#ah anxious about that

[ashiyn]

mayor scar fancam to material girl due to this beautiful post <3

#just for funzies #i miss him dearly im not gonna die #the one and only material girl to me #ah fuck it we might as well maintag it (<- playing it cool despite being anxious about it LMAO) #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft #hc s7 #.post #.vid

[strawbubbysugar]

I wish tumblr let you organize your posts into like. Folders. So all the asks can be in one folder but if someone just wants to see art that’s in another and if they wanna just see text posts another etc

#personal #I get so anxious about organization hdfhs #like I wish I could put all the asks I answer into their own thing so that my blog stays neater #but I don’t wanna stop answering asks I LOVE answering asks #esp the questions and the lore curious ones they make me SO happy #ah well

[prwlnglthr]

YOUR BODY IS VACANT THEY CRAWL RIGHT THROUGH // vent art

#(I told a half truth: I said to expect vent art but this isn't about the DMV) #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #fe3h #I've been off my antidepressants experimentally and it was fine until I reeeeally got smth to be anxious about and Anime Villain Chuckle #I need to go back I need to go back I need to go back I need to go back I need to go back I Am Thirty Seconds From Cardiac Arrest #I don't eat I don't sleep I can't think I am being accosted by demons and fiends (psychological problems) #ah. whatever this did certainly help. #spx art #spx digishit #spx fanart #spx chicken scratch #it is indeed my birthday I am officially older than mr the mitri (24)

[mrs-luigi-vargas]

I know I'd decided to only write one more bowuigi fic aside from the one I'd already written but I can't stop thinking about the idea of Bowser repeatedly kidnapping Peach for relationship advice and Peach getting so fed up with him about it that she tricks Luigi into being her body double so that Bowser kidnaps him instead and they can talk like Actual Adults instead of using her as a third party to vent to all the time

#i imagine Luigi also talks to Peach about the same relationship problems #because shes more in tune with romance stuff than his bro is #(whos still low-key trying to wrap his head around his brother dating Bowser of all people) #and theyre not listening to her very reasonable advice of 'just talk to each other about it it'll be fine' #so neither of them are doing anything about the misunderstandings and its driving her mad #anyway it would be funny for Bowser to have a whole conspiracy board #about how Luigi not sending his daily 'buongiorno!' text and shooting down 2 of Bowser's 3 date ideas in less than 5 seconds #means that hes fucked something up irreparably somehow and Luigi's mad at him what do you think Peach how do i fix this #meanwhile Luigi-dressed-as-Peach is standing there tied up like ah. #maybe we should talk about this properly. #(theyre both anxious messes about this fledgling relationship lmao) #meanwhile Peach tells Mario to hold off on the rescue for a day or two so Luigi and Bowser can sort things out #Mario has no problem with this because he too has also been subjected to the ever-shifting conspiracy board #and has no desire to hear about his bro's relationship from Bowser's perspective beyond a surface level ever again #(the conspiracy board goes beyond a surface level) #and Kamek knew from the second Bowser grabbed 'Peach' that it was actually Luigi #but he's also tired of Bowser asking him every 10 minutes if Luigi actually likes him or not instead of paying attention in meetings #so he just leaves and takes a nap instead of letting Bowser know about his mistake #because he sees what Peach is doing and yeah this is the only way this problem's gonna get solved #bowuigi #bowser #luigi #princess peach #yeah so i'm rubbish at writing established relationship stuff so if anyone wants this then please take it away from me thanks #mlv.txt

[soldier-poet-king]

MADE MYSELF SAD BY ACCIDENT WEEKEND RUINED ALREADY

#the duality of fran #yes i called in to work. i genuine stressed myself out so much i gave myself insane stomach issues #ah well #so played bg3 all day. grinding thru the last bits of act3 in my durge run #so i can get the epilogues before im separated from my gaming pc for the holidays #I CANT SEE THE EPILOGUES RN. BC. MT FUCKIN TAV FILES. ARE GONE #had some computer and steam cloud issues and anyway. my first playthru saves are gonsies so i gotta finish this run #TO GET THE EPILOGUES #anyway i did all of wyll and karlachs act 3 stuff and i think that made me extra sad #plus not eating properly bc stomach badness #and also just. probably shouls not have done nearly 10 hrs of video games straight #but alas #anyway im now extremely sad and anxious #about simultaneously everything and nothing #tattoos? my health? my family bullshit? the ultimate fate of the universe? every single problem in the world rn? #the fact that I'll never look like im supposed to? and part of me was using tattoos as a bandaid solution to fix that #and it did. not work #im not unhappy w them just not how i imagined it. but nothing ever is #and also winter. yknow. that awful time #more family drama lately. i rlly should clean my room. or de clutter my desk at least #IDK. IM JUST. SAD #and being sad is ok when i feel like i habe a purpose/duty to fulfill #but now i just kinda feel like. well im wasting air and space and resources and im not serving any function #self as a tool. yknow. i know thats bad. but. idk. idk

[hiddenmoonbeam]

love waiting for a phone appointment and the clock ticks past the set time....... 15 min now.... is her day busy and delayed, will she call in a sec or in half an hour instead? is she for some reason not calling at all but I didn’t get notified? has she forgotten? no idea and there's no way for me to call so I just have to wait.....

#it's a nurse checking in about the antidepressants #she's been lovely so far but i've felt anxious about it today for some reason #and now this #what....am i just supposed to go about my day until she calls??? sounds fake #i'll just be anxiously doing nothing while waiting #EDIT UPDATE: she was just late and also I almost cried at one point #not necessarily related to the depression but another personal Thing and even though what she said was broad and not something new really #I just.... a medical professional saying I'm far from the only one and I'll get there and just #ah yeah crying now #and i might not get another appointment with her :( fingers crossed tho that the doctor want her to check in instead of him #and fingers crossed even tighter that the psychologist won't just offer group therapy again I DON’T WANT THAT IT DIDN’T WORK LAST TIME

[a-little-unsteddie]

Sleeping with a ghoul sounds fun, tell me more??? 👀

i had an inkling you’d ask about this one ngl— but i’m so glad you did!

it’s pretty much entirely based off of the song ‘Sex with a Ghost’ by Teddy Hyde (first link is spotify, second link is youtube), which may not literally be about having sex with a ghost, but! i listened to it and was struck with the idea.

features kas!eddie visiting steve at night, and steve not remembering at first. a little snippet from what i’ve written so far:

Steve considered himself to be a pretty vigilant person. He would also consider himself good on his feet—he wasn’t the clumsy type. Which is why he was currently staring at his bare body in the mirror with shock and confusion. He looked like his chest had been mauled by an over-enthusiastic lover. As his eyes hovered over a bite mark on his collarbone, he considered that maybe an over-enthusiastic vampire would be a more apt description. Either option was impossible, as he hadn’t had someone in his bed since before—since before—just before and vampires obviously didn’t exist.

Steve frowned at his reflection for a moment longer before pulling on a maroon colored sweater, hiding the marks from view. At least they were able to be hidden, he supposed, seeing as not even the bite on his collarbone was visible. It wasn’t even the first time it had happened, him waking up to love bites all across his body. He swallowed thickly, frown deepening as he walked out of the bathroom and headed towards the stairs. It’d happened a few different times before, always with Steve chalking it up to him accidentally running into things or maybe even sleepwalking, but he was considering a weird, third option where he was having sex while he was asleep. The idea was bizarre, but ignoring the clear evidence was impossible.

#i am actually super anxious about writing this one #because i haven’t written smut in literal YEARS #but i’m also very excited because i think it’s gonna be fun #ah! #just-my-latest-hyperfixation #unsteddie answers #unsteddie wip game #steddie #steve harrington #steve x eddie #kas!eddie

[impostorsshow]

Happy New year everyone! I'm aware my post is late since I am 1 making this post 10 minutes after the New Year started, and also I live in one of the later timezones. However, I wanted to share that as a part of this new year, I've made a resolution; [obligatory read more since editing me has decided this is kinda long]

My resolution is to defeat [not 100%] every Zelda game that I have a copy of or aqquire this year. I think it's a task I can actually do and isn't too far off into impossible land, and to kick it off I spent the entirety of today completing [the first quest] of the original NES Zelda, in one sitting [like its meant to be] and abusing savestates every frame because I don't have very good control over mobility in games god help me if I play a precision platformer like ever. Anyway, completing this game is a very big deal to me, since I normally have a Very Big Issue with actually seeing the end of the game, and on top of that, it's a very hard game that i have held on a pedastal for years, and will continue to do so. I had to use my damn Zelda encyclodia and a guide to skip 70% of the final dungeon, too, though im nowhere near ashamed of that.

Here's proof for my own sake, as well as a few doodles, zelda related things in the encyclopedia that i may or may not do a redraw of later, and just general things that make me happy in my camera roll to start the new years off with some positivity. Remember kids, you don't gotta celebrate shit if it makes you feel bad, but make sure to take as much positivity as you can, however and whenever its avaliable, feeling happy is the difference behind surviving and living. If you don't have a new years resolution or are scared/dislike having one, that's okay and don't let anyone pressure you into that stuff! Just make sure your safe,stable and as happy as you can manage in your current situation.

You can tell this recording is mine because I never upgraded my bombs /j

#talk talks #important #zelda ranch dip #on a technicality #i saw a drawing of ravio and its the Only official art ive seen of his hood that i think looks cute so im gonna redraw it #i also want to learn how to digital paint but eh if i dont get around to it its okay. i got time everyone's got time #on nights like these i feel happy in like the “lets go sit outside under the stars and talk about our bad feelings so we dont have to think #of them anymore. lets trade thoughts and hopeful wishes in a hope they might come true“ yknow? its a nice #oh shit wait right yeah thats hust how feeling calm is like 90% of the time i can feel my chest being tight with anxiety #im a very anxious person but anxiety dont help anyone so you probably wouldnt know until like. i have a heart attack or something ive been #waiting on that to happen since i was 14 dude. ah dammit calm is over anyway happy new years! stay safe!

[sleepvines]

I was getting paranoid about a name I chose for a character accidentally lining up with someone else's (real) name, but then I realized that names overlap ridiculously often both online and IRL. Really, I should be more worried about the fact I forgot to brush my teeth before having this cup of coffee lmao

#and also realized. 'ah...I am experiencing a paranoid spiral again. stop that 🗞️' #sometimes I forget I am mentally ill and gotta put myself in a little time out about it #anyway uh #to all my peers on here who write or make comics or any creative endeavour: please let yourself relax if you also get anxious #your plot point isnt trite your character isn't overdone or a copycat #your art style will always be both an amalgam of your inspirations and wholly yours to play with #no one will persecute you for earnest expression #sleep rambles #love you all. I need to internalize my own advice

[fissions-chips]

ahhhhhh

tooth hurty

#i have a toothache and I am deathly terrified that it’s something that’s gonna warrant a root canal #i am fucking terrified of dental stuff and I haven’t been in a while so even though I take good care of my teeth I am. very spooked. #it might just be because I’m anxious and am clenching my jaw! it might! but now I can’t think about anything else. #it has been a very stressful week and my family is coming up tomorrow so if I do need to get it looked at I would really rather not have it #- done this weekend but. ah. #like. it’s such a small thing to be worried about but I’m worried that if it is something like… the dentist will say it’s my fault. which #- is so stupid to be worried about! #forgive me but I needed to talk about it somewhere cause I’m super anxious about it atm #vent

[andthebeanstalk]

Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.

And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.

I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.

But do you know what I found?

I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,

I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.

Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:

I was worth talking to when I was quiet.

I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.

So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.

You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.

(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)

#original #social anxiety #autism #that one post #actually autistic #self-diagnosis is valid - in case that last tag implies otherwise to anyone. i think it just denotes i am an autistic and not just an ally. #social skills #socially awkward #socially anxious #autistic positivity #autism positivity #like actually genuinely who does it hurt if i tell a joke that doesn't land? esp if the joke is not about another person #this is not a live comedy show this is life ya gotta learn to say 'ah well they can't all be golden!' #which btw is a line i use when my own jokes don't land and it usually plays pretty well actually. i've got a higher hit rate but #genuinely they just can't all be good! anyway i go into that in the post linked at the end there i think #people can tell when you're not sure of yourself socially and a lot of folks instinctively use that against you. and i am here to say that #it's fucked up that they are doing that and they need to step off actually. imagine getting to decide on which social cues are #acceptable and then using that power to be unkind. fuckin gross. i regret so deeply each time in my life i have made that choice. #being a kid who is abused like that so often it was eager to power trip when i met kids more awkward than myself. but it was wrong #and i regret it. and i am proud to say i haven't done that in a long time and instead when i find myself with that power i try to say #actually what do YOU want? to the people shyer than me. #i'm pretty rad now is what i'm saying lol #like all the ways that having a good social stat has improved my life just made me realize what bullshit it is that this was necessary #doing what I did is not desirable or possible for everyone. they deserve just as much out of life as i do. #side note: i think I've actually surpassed a lot of neurotypicals who had never even had to think about social rules 🤣. #like I feel no competition with other people who have struggled socially but now that I'm more charming than people who were dicks to me #I do feel like fuck you!! I win!!!! I can finally see enough of the full picture to say that your arbitrary rules were FUCKING ARBITRARY #I'm also aware of the fact that not everyone finds me charismatic but i am. in all the ways that matter to me. and I'm still growing! #note to future jack: you did save these posts in your notes app on the day this was written. #tbh i am often still awkward i am just not sorry anymore if i'm not hurting ppl. 'confident and awkward' really throws 'em for a loop! XD

[insoukokuhell-434]

Literal Sleeping Together - Skk Fic Rec :]

The format I’m using is:

Title - writer (ao3 link) Fic length Time period (mafia skk, 22! Skk, all ages) Additional tags (Tags in bold added by me for extra info)

Some fics have parts of the summary added for additional info

Selfish - Root (Fyki) 

6.2k

MAFIA SKK

Pining, Getting Together, First Kiss, Treating Wounds

[the epitome of literal sleeping together fics!]

Sleeping habits - purplesan

3.8k ALL AGES Light Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Getting Together

all these reckless nights - feralrookie (ag_sasami)

3.5k MAFIA SKK Post-corruption, Dazai takes care of Chuuya, Injury recovery/hospitalization

So if you go too far I'll be there - Kimisu

2.5k 22!SKK Chuuya takes care of Dazai, Pre-Fydor | Cannibalism Arc

From summary: “(Based on a HC that Dazai spends days before every major arc planning and arranging the pieces in order for everything to 'work'. He also pushes his body limits a bit too far when doing that sometimes.)”

Cuddles for a god - Gay_and_dying

1.6k MAFIA SKK Pre-relationship, Hurt/Comfort

[the 1st skk fic I ever read, it got me hooked. Shout out to Gay_and_dying for dragging me into skk hell :’) ]

You're Drunk (but i guess i'll stay) - StormDew2

1.1k MAFIA SKK Dazai drinks and Chuuya walks him home + Vulnerable dazai

Comforts of the Floor - smol_bibliophile_firefly

2k

MAFIA SKK

Idiot to Idiot Communication, one bed trope, hirotsu playing matchmaker for skk, Fluff and Humor, Fluff and Crack

This Side of You - SoukokuParadise

1.3k

MAFIA SKK

Port Mafia Week, Day 4: Comfort, Soukoku Port Mafia Days, Developing Relationship, soukoku fluff, they never knew how to deal with feelings

Cuddling & Snuggling

come lie with my bones - nolongersorrows

1.4k MAFIA SKK Caring Chuuya, Light Angst

From summary: “(Chuuya thinks about how Dazai seems to be uncomfortable touching people, and then they snuggle on a couch.)”

Slightly More Human - Bulllshitzarry

3.9k 22 SKK Angst with a Happy ending, Feelings realization, Post Dead Apple + Getting Together, Protective Chuuya

[the best angst with a happy ending fic, it made me cry. Beautiful writing]

The fire under his skin - BlowingYourMind

8.6k ALL AGES (mostly mafia skk tho)

Touch-Starved, Hypothermia, Dazai takes care of Chuuya, Chuuya takes care of Dazai, they're in love they just don't know, Light Angst

Summary from tags - (They end up in situations where they have to touch each other. Some are funny)

Has that (banger) trope of NLH comforting Chuuya after corruption

Soukoku Fic Rec Masterlist

#soukoku #soukoku fics #soukoku fic rec #skk fic rec #skk fics #this has been in my drafts for ages cause I was too anxious about posting it #but ah what the hell :] here ya go #edit: added comforts of the floor #edit 2: added this side of you #Sierra’s posts 🌸

[identitty-dickruption]

so fucking anxious about going to therapy today that I may just not go. fucking. shaking

#the thing is. I have to take myself there #so it’s a long anxious bus ride #and before that it’s an anxious process of getting ready to gi #putting on clothes that I think won’t make me look TOO insane #ruminating about what is reasonable to discuss #I don’t think I can tell her that I almost OD’d the other day #because I don’t want to end up in hospital #ah!

[mainfaggot]

omg first time i socialized w someone on campus and didnt feel immensely uncomfortable constantly

#i am now feeling a little anxious but honestly its like . half as bad as it usually is!! #that is pretty big tbh #shes just SOOOO real #like well dressed ✅ well spoken ✅ kpop stan who hates skz and likes wayv rv and defends itzy w her life ✅ non white so she Gets It ✅ #the way shes a hater in the same way as meeeeee #oh also shes bisexual like come onnnnnn ‼️ #really really sweet person all around the only thing making me anxious is if it was too obvious that. i am so deeply insecure 💀 #i try to act really self assured and never say self deprecating shit ever in front of ppl but it's hard to seem perfectly charming and also #not a people pleaser #like im performing so hard. almost constantly #w her it was pretty relaxed bc we talked about kpop 80% of the time and school/family the other 20% of the time #so most of the time i was just saying opinions. about stannie life. which is easy since that's my literal escape from facing my own life as #when we got to other topics i was like Ah Time To Act Put Together and Humble And Charming #z.post

[loyalhorror]

five good things

hal put max and i to bed earlier when we were getting pissy for no reason so that was nice. like just. napping and waking up like oh im fine now ok

im good at making ocs with grounded, believable problems and traumas, and realistically complex reactions to those traumas

mashed potato is good

putting cheese into food is good

when you wake up and know you dont have to get up yet so you can just sleep again for as long as you want

#rat.exe #five happy things #i'm Struggling because i'm anxious. and sad again about a friend but. ah well. #have a treato.

[caguaydreams]

JOTAHAN FANWORKS IS A03???

I DONT KNOW HOW TO USE THE WEBSITE SO LIKEE-

CAN U LINK SOME OF THEM

A fellow Jotahan enjoyer is DESPERATE for the crumbs. The time has come, I shall unveil my true nature in order to lend you a hand. We'll survive this together, Anon!

Ohhh boy, where to even begin. I know the bewildering absolute lack of fanart out there and my comment about crumbs might sound discouraging, and could make it seem like a worse situation than it actually is. But do not fret! AO3 got ur back! (I must apologise in advance for rambling, but honestly many of these fics are amazing and I owe their writers my life. Feel free to scroll down to the bit where I put the links to fics, lists, and authors that sometimes carry this ship on their backs).

I'm gonna list a bunch that I've recently been bookmarking in the website, as part of my months long personal crusade to read every single Jotahan work up there, and I'm kinda halfway through now I think, so I've got the stuff. Currently, there's a total of 393 Jotahan fics on the Archive, not all of them are the best quality, naturally, but that's okay, because the good fics are— and I'm gonna stress this out— The. Shit. Some Jotahan writers are wonderful masters of their craft, to the point you'll most likely eventually forget that, canonically, Rohan and Jotaro barely even exhange a few words in the first place! There is utterly delightful, suuuch delectable material here; fics that made the ship for me and elevated it from lol funny crackship to one of my top tier favorite romances/relationships of all time, in all of media, period.

You'd think, initially, that authors have to do some crazy acrobatics to settle on how they'd go about fulfilling the task of feeding dying starving suckers like me; how they'd go about making a relationship between these characters believable and feasible. But! surprisingly, there have come to be actual tropes in Jotahan narratives, stemming from how oddly natural their dynamic flows when you just give it some thought. My brain decided to conclude one day, that this is sorta like stepping into different possibilities of how Rohan and Jotaro would hit it up, because some fics can be quite similar in their approaches, but nonetheless distinctive and remarkable all the same. These characters can work SO well together, for better or worse, that there's no questioning it anymore for me. You'll understand, or maybe not (maybe you already do) but regardless I think you'll have fun checking these out!

So without further ado, and before I go on an errand of an essay about how this ship deserves more love and attention than it gets, I'm gonna drop the links. I know AO3 can look messy or be intimidating for people who are not familiar with the interface, but the first thing that will come in handy is knowing about pairing tags: your typical character/character tag that is often the first one you see following the title of a fic. If its got the characters of your preference, click on it, and you'll be sent to all the works in the Archive that feature that tag . You can start browsing for goodies from there! here's the tag to the huge assortment of fics starring the couple of mildly disfunctional adults that we want to see together.

And here is a lil bit of my latest (on-going) effort to build up a personal list of favorites and must-reads:

Underneath Perfection by Shorktooth ; I'm gonna be biased, because this one right here is my absolute. favorite. Nothing comes close. I'm even getting a little emotional by barely thinking about it. Actually, not entirely sure, but it was the fic that first sold me on this pairing when I wanted to give it a chance. Get-together fic, fairly long but definitely worth it. Not tedious, very fun, lots of variety, lots of incredibly sweet moments, it's a good deal all around. Of course there are little details here and there that keep it from being perfect, but they're minor and insignificant when viewing the whole picture. Much respect for how the author handles these characters, the progression of events, the story's pacing, and overall how organic everything feels; how natural. There are a bunch of scenes that have been embedded in my mind for months, and bits of dialogue I even reference and feel are strongly akin to what Jotaro or Rohan would actually say, even if this is fanwork. Okay, okay, I'll stop here because I'm saving my final thoughts for when I finish reading this story; Stone Ocean's animated adaptation must reach its end first. This fic follows Rohan and Jotaro across parts 4 to 6 of JJBA, so if anyone's avoiding spoilers they might have to be wary of those, skip this fic, or put it on hold like I did. Can't wait for part 6 to be over so I can get back to this work lmao. Its ending will probably crush me and be painful as hell but I don't care

How Soon Is Now? by Morioh-Cho-Radio (crimsonherbarium) ; Listen, one cannot talk about Jotahan fanfiction without mentioning "How Soon Is Now?". Underneath Perfection is my personal favorite no questions asked, but this series??? this is a must-read. Mandatory almost. Fuck, I haven't even gotten past the first three or four works in this collection but I tell you it's amazing (forever saving the rest for when I have the time to sit down and immerse myself into it because it is that special). It's got 10 single chapter stories in total, varying in lenght. Crimsonherbarium is one of those authors that manage to rightfully appropiate these characters and what they're about; nothing feels out of place, and the writing is just *chef kiss* it is thoroughly polished and hooks me in instantly, every single time. This fanfic even has its own playlist! and the songs selection, both for it and the fic titles, I think is fitting as hell for Jotahan, what else can I say?? read this series. go go go!!! have a feast!!

oh i know (it goes on, it gets old) by theultimateburrito ; Oh man... this one is something else. Is its own thing, I believe. Single chapter, kind of a long read, but you'll be enthralled. Feels like a novel, and it's not ncesarily out there, romantically speaking. The words I'm looking for to describe it are subtlety, and patience. It's a very unique short story that features comfortable company, familiarity, introspection, Rohan being his insatiably curious self, and one intriguing mystery that sounds straight out of Araki's work. I won't spoil it, but there's a particular place that I didn't even know existed irl until I read this fic and that on itself is maddeningly funny to me.

Now, some improvised picks of mine, done in speedreading fashion, because I've read too many works by now and can't actually think of what to put in here (keeping this list relatively brief and simple was more difficult than I thought). A list consisting of short stories to pick up on the go, separated by the general feeling I get from them:

Short and sweet:

Art Kids by anarchaick ; mild parallels made between Rohan and Noriaki, as well as Jotakak mentions are quite common. How these affect the mood of the story or the nature of Rohan and Jotaro's relationship is up to the fic, but in this one that is simply heartwarming

old recipe, new need by bishounen_curious ; this one's a sickfic, and it encapsulates some aspects of their dynamic SO well. I love this ficlet. It's all in the details, and the Domesticity

Ecotone by kujo (curricle) ; please read this one. That's it just read it. It is plain, bitesized perfection

the loneliest whale by pinkdarkboy ; wholesome, cute, and works as a comfort story

Short and steamy (not necesarily explicit):

Falling In Love by Kinda sad this one's by an orphan account :') regardless, it is a great read

Short and angsty/bittersweet:

It Is What It Is by illmoure ; .... sigh. Conflicting feelings about this one, but because it is an incredible work expertly written to achieve that purpose. Also, last Jotahan fic (yet...?) by one of the BEST writers for this ship. I'll later just drop a link to them directly

Save the speeches, flowers are for funerals by Morioh-Cho-Radio (crimsonherbarium) ; Hanahaki disease, I eat that shit up. It is the perfect combination of angst and romantic yearning, and as it is to be expected from this fic's writer here, this is another banger.

Short and funny:

useless questions by bishounen_curious ; weed shenanigans. It's pretty humorous, but that isn't mutually exclusive with tenderness, or physical intimacy. Therefore, I was torn between putting this one under the Short And Steamy category, but the first half is fairly hilarious on its own right so, yeah.

the death of kishibe rohan (1999, colorized) by oredatte ; Rohan being ridiculous, give it a read if you're looking for pure absurdity. Just satire here, and a bit of second-hand embarrasment

Short AU ficlets that are really nice:

A Sort of Homecoming by Morioh-Cho-Radio (crimsonherbarium) ; Japanese folklore inspired, in which Rohan is a yokai inhabiting a long abandoned place that belongs to Jotaro's family. I JUST noticed the fic was temporarily removed, but I read it long ago and still remember how beautiful it was. Actually, anything written by Morioh-Cho-Radio is absolute gold. ... pssst, you can still find this story via the Wayback Machine, but you didn't hear it from me—

Beyond the Sea by illmoure ; Mermay fic :) Marine Biologist Kujo Jotaro has a fascinating encounter. This one's just straight up lovely and refreshing

tears of heliades by pinkdarkboy ; inspired by the tale of Pygmalion and Galatea from Greek mythology

I was planning on listing authors who deserve way more than a honorable mention, but the post was getting too long, and I simply find it hard to rush a selection like that. Maybe some other time? Although, definitely do check out some of the writers whose work has already been featured above!

Oof.... Being honest, there are many more titles I wish I could just gather in one place but I haven't had the time yet. This pairing has provided me with an endless amount of comfort, besides being mostly a what-if scenario, but it quickly turned just as important to me as the source material it came from. Fanfiction can feel just as valid and impactful as media published by conventional means, and I'll think about these stories from here on out, long after I found them. I'll think of these characters, and the silly little made up reality in my head where they're genuinely happy, finding comfort and a safe space with each other, growing and developing with time, and it'll make me smile like a total fool. I really don't mind that in the slightest 🎶

#jotahan #lmao why can't I be normal about anything ever #should put up an additional warning that makes it known what one faces against when they ask me anything remotely related to my interests #Welcome to rarepair hell my dudes #should also be technical about the matter at hand and say that Jotahan is more of a crackship than a rarepair #although honestly at this point I consider them canon.... Listen— #—there's nothing in there that contradicts this pairing so I'm choosing to die on this silly hill of my own concoction #sigh... there were a couple of truly amazing fics I couldn't find nor their creators so I'm assuming they're lost media now. Ah well #at least I got to enjoy them at some point <3 #shutupcaguay #I feel the need to make actual fanart for this ship but something is holding me back. That something being my own anxious self dammit #must figure out how to manage my time better #longpost #just in case