#Please don't perceive me

[constantlyfalling]

I am not here

#mood #gif #please don't perceive me #tw flashing #flashing #toad #photography #a creature sighting #i feel like if i blaze this #it's like i want to be perceived #but #really #i just want this to be perceived #cause it's a mood #that i think a lot of us understand #oh and #pink #me irl #me fr #my post

[submissivefeminist]

As someone with extreme social anxiety, I just need to say that I feel sexting is highly underrated.

Text scenes are about the hottest thing in the world because I can feel so much pleasure and intimacy with someone, share my deepest desires and fantasies, and at the same time never, ever be perceived by them.

#please don't perceive me #I wish I was a drone for someone #I would make a far better drone than I do a person #if you're a tech person who needs a drone gf my dms are open

[hargrovel]

Lost Boys AU Moodboard | Steve picks a fight with vampire Billy and loses (sort of).

#harringroveweek #harringrove #lowkey afraid to use ST proper tags lmao #billy hargrove #please don't perceive me #relearning how to gif i guess? #idfk i just wanted to participate so here #*

[thirdcritter]

Throws this into the air like a disoriented pigeon. “Go on, Git!” 

#fan fiction #Monkey Wrench #monkey wrench fanfic #monkey wrench fanfiction #please don't perceive me #ao3

[kissagii]

what even is gender

#dreaming ⋆｡°✩ #please don't perceive me #i don't exist

[puckingdisaster]

hate to be austrian posting in the hrpf tag but i like to listen to pizzera & jaus while driving and some of those songs are so damn angsty and absolutely inspire me to write more five letter league angst. namely "der seidene faden", "unerhört solide", "wer wenn net du" (the soulmate shit :/) and "#janeinvielleicht". And "kaleidoskop"

like idk my music taste is trash apparently but i am going through it while listening to those songs specifically in the car. Might write some alternate captain retirement angst about it

And also. I took a look at the lyrics while listening to some of their songs earlier and like. the horror of seeing dialect words being written differently than you would write that word

#hrpf #please don't perceive me #five letter league

[stellamancer]

okay so my translation/localization ramble requested by @itoshisoup

please note that i am not a professional nor am i fluent in japanese hahaha. so it's not REALLY like i know anything i am just rambling

so in the blorbo powerpoint i posted the following quote from kira yamato from gundam seed:

“what the hell can you protect when your emotions are the only weapons you’ve got?”

this is actually a line that he says in the original english dub. what i mean by that is that the show actually received two dubs the original english dub which aired on toonami in the early 2000s and then a new dub that was done by funimation/crunchyroll a few years ago. i decided i'd take a listen to the line in the new dub which is:

"and what the hell do your feelings mean to everyone who is already dead?"

which on it's own really is a pretty fucking raw line. but it made me wonder about the sub line which... i can't transcribe by ear but a barebones translation is "what can you protect with only your feelings?" in the conversation that kira is having with the character he's speaking to tells him that they're fighting to protect the people and things that are important to them and, i don't know, it feels a bit odd to only address the feelings bit when i feel like there was just as much emphasis on 'protecting.'

i looked into the dub as a whole more since the question of 'why did they re-dub in the first place?" came up. so the version of gundam seed i watched this clip in was part of the blu-ray remaster which added some new scenes so they couldn't just switch the dub over which meant rerecording. according to a reddit thread i found it was likely cheaper to re-record the entire dub than to have the original cast reprise?

anyway, back to the difference in the lines. it got me thinking about dubs and the decisions made when dubbing things. very recently, in that article about the boy and the heron that was going around with that tweet about robert pattinson showing casting director some clips on his phone, there was another actress who mentioned that she was asked to pronounce things in a particular way. additionally i've seen another english voice actor mention the same. and so i think it's interesting that that is something that is also intentional in the dubbing process? though i know a lot of people do complain over pronunciations....

#nikuniku spam #please don't perceive me #i'm honestly a big dub enjoyer hahah #i also learned recently that japanese voice actors do record together often times versus american voice actors who are alone in the booth #i didn't mention it here but it's also fascinating the changes that are made to cultural references #like stuff that gets translation notes in manga #so i didn't ramble about localization a lot but #yeah hahahaa #please don't perceive me i beg i was just rambling

[oh-bonerline]

the feminine urge to buy band merch and then be too self conscious to wear said band merch in public :)

#this is about the 1975 dad hat i bought for summertime #i look cute in it but i'm scared someone will engage me about it #please don't perceive me #:) :)

[jerirose]

NO YOU ARE FANBOYING 😭😭😭😭😭 Stop that right now. 🥹

@changbeens Thank youuuu 😳

#no one talk to me im not okay #mom grab the camera!!! #🥹 #please don't perceive me

[ghostress]

i forgot how much i hate setting up new blogs... everything’s gonna look UGLY until i find a lovely person willing to do some pretty graphics for me jsjs ANYWHO THANK U ALL FOR FOLLOWING I LOVE Y’ALL

#please don't perceive me

[fenoftheforest]

See I like the idea of taking my dog for a leisurely walk in the park but what happens if someone percieves me hmm? What if i have to make eye contact? I would have to kill myself immediately and it would be very truamatic for all parties involved.

#please don't perceive me #social anxiety #i need to find actual friends instead of just hanging out with my dog everyday

[mysteriousvoidbeing]

Every once in a while I accidentally percieve myself, and everytime I recoil like "Ew. No. No human body."

#like #please don't perceive me #i am incorporeal

[blackcottoncandyshouldbeinvented]

I'm scared of being perceived.

Like why do you see me?

#spicy brain #please don't perceive me

[anakillacky]

I can finally say I hate how I'm being perceived 😍🤞

#please don't perceive me #i dont know how i actually look like #i hate tags #i cant take this

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I've been thinking a lot about the one-dimensional kinda fandom interpretations of Dazai and Chuuya in particular - the overemphasis on Dazai's weird brand of mischief/manipulation and Chuuya's anger and tendency to lash out and how it's not like these traits are... wrong, per se - these are their surface level/immediately notable characteristics - it's just that it misses the nuance as to why these traits likely exist.

What these interpretations don't fully capture is their very similar cores deep down - two people plagued by feelings of alienation, human inadequacy and repeated loss. Despite starting from these very similar places, they both dealt with the issue in near opposite ways. Dazai numbed himself to pain (remember: he hates pain! I cannot emphasize this enough!) and rarely gets close to anyone for fear he will lose them - his loss led to apathy, a withdrawal from humanity, a fear that he will always be empty inside - his ability: No Longer Human. Chuuya, on the other hand, refuses to numb himself and instead feels every single emotion in full and values his bonds with others over anything. He wants to belong and makes efforts to be perceived as a part of his group. Underlying this, however, is a kind of tired grief paired with resilience - remember that his ability is Upon the Tainted Sorrow. Not anger, or rage.

Sorrow is what results from this kind of heavy identity crisis and loss - for both of them. Think of Odasaku's read on Dazai as someone who looked close to tears when "acting" in front of the sniper poised to shoot him, describing him to Gide as a too-smart child left in the dark, or the way Stormbringer constantly reminds us that Chuuya is 16 and the desperation he feels in the scene where he holds his own dying clone, unable to help him.

Both characters carry a melancholy, resulting from their respective issues with their own humanity - I know I'm not the first one to comment on how their abilities could just as easily be referring to each other as well as themselves. This reads as very intentional to me - much like Atsushi's story begins as a clear parallel to the short story Rashoumon and Akutagawa sometimes being referred to in more beast-like terms than man, it makes sense that Dazai and Chuuya would reference each other in a similar vein.

And if that was the end of it, then we would expect that deep sorrow to shine through in both characters, but it rarely does except in pivotal moments. That's because the both of them have had to constantly deal with external threats - they believe they cannot afford to show vulnerability.

So, what you get instead is Dazai taking a kind of twisted ownership over his inhumanity and using it to make people afraid of him and to control everything so that he is never blindsided and hurt again, in the process, further alienating himself and making his issues worse. He inflicts fear so he doesn't have to be afraid. He can relax and be as silly as he wants - so long as everything around him is completely according to his predictions. There's a bonus to his foolish demeanour as well: hardly anyone can read him well enough to get close.

Then you get Chuuya, who feels so strongly and so much that it has no choice but to boil over, and due to never being able to or feeling comfortable with being anything but "the strongest", he hides moments when he is touched, or worried, or grieving, with anger and violence and defensiveness. As such, he is always seen as more weapon than person, a cut above the rest, forever standing out to others no matter how much he tries to integrate. The closest he came to true belonging was wrenched away from him before he could have a chance to know what that would actually feel like with the death of the Flags.

These surface traits are defense mechanisms. And the amusing thing to me is that likely means these two would love if that's all most people ever saw of them. (Of course, they clearly do want to be seen and accepted, but defense mechanisms become automatic over time because they often feel much safer. Likely another reason they clash so much - they see each other, and it is deeply uncomfortable for them both.)

So, you have Dazai defending himself with his two-faced nature, making jokes and/or manipulating everyone in the vicinity, and Chuuya defending himself with intimidation and anger, never letting any vulnerability show through because anger is easier but at the core of all of this is that loss and that grief and the sorrow and fear that pervades from it.

#they both really said 'do not perceive me' lol #i know i'm kinda stating the obvious here but eh #it was fun to write out #also quick note #i don't have the novels on me so i'm relying on memory #if i've misremembered something please let me know and i'll fix it - just be polite! #bsd #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #skk #storyrambles #actually does this even make sense? #lol i hope it does #bsd meta #bsd analysis #ugh i've read this over like five times i'm just gonna post it now

[crownedinmarigolds]

Licherally every time I talk to Halsin in game I feel like I'm speaking the holy word or something the guy always seems so enraptured omg.

#khloe: sir this is a wendy's please don't perceive me #khloe #halsin #bg3 oc #bg3 #my art #baldur's gate #baldur's gate 3 #sorry to keep spammin with my bad art!