#It's so desensitized to everything

[skinnypaleangryperson]

I was more entertained by the two seconds of the preview for next week's episode than the entirety of this one. I am not, however, going to buy into their meat hanging teasing that it's going to be something that's serialized. 🤡 We all know that's their favorite thing to do and then not do it. (No, I'm not crying about it, just stating a fact).

#rick and morty #Yes I am complaining #suicide is such an overplayed concept for me because I literally have to fight not to do it everyday #and am part of an s support group of just people doing it all day long and used to work at the ER #I'm not necessarily angry #just not amused etc #I am exhausted by this generation #It's so desensitized to everything #My parents barely even know what suicide even is

[ezdotjpg]

actually now that I am writing ch 2 I would like to poll the audience: how are we feeling abt the direction of the comic? did we enjoy ch1 overall? did the sections that were mostly dialogue ever feel like they dragged? inquiring minds would like to know

#it’s me im inquiring minds #sorry if this is weird to ask I am just very interested in how readers are Feeling 🤔 #i spent so long on ch 1 I feel like I’m desensitized to everything abt it lol #textdotjpg

[spearxwind]

It's those gay eels I keep talking about

#windyart #alex cringe on main moments sorry (not sorry at all i am cringe but i am free) #i enjoy the colors in this one a lot i hope you will too <3 subjects you to gay eels #cf #cf art #hades #talas #ouggh not sure what else to tag this as #suggestive #i mean. maybe. i dont know i am desensiticed to like everything #hey if youre reading this did you know hades only stands tall up to talas' chest. so here he is being held up ty for coming to my ted talk #im throwing this into the void and hoping people enjoy them lmao good bye!! im gonna hide under a rock

[gardenerian]

thoughts on ian’s face in the “sorry im late” scene in 5x8 (i think it’s 5x8)

my thoughts are that i am going to start crying and never stop. my additional thoughts are:

so he's in bed, right? he's been trying mickey all day, meanwhile mickey has been going through his own process at home. but ian is thinking that he might have finally pushed mickey away for good - or scared him away. so he's in bed, eyes shut - probably not sleeping, but just laying there. shutting out the rest of the day. he hears someone behind him and his eyes kinda open. it's when he hears mickey though that his breathing picks up and we go from this:

to this:

like it's so slight, but like. the little flutters and the way his eyes start to move 😭 there's life left there. i feel like...... in moments like this, it sometimes feels like you might just lay there until you're dust. it's all over. the life you knew, the life you wanted. and yet - here he is again. and i think ian is genuinely surprised. this is where is starts being surprising to ian that he could be someone to come back for.

anyways. he turns around as fast as his medicated body will let him. we don't see his face when he first sees mickey, but we see it when he says "sorry i'm late." and it reminds me of the scene in 4x11 where mickey says "what you and i have makes me free." like it makes me insane. in both of these moments, his face just drops into something so young and so vulnerable.

like???? he's a little boy! and here is someone standing in front of him - someone he he has ALWAYS WANTED to stand in front of him - promising to be there. that he knows ian needed him. that he's here now for whatever might happen. reality is so warped these days but here he is.

and you see it land??? you see ian exhale and settle in a way he probably hasn't in a while. things are not okay. they're not okay!!! and they won't be for a while. but in this little moment together in this room where he grew up, he can breathe out the grief. he can share it.

mickey moves to get in bed and ian just makes room, like he always has. but he never blinks. doesn't dare take his eyes off of mickey. it's like he's scared mickey might change his mind, or dissolve right in front of him. is he even really there?

and there's another layer of disbelief here. another layer of grief. mickey milkovich is crawling back into his bed to hold him, and it's like this. it happened like this. everything he's done and suffered and been made to face comes down all at once. he's tired, he's scared. he's sorry. mickey has finally seen the worst of him.

he looks away, and mickey chases after him. i think it's important to mickey here that he lets ian feel him. something about that tactile, grounding comfort. and mickey won't look away either, it's too precious. ian's safe, even if nothing is the same.

and it's here, in these quivering lips and drawn eyebrows...... this is the release. his body and his mind have been through a lot in the last few days. it's as close to cathartic as ian really gets for a while. it's not long before the walls go back up and he's angry. but right now, he brings his hand to hold mickey's wrist, and he lets himself be held.

now.... this face:

this face fucking haunts me. i cannot name this face. what is he seeing here? i imagine it's so hard to see past this moment, into a future he can't name. it's like he's simultaneously feeling mickey there and also completely isolated. i can't explain this face. can anyone else explain this face???

either way, he closes his eyes against it. and you can assume that rest is coming.

with mickey keeping watch.

#i am legitimately in tears #i think...... #our focus as a fandom has shifted in a lot of ways #to our beloved himbo husbands and the silly slutty soft snarky future they share #and like! yes! yes let's! that's what they deserve! #don't mistake me i fucking love it #but the farther away we get from THIS #the harder it gets to come back to it #it becomes this abstract thing #and we end up saying things like #their history or what they overcame #or everything they've been through #it almost softens it #not saying that we need to be harping on the tragedy #it just feels so distant to the point where it's memed and convoluted #we've kind of desensitized ourselves? #i know we've probably said a lot of what we need to say #i don't think we need to constantly relive it or anything #i'm not making any sense #i don't know #this can be such a lonely way to live is all #i'm tired #ily anon #mel answers #5x08 #bipolar ian

[melanorhynchus-side]

Hong Lu as a Sinosauropteryx maybe... their ringed tail feels elegant and they were also discovered in China :D

the gay raptor that conservatives are too afraid to talk about [caihong + sinosauropteryx]

#cn dinosaurs are the besttttt thank you so much for the ask #this came out a lot more rough than usual bc im tired but i had to get this idea out of my head #he's piebald as a nod to his sheltered life he would not survive the wild #plus i wanted an excuse to give him a fully teal eye #tysm for the req! he is horribly desensitized to absolutely everything #req #mi sitelen #pm #hong lu lcb

[rithmeres]

genuinely these panels are going to make me ugly cry

#i'm not back for real yet i think i want to stay away longer. i'm just here to put more things in the queue and answer messages #i really enjoyed trimax vol 4 idk something about it was less miserable than 1-3 #might have been the first volume that i wasn't grimacing the entire time i read it. or maybe i'm just desensitized now. #unironically this prayer is soooo beautiful to me. give us this day our daily bread. not bread for the week not bread for a year #just enough for today. #lately when i've been praying it just looks like #please for the love of god please please please please please PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPL #things are not looking good for the community house.. lots bureaucracy with the city. and the church that funded us is falling apart #i don't know what i'm going to do if we get shut down it's the one thing in my life that's worth anything #all those kids... where are they going to go. who is going to help them. where is the neighborhood going to get their food. #in two days it will be the anniversary of [REDACTED] and i am so so so scared #just sat in my room today and fruitlessly scrolled thru jobs im not qualified for & tried not to think about thinking about killing myself #i don't WANT to kill myself i don't want to think about it i hate thinking about killing myself i will never ever kill myself or even try #but there is a demon or perhaps a ghost or evil wizard that tells me there's an easy way everything can go away. and it's A STUPID. BITCH. #please do not reply to this post i know you all mean well but i just don't think i can handle it. #talking about it i mean. and hearing people say nice but empty things. #i just wish i had someone to sit next to me. #personal #i don't want to go to church tomorrow :( it all feels so fake and i do not ever feel fed.

[cerealmonster15]

scuse me i gotta go be embarrassing under the cut brb 🚶

@cosmiccoincidence @felix-the-lemon-king well FUCK ok hi lol 👋

so like images from the engtwst translation that altered my brain forever:

so like. 🧍🙈 URGHGHHHG lol. felix u may have heard some of or all of this tangent before in the dms LOL but

my attempt at long story short: friend and i were into twst well before engtwst came out, so when we saw the official translation translated cater's "leona-kun" to "leona, sweetheart," we were like 🤨sweetheart?🤨🤨🤨 jkslajKLDJL like ik it's a casual thing meant here but. however. you see LOL

longer details: me being how i am as a person™, i let this fester in the back of my brain and it gradually grew out of control. i dont like. theyre not a pair i think of when i think of My Cater Ships. HOWEVER as i do with most leona potential ships(???) they read as exes to me here JSDLFG like. me with my soap opera lenses on [they are never off. sorry.] has me running wild w/this like leona/cater having A Thing of some undefined nature like maybe last year. tapping into cater's implied vibes of not always letting people get super close / used to kinda keeping things surface level and making the most of Being In The Moment and less concerned about making lasting ties bc hes used to stuff not lasting from his moving around etc etc whatever. like cater and leona starting off w/ a bond of just quietly being in each others space [i mean caters a chatterbox LOL im thinkin those rare moments where hes like mask off kinda lethargic or something. caycays such an interesting character w/a lotta mystery in that regard but i do NOT have time to get into that so just!!! bear with me LOL JFKLSDJF]

anyway i feel like i recycle the same plotlines with characters/ocs forever but thats just too bad: cater+ leona bonding somehow dont worry about it. idk leonas a spelldrive star and caters really good at flying so They Could Bond -> somehow falling into like a Casual Lowkey Relationship where theyre like 'we arent DATING dating, no labels and mostly just hang out when no one's around but Something Undefined is happening here. they kiss or whatever lol -> they emphasize w/e they have is strictly casual and 'doesnt mean anything' -> perhaps cater emphasized the 'doesnt mean anything' part more idk -> some forbidden feelings kinda spark anyway but one or both of em are just kinda. ignoring/denying it lol -> ive had a specific image in my brain for a Long Time of like. cater kissing lion boy. then being like ✌️its ok, its just for fun dont worry doesnt mean anything ✌️ -> and like its a mutual neutral feeling At First but like eventually i think their Situation falls apart for one reason or another and theres Tension

^i said takes place the year before the game starts but i think i also had it in my mind toying w/the idea of it as like a SUMMER FLING/ROMANCE(?) that ended RIGHT BEFORE school started. or idk maybe it ended right before they got out for break. WHATEVER.

point is those screenshots are from book 2 which is still pretty early on in the school year so ive got the vibe of like "oh things are still awkward between them, the 'breakup' is still relatively fresh, and leona feels bitter about it and is playing extra hardball with these guys and also harshly teasing them about it bc caters there and hes Emotional but taking it out sports style" lol. and supplementing that Specific Image In My Head^ i imagine in that convo in the screenshots w/cay being like 😔leona sweetheart plz chill😔 leona would just be like 😒well. it 'Doesnt Mean Anything' so whats the problem here 😌 😒

anyway. you maybe didnt really ask for the extra headcanon au lore whatever details but i gave them to you anyway LOL my LeoCay Messy Breakup AU. but i ALSO just like drawing them together bc cay is my fave and fun to draw, and leona is Also fun to draw 😔 my fave character cay + character i have been dragged kicking and screaming to kind of respect over time KLJFSDKLJFL every time leona says or does something that makes me think hes cool or smart i get SO MAD about it. seething at book 6 LOL SJDKLFJD twst with their damn complex characters making me Think Deeply 😒 and then i steal their deep blorbos and put them in my funny little barbie dreamhouse soap opera recycled romance drama plotline loop forever and ever and ev

ahem. so yea on the surface. pair that probs would never ever work out HOWEVER it's MY mind palace and i can make up whatever silly rules i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#literally sat here head in my hands irl for a few seconds bc i was so embarrassed typing all this LOL had 2 pause and recollect myself #still gonna tag it tho. i have to desensitize myself 💪 #twisted wonderland #cater diamond #leona kingscholar #twst #cereal tries to draw #if the readmore doesnt work im committing crimes. but usually it works after i edit and re-add it lol #i have a lot of cay ships bc cay is a fave character and #i cant help but put my fave blorbos through the 'everyone should love u' machine #listen not everything is about shipping however i simply Enjoy It #it is FUN #<- me defending myself when literally no one is challenging me lol #SORRY it's 1am im Getting Scared lol #its the danger hour the Big Emotions time lol time for BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[frecklystars]

god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!

there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;

#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night #woof #like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago #if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses #bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink #WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL #and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie #is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized #bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!! #barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold #god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY #this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!! #i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me #i dont want ptsd to control my life #i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch #thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like #but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it #and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore #which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally #cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff #colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back #STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.

[l48yr1nth]

that shit with the boeing whistleblower's sudden death from "self-inflicted wounds" in his car right before he was about to go into further questioning with a legal team is so fucked. are you serious? are you serious. the justice system will be bought out by a plane manufacturing company and a man is dead with no repercussions. even more people will die because boeing will not be held responsible for not only killing a man, but also the horrible quality of their planes. which are falling apart midair!

#labyposting #i know there's a lot of bad stuff happening like. EVERYWHERE. right now #but i keep hearing about this and it just. is like wow #corporate hell. we are owned by companies. our JUSTICE SYSTEM is owned by companies #kill all rich people kill all rich people kill all rich people kill all rich people why arent they fucking dead yet literally everything ba #--in the world is happening because of the morbidly rich #and it still feels like nothing gets done #this is worse than the dark ages #im violent. im angry. im so angry #everyone should be. we are apathetic and desensitized and they are CAPITALIZING ON THAT

[mariverses]

ik it's like.. rich people doing.. rich things with their submarine but i also think that making fun and games about it is a bit insensitive. people died fhere. one out of stupidity but he died and while some think his life is a fair pay because he put it and others on the table ... yeah you're right but i still don't see it as something to laugh about. it's horrible to me

#sm is so desensitized to all the horrible things that everything is a point and laugh and nobodu thinks about what they're saying anymore

[casualavocados]

ive watched 3 seasons of 911 in a week. and yeah i also watched the last two s7 eps that came out. yes ive seen spoilers for like the whole show and im still having fun. and hey, the next ep doesnt come out till may so i have time to catch up! (i dont think itll take me three weeks to watch three more seasons)

#you ever see fan reactions to stuff especially ship stuff and youre like #oh my gos theyre exaggerating theres no way its Like That #and then you watch the show and it is REALLY Like That and you have to come to terms with oh... #theyre not wrong?? anyway thats what im experiencing with buddie rn #and i love all the other characters too soooo much especially chimney hes my second fav after buck #julian watches 911 #<- tag just in case but i dont think ill be posting many personal takes here since im zooming thru the series #i didnt think i was gonna get into this #i watched the ep with the kiss cuz i wanted to be all supportive of bi guy rep #figured i wouldnt be able to follow anything else cuz i didnt know the story or characters but it was really easy to understand? #and then later that night i just...started s1. annnnd kept going #i thought the accidents and calls eould be Too Much for me but my morbid curiosity won over in the enz #now i think im desensitized to pretty much everything bloody lol #gotta say the calls they take are faaaaaar more interesting than any kinda cop or detective show ive seen in a Long Time #and the characters really fill it in and make it better #so yeah i am having fun w this

[basslinegrave]

adults in children’s spaces should feel weird tbh you have a responsibility as an adult to protect those children and care for them and that should be your priority not fetishizing characters from the shows llmfaaoooo?!?!!!!?! also you’re 24 why are u standing up for imaginary evil 44 year olds??? go smoke some weed or see a movie or something christ

omg hi ok did you read all of my tags... i literally said they should keep it separate and if they want to be weirdos to keep it in their own space and make sure that no children see it and that they, yeah agreeing with you, not be in childrens spaces

and i only made that comment as many adults (30+) get hate only for being old in fandom spaces even though they arent like this, so just as a reminder

and some people just like cartoons, even for kids, many of them have messages for everyone no matter your age, even though i myself dont watch bluey, i know people who do and just enjoy it (not in the weird way) and also am friends with adults that happen to be in fandom spaces and are being hated on for being older, that came to mind when i saw that post first (then i realized mid writing tags it was most likely a jab at the princess thing, which is a great example of gross people and should be shunned)

maybe im just dense cuz i like sonic and cartoons which are only for kids? /s

also i just went to see a movie! saw barbie it was great you should go watch it too

#yay first hate(?) #idk if youre a follower or just someone that happened to stumble upon my tags well sorry i said that i just though of my friends #also i agree with it being a bit weird and some people just cant fucking stop fetishizing everything but i literally dont #care about everyone anymore. as long as the character is an adult i dont care thats it #im not here to policy online individuals #added tag maybe im just too desensitized being in furry spaces most of them are freaks in a way and many sexualize #the dog dad so i didnt give it more thought

[lloydfrontera]

I read the first chapter or two of the unofficial translation and the acupuncture stuff just kinda put me off, that's too close to quackery for me to take it seriously, so I was wondering about your thoughts on it

oh. oh buddy. listen if you care about medical accuracy like,, at all,, this is definitely not the novel for you lmao

personally acupuncture is not for me, i have a strong fear of needles so the thought of anyone sticking needles into my body is terrifying, but i also feel that way about any kind of shot so i am probably not the best person to ask. as for whether it is quackery,,, maybe it's just that i'm not a native english speaker but that sounds like a loaded word lmao. i think it has to have some benefits, but definitely not to the level some attribute it. i would group it along with chiropractic (which by the way rakiel also does). useful for some people if done correctly but only if accompanied by actual medical advice lol.

plus. i think most people forget how recent most modern medicine is. for a long ass time herbal remedies, acupuncture, moxibustion, things we now consider as outdated or primitive or outright barbaric,,, well they were all that were available at the time. it was the best they could do. it wasn't that doctors and healers of that time didn't want to do better, they literally couldn't. and some of this stuff is still deeply tied to some cultures, is still respected as traditional methods of treatment. to call it quackery feels just,,,, a little icky.

now rakiel is from the modern era, but still, he's not someone who tries to scam people by offering fake miracle treatments with acupuncture or whatever. he's just offering whatever help he can with what he knows to do.

and really this is a fantasy novel. massive spoilers ahead but like. rakiel talks with his goddamn organs. he can get a diagnosis by taking people's pulse. he cured fucking covid with the help of a dragon. his own bone dragon takes x-rays by sneezing. damian uses his excess glucose to make mana blasts. medical accuracy is well behind us.

so like. i get why you could be put off by the treatments he uses, they're not very accurate and are definitely being exaggerated for the sake of the plot, but. they're not much more outlandish that everything lloyd is doing in tged lol. i think it's just that most of us are less familiar with civil engineering that we are with medicine and, uh, basic human anatomy, so we can more easily call bullshit on some of the wild plot devices ajksdka

i am very interested in your thoughts tho! please tell me if you read further and what you think of it!

#hey i got an ask #Anonymous #watching period kdramas has desensitized me to a lot of unfamiliar medical treatments #i really recommend watching 'live up to your name' for some context on the way acupuncture is treated in korean culture #it doesn't go very in depth but i think it's worth watching anyway! #plus reading about the way medicine was before modern times. it gives you a new appreciation for living in the present lol. #everything that went on before a reliable and safe method of knocking people out for treatment.... harrowing stuff ajshdkja #i dunno #i'm mexican so i'm always a little wary when someone calls traditional medicine by any derogatory word. #feels too close to colonizer propaganda alsjdlkada #not that i'm saying you said anything wrong nonnie i'm just talking about my own biases! #crown prince sells medicine #cpsm

[uppastthejelliclemoon]

Macavity: Was it mercy? Was it murder? Either way, that’s what happens when you do ✨stuff✨

#he’s so desensitized to everything #and could care less #cats the musical #incorrect cats quotes #cats incorrect quotes #macavity

[faerociousbeast]

homophobia sucks

#ughhhhhh the world is in so many crises all the time and all i can do is feel really sad #this is so. this is so lame what do we even have left #climates changing medias censoring police murdering technology advertising companies selling #theres no fucking escape and im really really tired #go outside... where. where. where can you go anymore. #the forest behind our backyard isnt a forest anymore its literally like three trees thick #bc they fucking cut half of it down to make new houses #and now all we see from our backyard are those other houses that werent there before #so many people will never see the sky full of stars #animals are going extinct but nothings being done bc theyre not Useful or give Profit #the very same kids you say youre protecting by banning so many things are being shot in the very place you said they were safe #no matter where you go your data is being sold there is no such thing as privacy #there is STILL A FUCKING PANDEMIC #and we are just supposed to. be used to it. immune. desensitized. is that not worse #the idea that ignoring it is all we can do bc caring wont even do shit #bc its bc people who dont care about anything other than themselves made all the decisionsn #and now everythings a fucking shithole #and all i can do about it is get upset in fucking tumblr tags

[carelesscuriosity]

actually no im not done ranting about captain laserhawk b/c why couldn’t they maintain a singular objective throughout the season? it’s so fucking aimless the moment Alex dies b/c it switches to a whole new objective/enemy spurred on by Sarah choosing to save Laserhawk bc he’s just such a cool and important badass unlike any other who she can use. forget all the build up with one rebellion that laserhawk has an actual reason to be involved in (either with or against), we’re just gonna switch to a new, totally separate rebellion/takeover effort that’s literally only linked to the previous plot via random characters we’ve been given no time to even start being interested in

#captain laserhawk hate #captain laserhawk spoilers #captain laserhawk #this was genuinely the soggiest storytelling ive ever watched #i kept waiting for an overarching plot to come up and connect everything but no #characters just keep dying and there’s absolutely no build up to anything b/c captain laserhawk can defeat an entire army in a 5 min fight #where are the stakes?? where are the character motivations?? it all just happens bc the plot needs it to #it’s just all so weak #the oppressive government/company/regime should bot be some easily destroyable bg threat #why could rayman just walk into the room where the leaders of the surveillance state all are and kill them all? like w/ little to no effort? #and like the mc didn’t need to be an every man but it sure would’ve helped us actually feel the negative effects of the existing regime #as opposed to flashes of random violence which we’ve already been desensitized to thanks to the way we’re introduced to the world #u cannot convince the audience that there’s a mass surveillance state that makes any dissidents out to be terrorists w/o recourse #while simultaneously having a government that doesn’t even have the power to stop singular ppl from destroying the military/government