#IF YOU DONT LIKE SIN DONT READ

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU! #i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him #dark rise #okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections #that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought. #hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil. #me: [screams into the abyss] #i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!! #and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again #and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted #instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have #become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth #he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them. #anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone #me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it #i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it

[thelien-art]

Day 2: Maglor of @feanorianweek

Kingship

Poppy = Sloth | Manipulation

I do think Maglor mourned when Maedhros got himself captured, I just also read Maglor as a manipulative power hungry character.

He probably convinced himself that Maedhros had died and ignored everything that proved otherwise, both as a poor coping mechanism and, subconsciously, seizing the power of being a king, although he never named himself one as that would give him trouble. He differently enjoyed the power and mourned, when Maedhros came back, for the power loss. He was happy to have his brother back of course. I don´t think he spoke against Maedhros choice to give the kingship to Fingolfin, even if he wanted it himself, as he did except Fingolfin to do something stupid and get himself killed eventually, and by agreeing he seemed more "civil" and the friendliest of his brothers, which would end up giving him political power, giving people the illusion that he´s the innocent and harmless of his family.

Maedhros | Celegorm | Caranthir | Curufin | Ambarussa | Nerdanel and Feanor

#beloved manipulative minstrel king #most of this is just my headcannon and how i read him as a character just ignore it if you dont like it #in his perfect world he would sit and play music while telling people what to do and everyone would love and respect him #when he was king he had help from caranthir and curufin with the things he didnt like or thought below him yk boring stuff like paperwork #and only did what he thought sounded fun or helped him keep support and power and of course just for the sake of being in control #i would have liked to give him a fox a cat or a snake but held on to the lion #as a way to show maedhros through it too if that makes sense #but thelien what does poppies have to do with manipulation #easy dried poppy seeds are drugs and was once used as medication and yes you can get high on them you just need a lot like a lot #which is why that if you need to take a drugtest and you have just eaten poppy seeds youll test positive but only on a very little #trust me its not gonna affect you #fun fact in some places its illegal to have red poppies in your garden because of this #still going on the flowers and deadly sins #maglor #makalaure #kanafinwe #tolkien #silmarillion #jrr tolkien #digital art #silm art #my art #feanorian week #feanorian week 2023 #feanorianweek

[karinyosa]

okay the website of my local church w the pride flags out front actually really slaps they have like 5000000 choirs and a page on their specific beliefs that is pretty slay actually, unfortunately for the part of my brain that thinks choosing to do this is insane for me

#like to be honest it seems very tailored to the things i would like to get out of going to church if i were to actually follow through on #this #particularly their attitude toward doubt and sin #doubt is welcome and even an expression of faith? intriguing! #sin is a part of what makes us human? thats what i think! #i however relish in sin and this may make me incompatible with ANY church #perhaps their response would be that what i was taught was sin is not actually sin and we will see if that sticks to me or not #i dont really like the concept of sin regardless of whether god is forgiving about it or not but i guess that would lead me to the last tag #like if we can agree that certain things are bad then sure i guess theoretically i can get on board with the concept of sin #there are some reads of the bible that lean more leftist or queer that intrigue me but which i don't know much about #if anywhere's gonna be open to that it'd probably be this church #they've got a food pantry as well which is nice. like as a church you SHOULD be doing mutual aid i think but you know #i think i would always relish in being a little blasphemous though. thats the spice of life thats why im alive #im rereading this. who the fuck says relish #thank god for the industriously cautious part of my brain though because i'm doing so much fucking research before even daring to step foot #in there #on the sect and on the church itself #i think this would be very much a me reading the bible to shape it to my life and beliefs thing rather than the opposite #maybe the real reason i want to go to church is so i can dom god #karinyo.txt

[sampilled]

context for this question: i see a lot of posts talking about how popular queerbait ships (destiel, sterek, johnlock etc) would have become cannon if homophobia wasn't an issue buttttt i can't help but feel that in a less homophobic society people would not have pushed for these ships at all.

EDIT: oh no grammar mistake :( i meant: people would not have shipped them at all sorry

#DISCLAIMER #i am not saying that people who ship these ships are homophobic for doing so #i love stucky and i am partial to a destiel on occasion #i just think. for many reasons. that these ships would not have been pushed to the level that they were #i.e people constantly asking for them to be canon #which is something i have really only seen with this kinda ship?? i dont see it as often for other kinda ships cuz people are just happy to #like read fic and stuff idk #i just feel like especially back in the day that shipping culture could be very homophobic #like idk if any of you guys remember #'my little gay babies haha im sinning so hard reading this' culture #but thats what i associate with these ships #and im sorry for rambling but if youre still reading its on you

[shieldsurf]

out of the big 4 het/canon fairy tail pairings jerza is by Far the worst imo like. he needs to leave her alone i'm so serious and the fact that mashima wrote in a 7 year age gap for no reason is Not helping... erzas ass is NINETEEN the first time jellal makes an open pass at her i don't care that they used to be the same age it is fucking weird. gruvia is a close second though because while yes we objectify men here sir and i live to serve women juvia's creepiness is really just too much like at a certain point it starts to feel really gross and the fact that gray seems to fall for her by the end of the anime/manga just reeks of coercion. not even bringing up how genuinely awful juvia's character writing is she gets like 5 minutes of being interesting before getting instantly reduced to a creepy stan who completely revolves around gray and has less depth than the average bossfight of the week. i guess its equality that erza and mirajane are some of the best characters in this story (which is admittedly a low bar considering half of their personality is being subjected to the most voyeuristic shots possible) so mashima had to balance it out by making juvia one of the worst

#the other two pairings nalu and gajevy are honestly fine. i'm more pilled on gratsu and lucana or luli but gajevy is actually a decently #sweet redemption relationship if you forget that gajeel was genuinely the worst person alive in his villain arc before mashima decided to #fast track him to the most likable character in the show. #on top of that while gajeel and levy become a Unit pretty fast after tenrou island they do still have like #unique personalities and things about them that help them stand apart from the other. unlike juvia with gray. #nalu might not be my pairing of choice for either natsu or lucy or even my favorite big 4 pairing but it is pretty good. i really don't hav #any notes they have their own personalities and have chemistry. i think they're sweet together. they work fine. #the moral of the story is don't read or watch fairy tail it's just shittier one piece #tender age of 11 and it gave me incurable brain fungus and now i live in my wonderful little made up world where everyone in fairy tail is #gay and trans and the women aren't treated like meat half the time. this is my trash of choice and my defining character sin dont be like m #but if you're that curious read the manga the anime is insanely drawn out #and the animation is aaaawful #the only reason im watching it is as background noise for when i work #im gonna tag this as #fairy tail #for people who want to blacklist #in the future

[cyeayt]

being autistic in the mormon church

being autistic in the mormon church was, for me at least, a weird experience. because i wasn't excluded or mocked very often, just smothered in that strange warm beige obligation. because they could tell, they knew i was different just like i did. so they held my hand, told the other children to be nice to me, to make sure i felt included. and my peers did, cause they didn't have a choice, raised to be polite and kind no matter what just like i was. so i was included and invited places, always as an afterthought or a checked box but invited nonetheless, injected into conversations and games by adults that my peers wouldn't dare contradict. 'well meaning' adults who ask me if im okay or if i want to join the group, talking down in the sweetest tones. every christmas and on every birthday they still track me down to give me a card about how much they miss my 'unique perspective', even though i always tried my hardest to fit in and say the normal things.

"Look at that one. it's different and broken, but you must be kind to it. help it stay in the light of god, because god is the only way to save it. we're good, and righteous, and its so lucky to be in the church because we're the only ones who'll ever tolerate it, because that's what god wants."

and i miss it sometimes. standing on the edge of people who i desperately want to be friends with, flitting around in the back of stores and staring at concert posters indecisively until the date has passed. never finding the right spot in a conversation to talk, never working up the courage to ask if i can come too, i miss the people who had to be nice. who had me on a little list in their mind of what they need to get to heaven.

but im never going back. because even i could feel that it was fake. i felt watched and judged and pitied at all times, by peers who would ask me if i was coming then talk amongst themselves about jokes i didnt get and shared friends i didnt know. and i may be lonely now, but id rather do the work and be awkward and sick with nerves and find people and spaces that i actually want to be in who actually want me to be there, even if it seems impossible now. id rather that than go back to that warm suffocating place, familiar like the worst kind of family.

also telling that all the adults im talking about are either women/afab people or members of the bishopric, people whose 'job' it is to be welcoming and nurturing, though these experiences are mostly from young womens so that would also be it, but even women who arent involved in the yw leadership are raised and taught and obligated to do this and i dont blame any of them but its always made me wildly uncomfortable. never as much as random men who would sit down next to me and just start talking like we knew each other tho so eh

#exmormonism #exmo #autism #actually autistic #neurodivergent #no hate pls its all highly personal to me if you find it inaccurate make your own post #this isnt good or articulate but do you get what im saying? #in other words every mormon adult talks to me like im two and wants to make sure i know where my parents are #i know this isnt just me cause ive seen the same shit with some other queer and autistic people in my ward #but sry if this doesnt fit your experience ive mostly been part of nauseatingly liberal wards in blue cities #i used to come home from activity days every week screaming and sobbing cause i started to be able to feel how different and disconnected #i was from the other kids #everyone misses me everyone wants to know what im reading everyone wants me to know that the church loves me and so wont i stay #wont i let them love me like a sick bird in a cage #and now people are nice in way that tells me im free to come back #questioning isnt a sin as long as you find the answers in god #youll be forgiven all of this if you just come back #ugh i dont even know #salt lake city #but im singing it like the 979 theme #utah #trans #nonbinary #this isnt even about that its just another internal feeling that makes me feel different #religion #religious trauma

[note-boom]

Okay but when Ranpo told the audience that they were the angels and how the staged murder was about a reversal of roles, that was so Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint of it, I -

#i finally watched the episode yes #and all I could think about was orv #i dont know how to explain it but like...it's the writer and the actor collaborated together to fool the audience you know? #and how murakami was like he's an actor and then realised his mistake because an actor/character's job is to... #...make the audience happy not traumatised #and then something something about fallen angels being the actors on the stage vs the angels being the audience #someone smarter than me who has read orv please help.... #help because im like 49% sure im just suffering under orv brainrot as usual #also what about that gifted lore in the play??? that's some INTERESTING doa arc foreshadowing we have with the whole... #ability users are sinful etc #ALSO THE COLOR IM SO HAPPY ABOUT THE COLOR!!! #anyway yeah....excuse the tag rambling and the fandom crossing XD #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd untold origins #bsd season 4 #bsd s4 spoilers #bsd spoilers #bsd musings #spitting nonsense #orv #omnicient reader's view point #crossover #bsd ranpo

[devotedlystrangewizard]

i dont like saying astarion is my least favorite of the companions because it makes me feel like im such a "look at me im so special" guy but he honest to fucking god. is my least favorite. i cannot keep silent on this matter. i think hes a good character, i think neil did a fantastic job with him, but also hes committed the unforgiveable sin of annoying me and for that he gets one thousand years in brain jail

#ramblings #something about him felt so??? pretentious. to me. idk. like he was always looking down upon me #i dont personally resonate with him or his story in the slightest AND several of his conversations made me uncomfortable #and then you can say 'oh well gale is kind of pretentious too and hes your favorite' but like. it feels different? #gale could explain magic to me for hours and id quietly listen even if inalready knew it #i could probably do a whole back & forth of 'that reminds me' 'oh that reminds me' 'well THAT reminds me' with gale #meanwhile astarion speaks and even with literally 3 options for dialogue idk what to say #like theres a lot ab astarion that doesnt resonate with me but ultimately his biggest sin #is just reminding me of being sixteen finally getting a seat at the table with classmates only to constantly feel like a loser #being this already insecure teenager constantly expecting people to be putting me down in ways my autistic brain cant comprehend #i dont like not knowing whether someone is genuine or not. after nearly 400 hours i still cant read astarion #meanwhile gale looks at my sorcerer durge starts explaining some magic and my brain immediately clocks it as autistic infodumping #i did romance astarion btw. i havent completed either of those runs but ive romanced him twice #and both times i didnt feel comfortable with it AT ALL until act 3. #& the impression he left on me is in fact fully subjective. i dont give a shit if i misinterpreted it. because thats just how i felt

[lesbiangiratina]

… there are 2 testament centric chapters id love to scan even just for my own enjoyment but the thought of taking these books apart makes me sad. Maybe if i just. Squish it down hard enough itll look okay. I just want to have new testament images

#as far as i can tell theyre both really sweet ;-; #1 is genuinely just. testament epic depression. dizzy is trying to get them to take better care of themself (they arent eating?) #+ stop isolating themself but they dont think they deserve it. saying its punishment for their sins #and well eventually johnny is like actually i think making dizzy sad is a worse sin than killing people #and testament is like. oh god oh fuck. youre right. #so they say theyll come and visit more :) #the other is more lighthearted KIND OF #testament keeps popping up in weird placs on the ship to watch over dizzy #and johnny is like. hey you can leave she doesnt need you anymore its okay #and they fuck off. and johnny is like hm maybe i shouldnt have said that i feel kinda bad. i cant stop thinking about them #and then no exaggeration hes like oh jeez its been a while since testament showed up. what if they killed themself. DONT SAY THAT? #but its okay cuz then testament shows up and they have a puppy dog. theyve taken up rescuing animals (i think) . theyre happy about it #and the last panel is them surrounded by animals. i think they filled the ship with animals. #acknowledgement that they like animals… kliff says that about them in missing link. its not in the english version tho. #or maybe he says they like nature? i dont remember exactly. but close enough animals are in nature. its okay #I DIDNT MEAN TO TYPE THAT MUCH SORRY. to the small percentage of my followers who care about testament enough to read this. hope u enjoyed #MORE STUFF HAPPENS in these chapters im summarizing. poorly. also my understanding is based on google translate lol but i get the gist #the kat goes meow

[sidebaxolotl]

(Also, to be clear, by all means preach what you believe. Just saying that everyone else should agree with you and accusing those who don't of clown takes is a little...much? There should be room for both takes in this beehive as long as we're churning out the sweet honey of the gospel)

Respectfully it is a clown take though. There is no point in having a distinction between side B and A at all if any type of non platonic relationship is permitted within the ideology--based on what we know about relationships in the bible that is participating in the sin of homosexual behavior and it is a sin and should be called out as such. You are more than welcome to feel that I'm wrong and I'm ok with that, you have a right to your own opinion just as I have a right to mine. But I'm gonna call a spade a spade, sorry. That doesn't mean I hate people with a different opinion or would necessarily even say they aren't Christians--but it is an attempt to skirt around a rather obvious command and its objectively foolish and I will stand by that.

#at the end of the day the gospel is the most important thing dont get me wrong. but it doesn't mean other parts of theology aren't important #and this is important because you're promoting that this sin is acceptable based on a narrow 20th century concept that did not exist then #its not consistent or intellectually honest like lets be real #also like ur free to not read my tags if you dont like what they say idk what to tell u #answers #side b #side b ssa

[poorlittlevampire]

sometimes i start writing like completely original fiction and then get to a point where i reread what i have so far and its like... bro this is literally just [other story ive read before]

#like i dont do it on purpose and i dont realize till im reading thru it #its like when ur writing a song and think you have smthn original going but then ur like... goddamnit this is already a song!! #sad! oh well. time to self immolate to atone for my sins

[starswallowingsea]

i've been thinking about this a lot recently and for like the last year since i've taken translation theory courses and gotten more proficient in my second language buuuuuut. only like 3% of published works in american/english first language book stores are translated from other languages. compare that to how quickly books published in english get translated into other languages. an author could be incredibly well known in their home country or to their audience of native language speakers, but they're still considered "nobodies" by the general english speaking population because of a lack of translations into english.

part of the problem i think is the cultural superiority english speakers feel in the world right now and how its trying to bury other cultures and languages because english is best. this then leads to nobody seeing a reason to translate works from other languages or only translating very few* because there isnt an audience for "foreign" literature. i dont think most of my classmates outside the spanish program have read many, if any works by non-english speaking authors and that really is a shame because it opens so many new viewpoints on the world and gives you a look into other cultures right in your own home!

*the exception here i think is anime/manga which has an incredibly dedicated fanbase creating fanlations for smaller series that havent gotten official english dubs/subs/translations. japanese literature still has a hard time on the market in america though

#this isnt super coherent dont take this as fact or anything just my opinion #but i have noticed that its somewhat difficult to get anything other than a few classics as translated novels #officially anyway. like i have 100 years of solitude and hopscotch on my bookshelf #i think when i was looking for a copy of el lugar sin limites (jose donoso) i saw an english translation of htat #but it was more likely to be in portuguese or french or its original spanish #i think they didnt have any copies of the english text actually #uhm. also poetry in other languages when translated? exquisite #shoutout to translators who do poetry because goddamn that is so hard #to make it sound pretty and preserve the original meaning in that way to a new audience #translation is the art and science of languages i think. #anyway the site i linked had a translations database but it got moved so. idk what to do with that. #uhm anyway try reading more translated books or short stories #you can find quiroga's short stories translated online for free #or at least i found a la deriva for free online and it uses really striking imagery in it #shay speaks

[traaanskimkitsuragi]

i consider celeste and hollow knight both masterpieces in the sense that they arent literally perfect (both have some major flaws that made it significantly difficult for me to get through certain sections and somewhat soured the experience) but at the same time i feel like theyre as close to perfect as a videogame is going to get. like, no piece of media will ever be truly, genuinely perfect, but ive never encountered another game that got so close.

#disco elysium is another game that got really close but the flaws got a bit much for me so i dont hold it in quite as high a regard #and technically i have less beef w celeste even though i prefer hollow knight #celestes major sins are its tutorials and some more lackluster accessibility #i appreciate that theres considerable effort but it does need to be better #it needs to explain itself more either by fixing the existing tutorials or adding an optional manual you can read #things like hitboxes are so confusing at times and it makes for an experience where i straight up dont understand why i keep dying #until i eventually figure it out and im like 'well why didnt you just tell me that so i didnt waste an hour trying the same thing' #also the camera isnt great #in larger rooms it often suddenly jerks to the side while youre moving #and my eyes cant process whats happening during those frames #and a lot of times im in the middle of maneuvering through spikes and stuff?? #so it just causes me to lose track of my character and i inevitably get hit #i literally just have to rely on muscle memory to memorize positionings and timings because i genuinely cant see whats happening #which needless to say isnt great #if i turned on assist mode i could probably slow down game speed to help but that shouldnt be the only option #it should be a visual setting #(also in regards to visuals its very hard to make out hazards sometimes like they just blend into the bg) #hollow knight has a lot more issues and in terms of accessibility it sucks absolute ass #but at least there are mods if youre on pc that can help w a lot of the issues #esp w stuff like visibility in the radi fight #do i wish the game itself had more options?? yes absolutely #but also team cherry have basically been working on hk and silksong nonstop afaik so its less negligence and more just time constraints #i do hope silksong is better in this regard tho since they have no deadlines w it #edit: OH ALSO. CELESTE HAS RLLY BAD 'EXPLORATION' #searching for the collectibles isnt fun and the game is really awful at hinting at them

[gachaparadise]

I've been doing interludes lately (as you do during an interlude campaign) and the gap in quality and character analysis is insane sometimes. I did Qsh and Nezha's back to back and... Night and day over here. Qsh's was so charming and showed me a new side of my beloved moth, as well as some really cute gap moe moments. Nezha's was boring, hardly focussed on them at all, and made the same tired jokes about their gender over and over... Even the blurb on their profile you get after it's complete does it orz

#also the writing for Nezha's was like... bad. it felt stiff and didn't flow at all #not the content (though that was bad also) the actual writing #i went to read that one specifically because i was curious about what Nezha's pronouns were orz... #because im hot overly familiar with them and the one thing i do recall about them is when we first meet them- #they remark on how their body isn't what they expected and are... upset i believe? it was a while ago aha... #i just recall them pretty distinctly not being cool with the fact they have a female body now #i wanted to know if they came arpund to itor if they wanted to be refered to as a man but okay #tasteless jokes about how gender makes them uncomfortable is fine to i guess #anyway! for now until further notice i guess Nezha is stuck with the old reliable they/them because genuinely i have no idea how they feel #i know their profile uses she/her but... pretty sure Mordred's does that as well and he obviously doesn't use those #whatever i guess!! don't know why i expected an even remotely nuances take from fgo who cares lets talk about my moth!!! #i love how they have a whole backup plan in case we fail like yes king restart SIN you're a genius babygirl 💕 #seriously so cute i love them #i dunno if i can resist grailing them to 100 next tiem we have an ember campaign #i put it off so far since i dont use them much gameplay wise but... moth good #these tags got away from me woops #game: fate grand order #post: chatter #sorry about the typos that I'm sure are there btw I'm on mobile and you can't re-edit tags without retyping them yet...

[hartmannyoukaigirl]

girl re: your shipping post....... i promise you, whatever youre thinking of, it doesnt matter. its just words on a screen or lines on a page, its fictional, no matter what the scenario is, and it just DOESNT matter. idk if it'll make you feel better but 10 yrs ago no one cared about "problematic" ships, and 10 yrs from now ppl will have forgotten about this puritanical moment in time. youre fine.

I appreciate the sentiment but the thought of "it's just words/lines/pixels" is why stuff like hardcore ero-guro pedo rape art exists of pixelated 5 year olds and so it's. a bit dangerous ! It shall be used in Moderation. Like knowing those fanfics are 100% wrong but enjoying them as a guilty pleasure nonetheless is a good mentality I think. like, for me I enjoy them because there's no love to be found it's just pain torture. and it's entertaining unfortunately the fate of blorbo is to suffer it seems

thank you though anon :3 I'm just going through the standard 'KYAAAAA my yaoi fics r too shameful ><><><><' that happens whenever I find a good fic that's also. bad

#idk why i feel this shame and embarassment over specifically bl. for the past year i read the most god awful concerning doujins of this one #yuri ship and if you ask me abt i could go on an entire essay justifying it and being like no its actually the greatest thing to exist free #of all forms of sin #but with. like all of my bl ships i actually cant talk abt them 💀 the embarassment is too much #fun thing the bl ship im talking abt was dubbed a 'c0mship' on tiktok and apparently its 'complicated ship' and. I never felt so connected #to a ship genre b4 #like complicated. yes. exactly. i dont like pr0 ships bc theyre in the edgy 4chan territory for me but COMSHIPS ... ??? UR KIDDING ME THATS #PERFECT #anyways. i wanted to say smthin else but i forgor

[fungi-maestro]

The Question in Trinity of Sin (2014)

#dc comics #book club #comics #the question #vic sage #religious symbolism #trinity of sin #im not big on some of the other stuff in there but he was good #i thought it was cool that he got a big stick #should i tag the stick? #spear of inquiry #judt in case anyone is searching for the stick i guess #anyway this was good if you like stories about demons escaping and attempting to kill mankind #with a healthy seasoning of very thick religious metaphor #i like religious metaphor i just dont get into supernatural stuff as much #definitely read or at least be familiar with the 52 series though #otherwise you might be a little lost #i havent read those yet.... i KNOWWWW #im too scared #nah ill get to them next #questionable images #had to crop one of these bc. well. nevermind...