#actual tears rolling down my face

[vngful]

. . . Fighting with Dante is the best.

#actual tears rolling down my face #somebody give vergil a hug #the fact that this was happening right after V remerged with Urizen #and dante n nero have no fucking clue #im fucking. bawling and throwing up #GODDDDD #like despite all the jokes about their rivalry with eachother this is so 😭😭😭😭DOES HE KNOW THAT HIS OLDER BROTHER CARES FOR HIM THAT MUCH???😭 #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #visions of v #devil may cry #dmc #vergil sparda #dante sparda #dmc 5 #devil may cry 5 #dmc memes #vergil dmc #dante dmc #v dmc #nero dmc #nero sparda #ill throw up #i never REALLY LIKED V THAT MUCH WHEN I WAS WATCHING THE GAMEPLAY BUT READING THE MANGA MADE ME APPRECIATE HIM SO MUCH MORE <333

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards

I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?

I. Magic Tricks

You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)

But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."

In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.

II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets

This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?

From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.

Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)

2008.

Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible

2009.

Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?

2010.

This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!

2011.

Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards

2012.

This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??

2013.

Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form

2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):

For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one

2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):

The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"

III. Why Does This Matter?

*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs

This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!

There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.

But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(

#yes its finals week and im up to my eyes in coursework but instead decided to spend like 5 hours researching and writing this post #nah bcs i actually genuinely put more work into this then I think I have all semester dsfjdskjg #that thing about him using a condom and teddy bear in a magic trick genuinely had me crying with laugher. actual tears rolling down my face #<- HOW!?!? WHAT WAS THE TRICK?? its literally inconceivable to me what he did. oh if only there were pics UGH #anyways!! this post was a lot of fun to make!! i really really love the symbolism and design of helmets so this was a rly fun project #and i also went down a lot of rabbitholes while make this and saw many very weird articles from yore #i feel like i make an equal amnt of deranged posts abt seb and nando but i dont know why nando is gifted w all my well researched projects #<- i.e. chair post. that was the same level of research as this one but at least this one i could find actual sources about.... #idk theres smth about the extremely long history of nando's history that evokes research posts like this KLAJSLSKDJ #theres just so much that i dont think I ever really see people discussing! so i must create. #haha what was that joke tag i wanted to make abt my researched posts? I think: #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion #<- one day ill go back and actually tag posts w that. bcs the amtn of research compared to my actual schoolwork is so unwell #fernando alonso #fa14 #f1 #formula 1 #catie.rambling.txt #we do a little bit of f1

[gloomylies]

Planning on making him into a keychain… WISH ME LUCK

#gideon graves #scott pilgrim #scott pilgram vs the world #autism #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #boooooo nopony cares (everypony yells at me) #*a tear rolls down my face at these news* #ill try and make him as cheap as i possible can without just loosing me money #hopefully ill actually make him so my mutuals arent dissapointed🙏 #i want to squish him in my hands guyds #i loved making his insane form so much :3

[its-sir-actually]

The funniest thing I've ever read on DeuxMoi

#actually tears rolling down my face right now #TAYLOR SWIFT & OAP FERNANDO ALONSO #absolutely not #im wheezing #taylor swift #fernando alonso #f1 #deuxmoi

[zaynes-left-chesticle]

Oh my god... Is that-....

OH GOD....

OOOOH MY GODDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!

#thank you magical box im actually crying right now #like legit tears rolling down my face #love and deepspace #Time to fucking bawl my eyes out watching this and Tower of thorns #literally cry myself to sleep lol #good night

[digital-dulci]

Currently shedding real tears (again) over jundori persona 3 is amazing

#SPOILERS IN THE TAGS!!!! #okay double spoiler check #Okay #See I already knew what Chidori ends up doing for Junpei #But the raw amount of emotion the scene and voice acting managed to convey #Was on par with october 4th for me #NOT JUNPEI HAVING A BREAKDOWN AT THE KITCHEN TABLE AFTER SEEING THAT SHE DREW HIM #ACTUAL TEARS SLIDING DOWN MY FACE AS I WRITE THIS #it's SO TRAGIC #but it's SO BEAUTIFUL #THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME #LOVE THAT WAS SO STRONG THAT IT LITERALLY GAVE CHIDORIS LIFE MEANING #AND THEYLL BE TOGETHER #FOREVER #LIKE JUNPEI HAS TO DEAL WITH THE FACT THAT SHES THERE #BUT ALSO NOT AT ALL #melts and rips floorboards and cries and yells and keels over and rolls around and #persona 3 reload #persona 3 #persona 3 reload spoilers #persona 3 spoilers #p3 reload spoilers #p3r spoilers

[afmis]

GUYS ITS ALMOST HALLOWEEN! IT’S FALL TIME! IT’S OCTOBER! THAT MEANS ITS C!BEEDUO TIME THEY’RE SO HALLOWEEN CODED ‼️ ITS THEIR SEASON

#IM CRYING I ACTUALLY MISS THEM #IM THUMBS UP-ING BUT A SINGULAR TEAR ROLLS DOWN MY FACE #FALL WAS SO THEM #FOR SOME REASON IT HURTS. KNOWING ITS THE THIRD FALL #AND IT COULD’VE BEEN THE THIRD FALL WITH THEM #man I wonder if what would’ve become of them #if the dsmp was still going on and hadn’t ended so abruptly #omfg I’m literally gonna make myself explode #I need to stop thinking abt it 💀 #man. It’s rlly sad to think abt tho #they would’ve been happy. It probably would’ve had it’s proper ending by now #I mourn all the lore and storylines and arcs and moments we would’ve had #how did this turn into me venting in the tags 💀 #bye #c!beeduo #c!ranboo #c!tubbo #Michael_Beloved #my boy #man #dsmp

[reputayswift]

watching a midwestern woman restore beloved childhood stuffed animals at 2am

#slightly inaccurate I was actually tears rolling down my face crying #tays takes

[oneshortlove]

Aaaa sorry abt how its not.. The best </3

I dont have alot of energy rn, but when i do i promise ill make a better version of the drawing

I'm sorry that I'm so late to this but 🥺😭

I love this so much you don't even know 💗💞

It's so beautiful, and its the first thing I see when I wake up?? My day will be perfect now❤ Thank you so much Cosmo🥺 I'm going to treasure this in all my lives💜💐💙

#my happiest interactions!! #My Loveliest Interactions #im crying haha #actual tears rolling down my face 🫂 #i love this with everything i have

[overalledfrog]

Spot the difference

#big city greens #bigcitygreens #tilly green #baldis basics #IM ACTUALLY CRYING #TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE

[jorvikzelda]

beat tears of the kingdom... not sure what to do with myself now. fantastic game I'll give it a 10/10

#I mean like. I'm nowhere near FINISHING the game. I've done less than half the shrines my underground map is so incomplete etc etc etc #but I feel fine taking it slower now that I've gone through the story fully #I cried twice in the final five minutes (and actually cried for REAL tears were rolling down my face) #so this game has made me cry. four times. which is a feat because the only game thats ever made me cry even ONCE before is botw #z talks #not horse game

[rainydaysaretheshiniest]

I just burst into tears.

That. Was the most beautiful. Most sincere. Most breathtaking. Most jaw-dropping-heartbreaking-soulpiercing piece of media I have EVER SEEN on screen.

I can honestly say - I can die happy now knowing I've seen this, even if it was only just a glimpse of the next season. I'm actually tearing up again

Anne, I hope you're watching from beyond, this is all that you've ever deserved.

#im actually crying #like im not joking tears are rolling down my face as I'm typing this #I cannot believe I have witnessed this piece of media with my own eyes #rolin jones the artistry that you possess #guys this is what I live for #this is art #this is what life is worth living for #IWTV #iwtv season 2 trailer #memory is a monster #that trailer included everything literally everything that ever needed to be put on screen from the vampire chronicles #I just don't even know how to process this my head is literally exploding

[worstloki]

Not to be that person. But the thought of, instead of handling those actual grief from the first five minutes of infinity war they decided to bring Jane back and have her die and be the grief thing?

Thor 4 handled grief? I thought they just brought it up and then skipped those parts

#YEAH like bro if you're going to just ignore every previous thing then why is this a continuation of those previous things #like oh the guardians are here no they're not Thor is depressed no he's not #they keep just *doing* events with the characters so that it can have *no* influence later as well #like #''thor has a tattoo for loki so he misses his brother'' ok?? AND???? where does that actually SHOW??? #''Thor is sad Jane died'' I ASK YET AGAIN--WHERE BOI #Thor be like poker face into the middle distance with a single tear rolling down his cheek #hashtag subverting toxic masculinity #I WILL say that Gorr's grief would've been GREAT to explore PARTICULARLY in parallel to Thor's own #like yeah Gorr you're right the g*ds are useless they didn't help with Thanos no one helped when my people were being slaughtered #yeah Gorr I know what it means to lose people people it has burdened me every single day and continues to #but you can't let the pain of that dictate your actions if all you're going to do is hurt yourself more #they should've fleshed Gorr out more in the middle and actually stopped to make Thor's previous suffering present #in more than 1 joking montage scene where he was sobbing and with a joke tattoo #throw as many gags as you want in but at least pretend you're trying for complexity in your character which HAS the setup for it already #shameful storytelling #5/10 #Thor 4 #especially since he is the main. #speaking of which what the frickity frackity were they doing with Val and Jane who ALSO had perfect setups for good messaging #like Val has taken on a lot of responsibility upon returning to a place she previously left after ditching responsibility #there is a LOT you can do with her character beyond showing her for fight scenes like come on man #I wouldn't call what happened with Jane fridging but I do think they wasted a lot of opportunity to get into the worthiness aspect #and the entire dying of cancer aspect. inevitable tragedies in life that do not have solutions? it happens! #but that Mjolnir didn't have an effect on the cancer's progression felt a bit... like the condition wasn't important but for that #and Thor *did* care about Jane taking care of herself but that could have been far better rooted into not wanting to lose people again #but like. none of the stuff at all felt serious or heavy at most it felt neutral and then went back to lighthearted #it's like they ended that storyline without properly starting it

[woundedheartwithin]

That video fucking destroyed me

#she speaks #yakuza #yakuza gaiden #yakuza gaiden spoilers #spoilers #I was actually crying like boo hoo hiccup crying #tears and snot rolling down my face call me kiryu I was bawling my fucking eyes out #ain’t cried that hard over a video game in a long ass fuckin time

[the-questionmark-kid]

I keep crying at fictional characters expressing pain and regret and then admitting to happiness and love despite it all

#like actually fucking sobbing #tears rolling down my face kind of crying #theres something going on in my brain and i dont know what it is #i rly need to find a therapist #thatdorianguy

[kimjiwoong]

me rn

#literally cant deal #actual tears are rolling down my face as i post this #LEE TAEMIN <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<<3< #rose.txt