#Monitor Yourself

[t-u-i-t-c]

“If there are feelings that are too hard to put into words...Then put them into action.”

#king ohger spoilers #kingohger #king ohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #ohsama sentai king ohger #rita kaniska #morfonia #morfonia (king ohger) #papillon ohger #super sentai #tokuedit #please do not repost #umbrella.edits #umbrella.gifs #umbrella.posts #translation: over-time #subtitles added by me #i think there's a lot to be said about how rita's position as a king impacts them especially as they seem to have trouble communicating due #to their need to stay impartial on all levels #i feel as though it is tiring to have to consistently monitor yourself and your actions for the sake of impartiality #so it's perfectly reasonable for rita to create an outlet with moffun to talk things through and have a moment of peace #in a way i do wonder if rita's sense of individuality has been smothered by the need to remain neutral as having individuality means having #thoughts and opinions but rita must go by the law and by what they know to be the way things are meant to go #i think it makes it hard for them to ask for help bc they've always gone about their life alone #i think we could draw parallels between yanma and rita but i don't want to ramble too much...

[miredball]

good morning yall what the fuck was this.

#like seriously #jaw explain yourself!!!!! #when chris storer saw this little melty spongy soft face in the monitor what was he thinking #what kind of man looks at a ONE WEEK coworker like this #and then he says her name #‘syd.’ you know what actually fuck you!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

helloooo my dearest darling listeners, i am back on my soapbox to regale you all with the marvelous things i witnessed/experienced on my Whimsical As Fuck™️ three hour drive today. not necessarily in order <3

some cute does with bigass floppy ears / very sweet waitress who called me "hon" and put the most tasty looking crepes on my table / a pair of hawks divebombing a golden eagle / a kite (the bird) / a flock of magpies / some GORGEOUS scenery / a rainbow / lovely rain sprinklings / MORE gorgeous scenery, i mean what the fuck / fields of purple/orange/red tipped bushes / a meadow of buttercup-yellow very tall grass, in which many picturesque trees stood / lots of fluffy, adorable, tasty cows / a large herd of likely-feral horses with a wonderful variety of patterns & colors / the fluffiest husky ever / the juxtaposition of cold wind through an open window + warm sunlight / the most stunning snow-coated mountain of whites and blues in the sun, wreathed in clouds / no seriously some really fucking Gorgeous scenery, i was near tears with some of it

#i am feeling. Better Than I Have In A While #you know! last night i was very unhappy that i would have to do this drive! #but after my 2 hour doze in the ihop parking lot #and a nice breakfast of crepes and tea w/ my book #i was feeling better and decided Fuck It. im gonna make myself enjoy this drive #im gonna take my goddamn time and really absorb my surroundings #by fuck i will stop at a rest stop and take a walk! and i did all of it! #life is actually worth it! glad to have continuous confirmation of that #its so nice to drive and actually see things #beautiful landscapes... wildlife... Geography... #instead of just Flat. Scrub. Brown. More Scrub. Dirt. Dead Scrub aka Tumbleweed. Boring Brown Hills. No Weather. #i can go outside the clouds are Full and the air is Fresh and birds are Singing and i am Alive #absolutely unprompted #i expect the feeling of realness to fade soon but i will enjoy it while it lasts! #and maybe if i feel it often enough it will outlast the disconnect! #now i think i am going to treat myself to a pork bun i just bought & get one of the nice beers from the garage #ive Earned It! #you all treat yourself to something you like as well. we have all earned it simply by existing! #you're here today! Yippee! indulge! #im feeling so fucking whimsical today... ill go work on setting up my extra monitor and figuring out how the fuck that works! #my mic has already arrived! i have hope that i will do a test stream Soon!

[rowanthestrange]

Want to hear something cool? I stood up to make lunch and fainted, not to unconsciousness but enough to lie on the kitchen floor (uncool), but Cody came in and started rubbing his face against mine like a cat while I lay there til I felt better - a behaviour he’s never done before.

I’ve gone from a dog who (God love him) had zero interest in my personal wellbeing, to having a pup that can go ‘I see you are having a Medical Event, can I assist you?’ Bloody hell.

We gotta get you to stop trying to chase cars baby boy, you’ve got so much potential.

#it’s okay i’ve /finally/ got a heart monitor tracker attached #it’s not a proper one cus the wait list is apparently 8 months #(for a thing they said i needed next day after the november event) #but it’s attached for 14 days #and i just press a button if things are funky #caffeine really does kill me though #possibly literally #start switching yourself to decaf before you don’t have a choice imo

[saturnisfallingdown]

hdmi cables are my worst enemy

#my monitor came with an hdmi 1.4 cable and i couldnt figure out why i wasnt getting signal for the longest time!! #turns out my graphics card reeaallly wants hdmi 2.0. so i had to order a separate cable. #brother can you just settle im using you as a krita and firefox machine you dont need to extend yourself much #saturn is rambling down

[francisforever2014]

i have a weird obsession with reading parenting news articles and stuff despite never wanting to become a parent bc they’re just so fascinating to me…… like the brand of neurosis people have is so interesting . i just read a long ass article this mom wrote freaking tf out about whether or not to buy an elf on the shelf bc on one hand she was tired and exhausted from all of the other stuff she does for christmas for her kids but on the other she’s like omg i don’t want to ROB them of more christmas magic 😖 like i promise it’s not that serious but also i feel bad bc she’s big stressing over literally nothing . also she included a bit where her husband was like yeah let’s get an elf this year . and she was like okay i’m too busy do you think you could take point on it? and he was like *silence* like 😭 these women make me so sad i prommy you’re not ruining your children’s childhoods by not doing every single stupid tradition but your husband is ruining YOUR life by being fucking useless and refusing to do one thing like i wish they could focus on that instead of taking on all of this contrived blame :(

#and at the end after writing paragraphs over how exhausted she is she was like idk maybe i’ll still get one …. #bestie pls free yourself #also side note but she included a bit about how a psychologist told her that elf of the shelf’s teach bad lessons to kids about being #constantly monitored and the idea of being ‘naughty’ and i was like PERIOD but she didn’t care skdhdjdjd #maybe focus on not putting ur kids in a panopticon and divorcing ur husband instead of writing news columns (said with empathy)

[unhonestlymirror]

- There is a theory introduced by a belorussian historian that Gudija is a derivative from the word which means "barbarians"

- No, it’s not, go to Lithuanian dictionaries.

- We'll never know the truth...

- IT'S A LITHUANIAN WORD, WHY DON'T YOU ASK LITHUANIANS WHAT IT MEANS

- Maybe the author of the theory is wrong, maybe not... We can't ask the people of those times anyway...

- LITHUANIA LITERALLY EXISTS!!

Yk, if someone spread misinformation the same way about, e.g., Polish terms, the Poles would have already caused a scandal for the whole of Europe and would be right. But who cares about Lithuania anyway, I guess.🙄

#Lithuania #Belarus #Gudija #belorussian means prorussian Belarusian #'we'll never know the truth' nice try to justify yourself for spreading misinformation and inciting ethnic hatred #unfortunately for you I've been monitoring prorussian propagandists long enough to recognise their tools

[minecrussy]

‘It’s against company policy to discount baby food for any reason’ suck my shit hard from the back you cop ass cunt

#shit for brains you were hired two days ago. loss prevention this dick #do you not hear yourself? it’s not coming out of your fucking paycheck mccarthy #and it’s not even discounting. if the product arrives busted as shit to the point no one wants to buy it yeah I’m putting a 30% off sticker #on it cause I’m not fucking putting it in my overstock until it expires in 2026 and second of all #I’m not going through all 400 pouches of baby mush food every fucking month to take off the shit that expires month by month #you’re fucking insane if you think I’m doing that. video monitor this ass about it #count your fucking days.

[viviennelamb]

There's a difference between having empathy (comprehension that everybody has trauma) and then there's the expectation that somebody has a "consistent, sustained, high empathy level for you." This is a great example of a vampire - nobody owes anybody any of this. If you find a supply chain that is willing to feed you, great, but the reason why a lot of women avoid each other is because of these extremely high demands on what won't help the individual; you have to get in touch with your soul, not more people. There aren't enough people in the world to support you when you don't have a Self.

This is a lot more than just asking for compassion. Learn to love yourself instead of demanding it from others otherwise, you're just a bottomless cup.

[archduke-enver-gortash]

hey guys update on the “smut” (it’s not smut it’s mental and physical battles.) fic 😬

don’t know how it got this out of hand but i’m just gonna blame it on yapper supreme 9000 (gortash) being the narrator and half of this being basically a character study lol

#gortash: blah blah blah subjugation blah blah blah #me in front of the monitor: KILL YOURSELF #last scene that happened: gortash smashes zekes knees in with his cane :/ #in a disgustingly controlled way. like blacksmith hammers iron #ok whatever back to writing more geneva conventions violating intercourse #no. no wrong word. jesus being crucified comes closer

[houndpitspub]

yes, yes, insulin should be free, but needles need to also be free. like fuck I should not have to pay to GIVE myself the medication I need to survive

#its like pay me for you insulin #now pay me for the thing you need to GIVE yourself the insulin #and also pay me for the test strips so you can check your blood sugar #oh and you one of those continuous glucose monitors? pay me for that too #FUCK

[fairlyqualityanon]

I think my computer figured out it's being replaced.

Crashed once or twice a day since the order went out, and multiple times today.

My dirty monitor, 15+ years old and not once throwing even a single error:

#MAJOR upgrade in cpu and graphics card #brother was colorful in his comment about how I'll wonder how i /ever lived like that/ #he wouldnt stop bashing my monitor tho #like sure i know my $8 mouse is garbage that was intentional and Id planned on a /gaymer maus/ at some point #and my keyboard could be swapped out #my coworkers kept being all /its okay to spend money on yourself sometimes Emma/ #delete later

[loveyourlovelysoul]

How to discover high levels of self survelliance in us? Our social anxiety can manifest even around people we used to consider safe (we may start overthinking about everything we did or said, scared any of those could be considered or seen as wrong or bad); we may get scared of our mind and intrusive thoughts, and try to avoid them completely; we may start shutting down more often (fear of speaking up), self gaslight, speak bad about ourselves (even with ourselves); we may avoid sharing personal ideas or opinions in order to pick up others', and considering those better/more accurate (even if wrong, and ours' right); we rather communicate through text than verbally, cause we can revise and correct.

Please try to find ways to avoid self monitoring or practicing self survelliance, for these are only making your life hundred times tougher. Accompany those habits with more compassionate ones, and nice words of appreciation about yourself. You're learning to be you and to be free of others' expectations (that you don't have to live by). You may have grown up in a difficult environment and now you have to deal with lack of self trust and self confidence: but that's not true. It's only an idea you got of yourself, not your true self. Find it inside of you. Heal that side of you. You're worthy the way you are, just get out there and prove it yourself and everyone else (but yourself in parrticular). You're good enough. Even more than that. There's nothing wrong in mistakes or "being weird", we all are. Just don't be scared of your uniqueness and show it. (If people judge you, it's because you trigger them. It's not your problem, but theirs).

#words #healing #positivity #self love #important #positive thinking #healingjourney #thoughts #love yourself #self healing #self care #self embrace #self survelliance #self monitoring #self discovery #self help #personal development #social anxiety #mental health #life #life lessons #overthinking #intrusive thoughts

[descendantstidalage]

I started reading part of Gecko's Boon, and it really hit me something that low key bothers me about Cape High is the lack of privacy and the normalization of it. The kids are always being listened in on and watched, always with a chaperon.

The beginning of Gecko Boon touches a little bit on it. I think part of what bothers me is that having that space is essential to figure yourself out, especially if you're queer.

#cape high #cape high thoughts #the whole society is sort of built to not give the Cape kids that space #to be able to figure themselves out #and to come out at their own rate #and to normalize the constant surveillance #it's hard to come out to yourself when you're being monitored like that #especially when there isn't anyone out around you

[favoritesacrifice]

how to not monitor the way I write in my journal to sound cooler

#💌 #girl this is the one place you're not supposed to monitor yourself #but I want to look articulate #like if my journal was turned into a book #like sylvia plath #I want people to enjoy reading it

[sapphire-weapon]

am i really about to fucking sit here on my day off and rewatch fucking infinite darkness

lord help me

#it occurred to me that i remember almost nothing of ID #i remember the ending really well because it pissed me off because leon's justification for what he was doing made no fucking sense #and i remember the blink and you'll miss it ashley cameo #and i remember that scene in that shitty apartment where leon hauls off and fucking murders a man #(well no he lived but for A GOOD CHUNK OF TIME the show leads you to believe he's dead) #because my heart rate kicked up and my breath caught in my throat #because that was the single hottest thing i've ever seen leon do in this entire fucking series #and it took me by surprise because like #ID came out during a time in which my focus was not on RE at all #and hadn't been for like #YEARS AND YEARS by that point #and now suddenly out of nowhere i'm sitting there fanning myself #and looking up at my monitor with my eyes wide and a scandalized little smile as my jaw hangs open #just all like #'mr. kennedy you behave yourself *i am a lady*' #but that's it that's all i remember about infinite darkness LMAO