#WHY CAN'T I DO THAT

[beeh0n3y]

my writing goal is to write like AO3 authors who's second language is English and fics are the length of three novels

#like what #Why can't I do that #What exactly is the secret here #writer #writeblr #ao3 #ao3 writer #Writing goals

[cryptiddeer]

Actually the worst part of Pokemon Scarlet/Violet is that i can't decorate my dorm room. Wdym i live there it hasn't changed since i arrived. And it's not like it's against school rules. Arven has a whole ass refrigerator. Penny has turned hers into the ultimate gamer den. Nemona has her gym badges and stuff for pokemon training.

I at least thought we'd be able to look at those pictures we got while defeating gyms and stuff. There is literally no reason to go there. Ever.

Give me a little room decoration mode. A store where I can buy stuff to decorate with. Lemme slap together a scrapbook with all the pictures you get throughout the game. Lemme display my gym/titan/team star badges. I wanna frame pictures of my pokemon like I'm a proud parent. Just let me decorate my dorm room PLEASE

#pokemon scarlet #pokemon violet #pokemon spoilers #<- for arven‚ penny‚ and nemona's room #if you're curious about them you gotta go to school after completing the story. post game stuff #ALSO. #they all let out their pokemon in their rooms #nemona's pawmot‚ arvens mabosstif and all of pennys mons are just. hanging out #why can't i do that

[lukeslights4ber]

LET ME WRITE SOMETHING WHICH I DON'T INSTANTLY START HATING WHILE WRITING IT PLS I JUST WANT TO BE A WRITER

my chronic writers block since 2018 isn't helping me either, i just want to write cute and sad fanfics :(

#GRRRRRR #I JUST WANNA WRITE #WHY CAN'T I DO THAT #WHY DO I HATE EVERYTHING I CREATE #anyways 😍 #kimi talk

[feliz-navidad]

being a dog is great. You can run up to strangers and make lots of noise and then they compliment you. Sometimes they see you in box and then they take you home and feed you

#why can't I do that

[bunn-iiii]

maybe I don't want to go back to school. maybe I just want to stay home and not have to do anything.

#why can't humans just. not do anything. and that be okay for a while. #why can't i do that

[hpdgirlfriend]

it's so upsetting that i'm not just worse at things than neurotypicals, i'm worse at things even with OTHER neurodivergents with the same disorders, like so much worse. how are you doing it ???

#diary #people w adhd will be like lol i cant do homework but i can hyperfocus on drawing fanart and post constantly #HOW #WHY CAN'T I DO THAT #i literally struggle so much with drawing i don't do anything productive at ALL #i never get anywhere in my hobbies or responsibilities or self care i just sit and watch youtube all day #rotting #its literally my dream to be able to just. Draw. and not have a wall of awful around it #and be able to finish drawings #and not take so FUCKING LONG TO DO SIMPLE THINGS

[dancingdragonsnaps]

I just want to say, that I will forever be jealous of Kars' forearm bone blades.

#i want it #kars #kars jjba #jjba #jojo part 2 #why can't i do that

[musicorum-femina]

you think you can fix me? glue back the shredded pieces, conceal the abyss? I don’t need someone to glue and stick me back together. I need someone to stich back together my scattered pieces, weld them so they stick. Cover the gaping holes with their own skin. A beautiful quilt. I need someone to cradle me gently, and blow my spirit back into me with tender whispers. For them to become one with me, body mind and soul. To kiss me until my skin knows nothing but their lips, to hold me till my body knows nothing but their arms, to be with me till my heart knows nothing but their love. To forget myself when I am without you. I need to pour my entire soul into them, every skewed, scarred part, and for them to return the favor. To be unified till I don’t know where i end and you begin. I want to own your heart, and you to own mine. You can’t fix me. But you can hold my hand as I burn.  

#love #love starved #you cant fix me #in love #relationship #i want to destroy myself #in loving you #vent #shitpost #i love you #one day i'll get there #random #im driving myself insane #all i want is you #love is beautiful #love is blind #love is fatal #the love I'll find #whats wrong with my brain #why can't i do that #why cant i be normal #why cant i love #why am i so scared #poetry

[helenapsent]

Oh no, I think I'm starting to have an artblock

#NOT NOW. NOT AT THE MOST BITCHIN' CRUCIAL MOMENT.- #Where my strength goes #I don't understand what's taking it away #who takes them? the weather or my kinfolk suck them out of me #or what is it anyway??? #I just want to finish my work #why can't I do that #;-; #helen thinks #justin and the knights of valour #art #spoiler

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[etchif]

#For me it's peach. can't stand them #polls #fruit #why do you people hate bananas so much. i expected the pear and pineapple hate but bananas? really?

[bitchofdarkness]

I hate how fandom has become "if you haven't created anything in this very specific time frame after the release of the show/movie, everyone will have moved on"

And call me old fashioned, but that's just not me. I sometimes take ages to create and publish. And I will love a show or movie for such a long time (years, babes, years) that I just can't relate to the fast consumerism that's going on.

Because, let's be real, it can get really lonely in a fandom if most have simply moved on to the next shiny thing. Is what's created less worth, just because it was created outside the hype? Why is it such a taboo for this new fandom generation to love an old or "late" fic or art?

It's so tiring and I'm too old for the 30-seconds-hype-tiktok-shit. Just tired. So, so tired.

#semi rant #cry into the void #and no i'm not shaming young ppl in general #it's this new wave of people entering fandom which can happen at any age lbr #and I don't understand them nor do I want to atp #if you're wondering why you can't rb anymore: I switched it off bcuz people can't fucking read and piss me off with their dumb additions

[ghouljams]

Soap refuses to wear condoms, insists he's tracking your cycle and everything will be fine. Except when you text him: "Good news I got my period" and his immediate response is: "How's that good news?" you realize you misunderstood what he was tracking.

#cod x reader #x reader #john soap mactavish will try to baby trap you and I stand by that #he wants a big family and he want YOU #he's gonna make it happen #idk why he can't just do what Gaz does and date MILFs #soap mactavish smut #john soap mactavish #john mactavish x reader #soap mactavish x reader #soap mw2 #soap call of duty #soap x reader

[zookie-art]

Shadows and light ~

#malevolent #malevolent fanart #arthur lester #king in yellow #john doe malevolent #malevolent podcast #one of these days i'll sit down and do a proper polished piece for this but that is not today #can't believe i get to use my professional skills in painting cthulhu themed horror to paint art for a podcast this is my life now #why do you even work to become better at art if not to draw fanart of things you like honestly

[lostlegendaerie]

there's something deeply gutting about being a writer right now. watching studio execs brag about starving people like you out of your very house just to not pay you anything above the pennies you currently make. watching some people cheer over AO3 being targeted for a DDOS attack. the complete lack of profitability of writing commissions or writing in general in transformative spaces, especially in contrast to fanart. the pivot of so many social media platforms to be video and image based near-exclusively.

I don't know. it just makes me sad to know that the hobby that kept me alive while growing up homeschooled with dial-up internet and local antenna TV... is only ever gonna be a side job with minimal engagement. I know this site is good about supporting libraries and the concept of books but, do me a favor? Reach out to a writer friend you know. Leave a comment on your last five read stories on your favorite website.

Tell us you care.

#maybe that's why I've been so stalled on my novel #I keep trying to convince myself there's a POINT to it #but I look at how BRUTAL the publishing industry is and how I can't even consistently break ten reblogs on writing I post here #and I just. it hurts. and I have other hobbies I could fall back on!!! I could do art and cosplay and cater to the immediate engagement!! #but writing is my LOVE and my PASSION and I just wish. I wish the current climate CARED about us #TALKED to us the way we talk to cosplayers and artists and the chocolate guy #UGH. Wednesday blues hitting me NASTY today

[solroskajan]

Cat.

#murder drones #serial designation v #murder drones lizzy #vizzy #my art #I probably spent too much time on this but it was fun #I love lizzy so much #I can't explain why I just do