#YES THATS A 3 and or 5 WEEK OLD KITTEN

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Not ew related but just wanted to share this little gremlin who I had LOOKED and SEARCHED for FOR HALF AN HOUR IN FRANTIC DESPERATION, AND I FIND HER IN MY SLIPPER????

THE AUDIOCITY??? THE NERVE?? I PLUCK YOU FROM THE STREETS AND YOU HIDE FROM ME?? WHEN I WANT TO FEED YOU!!?

#neil talky #not ew #Shes my latest rescue #a bunch of kids took her from her mom I think #and were playing with her like some kinda toy #before straight up abandoning her #we tried to look for her mom but she was gone #so I took her in #too many people abandon animals :// #most of my pets are rescues/adopted #its heartbreaking but whatever #Her name is Siren btw!! #shes VERY loud #I estimated her to he 3-5 weeks old #YES THATS A 3 and or 5 WEEK OLD KITTEN #Shes small for her age like newborn small #but her ears and eyes are open and she has all her milk teeth #so ://

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Moony and Thumper Hijinx

Ficlet of a budding friendship between Tonks and Lupin in Harry’s 3rd year. Tonks trains near hogsmead and has found a companion in Remus Lupin. 

Tonks had no official reason to keep her security credentials to the castle. She had finished her dueling training and passed her exam with Moody, but she still wanted to have the freedom to go up to the castle when she pleased to visit her favorite werewolf. It had become apparent that Remus and her had become friends through all of the dueling lessons and afternoon tea that had transpired in the past few months. They would walk the grounds together, plot pranks on the twins, share old stories; she recently started confiding in him about her dating life. He of course was one voice in a choir telling her to get back on the horse and start dating after Tulip’s betrayal, but he was the only voice that listened when she spoke back. He laughed at her date’s blunders and only gently teased her about hers. It had come to her attention during her visits that the students weren’t the only ones noticing the charming werewolf. Aurora Sinestra was commonly found nearby with her deep chocolate eyes focusing more often on the DADA Professor.

“Oh Thumper give it a rest.” Lupin rolled his eyes hearing Tonks’ theory for the hundredth time, “Aurora is not interested in me.” They were in the library searching for reference material that the professor needed for a lesson.

“She most definitely is.” Tonks whispered back. “Every time I’m up here she’s prowling around the corner,” She scratched the air playfully “waiting to pounce on you.” Remus shook his head amused at the young auror. “I’m only sorry I’ve gotten in the way. I don’t mean to be a cock block.”

“I suspect you’re projecting your own frustrations on to me.”

“Don’t try and turn this around to me Moony.” She shut down his deflection. “She’s clearly into you, and you’re blind old wolf to not see it.”

“SHHHH.” The harsh hush of Madam Pince came from around the corner. Tonks winced at the sound. She definitely didn’t miss that old bat looming around every bookcase. The old crone retreated after shooting the pair a dirty look.

“Your going to get yourself a detention Miss Tonks.” Lupin said with a playful smirk. Tonks stuck her tongue out at him, “Mature.” He chortled as he handed her another book to hold.

“When did I become your pack mule?” She added the book to the growing stack.

“When you decided to hang around during my free period.”

“I thought free period meant free time.” She whined. “Like free time to pull one over on Sprout, or free to go flying for a bit.”

“This is when I plan my lessons. Would you rather I don’t teach my students.” He asked still looking through ‘The Defensive Field Guide.’

“I’m sure they’d appreciate a day off. You’re working them pretty hard.”

“They need to catch up if they want to pass their O.W.Ls and N.E.W.Ts.” he closed the book and replaced it gesturing to her to follow him with the books. “I’ve only got 3 students that made it to N.E.W.Ts level from my predecessors. I can’t let them down like that.” He pulled out another Defensive book. Tonks smiled as his focus zeroed in on the book in his hand.

“Whats your goal?”

“My what?” He didn’t look up from the book.

“Your goal? How many students are you trying to get to N.E.W.Ts?” He didn’t look at her, but she noticed his eyes stopped scanning the page. “5? 10? Half?”

“All of them.” He stated

“Come on Professor, it's just you and me, who’s making the cut?” She leant in, “Dish.” She demanded. He finally broke his focus from the book meeting her eyes with a smirk.

“All of them.” He persisted

“Remus—”

“No,” he cut her off, “if I pick and choose the talented ones then I’m failing those who really need my help. So—” he leant in, “All of them, Nymphadora.” She reacted immediately taking the top book off the pile next to her and swinging it at the werewolf head. “Ouch!” He yelped when the book made contact.

“Don’t call me Nymphadora.” She scolded. He was still smiling though undercutting her stern tone. Madam Pince skulked around the corner probably hearing the commotion.

“I think we better head out.” Remus whispered, “Wouldn’t want you to get sent to the Headmasters office.” He was really enjoying toying with her. They checked out the books he picked and headed back to his office. The students they passed waved and greeted Lupin pleasantly. She remarked how he should run for governor of Hogwarts, earning a sly smile from him. She let him read through his books and prepare for his lessons in peace with the promise of shenanigans later. She read her study materials on the couch with the sounds of smooth jazz playing from his record player. A couple students stopped by for some academic help and she perked her head up to watch him interact with the students. She admired how passionate he was about helping these kids, she only wished she had a DADA professor who helped her. She had to work her ass off to make it to N.E.W.Ts and to get an acceptable grade for the Auror program.

She stood after a while.

“Tea?” She asked. Remus raised his hand in acknowledgement, which she took as a yes. She brought his cup to him, looking over his shoulder at his lesson plans. “Is this for your 4th years?” She asked,

“3rd.” He corrected her.

“Ahh. Harry’s year.” He nodded. “What does he call you during class?” Her signature inquisitive nature taking over.

“What?” He asked, remaining focused on his work.

“What does he call you? Remus? Moony? Dad? Pappa Professor?” She huffed in amusement. She saw a small smile play at his lips.

“He calls me Professor.” He answered simply

“But, but he’s your son.” She argued; Remus shrugged,

“He doesn’t call Sirius or I Dad.” Tonks thought on this a moment.

“He definitely has.” She remarked, “He did when we were kids sometimes.”

“Well growing up it would slip out, but Sirius and I never told him to call us dad.” He thought through when Harry would call them Dad, and how they would gently remind him that they were uncle Padfoot and Uncle Moony. Tonks’ brow was stitched. She was compiling all the memories of Harry as a boy, and she found that Lupin was right he called them Padfoot and Moony almost exclusively.

“Why is that?” She didn’t consider that this might be a sensitive issue. “You guys raised him.”  His body tensed and his voice was strained when he answered,

“You’re forgetting, his real dad was our best friend.” She knew she went too far, hit a nerve. A beat of silence fell allowing Tonks to feel properly ashamed.

“Well, whether he calls you dad or not, you’ve done a great job raising him.” His body relaxed and she could have sworn she saw him looking at her from the side of his eye. The tension dispersed; she squeezed his shoulder leaving him to his planning again.

The pair worked the afternoon in amicable silence. Remus worked out his lesson plans while Tonks studied. She didn’t want to think too hard on it, but she had been spending a lot of time with Remus recently. He distracted her, and she was finding she really liked his company. They were unlikely friends, but friends none the less. She had worked her way through most of her potions workbook by mid afternoon. She was working through a particularly annoying antidote when her book was snatched form her view.

“Okay who are we targeting today?” Remus’ boyish smile lifted her out of her study stupor.

“Well we got Snape two weeks in a row. I think we should lay off for a bit.” She reasoned.

“I guess,” he agreed, “Sprout?”

“Oh I could never,” Tonks sounded almost offended at his suggestion, “She’s too trusting and sweet, it's like pranking a kitten.” He chuckled at her reasoning,

“Ok then. How about Minerva?” Her eyes lit up at the suggestion,

“My Everest.”  Tonks agreed. “How do we get her?” She asked the spark returning to her eyes. “Sirius told me about the laser charm to lure Mrs. Norris away. Could we use that?” He chuckled

“It only works on her when she’s a cat.” He explained. Tonks pouted.

“Well then what were you thinking?”

“What if we stash her pillow with cat nip?” Lupin proposed.

“No go. Charlie and I tried something similar our 6th year. She can smell it as a human and then you just get in trouble.” She explained

“Well what if we Charm her quills?”

“To do what?”

“Sign her name as Purrrfessor McGonagall.” Remus smiled at he sudden explosion of laughter.

“Thats brilliant.” She beamed at the professor, “We could also make it so when she writes her first name it changes to ‘meow-va’.”

“Purrrfect.” Remus responded, “I can lure her out of her office with a phony excuse about a student and you sneak in and charm the quills. The only trouble is she adds security charms to her door when she’s not in her office.”

“Way ahead of you. Charlie and I found a way to sneak in her office from the roof.” She stood and put on her gloves adding a sticking charm as she did. “Give me 10 minutes to make it to her office then floo her.” She instructed as she opened his office window and began to lift herself out by the ramparts.

“Tonks wait.” He reached out for her, “We can borrow a broom so you don’t fall off the side of the castle.”

“Your next class starts soon, there’s no time.” She reasoned, “Plus its more fun this way.” She winked as she pulled herself up onto the turret of his tower office. He leant out watching her scale the out side of the castle with her sticky gloves.

“You’re absolutely insane!” He yelled up to her.

“Ten minutes Professor.” Was all she yelled back, and then she was out of sight. Remus chuckled to himself waving is wand at his wrist watch to set a timer.

#nymphadora tonks #tonks #tonks and lupin #Remus Lupin #Remus John Lupin #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs #andromeda tonks #prisoner of azkaban #Harry Potter #Nymphadora Lupin #professor lupin #hogwarts #REMUS AND NYMPHADORA #Nymphadora #Remus Lupin and Nymphadora Tonks

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GW2 Community Retrospective

I was tagged by @brax-was-here

Give yourself five compliments!

Give your friends four compliments!

Say three things you’re proud of from this year!

Say two thing you tried this year and never before!

Say one thing to your future self! Tagging: @talk-of-tyria @infamous-mage @mindlessabnormity (Don’t gotta do it if you don’t want to, but you guys came to mind!) Answers under the cut:

1. I’m funny! I love to make my friends laugh with the silliest of things. I can draw! My art always seems to make my friends smile, its the main reason I do it. I’m a big, tall, strong woman! Yeah, I’m tall irl, and honestly? I wish I was taller. One of the things I like about myself is how tall I am. I’m empathetic. Empathy is one of the strongest things in my emotional arsenal. And it doesn’t take me long to feel like how a friend is feeling when they vent to me and I can come closer to their level and give support. I think this is positive because it helps me help other people.  I’m good at jumping puzzles! I just love them and seem to pick them up real easy.

2. Honestly? DAPR has been the best thing thats ever happened to me.  They picked me up, a little runt ranting about the Thorns and saying silly things about them in the tags. I was like a cowering kitten under a table but I eventually came out of my shell and now I have a group of amazing friends who spend time with me weekly, be it them putting up with my tomfoolery or me laughing like a saturday morning cartoon villain because I successfully murdered people in Among Us and turned the crewmates on one another for a flawless win :) Shout outs to @fivebrights and @kharrij being some of the people I’ve formed friendships with and weathered the year with. I know this isn’t 4 compliments but I could honestly write essays about DAPR. 

3. Hmm... this is a hard one. But I think putting myself first and putting up boundaries is something I think I should be proud of. As I mentioned above, I’m highly empathetic, but it has allowed me to stay in toxic frienships and damage my mental health as a whole as I have the awful habit of putting others before myself, and I still do. But this year I put up some boundaries, they hurt, yes but my relationships are healthier in the long run. The second being less strict with myself when it comes to my art. I always fret that its not good enough and are currently learning to just go with the flow and just draw whatever I want. And learning when my thoughts are being clouded and stopped irrational actions from happening. Slamming on the breaks and stopping my mental health from causing damage.I had a horrible habit of isolating when I was having a bad day, and thought I was a burden to others. But I’ve got good friends by my side. There was a lot of mental growth this year.  4. I was a bridesmaid! Way back earlier this year before covid hit my country. I wore a purple dress and walked my brothers dogs down the isle. Everyone said I was beautiful.  I tried new food! When I get into something new (game/fandom ect) I tend to want to try food related to it. And the menu was various types of steamed buns from Asia. Bao Buns, Buuz ect. I tried a few, and I like them a lot. I also tried Miso soup and I love it. 5. Things may feel like they’re on the brink of crumbling right now as I’m writing this due to the past week being troublesome. News of people passing, other little things that keep piling on. But believe me, I bet you look back and notice how more strong you may be in 2021 than in 2020. 2020 was hell, and I’m proud of you for pushing through. It wasn’t easy. You gained some pretty big scars, and reopened a few old ones. But you’re still here, aren’t you? Reading this right now? Good. You made it, you damn well made it. 

#The Queen's Answers

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@kay-licious how dare u (thanks <3) @silent-calling youre doing amazing sweetie

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

I wouldnt call it a key factor but it’s important to feel attraction towards your partner

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

sure! If it’s a healthy one definitely :D

3. Are you a virgin?

nah 

4. Are you in a relationship?

yeh!

5. Are you in love?

I’d say so!

6. Are you single this year?

no

7. Can you commit to one person?

yes

8. Describe your crush

it me bf

9. Describe your perfect mate

same as above c: 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no, only when it comes to animals c;

11. Do you ever want to get married?

thats a dream of mine tbh

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

I guess every healthy person would say no but yes, I’d absolutely do (only the first time tho, after the second time you gotta ask yourself if it’s really worth it)

13. Do you get jealous easily?

in regard to my bf: I used to but it’s a hell of a lot less nowadays. In regard to people in general, sometimes, especially when im not doing well mentally

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

me bf

15. Do you have any piercings?

just have my ears pierced!

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no but maybe soon

17. Do you like kissing in public?

only if its sweet forehead or cheek kisses, or quick kisses on the mouth or hand kisses

20. Do you shower every day?

yes though I gotta admit I really have to force myself. Not because I like being stinky but because everything is kinda difficult sometimes

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

bruh I sure hope my bf does;;

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

nah

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

I’ve been in a relationship for 5 and a half years now, I think so

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

it is possible but who tf knows

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

idk, to be frank: I think my life would be a bit easier if I wasnt in a relationship, or if I hadnt been in a relationship for the past 1-2 years. And I often feel like im more of a burden to my bf than anything else. But thats a different story

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

as in losing touch with me? I guess so

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

a song yes and it was awkward as hell ajhajdfha and people have done drawings for me which is <3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<33

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yup

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

very very unfortunately yes, and just like a bunch of you guys I was this close to killing myself. I was in a very bad place which I know is not an excuse for this. I still think about it even if it’s been a time since then but I think I cqan never forgive myself because of that

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

often but im too much of a scared cat dsfskjf  idk though, I would love to be much more petite size wise

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

oh often

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

yeah;; I’m not exactly pretty or popular, so puberty was hard

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

hell yeah

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

:( no

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yeh!!

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Yeah and it’s difficult to be normal then aaaaaahhhhhhh

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

some of my friends have a strong disliking towards my current bf but i dont know if you can call it hate

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yeah and it ruined me for a while

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

uuuuhh not really I think

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

whenever I write bday cards I always put a poem in it :D

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

hella

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

depends on how thirsty I am

43. How long was your longest relationship?

5 and a half years and counting

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

2-3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

uuhh I was 14, no one 

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

HELLA

47. How old are you?

22 my dudes

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

I#d try to play it cool because internally I’m panicking, someone help me

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

I love about my bf how you can ALWAYS count on him when shit gets down, even if he hasnt talked to a friend for a good while and they’re like “hey I need you”, he’ll be there in a sec Also that he is still able to surprise me

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

jsdfhsjdfks GO AWAY, I’d say while closing the door and shutting the blinds quicker than lightning

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

yeah, but that’s probably because I have bpd and depressions

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

yeah, I tried to help them on all occassions, so much that I ruined my own life partially and made myself sick. But whatever I did or said, they apparently want to suffer, so i gave up trying. 

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

yeah my abuser probably

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

unfortunately yes and fortunately yes

55. Share a relationship story.

uuuuuuhhhhh; I dont really know what to write here. Guess I’ll never forget when my bf held a kitten (which was only a week old) in his hands and he almost cried because he loved the baby so much. Haha, he was afraid of crushing it though because it was much smaller than the palms of his hands

56. State 8 facts about your body

I gained a lot of weight since last year which is why I avoid posting or taking pics, but according to everyone else you dont see it that much (?); my hair is getting its natural curliness back; I fucked up my knee so I’ll have knee surgery next year; I bruise easily; I have a shit ton of scars; I love my super green eyes; I have thicc thighs and if I’m very emotional I get red spots all over my body

57. Things you want to say to an ex

to my first ever bf: fuck u lmao to the second bf I had: I’m so sorry for everything and I hope that you found your place :)

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

uuuhhh be sweet and understanding, be funny, be somewhat smart, dont be a mean asshole and be nice to other people (especially kids) and animals and also be able to be fascinated by small things 

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

yikes

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

my current bf is 8 years older than me

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

how open and nice they are? Idk I always choose my ppl to hang out with according to this

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

even though I’m a switch I have a big preference for being the sub, so if someone can dominate me and yknow do stull like carry me princess style or something im all like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

everything that comes after kissing imo

64. What is your definition of cheating?

I think as soon as you try to pursue someone emotionally that already counts as cheating

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

kissing, grinding, I love when someone talks dirty to me

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

if it aint too much of a tmi i’d love to admit that we have a collar and a leash so (not thinking about pet play uughfjhjsdfkhsd, just yknow someone is able to drag me to them like this or being held in place while being taken from behind is p nice)

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

something something being outside in the nature and also good food 

68. What is your sexual orientation?

69. What turns you off?

super super wet kisses where also my nose somehow gets stuck in someone elses mouth Like dude r u a vacuum cleaner sdfhsdkjhfks

70. What turns you on?

being manhandled

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

idk I dont really have a lot of wet dreams and usually theyre not very kinky but rather sweet and slow 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

I like dirty talk, so imma leave that open 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

i love to get flowers, or lil stuff that reminds us of our friendship or something, self made/home made stuff is always !!!!!!!!!!!!

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

probably hands? I love it when girls have super slender hands and when boys have rough and big hands

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

I already answered that c:

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

I have a few stories I’m proud of! But I really love this one: When I was little I grew up in a village in which like 300-400 people lived (maximum) and next to us lived this sweet older couple who always gave us sweets and vegetable for our parents, or they brought us stuff from when they went on vacation. The man is now constantly sick, he suffers from parkinson and you see the early statges of dementia setting in. A while ago he wanted to go and get the German version of fish and chips with his wife but due to him needing a ton of surgeriesw constantly he wasnt able to go out with his wife. When my mom told me this I was like wtf u cant just tell me this, I’m too soft. So I went and got fish and chips from the best market around us for him and flowers for his wife, despite the fact that I havent seen them in YEARS. When I arrived at their front door both of them hugged me and cried a bit

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

not bad if everything is consensual and if there’s a power balance thats equal 

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

I think the leash thing is one of the kinkiest things we’ve ever done tbh

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

yesterday a bit when my bf went out wth friends and had a few beers while I was stuck at home with the thought that I can never have a beer again dkadfjahdf as stupid as that sounds but I always enjoyed these chill evenings with a beer and friends

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

this morning when I cuddled my cats :D

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

my bf and many videogame and anime characters, also my best female friend is hella attractive, also some of my friends are to die for

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

my bf!!

83. Who was your first kiss with?

my first bf sdfjsdfs

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

it didnt really work out, it seemed as he was more interested in saying “hey im in a relationship!” than in me, hah;;

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

yeah, sure

#ask #jeezus

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About Me~

1. Full name

Ashley Marie D (not putting last name)

2. Zodiac sign

Libra

3. 3 fears

Being Rejected, Spiders, and The Unknown

4. 3 things I love

My pets, Forensic/Crime cases, and Music

5. My best friend

Sgt. Henrald....my little hedgehog who I recently lost. He was my parrot on my shoulder and my comfort. I was planning on getting him certified as an Emotional Support Animal because he made me feel so loved.

6. Last song I listened to

Kill the DJ--Green Day

7. 3 Turn ons

Confidence, neck kisses, and Loyalty

8. 3 Turn offs

Self-Centered Attitudes, No Career Plan, and Inconsistency

9. What colour underwear I’m wearing right now

Gray and White

10. How many tattoos/piercings do I have

2 Tattoos: Rafiki from The Lion King on my right ankle with his quote “it doesnt matter its in the past” & A Heart on my left foot by my pinky toe its made of a cat and dog with rainbow watercolor behind it (its a memorial for my pets)

4 Piercings: First & Second hole, 2 Cartilage on my right ear

11. The reason I started blogging

I felt so alone and when I feel rejected, I hyperfocus on my interests so blogging let’s me do exactly that without having to be me.

12. How I feel right now

Sad, Alone, Scared, Confused, Unloved, and Heartbroken because I’m watching AHS and Twisty just died in the last episode I’m not over it.

13. Something I really really want

To be loved

14. My current relationship status

Single

15. Meaning behind my URL

I love roses and the rain. I was listening to “Still Breathing by Green Day” and a lyric said “'Cause I'm still breathing on my own My head's above the rain and roses” and I just had this feeling that I needed to make that my label to recover.

16. My favourite movie

Iron Man....First one the second sucked the third is great but OG for the win

17. My favourite song

Lately....Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea by Fall Out Boy

18. My favourite band

DON’T MAKE ME PICK....It’s between Panic! At The Disco and Fall Out Boy

19. 3 Things that upset me

Being Ignored, Talk I am Dramatic/Lying, and Failing

20. 3 Things that make me happy

My Pets, Music, and The Night Sky

21. What I find attractive in other people

Eyes!!!!! A persons eyes will never change and they will tell you all there is to know about a person.

22. Someone I miss

Sgt. Henrald even though he was a hedgehog. I also miss my ex from my posts, he has been there for me through so much this past 2 months so his lack of presence hurts.

23. Someone I love

Pete Wentz. Let me explain: He is also Bipolar 1 so his lyrics tend to express his inner demons that I also have. He attempted suicide early in FOB’s career and has since talked about it to help those who feel death is the answer. He wrote “What a Catch, Donnie” to promise Patrick that he’d never try suicide again. He loves his children more than the world and has said they are his happy pills they cured his sadness. He saw Patrick be uncomfortable in a photoshoot because Patrick was heavier at the time and gave him the classic fedora telling him that he would be safe under the hat and that built up Patrick’s confidence. He was signed talent most known Panic! At The Disco (2018 Went is 38 and Urie is 30. When signed Urie was 17 so Went at 25 was signing on such young talent). I can go on forever but the point is, Pete Went saved me. When I was diagnosed Bipolar 1 a few weeks back, the only thing that made me feel human was the MANIA album because it explained what I was dealing with.

24. My relationship with my parents

Comical. Parents never married so visitation all my childhood. Turned 18 my dad walked out of my life and has since called ONCE in 2 years only to demand an apology from me. He knew of my massive surgery and never once asked me how I was doing. My mom, let’s just say once I graduate college next year I am moving out of state.

25. My favourite holiday

HALLOWEEN

26. My closest blogging friend

@dying-inner-light tbh emos gotta stick together

27. Someone famous I’d date

So many...Sebastian Stan or Tom Hiddleston if I have to limit it down.

28. A confession

I am completely numb and I know I will stay this way till I feel loved in any sense. Since losing my hedgehog I have gone blank.

29. 3 Things that annoy me easily

Loud Noises, Not Listening, and Repeating Myself

30. My favourite animal

Pandas or Turtles

31. My pets

Jet (aka Pudgy Butt yes he answers to this more than Jet) he is my rescue dog 8years old breed ????

Hunter (aka Boogie/Booger/Jimbo Jones): I only say Jimbo Jones when I'm pissed at him thats his name from the humane society. He is my cat and  will be 11 years old in May but sadly his twin sister left us last May which he became distraught over.

Holly (aka Buddha): she is my 10 year old forever kitten. her legs are stubby so she looks dwarfed but shes THICC hence Buddah.

Flora (aka Florence when she is bad): THIS IS MY BABY shes my kitten who will be 1 year on April 2nd. She is a ‘special snowflake’ she has grand maul seizures with no medical explanation (brain MRI’s and tests not one answer to the seizures or her ‘specialness’).

Cotton & Candy: my sisters little hamsters but Cotton is mine.

32. One thing I’ve lied about

Being Okay

33. Something that’s currently worrying me

Being Alone Forever

34. An embarrassing moment

Food running once and I have the plate in my hands and when I turned around the sandwich and chips when flying across the kitchen and the whole BOH saw.

35. Where I work

TGI Friday’s

36. Something that’s constantly on my mind

Why people walk out?

37. 3 Habits I have

Turning off all the lights no matter the time, Getting to a place crazy early, and Having music on 90% of the time or else I get anxious

38. My future goals

Move to PA, Be a Forensic Anthropologist, Get married, Have kids, and Hope for the best.

39. Something I fantasise about

Wedding Day

40. My favourite store

Hot Topic (are you shocked though ?)

41. My favourite food

Mac and Cheese

42. What I did yesterday

Watched Netflix because I was sent home from work.

43. Something I’m talented at

Remembering fact about serial killers and forensic identifications

44. My idea of the perfect date

Movie Night in with take out and fairy lights

45. My celebrity crush

No shame....Robert Downey Jr.

46. My favourite blog

I don’t really have a favorite? Any blog that isnt racist, sexist, condoning, and hateful is my favorite.

47. Number of kids I want

2 or 3. I am also going to say the names I like because why not: Alice, Nova, Roseline, Stella, and Dahlia. Dominic, Anthony, Orian, Sebastian, and Levi.

48. Do I smoke/drink

Smoke no unless you count armomatherapy pens but its not actual smoking just looks like it.

Drink: fuck yea

49. One word that describes me

Odd

50. My favourite quote

Remember Who You Are-Mufasa

#facts about me #about me #50 questions #introduction #get to know me

[goat-yells-at-everything]

Unpopular Opinion

I dislike the “get this post to X number notes and my guardian will let me get X animal” posts.

A cat, dog, bunny, ANY animal isn’t something to go into flippantly. How are you going to pay for this animal? 99% of the right ways to obtain a pet have some sort of fee. If you dont pay a fee for your pet, you WILL be sorry. That animal has not had any shots, any vet record, any CARE. This is bad because puppies NEED their first set of shots. If they have not had any care, they will almost 100% end up at the vet and you will be stuck with a hefty vet bill. Heck, even IF they have a fee, its not a guarantee that the animal isn’t sick. My cat came from the pound and had a roughly 200$ fee and I was promised that if he was sick within 2 weeks I could bring him in to get treated for free. Except the vet was only there 2 days a week and Sparta would have been dead (my vets words) if I’d waited. Thats another thing, vet bills. Even if they aren’t sick right away you still have to get them to the vet periodically. All states have vaccination requirements for dogs and most have them for cats now too. Small animals like rabbits and reptiles need specialty vets if they get sick. How are you going to pay for their food, bed, cages, ect? With puppies and kittens you have the possibility of them peeing/clawing things that you will need to replace.

Now what breed do you want? While all individual animals are different, there are breed standards to think about. This is most important for dogs as they come in so many different shapes and sizes. Do you want a big dog or small dog? Big dogs need lots of walks and regular free running. Small dogs need a lot of socialization or they will have behavioral problems. Dogs with long ears need to have their ears cleaned often. Dogs with long hair need groomed often. All breeds have genetic anomalies to consider that you may have to deal with right away or later on in life.

Now what age do you want? Puppies and kittens are cute and all but (and again, especially for dogs) you dont know what kind of animal they will be. Cats and dogs dont really show personality until they are 6 months to a year old. Sometimes this is as benign as “wont play with toys” to something as serious as “doesn’t play well with others”. Yes, these ARE things that are inherent to the animal. Again, my experience, Sparta was a sweet cute little kitten when I got him at 3 months but about 4 or 5 months later he was showing some serious behavioral problems that the vet eventually diagnosed as a chemical imbalance. I wouldn’t trade him for the world now or at that time but if I’d known that before I got him, I might have considered other options. No, I do not advocate leaving an animal because they have special needs but you also need to know what you can and can not handle yourself. I was able to make adjustments and got him the help he needs but it also put a serious strain on my relationship with my dad.

I could keep going on and on here. Small animals have special needs like special cages, dietary requirements, and mental stimulation. Yes, even goldfish have special needs if you want them to be happy and healthy. And more and more and more.

My point is, if you aren’t doing your research before you even ask for a pet, you probably dont need one.

[thieving-magpiexhunting-tiger]

1-78 for both my boys <3

SOoooo manyyyyyy

1: Kitchen Counter, Couch, or on top of the dryer? Is the dryer on? If not couch. -JM Counter. -SM

2: Your last sexual encounter: Good or Bad and why: Good, always good. What can I say? Good partners. -JM Same as Jim, good, good partners. -SM

3: A fictional person that you think would be good in bed: Fictional…I keep thinking Iron man. He looks like he would be a good bottom. -JM This isn’t something I think about too much, I will admit. James Bond? Or maybe Princess Leia? Could just be me. -SM

4: Something that never fails to make you horny: School girl outfits. Blood, knives, guns, leather, lace, need I go on?. -JM Glasses, blood, knives, pain. -SM

5: Where is one place you would never have sex: Parents grave? -JM Jimmm….-SM No, you did it there already. -JM Not what I meant. Umm…middle of a street. -SM

6: The most awkward moment during a sexual experience was when ______________ All I can think of is TMI…a guy passed out once, said he was fine. He wasn’t fine. -JM Wrong brother. -SM

7: Weirdest thing that ever made you horny: I’m sure something on my above list could be considered weird. Breeding? Knotting? -JM No idea, not much for kink shamming. Ohh, being kink shamed, that’s done it. -SM

8: What is the best way to sexually bind someone: Handcuffs, Rope, or Other [if other please explain]: Completely bind? Rope. -JM Rope. -SM

9: What is the fastest way to make you horny: See no. 4. -J&SM

10: Top or bottom? Top. -JM Top. -SM

11: We were about to ____________ but then ______________ [example: we were about to have sex but then his mom walked in] We were about to rim but then his brother walked in. -SM Weirdest threesome yet. Umm, We were about to do it but then he realized he didn’t clean out. -JM

12: Is one orgasm enough? Are multiple orgasms necessary? One is enough, wouldn’t say no to more. -JM Me too. -SM

13: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find: There’s this one dildo, knotting…don’t want to talk about it. -JM Not sex related but like 50 guns. That wouldn’t look too good. -SM

14: Weirdest nickname a significant other has ever called you: I’m not sure there are weird ones? Kitten, baby, Jimmy, daddy, king. -JM I’m not sure I have weird ones either. Tiger, knight, Basher, Jim’s called me that before. -SM

15: Two things you like [or dislike] about oral sex: Taste and feel. You Decide if I like or hate it. -JM Something to do with my mouth, pleasuring the other. -SM

16: Weirdest sexual act some has performed [or tried to perform] on/with you: Oh no, piss kinks, scat kinks, suffocation. All for choking but head in pillow holding me down? I’ll pass. -JM With Jim on the piss kinks. -SM

17: Have you ever tasted yourself? [If no, would you?] [If yes, what did you think?] Yes, it’s okay, I would prefer it to be someone else’s or someone else to take it. -JM Have, would again, don’t mind it. -SM

18: Is it ever okay to not use a condom: If we want another child and know the other are clean, which we do. -JM Condoms don’t stop the kids but yeah. -SM

19: Who was the sexiest teacher you ever had? Me. -JM Jim. -SM

20: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience: Chocolate. Always chocolate. I would like to try whipped topping. -JM Cheese. I’m trying to convince them it’s a good idea. -SM

21: How big is too big: 8-9 is normally the limit. Could go bigger but that’s a good amount with no pain. -JM 9-10 I would say, Jim’s about that. -SM

22: One sexual thing you would never do: I think after trying the ones in 16 there’s nothing left on that list, though I would never want to try them again. -JM Yeah, I wouldn’t want to do Jim’s list on 16 either. -SM

23: Biggest turn on: Didn’t we do this already? School girl, lace, leather. -JM Pain, probably. -SM

24: Three spots that drive you insane: Nipples, hair, dick. -JM Dick, obviously, thighs, scars. -SM

25: Worst possible time to get horny: Middle of a murder? Blood everywhere, happens every time. -JM Giving a presentation in Uni. -SM

26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans: Yes, always. -JM Of course, I do. -SM

27: Worst sexual idea you ever had: Gang bang of people I didn’t know. -JM Probably going to regret the cheese. -SM

28: How much fapping is too much fapping: Not something I’ve ever been much for but come on, more that once or twice a week is a bit much. -JM Once a day is fine, doing it more than that there might be an issue. -SM

29: Best sexual complement you ever got: Not sure I’ve ever got a compliment? Magic dick, maybe? -JM That I knew what I was doing and hit every spot. -SM

30: Bald, landing strip, Jumanji: Either of the first two. -JM If I see a landing strip, I will start laughing. Why give up when you’re so close? Finish or don’t start. -SM

31: Is it good sex if you don’t nut: It can be, yeah. If it’s good for the other person. -JM I know the right answer is yes but…-SM

32: Fill in the blank: "If they ____________, we are fuckin" Have a hole. -SM Horny on main, Sebastian. I have higher standards. Are married to us. -JM Fine, marriage and all that. -SM

33: What your favorite part of your body: I like my muscle, I’m quite strong. -SM …I got nothing. Eyes, maybe? Mouth? -JM

34: Favorite foreplay activities: Kissing. -JM Touching. -SM

35: Love (>,<, or =) Sex For those of us who don’t remember our math thats “greater than, less than, or equal to] > -JM = -SM

36: What do you wear to bed? Nothing to t-shirt and boxers, depending on who is there and how warm it is. -JM Nothing. -SM

37: When was the first time you masturbated: 11? -JM 10 I think. -SM

38: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself? Yes. -JM Yes. -SM

39: Have you ever/when was the last time you had sex outside? Yes, every time I get a chance. Last date night. -JM Last date night it was. -SM

40: Have/would you ever have sex outside? Well this is the last question again. Yes. -JM Yes, last date night. -SM

41: Have/would you ever had a threesome? Nooooo….All the time. -JM Often we have. -SM

42: What is one random object you’ve used to masturbate? Don’t use random objects. Tooth brush once. -JM He fucked me, with a toothbrush! Ummm…Long story but a cucumber. -SM

43: Have/would you ever masturbate at work/school? Work, yes. For a while, I worked at a school. Yes again. -JM Work yes, school, no. -SM

44: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane? Yes. -JM Yes. -SM

45: What is one song you’d like to have sex to? That would be lost on both of us. -JM

46: What is something nonsexual that makes you horny? Scars. -JM Lip biting and glasses. -SM

47: Most attractive celebrity? That Michael Fassbender guy is hot. -JM You mean James Bond and Princess Leia wasn’t enough? -SM

48: Do you watch gay/lesbian porn? why/why not? No, don’t really watch any when I can just watch two of the others. -JM Same as Jim. -SM

49: If a child was born on the occasion of the last time you had sex, how old would that child be right now? Well, the one that is currently inside me exists and isn’t out. But if there was another then we wouldn’t even know of its existence yet. -JM As old as Jim’s second one. -SM

50: Has anyone ever posted nude pictures of you online? Yes. -JM No…well, actually, yeah. Yeah, those are out there. -SM

51: What is one thing that NEVER makes you horny? We once again refer you to the dreaded number 16. -JM

52: Do you have stretch marks? (How do you feel about them? Has anyone ever had a problem with them?) I don’t have them, I don’t have a problem with them. As far as I know no one has. -JM I have some, don’t mind them or anything. Don’t think the others have. -SM

53: Do you like giving head? (why/why not) Don’t mind it, see 15 for why. -JM Did we mess up somewhere? This was 15 wasn’t it? Or was that receiving? -SM

54: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in? Don’t mind them. Not one to go after people covered I them but some are okay. -JM I have a couple, don’t mind them really, it’s their bodies. -SM

55: How would you feel about taking someones virginity? Nope, nope, nope. -JM Nope, nope. -SM

56: Is there any food you would NOT recommend using during a sexual encounter? Garlic? -JM Hot peppers. -SM

57: Is there anything you do on Tumblr that you would not like your significant other to see? On what now? -JM What’s Tumblr and where did the e go? -SM

58: Do you own any sex toys? (what is it? (how long have you had it?) Yes, we do not have time to go into the giant box full, that would be hours. -JM And don’t forget the dungeon. -SM

59: Would you give your significant other unrestricted access to your Tumblr for a day? I guess, still don’t know what this is though. -JM I don’t see why not. -SM

60: Would you be offended if your significant other suggested you get plastic surgery? I think so. -JM Yeah, I can’t think of a way that could be good, if they’re suggesting it then they aren’t happy with me. -SM

61: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute? Been the second. The first sounds better. -JM Yeah, star. -SM

62: Do you watch porn? Nope. -JM No. -SM

63: How small is too small? Don’t think there’s a thing? I mean something can be worked out. -JM Yeah, there are other things that can be done if needed. -SM

64: Have you ever been called a freak? Why? Yes, more times than I care to count. -JM You’ve read through the history, take your pick. -SM

65: Who gave you your last kiss? Did it mean anything? Seb. Yes, it meant he wanted me to put his name down as the last. -JM Jim and it meant l Iove him, it’s clear to see it didn’t mean anything to him though. -SM

66: Would you switch phones with your significant other for a day? That’s all about controlling I think. I mean I have nothing to hide but I don’t want people to not have enough trust in me to need to take my phone. -JM They can but it would be a whole thing with work and getting in contact with me. -SM

67: Do you feel comfortable going "commando"? Not really. -JM Yeah. -SM

68: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn't shaved their pubic hair? Depends on how long it’s been and man or woman, I think. -JM I…could do it. -SM

69: If you could give yourself head, would you? Yeah, probably. -JM I think so. -SM

70: Booty or Boobs? Booty. -JM Boobs. -SM

71: If you had a penis, what would you name it? He is little J and that is enough of that. -JM If…what do they mean if? …his name is Basher. -SM

72: Have you ever been on an official date? No, never why would I do that? I’m married and have 3253270527 kids, yes, I’ve dated. -JM Yeah, too many probably. -SM

73: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?) I was going to say Seb but we had an open relationship so no. -JM I did once, whole thing, I was trying to get out of the relationship. They didn’t want me to. I wasn’t happy. -SM

74: If you were a stripper, what would your name be? Big dick? I don’t know, I’m tired. -JM In honor of Jim’s last typo Bid Bick. -SM

75: Have you ever had sex in your parents bed? (Would you?) No, I haven’t and won’t. -JM That’s just… no, no, wrong. -SM

76: How would you react if you found out your parents had sex in your bed? Umm terrified, they’ve been dead for 30 years. -JM I would let them finish and then burn the bed. -SM

77: What was your reaction the first time you saw a penis/vagina What is that? -JM I don’t remember. -SM

78: If you had a penis/vagina for a day, what are five things you would do? …how many things can you do with one? I mean give and receive and get yourself off but with a vagina, you can receive and get yourself off so I guess those two. If someone knows three more things, let me know. -JM Yeah, sex I guess. I don’t know what else? Am I fully a girl? Or just me with a vagina instead? -SM

#inappropriate Jimothy #inappropriate bastian

[seserakh]

85 Questions

tagged by my forever fanfic pal, @andromeda3116

last

1. drink - Gewürztraminer 2. phone call - my college begging me to give them money (I didn’t answer) 3. text message - “I fucking love him” to my brother re: Adam Rippon 4. song you listened to - 07022016 by falls (thanks My Discover Weekly) 5. time you cried - I teared up earlier today watching Nathan Chen skate triumphantly as he got it together during his free skate. 

ever

6. dated someone twice - Unfortunately yes 7. kissed someone and regretted it - My goodness yes 8. been cheated on - Probably? But I don’t know for sure (and at this point I don’t care that much) 9. lost someone special - Yes.  10. been depressed - I’ve gone through several episodes of major depression, yes.  11. gotten drunk and thrown up - yes! especially in my late 20s, when my body started to change for NO REASON

fave colours

12. poppy red, teal blue, marigold 13. antique blue, magenta, gold 14. pale pink, pale silver, anything opalescent

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes! 16. fallen out of love - No. 17. laughed until you cried - I mean almost certainly but I don’t remember a specific incident. 18. found out someone was talking about you - Not directly? I’m sure people did because I exist in other people’s realities as my own separate thing.  19. met someone who changed you - you’re changed a little by everyone you meet imo. 20. found out who your friends are - I didn’t go through something hard and have people abandon me, no.  21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - ohohohohohohohoho

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - most of them 23. do you have any pets - batman the ride, the comic, the superhero, the movie, the videogame, the cartoon, the cat 24. do you want to change your name - No, not ever.  25. what did you do for your last birthday - I... did........ something? 26. what time did you wake up today - 8 am! Then I lounged in bed for an hour. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night - Attempting to fall asleep. 28. what is something you can’t wait for - the men’s figure skating event to start again! HURRY UP WITH THAT ICE. 30. what are you listening to right now - Call by Juliana Barwick (thanks again, My Discover Weekly) 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - my dad’s old roommate was named Tom. Swell guy. Been through some hard times since then. 32. something thats getting on your nerves - NBC’s neverending, loud commercials.  33. most visited website - tumblr, usually. Lately, bloodrizer.ru/games/kittens.  34. hair colour - chestnut brown 35. long or short hair - long! 36. do you have a crush on someone - I... have a crush.... on max!!!!! 37. what do you like about yourself - I find humour in a lot of things. I try to be kind. I’m resilient.  38. want any piercings - Not more, I thik. 39. blood type - A+ because I’m perfect inside and out.  40. nicknames - A lot of them! I don’t want to get into specifics but a surprisingly large amount. 41. relationship status - monogamous 42. zodiac - cancer (sidewalks at u) 43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - uuuh ummmmmm avatar the last airbender, babylon 5, madoka magica, yuuri on ice, macross sdf, macross frontier, gravity falls... i’m totally sure I’m forgetting something but I want to move on to the next question 45. tattoos - None at this time. 46. right or left handed - right 47. ever had surgery - just the one time so far 48. piercings - two in each ear on the lobe 49. sport - not as such no 53. drinking - yes, usually about once a week? Just a glass of wine or two at a time or a couple of cocktails with friends.  54. i’m about to watch - Men’s figure skating finals!!!! 55. waiting for - Adam Rippon to start skating! He’s a witch and you can’t kill him.  56. want - to start writing regularly again 57. get married - yeah, I do. I used to think I wouldn’t ever get married, but lately I’m into the idea. 58. career - I have one! OH DANG. 

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs 60. lips or eyes - eyes 61. shorter or taller - taller 62. older or younger - older 63. nice arms or stomach - arms 64. hookup or relationship - relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - no.......probably? I don’t recall 67. drank hard liquor - yes 68. lost glasses - I don’t wear em.  69. turned someone down - oh gracious yes 70. sex on first date - yes. 71. broken someones heart - yes :( 72. had your heart broken - yeah dogg 73. been arrested - no  74. cried when someone died - yes, absolutely? 75. fallen for a friend - mainly!

do you believe in

76. yourself - I believe I CAN do most things. The thing is I have trouble starting and doing. That’s the biggest thing.  77. miracles - fukken magnets, man. How do they work? 78. love at first sight - it’s never happened to me, so no, I don’t think so. I’m going to echo sarah: I believe in infatuation at first sight, but not love, which is something that builds over time and is based on trust and respect. 79. santa claus - I used to 80. kiss on a first date - uh yes? 81. angels - no. I like the idea of them, though. Not the hallmark idea, but the monstrous yet awesome idea. 

other

82. best friend’s name - I have like four or five best friends so........... 83. eye colour - classic hazel (brown w/green) 84. fave movie - fuck I don’t know. I don’t honestly think about movies all that much. I really like Lawrence of Arabia? OH! Probably Nausicaa or Macross: Do You Remember Love 85. fave actor - I really don’t think about this all that much so I can’t answer with any accuracy

@raisindeatre, @leafywrites, @cheshirevescent, @perfectorganism, @brazenbells, @queer--as--hell 

This was a lot of lighthearted fun! If you haven’t already been tagged, I invite anyone to complete it. Tag me so I can see your results!!!!

#meme #survey

[bubblegumpenguin]

Oh baby...

This is going to be an unusually personal post. One that I’ll probably take down once the emotional fog has lifted and I realize I’ve overshared on social media again. But it’s just one of those things where I need to talk to someone about it, and my usual someones aren’t aware of my situation, nor do I necessarily want them to be made aware of my situation, because my situation is, well, deeply personal. So hello there, Tumblr. Today, you will be my someone.

I made the decision, a long time ago, that I was going to have children some day. It was important to me, to have a family of my own. Even when I was 16 years old, and I took a parenting class with a baby simulator that was supposed to discourage having children before you were ready, I knew that this was what I wanted.

And when I was 21 years old, I almost got that wish. I was equal parts thrilled and petrified, when the two little lines showed up. I had made a drunken mistake, and gotten pregnant. And I couldn’t bring myself to be rational about the situation.

Sure, I was only 21 years old, working a job that couldn’t support myself, living at home with my mother and two siblings, didn’t have a car, didn’t have basic knowledge of public transportation, couldn’t even end the month with more than $50 in my bank account, and now pregnant from a guy who had sex with me despite the fact that I was obviously too drunk to actually give any kind of consent (at one point he said he loved me, and I, having just gotten out of a relationship and still having it ingrained in me to automatically respond, said ‘I love you too’ quickly followed by ‘no wait. thats not true. youre not him. sorry.’)

None of it mattered, because I ended up miscarrying. And I went on to be an idiot, and entered into a quasi-relationship with guy who got me pregnant, and we were both determined to make it happen.

And it didn’t. And didn’t. And didn’t. And didn’t some more.

For three years.

And then, bing. Two little lines showed up.

This time felt like all the stars had aligned. I was out on my own, with a job that can actually support myself, plus some kittens, a fairly reliable car, an idea of how to get from A to B should my car break down, a nice little nest in my savings. I was living comfortably. And with our incomes put together, guy-who-got-me-pregnant and I could definitely raise this kid. Sure, they won’t be attending a private school, but public school isn’t that bad, and yeah, maybe they’ll learn how to be versatile with pasta noodles because pasta is cheap, but we could actually make it work...

And then bam... miscarriage.

Am I broken? This is the one thing I am biologically supposed to be good at. Making a baby, and keeping it safe for 40 weeks (give or take) but apparently I can’t even do that.

And of course he tells me we can keep trying but fuck. I can’t do it anymore. I have all these reasons why I should stop trying. And sure, maybe a lot of them are actually society’s reasons why I should stop, but damn it, they’re pretty valid.

1. I’m not even 25. Sure, by this time, my mother was pregnant with my brother, and my grandmother was on her second child, but I don’t really need to have a kid right now...

2. Something very well may be wrong with me (in terms of proper functions and what not) and maybe I should get that checked out before I get pregnant again and end up with some kind of medical emergency.

3. Just because I can live comfortably now does not mean I’m actually financially prepared for a child. I have debt i could work off first.

4. I could really use a better car. One that won’t break down in a year or so.

5. Do I really want to co-parent with someone who thinks its okay to have sex with someone who needed help getting down the hall to the bedroom in order to have said sex? No. That shit’s not okay

6. Do I really want to co-parent with someone who I’m not in a committed relationship with? Not really. Sure, it’s possible. People do it all the time. But I’d prefer the committed relationship.

7. Is this really where I want my life to hit pause? Sure, it’s not necessarily the end of my life, but it would be the end of my life as we know it. It’s 18 years of putting someone else’s wants and needs before your own. Am I content to hit pause here? Or do I want to keep going before I hit pause. Are there thing I want to do that I couldn’t do with a child? The ultimate answer is yes. There are. And maybe I should focus on that instead...

#personal #tianna talks #this is probably the most personal thing I've ever put on the internet #but its important for me... #and these 7 things are going to be important #life kinda sucks right now #i'm emotionally exhausted #and I feel like there's something wrong with me #but it'll be okay #i'll be okay #miscarriage #ttc #giving up on ttc #for now #someday it will happen #just not now

[ketchupversachee]

i was tagged by the amazing @rileywrites-93 

spotify, soundcloud or pandora?? i use spotify a lot so spotify 

is your room messy or clean?? VERY VERY MESSY LIKE WOW

what color are your eyes?? like a paleish green with lil bit of blue

do you like your name?? why?? well i got it or my birthday and my parents like it and i like so yeah i do 

what is your relationship status?? forever alone mentally dating fictional characters 

describe your personality in three words or less: SARCASTIC, quiet, nerd 

what color hair do you have?? dark brown 

what kind of car do you drive?? color?? um it’s a black car

where do you shop?? walmart, hot topic, amazon, ebay target 

how would you describe your style?? VERY FANDOM band tees LOTS OF BLACK BLACK BLACK 

favorite social media account: does tumblr count?? oh and youtube

what size bed do you have?? it’s a full i think

any siblings?? i have a little sister and she’s my only friend that’s not on tumblr

if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?? why?? ohhhh that’s a hard question, well i kinda wanna live in LA, but theres no snow in LA, but i don’t know

favorite snapchat filter?? i don’t have snapchat 

favorite makeup brand(s) uhhhhhhh i don’t wear much makeup, the stuff i use is the “get the London look” stuff i don’t remember what it’s called at te moment

how many times a week do you shower?? 2-3

favorite tv show?? star trek, parks and recreation, the office, designated survivor, doctor who, sherlock

shoe size?? VERY SMALL

how tall are you?? 5′0

sandals or sneakers?? sneakers

do you go to the gym?? hhhaaaaaaaa funny. no but i know a guy named jim

describe your dream date?? stargazing by a fire and listening to music 

how much money do you currently have in your wallet?? i don’t know, not much though

what color socks are you wearing?? well on the left foot it’s all yellow and the right foot is captain america 

how many pillows do you sleep with?? 2

do you have a job?? what do you do?? i don’t have a job right at the moment, but i will probably have to get one soon

how many friends do you have?? i have a couple friend

whats the worst thing you’ve ever done?? ummm, i broke something once and didn’t tell my mom 

what’s your favorite candle scent?? umm i think it’s called summer night??? or theres this one called illusion thats a good one

3 favorite boy  names?? peter, steve, benjamin

3 favorite girl names?? parker, rey, florence

favorite actor?? HMMM I DON’T KNOW WHO DO YOU THINK

favorite actress?? scarlet johansion (is that how you spell her name??)

who is your celebrity crush?? THAT’S A LONG LIST WE DON’T WANNA GO THERE

favorite movie?? EITHER CAPTAIN AMERICA CIVIL WAR OR SPIDERMAN HOMECOMING

do you read a lot?? what’s your favorite book?? ummm i do read, i just have troubles reading BUT I LOVE READING and i like the heros o olympus 

money or brains?? BRAINS

do you have a nickname?? what is it?? umm it’s tena, it’s something only my family calls me

how many times have you been to the hospital?? like 2 times

top 10 favorite songs??

1: 5 seconds of summer wraps around your finger

2: all time low good times

3: my chemical romance sing

4: twenty one pilots truce

5: imagine dragons walking the wire

6: john meyer you’re gonna live forever in me

7:pink floyd time

8:dodie clark intertwined 

9: captain america civil war soundtrack celestial bodies

10: alt-j let hand free

do you take medications everyday?? not at the moment no

what is your skin type?? (oily, dry, etc) oily af i hate it

what’s your biggest fear?? THE OCEAN, failure, moths, the dark

how many kids do you want?? maybe 4, i see myself with 2 boys and 2 girls

what’s your go to hair style?? a bun cause i don’t know how to hair

what type of house do you live?? (big, small etc) one i’m very  lucky to have

who’s your role model?? PETER PARKER, STEVE ROGERS, MARKIPLIER JACKSEPTICEYE CRANKGAMEPLAYS 

what was the last compliment you received?? ummmm, somebody told me they liked my converse

what was the last text you sent?? how’s school going??

how old were you when you found/figured santa wasn’t real?? WAIT WHAT SANTA ISN’T REAL, HOW DARE YOU RUIN THE MAGIC (i think i was 11 or 12)

what is your dream car?? camero

opinion on smoking?? IT’S BAD FOR YOU AND I DON’T SEE WHY PEOPLE DO IT

do you go to college?? nope, i’m trying to survive high school

what is your dream job?? I REALLY WANNA BE AN AVENGER OR A YOUTUBER (and yes i know, the avengers are fictional bUT I DON’T CARE)

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?? RURAL

do you take shampoo and conditioner from hotels?? sometimes

do you have freckles?? YEP

do you smile for pictures?? usually 

how many pictures do you have in your phone?? i don’t have a phone

have you ever peed in the woods?? yep, got it on my pants fun fun

do you still watch cartoons?? H TO THE E TO THE L L YEAH

do you prefer chicken nuggets rom mcdonalds or wendy’s?? mcdonalds

favorite dipping sauce?? KETCHUP 

what do you wear to bed?? depends on the weather if it’s hot tank top and shorts it’s cold hoodie and shorts

have you ever won a spelling bee?? bees can spell?? and you can win them what THIS IS NEW INFORMATION (no)

what are your hobbies?? does getting on tumblr and youtube count?? piano, drawing, editing vids

can you draw?? kinda, it depends what i’m drawing

can you play an instrument?? i can play ze piano

what’s the last concert you saw?? i’ve never been to one

tea or coffee?? i’ve never had coffee before so tea

starbucks or dunkin donuts?? i’ve never been to starbucks so dunkin donuts

do you want to get married?? yeah, sure one day

what is your crush first and last initial?? p p

are you going to change your last name when you get married?? maybe??

what color looks best on you?? either black or blue

do you miss anyone right now?? yeah

do you sleep with the door open of closed?? open cause i like to live life on the edge

do you believe in ghost?? yup

what’s your biggest pet peeve?? PEOPLE CHEWING ICE CREAM LIKE WHAT, AND PEOPLE WHO CHEW LOUDLY 

last person you called?? i think it was my grandma

favorite ice cream flavor?? vanilla 

regular oreos of golden oreos?? i don’t like oreos 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?? rainbow

what shirt are you wearing?? a marvel shirt

what is your phone background?? i don’t have a phone

are you outgoing or shy?? VERY SHY

do you like it when people play with your hair?? depends, sometimes

do you like your neighbors?? only one, everyone else no

do you wash your face?? not usually

have you ever been high?? NO

have you ever been drunk?? NO

last thing you ate?? red doritos

favorite lyric right now?? 

“who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million lights, it flickers, flickers. who cares when someones time runs out if a moment is all we are, or quicker, quicker who cares if one more light goes out well i do”

linkin park one more light

summer or winter?? WINTER IS THE BEST

day or night?? NIGHT CAUSE STARS 

dark, milk or white chocolate?? milk

favorite month?? either october or december cause i love me some halloween but also some christmas

what is your zodiac sign?? libra

who’s the last person you cried in front of?? my sister cause i brook down

tag dah peps yo @hesitant-poison @killjoywithapen13 @thnksfrbuckybarnes @barnes-and-noble-girl @smol-lil-kitten-loves-mikey @princessebitchface98

YOU DON’T HAVE TO IF YOU DON’T WANT TO 

#SORRY IF YOU'VE ALREADY BEEN TAGGED #I GOTS THE TAGGED

[impertynencja]

all

oh boy this is gonna be a long one and all of the asks are HERE 

1. im not gonna to write that persons name here because its too personal for me and for her. i loved her so much, she was there for me when no one else was,  even if she lived far far away and we never met. she cared about me and she was so mature, intelligent and wise. and beautiful inside and outside. pure. sacred. oh how i hate that bad timing and place boy. 

2. i regret joining social media like twitter and meeting wrong ppl 

3. i dont identify with them at all

4. pasta....... cakes.... soups.... i like cooking tho

5. i dont know i really like my name! maybe ida/marcelina

6. no but i wanna learn!! 

7. calling by my name, talking about my feelings, showing that i care 

8. yes. vote 4 me

9. art in general! because art always was my safe space and source of pleasure and calm. 

10. im not envious of real people, because i dont know, i dont focus on others. but i feel envious when im thinking about amy dunne. she was THAT BITCH, fearless and brave. wish that were me. 

11. i wasnt there. yet

12. yes

13. DUH yes

14. im cleaning my fridge very often so.... i guess dried tomatoes?? i bought them like 3 weeks ago?

15. lace with that funny stripes, kinda kinky

16. white ferrari by frank ocean, the louvre by lorde and see you again by tyler the creator. cant pick one, sorry.

17. sweet life by frank ocean..... i just love frank so much

18. no....... and i find them boring

19. dust, monsters, sometimes my shirts and empty bottles. also you can find my cat there.

20. LMAO yes. im that dumbass bitch whos prank calling their teachers 

21. 100 kittens

22. no ! ! ! ! !!!!! 

23. no, because i care too much and im putting too much effort. and i dont know if this silence is worth it.... what the fuck am i doing right here? i am stupid bitch and i hate myself. can someone come here and fix my life???? please i offer 2$ . i guess i just wanna be loved man

24. i am the clumsiest girl in the world but.... 0

25. school contests. they were big and small. i was born winner

26. a nice cozy house in the middle of nowhere. and a cow.

27. back to the future and all dogs go to heaven

28. sea food 🤢

29. thats very nsfw and/or illegal 

30. yes and BITCH WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!! W H Y!!! 

31. yes id rather adopt child than give birth to one 

32. idk i just want to start living on my own and its embarassing for me because i have a toxic family and they will laugh @ me. 

33. banana bread.  ugly on the skin lovely from within

34. dont know, i dont care about material possessions

35. i have too many important memories and i cant pick one!!! this is too hard

36. few minutes ago???? 

37. 38. pretty old

38. lorde?? frank ocean??? jake gyllenhaal??? amy adams?? please be my friends

39. no

40. yes and it went so good. we just went to the cinema and park and we kissed all day. wish i could go back in time and do it once again. and again and again and again and again and again again. 

#personal

[buckykingofmemes]

Closet Softie

Or, How Bucky Barnes Nearly Ruined His Tough-Guy Rep

(On AO3)

The trail mix was gone. 

The nice, expensive trail mix, with twelve kinds of nuts and the big sunflower seeds and dried fruits, the kind Tony only rarely left sitting on the common floors for everyone to get at, was gone. 

Clint had been looking forward to that stuff all morning. 

All the way through a hellish morning “jog” with Steve, all through Nat handing him his ass on the training mats, all through firing the same batch of misweighted arrows over and over so Tony could take scans and fix the design, he’d been thinking, when this is done I get to go upstairs and hang out on the couch and watch Dog Cops and eat the good trail mix, guilt-free. 

And it was gone.

Clint was gonna shoot somebody.

Just as soon as he figured out who’d taken the trail mix.

kingofmemes posted:

yesterday i saw a sad duck in the park who kept getting picked on by the other ducks so today i brought some trail mix and we had a nice lunch together. also i think he might be the duck who pooped on sam last week. if so, he is officially my new best friend. 

Posted at 3:29 PM, 24379 notes

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Was...was that Barnes? No way was that Barnes. There was zero chance that the huge guy teaching a swarm of kids how to throw a baseball in the park was the Winter Soldier. That was ridiculous. Barnes was probably back in the Tower, brooding or something. Definitely not throwing crazy curveballs while a six year old with a broken arm rode piggyback. There were a dozen or so kids of varying ages clustered around, trying to mimic his throw. And while the big guy did have hair about the same length as Barnes’s, Barnes’s hair definitely wasn’t done up in sloppy child-made braids and topped with a dandelion flower crown. And Barnes would rather loose his right arm than deal with a bunch of kids, right? Even if these grubby little monsters were being remarkably well-behaved. 

Had to be somebody else. Clint kept walking. 

kingofmemes posted:

today i learned that i can throw a baseball hard enough that it will explode on impact. and also that if you do that, you better be prepared to teach a bunch of kids how to do it, because they wont ever leave you alone otherwise

Posted at 4:47 PM, 26658 notes

Clint actually tripped over the package left in front of his door. Avenger he might be, but it had been a long day at the end of a longer week, and he was tired. And usually there wasn’t anything left in the hallway to trip over, what the hell. 

Clint grabbed the box and dragged himself into his apartment. Hopefully it wasn’t a bomb. If it was, he was totally gonna get blown up, because he was too tired to check before he opened it.

It wasn’t. It was a bizarre knit shirt-thing, big enough to fit him and with a hood and hoodie pocket, but without sleeves.The whole thing was made of a soft dark purple yarn, and it seemed unbelievably warm. It was...kinda perfect. He’d just been complaining on the last op about how hard it was to find warm clothes he could wear that didn’t restrict his arms so he couldn’t shoot. 

He pulled it on. It was even warmer than it looked, and softer than Thor’s godly hair. Clint loved it.

But who the hell had given it to him?

kingofmemes posted:

i dont care what anyone says, knitting is a combat-applicable skill, and if you disagree i will fight you. with my knitting needles.

Posted at 3:42 AM, 47292 notes

There were cupcakes on the counter. Beautiful, glorious, still-warm cupcakes on the kitchen counter, and Clint was gonna eat all of them before anyone stopped him.

Well. Maybe he would share with Nat. Otherwise she might make him regret it. Nat was kinda the worst. 

Wait, were these cupcakes for him?? They were lavender. With purple frosting. And the other half were little dark chocolate and red velvet sandwiches. Maybe it was a coincidence? Clint mused it over as he shoved a third lavender cupcake in his mouth. The red-and-black ones had some kind of dark red filling leaking out between the layers. It looked like blood. Nat reached past him and snagged two of them. He’d jump, but he’d gotten used to her sneaking up on him all the time. She was the worst. Clint refrained from commenting by stuffing a fourth cupcake in his face. They were really good. 

Nat made a little muffled moan noise. Clint reached for one of the red cupcakes, and she slapped his hand down. “Those are mine,” she grunted around her mouthful of cake, because she was only ladylike when it suited her. 

“Says who?” Clint asked, even as he took another purple cupcake. 

Nat pointed to the paper plate. Where Clint’s cupcakes had previously sat, there was blocky sharpie lettering: Have fun on your mission & dont die. Below was a little drawing of an arrow and a spider. There was no signature. 

Huh.

Nat swallowed. “We need to leave now if we don’t want to be late for the pre-op briefing.”

Aw, no, cupcakes. There were still so many left, Clint didn’t want to leave them. They wouldn’t last a day in the Tower. 

“Take the cupcakes with.” Nat ordered, sweeping out of the room. 

Nat was the best. 

kingofmemes posted:

cupcakes are great. you could have one really big cake or 40 tiny cakes, thats so fantastic. im gonna die if i keep making this many cupcakes somebody help me eat all these

Posted at 5:43 PM, 23749 notes

Barnes had a death wish. It was the only logical conclusion. There was literally no other reason for him to suddenly yell “Motherfucker!” during a debriefing, while Nick Fury was talking. 

That was the kinda thing that got you keelhauled. Clint would know, he was a human disaster. Barnes was apparently worse, though he seemed to have balls to match, because he sat still and maintained eye contact as Fury glared him down. Weaker men and some brick walls had crumbled under that glare.

Barnes waited him out, and endured the following dressing-down with respectful yes-sirs no-sirs and sorry-sirs. And then promptly dashed out of the room as soon as the debriefing was over.

Weird. 

kingofmemes posted:

ever get clawed in the stomach by the secret kitten you rescued and stashed in your hoodie pocket? because let me tell you. it 1. hurts and 2. hurts emotionally, because i love her and she hates me

 Posted at 4:47 AM, 37294 notes

Clint staggered into the common room. A bad op gone worse had not at all been helped by a stint in medical, which he hated, and he’d gotten home to discover that Lucky had knocked a houseplant over and somehow gotten dirt through the whole apartment and needed a bath. And Lucky did not like baths. Plus he was still dealing with a nasty cold. So now Clint was tired, injured, sick, wet, and somehow still covered in dirt. 

Aw, life, no.

Barnes was on the couch, watching with raised brows as Clint stood and contemplated the disaster that this week had been. Possibly also he might be judging Clint for being such a human train wreck.

Clint sneezed pathetically. 

Barnes stood up. Clint watched him, too exhausted to be concerned. 

“You look like you could use a hug.” Barnes informed him.

 It took Clint a moment to separate out what he’d expected Barnes to say and what he’d actually said. And then he said, “What?” Because, no way. 

“A hug. Want one?” Barnes repeated, like Clint was slow. Which, to be fair, his brain was basically operating at the pace of a drunk slug.

“I...thought you were a no-hugging friend.” 

“Mostly yes, but I’m in a good headspace today and you look like you could use either a hug or a mercy killing. And I don’t wanna get blood on this knife, I just cleaned it.”

Huh. That was...huh. Should he be touched or terrified? Clint didn’t think he had the emotional energy for both. 

“So. Hug. Want one?”

“...yeah, please.”

Barnes was a weird hugger. He came in slow and careful like he was expecting something to detonate, but once he was there, it was like being wrapped up by the world’s nicest bear. Strong and steady and taller than Clint, damn him, but nice.

“Thanks.” Clint mumbled at his toes.

“Yeah, yeah. Sit on the couch, I’m gonna make you some soup before you pass out.”

Barnes was such a softie, Clint thought, splayed on the sofa, and slipped into sleep.

kingofmemes posted:

it turns out that the best way to cure grumpiness is with hot food and niceness. or maybe it was the murder threat that helped.

whichever. ill keep doing both just to be sure. 

Posted at 4:47 AM, 5392 notes

Mod Hell note: Please note that Bucky did not feed bread to the duck. That is because bread is BAD FOR BIRDS and you should never give it to them, as it can cause serious health problems. Nuts and veggies are good. Google it.

#sometimes sams bird telepathy #just means birds understand him when he calls them assholes #Clint and bucky get along #still not shipping but you can take this as you will #sniper bros #special thanks to Nimitz #who just clawed me in the gut. #verisimilitude #bucky barnes #clint barton #Team Naptime #bucky king of memes #Tales from the Tower

[my-insanity-is-irrelevant]

The same to you - all of them 🎃

200: My crush’s name is: Ryan, Eli, Claire, several others I cant name for complicated reasons 

199: I was born in: 1997/a hospital 

198: I am really: Intense weather in my calmness or excitement 

197: My cellphone company is: T-Mobile

196: My eye color is: Light green

195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2 wide (i usually have to do like a 11 for high heals)

194: My ring size is: ??????? probably big I have chubby fingers

193: My height is: 5′ 6″

192: I am allergic to: nothing unless you count idiocy 

191: My 1st car was: A blue 2007 Ford Focus and I LOVED her

190: My 1st job was: A server for Cheddar’s Casual Cafe 

189: Last book you read: How to Ruin Everything by George Watsky 10/10

188: My bed is: A king with lots o’ pillows and blankets and is very comfy

187: My pet: 2 cats, 5 kittens, 6 dogs, 2 snakes, 1 bearded dragon, 1 leopard gecko, 4 turtles, 1 bullfrog tadpole, and bunches of fish

186: My best friend: is a boy i met a month ago because i have intimacy issues

185: My favorite shampoo is: Dead Sea’s Argon oil shampoo is so good to my poor dry curls

184: Xbox or ps3: I use an Xbox to watch Netflix but I don’t play video games

183: Piggy banks are: Cute decorations but go unused

182: In my pockets: $2, some lint, a rubber band, and something weird i took out of my dog’s mouth earlier

181: On my calendar: I have nothing written in it but it has cool pictures of bears

180: Marriage is: Cool because of the financial benefits but other than that unnecessary to prove one’s love. I want a wedding though because I want a pretty dress

179: Spongebob can: Make me hate my life a 3am

178: My mom: Died of breast cancer and smoked a lot of pot

177: The last three songs I bought were? I can’t remember ever paying for music but the last three i listened to are: Cherry Wine by Hozier, Strong As An Oak by Watsky, and San Cristobal by Mal Blum

176: Last YouTube video watched: A slam poem by Neil Hilborn called Liminality

175: How many cousins do you have? I have no clue? At least 10 on each side, but i’m sure there’s way more than that

174: Do you have any siblings? 2 older brothers, 2 older sisters, ans one younger sister 

173: Are your parents divorced? They were never married

172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope! She was like 5′10′

171: Do you play an instrument? I can play hot cross buns on the recorder and thats the best i can do

170: What did you do yesterday? I slept and ate beef jerky[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: No, but i do believe in lust and infatuation at first site. I think  love takes time to grow.

168: Luck: Yes like, as in karma

167: Fate: Catch me in the right mood and i do

166: Yourself: NOOOOOPE

165: Aliens: Yes

164: Heaven: No

163: Hell: Yes, it’s called Texas

162: God: Naaaaah

161: Horoscopes: I think they’re accurate generalizations

160: Soul mates: Yeah but not like the traditional; kind of way, i think we have lots of people we’re meant to be with in various ways

159: Ghosts: Yes and No i go back and forth

158: Gay Marriage: 100%

157: War:0%

156: Orbs: Idk what this is talking about but sure, ill root for them

155: Magic: No, Im a science gal[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs

153: Drunk or High: High, drinking gives me a tummy ache

152: Phone or Online: Online

151: Red heads or Black haired: Red heads

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

149: Hot or cold: Cold

148: Summer or winter: Winter

147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn

146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

145: Night or Day: Night

144: Oranges or Apples: Apples

143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly

142: McDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonald’s

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate is the key to my heart

140: Mac or PC: PC

139: Flip flops or high heels: HIgh heels even though i cant walk in them

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor

137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke

136: Hillary or Obama: Obama

135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, the idea of rotting creeps me out

134: Singing or Dancing: Dancing but im bad at both

133: Coach or Chanel: Idgaf

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: ??????

131: Small town or Big city: Big city

130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal-Mart

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: I hate Adam Sandler

128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure

127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas all the waaaaaay

125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers, preferably potted

124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney i’m scared of roller coasters

123: Yankees or Red Sox: I dont sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: Its stupid and bad and i hate violence 

121: George W. Bush: Okay, looook, i dig his paintings, okay???

120: Gay Marriage: gimme that shit i want that shit

119: The presidential election: I could be down for violence against trump

118: Abortion: everyone should have safe access to abortions, they save lives

117: MySpace: I never had one? Does it still exist? I may make one for fun? 

116: Reality TV: i dont ever watch it, i avoid it like the plauge

115: Parents: Mine were grade A shit

114: Back stabbers: What goes around comes around

113: Ebay: I use Amazon

112: Facebook: Its filled with my racist family, i avoid it 

111: Work: I watch my niece and nephew (twins) and i love it

110: My Neighbors: I don’t interact with them ever

109: Gas Prices: why so expensive pls give me break

108: Designer Clothes: catch me in wal-mart clothes i bough 4 years ago

107: College: I want but cant afford halp

106: Sports: no

105: My family: I love them but they fkn annoy the shit out of me with their political views

104: The future: stop.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: My niece yesterday

102: Last time you ate: I am eating a bowl of mac n’ cheese right now

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: I saw my sister’s in-laws last week and i loooooove them! I made slime with the kids

100: Cried in front of someone: When i found out my ex was cheating on me like two months ago

99: Went to a movie theater: Went on a date with a cute boi like a month ago and w saw Baby Driver it was so good

98: Took a vacation: The only vacation ive ever took in my life was with my ex and his family to Florida last summer

97: Swam in a pool: Less than a week ago

96: Changed a diaper: Yesterday, i change them for a living

95: Got my nails done:last summer

94: Went to a wedding: My oldest sister got married last week!

93: Broke a bone: when i was like 3????

92: Got a peircing: two weeks ago i got my nipples done

91: Broke the law: this morning when i got high

90: Texted: Im texting cute bbs  right now[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My boi Ryan who is a fkn idiot i love him

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I already left home and only miss having someone else cook and clean because my roomates are hopeless

87: The last movie I saw: The Last Five Years

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: When i can move far north and start a loving and respectful communist sex cult

85: The thing im not looking forward to: Getting up for work at 5 in the morning

84: People call me: lame

83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: i sure haven’t i’m Safe

81: My zodiac sign is: Libra

80: The first person i talked to today was: Ryan

79: First time you had a crush: i liked a boy named Antonio in second grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one? 

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Ryan last night when we said a stupid Ricks and Morty quote at the same time

76: Right now I am talking to: my cat Beatrice 

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: probably cry a lot

74: I have/will get a job: working with kids!

73: Tomorrow: I will be very tired

72: Today: I am very tired

71: Next Summer: I will be very hot

70: Next Weekend: Im going to tie ppl up with rope

69: I have these pets: see 187

68: The worst sound in the world: A baby crying because they’re hurt or sad

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex inbox me for his url so you can tell him hes a meanie

66: People that make you happy: My nieces and nephews and also my bff

65: Last time I cried: last night because the damn dog was so cute

64: My friends are: amazing and deserve the world

63: My computer is: slow and bad but i still love her

62: My School: was down the road from a prison, which my mom was in years ago

61: My Car: is old and smells like my mom’s cigarettes 

60: I lose all respect for people who: are racist, homophobic, sexist, trans-phobic, Islamophobic, anti-semetic, ect. 

59: The movie I cried at was: the beginning of Guardians of the Galaxy

58: Your hair color is: Auburn

57: TV shows you watch: Game of Thrones, Criminal Minds, Sense 8

56: Favorite web site: tumblr.com

55: Your dream vacation: stargazing in Alaska 

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when i fucked up my siatic nerve in a car wreck in January 

53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium-well

52: My room is: cold and messy and covered in kittens

51: My favorite celebrity is: Harry Styles

50: Where would you like to be: on a beach in Iceland with a person playing a ukulele 

49: Do you want children: Only if i have more than one long term partner living with me 

48: Ever been in love: Yes 

47: Who’s your best friend: see 186 its Ryan

46: More guy friends or girl friends: no

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when my cat comes to me and just lays where shes barely touching me 

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My best friend from high school who committed suicide 

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no

41: Have you pre-named your children: I want to name my kid Coraline but id also like to do something not defined by a single gender?

40: Last person I got mad at: My sister because she left the dogs inside all day while i was at work even though shes a stay at home mom and so the poor things had accidents and no one was happy

39: I would like to move to: Canada

38: I wish I was a professional: mom[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: white chocolate truffles 

36: Vehicle: vintage beatles 

35: President: Alexander Hamilton

34: State visited: Florida

33: Cellphone provider: ?????

32: Athlete: ?????

31: Actor: Nat Wolf

30: Actress: Maise willams

29: Singer: Radical Face/Hozier

28: Band: Bad Books

27: Clothing store: Wal-mart

26: Grocery store: Joe-V’s Smart Shop

25: TV show: Game of Thrones

24: Movie: Swiss Army Man

23: Website: see 56

22: Animal:  Monitors 

21: Theme park: i dont do theme parks

20: Holiday: Halloween

19: Sport to watch: does Yuri on Ice count?

18: Sport to play: no

17: Magazine: i don’t read magazines but i heard Teen Vogue is doing wonders

16: Book: The Kite Runner

15: Day of the week: Wednesday’s Child is Full of Woe

14: Beach: wherever i was in Florida 

13: Concert attended: Warped Tour 2015 there was a band called Onwards ect. it was so good

12: Thing to cook: homemade flour tortillas 

11: Food: Cheese enchiladas

10: Restaurant: This cute little place named Marianne’s thats down the road from my house she makes the best tamales 

9: Radio station: 94.5 The Buzz

8: Yankee candle scent: Clean Linen 

7: Perfume: i dont

6: Flower: Lilies 

5: Color: pink

4: Talk show host: Steve Harvey

3: Comedian: John Mulaney

2: Dog breed: Pit Bulls

1: Did you answer all these truthfully? 100%

#ask #nydcreep

[sadrien]

wanna chat? pt.19

on ao3 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19

so this is like...twice as long as a normal chapter. anyway i was in les mis the other week and i sent something and someone thought it was a les mis chapter of wanna chat. and @reyxa​ encouraged it so Here We Are

this chapter continues right off of the last one because i found a note with sick quotes on it. i kept the les mis as light and understandable as possible but just like..let me know if it makes 0 sense. i had to get this out of my system because ive been in a writing funk

(mari = cough cough, nino = space bro, alya = alys, adrien = glen coco)

enjoy? 

3:12 in boo you whore

cough cough: gmoring i cant brethe out of mynose rn Im not goin g ot be in school today :( Bu ti cant sleep anymore because I cnat breath e iim gonna go watch youtube videos

 6:37

space bro: my dude i hope youre feeling better when you wake up

6:43

glen coco: If you’re not turn on the shower really hot and sit in the bathroom with the steam

alys: or drown urself in cold medicine

glen coco: Don’t do that

space bro: never listen to alya

alys: dont listen to these traitors

PM between glen coco and cough cough

glen coco: I bet the akuma attack last night really didn’t help Don’t worry about anything today I can handle it unless it’s another akuma Just get some rest <3

10:03 in boo you whore

cough cough: Self care is chugging five cups of tea and astral projecting behind a mcdonalds to punch hawkmoth in the face

11:46

glen coco: Mari no

alys: mari yes

space bro: mari wtf

cough cough: Im dyin g

alys: tag urself im punching hm in the face

space bro: im astral projection

glen coco: Five c ups of tea

cough cough: Does that make me the mcdonalds

space bro: congrats mari

glen coco: I can’t believe Mari is the golden arches

alys has changed their name to punching hawkmoth in the face

punching hawkmoth in the face: im finally my True Self gang follwo suit

cough cough: Why shoul d I LISten to you

punching hawkmoth in the face: bc u love me and want me 2 b happy and also bc i still have ur jacket in my bedroom

cough cough: Fuck

cough cough has changed their name to mcdonalds

space bros: al youre ridic

punching hawkmoth in the face: just do it babe

space bros has changed their name to astral projection

astral projection: there ya go

glen coco: Rip Glen Coco

punching hawkmoth in the face: truly a her o of his generation :’(

mcdonalds: RIp

glen coco has changed their name to five cups of tea

five cups of tea: Rebirth

mcdonalds: I hate you all img oing ot bed

punching hawkmoth in the face: goodnight my darlign <3

astral projection: nap well bro hopefully you feel better when you wake up

 15:37

punching hawkmoth in the face: remind me to throw my bag in the seine i dont wanna do hw :(

astral projection: i feel you

punching hawkmoth in the face: wanna get togheter and do hw

astral projection: do homework or “do homework”

punching hawkmoth in the face: have u ever met me “””””””do homework”””””””

astral projection: i need to figure out physics my dude

punching hawkmoth in the face: D’:

five cups of tea: I can help you when I get home tonight

punching hawkmoth in the face: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

astral projection: the real mvp i love you

five cups of tea: I love you too Have fun Use protection

astral projection: alya please kick him out of the chat

punching hawkmoth in the face: no i like him

astral projection: fuck

 18:57 mcdonalds: Screens hurt my head irhgt now Im gonna watch reruns and keep sleepng

punching hawkmoth in the face: feel better babe <3

 22:15

five cups of tea: Ok so the other day instead of doing homework I started reading les mis ANd now instead of doing homework I’m reading les mis again I can’t believe this is how I’m procrastinating

astral projection: what

punching hawkmoth in the face: the musical????

five cups of tea: No the book Which the musical is based off of

astral projection: what a nerd

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao how is it

five cups of tea: Old Long

punching hawkmoth in the face: how long?

five cups of tea: Uhhh 655,000 words

mcdonalds: jesus

astral projection: what the actual fuck

punching hawkmoth in the face: holllllly fuck

astral projection: you my dude are unreal

punching hawkmoth in the face: for fun???? r u sure this is for fun???????

five cups of tea: I think so? It’s kind of boring sometimes and hard to get through but other parts are really good Also if I’m reading I don’t have to practice chinese

punching hawkmoth in the face: touche

astral projection: have fun reading bro you are unbelievable

PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds

five cups of tea: Hey why are you up? I thought you were heading off to bed a while ago?

mcdonalds: I didnt take nyquil tonight because I felt a little better and didnt want to pass the fuck out again but now Im awake and cant sleep because my head feels like its gonna explode And I regret So much

five cups of tea: Aw no poor bug

mcdonalds: Ugh

five cups of tea: Do you want anything?

mcdonalds: You dont have to

five cups of tea: Do you want anything? If you want soup I can get you some

mcdonalds: Its like???? Really late?????

five cups of tea: Mar its only 20:30

mcdonalds: Oh It feels like 1 But its still late

five cups of tea: Ok well Late night food is not a new thing Trust me

mcdonalds: … If you brought me soup Id love you forever

five cups of tea: I thought you already did

mcdonalds: Id love you even more

five cups of tea: I’ll be on my way soon

mcdonalds: I love you so much <3

23:35 in boo you whore

punching hawkmoth in the face: what if you took tea in shots like shot glasses

five cups of tea: Like with hot tea?

astral projection: i feel like thats a good way to burn your entire mouth

five cups of tea: *entire life

astral projection: ^^^

punching hawkmoth in the face: hmmm

five cups of tea: Alya no

astral projection: yeah bad idea

punching hawkmoth in the face: f i n e

 1:02

mcdonalds: sos Im dying I constantly feel like Im about to sneeze If I dont feel that way its cause Im sneezing

astral projection: rip my dude guessing you cnat sleep while sneezing

mcdonalds: Nope :’( End my suffering please

astral projection: no can do i can offer virtual hugs

mcdonalds: I guess thatll work for now

astral projection: <3

2:03

PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds

five cups of tea: Hey Hey Marinette Hey I have something to show you

mcdonalds: Adrien its 2 in the morning

five cups of tea: So? You’re up too

mcdonalds: I slept all day

mcdonalds: Yeah but you’re awake right now

mcdonalds: … Fine Hit me

five cups of tea: “When they had finished, when they had told each other everything, she laid her head on his shoulder and asked him: ‘What is your name?’” Us

mcdonalds: Oh my go d This is les mis right??? What youw ere talking about before??

five cups of tea: Yup

mcdonalds: Omg Why are you like this

five cups of tea: Ok but am I wrong????

mcdonalds: I cant say you are tbh

five cups of tea: Man I feel like Marius am I like Marius??

mcdonalds: Whats he like?

five cups of tea: Kind of oblivious, pretty romantic but sort of in a weird way, awkward, usually confused but can be scary if he needs to, handsome as hell and love of my life that I would honestly leave all three of you for

mcdonalds: Wow Are you sure you havent already

five cups of tea: :P Actually….

mcdonalds: Are you suddenly realizing youve left us for a fictional character

five cups of tea: No I was oging to say I might be more like Bossuet

mcdonalds: Youre just saying words I dont know who that is

five cups of tea: He always has bad luck Like always Ummmm hold on

mcdonalds: K Who would I be???

five cups of tea: “He was the constant victim of mischance, hence his merriment. He said, ‘I spend my life walking under ladders.’”

mcdonalds: Ok you mgiht be this Bossuet you bad luck magnet

five cups of tea: For you Hmmmm Enjolras?

mcdonalds: Not cosette??  Shes the love interest right

five cups of tea: As much as I love you Enjolras is the leader in red And I just can’t help myself

mcdonalds: Nerd Are you goind to do alya and nino too?

five cups of tea: D u h

 2:34

mcdonalds: Adrien?? You ok? Youve been quiet for a while Or did you fall asleep on your computer again

five cups of tea: No I’m here I’m just Stuck This is haarrrrrdddddddddd Alya and Nino are just so deep and complex and awesome and I dont’ know how to place them???

mcdonalds: True But wow Slightly offended

five cups of tea: Hey yours is based on a pun I can pun easy

mcdonalds: G o to sleep kitten You can sort them in the mornign Later this morning

five cups of tea: Fine I hope you’re feeling better

mcdonalds: A little bit!! The soup definitely helped Night <3

five cups of tea: Night <3

10:25 in boo you whore

astral projection: saturdays are chill but my mom wants us to clean the entire apartment today and im not about that life

 12:12

mcdonalds has changed their name to enjolras

enjolras: I have no idea who thi s is but I hope it makes Adrien happy

punching hawkmoth in the face: ???? wahts ahppenign

enjolras: Adrien said I was this charactera t like 2

astral projection: why the fuck do none of you people value sleep

punching hawkmoth in the face: how theh ell did that even come up in conversation

enjolras: He was saying he thinks hes like Marius

astral projection: huh

five cups of tea: I’m not sure yet

astral projection: bro!!!

five cups of tea: I'm thinking either Marius or bossuet for myself

punching hawkmoth in the face: r we supposed 2 know the second one

enjolras: Hes got bad luck Thats what I got from our convo when no one else was awake

punching hawkmoth in the face: change ur name i want u2b the hopeless romantic

astral projection: isnt he already??

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao

five cups of tea has changed their name to marius

punching hawkmoth in the face: awesome were u gonna do nino and i??

marius: Yeah I’m just having some trouble

astral projection: yeah were just too unique to be put into little boxes

marius: Exactly

astral projection: that was sarcasm but i love you so much

marius: <3

punching hawkmoth in the face: hey question not that im doubting maris badassary but why enjolras

marius: Enjolras is incredibly passionate and would do anything for his friends and the people of Paris Reminds me of how Marinette is as class president

PM between marius and enjolras

enjolras: Nice save

marius: Thanks

in boo you whore

astral projection: I see it

marius: Alya could be eponine?

punching hawkmoth in the face: shes the one who cries about marius right

marius: Well I was actually thinking her cause Ponine she knows her way around And all that stuff But yes she cries about Marius she does have a song about that

PM between punching hawkmoth in the face and astral projection

punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao did he just give me the character hopelessly in love with marius

astral projection: rip

punching hawkmoth in the face: end my life

in boo you whore

punching hawkmoth in the face: i cna work with that

punching hawkmoth in the face has changed their nickname to eponine

astral projection: and then tehre was one

marius: I’m struggling

enjolras: Arent we all

eponine: Id help but I know literally nothing other than some of the lyrics RED THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD

astral projection: theres no way that isnt right im 100% sure those are the actual words

eponine: BLACK THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD

enjolras: Period mood

eponine: general mood

enjolras: Ok same

eponine: mood: red and black but the only words are blood

enjolras renamed this conversation to “red the blood of blood blood blood”

eponine: yes exactly

astral projection: sometimes i wonder why im friends with you

eponine: because u love us and would be sad without us

astral projection: ok yes but also why

marius: I mean maybe Grantaire? He’s a jack of all trades? Nino you are…really hard to place But R might be the best bet

enjolras: Wait a minute R?

marius: Yes

enjolras: Get out of this chat

marius: </3

astral projection: that is amazing

astral projection has changed their nickname to grantaire

grantaire: in it for the puns

marius: So is Hugo

enjolras: Who

marius: The writer of les mis

eponine: tag yourself im les miserables all of them

grantaire: you cant be all the miserables

eponine: watch me try

marius: Sorry you must have no idea what’s going on

grantaire: not really we have nothing to contribute but keep going dude!!! i love to hear you ramble

eponine: oh oh i have something to contribute

enjolras: You do?

eponine: 24601? more like 246 so done with your shit

enjolras: Im leaving the country

grantaire: whos shit?

eponine: uh oh fuck whos the antagonist again

marius: Society

grantaire: deep

enjolras: Stop being fake deep

eponine: feep anyway no u butt the police dude

marius: The only evil in les mis IS society And the Thenardiers OH JAVERT

eponine: YES THANK YOU

marius: Javert: do not forget my name Alya: forgets his name

eponine: fuck you also 246 so done with your shit javert

grantaire: thank you for clarifying

eponine: no prob

enjolras: Ok so Im googling stuff to try and figure out whats happening And wow This is depressing ¾ of us die

marius has changed their nickname to bossuet

bossuet: Now all of us die

eponine: nope change back 2 lover boy ur not dying too

grantaire: um no one is dying my dudes

bossuet: We’re always dying But fine

bossuet has changed their nickname to marius

enjolras: Im pretty sure Im dying righ tnow I almost coughed up a lung

eponine: GO TAKE MEDICIN E

enjolras: You arent my mom!!!!!!!!!

eponine: THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT CCARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR HEALTH!!!!!!!!!

enjolras: AHHHHH

eponine: AHHHHHH

grantaire: Ahhhhh?

marius: Ahhhhh

#wanna chat #adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng #nino lahiffe #alya cesaire #my fics #hi this is awful

[tenabiibee]

4-18~

That is so many that is 12 questions ok 

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I think so. This seems like a weird question cause I can’t talk for how other ppl see me, but really I do think I’m easy going and can get along with most people fairly easily. I’m friends with p much everyone in my new class and ppl say they think I’m friendly and chatty so I think thats my proof lol 

I haven’t really ever had a falling out with anyone other than ppl who are homophobes or something.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Yeah :3 She would. Well she wouldn’t because it would cost her like a bazillion dollars to jump on a plane and fly across the world but she would cause she is lovely, kind and would probably talk me out of anything silly from tumblr messenger lol

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Women. Women who are kind, beautiful, strong and skilled. I’d say mostly butch women but that’s only like a 60/40 split tbh X3 Women who know things or who are strong and confident, or who can do amazing things I admire. Ppl who like laughing and don’t mind being silly.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Probably not. I feel v far removed from the relationship game, like it’s a secret bonus level I never worked out how to get to. I don’t think many people see me as being very attractive anyway? Not in looks way specifically just in a .. something about me doesn’t set off the ‘dateable person’ alarm in their brain. Idk. I’ve been told that before. 

Also I like someone far away and I am happy with that.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Ummm idk no one? a fictional boy being cute with my fictional boy?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nah

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

You kinda? @sweetvanilla1atte  maybe but I wasn’t really in a clear mindframe so I prob didn’t do well. ppl on other blogs who reblog my detrans/reidentification stuff.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Hey maureen these are some pics of my cake! It was really big theres still half left

(I made a cake for my mums bday and a co-worker wanted to see pics of it)

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Drive Thru - Weird Al Yankovic

Concious - The Broods

Heartlines - The Broods

This is where I belong - Bryan Adamns

Exile Vilify - The National

These aren’t really my fav songs but they are the ones I’ve been listening to most on my ipod this week lol Weird Al why have u suddenly been in my head after all these years?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yes :3 I have a friend at work who thinks my hair is soft and scratches my head with her long fingernails and it feels really good haha i know thats weird but it feel like a cat. Its good. I see why cat’s like it.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

For realsies no but sometimes for fun

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Last summer was bad because by kitten died. Tui was a tiny little panther who smelled like old popcorn and would throw herself down dramatically on your bed to force you to pat her. She loved it. I miss her.

A good thing was getting into the course I wanted to. Now I’m training to be a Vet Nurse and its amazing and I love it. I didn’t know life could make you happy like this before.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I am kissing no-one again right at this very moment!! scandaloussss~

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yeah. Statistically it’s p much impossible for there not to be. I wish we could find one already tho cause I wanna see how it’s DNA and genes work. Would it even have DNA??? aah so interesting. Come on and bring some microbes home NASA!

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nah. I didn’t realise I had a crush on her at the time because I was still brainwashed into thinking I liked men not women. I don’t know where she went after high school. She was cool tho. I hope she’s doing well.

There you go I did them all. Learned some things about me. btw I agree with u on favourites being super super hard I can p much never ever decide on a favourite anything. im glad i didn’t get many of those questions woops

[omnishamblegreg]

Hey @loveofmylonglife !!

92 truths

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end choose however many people you want to tag!

LAST …

[1] drink: water

[2] phone call: my auntie

[3] text message: my best friend

[4] song you listened to: It’s Like That by RUN DMC

[5] time you cried: maybe.. 3 weeks ago, if we’re not talking laughter-crying

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: no

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: yes

[9] lost someone special: no

[10] been depressed: yes

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] jade green

[13] mint green

[14] lilac

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yes

[16] fallen out of love: no

[17] laughed until you cried: hooo yes

[18] found out someone was talking about you: yes, good and bad

[19] met someone who changed you: yes

[20] found out who your true friends are: i dont know, maybe i knew that before now

[21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: heh yes

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: 6 i think

[23] do you have any pets: yes, kitten of the name Mika

[24] do you want to change your name: noo

|25] what did you do for your last birthday: visited my dad in qatar, swam, played board games!

[26] what time did you wake up: like 10.30am

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: probably watching narcos or being attacked by my cat

[28] name something you cannot wait for: for summer, camping and swimming, passing my driving test and driving cousins about like rebels

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: like an hour ago 

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my family dynamics- hooo boi i agree with you there. and how i’d handled certain situations. where i decided to do 6th form, being brave enough to confess love. having the brain capacity and energy to think thoroughly for myself about my spiritual beliefs. sometimes i think it’d be easier if i’d grown up not questioning stuff so much

[31] what are you listening to right now: the end credits of narcos. my love.

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: ah my old basketball coach

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: my inability to revise for shit

[34] elementary: What about it? if you mean the *cough* sherlock piracy, the actor played alongside cumberbum in frankenstein, then went off and did elementary. felt a bit like he nicked his acting pointers to go imitate him. but im not bitter! oh this means primary school: ledge. i was a loving teacher’s pet

[35] high school: same mostly girl’s schools, year 8 was peak :(, but year 9 was PEAK and best fricking thing ever. i moved a lot but made some great friends. then got stressed at alevels but v funny friends. school is stress i dont need to go back to that

[36] college: uni is TBA. i will enjoy my own space

[37] hair colour: brown

[38] long or short hair: short

[39] do you have a crush on someone: not really

[40] what do you like about yourself: that people trust me a lot, that i make my sisters laugh so much they look like gargoyles, that i have little things im good at. 

[41] piercings: Ears

[42] nickname: depending with who: karimmer/rimmer, kima, karma, gary

[43] relationship status: single and ready to spread my legs. in bed to sleep because thats the most comfy sleeping position

[44] zodiac sign: im a goat

[45] pronouns: she/her

[46] favourite tv show: this is fluid. right now i am addicted to narcos. (not like that)

[47] tattoos: none

[48] right or left handed: right

FIRST…

[49] surgery: just sewing up my chin?

[50] piercing: ears

[51] best friend: maysa my cousin, since i was 3, who i knows near everything about me (every time we meet i just catch her up on the new shit). we fuckin tight

[52] sport: this is FUNNY. but i guess swimming, in a leisurely, non-competitive floating way

[53] vacation: tunisia, like what else besides visit family every summer obv

[54] pair of trainers: MINE DIDNT LIGHT UP ! they were PINK tho

RIGHT NOW…

[55] eating: nothing

[56] drinking: nothing. sad days

[57] I’m about to: watch pedro pascal in game of thrones

[58] listening to: nada

[59] waiting for: nada

[60] want: this is a lot. want to feel energy coursing through me. want to be physically able to sleep for a day. to kiss. to have photographic memory. to actually have a spec of an imprint, a positive, a help, on the world. to meet up with all my old friends. to understand myself. to write something and make someone think with it.

[61] get married: some day. i forget im 19 and family members are suddenly going ‘hey karima wanna get me to find u someone heh?’

[62] career: during and after uni, i’d like to write stories. and do art. academia would be cool, researching and writing kickass linguistics papers about memes. but i do not want to dwell on this 

WHICH IS BETTER…

[63] hugs or kisses: both, but hugs only if they’re proper gourmet ones

[64] lips or eyes: eyes

[65] shorter or taller: taller

[66] older or younger: older

[67] romantic or spontaneous: I AGREE WITH WHAT U SAID BOTH BOTH IS GOOD. spontaneity is madly romantic 

[68] nice arms or nice stomach: oooh. stomach i think

[69] sensitive or loud: yep i agree again ^^ someone who’s both is brilliant, we just both gotta be in the same hyper mood then BAM whole house telling us to shut tf up. overall tho.. someone who’s sensitive and understanding is more important. someone who cant switch to being sensitive is so closed off

[70] hook up or relationship: relationship

[71] trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker if they’re not like. pablo escobar level trouble maker. 

HAVE YOU EVER…

[72] kissed a stranger: yeah stupid

[73] drank hard liquor: no

[74] lost glasses/contact lenses: yes

[75] turned someone down: yes poor unfortunate souls

[76] sex on first date: no

[77] broken someone’s heart: i dont Think so

[78] had your own heart broken: yes

[79] been arrested: no

[80] cried when somebody died: yes

[81] fallen for a friend: yes rip me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[82] yourself: at times. i always believe it’ll kinda be alright in the end, that i’ll get to where i want to be, but i dont always believe i have what it takes Right Now. this is hard to explain.

[83] miracles: kind of. depends. i believe it was a miracle i got As and A*s in my gcses when i barely revised. and that my sister causes rain and thunderstorms when she prays for them. some miracles. i feel like a lot more used to happen

[84] love at first sight: no, thats romanticising someone as a concept and i am all too guilty of it

[85] santa claus: no and i dont think i ever did?! i discovered who he was simultaneously with ‘he’s fiction’. but thats okay with me

[86] kiss on the first date: whatever man i know nothing

[87] angels: yes

OTHER…

[88] current best friend’s name: Kathryn, steph, maysa, rabeeya 

[89] eye colour: brown

[90] favourite movie: shaun of the dead or How I Live Now

[91] favourite flower: honeysuckle, def jasmine.

[92] favourite season: summer whosoever should like to also do this, tag me and go for it!! im a curious bastard

#ah time flies filling this in #me #ask meme #a little shy of posting this but ehh #also forgive my lack of eloquency its too late for epiphany-level opinions on things #this is a lazy ask meme