#and as far as i'm concerned

[commsroom]

eiffel's problem is that he sees every injustice as an interpersonal issue. he doesn't understand how his flippancy or apparent leniency towards hilbert might look to hera; in his mind, it doesn't contradict his support for her. to eiffel, it seems obvious - he is also one of hilbert's victims, hera is his friend, of course he's completely on her side - but he fails to fully grasp how the stakes are different for her.

ep 19: "you need to stop treating this like a joke, officer eiffel." / "hey, i'm the person for whom the joke tolls." / "i get you're scared he put something inside you. but i hope you haven't forgotten emergency code alpha victor. he put that in me." and ep 51: "they're just jokes! they don't really mean anything." / "see, eiffel, you get to have that. they can be 'just jokes' for you because you're... well, you. but we don't get that."

the issue in shut up and listen is eiffel's repeated, if unintentional, microaggressions, but it's also his general use of dark humor as a coping mechanism - jokes he feels justified in making because of how the subjects of those jokes have impacted him. eiffel sincerely believes in treating people equally, but his idea of 'equal treatment' can be idealistic and naive. he has an awareness of interpersonal harm, but he's lived most of his life without ever being confronted with the reality of structural harm - being pre-judged and othered and having his life devalued on the basis of outside categorization.

but the thing about that is that it has happened to him, too. eiffel is an addict, and a convict, and marked as from a lower socioeconomic class than minkowski or lovelace, and those things are the reasons goddard futuristics was able to buy him as prison labor and - without his consent - consider him expendable for medical experimentation. none of that is a coincidence, but he doesn't see the systems at work, only his own actions and regrets. which he then equivocates to the worst actions of people who don't share his sense of morality or guilt.

eiffel's ability to recognize and bring out the humanity in the people around him is one of his best qualities, but... on the basis of his identity, he's been able to live a life where he conceptualizes himself as the default person, and that's been reinforced by the pop culture he loves so much. that's a massive blind spot. he assumes everyone navigates the world in a similar way, and so, on some level, he sees everyone around him as an extension of or a reflection of himself. if evil is always personal, then it can always be reasoned with.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #like. his answer for 'what is your worst quality?' #is a very tongue in cheek job interview answer: 'i empathize too much with others.' but from a certain angle... #i just think it's interesting. he has such believable faults and biases and assumptions about the world. #and the other thing is. eiffel's values are the show's values!! in some way he is also correct!! #but it's the line between diplomacy and centrism. #and the understanding that inaction is still an action that can hurt people. and that there's often not a right answer. #eiffel values the right things as far as the show is concerned #and as far as i'm concerned #but he lacks necessary perspective to really enact those values. decentering himself enough to really listen #while still keeping that personal focus. #i love that line where he says he's going to 'keep debugging his code' because it's so deferential like #'sorry for talking about you like this' and also 'i'm trying to see myself through your eyes.' means a lot to me. #and of course. the dear listeners literally reflecting eiffel while viewing him as the representative of humanity. there's something there #especially with the way eiffel externalizes both his good and bad qualities and projects them onto others #really good show. really good character writing. you know.

[pineapplesandbananas]

I'm just gonna say it-

Let's place bets on how much longer JJ and Will's marriage will last-

#jemily #jennifer jareau #emily prentiss #criminal minds #cm #criminal minds evolution #they won't last forever #sex can't solve all your problems jayje #and as far as I'm concerned #emily is a lesbian #and in love with jj #and we need that love in our lives #william lamontagne jr

[softquietsteadylove]

3rd...

But the plan is just to see her from afar, not to talk to her or have any forms of communication with her. But it was her who went in to her favorite shop to order something and he had no choice, he didn't hire any crews to take her order. He stumbled when Thena walked to him like nothing, it felt like meeting her for the first time. She asked that maybe they had a list of what she orders in that shop because she doesn't remember it anymore. And that's how Gilgamesh knew that she has an amnesia because of the incident.

It scared the shit out of him, seeing her...just there. He almost wondered if she was a ghost (an angel, maybe). But she just stood there, tilting her head at him behind the counter.

"Can I...do you have a menu?"

No, he didn't. He didn't even know how to make half the shit they used to make. He hadn't bothered to learn. He'd bought the building just to see her again, then he was going to gut the building and sell it.

"S-Sorry," he mumbled, putting his feet on the floor and standing up. He walked over to lean against the counter closest to her. "New menu isn't, uh, ready yet."

"Oh," she nibbled on her lip, toying with her purse strap. She seemed so unsure and anxious.

"You okay?" he asked before he could really stop himself (he really had no self-control at all when it came to this woman).

"I," she paused, her eyes sinking down between them. "I had a regular order here but...I can't seem to remember it."

Gil tilted his head at her. She hadn't seemed to recognise him when she walked in. At first he thought maybe it was because she had heard that the accident was targeted--that maybe she hated him now. But then why come in here? "Can't remember it?"

She sighed. "I...I was in an accident. They said that lapses in memory is...normal."

Amnesia: she couldn't remember it. He didn't know how much she could remember, but it didn't seem to include him. And it hurt almost as much as not seeing any recognition in her eyes when she walked in.

"Cappuccino?" he suggested on a whim. The memory of her leaned over that little white mug, hands clasped around it, hair fluttering around her was too strong. Too vivid. "Maybe?"

Thena smiled, small and hesitant as it was. "That sounds lovely."

Great. He didn't know how to make those.

"Uh," he stuttered again, and he briefly thought that if his boys could see him they'd piss their pants laughing. But he offered Thena a smile, gesturing to the table he'd left in the window. "Have a seat. You might have to be a little patient with me."

"Believe me, I have had no choice but to develop a propensity for patience."

That was his little bookworm. He peeked at her through and over the pastry case regularly as he looked up a video of how to make a cappuccino with the fancy espresso machine he'd kept. It turned out fine, although he couldn't make the pretty design on top. But eventually - after eight long minutes - he got it made and brought it to her.

He watched her take a sip, as if his whole life were riding on that one sip.

She smiled. She smiled and she looked just like she did before, just for a second. She turned to him, with that bright smile showing off her teeth. "It's perfect!"

She was perfect--is perfect.

"Y'know what?--wait right here." He had just made her drink, of course she would be there. But Gil still ran to the back, pulling out the pie he'd practised making while at the shop by himself. He cut out a slice, bringing it on the fanciest plate he'd kept with a cute little dessert fork and a little dollop of whipped cream.

"What's that?" she asked, having seen him coming from the window.

"Today's special," he smiled, setting it down in front of her gently. He could do this much, he resolved. He could give her a nice new memory of the place, unattached to him as Gilgamesh. He was just...some barista, who was slow at his job and made blueberry pies.

Thena took a bite and started glowing from the inside. She looked just as excited as she had when she had told him all about early models of Athenian legal systems. She looked like his Thena.

"It's amazing!" she exclaimed, turning those sparkling green eyes on him that made him feel like she'd shot him right through the heart.

"Oh," he breathed out a nervous laugh. He hadn't even tried it himself, having only thought of bringing her something to pull that frown off her beautiful face. "Good!--I'm glad it turned out."

"You haven't had any?" she asked, immediately pushing the plate over on the tiny table, as if it were a natural reflex. She even put her fork down, turning the plate so it faced him. "Try it."

He will never know why he did end up sitting down across from her. He was supposed to be keeping his distance. He was supposed to be letting her move on with her life. But instead he was sitting down with her, again, and eating desserts and talking and laughing, again.

Thena tilted her head at him as he took at bite of his hard work. "What's your name?"

He nearly choked on the bite he was chewing, but she naturally offered him a sip of her cappuccino to wash it down. She didn't seem to realise how natural it was for her to do it. Certainly she didn't seem to wonder why it seemed like something she had done a million times before.

"Gil," he answered after a long minute of debating whether or not to lie to her. He could have, of course, but...but he couldn't--of course he couldn't. "You?"

She smiled at him again, and goddammit if he didn't fall in love with her all over again. "Thena."

#Thenamesh Amnesia AU #pt 3 #the angst kids #poor Gil #but listen #he's not meant to be a lone wolf. #and as far as I'm concerned #he will never be good at it #any Gil I write needs his emotional support Thena

[pnw-chaplain]

Could I, in theory, think of a mundane way to deal with an interpersonal problem? Sure.

Will I, in fact, try to solve it with magic instead so I don't have to talk to someone I don't want to talk to and have both of us feel emotions we don't want to feel? Absolutely.

#cursed by my own friendliness #I don't wish this person ill #I just wish them away from me #but they decided I was one of their best friends long ago #despite not making much of an effort to really know me #and when I try and push them away a little they react pretty badly #so now I'm soured on them completely #but every time I stop ignoring their texts and make a token response to them #they try and pick up as if we're still tight #and as far as I'm concerned #we never were #I don't want them to hate themselves or spiral #I just want to be left alone

[dyscomancer]

#from the desk #tumblr #tumblr ads #tumblr meta #hellsite #meme #what's your opinion on #as far as i'm concerned

[stuckinapril]

so for anyone who doesn't know, the last few days of the global strike (jan 26-28) are where people are supposed to amp up posting about palestine on their social media. if you can afford it, please use the remainder of the strike days to mostly engage w content spreading awareness about palestinian genocide. some people might find this a tall order, but it really isn't. it's just three more days, and the content you typically consume isn't going anywhere. and if you're keen on not giving a fuck about palestinian genocide, do everyone a favor and don't engage by leaving "how can i filter political things like this?" comments on posts about palestine. the people who're concerned w advocating for palestine have other things to worry about than disturbing your internet bubble. save yourself the trouble of typing that up. i assure you nobody cares.

#and on that note--as far as this blog is concerned i'm exclusively engaging w palestine awareness media until jan 28 #palestine #gaza #israel

[winterlyre]

my mostly faithful recreation of this image:

#mine #bg3 #shadowheart #karlach #minthara baenre #lae'zel #shadowzel #mintharlach #minthara/lae'zel #shadowlach #femslash february #as far as i'm concerned every month is femslash february #sapphic #yuri #my art

[kugisakiss]

so if you're secretly a cop and he's secretly a cop and i'm also secretly a cop, then what's with the grade schooler running around our ankles exposing us?

#detective conan #dcmk #hondou hidemi #akai shuichi #furuya rei #edogawa conan #look as far as i'm concerned reveals that happened 7 years ago some 700 episodes into a series is not spoiler territory #so yeah real names for everyone for my own sanity #except conan i guess i see him as a separate entity from shinichi #my art

[pyebald]

drew this when the item servers were down and finished it today

edit: ref under the cut

#there's no way someone hasn't done this but that's ok #as far as i'm concerned only a lad is pyros official backstory #tf2posting #tf2 #team fortress 2 #team fortress 2 fanart #tf2 pyro

[ventiswampwater]

Kurt Russell as R.J. MacReady THE THING (1982) dir. John Carpenter

#the thing #the thing 1982 #r j macready #kurt russell #filmedit #horroredit #scifiedit #mine #a macready gifset? on tumblr dot com? groundbreaking. #<-this is all to say that these scenes have been giffed 7397493849 times before in far more gorgeous detail #but I'm throwin these in the tag anyway. bc we should all ponder our orbs about him from time-to-time #I played around w/colors on these and I'm kinda digging the blue #obsessed w/the fact that universal was leery about hiring kurt russell for this part bc he was ''too young and pretty'' fhsdjfhdsjhfdsjhfd #incredible. valid concerns. he was indeed v young and v pretty here #to use my previous tags: #macready if you read this im free on thursday night and would like to hang out #please respond to this and then hang out with me on thursday night when I’m free #guy of all time truly

[jeeaark]

Lol, I was scrolling through some of your older posts and saw the one where Greygold was an NPC in the adventures of a Durge. Which made me wonder: Do you think Greygold would willingly travel with a Durge and try to help them with their urges?

The key word is "try"

#bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #durge #greygold #can you tell that I'm still mad about the rope #anyway I only got as far as Gale being REALLY chill about Durge's murder urge confessions and it....-concerns me- #Greygold would try- disastrously try #Booby-trap the camp shenanigans #Durge falls into a pitfall in the middle of the night while sleep-murdering

[rykemeadow]

Lexie Grey and Mark Sloan in Grey's Anatomy 05X13 Stairway to Heaven (2008)

#as far as i'm concern #the show kinda end with them #grey's anatomy #greysedit #greysanatomy #greys anatomy #greysanatomyedit #lexie grey #lexiegrey #lexie grey edit #mark sloan #marksloan #mark sloan edit #marksloanedit #lexiegreyedit #slexie #slexie edit #slexieedit #mine #mystuff #myedits #mygifs #tvgifs #tvandfilm #tv #tvedit #televisongifs #televisionedit #televisiongifs

[cyle]

cyle stop leaking features challenge, difficulty: impossible

feature leak double header:

and:

#not actually really leaks as far as i'm concerned

[lyriumflames]

So we all know about the classic "I'm changing history to save clara" quote, but do people know the absolute batshit earlier draft of that scene? Like-

My god

#a bit far my guy #apparently the pink script is the third to final? it goes pink to yellow to green so early-ish in the writing process #I'm glad they changed it tbh that's a little too heavy for an earlier episode #that script is fascinating actually #for the actual ep they removed some colder/harsher doctor lines (and a concerned clara reaction) and any reference to danny #twelveclara #whouffaldi

[skyefeys]

last night i dreamt that miles was trying to propose to phoenix but it kept getting interrupted by how emotionally constipated they are. and finally they get their shit together and miles pulls the ring box back out but it's EMPTY and he looks at kay like "kay did you steal my engagement ring" and kay goes "we all thought the proposal could use a little more flair teehee!" and then trucy goes "hey daddy open your mouth" and phoenix opens his mouth and there's the engagement ring

#canon as far as i'm concerned #also maya was there at one point but i don't remember what she did. i think just was silly #ace attorney #narumitsu #wrightworth #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #kay faraday #trucy wright

[captainhysunstuff]

22 more images (with some saucy shenanigans and immature "seduction" tactics towards the end) below the cut:

Ryuk makes his grand return and is brought up to speed with Light and L's immoral union. The date seems pretty successful~.

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#drawn by me #my fanart #my fancomic #Death Note #The Chain #lawlight #Light Yagami #L #Ryuk #smooch #saucy shenanigans #suggestive dialogue #Ryuk third-wheeling~ #L meets Light's quirky-deadly roommate #henh not much to say about this one. basically a continuation of the previous entry despite the absurd update gap. #I've lost the ability to keep anything brief anymore~ #L seems a bit out of character with his willingness to go with the plan huh? And don't you think he'd have gotten used to Light's teasing b #now? Maybe it hits a little different knowing for a fact that it's coming from Kira's mouth directed towards him of all people~ #Also the picture where Ryuk is saying he'll scram when things get heated is probably my favorite drawing of him that I've done! #he was so intimidating to draw especially over and over in comic form. such a far cry from my usual human style #but like all things I gradually became more and more comfortable drawing him. I'm very happy about that! :) #I have a dumb idea/headcanon concerning the nerds' first copulation attempt~. #if I decide to include it here I will definitely try to age restrict it even though it won't necessarily be graphic. #don't wanna get in trouble lol #I have more trouble drawing spicy scenes than I do with shinigami subjects XD #tw: food issues #they both eat the sketchy 'apple' to prove they're not cowards... despite it not being the smartest idea in the world. >_>