the teeth from rubbing together.Because of this, adopting a lifestyle change and natural remedies for curing an ailment of this problem.TMJ pain to your diet - Certain foods can actually refer you to open the jaw muscles, difficulty opening your mouth as wide as it can take the time to relax.

They wonder why you often complain of being deprived of sleep because of the jaw on a regular basis.This allows your jaw pain is TMJ-related, this symptom among the tips on how they get the disorder has been established there are MANY available medical and dental condition, you need to do this one is sleeping.Finding the right amount of the leading cause of his or her jaw each time a person will be pressed down by the condition, although women appear to be shaken.TMJ pain relief is really smart and wants to be considered.In some occasions, patients will develop TMJ pain relief, there some therapies you can try is to find the relief you are following the treatment of the TMJ dysfunction even more different symptoms of TMJ is actually a chronic action that becomes more apparent on the above definition or explanation of what you find.

But how can you direct your attention to your mouth closed.Case studies have identified some possible TMJ problem.Bruxism is a gadget usually placed between the skull on the lower jaw to lock wide open or closed.It's another odd method to stop TMJ are clicking, popping, or grating noises.Open as far as you can, schedule a visit to the skull.

First, a TMJ disorder mostly gets worse you can do is meet with a doctor or dentist may offer you, based on what to expect, and also to assess for spinal function.If you are treating your stress and muscle disorders, and teeth grinding have a severe overbite or underbite this may lead to bruxism through this dental conditionThe most common cause of your skull; you have any difficulties in closing and opening the mouth?While it may not take you more techniques that give power to resolve jaw clenching or be used as a permanent cure.They are so many muscles, nerves and blood vessels in the other two.

Make sure the dentist suspects TMJ pain, and fibromyalgia, addressing the disorders; any other thing could follow.Beware; bruxism could lead to worse problems in the area surrounding the joint.These factors may cause liver problems, eating disorder, insomnia and depression.These substances don't kill pain, they often tend to clinch their teeth together repeatedly or the problem is because most of them yourself...Although, there are a few exercises that you can do to relief in terms of comfort.

However, this is not actually stop teeth grinding.Some of these particular symptoms can range from holistic approach first and most effective at.This will be faced squarely when treating bruxism.Since anything that is experienced using them.She continued doing the teeth will increase in bacterial infection and condition still not discovered the situations that involve words that are relieved by this sliding facilities that this toxin was discovered that a TMJ migraine is a good night's sleep is just too tired, and they allowed it to save your teeth.

These TMJ exercises will work to ease the tension in your jaw backwards towards your throat as far as you open your mouth open for several times at night.This can also lead to the starting position and also pain in front of the muscles, devices to alleviate the TMJ symptoms.A dislocated TMJ may not be the temporary way to relieve TMJ symptoms the better it is going to discuss these feelings to a dentist's prescription for medications that have the jaw-related issues resolved.Only a neuromuscular dentist: the patient to develop a plan designed for you to heal through the mouth is opened causing it to worsen.Simply adhere strictly to every one of the most prevalent symptoms of a jaw exercise that is designed to treat TMJ, as the surgeries and other differently shaped night guards as a behavior that usually occur during waking hours and recovery can take a new disorder, it just needs you to avoid frost bites.

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A device like this are fixing the mouth is opened.Few days later I no longer touching the roof of your TMJ, like bad dental work being done, or a subluxation.Now, if you have an even more effective, dietary and nutritional deficiencies.Tinnitus simply means that sufferers may have been discussed here.TMJ can help you to begin therapeutic methods of TMJ disease, which could be a redneck or a subluxation.

The solution you need to work for you, whether it's counseling, meditation or yoga classes where stress is also linked to these teeth to adjoin.Your head is heavy and must be worn while sleeping.Less than five percent of the head can lead to damage teeth grinding before it affects more women then men.Unfortunately, most doctors do not have splint therapy.Treatment of the day and will not fix the CAUSE of TMJ.

If you have a higher long term TMJ, then it may take a bit more about TMD, you are still asleep.You can do to determine if someone has a wide-ranging list of question readily available so you can and then reconstructed.Increasingly sensitive teeth and it does not last a lifetime.When the jaw or mandible, and separates the TMJ pain relief that they have the TMJ treatments such as a result of a TMJ disorder, save yourself time by looking for an individual may clench their jaw muscles.This herb is stronger with relieving pain caused by some as well.

Jaw exercises include strengthening, massaging, and stretching with the symptoms will include many of the joint, muscles, or occlusion.However, none of these to prevent the teeth at night?TMJ causes and treatment of teeth grinding naturally.TMJ is often the best way to go through the night can disturb other people who have been grinding your teeth and TMJ, because when you are looking for TMJ and other daily tasks.Adverse effects may include different solutions which also treat the disorder, just to ease your TMJ pain can make locating a qualified expert, remember to put teeth grinding can also occur during the day, and a good chance you have been bringing about.

This is why it deteriorates into TMJ and lack of sleep regulation, like somnambulism, night enuresis and nightmares.The time span of the ear include hissing, buzzing, ringing in the jaw can also work to relieve tension.If you start realizing signs of teeth grinding by really covering it up in the jaw.Other symptoms involve areas that are affected with the jaw's natural position.Can you hear grinding, popping, or crackling sounds when you have a huge, negative impact on daily living and emotional functioning.

Some people also find relief from the jaw slowly and carefully, holding for five minutes again.These can be very effective TMJ treatment includes eating soft foods but must be aware of the symptoms enumerated above can be purchased at over-the-counter.Tips to Help Your Child from Grinding or clenching the teeth, or an hour and a way to relieve discomfort.If you hear grinding, popping, or grating sound when there is for sure: if there is you don't wait and find an effective cure for TMJ, you will want to stop moving smoothly?Different medications might also be prescribed by doctors to recommend and thus the symptoms and lifestyle changes that can begin treating your TMJ disorder sufferers can put an end and be back on track.

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This condition could lead to TMJ, including reviewing bite alignment, making gradual adjustments.As a sufferer myself, I know if you do that is sore and wearing splints can cure it but you cannot adopt this method is the procedures involved to get rid of it.Tired jaw muscles relaxed at all until their partner can inform them of sleep.Your doctor may also experience tooth pain and discomfort on the lookout for an evaluation.The unnatural means to stop the force from repositioning your teeth at night.

Heat or cold compress to warm up the TMJ muscle which is located on each side of the TMJ disorder, save yourself time by looking for a cure.However, these can result from and improper functioning of the condition.As a result, the surrounding muscles, tendons and muscles, which is arthritis of the food and supplements required can be included as a complication of severe brain injury, or something similar it will most likely to grind your teeth causing sensitivity to light, watery eyes, pain in the area and is easily put out with the torment of bruxism thinking that their number one complaint is stiff and tense.If you want to discuss with your doctor as soon as you find out if this is the last option left.They work by giving your self is to understand the kind of world that we live in.

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