#NOW TO REST BECAUSE HOLY FUCK

[daybreak-mun]

Belated Christmas Presents

... because I have the time management skills of a potato.

Featuring:

Laivan from @asksavel​    I know I’m coming in at the tail end of the story, but what I see, I honestly really like. Looking forward to seeing more of it pop up on my dash!

Rai from @miles-of-muses​    Honestly, roleplaying with you is always pretty fun, even if we don’t really do it as often these days. Your worlds are all pretty interesting to read through.

Neo-Ka from @pokege-ne-project    It’s been a while since I’ve seen these characters in action and I’m excited to see what you have planned for them. You’ve been a great friend over the years, and I really appreciate that. Thanks, Liam.

Cipher from @themeowsticvigilante​    I didn’t see your post about your ruptured appendix until I started this project, but I’m hoping everything goes well! Even though we don’t interact much, I enjoy your characters. The world needs more Meowstics.

Snow from @ask-a-learning-ai    The interactions with Snow I read are pretty good, and while I’ve kind of been in and out of a slump, I’d be down for having our characters interact more in the future. I can definitely see Cherry and Snow being friends.

Mukudori from @ask-a-staravia    It’s pretty interesting to see a take on Legends Arceus that manages to spin it into a different world, but still similar enough to be recognized. Looking forward to seeing more stuff from you in the future.

Shiso from @shaymincafe    You've been a pretty great friend in the few years I've known you, and I always enjoy having our characters interact. I'd be down for hanging out with you and Peaches in FFXIV once I actually catch up.

Kuno + Cucumber from @teamnextgen   I haven't really known you for very long, nor have I really interacted much with you. You seem like a pretty good person, and I'd be down for hanging out at some point.

Luxu from @asktheisle​   I haven't really read your blog, but I enjoy your character designs and general art style. I've heard quite a few good things, so I decided to put this together.

Joule from @dailyashleighraichu Your art is simultaneously a source of serotonin, and pain. I see a bit of my past self in Joule with how she was treated by random people. For me, it didn't really get to that level, but I can empathize with her in some small way.

Elliot from @ask-elliotgang Admittedly, I haven't been able to go back and read through your blog yet, but I can tell there's a lot of work put into this. Figured it'd be a neat idea for Joule and Elliot's cards to be two halves of a larger card here.

Luca from @sphaeramjourney I swear I kept thinking your url is "seraphimjourney", but that's more on me. Your art is always really good and I love the effects in your pages. As with many things in the community, I'm late reading, but I'm liking what I'm seeing so far.

Anyway, Happy New Year everyone!! Here's hoping 2023 sucks less!

Also if any of these blogs would like the full size images, I can DM them on request.

#sorry for the double post quick tags fucking broke the formatting #and made this post worse than the fucking sky color hell #daybreak scribbles #NOW TO REST BECAUSE HOLY FUCK #asksavel #miles-of-muses #pokege-ne-project #themeowsticvigilante #ask-a-learning-ai #ask-a-staravia #shaymincafe #teamnextgen #asktheisle #dailyashleighraichu #ask-elliotgang #sphareramjourney #dragonair #pikachu #eevee #meowstic #vulpix #alolan vulpix #staravia #shaymin #armaldo #darkrai #lucario #long post #tw long post #Edit: Fixed Elliot's design because I forgot some of the details even though I- I literally put them in the freaking sketch--

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[destinyandcoins]

lmao i know it’s 2 seasons later but it just occurred to me: what if, at the beginning of s1, instead of deciding his funeral was the best way to get everyone back in one place, reginald decided to have a wedding instead

not only do we get the entertaining side-plot of this poor person reginald has bribed/blackmailed/begged to marry him For The Con, but the only reason any of the kids show up is because they got a wedding invite and immediately went “oh now this i gotta see”

#the episode is titled ''we only see each other at WEDDINGS and FUNERALS'' #i'm just saying it could have gone the other way #the umbrella academy #half the kids are there to check in with their new stepparent and make sure they're there of their own free will #''idk what he told you but you don't have to do this. say the word and i'll get you out of here'' #''no i promise i. definitely....want to...be here :) :) '' #i can't decide if it's funnier if five knew because time travel and he's already had time to adjust to this concept #so is perfectly polite and accommodating if slightly confused because the personality he built for them in his head isn't accurate #while the rest of them are going through the 5 stages of grief over discovering their dad is capable of romance #or if through some time fuckery five came from a timeline where he saw the news that reginald is dead #and then drops into the timeline in the middle of a fucking wedding and is COMPLETELY blindsided by this #but doesn't have time to deal with this shit #somehow THIS is the timeline where they do manage to prevent the apocalypse #and at the end of everything the new stepparent divorces the fuck out of reginald ASAP because holy shit they were not paid enough for this #and yet they're like ''well i did what you asked (even if you didn't mention the LOOMING APOCALYPSE) #but holy shit i'm taking these kids in the divorce because what the fuck dude what the FUCK. idc if they're all adults #they need a better family and now i'm obligated to be that for them'' #and reginald was playing fast and loose because of the LOOMING APOCALYPSE and didn't sign a prenup #so the new stepparent gets the academy (the property AND the actual kids) and reginald has to move out and live on the streets #tua meta

[manglam-marfach]

dyke!Chilaios has me understanding breeding kink all of a sudden

#chilaios #that's a lie i understand breeding kink very well lmao #HOWEVER IT MUST BE SAID #they finish up a great scene. hot lesbian sex. all going well. #and laios lies back with her eyes closed. still flushed and sweaty. she rests her naked hand on her naked lower stomach and says. 'hah.... #'did you know ...that tallmen and halflings can have kids together?' Like its just another fun monster fact. #she's trailing her fingers absentmindedly over her stomach now. tracing idle patterns. #'with our lifespans being so similar it isn't even as big a deal as it is for elves and humans. they're even fertile and that's ... #that's really rare for hybrids.' her eyes are still closed. she swallows hard. She's more red now than she was when they fucked. #'you should talk about that next time you're in me. i'd like it...' and she cracks one eye open a sliver #to see chilchuck . BEET. RED. #because Chilchuck DID NOT. KNOW. #She was already fucked out and now she's dying?? she's dying. Laios still has her huge hand resting on her huge smooth stomach #miles and miles of soft skin...that she wants chilchuck to put a BABY in #she's thought about the hypothetical lifespan and safety of the hypothetical baby! is this just a sex thing? is this a for real thing? #chilchuck does not know and does not know which one she's hoping for now!! cause both sound GREAT #AND OF COURSE THERE'S ALSO #chilchuck remembering that conversaion next time Laios's huge huge fingers are inside her. Laios's hot wet breathing by her ear. #Laios's breathing going ragged even though no one is touching HER she is the one toying with Chilchuck right now. She always does that. #between the breathing and the fingers and the warmth and the smell Laios is all around her and she just thinks - #'Laios is so huge. Laios's baby would be so huge. I'd be so huge. Pregnant with it.' And she cums. #rattles her to her fucking core. Chilchuck who HAS BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE realising. holy shit. #i want this fluffy haired socially awkward 26 year old doggirl to . to fuck a baby into me. in a sexy way. #i think . I think it's hot. #enough to turn you to drink isn't it! #u may ask - hey how come chilchuck has a girlcock and has got pregnant? can laios get chilchuck pregnant? #does anyone even have a womb in this situation? I may answer - don't worry about it #a wizard did it. whatever. its a fantasy world. #whatever is sexiest in the moment i don't care #lesbiance

[aesthetic-uni]

I know I’m late to the party but Oh My God™️

#uni talks about the universe #hbomberguy #james somerton #I’ve been watching the video in increments #so everytime I pause and think ‘it can’t get worse’ #guess what the fuck happens when I come back #I’ve never watch James somerton but I have seen his videos floating around #but now thank god I haven’t #by the way-no hate to anyone who was fooled by them #how the fuck were you suppose to know that their entire life was a life #anyway I cannot wait for how these people try to clamber their way back #don’t even talk about Blair to me cause holy shit that woman has a lot of skeleton in her closet #I’m pretty sure they all do but I’m mentioning Blair specifically because I was keeping up on the story for her ngl #I do think internet historian is going to come out unscathed #mostly because his fans just doesn’t care #but the rest? not so easy I think #and obviously it’s fucking over for James Somerton #that man is dead. we witness a live execution. and then liked and subscribed

[possumkingluca]

after 125ish orbs (maybe a few more i don't remember) and a little over 5 hours the gods finally answered my prayers 🙏

i am going to burst into tears i have never put this much effort into anything in my life i normally give up once something gets a little too annoying but alas i persevered

#is this how fucking shiny pokemon hunters feel #because i get it now #holy hell #now I get to spend even longer training him up to match the rest of my main team :DD (kill me) #fire emblem #fire emblem engage #fe engage #fe17 #fire emblem heroes #fe heroes #feh #fe alfred #alfred fe #i'm not even queueing this i need people to see my suffering right now actually

[masquenoire]

So, about my contract ending? Work just called and they want me back permanently starting from Tuesday, same hours but less days (just 4 days a week) to cover evenings which works out pretty good for me, leaving me free during the day!

#💀 ;; OOC #I swear to god I'm annoying the fuck out of ya'll with this but !!! #I went in earlier today and the boss said there's going to be contracts avaliable around Easter #Called me just now offering permanent night work which I'm going to take because holy shit #Not too many days a week and a nice stretch of work? #Beats sitting on my arse for 4 months #Only today and tomorrow to rest but fuck it I need money #And my hospital appointments are in the early afternoon so I can manage both #I can't believe 2023 is already turning kickass I'm crying <3 #Life's been so shit since 2019 so I'm so fucking happy #And being a permanent member I'll get staff discount so 10% off shopping with more during peak seasons #AHHHHH #Still going to do my best to write but these hours will be a lot more managable #Night work will be easier too as it's quiet so just warehouse/stacking #I swear to god I'm not gaslighting you all but asdfghjkl #I'm happy and can't believe it

[whiskingskin]

Just really fighting the urge to cry at work rn because for the 3rd month in a row I am struggling with rent!!!!! I haven't gone grocery shopping in 6 weeks!!!! I am working as much as I can!! And it is still not enough!!!!!

#rent strike #rent strike march #depressed as FUCK haha #i always feel stupid for wanting to die but then i remember #its die or live the rest of my life struggling for money #its getting a lot harder to convince myself its worth it fellas <3 #everyday i just feel a smidge more numb and now i can barely fucking summon the happy politeness i NEED for work #11 years of therapy babes #yeah thats right i get free fucking therapy thanks papa insurance #and for 11 damn years ive cried and panicked and wanted to kms over money like #damn ur supposed to marry someone sfter 4 years of knowing eachother but i cant kms after 11 years of knowing i want to??? #seems whack but okay #[not okay] #i WANT TO FUCKING TEAR MY INTESTINES OUT AND HANG MYSELF WITH THEM HOLY FUCK DO I HATE LIVING IN CAPITALISM #its so funny because yall i really enjoy my job!!!!! #i am a lovely little worker fucking bee!! i would work even if i didnt get paid [IF I COULD FUCKING LIVE COMFORTABLY] #but i cant so!!! my desire to work is just shredding itself into tiny bits #who wanna suicide pact yall 💀 #/j....unless?

[torgawl]

the more we discover about dion's father and anabella the more i'm happy dion impaled the shit out of that motherfucker and the more frustrated i become anabella got an easy death by killing herself. not that i expected clive or joshua to do anything because i don't think they're those types of people but it would have been satisfying to me

#how can two people be so fucking cruel #they really are perfect for each other #now we discovered they both planned rosaria becomes part of sanbreque a year before the events at phoenix gate??? #holy shit she really had no ounce of respect for her kids not even joshua #the fact her reactions to her beloved son holder of the phoenix 'dying' is oh well time to make another one is so sgsjdhdb fuck you bitch #imagine being disappointed your son is too weak instead of actually morning his death 😭 #i hate her so much its undescribable and now dion's father gets to join the first spot they can share it and die in hell #rest in piss as they say #anyways can you tell i saw another tweet about ultimania agsjshs sorry #i promise i will not make another post about this game today (i think) i just need to release my anger somewhere #okay but on another hand support women's wrongs i guess ✌️😭 #i can't help but to think of the way his own traumas from the way he was raised influenced dion though :') #he seems to think anabella corrupted his father but he also acknowledges he doesn't love him for being a bastard child #i am letting the thought ruminate a bit more because i don't know if i can be coherent about it but!!!! he makes me so sad. he deserved so #much better :') #final fantasy xvi

[dirtyoldmanhole]

it kinda just hit me like a load of bricks how indescribably, textually horny the last few chapters of married-gunter!revelation are gonna be. :')

#ch25's moment? imindanger.jpg #ch26? some of those lines are straight up 'i would hatefuck you right here. right now.' #post everything? dear god you know that 'we survived' sex was fire #i know it looks like i am utterly deranged but like. reread some of his possessed lines. and tell me it ain't true. #i can't be toooooo mad at nintendo taking out his supports there because yrmr would not be written other wise but like. #literally holy fuck actual canon villain daddy kink is the /PLOT/. this route just might be my favorite fe game ngl #the rest of my thoughts is just a whole lot of [redacted] [redacted] [redacted] #krad loveblogs revelation: true golden route

[sibyl-of-space]

I actually finished everything, it's all sent off to Steam to review and all I need is their thumbs up and the demo goes live THIS FRIDAY.....

#i cant even begin to cover how much more work it was to release on steam than itch #holy fucking shit #but i also think that is like. a really good experience for me #even if nobody actually plays it through steam because itch is more accessible it's just good to have done the steam thing #it forced me to do things further in advance than i normally do and it forced me to make marketing building blocks to use in diff formats #and aspect ratios etc #anyway i feel like i have earned a thousand years rest now but now that it's done i don't even know how to rest #i guess i should start by going to bed not extremely late tonight #and then this week doing basically nothing except watch twitch streams #that sounds nice

[glareandgrowl]

I me myself needs a good few days of rest and relaxation.

Instead of torturing my personas in my own emotional distress, I will instead draw my personas just having a good self-care day.

#oc artwork #oc art #fursona #technically? #Con taught me that I am actually a real furry #I mean... James and Oposstag are technically fursonas? #which means The Oposstag is my horror fursuit #Anthrohio was super fun tbh #as my first ever con it was a good experience #seeing all those bomb ass suits and amazingly talented artists just made my self-expectation skyrocket #its one thing seeing fursuits online but its an entire other to see them in person #like Kire? Holy shit. If you can watch the Anthrohio dance contest when it is uploaded to youtube #it would be worth it just to watch Kire the Demon's entrance and subsequent dance #because OH MY FUCKING GOD #I think Saturday and that dance comp just feudally changed my brain chemistry #anyway consider my break done #I will be continuing work on the stories now #dear followers #rest your laurels here at the furry feet of my newfound fixation #I'll continue writing now #digital art #art #longsheepart

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

When you want to do something fun; so you procrastinate on it by learning about a topic that will emotionally scar you for the next three months.

#I don’t want to know all that. Jesus Fucking Christ #When middle-aged mothers say they have a “true crime addiction” they mean they enjoy learning about the mind of a killer #and get out popcorn to watch Netflix dramatizations of the usual offenders as a modern day freak show #When I say I have a “true crime addiction” I mean I compulsively — against my own will — seek out the worst cases imaginable #and listen to case after case instead of engaging with the hobbies or work I planned on for that night #for no other reason than to fuck over my mental state because I’m more comfortable when in a “fight” response #We are not the same #Anyway… Rest in peace. Holy shit. #I don’t know what to do with myself now. #Eeeeeecchhhhhh

[bayleaf-2]

Drew some art of the progression of Lyra's feelings about Ioun

But it's like 11 PM and I should sleep so I'm gonna post the art and make barebones captions/context, go to bed, and might just remake the post if i wake up, look at it, and go "voci. voci...voci thats not enough buddy"

With that in mind!

This is when Ioun apologized to Lyra after they were resurrected (they died in the Zehir fight) and (in my mind) the start of Lyra having. A closer relationship with her, or seeing her as more than just. (Because we legally cannot call Ioun our boss) the person in charge, hense why it's labeled "beginning." Their thoughts in that moment are general feelings of appreciation, surprise, and relief. Debated putting warmth in there as well. Probably too soon. Maybe. Idk!

Transcript: Lyra's dialogue reads "Tough!" which is what they said to the goddess of prosperity trying to offer them deals. Description reads "Loyalty to Ioun after she apologized."

Ioun apologizing combined with Emily inviting Lyra to stay with her once all of this was over (AUUUUUUUGH) pulled Lyra out of their mortality crisis, hence the design change! They're wearing old (aka Elion's) earrings and actually put effort into styling their hair :)

Transcript of the bottom one: Nerd <3 "I love her" (Connotation: I just think Ioun's neat :) ) "I need to apologize to her if we fail"

Nerd refers to this being the time where Lyra starts researching and interacting with the library. "I just think she's neat" is a reference to that one Marge meme. Point being the "I love her" is a casual declaration with no deeper feelings attached. "I need to apologize to her if we fail" is referencing this:

Now a disclaimer on that: I wrote that months ago and while the og idea still holds in that I was planning on doing it, I would absolutely tweak the wording now. Also that's from my writing server so the wording is mostly for me. in terms of what "today" and "everyone else didnt follow orders" means I think that was the Tiamat fight? Timing indicates it's Tiamat. I do not know what "orders" past Voci is referencing. It might be the deals thing. ANYWAY!!

General summary for that point: Closer but still not quite friends. That being said Lyra's more cheery around Ioun and seeking out talking to her just cause.

Transcript: Lyra thinking to themself "God I love her she's so cool" Description reads "Whale convo, which is almost directly post Vecna" (So Lyra is thinking that as Ioun's talking to them) and then the bottom one starts with "After Ioun leaves and they're just thinking" Lyra's thought reads "...Oh." with the description "Means [I love her] in a different way than before"

Squish! :) Congrats lil guy! You love her and now you gotta hide your feelings so you don't pressure her because that'd be really fucked up of you! Yeah that includes your thoughts! Good luck suppressing those! (HE FAILS. HE SLIPS UP SO MUCH I'M DYING TO TAKE PROPER NOTES ABOUT THAT SHIT YOU HAVE NO IDEA)

"Voci why is the 4th heart in the scale grey instead of black in the top one" Uhhh I'm not sure. I think it has to do with Lyra not really knowing what their feelings are?? Like it's vague and then once they're actually reflecting on it, they realize it's something more than just thinking Ioun's neat. Btw it's not clear in this shitty photo but Lyra is blushing.

Transcript: Ioun saying "I do care, by the way." Lyra verbally keysmashing in response, which is cut off by the tiny tiny page. Description reads "right after the trial".

We had a trial where Emily was trying to make a case about the wording of the curse so we wouldn't have to kill her and only temporarily banish her (and Ioun. And possibly the Raven Queen. And anyone else who ascended) outside of reality. It was a really formal court though so everyone was in like. Proper boring formal wear and Lyra went the safe route of going in a suit yes I know that collar looks scribbly I was drawing in front of a campfire okay

I??? This is hard to describe, but by this point, Lyra's feelings are deeper, like they weren't...flustered by Ioun before, at least not to the same extent, and now they are, if that makes sense. I hesitate to say their feelings got? Deeper or more intense, because the timing makes this extremely fucky. And also feels like I'm in the danger zone in terms of possibly using aphobic wording. So I'm just gonna hold off for now.

And there's another art I drew of. The dream conversation where Ioun and Lyra ended up holding hands for an enTIRE FUCKING HOUR but it wasn't finished and I think? That moment kind of speaks for itself? So I'll just. Leave that there and sleep now gn <3

Again apologies if huge chunks of this don't make sense this is one of those moments where the hyperfixation is just Taking the God Damn Reins and I Have To Show People This

#sometimes I look at my own posts and i go 'you are a fucking madman' (affectionate) #this is one of those moments #it is 11 40 pm and i am ffferal #haha its 11 52 now motherfuckre #hahaeuhfkjhfdjshdskslasdcmsm #cee codes #<- because I did this as part of the. Coding project for both the relationship tab and the Adventure Log tab #Also not sure if its clear but Lyra having a slightly different hairstyle in the 'Tough!' panel than the rest of the ones after it #*is* intentional #uhhhh BED. bedtime. bedtime for me (is probably going to keep writing anyway) #holy shit this plant grew a mouth #c: dnd related #lyra #OH GOD. SEHANINE. THE SHIP CRASH #YEAH THAT #I SHOULD. FUCKING. UH. MAKE A NOTE OF HOW *THAT* AFFECTS THINGS #HM #BED. BED FOR ME. GODS.

[borathae]

I just finished Magnus Venatio. Holy fuck. I just wrote the last word for it and now I’m actually done. Oh my fucking god.

#im crying because im listening to really emotional music right now #i actually fucking finished mv #holy fucking shit #now all i have to do is edit it and then i can finally start posting it #holy SHIT I DID IT #im gonna be depressed for the rest of the day #rambling #magnus venatio rambling

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i keep having Thoughts about how in so many ways LL has so much potential to be a really hard-hitting, messy, no-punches-pulled exploration of what i call moral agency: not the agency to act on your beliefs, but the agency to have those beliefs at all. like, if you're being abused into internalizing a set of beliefs, or indoctrinated in such a way as to make you resistant to outside perspective, or having relevant information withheld from you even if you would be looking for it... you don't have nearly as much choice in the matter of what you believe as someone who isn't stuck in that position.

and like. the central antagonists alone are literally a massive, horrifically abusive cult that spans generations. and i really wish they had actually followed through on that, and done so with compassion for victims who might need to be held accountable, instead of treating them with hatred and dehumanization.

(and also, y'know. hadn't treated some characters who did bad things as if they had much, MUCH more agency, moral or otherwise, than they did at literally any point. COUGH FIVE COUGH COUGH COUGH)

there's just. so so so much interesting stuff to be dug into there, in a way that's deeply fundamental to the narrative where even a lot of stories about moral agency aren't, and i really wish i could scrape enough brain cells together to talk about it properly

#lorien legacies #LL mogadorians #LL number five #LL tag #LL crit tag #the really fucked up thing is how they only make the about-face to #'wow the idea that the mogs had their moral agency stripped away is tragic; evil; and violating' #when that is suddenly the ONLY bad thing that could possibly happen to them that Matters #they can go through genocide and starvation and horrific human rights abuses and be tortured in prison camps for the rest of their lives #explicitly INCLUDING THE CHILDREN. ALL OF THEM #but lol who give a shit as long as they believe the right things now. they deserve it anyway uwu #which gets a hundred times worse because what we see of adam ''giving them the ability to believe the right things'' in the end #SCREAMS cult. holy shit it screams cult so bad #and he explicitly says he doesn't care if his mom is in the camp because she'd suffer too #his reason for not wanting to see her again is that *she might believe the wrong thing still* #and rex fucks me up because his genuine compassion for other mogs and wanting to believe the best of them #ends up with him being presumably the first member of adam's fucking internment camp cult lmfao #which like. we see a dude's initiation involving carving off his head tattoos. rex has head tattoos. connect the dots 🙃 #the way this series handles moral agency is.......... very deeply horrifying. don't get me started on five or the vatborn #anyway. regardless there is so much ground to be explored here and i pray to the heavens for the brain cells to do it coherently #it is especially of interest to me as someone who grew up southern baptist lmao #the crit files #cults cw #religious abuse cw #genocide cw #mutilation cw #self-harm cw #fuck off adam #dyn: but i'm helping you anyway