#I want her to leave sooner

[twpsyn-who]

Soulmates AU in which your soul is bounded to your soulmate's soul.

What does that mean exactly? That when you die, if your soulmate is still alive you can't move on. Instead your soul is stuck by your soulmate's side until they die too, so the two souls can become one in death. Depending on how strong the bond between the two is, one could see (and even interact!) with their deceased soulmate.

Now this but, you know by now, JeanMarco. With Marco waking up and the first thing he saw was Jean's terrified face while looking at the dead body- Marco's half eaten dead body. He learns it pretty quickly that he can't leave Jean's side, bound to follow his best friend around. He also learns that is possible for Jean to see and hear him during the ceremony of burning the fallen soldiers during Trost ; it lasted so little, too little for all the things Marco wanted to say. If he knew Jean was listening from the beginning, he would've started with exposing Reiner and Berthold right away. By the time he took notice that not only Jean was looking at him, but listening too, it was too late. Every other word from him was meet with silence, unheard by the living.

Isn't until the 57th expedition outside the walls that Marco learns that he can interact with Jean too, touch him. In his panic after Jean's failed attack on the Female Titan Marco didn't think and went straight to his best friend's side, touching his shoulder while looking for any injuries. Jean's eyes went straight to the place Marco's was touching, looking confused- until he followed the arm and saw Marco in front of his very own eyes. And just like everything, it lasted too little for Marco's liking. The Female Titan took hold of Reiner, crushing him in her hand, and Jean could no longer see him.

It was later, much much later than either of them would've liked, for Marco to understand how everything works. To know that he could only interact with Jean when his mind was filled with thoughts of Marco. By then Jean already began to move on, the secret of Reiner and Berthold's true selves already out. So Marco could only watch, unable to be there for his other half- for Jean.

And it was when they saw the ocean for the first time that Marco understood why he was truly stuck by Jean's side. When he saw his best friend having fun with the others and realized just how much he loves him. When he realizes that all he truly wants is to be by Jean's side, the way they promised each other to do during their training days.

Edit : Think of Ben and Klaus Hargreeves for easier visual.

#Jean starting to think of Marco less and less until he becomes a mere memory in the back of his head #While Marco keeps thinking of Jean more and more hoping for at least one more second together #Marco telling Jean to calm down while he's attacking Annie in her crystal and that being the only reason he even stopped :) #Them having so many small moments but Jean thinking he lost his fucking mind #Sometimes Marco's voice would tell Jean to dodge or something and Jean would hesitate one second- just for it to be the right call #Marco yelling 'Jean! Look out!' when Gabi gets inside the airship and Jean looks towards the entrance but is too late- #Gabi already shoot Sasha by then #Marco feeling SO GUILTY over it because he couldn't warm them sooner #But also Marco and Sasha chilling together because Sasha couldn't leave Connie's side either #And her describing to him all the food Niccolo has cooked for her! The taste and the different textures and the bright colors! #'Of course I love Connie! He's my other half my twin! You must love Jean very much too to be stuck by his side all this time!' #'Of course I do. He's my other half too. My everything' and that's when they realize that their situation isn't the same #That Marco's love for Jean wasn't the same as Sasha's love for Connie #anyway #aot #jean kirstein #jeanmarco #aot jean #marco bodt #marco bott #snk #aot marco #jean kirschstein #soulmate au #JeanMarco Soulmate AU #I mean it can be platonic if you truly want. But I don't want to so there's that lol #Hesitate no second*

[plushie-lovey]

Its official, I went thru my plushies. There's so many of them I decided to keep 😭 3 boxes and 2 trashbags worth (ran out of boxes). And there's 2 trashbags full of plush that are going to be resold/donated.

Also these guys are getting a home with my friend

#it felt good to go thru them all #didn't realize there'd be so many I'd keep #a lot of them are larger sized plush tho which is why so much space was required (bunch of 10-20in ones) #there's also a bunch of stuffed animals that I didn't touch because they're definite keepers and are on display #like most of my thrifted build a bears and my jumbo pokemon #I definitely need to take a trip to my storage unit cause I don't really have room for the boxes and bags #but haven't done so yet cause I just went thru the collection and its 11pm where I am #I might go Tuesday #if not then Thursday #maybe. we'll see. the sooner the better tho #in unrelated news echo was promoted to bed plush cause I didn't want to pack her away or leave her on display anymore. she needs cuddles #so thats about it #yay #it was kind of overwhelming to do ngl. all the stuffed animals everywhere. and theres sooooo many of them #its insane #anyways #stuffed animals #plushies #viti's plushies #viti shoosh

[ur-fav-alien]

More s4 Billy thoughts.

I'd like to think that Billy would be forced to stick with the kids when the older kids have to go into the upside down, but he not happy about it lol. Like during that whole scene where they're all getting into the boat and Billy starts getting into the boat, but Eddie stops and says:

"Yeah no- this boat can barely fit like 4 people, okay? I doubt it's going to fit 5." And Billy look it's not like Billy wants to go into the upside down, like that's probably the worst place for him to go after the Mind Flayer situation and the fact that he's cursed by this Vecna asshole, but he does not want to be with these stupid kids. He wants to be with his boyfriend.

So he starts saying that Nancy should stay with the kids because "Isn't it like in your nature to be good with kids?" and Billy might be a little misogynistic because he has mommy issues and still an asshole to people who he doesn't really know. That little questions gets Nancy all riled up and she says "No, actually I'm not. Steve has the best expierence with them, Steve should stay with them if you really want to go."

"Steve needs to stay with me."

"Well we can't have both of you gone."

"I doubt you give a shit if I left, you just want Steve."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means you're still in love with Steve."

And everyone kinda has an 'oh shit' moment, like even the kids are shocked that Billy just said that. Nancy has this offended look on her face, Robin and Eddie look like Billy just killed someone, and Steve looks like he wants to kill himself. Steve apologizes to Nancy really quickly and excuses himself to talk to Billy alone where he drags Billy by his shoulders back into the woods.

Steve's shocked about all of this with his "Are you kidding me? Why the fuck would you say something like that? Nancy doesn't even like me anymore, she's dating a whole different dude! And just 'cause he's in California doesn't make they're over with. And even then, why would she go for me again?" And Billy retorts with, "Are you fucking with me right now? She's been on you this entire fucking time! When she waved at you at that crime scene, when she helped picked spider webs out of your hair and said 'you're all pretty again now', and how she wanted you to join her and robin on their little fake identity adventure at the pysch ward. She. Wants. You."

"If she does want me, what's the big deal? It's not like I'm going to go back to her."

Billy kinds shuts up at this, his lip twitches and he starts looking everywhere, but Steve's eyes. Steve finally gets like, like a lighter being flickered on, the flame has finally lit up in his brain.

"Billy do you... do you think I might go back to her."

Billy shrugs, not having the balls to answer the quesitons truthfully. "I don't know... I mean... I've kinda been a lot for you to handle-"

"What!? Are you kidding me? I've dealt with 4 sassy ass children this past year- 6 of them just last year and you think you're difficult to handle?"

"Don't lie-"

"I'm not! Yeah, sure, you're panicked nightmares keep me up but I like comforting you. I like the fact that I can comfort you. You have no idea how much I love you, no idea." Steve's holding onto Billy's shoulders really tightly because Billy likes it when Steve holds him in place, gives him a sense of grounding. "And if I'm honest... I don't like the idea of you going down there at all. With everything that's going on I'd feel much better if you were up here."

Billy dwels on this for a moment before finally letting out a annoyed sigh. "Fine... whatever." Steve's eyes shine brightly. "I'll stay, but I swear to god Harrington there better be a 6 foot pole between you and Wheeler or I will strangle you with these headphones."

Steve thanked him for being understanding and they shared a super sweet kiss super romantic blah blah blah. They come back to the group and Billy (slightly) apologzies to Nancy. Being forced to by a nudge with Steve's elbow and a glare from Max.

The older kids finally got on the boat and Billy threatening told Steve to stay safe or he'll "revive you only to kill you again you fucker!" Steve blew him a secret kiss.

And yes, Billy did stare at Steve's chest hair with Max. The two started fighting over the binoculars. They'll disagree a lot, but they'll agree on one thing, Steve Harrington can get it.

Billy doesn't get caught by the police because are you serious? That dude has ran from the police on several different occasions and won every single time. He finds out that the older kids have dissapeared, freaks out for a second before realizing that he needs to get the kids back. He goes back to that reefer rick guys house but the cops are looking through the car they used so he can't use that but he does find a motorcycle in reefer ricks garage and goes fucking crazy with it. (I just like biker Billy and I think that would be really hot cool of him) This leads to Billy going to the Wheeler's house, seeing Dustin through Nancy's window and becomes s1 Steve Harrington. The kids update him on everything and he shares a quick hello to Steve who gives him a "hi :)" back with an "I'm okay" to soothe Billy's nerves because Steve knows his boyfriend. And everything is mostly the same but that scene where the kids are all riding their bikes away from the Wheeler house, but with Billy in the front of their group on the motorcycle and it looks like some wack ass bike gang. I love that I'm sorry.

#max everything is going to be okay #billy hargrove #the party #steve harrington #harringrove #Oh and cuz I like Ronance #Steve would be the first one out of the portal cuz Billy cussed at him to #leaving Robin to comfort Nancy when Vecna tries to get her. #when Billy dies due to his injures in s4 Max just goes on this rant of apologizing to him for not noticing Neil's abuse sooner #El isn't that close to Billy but is obviously aware of how insanely distressed Max is and revivies him #that how we get hospital billy #And in the creel house Max is just repeating to Billy how she can't lose him again #Billy's just telling her that he loves her and everything is going to be okay #his last words are because he doesn't want his sister to worry about him #GOD WHY DO I MAKE MYSELF CRY

[cinewhore]

I need everyone to manifest the girl is 301 moving out before Valentine’s Day cause I really don’t want to move to another building I don’t have it in me 😮‍💨

#my landlady says the tenant has been wanting to cut her lease short #her lease ends in May but I’m praying she leaves sooner #deadass she should move out like next month #i am PRAYING #it’s a corner unit so only one neighbor #endless amounts of windows #i hate that the balcony faces the house next door but I’ll take that #the unit below is an Airbnb and if there isn’t anyone there i don’t have to worry about downstairs neighbors #not by the street so less noise on that end #this is a light in my time of darkness 😭 #do ur magic sisters #now that’s what i call blogging

[pepprs]

doing really bad in ways i can’t talk about which is making it worse

#just cancelled a meeting so i could cry in the office LMAOOOOOOO 🥰👍 #purrs #the mortifying ordeal of my therapist being on her honeymoon rn 😹😹😹😹😹 #i think i am just a bad person and my needs hurt people who need me. and it’s not fair to them and idont know what to do with that. #i think i may have to move out sooner than i am ready to and not listen to anyone telling me to keep waiting. this is not sustainable. it’s #not sustainable for my family because i hurt them with my needs. and it’s not sustainable for me to be unable to need and get what i need #without hurting them. i think what’s so hard about this is that i have to do it alone and everyone is against me doing it but i have to do #it anyway. i don’t know. i don’t want my sister to see this and get hurt. if you do see this im sorry i can’t be what you need. im sorry my #needs hurt you. but they’re needs. i have to be selfish even though my brain is screaming at me in your voice that i don’t. i just need to #escape it all. i am allowed to need independence and alone time and im sorry i was cruel about asserting it but i need to assert it and no #one at home understands why but I need to. im not talking coherently i just feel so wretched and sick to my stomach with guilt and grief and #frustration and shame and i have to facilitate a huge session in an hour and a half. #delete later #like my friends / mutuals / mentors / etc can tell me until they’re blue in the face that i am not a bad person and i deserve to live an #independent Life etc etc but none of you are actually in my house and you don’t see how it is and how i am the cause of all of it and how im #stuck and making things worse. and i can’t summon my strength or calm down or anything. i don’t know. i have to get ready for the session i #just can’t even think straight. my family is right and i am also right and i can’t assert my rightness over theirs. so im stuck forever. #if i could i would leave work early and go home but there’s no one to take me home and home is actually the worst possible place to be #right now LOLLLLL. i just need to curl into a bed and cry. also im about to get my period so thats probably why im like this lol

[gotham--fc]

I am aware of the fact that I disappoint my mother with every life decision I make and I am well aware that she doesn’t consider my job a real job despite the fact that I really like it and I’m good at it and I am well aware that this is not my career and I’m already moving back home at the end of the summer and going back to school to get a real job and in spite of all of this of everything my mother still daily sends me jobs in my hometown as if I don’t currently live hours away and already have a job and have made it clear that I’m staying in Ottawa for the summer because saying I don’t live in the city the job is in isn’t a good enough reason for her and I like my current job isn’t enough for her and once a week I have to say no mom I’m not applying for a job that’s over 3 hours away from me when I already have a job

#like #she knows I’m upset #she knows I don’t want to leave Ottawa #she knows I’m staying for the summer bc I want to spend as much time in Ottawa as I can before I leave #and I don’t know when or if I’ll ever live here again #and she knows this I’ve told her #and she still goes out of her way to tell me to leave sooner

[skrunksthatwunk]

just found out rascal (babycat)'s been with his owner this whole time instead of my roommate which is. something. :|

#if you dont know whats happening basically mr and my roommate (dorms) have been raising an abused kitten belonging to our floormates #we had him for a month and a half i think and then a month of break has gone by with my roomie staying on campus and me going back home #to my prey-driven dogs and snake and cat-allergic mother among other things. hence the inability to really take him in easily. #i mean shit. if she decided to actually take care of him instead of making everyone around her into free childcare then that's a good thing #*petcare #and admittedly both me and my roommate should've been more in contact about him whether this was going on or not #we both have really bad object permanence + flow of time issues though so it kinda... didnt happen #i thought about him a lot though. i planned on coming back early to spend a few days just chilling with him before the semester started #but other stuff got in the way and i had the 'its too late so dont ask at all' guilt #idk. it seems like hes alive but i don't know much more than that rn. it makes me nervous yk #but i never thought she'd just. still have him. i never expect what she does with him tbh #i almost feel better about getting stuck and not figuring out visiting or shared custody (in my house that is Not Ideal For Him) knowing it #wasn't even really attainable but. shit. #i want her to treat him like he deserves and if she's doing that i have no right to complain. he's not my cat. he's not. #but it means she'll probably just leave with him someday. no thanks or payment or future contact. idk i just. thought this would end sooner #in taking him to a shelter or a new home or us taking him in or her putting her foot down. but instead it's like im drowning in gelatin #what am i even doing. i love him. so much. and i want a cat so so bad. i want *him* so bad. #but i didn't rescue him and i didnt even try and. god idk. i love him and i still couldn't get my ass up to visit in a whole month #i want to say it's because i was stuck and it's not untrue. but i just. idk. i still feel like i shoulda pushed through or whatever anyway. #it makes me feel like im just as bad as his owner when i know im not. im not. #he's probably a lot bigger now. assuming she's actually feeding him. god. i really thought he'd be with my roommate #for reasons im not even gonna bother getting into. and i was reassured that my roomie would tell me if something was up with him. and she #didnt. and im not mad at her it's not her fault i didn't reach out when i wanted to know. but i feel just. ough. stupid ass situation i got #myself into. stupid sad ass consequences of being nosy and big hearted and wanting to help in stupid ways #at least her dogs didnt eat him. i was worried about that. i don't think i could take it if she got him killed and i didn't push harder to #help him. but i can't just fucking. kidnap him. he's not mine and we're neighbors and i can't even keep him at my home. not really. #god i miss him so much. i hope i didn't hurt him by leaving. fucking hell. #but he needs somebody and his owner is almost certainly not it. and maybe im not either but i want to try for him. man.

[nerdie-faerie]

Feeling a lil vindictive, a lil nasty this morning

So context, my brother had a work do last night and before he left he told my mum he'd becoming back here and doing so alone. So tell me why he called me at 3am when I'm trying to sleep but travel anxiety and says he's bringing two mates back? I tell him he can't I'm leaving at 6 tomorrow he just goes yeah they'll just be passing through your room. No I've gotta get up in 3 hours you can't be keeping up, yeah it's fine. The fuck it is not

Anyway so my alarm goes off 3 hours later I've barely slept, my brain already woke me up several times prior but that doesn't mean I'm turning my alarms off immediately or getting ready quietly after the prick disturbed my sleep

#Demon Spawn #travel tag #the rest of my siblings got a nice goodbye but im not a morning person on a good night sleep let alone when i havent been able to sleep #like i wouldnt have gotten much sleep regardless because of anxiety but i woulda been able to fall asleep sooner if i hadnt been dragged out #of bed kept awake by the rage induced adrenaline and the sounds of sports being played on tv and chatter in the next room #and hes gonna spend all day in bed anyway so i dont feel guilty particularly when hes had guests over constantly for the two weeks ive been #home which denies me access to the ensuite and kitchenette thats accessible from his room and he constantly keeps me awake #i dont get to enjoy my comfy non student accommodation bed because the fcker never lets me go to sleep and my mum wont let me sleep in #i did fix my sleep schedule minutely was getting tired at 12 instead of 2am from where i fcked it during assignment season so small mercies #had to wake my littlest brothers up to say goodbye and the babby started crying 😢 my mum wanted me to wake her and the baby up too #but the baba was still half asleep and definitely not processing that i was leaving 😂 she was so unbothered guarantee ill have to facetime #my dad dropped me to the bus stop and hes as bad at small talk and emotionally constipated as me but he was just coming back from a night #shift so i appreciate that that was him putting in extra effort and him checking i had enough money is as close to sentiment as he can do #everyone else? cute goodbye. my sister was already awake when i got up to the house pretty sure she had an alarm set..... #my oldest younger brother? i hope the hangover sucks

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Thinking about how Croix didn’t try to lie to Chariot why she was interested in Luna Nova because clearly she could’ve played the long game and got there sooner. Chariot would have forgiven her the second she asked. I can’t help but wonder if it was because she couldn’t hurt Chariot again or if Chariot would have wanted to be so close to her again she would’ve seen right through Croix

#coming off my way too long hiatus to bring u sad charoix posts #no bc like!! croix could’ve lied her so fast and easy #if she got there a little sooner put on a little show to say ohh I’m so sorry can we try again?? chariot would’ve gone for it #but she didn’t! and I mean the theatrics of a final reveal would’ve been right up her alley #so ignoring plot line reasons I’m choosing to believe she did that because it would have torn her up to lie like that to chariot #because as we all know even if she couldn’t stand her she still loved her #also if it worked out too good bestie chariot is showing up at her place on the regular like what r u working on :) <3 #and croix would have to sit there like. nothing. leave me alone #how much of Croixs hatred do y’all think was an act? bc it’s pretty obvious she didn’t want chariot to get hurt #think she wanted to keep chariot away? #soup talks #lwa #chariot du nord #croix meridies #charoix #ursula callistis #little witch academia

[thedeadthree]

YELENA VORONIN + dogmeat (fo3) // AYRENN URTHEMIEL + vokun (the exile)

PAIGE FURLAN + asmodeus (kotsam) // LAMIA ELMAHDY + selene (the fall)

ALPHONSA COUSLAND + barktholomew (dao) // LHYSA + poisson (dai/witcher)

EDELGARD VANDERWEYDEN + reeses cat (fernweh saga) // HINATA SANDERSON + nibbles (cp2077)

the dearests @marivenah, @risingsh0t, @preachercuster and @leviiackrman tagged me to make the lovelies in this cutest picrew! ty so much!

tagging: @griffin-wood, @chuckhansen, @shellibisshe, @blackreaches, @florbelles, @confidentandgood, @jackiesarch, @queennymeria, @adelaidedrubman, @belorage, @yennas, @saintsilver, @pegxcarter, @celticwoman, @arklay, @steelport, @pheedraws, @rosebarsoap, @loriane-elmuerto, @shadowglens, @heroofpenamstan, @amistrio, @redroci, @blissfulalchemist, @aceghosts, @theotherwiseman, @wayhavenots and @cobb-vanthss and you!

#only if you want to of course! 🌿💚 #yelenas birthday celebrations will be properly conducted as i wasn’t able to do a proper celebration today 🌿🥺 BUT HAPPY BORN DAY DEARIEE #oc: lamia elmahdy #oc: yelena voronin #oc: hinata sanderson #oc: ayrenn urthemiel #oc: edelgard vanderweyden #oc: alphonsa cousland #oc: lhysa #oc: paige furlan #this was such a CUTE picrew to do oh my god ty so much 🖤🥺 #stuck with the tes theme for ayrenn and her childhood cats name is a dragon priest from tes hehe 🖤😌 #okay but…… when ayrenn was exiled sabir took her in.. sabir got it for her as a 1 year gift.. and she’s ayrenn and sabirs bb ✨😖 #my fav goth hellion and her hellhound! my girls! #FOR THE LONGEST TIME I WAS CONVINCED SHE WAS AN ARIES BUT??? textbook leo? like i would know? AND YET HOW DID I NOT SEE IT SOONER? #if you have listened to hinatas spotify then u know absolutely that the bb is a TEXTBOOK aries 🌹😌 #LEAVE HER ALONE GORO SHE LIKES NIGHT CITY PIZZA what about it ✨🥴 it’s a guilty pleasure! #so vika never found nibbles in her playthrough so i hc’d that hinata found them and took nibbles in ✨😌 #hinata coming home an oda sees nibbles in her arms: so whatcha got there? #selene was a 25th birthday gift to lamia from her younger sister and one of the only things she still has after losing everything 🥺✨ #OF COURSE ALPHONSA HAS TO BE INCLUDED WITH NO1 MABARI 🤍😌 #felassan gave her a black wolf for her birthday and she named him after a good one of her targets was eating snsbxjxj #felassan: that’s my wife ✨🥴 #in her witcher verse its less angsty as it was a gift from isengrim with the same plot for the name minus the angst hehe ✨😌 #edelgard WILL win u over shes manifesting it ✨😤🤍🤍 #leg.ocs #leg.tagged #t: picrews #this one was so cute to do all of the mbtis and their zodiacs! i needed to do those so this was a perfect time to! 🖤

[adw520]

cant sleep because i cant stop thinking about how the mechanic was a bit of an asshole to me for no reason when i got my car finally taken in

#adw's ramblings #'i could tell your car's been sitting for a month' yeah i wouldve moved it sooner if it could. you know. start #'the sun here drains your battery you should be able to pick it up once i charge it' that car has been #jumpstarted five times in the last week and not once has it stayed alive long enough to leave the parking spot #three of those times it died while the starter was still hooked up and on #and one of those three times the starter was the tow truck (she didnt want to go into neutral so the driver gave her a quick spark) #(it was the most pathetic sounding attempt to start i've ever heard her make) #guess what i didnt get the call to pick up my car today #i know im 5'2" and look several years younger than i am but god can you not be so condescending #and like whatever its not the only time this sort of shit will or has happened to me i know #but im already stressed about the car and im not great at sleeping to begin with so this is like the cherry on the cake #i was baking until 11:45 last night in a dorm kitchen #but i dont have milk so i can't make the muffins or quick breads i have mixes for #and guess what i need to get milk. #a working car #not that i need more baked goods im not convinced my roommate and i can make it through the cake i made before it goes bad #i'm very stressed and anxious and a little bit angry and its all just. ughhhhhhh #if you made it this far down the tags uhh here's a cookie i guess 🍪 #you can imagine it's one of the ones i made yesterday #or technically the day before yesterday since it's past midnight here

[mcnuggyy]

I need to leave this abusive ass household, but I’m so scared of leaving my siblings behind… who else will fight for them and vouch for them and talk them through the crazy bullshit my parents say and did to us… but also if I stay here any longer I worry what will happen to me too…

#sigh #callate guero #abuse tw #at this point I’m willing to risk anything to just leave but I know I need to be smart about it #and it’s so hard leaving it really is #i wish I was like my other sister she was so smart in leaving to SanFran and then only coming back a few days a month like man #then again out of all of us she was probably hit the most as a kid.. so she honestly deserved to leave the soonest #i just hope we can all leave sooner rather than later but I’m this economy god #anyways #this spiral all started just cause my sister decided to cut her hair fyi and my parents got suppppper mad lol #and ofc they’re gonna find a way to blame me and say it’s my fault cause I’m turning everyone into wanting to be a man/lesbian #LMAO #even tho I am neither of those things but ya know how Mexican parents are #sigh… I don’t even wanna leave my room now…

[abyssaldyke]

I havent had a panic attack in more than like 5 years but we are crying out for an exception today besties

#ya girl #my direct supervisor/only supervisor between me and the president put in her two weeks and so he called me #and i know hes gonna offer me her job and i do not want it and im going to tell him i dont want it #but everybody is gonna be freaking out once they find out and if i go there will be no one to do my job #which is not my problem or my fault but like. why didnt i leave sooner what is the matter with me #i should not be sitting here looking at stupid spreadsheets with the terror level of someone being hunted for sport #i just want to hide under my desk and get so small nobody can see me. why am i so sensitive to other peoples feelings and stress!!! #autistic mfs when they experience autism: hey now!!

[villanelleskiss]

if you have a problem with abby, you have a problem with me personally

#the abby hate is ridiculous #mad that ellie didn’t kill her #and for what? #for the same thing to happen to ellie later on #for her to kill a broken woman and leave a little boy to die #like y’all literally are horrible people if you genuinely wanted ellie to kill abby #i don’t give a fuck about what joel did #he knew his fate would catch up with him sooner or later #and i feel for ellie to deeply she never got to truly forgive joel #but why is ellie wiping out abby’s friends not the same as abby doing what she did?? #the score is already evened #whatever tho #the last of us #the last of us part 2 #the last of us hbo #tlou #tlou 2 #ellie williams #ellie tlou #abby anderson #abby tlou

[dirt-str1der]

This must be the place is crazy because the title is so sure .. this MUST be the place ! Then the song ... dreamy and confused. I guess that this must be the place ....

#Listen to my problems #ever since my initial brain thinking i really cant see it as anything but a kiryu song #he doesnt know anything #edit: actually its about settling #the confusion is such a big part of it he really doesnt know anything #all kiryu knows is that he has to leave. be it sometime soon or later hes not made to stay #he doesnt even know ... share the same space for a minute or two... #i guess ... that this must be the place ... everyone else has to settle down sooner or later but not him !!! #we drift in and out ... eyes that light up eyes see through you ... #thr less we say about the better ... make it up as we go along ... he just does not know !!! #home ... is where i want to be. but i guess im already there ! #the longing remains unfulfilled i say this every time but the only time he truly belonged was when he was by nishikis side do you get it ... #when that connection was severed kiryu became functionally untethered #he clutched to haruka but even he couldnt stick to her ... you can get a new husband or children but not a brother ...

[radicallicious]

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#how is it that life can change so sudden? #one day one of my younger sisters was a kid and would fight a lot with me (specially because our age difference is so little) and now #she's pregnant and will leave the house next month i think to basically start her new life... and i'm supposed to be okay with that? #i feel like shit right now. i got the news days ago but i still don't think it's true #i want to cry but i don't want her to see i'm crying because of her #i hate the idea of her living somewhere else and becoming a mother at almost 20 #she's so young but i have no say in her decisions #and sooner or later one of us had to marry and start a family but not now. not her #i wish i could keep all my sisters and brothers and mom with me and never get old or move away #but that's not how life works so i'm stuck being a crybaby who can't accept changes in her life #*suddenly #god i'm so useless i can't even type properly in english #personal