#and all of those fics give me life

[iwozlegit]

|| 🍍• I’m probably not the first to say it, but imma gonna say it anyway…

…we were robbed with the Orion Pax arc in Transformers: Prime.

The fact that the 3 episodes supposedly spanned over a time period of months, is crazy.

Did Megatron make a conscious effort to actually “catch-up” with Orion when he said there’d be “plenty of time” for it?

If they did, what did they talk about? Was it awkward and short? Was it lighthearted and whimsical? Did it bizarrely feel as though the war had never been? Did Megatron lose himself in the illusion of a former friend?

If they didn’t, did Orion attempt to pursue a catch-up with the former gladiator, himself?

Did Orion forget to call Megatron his name, instead uttering Megatronus? How did the tyrant react to this? Was he insulted? Did he not mind in the privacy of their off-shifts?

What had been Orion’s final memory?

Did Orion ever inquire about Alpha Trion?

What did Orion get up to on his off-shift hours aboard the warship?

Did he have his rations in the company of others, or did Orion eat alone? Did he eat with Megatron?

Did Orion ever ask to venture to the Earth’s surface to see its beauty up close? Did Megatron go with him if permitted and show him?

Did Orion, inquisitive as ever, inquire why everyone looked so different - why Soundwave appeared so thin, why he, himself, felt so heavy, why Megatron seemed so distant and cold and angry?

What were his other interactions with Knock Out like, if there were any? Did he and Breakdown steer clear of him like the others? Or did Breakdown’s un-Decepticon and odd consideration for others spread and extend itself to the timid clerk with ease? Would Knock Out follow suit given his coy interest in the mech Orion became, or because of his partner’s kinder spark? Did Knock Out ever offer Orion a cool new paint touch-up?

What had Megatron worried Starscream would do or say to Orion when the warlord said “he did not…do or say anything troubling to you?” …despite the obvious, obviously. Why was Megatron so determined to live a lie?

Did Soundwave privately raise his concerns of allowing the amnesiac Prime so close to Megatron again, to the Decepticon leader himself? How would Megatron have reacted to it?

Did any of the rest of the crew hint at their concerns of having an amnesiac Prime aboard?

What unfolded after Orion slipped away?

What were Megatron’s real intentions of having Orion on board if Soundwave was capable enough to do the same thing?

Did Megatron think Orion, if provided another chance, would still want to be beside him after everything he’d done? Is that why the mistruths he told were so elaborate that he ended up getting caught in them and when Orion stirred to see their error, Megatron resorted to violence knowing that he could not save his fantasy???

…you know…just a few thoughts really :)

Ideas/headcanons ®️of @legitconcrusher

#|| ooc • #|| headcanons • #we were so robbed though wtaf #like there were so many other parts in the series where extra character development would’ve been sexy #*cough* PRE-WAR FLASHBACKS *cough* #there are plenty of fics on this I know but we deserve answers #and all of those fics give me life #give me more Megatron suffering internally with the choices he made in this arc #give me more orion unconsciously pushing Megatron’s buttons #|| jess speaks • #|| mun shenanigans • #tfp #transformers prime #megop #megaop #tfp headcanons #transformers aligned #maccadam #optimus prime #orion pax #alpha trion #megatron #megatronus #knock out #breakdown #soundwave #Orion pax arc #tfp season 2 #transformers prime season 2 #@legitconcrusher

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive come to realise that i dont actually hate kubokai, i just hate the way people write them

#sorry i read like two cute in character kubokai fics and im enjoying it now #theyre cute and im a closeted shun kinnie so. obviously i will ship him with my crush from the show. #i just really really REALLY hate the super cliche seme uke dynamic people usually give them #those people have NEVER watched the show.. my boy shun is NOT like that #its sooo stereotypical and they obviously give shun the role of 'the girl' in the relationship which is. um. ew #'shun is so fragile and innocent and uwu and he needs big strong aren around at all times to coddle him' #'and aren has a soft spot for shun and shun only and only shun can stop him from being totally murderous and dumb' #do yall know that one scene from the kissing booth #where elle is like 'NOAH! LOOK AT ME! THIS ISNT YOU! LOOK AT ME' when hes about to beat the shit outta his brother #thats how kubokai gets written usually #'aren pwease nevew fight again🥺pwease? fow me?' #me reading anything kaido says in most fics: HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT #sorry #people can write whatever they want its just. so ooc. #canon them is soooo bromance core #im sorry idk why im posting negative shit again when i like JUST said i wasnt going to do this anymore LMAO #not a callout post about anyone on here obvi- actually reading more recent fics from people on here is whats gotten me more into them #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #kuboyasu aren #kaido shun #kubokai #meows post

[tacogoats]

Thinking about a Durge who has rejected Bhaal, and whatever person they used to be, but still secretly longs for their lost memories. A Durge that, despite the answers the man could give them, would never re-ignite that strange passion they were shown they once had for Gortash. A Durge that has, for all purposes to the others in their party, moved on. A Durge that, six months after that day atop the Netherbrain, at a party celebrating their new life, receives a strange letter with an even stranger gadget hidden inside.

The meeting at the inauguration was a strange one. Despite Gortash's very obvious elation at seeing what he'd called his 'dearest friend', the man had no hesitation very proudly detailing the Dark Urge's grand scheme; their grand design for the world to be.

In front of all their friends and 'new' lover, of course.

They were furious, and rightly so. Gortash must have known what he was doing. To isolate them, to bring them back to him. The person who accepted them for all they were, all they are, and all they could be - together.

It wasn't enough to win the Dark Urge back to him, and although they'd tentatively teamed up in the end - he had died. Not by the Urge's hand, but in some ways, his own. The group had left Gortash's body within the Prism, and simply moved on. There were bigger problems, and no one really was sad to see him go. Right?

The Urge remembers a letter found in Moonrise Towers. Gortash liked gadgets, according to Ketheric. Evidence was abundant enough with the Steel Watchers, among other things. The item is strangely shaped, entirely too small, and with a simple touch, comes to life.

It reminds them of the strange picture they had seen at the Iron Throne. Gortash's visage shone through a glass, moving, talking - warning them to leave. Answering them, praising them for listening.

What a strange contraption, they'd thought all those months ago.

And then, now, there he was again. A picture, in their hand. A moving picture. Speaking with his voice, wearing his weary face - so, so weary - but not the same as before.

This had passed already. The voice did not answer them this time. It was simply impossible - the man was dead, but not quite gone in this moment.

He speaks of the inauguration like it had just happened. His joy at seeing his favourite 'assassin' again, which he says with a sad smile and a moment of silence. A heavy sigh follows, rubbing at his eyes - which they can see are so much darker than they last remember.

He is tired.

Gortash speaks of their time together, before Orin - and how Orin torments him day and night now that they had both confirmed the Urge's return. She appears with their face, taunting him some days. Other days she sends assassins that wear the same, and he simply cannot let his guard down anymore. But he knew it was them that day.

They can see the exhaustion that pulls down his features, makes his words heavier. This is not the Archduke speaking to him in this moment - it is a tired, broken down man that has just seen a ghost.

Yet they cling to every word anyway, because even though this is a broken down man who is terrified of the ghost - the man still hopes the ghost will remember him, too.

They don't. But he doesn't know that, not this little picture of him, anyway.

The picture says that if they are seeing this recording, it means he is already dead - and although he had planned to sway them back to his side, he may not have been given the chance, and refuses to allow the opportunity to share what the two of them once had slip away.

He would gift unto them the memories that he could, even beyond death. The bloody ones, the happy ones, the painful ones.

And he talks, he smiles, he even cries.

And so do they.

#durgetash #dark urge x gortash #i dont usually write gushy things but i am trying to write fic of this i need to yell a bit #this has been sitting in my drafts i release it to the world now #dont look at me im cringe #i just think that my own dark urge would always long for their memories despite withers's warnings and #knows that gortash is the only person who could give it to them and selfishly sides with him because of it #and when gortash dies he knows all is lost. and accepts it. he has a new life now. its okay. (its not okay) #and when they see that funky lil thing in the letter They Know. They KNOW it's from That man #and there's a moment of hesitation as those words from withers flash in their mind again but nope fuck it. selfishness wins. #and even though the man was a monster - they were once eachother's monsters and - there are his answers. some of them anyway. #and he can finally let go of that : ) #i dont have a writing tag nor do i want one rn this is a rarity for me #bg3 epilogue spoilers #minor spoilers but still

[merakiui]

azul has that single dad on vacation vibe nailed to a T in that new card and i’m going insane. i will be his wifey so he never again has to be a single dad on vacation

He's literally this:

But it's okay because he makes it look so good. orz I will also be his wifey so that when he has his next vacation trip he won't be alone. <3 anything to make dilf Azul happy hehe!!! >:3c

#twisted chit chat #there's the most terrible itch to write summer smut fics for the cast of the event... #those summer outfits have me in a chokehold #i want to write a silly fic where ace and floyd have a competition to see who can rizz up the most people on their tropical vacation #but floyd takes it too far and it goes from a rizz competition to seeing how many people you can kiss/fuck in a day #and poor riddle doesn't want to lose because the loser has to drink whatever alcoholic beverage of the winner's choice #and everyone assumes riddle will lose so they're all planning to make him drink this huge margarita #that will definitely give him a horrible hangover so he tries to rizz you because you seem nice enough to reject him #but maybe you like his sincere awkwardness hehe #it's a very silly plotless idea but the cast swearing on 'whatever happens on this tropical vacation stays at the tropical vacation' #is a fun mindset that they all agree upon #maybe it's a fic where they celebrate after they've graduated so it's one final trip of silly antics before they all have to focus on life #omg maybe they're drinking and daring each other to do silly things and everyone (except for jack) is dogpiling on riddle with absurd dares #like 'i bet you can't get that person's number' or 'i bet you can't get them to fuck you' T_T leave riddle alone everyone!!!!! #i have too many ideas in my mind orz #i'll stop rambling before these tags become far too long ;;;;;

[dufrau]

UPDATE: Bigfoot 4 is done. It needs editing, but it is done, and yes I cried writing the ending but just for personal reasons lol I promised you a happy ending and I am nothing if not an honest man.

I will post it on my birthday which is thursday which is exactly one year since I posted part 1 of this series.

So if you wanted to do a reread (or a first read!) conveniently you could read part one today and part two tomorrow and part three wednesday and then part four when it posts on thursday. JUST A SUGGESTION.

#ronance #bigfootverse #also if you were planning on giving me ronance fic for my birthday this is your 3 day warning! #i will also accept nice comments on any of my stories lol #for the record i will accept those any day of the year #i will also accept you not acknowledging my birthday at all because we dont know each other like that #live your life

[taegularities]

i'm hurt 🥲

#it's been 8 years and i still dream of my best friend who i was in love with in high school #last night was way too much though #like i met him again and replayed all the memories we had.. like dancing around in the rain #and since it was raining i told him to dance with me again even though it felt different #i knew he didn't feel shit for me bc he rejected me back in hs too but when i started talking about another guy he did NOT like it #and he admitted it... questioned me about him and then we kissed ??? #he told me to call him every now n then bc up until now it was always just him calling. like the jealousy was SO OBVIOUS #we kind of get together.. literally my 18 y/o's dream coming true like y'all i was SO IN LOVE WITH HIM LMAO #and then i ask him 'be honest did you feel something for me back in hs' and he just won't answer 🥲 keeps dodging the question... #suggests smth that sounds like a yes but then i woke up 😐 #i just wanted to let this out... idk it's crazy to me that even after all those years i still think of him #like if he approached me today and asked me out i just KNOW i'd give in. even though it's been almost a decade. i would definitely give in #first loves.. especially unrequited ones... leave an impact fr #my dream sounded like a fic i'd like to come true but well that's not how life works #anyways i'm just sentimental lol tdl ?? #personal

[leatherbookmark]

my dream portrayal of jgy is that he's an independant character with his own strengths (not lxc's sweet little child-birthing wifey) that get recognition and appreciation (and that aren't 'being a good mommy/rabid event planner, haha, such a control freak this a-yao'), who deserves and gets love (but isn't just a tiny lovely thing whose only purpose is-- do you get my point already i wonder), who's allowed to be in a bad mood (but isn't defined by those moments, which is very important to me personally), but who isn't a cruel or bad person (and whose attempts at explaining his situation to others are taken seriously, and not as just him trying to Manipulate Others As Usual because, and i might be controversial but idqc, if i'm to call a character a gaslighting manipulator i'd like to see cases of him a/ doing it b/ succesfully c/ often, and no, "well he conned lxc into thinking he's not an evil murderous twink, SOMEHOW" doesn't count)

and my problem is that it's, well, as dreams usually are, rather unattainable

#what i mean by 'allowed to be in a bad mood but not defined by them' is that like. i talked about it before but the way the entirety of the #fandom and their moms are convinced modern jgy is sooo cranky when he wakes up and he loooves to bitch and complain and his ^_^ is ALWAYS #AND ONLY a mask hiding murderous rage towards stupid customers. and as an irl misinterpreted character i find this kinda #hurtful because you're not really 'allowed' to do something if this something will get you teased/immediately associated with Being A Perso #Who Does Thing. like the fandom is very bad at recognizing when a character is acting influenced by intense emotions #but like if cql!lxc slaps jgy that doesn't make him a violent person who solves all problems with his fists and is Sooo Scary Haha to be #around haha Don't Piss Him Off. but this happens to jgy a lot in fanfiction and i'm kinda tired of it #give me one (1) fic where jgy can complain about his stupid ass father and his stupid ass job and gets comfort and support #i also don't get people being so into wwx+jgy friendship. like. jgy would be like 'hey please think abt how your behaviour impacts #not only your reputation but also those of your friends and associates' and wwx would be like lmao chill out idc! #and wwx would be like 'wow your life situation sucks you should just tell everyone to kiss your ass and get the fuck out' to which #jgy would be like There Are No Words To Convey How Much I Can't Just Do That and that would be it. idk #anyway. lotsa words when im just being a hater #shrimp thoughts

[gregmarriage]

don’t know how many ppl will care about this, but the two main reasons i’ve been off this site for a while:

1. health shit (usually that means i’m on more, but whatever, shut up, leave me alone)

2. i’m working on a new fic that is consuming me alive. (like for real, my every waking moment is filled with thoughts. i am plagued™️)

#thanks to my wambswife for listening to me prattle on #sorry i’m so annoying <3 #nah but literally this fic is taking up my entire life rn #none of y’all probably give a shit or have even noticed that i’ve been gone but 🤷🏻‍♀️ #if you do or if you (god forbid) like my writing then lucky you there’s a new fic coming #i don’t know when so don’t ask imaoooo #idk i’m very hyperfocused on this fic #in my head i am pepe silva charlie but on the board is all just ideas and lines etc for my fic imao #don’t try to have a conversation with me i’ll just annoy you with all my fic talk #i am bouncing on the walls #i am those stick figures where they’re biting their own arm #i am gollum going ‘my precious’ but it’s the google doc of this fic #i’m soooooo normal rn guys x #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[dbphantom]

Thought process: wow I have so many tabs open on my Firefox what the hell was I do-

Carry on.

#The other 7 tabs were also H2O related. Namely Max and Gracie's pages as well as Charlotte's #I also had a really funny page open that described mako island completely incorrectly? Describing lost ruins from a bygone civilization #Scattered across the island. Which I guess could technically be from Mako Island of Secrets (with the merman chamber) but like... #The images they attached were of old decaying bridges and temples so I don't think so! #This fic has been a journey and a half #Season 2 is suddenly at least 5 episodes longer #In my defense I really think it'll be worth it for the payoff at the end. I hope. #I'm giving the girlies (me) everything they've (I've) ever wanted #Cruddy rambles #... It is essentially just the show but Lewis is a fish now #I love all the other merman Lewis fics too but they do tend to deviate from canon a lot. Which isn't a bad thing!! Just not what I'm vibing #With atm so I'm writing what I want #I mean it is a whole rewrite so deviating from canon is implied but y'know what I mean? I just want s2 but with a few tiny details changed #A lot of them tend to be removed from the '[generally] slice of life but with mermaids' style of canon #Which is what I'm really vibing with atm as I'm currently in a tumultuous period of my life #So like absolutely no hate to those styles. I fucking adore them (and am heartbroken one author who posted recently never came back after #I posted a comment on their work talking about MA Zewis 😭😭😭) because holy shit their stuff slaps hard as hell and I love all of them #I'm the number 1 merman Lewis fan #I Stan every single person who has posted art or writing for that style of au #Just to make it absolutely fuckin clear that I mean no hate whatsoever. I just wanna throw my own hat into the ring yknow?

[daydadahlias]

i felt so mean pointing that out but i didn't want you just not knowing i'm sorry

no, it's not mean at all!! u dont need to apologize!

u guys are absolutely 100% allowed to point out continuity errors or grammar mistakes or formatting stuff if you notice it!! I actively encourage that you do; i will never be offended by it!! at the end of the day, i really am just one crackass college student writing gay fanfic for fun and stuff slips by my self-editing radar super easily!!

that's the beauty of sharing a fic in real time w/ a real community bc u guys do genuinely have a say in things and I can hear you when you talk !! i listen <3

#and stuff like this is SO small yknow #like the easiest fix ever #like took me 3 seconds to change the sentence and bam the fic is completely back on track #most of my errors are so minor that i just dont catch them myself yknow!! #and i dont have a beta reader #like ashley reads for vibes lmfao not for formatting/line by line edits #so people are totally allowed to point out stuff like this to me!! #the only thing u r not allowed to point out is timeline errors #bc those #those i cannot fix #if u notice a timeline error #just take a deep breath and suspend disbelief and pretend u never saw it <3 #everything else tho!!! #stuff like that is sO easy to fix!!! #it doesnt take me more than a minute!! #so dont worry at all!! im very appreciative of you telling me #and so FAST too!!! caught it within the first 4 hours of being posted!!! #thank you thank you #giving u a kiss on the head mwah i owe u my life etc etc #fanfic readers help make fanfic <3 #GRANTED YALL ARE NEVER ALLOWED TO TELL ME IF U WANTED ME TO DO SOMETHING INSTEAD OF SOMETHING ELSE #like if u went 'aw i would have liked it more if-' no shut up #but continuity !!! #minor edits!! #even if a comma is wrong #feel free to tell me tbh! #im more than happy to change stuff #we're all just having fun :) #pigeon #anon

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I thought about working a 9-5 for the next 45 years of my life and all of my love for life has evaporated

#it's 1am i'm going to read fun fics and forget about it and go to sleep #i have other things to worry about. we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. #.... it's genuinely distressing though. #because the only times i feel like a real person are outside of school or work. #especially holidays #i am never as much myself as during the summer holidays #i never have as much energy and motivation and joy for life as during the summer holidays #but soon i won't get a 2-4 months period to be a real person anymore. #soon i'll have to take a few weeks/year for a good 4 decades and by the time i'm done i won't have enough money to enjoy my freedom #i don't want that. i want to be a person. i want to be me 24/7 all year round #i don't want to say 'i'll do it when i have the energy' every day and know in my heart i won't ever have it anymore #do you know how long it takes to recharge those batteries? three weeks of holidays won't cut it #and i'm not even going to get that #i don't want to stop drawing to stop having fun with fandom to give up my hobbies and who i am as a person #but i know i don't have the energy to be a person after 4-5 hours of work #what is it going to be like when i have to do 7 hours a day? #when i have to push past my limits every day? #i can't conceive of a future where i work. i just can't. and it's going to happen and it's going to kill me #and i'm not even going to be dead! i'm just going to sleepwalk around the whole time and never be a person again #because all of the energy i have for that will have been taken by a work i don't want to do #.... okay i'm going to cry. um. fanfic time. i'm going to bury that under good fanfic so i can manage to fall asleep #wow i have a ramble tag now

[minakoainosupremacy]

I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

#this is if I’m also not dying next year… which is unlikely #don’t do what I do. don’t work full time and do school full time. especially when you’re doing a dual graduate degree program. I’m in hell #brain screams #it especially makes me sad cause when I started writing fics in the summer it made me SO happy to be writing again!!! #especially about sailor moon!!! one of my special intrests and fav shows of all time!! it makes my brain SO HAPPY!!! #as I keep telling myself - just cause I don’t make these things now doesn’t mean I can do them in the future. my ideas will still be there #I can write the fics I want and finish the YouRube videos I’ve started. I can make silly little doodles and comics and short animations #I can take my Venus plus on hikes and exploring and to wonderful places!! we can go to museums and cafes and concerts!! #we can go to the ocean and climb mountains and get lost in the forest and get muddy and wet and cold and sit by campfires and climb on logs #I can take my not fully fleshed out idea of using her and my other plushes to make a sort of live action stop motion skit video!! #I want to be creative and free and have fun and live my life and pursue my passions!! #but rn… all i do is work. work and homework and class and homework. until I’m so fatigued I can’t walk and I can’t sleep and I can’t think #to be real watching the anime and having the codename: sailor v and stars arc of the manga is like one of the few things getting me through #when I’m so tired I can’t think I have those as comforts so I’m not sitting on the couch wanting to die #I find so much comfort in existing in the space of this fictional universe and I draw strength from the characters #like sailor moon helping me get through some of the hardest fucking shit I’ve ever done in my life. and helping me remember to love myself #also lowkey helping me fight off my depression and ed and substance abuse issues #I just both get so much joy and comfort from this space but also I feel I owe it so much gratitude for kinda helping me from crumbling #I want to also contribute to this space cause it gives me joy to do so and cause i want to give back and contribute to others joy as well #like it’s a combo of I love this and want to and also as a form of gratitude i want to and also to help others experience joy I want to #but… I don’t have the time or energy now. and if my life keeps going on like this. will I ever? I’ve never let myself slow down. #idk if I ever will :( oh well

[ravensmadreads]

Youre giving me life rn the tags are so funny. Thank you!

Shut up your fic has me in a chokehold???? It's so funny and soft and hot and amazing and I can totally see future heartbreak but I'm still gonna finish it and okay im gonna shut up now

IT'S KILLING ME

P.S Anita Moreno is a badass and I love her.

#gonna be suing you for damages cause that fic is ruining me #i speed read all those chapters in one sitting #and they're chonky bois so you KNOW i put my time in #marcus moreno got me into the pedro fandom ok #(it was him and javier pena they dragged me in kicking and screaming and then max phillips just swallowed the damn key) #anyway i have adhd so imma be doing random attacks on your masterlist while i avoid real life #also i make no apologies for the tags they're chaotic and unhinged and that's just who i am as a person #think of the pandas has been bouncing in my head for 24 hours i hope you're happy #and the current thing?! do not EVEN- #it's my niece's fav movie when she comes over i can't watch it with her ever again ARE YOU HAPPY #you better be cause that fic caused serious mental damage #(iloveit) #raven is a 🤡 #shut up raven #raven answers #raven makes.... a friend? #raven rambles #p.p.s y'all gotta stop thanking me fr #you're the one writing such amazing stuff and sharing it thank YOU #thank YOU op that fic is giving me LIFE #my life is shit rn (all due to myself) and this is the only comfort i have so thank you thank you thank you #lemme kiss your face

[youngpettyqueen]

🤡, 😈, and 💔!

🤡 "What’s a line, scene, or exchange you’ve written that made you laugh?"

the entirety of like a dog, but specifically-

"Hawkeye gives Frank a ‘go on’ look. “He started it!” Frank accuses, the picture of petulance, “He bit me!”

For any single other adult person in this godforsaken war, Henry would laugh at such an accusation.

But this is Hawkeye.

He looks at him. He hopes the ‘please for the love of all that is holy tell me he’s lying’ is obvious in his eyes. “Pierce.” He says.

Hawkeye suddenly finds a loose thread on his sleeve very interesting.

“Pierce,” Henry says again, with feeling, “Did you. Bite. Frank?” He can’t believe he’s asking that of a grown, adult surgeon and not of one of his children. The temptation to drink is rising.

Hawkeye shrugs. “I warned him!” He exclaims, “I told him ‘Frank, if you don’t stop pointing in my face, I’m gonna bite you.’ And he didn’t stop pointing in my face.”

“So you bit him.” Henry fills in the blank, remembering a time when this kind of disappointment was reserved for when one of his girls put chewing gum in the other’s hair.

“So I bit him.” Hawkeye echoes, nodding, with not a hint of remorse."

and-

"“You tasted bad.” Hawkeye informs him.

“Go soak your head.” Frank grouses as he shoves past."

made me laugh very very hard when I put them down. I reread this one whenever I need a good laugh

😈 "Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?"

ending the second chapter of and miles to go before i sleep on a cliffhanger of the emotional high point of the Hawkeye and BJ kiss. I did that purely to be mean and make people yell at me

proceeding to take a month long break from that fic due to god slapping me upside the head with writer's block was NOT part of the plan and I genuinely felt so bad for leaving people hanging on that but my god the writing machine really just BROKE

💔 "Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?"

both leave your roles at the door and what remains, but ill give the shoutout to leave your roles at the door for this one because the reason it breaks my heart is it resonates with a personal area for me for this bit specifically-

"“It should- it shouldn’t’a been him-“ Radar whimpers, “Not- not him, not- ’s not fair-“ Margaret combs her fingers through his hair where it pokes out of his cap as his voice cracks into another sob, “He wasn’t- h-he wasn’t supposed to die, I- I loved him, I love him, he can’t be dead, he can’t-“"

in February of 2022 my Nonna passed away. my Nonna and I were very close, she moved in with my family when I was 8 years old as my Nonno was living full time in the hospital at that point and it wasn't good for her to be alone, and she lived with us for 14 years. she played a large role in raising me, and I loved her and continue to love her very dearly. needless to say, her death, though expected, completely wrecked me

Radar here acts much the same way I did. this bit above specifically is how I felt. she wasnt supposed to die, I loved her, I love her, she cant be dead. I wrote Radar to feel the way I did, and sound the way I sounded- like a little kid who didnt understand. Radar cries like a child here, because I cried like a child. I wrote this from the experience of my own grief, which I sometimes still find myself sitting with, and it broke my heart but... in a good way. it felt cathartic. it felt healing

and then I inflicted the sadness on everyone else cause im an evil fic author and I like making people cry and yell at me for making them feel things

#fic bitching #mash #ty Sarah! #leave your roles at the door is very poetic for me personally #2022 was one of the worst years of my life #if you asked me to name you all the good things I had happen last year #I could probably count them off on one hand #and one of those things was watching MASH #it might seem silly but I was deep in depression and here was this show #that showed humanity in the worst of conditions and showed love and hope persevering #and it felt like it grabbed me by the arms and pulled me up to my feet #and told me that I would be ok #that things were bleak and I was allowed to feel the way I did #but things would get better #because I still had love and hope #sometimes it felt like Hawkeye was giving me a hug #and sometimes it felt like he was clapping me on the back and telling me to make life my bitch #so yeah #felt poetic to sit with some grief and write for this show that means so much to me

[todayisafridaynight]

only thing stopping me from writing and posting minedai fics is the fact im too lazy to orphan all of the works on my ao3 rn

#snap chats #'orphan' lmao ironic #anyway ive been meaning to for months now #i dont like those fics anymore but i know people do like them so at the very least i wanna rocketlaunch my name off them #im just lazy lmaooo #i do this every time i jump fandoms tbh #granted i hardly write fanfiction but i orphaned all of my persona fanfiction once i started writing for other stuff #while i finally get to doing that Maybe i got a goofy idea i wanna write out #and normally id draw it but. it's ns/fw LMAOOOOO #not that i havent DONE ns/fw before every artist in their life will at least once for whatever reason #it's just that i can't post that anywhere :)))))) and twitter won't give me twitter circles and i am At My Limit #we'll see what happens #also i just wanna write minedai stuff In General i love their characters so much and i love thinkin bout em #and the thought of writing them out seems like itd be really fun #i just feel like all of my ideas are either too long/too short/i can just make a small comic for it #but anyways im gonna go brainstorm byye

[fiadorable]

I wrote a fic about Spock and Una dealing with the aftermath of "All Those Who Wander". It will be way more enjoyable if you've seen Short Treks: Q&A as it references those events as well.

Many thanks to @ussjellyfish for her encouragement and suggestions!

#star trek strange new worlds #una chin riley #spock #star trek fic #snw fic #star trek spoilers #fiadorable writes #spock is a basket case and una has a secret #their friendship gives me life #all those who wander #ghosts of illyria