#Seriously read it it's all explained there

[quakinqueer]

I did read that post and i did not make me think he fucked up that bad. Can you explain why you think he looks worse the more you see them? Cuz i dont understand how he sounds passive agressive at all. He just sounds blunt and defensive.

Hiya. His first two replies were the most outwardly blunt and defensive, as you said. It's his last reply that people took as more passive aggressive. Bringing up follower count, and that op hadn't deleted the post, basically implying that op had bad intentions (or atleast that's how most people took it) without directly saying so, when op had done nothing to indicate such bad intentions. Either way all his actions were definitely rash but not irredeemable.

More under the cut. Not directed at you asker but more my general thoughts at the moment.

Honestly this has just been a wildly polarizing emotional roller coaster. Everytime I see people trying to defend him and demonizing zayna in the process, it makes me incredibly upset as someone who watched the entire interaction go down and had zaynas back beginning to end (and still do), and frankly just makes me disappointed to see people defending this priveliged public figure over a palistinian fan with family in Palestine.

But at the same time, everytime I see someone being extra critical of damien and acting as though he's done something absolutely unforgivable, my inner "protective stan" starts to rear its ugly head. Which I honestly kind of hate.

I'm exhausted. I find it extremely concerning how much this has genuinely impacted my real life and the ease with which I'm able to go about my day. But I suppose that sort of unhealthy attachment is for me to examine on my own time.

All I want is for damien to address things, and hopefully do it well. Until then, I'm gonna need everyone to stop jumping to his defense claiming that he acted perfectly reasonable and that zayna was "harassing and pressuring him" (seriously laughable as someone who watched the interaction), and to for the love of God stop demonizing zayna, the original op. But also to stop treating damien like he's this monster whose career can never recover (this is mostly aimed at twt). He acted incredibly stupid and immature and impulsive, but if he just apologizes properly, then it could turn out okay.

Stop trying to turn this into some war over damien's honor. He messed up, but he can fix it if he just goes about it the right way. That's all. (again, not really at you asker)

#smosh #damien haas #yet still more ranting #god i'm tired #how likely do we think it is that he'll address things in a stream today?

[missgryffin]

Thanks for the tag @jamesunderwater! Loved reading your answers!

🍓 how did you get into writing fanfiction?

My first (very bad, very cringe) foray was between releases of OotP, HBP, and DH. Back then I was writing Marauders as well as 7th Year for the Golden Trio and a post-Hogwarts fic called "Friends" in which Harry, Ron, and Hermione lived together in Grimmauld Place 🥲

🍇How many fandoms have you written in?

Just HP!

🍈 How many years have you been writing fanfiction?

I mean, I went through the early childhood fanfic phase that lasted 1-2 years, but then I didn't write again until picking it up in 2020 as an adult. So really, only about 4 years now of writing consistently, and maybe 6 years total in my life.

🍎 Do you read or write more fanfiction?

I also definitely write way more than I read. Mostly this is a product of limited time—writing is a creative outlet for me, and when I have the time for it, that's usually what I reach for.

🍌 What is one way you've improved as a writer?

I think I've improved a lot with descriptions and vocabulary. Like for example, with revising LFTS and ES, there's been so many moments where I find myself just intuitively taking a sentence or small exchange or small paragraph, and expanding it into something that is just a better portrayal of that moment? It's hard to explain, but when I do the side-by-side comparison, it feels more elevated, and I think that's going back to improving on writing descriptions of what's happening that feel more fluid.

🍑 Do you have any bad habits as a writer?

Oof okay not sticking to a solid writing routine resonated with me too, that's definitely something I'm trying to be better at but it's hard!! Also a major bad habit for me is focusing too much on word count and setting unrealistic expectations for what I can accomplish in certain amounts of time. I've had to do a lot of mindset work to adjust to the fact that some of my old methods were unhealthy and unsustainable, and simply aren't realistic with making writing fit into my current, healthier lifestyle. But it's hard! Old habits and mindsets are ingrained and so tempting to default to. Like I've tried using daily word count goals several times, and it's always a trap. One would think I've learned my lesson, ha!

🍍 What's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

Hmm nothing's really coming to mind as being particularly "weird." I do ping @redrobyn285 and @welsh-green about Britishisms from time to time, and that often sparks funny conversations about cultural differences. Like for example, we recently had a very in-depth conversation about terminology for dorm rooms and different sizes of beds 🤣 But in all seriousness, I learn a lot from them and owe so much of the Evans family lore to their input!

🍉What's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

The play-by-play reactions are my absolute fave! It's so gratifying and fun, especially when there's suspense and tension involved in the story and you feel like you're bonding with the commenter through the shared experience of all the emotions happening.

🍐What's the most fringe trope/topic you write about?

Hmm Castling was pretty fringe, I don't want to spoil it for anyone who hasn't read, but I'm not aware of any other Jily fics dealing with ~that~. But besides that, I don't think anything on my current slate is that fringe tbh. I've mostly been writing Hogwarts Jily lately, and that's pretty vanilla as far as tropes go. But I do have some adult!Jily in my back pocket that have some more fringe tropes for me 👀

🥭What is the hardest type of story for you to write?

Angst. Hands down. I think because I'm an empath, dwelling in dark emotions for a story can be really difficult for me. Probably the angstiest scene I've ever written is the opening scene of Vindicated, and there's a reason that's only like 800 words 😂

🍏What is the easiest type?

Rom-com style fluff and smut! I'm such a sucker for all the classic sexual-tension builders: bantering, jealousy, flirting, a little sprinkle of comedy, pining, awkwardness. It makes me giggle and kick my feet while writing, and it puts me in a happy mood every time I'm writing it, which is probably why I'm addicted to it 😇

🍑Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?

Scrivener! I'm at a point now where I've learned enough of its functionality that I truly can't imagine ever going back. It's my fave. I also use Notion religiously for my whole life, and that includes fanfic, but I don't actually write in Notion unless I'm jotting down ideas on my phone or brain-dumping an idea that doesn't have a Scrivener doc yet.

🍋What is something you've been too nervous/ intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?

Domestic/Pregnant/Parent Jily. For the simple reason that I haven't experienced being pregnant/having kids yet and I feel like a fish out of water trying to write it because I don't know what I'm talking about 😂

🍇What made you choose your username?

I don't really remember the whole thought process anymore, but I love the musician/DJ Gryffin and was listening to some of his first album a lot in formulating ES, I am very much a Gryffindor, and also wanted something short, sweet, catchy that would be easy for people to remember and spell. And honestly I think missgryffin just popped into my head at some point after that!

I might be late to the game on this one, but tagging @petals2fish @apalapucian @blitheringmcgonagall if you're interested! 🫶

#missgryffin was tagged #this was fun! #on writing

[a13thprincefora13thprincess]

Hello Frozen fandom,

just a little reminder that Prince Hans of the Southern Isles is Hans Christian Andersen, and here's why.

#frozen #Disney #Disney frozen #Frozen3 #Prince hans #Hans frozen #Andersen #Anderson #hans christian andersen #Hans Christian anderson #Seriously read it it's all explained there #The Southish prince is the danish author #It's so obvious #my theories #who is this hans #the fixer upper theory

[theloveinc]

Gojo smiles that smile. The one that curls his lips ever so slightly at the corners, and barely wrinkles his brow as it drags itself upward. The one that taunts with endless questions with no clear answers… with his chin in his palm, his bangs dripping down the tilt of his face, and his dark glasses slipping, too.

“Am I not a nuisance?” he asks, he tests, he trials, waiting for you to stumble, to fall, to berate him for being the spiteful person that he knows very well everyone secretly loves.

Instead, you raise your own brows in question. Inhale, almost in a deep sigh. Then you tilt your chin in and laugh.

“Our lives nearly end every day and you think I find you a nuisance? The people I love have been murdered only for you to ask if you’re the nuisance?” You roll your eyes. “Don’t kid yourself, Satoru. You could never be the problem.”

#gojo #do I tag this as gojo x reader? #truck it #gojo x reader #ego death gojo ego death gojo #I love him but I need to humble him so badly it’s #it’s bc he’s an uneducated man in education #THE WORST KIND #thinking he’s all that everyone pretending he ain’t sh*t when we all know HE IS SH*T #makes me want to hit him with a broom like #the world has real problems I don’t care u want to act all goofy !!!!! #it’s just cuz I’ve been working with kids but like … they do things they think you’ll be mad abt… and when u aren’t mad… they’re shocked #gojo is so like. #I know his tomfoolery is all on purpose even tho he’s genuinely silly and kind at heart #but like… everyone falling for it and kinda not taking him seriously… #I mean I get it a lot of the time but also #where is the ego death… where is the vulnerability… he needs to be ignored #truly I think that’s something that would drive him INSANE #am I explaining this correctly? #like I just process him so differently than everything I read #which doesn’t make all that bad but like… I need the combo. the nuisance. I gotta earn the silly after #breaking him in #nuance*** not nuisance LOL #anyway #sorry if this bad I tired #caitie post #gen

[oozeandgoo-art]

had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading #oc #im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people #im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though #besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol #sketch #god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking #colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING #and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement #it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it #put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead #ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it #the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does #rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you'' #however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here. #includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares #which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down #and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that... #(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL) #seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

Your carnival themeing kind of fits perfectly with my favorite Ride the Cyclone opening!

(can you remember which opening it was? >:) /silly)

SQUEEEEEEEEE and wouldncha know, I had along the same thoughts when i relooked it over after i fully constructed it!!! ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )

AS FOR YOUR FAVORITE UH UHUHHHH NO, I KNOW THIS ONE.

IT WAS THE LONDON PRODUCTION, RIGHT???? IMMA BE SO FR I CAN'T REMEMBER EVERY DETAIL BUT IT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH LONDON??

(this is me realizing a moment later lmaooo 😭) WAIT FUDGE NO- THAT WAS THE TRAINS

AURGH FUDGE, ANOTHER CHANCE.

..........for RTC, IT WAS THE 2015 ONE RIGHT?????? UH UH THERE WAS THE IFRST OPENING, THEN TWO.......

IT WAS THE SECOND ONE RIGHT???

THE MOST POPULAR ONE??? WHERE WE LEARN ABOUT THE CHOIR AND EVERYTHING ELSE???

#"૮₍ •⤙•˶|✉️ beep! inbox! ˎˊ˗ #my healing greenling ✩°𓏲⋆🌿. ⋆⸜ 🍵✮˚ #HELP I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I PERIODICALLY GO INTO THE GOOGLE SLIDES PRESENTATION YOU MADE FOR ME #every now and again #and it's so good #like i'm actually invested in it!!! even tho i get busy sometimes i do make the time to click on it and read through it :')) #i can hear your voice through the words and it's like u're really there explaining it all to me and it got me like ( ∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩) #*adoring big sister noises* #bUT SERIOUSLY IT WAS THE SECOND OPENING/VERSION RIGHT???

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Opinions on Dream? :^

SO many feelings about him omgg rant under cut please forgive me

okay so i don't really talk or draw him much cause honestly,,,most of the times i just think he's a bit....boring? or more accurately plain? not in a mean way either but just in a 'fades into the background' type of way like don't get me wrong!! he's a really nice friend to his peers, his feelings about his powers and aura making his relationships harder to navigate and trust along with his whole conflict with nightmare and morality about what's good and bad IS very cool!! and i love it whenever they write him to be complex and not on this black and white mentality or when he's just straight up following along his friends with no free will or with a dubious purpose without ever addressing his issues or feelings! it's just unsatisfying to me :')

or when they're making him the 'naive' and oblivious, (sometimes childish?) character being marked as the obstacle and villain along with the other star sanses from the fic's pov, always talking about doing good things while fighting his brother and not hearing him out about the balance, (and for weak reasons most of the time. like it's been so long and you STILL haven't sat down with him when he's, generally, basically begged you to just have a talk? guys please :'( ) or when they go for the victim sad dream always missing the old nightmare, where corrupted nightmare is the incarnation of evil, with no sympathy or emotion except anger and sadistic glee, killing and hurting everyone and dream's just trying to protect the multiverse and dream's always been in the right. such extremes!!!

LIKE!! i hope i'm not the only one that thinks a 500+ year old should have had enough time to idk. learn things? about people and manipulation and deceit? after knowing what the villagers did to night? about the bad things in the world and how there's a lot of grey areas in life and that he maybe reflected on his past enough to process and ask himself if there should to be a convo to settle his differences with nightmare (and you can make nightmare the stubborn one too! or have them BOTH be petty and imperfect and have some things wrong and some right at the same time like why do i always see the good guy vs bad guy cliché with these two when they're the perfect example of why positivity doesn't have meaning without the negativity!! as long as there's a satisfying evolution or growth that doesn't leave me empty i'm good yknow?)

plus i believe dream really isn't as dumb as people view him. i do get some of you saying he probably can't read or write since that's actually a pretty interesting idea to explore! but in general please let him have emotions other than pure sunshiny happiness or endless sadness like he's gotta have more depth than that! let him make mistakes, have flaws that don't just make him the bad guy that's always in the wrong by default, and be angry or suspicious or jealous or bitter or battling his mental health problems/depression or malicious or smart or witty or mischievous and silly or sarcastic or ANYTHING dude i just want him to be put into different scenarios where he can be serious or lighthearted like it doesn't even have to be long or perfect but make him feel real.

it could definitely be that i don't read or see much art about dream or really look for it hard enough but also i just. i feel bad for even saying this fr and i wanna be honest about why i don't enjoy most stories about him cause he always gets the worst treatment along with ink!!! especially ink omg the poor guy has it the worst i think like wow do they mess him up :'(

always one dimensional in non shippy fics, or too plain or easily replaceable by other, more entertaining people in the significant other's life in most of his ships like man. i have read fics out there that made me genuinely FEEL and root for him and love his character so much it restored all hope for me!!! but i can only name one on top of my head and the others? it's been so long i don't even remember their names i just legit feel terrible cause i love him still and i can't find many headcanons that fit my interpretation of him yknow?

not to say people who write him very happy, mislead or sad are ruining him like that's silly- if i see something i don't like i just. move on bro i wouldn't force people to feel or think the same way i do about him cause anyone can have whatever headcanons they want!!! just talking about what i personally look for in him and why i can't exactly find it since most of the stuff out there just isn't my cup of tea :')

hopefully i didn't set anyone off with this rambling opinionated essay i just pulled hhh xD i know i know he's a popular character and i know a lot of people like dream so *sobs* please please recommend me artists and fics about him that you think is good it's been so looong since i've read or seen anything new that makes me attached to this little guy aughg<33333

#ask #rambling #delete later? #probably xD i just wanna love him SO much but sometimes he's just *sigh*...forgettable #i tried to explain myself but also it's like 4 am and i skimmed through the proofreading so don't take this too seriously HHH #like really even when i do read good fics about him he's not on the forefront of my mind and it's painful to me :'( #i used to see him as my third fav but now? ever since i've read and seen characters who get heavier more in depth plots? #i can't say it with as much confidence :') and dream lovers out there i am not bashing your choice or even your headcanons #to each their own but i really wanna hear someone be passionate about him in my feed or askbox like TELL me about him #i've seen ink rants out there that are FIRE like so true!!! but where's the dream defense team??? #maybe it's just me tho :') btw i still like cream but not the same way as before if i'm being real #it feels the same...all of it and it makes me wanna bite something ARGHGG #i know i know i ship some stuff that's basic too hhh but dream and cross are always written the same and dream is too innocent #and nightmare is too weird in some of these fics like if MY brother ever tried to literally attack my hypothetical partner???? #i wouldn't give him the :'((( sad face and weakly tell him to 'please stop...you're hurting him'' like NO girl they're TWINS #they're the same age i would tell him to BACK off and not insert himself in my love life after years of ignoring and fighting LIKE #especially since most of the time cross is actually good to dream and all- so he doesn't have a good reason to disrupt his bro's dates #UGH i just have so many opinions but basically i would love him a lot lot more than i do now if they also let him be more flexible #and shake things up like with shattered and stuff! gimme alternate versions of him even if it's too ooc like we do for all the other sanses #jaa i am SO sorry you had to read all that dude thank you so much for passing by :'D

[dutybcrne]

Was Kaeya and Diluc’s whole Confrontation before or after he left the Knights? Bc if it took place AFTER…

It wouldn’t have been fire from Diluc’s Vision that hurt Kaeya, now would it?

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Bc according to the manhwa; Luc left his Vision as his resignation #//And allogenes without their Visons can’t use their respective elements #//So then #//It would have been the DELUSION’s fire that hurt Kae. Not DILUC’s #//Idk; good concept; I’m pretty sure Kae’s Vision story contradicts it tho #//But then it WOULD make sense why Luc was so quick to draw his blade and fight him over his truth #//Instead of hearing him out and trusting him; considering how close they were said to have been #//‘like twins’ they were said to be #//I do like this idea ngl #//WAIT WAIT #//THAT WOULD ALSO EXPLAIN WHY KAE WAS SO QUICK TO BLAME LUC FOR COLLEI’S FIRE CRIMES #//BC HE RECOGNIZED THE DELUSION’S FIRE #//I don’t think he actually SAW Crepus use it #//So either he could be operating on what he read in Luc’s discarded account of the incident #//Or he somehow SAW the flames firsthand to suspect Luc of all people FIRST #//Bc when he threw the accusations; Luc didn’t have his Vision back yet; so WHY accuse him of a fire crime otherwise #//Idk maybe I’m thinking too hard abt nothing lmao #//But it’s still a good plot bunny! #//Prolly also would make sense why Kae still wants to stick around him and not hold a grudge over the Confrontation either #//Bc Luc wouldn’t have been in his right mind; having the Delusion on him. the thing could have seriously messed with his emotional state #hc; kaeya #hc; diluc #//Canon between my muses on here; can vary for respective counterparts

[falled-over]

i am actually un diagnosing as autistic due to my proficiency at eye contact. i in fact have to remind myself to look away thats how good i am at it. i would get an A+ in eye contact

#for anyone outside of the know i will explain the joke because my sarcasm doesnt always read as such; #autistic people often struggle with disliking eye-contact and many have practiced rituals for the normal amount of eye contact which are so #distracting to perform correctly that they can lose focus on what the conversation is about #i personally was reprimanded for gazing off into space quite young so i have zero issue looking people in the eye when they talk #but i dont know what the appropriate amount is. so i do too much. #i seriously just stare at them intently for the entire time the both of us are speaking and have to manually look away when i speak (normal #way to act based on observation) and occasionally glance off around me #so the joke is i still struggle with eye contact. but most people wouldnt realise that because they think autism is the same for erryone #my overcompensation due to my natural awkwardness makes me struggle in the opposite way #its also a joke about how because people think all autism is the same many people dont get diagnosed. never been an issue for me personally #because i realised at an age at which support is no longer really offered so all it would get me is banned from entry into some countries #(autistic people are barred from becoming citizens in some countries due to perceived higher support needs) #also i once said to my dad i thought i had adhd and he said 'you dont have adhd. you know that'. and my mum regularly talks about autistic #people as a third party to me. and about how she works with them #to be fair to both of them my dad is 100% autistic and knows it (accepted this fact at51) and my mum is probably autistic but i dont want to #talk to her about it so shes just going to be weird forever #oversharing online is important because what if someone wanted to know that

[difty-dift]

Hmmmm actually 🤔

For new people who wanna know your ocs, how's a brief rundown of your lovely guyss?

Sure! and thanks for the ask!

First is K-1! First guy i finalized. He's based off of beefy orc designs (and yes his primary inspiration is Knack from Knack but shut up we're moving on). He's essentially a cyborg, a combination of goblin and human DNA (which is a simple way of explaining the orc like appearance) along with cybernetic enhancements and mysterious ancient technology (seen in his spikes and core). He was created government contracted bio laboratory with the goal of developing a unbeatable super soldier. And they succeeded! He's incredibly strong and dependable, and has never lost a single battle. But he's also easygoing so he knows not to take things too far. The most likely to walk through a entrance sideways

Next is Ing (no torso cause i just love this headshot so much)! He (and Cho) are also products of the same laboratory experiments, but to differing results than K-1. Ing is the combination of the elusive blood of a shadow dragon (the most rare, impervious, and violent species) and the DNA of various beasts needed to keep him alive in the early stages of his development (mainly tiger). Because of all the other elements diluting his draconic essence, the end result was a great lack of any desired traits (wings, protective scales, immense strength, etc.) Deemed a failure by the governement for his lacking potential, he spends his days at the facility at which he was born, helping the researchers and training to be stronger while his friends go off into battle. I made him cause the urge for a tiger oc overtook me, but i couldn't just make i tiger, i needed more. My first 'fursona' i suppose. He is more reserved and quiet than the others but he loves learning and isn't shy about his appearance (though intimacy does get to him sometimes~). Has the least noticeable yawns.

And now Chocoa! You know him, you all wanna fuck him, i get it, it's understandable. He's a bull/bear hybrid, and a chimera like Ing. I saw a artist's interpretation of the mix, thought "Seriously? ", and created him in a feverish stupor. Though the third oc, he was the first successful experiment and had many years of victories before K-1 came along. Developed in a separate facility than the others, he's a an arrogant, bullheaded, boorish, crass, and unpleasant guy, just a right asshole. And his lovely personality shines just as bright on the battlefield, earning him many wins and just as many injuries. There's not really much to him past that; loves to fight, loves to smash, he's a jerk, but can get real soft with enough time. Takes the longest showers.

Onwards to Beryl. He's a lynel, those vicious dudes from Breath of the Wild, yeah? But he was born with a mutation, so his horse half is a lion half instead. Which made him docile as a result. I saw art on twitter of a beartaur i believe and was stricken by a mighty need. And i remembered that lynels are like, so fucking cool. He spends his days mining for jewlel and ore, and trading with passerbys for rupees (which he also admires (cause shiny)). He doesn't really like company and finds being friendly with others awkward (especially cause he cant talk). Never wins a staring contest.

(and yeah just his torso doesn't really do him justice but i very bad at drawing animal legs so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

And finally it's Mozi. He's a forest cryptid, mainly a moose dude. The idea for him sprung up randomly from chatting with a certain someone (⬆) and it stuck in me brain from how good it was. For 7 months. He was so hard to finalize for some reason oh my god. But I managed eventually and i freaking love him. He's just a silly moose guy, wandering the woods and napping. The slowest walker and the fastest sprinter. Though, no one has seen him do either...

And that's that! For now. My mind's always working on new angles and ideas after all. But let it be known i fucking adore all these dudes and seeing other people be like "whoa that's cool!" never fails to make me smile~

#long post #oc #furry #orc #anthro #DAMN thas a lotta words #i tried being clear and concise but still feels like i said a lot #i debated on whether to have a 'keep reading' but decided against it. i use the Hide Long Posts feature so i'm hoping that will suffice #lore stuff is really cool but i always get just the teeniest bit shy about explaining it all #but this was pretty fun to do~ #Also: SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY this was in my inbox for 2 MONTHS and i could only get to it now #just so much shit hit the fan and i was still getting my bearings when more splattered everywhere #and though i feel real bad about letting this sit for so long; i'm glad this is how i answered cause i don't think i would've for- #-matted it like this if i answered immediately #sorry Eye lol <:3 #hope you all like the sketches btw #maybe i'll do something with he first four someday #keep your eyes out for Mozi though~ #but seriously this took like 3 hours and felt like completing a school assignment i NEED to calm down #hope you enjoyed though~... #ask

[soubiapologist]

i don't expect any of you to understand the reference but alice cooper. from riverdale. is a little like if a loveless character was really really really fucking funny

#in that she a darkly realistic portrayal of Your Yes Your 🫵🏻 Insane Mom #i have never seen a more.... i don't want to say ''realistic'' because riverdale exists in this like. absurd parody dimension both-- #on purpose and on accident but like. #nothing that EMULATES the FEELING of having a Crazy Mom who has no idea she's crazy #and thinks she's justified in literally everything she does and is just like. a complete fucking controlling nutcase who is making-- #literally everything worse by pretending she doesn't have trauma #of course it's also very silly but rvd also wants you to take it seriously so it's just like having an (AWESOME) aneurysm the entire time #you have to have a very specific sense of humour to enjoy rvd if you like like. #sardonically sitting around watching increasingly absurd things happen to characters you have zero investment in other than laughing at-- #because they just live these deranged lives that are beyond parody and just like bitching at your TV for fun with like a friend then i thin #--you might like it. #like you absolutely cannot get seriously invested in the plot or characters if you want to enjoy it it's hard to explain #but it's also like kind of like loveless in the way that the fandom was originally people doing Shipping and then getting increasingly-- #annoyed when it didn't do what they wanted and dropping off #and in the process missing out on the craziest train derailment of all time just like absolute complete lunatic shit #and it seems like it keeps trying to self flagellate for the first like. half #and in riverdale's case it's REALLY funny and in loveless's case it's really um. scary (affectionate) #also like 99% of the people who watch rvd seem to not understand that it's supposed to be insane and 99% of the people who read loveless-- #miss that it's supposed to be HASHTAG SCARY #like rvd also exists in this weird dimension where you're supposed to think it's funny and they're trying to piss you off on purpose #but they're also trying very hard to like Discuss Social Issues and it end up very funny because they're bad at it but GOD It's so sincere- #while standing next to the campiest insincere shit EVER it's so fucking funny #meanwhile loveless's tone problem is like yun kouga is just a crazy person. #i mean roberto is also a crazy person but yun kouga is like a tortured crazy person. and he's like. the guy who would make glee crazy-- #person. does that make sense. #no one is reading this don't worry about it. smiles.

[biromanticbookbabe]

Wow. Sometimes I'm very lucky and my bipolar doesn't always affect me much. But no such luck lately. I'm worried that I might have to retake my modern lit course because I was so late with many of my assignments. I've been mentally messed up more or less with a mixed mood episode since last September. I'm currently on the line of passing and not passing the class (granted there are a few ungraded assignments, including my final so it's still possible that I'm overreacting). I'm usually a good student too so it's a point of pride for me. I went from the honor roll to this all due to me fighting with an illness... :/ (It is my fault for not managing things better so I'm not looking for pity here- just talking).

I cannot imagine how horrible this disorder is for people who didn't have the option of medication (I am medicated, believe it or not). I think about that about that a lot since I study history and look into many writer's and artist's biographies in my spare time. I feel very bad for them since they basically had to live with this disorder without the fixes I have simply because I was born late enough for treatments to exist.

Virginia Woolf and Sylvia Plath both haunt me. Other people too. Yes, Lord Byron was extremely shocking but consider- we don't actually know what he would have been like if he could have been treated. He wouldn't have died at 36, I'm almost certain of that. I am highly aware of what this disorder has done to people before me. It doesn't make it better. But I keep looking back any way, to see that many of them did incredible things, in spite of it all.

I just keep thinking that if they could do so much without any treatment- that I should be able to function with treatment??? I know: don't compare yourself to other people but I'm desperate to know that I can be successful even with this illness. That it's not going to force me to leave school (the one thing I have been historically good at) and waste my life toiling away for nothing.

So if it seems as if I have been hitting my head against something lately, you aren't wrong. The fall is not generally my friend, pretty as the leaves are. I have not been having a good time of it but we must go on any way because what other option is there? None, I tell you.

#leaves pretty brain shitty has been my fall for the last few years since 2018 at least... #consistently fall has been bad for my cycle though I like that time of year normally #granted a lot of things kept happening every fall since 2018 too #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #I probably am a closet perfectionist in some cases #I am exhausted thanks for asking! #and yes for a few semesters I was an honor roll student in my grad school- not any more though LOL #seriously I'm going into debt for this degree and uh that promise to waive our debt never came to light so I'm very fucked rn #I have to finish this degree so I can work off my debt and build a good reputation for myself #I'm honestly afraid my illness might take away my ability to have a career at all; I'm desperate for a living wage! #it's not good #but this could be anxiety talking tbh #for real I'm amazed that like Virginia Woolf and others were able to do as much as they did in their lives #because without my medication I'd probably be useless??? Mania is not fun 10/10 would NOT suggest #I actually pity Lord Byron after reading his biography; he just seems like if mania was a person and um it explains his behavior completely #do you ever look back at other peoples' lives and see pieces of yourself in them and then feel really bad for them? cuz I do all the time #mychatter #I'm stubborn in that I refuse to quit school since I am aware that my family needs to know I can do this #please don't take this personally this is my problem and a pointless rant probably

[legendaryjarcollection]

Group project partners love to make the shared document as confusing as possible

#Peter I get that you have autism but it fucking hate that chart you made us put everything in #it’s impossible to read it makes no sense and a nightmare to write in #there. god. he is nice but he is not doing himself any favours. why would you fully seriously explain what a euphemism is to three grown #women. who are all in this UNI ENGLISH COURSE WITH YOU. #also the organising of that document has me doing twice the work I really need to bc it’s so unclear what exactly I’m supposed to do. #my name is on two completely different things and I don’t wanna be annoying and ask a third time so I’m just doing both

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I keep listening to different pieces of music that I love and then my brain comes in all helpful with 'this sounds like great music to die with doesn't it'

#tw suicide #im just. so tired #and i know that right now part of it is im sick (not covid tho) but still. #and it's like im grieving the lost friendship all over again and what might have been #i am the best version of myself when im with the boy. but now no wonder he is avoiding me. and i don't blame him! but for some reason it's #hitting rlly hard again atm and it's just. Im Sad. #i really don't know why that's so prevalent in my mind right now #and it's rlly not safe for me to drive long distances alone i think. i find driving v stressful #and any guesses what *that* leads to #tw sh #the answer was: a frightening amount. #and then there are things i don't understand #my brother begged me to destroy the suicide note i wrote yesterday #and i don't know why. because it's very unlikely to be something that i would stop to do tbh. so what there is would at least explain #*something* perhaps. i don't know #i have spent more than half of my waking hours in the last week seriously thinking of suicide. i don't know how to stop this #and given that i've read two books in full and gone to a play i enjoyed that says something about what hte rest of the time has been filled #with. i don't know how to get out of this. in some ways i feel like it's worse now than it was bc i expected it to get better when mum and #dad got back. if anything it's worse - more constant. #the lows are not quite as low but the baseline is definitely lower #i am just feeling very hopeless rn #yesterday i was driving and reciting psalm 23 and i was so overcome with emotion and i repeated it multiple times and that helped somewhat #but only in the moment ig. i don't know. i don't know how to fix this or even improve it #if im still feeling like this on monday i am so going to walk over the road and straight-up ask to borrow a kitten overnight. #and hope the kitten doesn't decide to go near all the cuts :( #a part of me is genuinely wondering if i should check myself into a psych ward. the other parts of me say either that this isn't bad enough #for that or thta i am simply too scared to. which is true. nasty stuff in psych wards for obvious reasons #anyway i need prayers thankyou

[nagitoedit]

you don't have to read this is for screaming in the void

#trying to explain that i'm struggling without saying the big most important part of why i am struggling is . #like oh i'm struggling because uh . the issues. what are the issues? well . they are issues that i refuse to elaborate on #so it doesn't help anybody. but like how am i supposed to explain to my mom that the reason i've become so severely depressed is because #i'm suicidal. like oh btw ^-^ i hate the life you gave me and brought me into so bad that i want to die. but it's no big deal so don't worr #about it. #which like that wouldn't be how i meant it at all but of course that's also implied or something #which just makes me think of other things like that if things weren't so bad id be able to get help but help is inaccessible. #ughhhh i just hate this it's so agonizing. like cant things be a little less bad. i'm not having fun being like this and people are #reasonably irritated with me because only based on what i'm willing to tell just. isn't the full story at all and would obviously just. #not make sense because i'm leaving out major parts of what's happening and why. #and tbh i'm constantly going back and forth between like. coming out as suicidal. mainly because like. well. it kinda worrying me. #because for like months now i've almost daily been fighting off suicidal thoughts and often even having suicidal meltdowns #yesterday i was standing near a ceiling fan and was like hmm wouldnt it be nice if one of the blades came off and stabbed me through #the back of my skull and killed me. but then i thought no that would be too traumatizing for my family #as if me dying at all wouldn't be. which i also thought of. idk just thinking about the idea of #i want to live but not like this. because yeah. my mom said that she thinks reading bad news is why and it's like well . of course it is #but should i just stay completely unaware of what's happening in the world. but also bad news is just unavoidable #but yeah it is why i'm depressed. climate change racism homophobia transphobia covid wars economy etc like #these are things that i can't just. ignore? and am i seriously the crazy person for being upset about these things? #well she does think i'm crazy for still being scared of the dangerous virus that is currently the third leading cause of death in the us #like last night she was like ' it's good to be cautious but you're going over board' i'm friends with people who could die from covid. #'over board' i care about them and other people and i don't want them to die. i don't want to be permanently disabled by a virus with #a 20% chance every time i catch it to permanently damage my immune system and give me long covid. <- according to cdc #but whatever. i do genuinely want mental help. i think i need s different medication or a diagnosis bc uhmmm . i am unwell #but that's expensive. #i have an appointment with a doctor today for a med check because i don't think my ssri is working . obviously #as i am as you can tell absolutely overcome with severe and debilitating anxiety and depression. lolzors #whatever. except not because ouuuughhhgh <-unimaginable suffering #mypost

[cienie-isengardu]

My RepCom Musing: lekku language

The first time Kal meet scared Laseema [Triple Zero]:

Skirata slid off the stool and wiped the chain clean of Qibbu's slime before coiling it and putting it in his pocket again. He was concerned about the Twi'lek, though. Civilians were hardly his prime concern on this operation, but it didn't cost anything to be courteous.

    He walked over to her. She was still cowering. He squatted down almost instinctively: he saw six scared little boys waiting to be reconditioned. "I'm Kal, ma'am," he said. "What's your name?"

    She didn't meet his eyes. She had that way of looking off slightly to one side that he thought he'd seen too many times before. "Laseema."

"Well, Laseema, if your boss isn't treating you well, you let me know. And I'll have a word with him." He smiled as best he could. "And none of my boys will give you any problems, either, okay?"

    "Okay," she said shakily. Her lekku were moving slightly, but Skirata couldn't understand the unspoken language they conveyed. She might just have been twitching out of fear. "Okay."

 or when he talked with female Twi’lek waitress (also TZ):

The Twi'lek waitress topped up their caf and smiled alluringly "Where's your son today?"

"At the office, sweetheart," Skirata said. "Won't I do instead?"

Her lekku coiled ever so slightly but he didn't have a clue what it meant. She glided away, glancing back to smile again. Obrim sniggered. "I see Ordo made an impression."

vs. Vau’s POV about scared Twi’lek [True Colors]:

    Mereel had acquired yet another form of transport. He had a great fondness for speeder bikes, and he seemed to be riding a different one every time Vau saw him. He had no idea whether Mereel came by them legally or not, but the Null trooper had a pillion passenger this time, and as the speeder drew closer it was clear that the being sitting behind him was a very scared green Twi'lek male. Vau could tell from the way his lekku looked rigid. It was the Twi'lek equivalent of white knuckles.

Solely on these three paragraphs we could assume somehow Vau interacted more with Twi’leks than Kal did, at least enough to learn how to read well their specific “lekku language”. At the same time, Triple Zero made it clear Vau was in general interested in learning stuff in regard to anatomy (and maybe psychology too?) of various species as was seen with injured Gurlanin:

Etain and Jusik were kneeling on either side of the Gurlanin, hands flat on its flanks in some kind of Jedi healing process. Vau watched with interest. He was the anatomy expert, although he was more skilled at taking bodies apart than repairing them.

So, either he actually had enough contact with Twi’leks to learn their “unspoken language” or he learned it in case he needed to interrogate someone of said species (or alternatively, he did interrogate Twi’lek(s) at some point in past and he learned to recognize the smallest details from observation "on a living example".

At the same time, if Vau knew enough well how to read to some degree the way lekku moves, he could pass this knowledge to his trainees on Kamino. Although Sev/Deltas did not manage to read lekku movements of the same Twi’lek as Vau did in True Colors (“His lekku were moving slightly in some wordless reaction.”), there is still a chance that Atin - and Deltas - could have some better understanding of Laseema’s body language than average person, at least in regard to recognizing when Atin’s girlfriend/wife was scared of something but tried to deal with the problem on her own. Alternatively, Vau understands enough lekku language to know when something is off with Laseema and do something about it himself or prompt someone else (Atin on Mandalore, Kal & Etain in general) to check if their only Twi’lek companion is okay.

Looking at Aayla Secura and how it was important to her that Kit Fisto, as the few non-Twi’lek people she knew understand lekku,

I really really hope that there was at least one person (so far it seems to be Vau?) who understood Laseema’s specific body language as movements of the lekku were an important part of Twi’lek language (communication) and also I hope Atin either had some vague understanding of it (thanks to Vau?) or bothered to learn it all on his own. Because can you imagine being the sole Alien in the big clan full of humans who are oblivious to all the subtle signs of your body language that you may not know how to properly put into words?

Because I can imagine how must sucks to be the only Twi’lek between human clones, Jedi, Mandalorians (and one Kaminoan Jedi who most likely isn’t going stay there forever).

#star wars #walon vau #kal skirata #atin #laseema #republic commando #My RepCom musing #laseema deserves better! #but seriously i didn't even plan to go with the musing beside vau likes to collect data about other species #most likely to know how interrogate them when in need #but then i checked all books for lekku related matter #and there was so little? #kal twice did not know what movement of lekku is supposed to mean #delta/sev weren't sure but then okay twi'lek was a pilot/whatever he was and maybe was better at covering what he is thinking #and vau reading how scared the twi'lek was and having a proper human-like expression to translate the lekku movement #and then i thought how laseema is surronded by men who don't know well her body language and how many stuff may be hard to explain in words #when your lekku covered it all #so atin i put my hopes in you to learn it and be supportive #for laseema's sake #alternatively #vau could teach some proper stuff atin as bonding time on mandalore #i did not mean compare kal and vau but somehow the books like to doing it with such details? #and vau usually is better educated and yes a former member of rich family #but i doubt his family would bothered to teach him how to read lekku language #they are both self educated in a lot ways but vau is kinda scary #with learning details about other species just to know how to break them #but that is a rant for another time