#I wanna draw and write so much stuff about this

[akantorrr]

vampire robot money gang

we love hurting V2

based on this fic https://archiveofourown.org/works/48507976 by @size-two-shrimp

#I dont know how to tag stuff here #ultrakill #v2 #here comes my art woohoo #shrimp and I are cooking an ultrakill au #it's a The Forest/SOTF au #it's making my brain rot in the best way #I wanna draw and write so much stuff about this #and I will #that is a threat

[shibuiking]

#twice dead king #oltyx #yenekh #necrons #40k #i finished tdk reign yesterday and i fear if i get into how much i loved those two books ill end up writing an entire essay. so i wont. #loved it tho. cried a little. #also too overwhelmed at the first time im seeing a genuine appreciation and care into writing smth about what its like to be undead and its #in a series with robot skeletons not actual ones #on behalf of undead afficionados everywhere. nate crowley i owe u my unlife. #i wanna draw spoiler stuff too bt i feel like who even is blocking the spoiler tag for this. bt if someone sees and gets spoiled id feel #SO bad. SOOOOOOOOOO bad im am sooooooo glad i didnt get spoiled #AUGH anyway this is getting long #IF U LIKE UNDEAD READ TWICE DEAD KING. I DONT CARE IF UR NOT INTO 40K. GET INTO IT AND THEN READ IT. #SO PROUD TO BE A ZOMBIE RN

[fumifooms]

Fleki x Marcille

I dub thee flekille Fourth entry of my “Dunmeshi rarepairs I will birth with my own hands if I have to” series. This one goes really well alongside laicion

Hear me out… Probably one of my most crackpair simply because they never really interact in canon, but it snowballed from me thinking about laicion so many months ago and I genuinely enjoy them a lot on their own now too.

Overview of the appeal: Silly prep girl that tries to not be silly x silly troublemaker that is silly on purpose. Could have been cellmates in another life 😍 /j It’s chaos x order, it’s propriety x will tease you specifically to make you uncomfortable, it’s Fleki sticking around Marcille when she gets the opportunity to because she thinks she’s entertaining, it’s her dragging Marcille to a shitty club that would give anyone epileptic a seizure and Marcille being so out of her depth but finding the thrill intriguing… It’s Fleki’s YOLO attitude rubbing on Marcille a bit, encouraging her to stress less and live more, it’s Marcille looking out for Fleki and teaching her to value her health, her friends and stability in life more. It’s banter, where Fleki is bold and amused and Marcille is panicked and horrified, which as they grow to know each other becomes Fleki teasing and Marcille responds with exasperated but fond comebacks. They have big yuri manga with a bad boy girl vibes, they deserve 50k slow burn rivals to lovers fics exploring the deepest emotional lows imaginable, they deserve cute funny bantery ficlets where they try out rollerskating together and Fleki skates face first into a pole and Marcille heals her up. ALSO it’s the mage who always talks about the importance of hair and braids hers neatly x the mage who keeps her hair long but at MOST brushes it every 3 days and looks feral

We see that Fleki looooves casual physical contact which I think suits Marcille well! Since she’s also big on casual & affectionate physical touches. Oversimplifying it, I kinda see Fleki as a more chaotic and less grumpy Izutsumi, which I think pairs really well with Marcille.

Ok, so the meme + below is my romantic flekille & laicion, qpr laimar & flekion vision… Maybe romantic laimar and flekion too idfc. Fleki’s bestie Lycion and Lycion’s boyfriend Laios and Laios’ girlfriend Marcille and Marcille’s girlfriend Fleki… A bond forged by the shared experience of having a feral partner. In my timeline they start hanging out because laicion starts dating and it goes from there, like they keep showing up at the other’s place to come pick their guy up or when laicion meet up in town at an agreed location both come with their bestie so then as Laios and Lycion head off the girlies just stand there awkwardly for a sec together… And it becomes habit enough that they start talking. One time one arrives early at the other’s place to pick up their dog guy so while she waits on Laios and Lycion being done hanging out they just chat and hit it off around the kitchen table. Eventually maybe they all live together, the girls have a qpr situationship with their respective dog boy too and they all snuggle up together on the couch and life is good… I have a couple of other flekille au ideas though.

The one college au I would EAT UP FR. Anything modern for them is so fun for some reason. They could even have a like… y’know ‘that yuri manga where the prep girl thinks the emo girl’s a boy and she’s interested’ thing (googling it The guy she was interested in wasn’t a guy at all is the name), they feel like they’d have that energy… Except that instead of Fleki being dressed all cool she’s dressed in Minions merch or something. Puke colored tie dye. Marcille cringes but also smth about the cringefail allure has her enraptured (jk it’s mostly Fleki being determinedly clingy) Like come on imagine Fleki with the alpaca trampoline hand tattoo, Marcille would be so endeared. They have the vibes ever, I wanna see them hang out and with Lycion and Laios too

Marcille, seeing this disheveled absolute rascal: … I can fix her.

I made a reblog post that goes into Fleki’s drug addiction a lil for the topic of the ship just so it’s easily avoidable if it’s an uncomfortable topic to some, I don’t go into the details though, just on how it might affect their relationship

#This series is baaack I’ve procrastinated for so long but obscure pairings are so fun to ramble about when you find The Angle #Dunmeshi rarepairs #Rarepair spotlight #Flekille #Fleki #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #Next up are flamela pattadol and toshimari and uhh i don’t remember who else. I have so much on my plate… Keeping the Toshiro stuff #For after i make a masterpost about his family though #Dunmeshi memes #Marcille x fleki #fleki x marcille #Idk i’ll write for them one day but I def wanna draw them hanging out at the very least #Laios is probably more the shrieks and skitters one tbh… Debate #they’re just conceptually really fun sue me

[unexpectedbrickattack]

hi again 👋👋👋 anyway i would LOVE to hear any thoughts you might have about fake pep and his interactions with other characters if you're amenable to that! i love him and there is So Much going on there and you always have stellar hcs so id love to hear them!!

Ive been shying away from drawing/writing anything with fake peppino bc frankly ur right; there IS so much going on with him 😭 so much so that it almost feels impossible to settle on something concrete 😭 This is also bc I link Fake Peppi and Pizzahead together, which means I also have to work on characterizing that punk 😭😭😭 But I will still try to get my thoughts out

(OKAY THIS IS REM FROM THE FUTURE OR PAST OR SOMETHING AND IM HERE TO SAY THAT I RAMBLED SO FUCKING LONG THAT I DIDNT EVEN GET TO THE ACTUAL ASK OF THIS FUCKING ASK!!! I JUST TALKED ABOUT FAKE PEPPI AND DIDNT WRITE A SINGLE INTERACTION. SO UM. THIS ASK IS NOW ABOUT FAKE PEPPI AND ONLY FAKE PEPPI IM SO SORRY 😭😭😭😭😭 ILL GO MORE IN DEPTH W DYNAMICS N SUCH SOME DAY BUT NOT TODAY)

Fake Peppino is Not the first clone; hes one of the Last ones Pizzahead worked on. The ones you see in the war level are the closest, appearance wise, to Peppino, but they arent the brightest and will often behave like [insert test subject] but with Peppinos face on it. The emphasis on appearance first resulted in some physically identical, but otherwise, dull witted clones.

Fake Peppi was the first attempt at replicating Peppinos actual personality over appearance and it works moderately well, its just that. Hes a little funky lookin. Which is okay! Its the first attempt !! He’ll get more time to try again! They give Fake Peppi a little run down shop to manage (that he almost immediately converts into a pizzeria) while they work on perfecting the clones. But then Peppino actually storms the tower after being threatened w the Pizzeria Begone Beam, and hes tearing through portals so quickly that Pizzahead literally has No Time to try and work on these new clones. Fake Peppi is the First of this new experimental line of clones, and hes one of the Last. (Said bc i do intend on making my own little peppi clone someday heehee)

Fake Peppi passes as a pretty Normal creature. Hes a bit Tall but not absurdly above average. I drew him pretty goopy and lanky on my first (and only ) attempt at drawing him, but the more i think about it, the more I want him to just be a taller, slightly offputting Peppino. I like the idea someone had of Fake Peppi mimicking the stylized, cartoonish logo design of the pizzeria, so hes got a bit of a doofy lookin face. Its very round, with soft looking eyes and permanent blush on his cheeks. When hes trying to look Less Scary (bc he is a bit aware now that hes a little Off), you can see his mouth on his face like a Normal person. When hes relaxed and/or unfocused, it kind of just. Disappears. It makes his face look kind of like a little butt or a peach heehee

Fake Peppi acts pretty similarly to Real Peppino. Hes quick to anger, and quick to frighten. Hes a bit of a goof and he likes to entertain (which completely threw pizzahead off; hes like thats. Not right? Is it??). He has more or less the same mental capacity as Peppino, shares similar skills and hobbies, and enjoys the same kinds of food that Peppino does (with mild variation). Hes very relaxed and easygoing with a tendency to act a fool and be a little playful, which leads Pizzahead to believe that despite what hes personally seen (from stalking this poor man), Peppino is Also inherently a bit of a fool and a little playful and also capable of being relaxed and easygoing.

Fake Peppi is prone to the same kind of anxiety and panic attacks that Peppino has, only he does not have decades of experience with them to know how to manage it. So the time he spends with Pizzahead is Not the smoothest. The combination of Just Being Created and having Crippling Panic Attacks leaves him with an almost Blank Slate, memory wise, by the time hes left with the pizzeria. When Pizzahead visits Fake Peppi again to give him the lift key; hes basically a stranger to him :0

(Peppino tries to help with some grounding techniques for panic attacks, but since they Both default to self soothing stims, hes not that much help 😭)

Conversations are as smooth as they can be with his garbled speech; he can understand what hes being told, and he will write down what he Wants to say with pen and paper. Eventually, he ‘upgrades’ to a phone with proper text to speech, so he uses that quite often. I know the backwards speech is canon (or at the very least extremely popular) but its very hard for me to read and parse in my head, so i am deciding against that 😭

Hes hard to understand bc despite having a similar vocal pitch to Peppino (a bit high), it rubberbands in a way that makes it sound incredibly croakey and scratchy. The more excitable he is, the more incoherent he becomes. With (immense) effort, he can speak clearly, but its almost as difficult as someone trying to suppress their stutter; hes much more comfortable using his phone to talk. I can see him learning sign language at some point; Peppino does Not know sign language but he IS capable of learning, which means Fake Peppi is Also capable of learning.

Overall Fake Peppi is Peppino with enough variance to give him his own personality. Some of the things he does shines a bit of a light on Peppinos personality; its like, if Peppino DIDNT have to struggle with a failing business and crippling debt and being drafted into a fucking war, what kind of Peppino would you get? And as a surprise to Pizzahead, its a relatively sweet and goofy guy!! And if he took the time to interact with the Real Peppino instead of an idealized version of him (like pepperman and vigilante have started doing) then he would see that. Oh well.

#answered #chattin #fake peppino #long post #it was SO fucking long #i literally scrapped like 4 paragraphs this was so gargantuan #also #tibli i am so fucking sorry #i was like ‘interactions; got it!’ #‘i guess i should share my thoughts on him so that the interactions make sense’ #and then i wrote a fucking essay #and i would STILL have to write the interactions 😭😭😭 #so i think i will just talk about him more to make up for it #i want to draw some stuff w them but im doing soooo much comm work to afford an upcoming trip #im going to see my sister :)! i already paid for the ticket but i wanna get these people their sketches #anyway it means i have no time to doodle #so these asks are really the only way i get to still engage w this silly game #so there will be a lot more chattin on this blog again heehee

[keeps-ache]

hm. i do not remember the screenshot being this big hfvsh

#wip #i like this one the best and also.. it might be the best one Lmaofhvs #[points] its the He #this is also very nearly the final product hvfhs #i'm just gonna colour them a bit and then leave it at that :) #(i'm doing an expression sheet again :3 :D) #i'm drawing each of these individually unlike how i did with the bl.s ones cuz his funkin Hair likes to catch me out hbvfsh #//anyway i've been working on this thing for nearly a week ??? #'keeps why' i have been. writing #i do So enjoy infodumping about this project hvfhs #plusss putting it in a little booky means people don't have to be bothered with me looping back and over myself lol :> #i just dunno where i wanna put it lol #wattpad makes the most sense.. but also mm i dunno hfhsh #i haven't really used it in forever... #oh i should update it though fr fr #/also Geeeeez what is happening to my writing HFH #like one day i can't stop overusing the world 'occasionally' and then next i sound sort of obnoxious overusing synonyms and stuff lol #though you know what it Has gotten easier to just get stuff down (even when my brain is pretty much dead !!) when i just ignore everything #i forget about hfvhs :D #cuz i forget like every 15th word and it screws w/ the flow but if i do [this] with a similar word for later it's so good :DD #/also why can i Never remember the word Conscience lmao #that's a little bit of a funny one to always be losing hvfsh #//anywho... woo.... :33 #i'm gonna go do my stuff now... and prolly sneak a soda.... and if i do i'll prolly be back ranting because that's what caffeine does to me #Loll #have a very empty brain recently. it Has been full of lovey doveyness tho so not bad not bad hfvhs :D #okay bbbye now toooodles ciaaaoo see ya .u./

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.

GODDDD...

#I GUESS MY WRIST FUCKING UP PUT ME FURTHER BACK THAN I THOUGHT #but also like. i was JUST talking about it in chat. i have a comic about the Three Of Them that i wrote in a frenzy in FEBUARY. #by the time i rewrote the dialogue and figured out the ending it was SEVEN FUCKING PAGES. SOLID. #OF JUST SCRIPT. #I STILL HAVENT EVEN FINISHED SKETCHING IT. YOU GUYS ARE NOT SEEING THAT SHIT UNTIL 2024 #sometimes an idea of them will grasp me and i will just write the script out in the middle of the night #I realistically. dont even know if you guys are gonna like my scripted stuff. #the first scripted thing i wrote was a yellow&duck comic that im STILL SKETCHING BACKGROUNDS ON #i could be really bad at writing for them. i could totally not get them at all. #but hey! #we'll see when we see I guess #BUT YEAH UH. SORRY FOR LITERALLY ALL I POST BEING WIPS NOWADAYS I AM JUST WORKING ON LIKE 5 DIFFERENT DRAWINGS AT ONCE #STILL TRYING TO GET MY SPRING STUFF DONE. AND ITS ALMOST FALL. SO :] #I JUST CARE SO MUCH ABT THOSE PUPPETS DAWG I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THEM #I HAVE!!! EVEN MORE DRAWINGS THAT I JUST HAVENT SHARED!!! bc i either made them for something real specific in the discord #or bc theyre phone doodles and i dont think theyre that great. or bc i made them just for a friend and thats like. theirs now kjdhkjdfhs #a lotta times once i finish drawing smth for a friend ill just never post it bft. so its just like. for that one thing and nothing else #ANYWAYS HAPPY 3 AM IM FORCING MYSELF TO GO TO BED #AND I STILL HAVE THE ANIMATIONS #AND THE FANART FOR LIKE 5 FICS I WANNA DO #OHHH GOD CMONNN BRO IM NEVER FINISHING ANYTHING #my postings

[freshmeatz]

#my art #leech art #literally needed to get this out of my fucking brain its been plauging me for a year and a half #literally the first time i saw bandu when i got into dnb i was like ohh hes so cute why does he look familiar #and then the 9yr old autism in my head fucking snapped last moment like oh i know #do you think theyd be friends i feel like theyd be the bestest of friends #i needed to sate my brain on drawing this cos i did wanna turn the little shape people into frogs so my brain would leave me alone but idk #i cant even think right now i see the frog eyed smile expression amd my brain explodes back to keroro i love keroro i wish i could draw more #of sgt frog stuff despite me needing peer approval 12983092903409 years #wow i mnever write this much in tags but im embarrassed idk #whoever sees this im so sorry im so normal about alien frogs and shape people

[whumpy-wyrms]

can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

#wyrms says stuff #speaking of asks #i should PROBABLY answer them shouldn’t i #i’m not ignoring u guys i’m just lazy or busy or i forgor #it’s weird i have soooo many wips but when my art has a deadline i can finish it EASY and FAST #(i did an art secret santa yesterday and i finished mine in 4 hours ON the due date and even though i finished it at the last second #it turned out AWESOME. and i drew so much cool stuff during art fight in only a few hours. but when it comes to my ocs or fanart #i’m just slow without a deadline) so guys. honest to glob just threaten me in my ask box. #i wanna get all my cool tllr art wips done but i have no motivation!!! feel free to threaten me with a deadline. or something else #in fact just scream at me to finish chapter 12 i actually work very very well under pressure you guys #anyway i don’t know what im rambling about. its just me procrastinating drawing/writing again isn’t it #OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED MY GOOSE CAME IN TJE MAIL

[spacedoutwitch]

Quick thing to prove I'm alive! I technically have more stuff, but I've been very distracted, and I don't feel like typing up all the descriptions at the moment, and I also don't know how much of it I want to post. Eventually! When I'm paying attention!

#Some Kinda Nonsense #It is GOOD distracted to be fair #It just involves a big shift in schedule and such #And in adapting to that I miss other things #I got ideas.... I wanna draw them.... #And WRITE them too #Side note does anyone happening to notice my tags want self-indulgent fanfic #I wanna post it but am also So Scared #Might also repost a bunch of writing to AO3 #Try and fully jump ship from DA and all that #But then I gotta come up with descriptions and that means I gotta READ stuff from like a DECADE ago #It is art and it is valid but I'm still gonna struggle so much about it if I do it #Also there is....... so much of it #Gonna fill my account with so many ficlets and it'll be a mess #Saw someone else make a year's results one work? #But that's its own kind of mess #Hmmmmmm #Anyway this means nothing in relation to this art nhfgbdfs #I asked friends for prompts and one person said a dragon in a silly hat #That's.... pretty much it

[testing-reblogs]

D3molish.

#i don't like this thst much but itssss ok? #ive fought with this drawing for over a month and restarted it at one point bc the perspective wasn't extreme enough #and its still not enough now auughgh but im gonna post it so i can get myself to draw other things #its supposed to be a perspective from the ground looking up but #i wanna talk about him so bad and i was gonna do it here but im tired<33 #i need to write the plot outline but im still not used to just making a post randomly talking about my ocs #ill get over it one day but i have a lot of stuff (mainly school work) to deal with so im not in the mood #oopss this turned into me ranting anyways rise and grind #stole the title from Splatoon can you tell I've played too much side order #portal 2 #portal #portal oc #vampire core

[twrambling]

I've been doing so much research on precolonial Venezuela I'm not even sure what happened afterwards F

#Meitoswords #Worst venezuelan out there!!!! 💥💥💥 #Get the diaspora maracucho that mostly lived in carabobo and Italy to do the aph Venezuela oc I'm sure that will end super well #Ok in my defence I do know about stuff during the second republic and the gran Colombia #I've just been lazy to go in depth cause I wanna write down lolo's lore in chronological order #which means first doing research on his uncle lol #I also really should work more on my designs for the venezuelan states since #I think since Venezuela is such a diverse country I'll have to use them a lot if I wanna go in depth #So far I've only designed #Miranda / Caracas / Vargas/Guaira / Zulia / Bolivar / Cojedes / Aragua #I've done a rough draft for Carabobo and Merida #But I don't really like them #Tbh I gotta re draw them all I only reallyy like Zulia Caracas and Miranda and also Aragua she's cute but I can do better #My problem is that I never know when to make them be born lol are they a province a city or a state? No idea #I've also made colonia tovar cause ehm fumny #I wanna design a few diaspora communities to #Doing too much akwbwksnw #I also gotta look a lot into estado amazonas because it's known as the 'indigenous state' #But it has like.. A lot of ethnicities #So I think I'll design each indigenous nation and then together they represent the state #So I gotta get to that to #I'm feeling school so hardd

[kunikidas-lost-glasses]

I know mermay is over (I'm so sad about that tbh) but.

BSD merperson!AU were in which Fyodor and Dazai are merpersons who live in the deep sea/are based on deep sea creatures and Nikolai and Chuuya are merpersons who live in the sunlight or the twilight zone/are based on marine animals who live in the zone.

Fyodor wants to stay in the deep sea while Dazai wants to see the light.

#I've been thinking #I've been staring holes into the air and I have sooo many idea for it #A whole plot #Yes yes #Maybe I'm gonna make a post #I am weak for bsd merperson AUs #Chuuya would be based on a boardbarred firefish bc I associate Chuuya highly with fire and warmth #Fyodor is secretly scared to leave the deep sea. Probably because he got captured once or smth #I would probably write this as Fyolai and Soukoku but I am very tempted to write them as a polycule #I wanna draw this so bad #But I'm rather insecure about my art(not my colorings) so I'm probably just going to upload the headcanon post! #Bram would be a vampire squid. #Bc u know. Vampire. But actually not evil or dangerous. #Atsushi could be a tiger shark #Merpersons can swim around and change zones without any big risks. I think the eyes of deep sea merpersons hurt when they first enter #a zone with light and other merpersons might get a headache;can't see stuff bc it's too dark and get cold (body temperature) when they #enter the deep sea/midnight zone but besides that they should be fine #I have so much ideas #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bungou gay dogs #bsd fyodor #bungou stray dogs hcs #bsd nikolai gogol #bsd nikolai #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #fyolai

[andrewknightley]

today i feel like a child throwing a tamtrun cause they dont wanna do things that are good for them and also the tired parent of that child that is too done for this shit 

#it took me so much energy to go make food and now im like.... gosh ana do literally any of the things u wanted to do ...... #like look at planes for a travel i wanna do or #start asking for merch prices and stuff of the keychains i wanna order #or write the stories i wanna write or draw the stuff i wanna draw #but im here super low on energy more lacking in soul energy than body tireness idkkkkkkk #i complain a lot about not wanting to do things cause complaining about them is the thing that gives me a bit of energy to do stuff fgfgjgg #talks and stuff

[archersartcorner]

Y’all the humanstuck au was gonna happen eventually

IDs under cut!

[ID: Five images, done digitally, though the latter four are derivatives/close ups of the first image.

The first image shows the four Vantases, Karkat, Kankri, Kanaan (the Signless), and Kardin (Beforus Karkat) in a humanized AU, each of them drawn from the shoulders up, with a description next to their busts describing their deal in the AU. The following images zoom in on them individually, so they’ll be described further there. In the center of the image is the label, “Humanstuck Vantas Fam cus it’s 2022 and this is where I’m at at the moment.”

The second image focuses on Karkat, who’s depicted as albino, with pale skin, white hair, and red eyes. He’s wearing his signature gray turtleneck. Next to him is a bullet point description that states: “Karkat Vantas ; 16 ; Fucking high school man. Shit's rough. Fortunately he's definitely not massively autistic and never gets bullied ever. ; 100000 torn shirt sleeves (chew stims) ; Thinks Kankri's annoying and doesn't shut up, and dad's never around, so Karkat has just straight up hitchhiked to uncle Kardin's apartment before. Cue So Many worried phone calls from dad and brother. ; Is the source of many a home argument. Does usually just end up with him in tears.”

The third image focuses on Kankri, depicted as a brown-skinned human, with dark brown hair and eyes, and sideburns/stubble. He’s also wearing his signature red turtleneck. His bullet point description states: “Kankri Vantas ; 22 ; Karkat's primary caretaker, frankly. ; In graduate school and works part time, busy busy busy. ; He knows about his relationship to Kardin, actually. Found old birth records where Kanaan was not registered as his father. Kankri hasn't brought it up. He won't admit it, but he's scared Kanaan and Karkat will reject him now that he knows.”

The fourth image focuses on the Signless, named Kanaan for the AU, who is slightly darker than Kankri, and has the same dark brown hair and eyes, and similar patterned facial hair to Kankri’s, but more grown in. His description states: “Kanaan Vantas ; 40 ; Karkat and Kankri's father, though Kankri is adopted, technically his nephew. ; Is a good man and a good father, but tends to be absent. ; Often gets in trouble with the law due to protest. ; Is so so so sorry he was late getting home tonight!!! It won't happen again!! (It will.) ; As absent as he can be at times, he loves Kankri and Karkat so so much.”

The fifth image focuses on Beforus Karkat, named Kardin for the AU. Like Karkat, he’s albino, with pale skin, white hair, and red eyes. He’s also working with a white, chinstrap beard, and I apologize because I’m not sure how else to describe it. His description states: “Kardin Vantas ; 42 ; Kankri's biological father, Kanaan's older brother ; Whenever Kanaan gets into trouble, Kardin steps in to watch over the boys. ; Lives about an hour away, but has considered moving closer due to Kanaan's frequent troubles. ; Quiet, soft-spoken. ; Wasn't ready to be a father when he had Kankri, so he asked Kanaan, who Kardin thought was more stable, to take him in. He simultaneously regrets having not told Kankri and wishes to, and also fears the day he has to.”

END ID.]

#my art #described #homestuck #humanstuck #karkat vantas #kankri vantas #the signless #beforus!karkat #sorry that all I seem capable of drawing atm is reference images LMAO #wanna doodle more Humanstuck stuff so!! probably have some more doodles!! soon!!!!! #I can’t do multi people references cus I end up just writing more and more as I go along. seriously I wanna write an essay about kardin WHD #Kardin doesn’t have much space in his apartment but he does have a designated Karkat Zone whenever he comes over #karkat has a key to his place so sometimes Kardin will be like. out or in the bathroom or smth and he’ll head into the living room and- #-Well There’s His Nephew. Well. This is his day now HEBDJSBS #Kardin has had the like. ‘Kanaan you have to be there for your sons’ talk multiple times. #for Kanaan it’s not even out of malice. he cares SO SO MUCH about his sons and also everyone and he wants the world to be a better place- #-for his kids and for everyone but he gets caught up in his ideals sometimes that. Actually Being There can take a backseat at times. #probably some climactic event happens to the kiddos that makes Kanaan hit the brakes. shift that gear into fuckin reverse #it’s time to Be A Dad Kanaan. #(says kardin hypocritically) #also despite Kankri’s fears Kanaan would Never Ever consider him like. ‘lesser’ as a son thank karkat is. #Kanaan raised Kankri That’s His Baby Boy. in a million years he’d never see Kankri as just like. a tangential son. #god ok I don’t mean to rant too much in the tags I just. have a lot of feelings. I LOVE THE VANTASESSSSSS #also Kankri sews little patches into Karkat’s sweater sleeves whenever he chews holes in them and karkat pretends like he dislikes them but #-he doesn’t his brother put those there because he loves him and cares for him. little reminders for a little crab. #OK OK IM DONE IM DONE

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #talky #ive been writing so much the last few days and as great as it iss #i miss drawing so much #i enjoy being creative and im so happy i get to do this for someone i love dearly #but DAMN i wish i could just draw #and im also stressed out because i decided i wanna keep this project private... #like im gonna delete links n posts n stuff to it i dont wanna post about it anymore #this is a gift to someone i love and i wanna keep it between us #and i aughahdkashd #i feel SHITTY like im keeping a secret #but this is special and important #Im scared that im making people jealous because i havent been very present since the whole fiasco with my medication #and the fact that my sleep schedule is far more consistent because im trying to time it be awake when my friends in later timezones #are actually online? #Which makes it harder to stay up late #like i get ready for bed at 11pm lmao #im trying so hard to spend time with everyone equally #or plan a head so i try to have movie nights or eat dinner or talk with friends before other plans if i can spare the energy #because i DONT want them to feel left out or like im prioritizing other people #but i still worry that they might feel that way and im too scared to talk about it #because theres a mountain of other fucking issues #and ive dug myself into a hole of things i havent beenable to talk about #because ive been drugged out of my mind and am only just now in this very moment realizing how present i am mentally #AHHHHHHHAJHKFSHJASKDHKJ #maintaining friendships is so fucking hard for me and i hate it so much #it shouldnt be this hard but it is!!!!!!!!!!! #i shouldnt struggle with balancing my time between people but it feels like such a task and i feel so shitty saying that #i love my friends but i feel like a bad friend

[strawberrysweater]

:(((((( i just wanna feel normal again

#like not even about being sick i just feel so off and terrible #everything is empty nothing matters why do i try #forcing myself to talk to people but it just makes me feel gross when i do #nothing makes me happy i dont have anything to look forward to #im not excited for halloween im just gonna have this sore throat and feel gross all day #i dont wanna watch anything or draw anything or do anything but i cant make myself focus on school #why am i even. here #ive gotten much too comfortable venting online but writing stuff out is the only way i can feel a little better #has the seasonal depression really already gotten me. it's not even november #i just need to get through the week. #like. i dont wanna talk to anyone ever again feel like m gonna burst into tears if i think about it #but i want um. i just want #someone to say they see me and care about me #i dont know thats so pathetic