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I'm marco, 26yo cis guy from UK. I got into weight loss because I wanted motivation to stop drinking around april 2022, and ended up bingeing and purging on avg 3 times a week for abt 6 months. I relapsed back into daily drinking (litre+ of vodka a day) and detoxed in hospital at the start of the year, but have been finding it really difficult to stop and stay stopped, so I'm back here. I've nearly died so many times recently from drinking and I just keep gaining/getting more and more swelling &bloating. If any alcoholics/bulimics have advice for someone who cant stop shovelling it in to get a sustainable deficit, I'd appreciate it a lot. My goal is to be safe about it, but I'm open to anything that works.

I'm experimenting with different methods of weight loss, sometimes fasting, sometimes rezzing, but am very inconsistent. I binge v often. This is not so much an accountability blog, more like recording what I've learnt and just venting. My bmi starting around may20th was 22 ish, was 5th june 20, 4th oct 22.5,and now 20.5 jan27th. Have to get it back to 20, but goal would be 18 with low body fat %. My main goal is to stop drinking and get healthier (thinner).

To do list:

get compression sleeves for running

Things that worked:

going to meetings make it much easier to abstain and think abt other things than food -> much easier rezzing

being distracted by things unrelated to food

having good food options for rezzing prepped, like boiled eggs, or having a solid stock of staples like steak, yoghurt, fruit and veg

not buying food that I will binge on, if I buy it, even if its not for me, I will eat it and get fat

taking longer routes/walking instead of getting train (energy, weather and mood permitting)

peppermint tea

keep it in the day. One day at a time really works, it just takes practise to get into mentally

supporting blood sugar throughout the day, especially if going out/socialising/towards the end of the day (when alc cravings pick up). This is best done with small amounts of carbs following a rly high protein 1st meal

Things that I was doing before but that didn't work out well:

taking K supplements (just eat s. potato for carb allowance, is filling too and has loads of K, stops palpitations when intermittent fasting)

pho, miso or gochujang as soup bases. They are too salty and lead to painful sluggish bloat.

Oyster sauce is not worth the cals

Diet sodas. Caffeine dependence builds really quickly and teeth need help

olive oil for sautéing vegetables. Pointless cals. Fats can come from lean meats like beef steak, eggs and occasional avo as well as omega3 supplements

fasting. At 18 hours I feel like I'm goin mental and at 22+ the palpitations make it uncomfortable to move around or do anything at all

strength training (esp core) at home without equipment. Dont enjoy it at all, not motivated at all

watching hours and hours a day of ED documentaries, scrolling ED tumblr, and watching hours of foodtube every day. Obsession -> binges

hard avoiding carbs. Leads to massive brain rot and feeling morbid. Can't do anything. Inevitable binges, usually alcohol, or 4000 cal of food.

sushi is not really worth it. White sushi rice is too sugary. Its usually a carb craving in disguise, or something to get on the go and is expensive.

weighing every morning just lead to trying to use caffeine as lax and more chaos on energy levels, or obsessing and not being distracted.

Press ups make my joints click a lot. Planking is really boring and doesnt feel rewarding.

Using sex for stim instead of food and cooking

Curious about:

feta, olives and cherry tomatoes for satiety.

Broccoli and mushrooms (annoying to prep or dont taste nice when boiled)

chicken sausages for cheap lean protein (think they can be a binge trigger or lead to mental scarcity feelings but not sure if worth)

ways to make cottage cheese not taste shit (cocoa powder is not cutting it)

cardio > strength training maybe. Runner's high > nothing from strength training (that I ever felt anyway).

Finding a way to enjoy strength training

yoga and stretching for stim

skipping breakfast has really mixed vibes. Can feel completely awful, but can also make rezzing much easier. Can also lead to binges in the evening (because there's unspent cals in the budget). Probably best to stick to eating breakfast but keeping it high protein and not eating right away when waking up.

Experiment with meds timings.

minced turkey or discount fish for lean protein variety

ways to make eating salad not miserable, cos it does work rly well for getting a deficit. (Maybe herbs and lemon and chickpeas? Make in bulk? Quinoa? Binge risk)

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New plan from 4th Oct '23 can't be strict bc cant track exercise cals without a phone for looking at time spent walking and running so will need to do a gross-in instead of net- in quick basic (aspirational) plan:

1000 cal deficit/day for the next month -> 1500 gross in/day allowance

NO: baked beans, bone broth, oil, paté, pasta, alcohol, caffeine, quiche, cheese, instant snack food, pesto, chorizo, hummus, meal deal foods reason: too sugary or fatty for their worth in flavour. Cause binges every time when rezzing. Not filling enough. Caffeine leads to crashes and the pickmeup is usually food.

LESS: bread, onion, ketchup reason: can be useful carbs in a pinch, less likely to cause binges than above (because they are only accompanied with protein). Onion and ketchup help with mental scarcity and support good vibes

MORE: fruit, veg soup, sweet potato, tuna, s. noodles, fruit juice, avocado, egg, steak, quorn, butternut squash reason: sugar cravings need to be comboed with fibre addition, or fruit juice could be useful diluted for emergency alc cravings. Everything else is lean protein and should be frontloaded in the day. Sweet potato is there for potassium and low glycaemic index carbs. Avo and s. noodles are contentious bc of price and fat/nutritional value reasons

ALTERNATIVES TO EATING: gaming, reading, weighing, cleaning, brushing teeth, counting cals, weights, stretching, running, walking, meetings. mostly overeat because of boredom and to break monotony in free time or to stim. These are alternatives that work and also make rezzing easier in other ways.

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fuckingrecipes · 4 years

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hi im super duper picky about food, especially fruits and berries and veggies, so ill only eat certain things and im picky even if it contains the food i do eat. i think it depends a little on texture? do you know any foods with textures similar to raw apples, boiled/raw carrots, boiled/fried/baked/mashed potatoes, cooked rice and raw/boiled corn that isnt similar to onions or tomatoes? i cant stand those two, and itd be neat if i knew if there were veggies with tolerable textures i could try

Texture is why I dislike mushrooms. The taste is fine! But the eyeball-sponge in my teeth is the WORST. ugh. So, I totally get avoiding foods based on a bad sensory experience.

Jicama is a fun vegetable that has the texture and taste somewhere between a raw apple and a potato.

Kohlrabi also has that same nice crispiness to it.

Daikon Radish has the similar crispiness to apple. It can also be cut up and pickled without losing that texture =)

Turnips have that friendly crisp to them, but a strongly earthy taste.

Jerusalem artichokes or Sunchokes are tubers like potatoes.

Roasted Parsnips have a similar texture as carrots, but an ‘earthier’ taste.

Cauliflower Rice has a very similar texture (imo) to cooked rice, but a lot of nutrients that broccoli does.

Mashed Cauliflower and Mashed Parsnips is similar to mashed potatoes.

Yams/Sweet Potatoes have a different nutrient profile than normal potatoes, but can be more easily used as a dessert and tastes different, with the same texture. (Though I warn that these can be a bit fibrous, which changes the texture somewhat)

Rutabaga is a root vegetable that tastes like a cross between a cabbage and a turnip. Super duper nutritious, but a little hard to prepare since you need to use a knife to remove the tough skin rather than a potato peeler.

Carrots can also be cooked with butter and brown sugar, so they’re soft and with the texture of its boiled version, but are a sweet treat.

There are a lot of different types of squash, with likewise different textures. Spaghetti Squash has a way different texture than Acorn squash, which likewise is different than Butternut Squash.

Water Chestnuts are very similar in texture to raw apple. Totally different taste, though. Not sweet at all.

Pastina is the term for teeny tiny pastas - literally the size and texture of rice, but pasta~ There’s a whole bunch of types of Pastina, but you might like Orzo, Midoline, Grattini, or Egg Barley.

There’s also couscous and quinoa, if you wanted to try some whole grains.

Good luck on your food journey!

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asrasotherbottom · 5 years

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First, I hope you get all the support and love you deserve dear. ^^ You are FANTASTIC! Second, I am clinically depressed with high anxiety. How would the six handle someone with those qualities? The fretting and low, days where you want to disappear, worrying that no one really cares it just an act?

Thank you!

I’m writing this based on my experiences and the experiences of those close to me, and i 100% understand those aren’t universal. and my interpretations of the characters are not Law or universal. I just wanna say blanketly, that I hope youre doing alright and that you also get the support and love you deserve and that you are safe. Content warning for suicidal ideation (that feeling where youd rather just not exist without like A Desire to act), anxiety, depression. Under a readmore so please take care of yourself and don’t click if you might be negatively effected by reading about this also its long as hell.

Suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386.

Asra:

- His heart literally aches with you

-Brings you tea in bed for days that you cant leave bed either because depression or because anxiety

-Will sit with you for hours just so you’re not alone, even if youre feeling awful.

-Cares 50000% less about the shop than he does about you, and if youre having a bad brain day he will just lock up and sit with you and hold your hand.

-Will encourage you to get out a little if you can, maybe for a nice walk in the woods to collect mushrooms with him because sometimes getting out and doing something helps.

-Is good at finding secluded secret ways to get around bc fuck people.

-He’s bffs with Muriel so hes pretty good with dealing with self loathing and anxiety already.

-Asra i think has a really good response to the “nobody cares and its just an act” because his magic mark will just glow when he puts his hand over your heart and its really hard to argue with “made a deal with the devil to resurrect you” if the argument is “nobody actually cares” and that was 100% his choice and hes not afraid to tell you that.

-Can, will, wants to, just ramble at you at length about how much he loves you and exactly why and will spend hours refuting your arguments which is tiring but maybe helps you feel a little better by the end.

-If things are just So Bad? If you want to disappear? he’ll nap with you just to be close to you and keep you safe.

-Will bring you to his oasis to walk around and help keep you safe if you really just want to disappear and he’ll try to cheer you up there which is admittedly mostly just pointing at tiny weird magic bugs and stars (but at least your body is safe).

-Deep deep down he’s still the person who brought his mom a button when she was sick so he’ll try anything to cheer you up. Faust too.

-He’ll even talk to Julian to see if he knows anything or anything to ease your pain a little.

-Will sit and just Listen to all your pain and be just Present for you.

-He loves you more than life itself and will definitely be receptive to anything you say about things that might help.

Julian-

-Extremely similar hat.

-But goddamnit if you made HIM feel better about being alive and worthy and deserving of love, he is absolutely going to return the favor.

-Anxiety? he knows all the back alleys to avoid people

-Doesn’t mind staying home from the rowdy raven to sit with you if youre too anxious to go.

-If you need a small dark quiet place to be alone and calm down? Hes got just the place (the hole at maz’s and he’ll even come in with you if you want because it makes you smile to see you both try to cram in there)

-Depression or anxiety making food hard? Some of maz’s soup will fix you right up.

-You find him in the middle of the night pouring over medical texts about depression and anxiety, looking for anything to help you at all.

-He’ll sit up with you on nights that you cant sleep because of anxiety or because youre just too sad.

-He’ll definitely lay in bed with you while you cry.

-He found someone who truly and entirely loves him and he will cling to you for dear life, and tell you all the things he loves about you whenever you need or want to hear them.

-He probably is gonna try a leech at least once.

-Brings you to the docks at night because its calm and peaceful and away from everything.

-After his upright end he definitely learned the importance of a support system and isnt afraid to enlist it to help keep you happy and safe.

Nadia-

- Shes extremely concerned that someone who lights up her entire life can be so sad.

-But shes not about to sit back and do Nothing.

-She can and will cancel any event or meeting if it means she can sit in bed with you and hold you while you cry or if her presence with you soothes some of your anxiety.

-She’ll bring you to her contemplation tower if you need a place to just get away from everything thats making you anxious.

-Will also bring you to the magical realms to help keep you safe and help cheer you up.

-Enlists the finest doctors that she can find if you’d like.

-She’ll take long baths with you where you two can just sit in the hot water and you can cry while she strokes your hair.

-If you feel like shes just faking her affections towards you then expect a bit of a surprised scoff followed by a 4 hour powerpoint presentation about every single thing she loves about you and how you make her feel

-You feel like youre not good enough? “I’m the fucking countess and i could have had literally anyone in vesuvia or beyond but i want you”

-Will pick you up and spin you if she sees you smile because shes just so happy to see you happy.

-Horseback riding as a way to help clear your head and escape anxiety is a given.

-Shes really attentive to making sure you stay fed, in fresh clothes, and bathed, even during bad depressive times so that it doesnt pile on to your bad feelings.

Muriel-

-If not same hat then EXTREMELY similar hat

-Lives in the forest so hes all about that avoiding social anxiety life.

-If you ever feel unsafe Inanna can and will lay entirely on top of you.

-Feeding chickens and petting inanna as anxiety relief for both of you.

-He’ll definitely hold you against his chest or with your head in his lap while you cry if you need it.

-Muriel hates seeing you sad, and doesnt always know exactly what to do or say but he’ll make you eggs all the time to make sure youre still eating when youre sad.

-Will remind you that youre like the only person hes ever truly let in to his heart and he doesnt want to lose you.

-Will also remind you that he gave you the myrrh voluntarily because he….wants you to remember him. hes never wanted to be remembered before. he never asked for it back.

- He really empathizes with wanting to disappear but he doesnt want that when hes with you and he wants to work hard to help you feel the same way with him.

-Long quiet walks in the forest together.

-He’ll take you stargazing and tell you all the things he loves about the beauty of the forest and the stars…and you.

-Big Hugs for Big Sads

-Enlists asra and nadia’s help if he feels he needs it, but he cares about you enough that he’d willingly seek out help for you.

Portia-

-Yeets pepi at you Like A Football.

-”Peep?? Peep Peep”

-Youre gonna feel better if it kills her.

-Gardening to help with sadness, touching dirt always helps. She’ll spend hours with you in the garden, helping you create like beauty with your hands.

-Chase the goddamn cockatoo with a broom to make you smile.

-Enlist’s Maz and Maz’s soup as well.

-Helps you find secret passageways to hide in when your anxiety is too much.

-Too sad to leave bed? Portia will carry you and your blanket.

-Is having none of that “oh what if you dont actually love me” business. She’s super used to Julian’s self loathing and depression that shes moved on to slightly tougher love.

-She loves you and shes going to keep telling you that and shes not going anywhere.

-She gets soft when you cry though and will cling to you for dear life and not move for hours.

-”How dare you talk about the person i love like that” - Portia, to you, when you talk about reasons you hate yourself.

-Cries with you though.

-Doesn’t like when she has to go to work when you’re in a bad mental space so shes asks nadia for you to have just a nice room in the palace reserved for you that you can lay in so she can come check on you during the day.

-Shes great for bad anxiety days because she has no problem doing social interactions for you. The thought of going to buy some herbs brings you to tears? No problem, she has no idea what herbs shes buying but shes Gonna Do It.

-The strength of Portias hugs is liable to just squeeze the depression right out of you along with also your internal organs probably.

Lucio-

-”How can you be depressed?? You’re dating ME, the COUNT! ……….Can I help?”

-He definitely tries to use his sex appeal to lighten your mood, it probably works sometimes (or at least gets a laugh out).

-Gets extremely startled when you cry but holds you tight against him.

-Cancels meetings, cancels plants, cancels the entirety of the Vesuvia if he has to in order to stay in bed with you when youre having a bad depression day.

-You can cry into M&M’s fur as long as you’re not wearing any makeup :P

-Gets worried and hides the pointy tips for his gauntlet.

-Absolutely having none of the “nobody really cares and its just an act” hes the COUNT! He could have anyone anytime he wanted! You were the first warmth and compassion he felt in years! The first person to really actually love him for /him/! he gets way more emotional than he plans to but he feels very strongly about this

- 4 hour powerpoint presentation on all the reasons hes into you

-Tries really hard to find material things that will help your mood. Gold? Silk? Furs? Sweets? Watching fistfights? Anything?

- He knows what its like to really disappear and hes not about to let that happen to you.

-He’ll never admit it to anyone but you but hes clinging to you with everything he has and he will work tirelessly to help support you.

-”Will petting my hair help you relax”

-Ropes Julian, Nadia,and Asra into things to help you, but they dont mind because its You theyre helping really.

-Anxiety? “Oh don’t worry, I’ll make /sure/ all eyes are on me” it maybe doesnt help exactly as intended but watching him be ridiculous eases the tension a little.

-Deep deep down he knows in his soul Deep Sadness and it makes him surprisingly good at supporting you.

i hope this was what you wanted!!!!

#Anonymous #nadia #julian #asra #muriel #portia #lucio #the arcana #depression #anxiety #mine

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lostinaseaoffictionalbliss · 5 years

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Only In My Dreams Part 3

Summary: Courtney is still at a loss and her distraction might just cost her, her life.

Pairing: Sam x OC

Warnings: language, supernatural violence

Word Count: 2049

Blood poured from Courtney's mangled arm. It looked like she had gotten into a fight with a wildcat and the wildcat had won. There was also a gash across her chest and she honestly thought this was it. This was the end. There was no way she was walking away from this alive. She gazed up at the rugaru standing over her. He was big almost as tall as Sam, but bulkier and his black eyes stared down at her with hunger. She knew the monster was planning to make her its next meal and she just knew it was going to be a painful death. She wished that Sam and Dean hadn't made her come out with them. She definitely couldn't do this.

Earlier that day

When Sam and Courtney emerged from the bathroom Dean was up and drinking a cup of coffee. He didn't seem fully awake with the way he kept rubbing at his eyes, but he had a newspaper opened on the table with an article circled. In New Orleans a woman was found with most the flesh eaten from her body. The cops were chalking it up to an animal attack, but the woman had been in her home and there were signs of a break in and then a struggle in her bedroom before whatever had attacked had won.

Courtney almost gagged as she looked over the article. Even just reading that someone had the flesh eaten was enough to turn her stomach and she was supposed to help track down whatever monster had done this? That was just crazy. There was no way she wanted anything to do with that. She would just help with research and that would be it. There was no way in hell she was actually going to fight whatever the creepy thing was. Nope she would stay in the motel and read about it. Helping the guys by giving them all the information she could. That was what she planned to do. Of course first they had to try and identify what the monster could be.

As Dean took off to get them breakfast Courtney pulled out a laptop. She wasn't sure whose it was, but when it booted up the lock screen was of her and Sam kissing, her nickname was there where the username went, and surprisingly she knew the password. She frowned and clicked on the chrome icon loading up the search engine and started to do research. As she looked through different articles on monsters her mind kept drifting to Sam, who sat across from her on his own laptop, and Dean who had yet to return. She didn't understand how any of this was possible.

Sam and Dean weren't real, monsters weren't real, none of this was real. The Winchesters were played by Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, monsters were just people in costume or CGI, and it was all filmed in Vancouver. Yet every time she looked over her laptop she was reminded that Sam was in fact sitting in front of her and was trying to figure out what kind of monster ate human flesh. How had this suddenly became her life? One minute she was an overworked paralegal who wanted a different life and in the next she was waking up next to Sam Winchester and she was researching monsters. None of it made sense and she wished she had some answers.

With a heavy sigh Courtney ran a hand through her hair and decided she needed to step out for a breath of fresh air. “Hey I'm gonna go outside for a second. I think some fresh air will help clear my mind,” she said. Sam lifted his head and locked eyes with her trying to discern if she was alright or if she was still stressing about whatever had bothered her that morning. After a few seconds he nodded his head. He trusted that she would be fine on her own. Courtney smiled and headed out the door.

Spotting a bench under a tree across the parking lot she darted toward it. It wasn't exactly what she would consider being in nature, but it was close enough. She could sit under the large willow, breath in the scent of the daffodils growing at its base and relax, clear her mind, and come up with a plan. Courtney desperately wanted to understand what was going on with her life right now. Unfortunately she wasn't going to get the chance to do that. No sooner than her sitting down on the bench did she hear someone saying her name.

Lifting her head, Courtney locked eyes with the eldest Winchester who was holding up a bag full of food from the diner down the street and shaking it. Knowing that if she said she didn't want to eat Dean would pester her she headed back across the lot. When the bag was emptied and she saw the egg white, spinach omelette with onions and mushrooms along with an English muffin she was speechless.

“Is something wrong with it? I told them to toast the muffin,” Dean said. After assuring him nothing was wrong Courtney started eating. It had just been a surprise that he had gotten her favorite meal. It only added to the confusion she felt. Both Winchesters acted so familiar with her and it had her thinking that just maybe this wasn't a dream. But then how was that possible? It couldn't be. She quickly shook that thought away.

Everyone finished eating and piled into the Impala. Sam had a pretty good idea what the monster was and it was time to head out. Hopefully once they reached New Orleans they could find it pretty easy and kill it before it killed anyone else. Of course Courtney was freaking out internally the entire drive. She kept having the same thoughts playing over and over in her head. Oh God, are they going to expect me to hunt? I cant hunt. I've never hunted a day in my life! Even with how familiar the guys acted, how loving Sam treated her, the few memories she had of this life she refused to believe any of it was real. She couldn't stop thinking all of this was a dream.

As soon as they reached the city Dean found a motel and they checked in. They needed to change into their FBI get up and go check out the victim's body. Courtney wasn't looking forward to seeing a dead body. Something told her it would make her sick. But she changed into a tight grey pencil skirt, a dark green blouse, and a grey jacket. Slipping on some black peep toe heels she followed the boys out to the Impala.

At the morgue Courtney’s assumption was almost proven right. When she saw the body with the flesh ripped off and muscles showing she had to choke back bile. It was the most disgusting thing she had ever seen and she just knew seeing the monster responsible would be even worse. I'm definitely staying in the motel room. Looking away from the body she looked to Sam. “So rugaru?” She asked. It was the theory they had came up with before leaving the last town.

“Yeah it's a rugaru. We'll need to make some flamethrowers and try to find out where and who it is,” Sam said.

A quick trip to the hardware store provided them with everything they needed to take out the rugaru. Now they just needed to find it. As the boys set to work making the flamethrowers Courtney grabbed some more comfortable clothes and changed. Plopping down on one of the beds she turned the TV on and tried to relax. Everything was still confusing, but she was tired of thinking and just wanted to clear her mind with some mind-numbing television.

However that wasn't going to happen. When the TV clicked on Sam looked over at her. “Uh babe what are you doing? We're getting ready to go out and find the rugaru.”

Courtney lifted her head and stared back at Sam. “I thought I would just hang out here. Relax for a bit ya know.”

“You never want to stay at the motel. You're always right in the thick of things. You've said countless times you love this part. Killing the monster and saving people.” Sam had been worrying about Courtney all day after the freak out in the shower and this just made him worry even more.

Dean cocked a brow. “You can't stay back. Like Sam said you love this part and we need you. Hell you're better at taking out monsters than even gigantor over there.”

Well fuck me. Looks like I'm stuck going out in the field. I swear if I get killed I'm gonna haunt their asses. “Yeah I know. Just a little tired today. Give me a minute and I'll be ready.” Courtney climbed out of the bed, slipped some jeans over her shorts and put her tennis shoes on.

An hour after trying to find the rugaru Dean decided they should split up, cover more ground. That way they might find it before someone else was killed. Courtney was against splitting up, but she knew if she spoke up the boys would question it. And really she had no answers for them. She still had no idea why she was living this life, why she had memories from being a hunter, but the ones of being a paralegal were more vivid and at the forefront of her mind. It was best to avoid questions at this point.

Walking down an alleyway Courtney's mind wouldn't shut up. She was terrified of finding the monster on her own, she also was having trouble believing all of this was real, she couldn't stop thinking she didn't belong out here. It was because of her thoughts that she was distracted and didn't hear or see the rugaru until it was too late. Nails raked down her arm as it was gripped tight and she was thrown to the ground. The pain was worse than anything she had ever endured. A small cry escaped her and she squeezed her eyes shut to stave it off.

Looking down at her arm she let out a whimper. Blood poured from Courtney's mangled arm. It looked like she had gotten into a fight with a wildcat and the wildcat had won. There was also a gash across her chest and she honestly thought this was it. This was the end. There was no way she was walking away from this alive. She gazed up at the rugaru standing over her. He was big almost as tall as Sam, but bulkier and his black eyes stared down at her with hunger. She knew the monster was planning to make her its next meal and she just knew it was going to be a painful death. She wished that Sam and Dean hadn't made her come out with them. She definitely couldn't do this.

Just as Courtney had given up, had surrendered to her fate she heard a loud scream. The rugaru was on fire and letting out the most awful, pain filled noise. Slowly it fell at her feet dead and she looked at it for a brief moment before looking to her rescuer. Sam stood there, flamethrower in hand and looking worried. He dropped the makeshift weapon and rushed to her side. “I've got you. We'll get you patched up. But you want to tell me how you managed to get so banged up?”

Courtney in fact did not want to tell Sam. She just shook her head and said it got the drop on her. The look in Sam's hazel eyes said he didn't believe her, but he didn't press her further.

Back at the motel Sam cleaned and bandaged her arm. She gave him a kiss and laid down. While she didn't understand anything that was going on, she did understand her and Sam were together. Out of all the craziness that was going on that was the one thing she liked. But would it be enough to keep her sane? Would it be enough to help her adjust and accept this was now her life?

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shytiff · 3 years

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June Small Wins

1 - ecmocard meeting with ppl from aussie to learn to sort out data. Felt better after the meeting cause i didnt feel like doing anything before. Got two season deli box cake from dapur cokelat for nessa. Videocalled w her and ren.

2 - dr eva chatted and gave things to do. I also need to make intern log for dr retha. I just cant bring myself to start. Finally mustered the courage. Im not the type of person for wfh. At least in this house. Finished reading love or hate. I rly felt like shit at night.

3 - started reading positively yours. Had no will to do anything

4 - some more sending spss work for dr eva. weekdays with no “outside work” rly render me useless in functioning. a vegetable

5 - iluni webinar. Lost my attention during electrolyte and fluid stuff. tried to cook ribeye steak lmao (meat from @/fridaymeatshop). Its too chewy and leathery. But its not too welldone. And at least it tastes good. Went to depok by krl. its quite quick since krl arrived just after im at poris and duri. went ahead of silvi devi. satpam on the lobby wont open the access hhhh (i dont have one. i dunno why. mom said she cant find it although we supposedly have 2). but my mood improved once im upstairs. we prepped a bit of deco. conversed in the dark so not to make racheel suspicious. surprisee. had truffle belly chicken cheese for dinner. the cheese was not to cheesy, its more of a gentle taste. mushroom tastes better. we watched sweet and sour from my mobile data. surprisingly, its not that much of data. slept at like 12-1ish

6 - the electric token went out in the morning. we went for a walk in ui. the PLK man across of st ui forbade us from going in. ugh. but it was rly empty. so we went from barel. its empty on the library. there was a dog that walked along with us. talked a bit in front of the lake. went back. i got 2 moon chicken (the basic flavor and not the wings) and spicy jumeokbap. the jumeokbap was nothing like what i had in korea. like the seaweed’s taste doesnt come out that much, and its not that flavorful/savory. the one in korea its good even by itself. went back to jkt nebeng reza silvi with devi. originally planned to go to flavola, but my head kinda hurts, so i finished my moon chicken at the mushola and asked juan to pick me up. still feel healthy and normal after going and staying out, so i started reading a book abt handwriting analysis lmaoo. fell asleep. tried several attempts to figure out my bpjs number and turns out the best there is to respond is BPJS’ twitter. the problem was solved under 5 mins.

7 - woke up, fell asleep again. Adita told me that i might be interviewed today for the ipd intern but theres no info. Did the registration stuff for my bpjs. Registered for npwp. Watched bts x na pd

8 - off to RSF. its audit day today. hiks to phonecall follow up work. i did not do anything inaco related, i just sat there and did dr dafsah’s excel. dr vera bought me pecel ayam hehe yay. went to como park to meet up with indah regen. tried ricotta pizza from pizza place (33k). the cheese is cheese but not that typical cheesy (?) coupled with mushroom. i had to add sauce to withstand the last bites (still kinda full). tried other’s as well, pesto and mushroom. pesto had the most taste. while waiting for doggo to arrive, we bought gelato (S: 35k). apparently their special flavor was ricotta lmao. tried green tea (bitter, which i like) and peanut butter + caramel, which makes you feel thirsty. watched the doggos from the sidelines. after maghrib we went to 1/15. ordered ice mocha (50k). the chocolate taste stood out more. not gonna order again lol. the staff initially recommended pandan flavor. took grab to gbk station to go home.

9 - rsf. second audit day. i hate it here lmao. im not even paid for my time here. excused myself to eat. turns out mbak Ai bought hokben. i almost forgot thanking her since i felt hungry with a bit of headache. talked a bit with dr retha regarding changes of assistant (since internship is soon). went back and immediately laid down in bed. mom bought pizza so thats what i ate for dinner. fell asleep (i can feel it. my face will get consequences)

10 - cant bring myself to do anything. i reread painter of the night lmao. seungho is a prick. inhun is also a prick (a greedy one). ate arirang bone marrow. put the egg-seasoning mixture to the pan since im not confident enough to just pour boiling water into the bowl. felt surprisingly full. went to sbux. green tea latte as usual. but turns out tumblr 50% promo only applies to sbux member. so i had to pay 40k for my green tea latte. at least i got to feel good from outside vibes. did some follow up for INACO patients.

11 - went to rm rsf. Took lots of photos of RM. I was given rujak by the rm staff lmaoo so cute. Didnt do any entry afterwards lmao i just laid down

12 - breakfast is paldo jjajangmen and egg. It tasted like soy. Its good but not in a micin way. Its quite fulfilling. Had some of the beef slices by putting it in a buttered pan (is it pan fried? Grilled? Idk). Had banana and brownies together (makes it rly good). Did a bit of clires work. I drank sbux's caramel macchiato but yall my stomach cant handle it lmao. It hurts so much that i even got a headache. So i just laid down in bed

13 - had arirang again loll. Inserted the egg to the pan still, but quicker this time. Its too salty today. Maybe its not enough water. I was eating it while googling how to remove excess sodium. Ate the rest of beef slices (shared with bros ofc) and mixed some with moms fried rice. Ate banana brownies again. Felt soooo full. Did some clires work accompanied by sbux matcha

14 - i felt like shit this morning. Watched leahs vid. Listened to her podcast while having bfast. I walked from moms car to bougenville while still feeling like shit. It slowly gets better afterwards, thankfully. Did some clires and follow up. Went to gandy steak in dr retha's car (which had anesthesiology textbook inside). Tried aus sirloin steak. The bread tasted ok. The garlic bread also ok. The mashed potato was so so (the one in depok was more creamy and smooth). The steak was good, especially the fat part, the sauce so so. Honestly that depok steak had more value for money compared to this, i think. Nebeng dr rara and husband to busway station. Arrived in ar and i immediately showered, such wow 👏👏

15 - today is no rsf day aka self made wfh day. Moms getting vaccinated today. I just lazed. And read kanej fics

16 - off to rsf. Took care of rm stuff. Tried social affair's croffle since i was so curious (60k [10k tip]). The nutella and cinnamon sugar one. Its crunchy and a bit crumbly inside, but not as fragile as croissant. Its quite fulfilling too. But its basically flour batter variations. (thats what mom would say). randomly chatted racheel and we ended up taking a walk and a bit of jog citra 6 (with my sneakon regular shoes). My left tendon was screaming lol. Picked up by juan who surprisingly effortlessly found the address at night.

17 - mbak aan chatted me today to go to rscm. Met prof murdani at pesc and he gave me ppt assigment for 13:30 THAT DAY. Finished it unsatisfyingly (i wish i couldve done more). Lunch was free bebek bkb yay thankyou Prof c: (he even asked what did i ate) took care of legalisir stuff. Went home by tj. Drank matcha w vsoy and i somehow was not sleepy after maghrib. I also changed my desj layout. Maybe it kinda works to separate my spaces

18 - arrived at rscm at 8-ish. sent updated thibbun nabawi ppt. literature search. and then somehow its 14:30. went to SCI w ara wani rasyid. tried bandeng nyonya, oyster, salmon, cumi lada garam (its crazy good among all the good tasting food wtff), shrimp and pocai telor (veggie stuff). dessert was thailand cassava. spent about 190k. went back by TJ. had wudu at pulomas and prayed ashar on the bus lol. i passed out after playing w my phone lmaoo

19 - spent almost the whole day just sleeping and eating. finally showered in the afternoon. had matcha vsoy latte after maghrib and with enough day sleeping, i did presentation outline. at like 1/2 am i initially planned to sleep but my eyes still have plenty of watts. so i read hold me tight. slept at like 4/5 am

20 - woke up at 9. off to om dokter’s house to ask for healthy letter. we talked almost the entire time im there lol. before u know it mom and dad’s done talking with grandma. om dokter shared some of his experiences in the past. and he said something about making your choice and living with it, and it will all have a meaning even if you might initially agonize about it. girl i was holding back tears. here he was talking about choices, something i never rly talk about at my house. im getting teary just typing this. he talked about it in a way that sounds simple, even though i agonized abt internship choices and sometimes avoid thinking about it. it rly rly was a new experience. i dont rly talk about “choices” with my parents. so hearing how to go through options in life from a person i can relate to regarding this med stuff is. i feel like i would have loved it if i can hear his wisdom earlier. i dont talk with him much if my parents are around bcs they will just meddle and say stuff that wreck my peace. they dont rly know what im going through but can be very opinionated. this peaceful one on one talk rly made me feel relieved and reassured. and i was today years old when i found out he initially wanted to be a psychiatrist. he would have been a great psychiatrist. i feel like we have some understanding thats left unsaid. like he knows how my parents are like. he would probably understand why i dont talk with him much at AR. after what feels super quick, we went back to AR. registered for STR. searched some literature for the topics that Prof is the moderator of. powered by matcha energy

21 - rscm as usual. the Prof did not come. lunch was bread i brought from home. waited for mom to pick me up at kfc so i bought pukis kfc. its like properly made pukis and not the street seller made ones. the chocolate one was good since the toppings generous. felt a bit feverish? like my body felt warm. fell asleep and then suddenly its 6 am in the morning.

22 - Prof still did not came. had amart’s ayam penyet jamur for lunch. turns out juan bought ayam geprek gendut for dinner. night time is diarrhea time lmaooooo. did not feel sleepy at AR but i skipped shower again lmao,,,,,,,, and then suddenly its morning again

23 - jajan from sisterfield today. tried their carrot cake and kopi susu gula aren. the carrot cake has that carrot texture. its different. the icing was fresh cream cheese that made the cake taste good. the coffee made my stomach ache a bit. it has that subtle chocolatey taste. fell asleep again. third time’s the charm (of 1x/day face wash). woke up at 3 am planning to sleep but i ended up washing my face. turns out atikah was still awake due to AZ fever.

24 - this is the bestest sleep i had in this week (?) had a dream about going to bandung and the car falling to water. forgot my headset today. can finally meet prof Mur. talked abt inaco stuff w agassi. reread komugi meruem lmaoo. felll asleep. somehow had the misfortune of hearing dad’s hurtful words to mom. i want to fall asleep again but its difficuly. i went through stages of pent up anger, some sort of selfishness (i will go out from jakarta for internship), amazement to mom, and... (continue 2moro)

25 - lunch was dori rice from kanprim thanks to rasyid’s jastip. watched bts’ butter norebang lolll :(((. arrived at AR the fastest ive been. mom came to me right before maghrib and summed some stuff dad said yesterday. she handled it in a trivial way. like she was unaffected. and that somehow helped me too. stuck around in the dining room for a while after maghrib. talked about internship w mom. i left some chance for dad to yap yap abt whatever related to internship (thankfully songs were full volume through my wireless headset) while im inhaling through my matcha latte. i wont write what he said bcs its lowkey super embarrassing. thank the gods for wireless speakers.

26 - did not do anything productive today. Had arirang salted egg for bfast (wont repurchase). Had the meat cubes i bought online and its rly good. Ran with racil at citra 6. The tendon in my left feet hurt lol. Gmeet with ara et al to discuss internship review

27 - lazed. Wanted to start my day early but couldnt bring myself to. Binge watched twoset videos. Did clires stuff. 1 more RM to wait from IRMIK. No gastro intern work this weekend aaaa im starting to panic.

28 - juan came along otw to rscm. Talked about iship otw. brought tons of stuff to eat, including matcha latte, but i was unable to finish it lol. Discussed research budgeting w Prof. Didnt do anything in home. Starting to panic with my ppt progress.

29 - discussed budgeting revision. Prof thought abt little details i didnt even consider. Didnt do anything while at ar anjengggg

30 - prof did not come to dept today. Listemed to agassi rambling abt intern stuff. Immediately opened my laptop in ar. Watched two set. Played marapets lmaooo i finally managed to gather 3 au for shop pricer. But still didnot wash my face 👁️👄🤦‍♀️ maybe bcs i hate doing what people tells me to do (re: shower due to covid scare). Had a nightmare abt being in a car ride alone w dad and it was rly rly awkward

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finallygettingfit · 6 years

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What’s a daily meal plan look like for you, including the times of day you eat? Your progress in two months amazes me! :)

Well... right now it’s different then how strict it was earlier this year when I was losing weight. Since im no longer trying to lose, but rather just maintaining. In general I try to follow high fat, high protein, low carb/sugar diet :) AM: I wakeup and drink a full glass of raw apple cider vinegar in water

Breakfast: Greek yogurt plain (no sugar added) with almond butter and/or raw almonds, sometimes I add flax seed and/or cinnamon OR a hard boiled egg and half an avocado Coffee black

Lunch: Always a mountain of greens, typically including spinach (ma favourite green) + a protein, usually chicken but sometimes salmon or tuna + a hard boiled egg

More Coffee, black

Through the day I snack on raw almonds, raw cashews, pistachios, and sometimes dark chocolate (..oops I cant help it)

If I workout post-work I consume half a scoop of C4 (watermellon mm) and then a whey protein isolate shake mixed with water right after

Dinner: Always different, usually protein and green heavy- I try to avoid carbs in the PM on week days. A common choice is chicken soup/stew, full chicken breast and loads of veggies & beans in a low sodium broth. I also frequently do zucchini pasta with a lean ground beef tomato sauce (also packed with veggies, spinach, zucchini, garlic, onions, mushrooms) Late night snack: nut butter :P

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victoria-bonadonna · 5 years

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Basic Japanese Cuisine: Week 2

Week two started with a little review from week one. We repeated our nimono and mishimono day so we could try it again, and perhaps improve on the dishes from the Friday before. We learned more in depth about simmered and steamed dishes. For example, for nimono (simmered dishes) there are two main categories; one where everything is cooked in the same pot, like nikujaga, and takiawasei - where everything is cooked separately and brought together at the end. We learned that in a restaurant the nimono person has to be one of the most skilled workers. This is because each day they must check that the dashi is consistently perfect, as well as they must find the best possible produce each day, and they must account for the difference in quality and make the proper adjustments. Other variables that the nimono person may have to take into account may be the size or type of the pot and the type of heat source they are using. In mishumono, or steamed dishes, there is no flavored liquid such as dashi, to cook the ingredients; rather it is cooked with only steam. There are a lot of variables you must consider when making a steamed dish. Here, you cant remove any impurities in the middle of the process, you cannot season as you cook- no adding or removing flavors, and you should only use ingredients that can handle the steam- such as avoiding pungent fish and some vegetables. That day we remade chowmushi, but this time it included more chicken and shrimp, and was in a different shape bowl. We also made grilled eel (Unagi hasu mushi) which was steamed after it was grilled. To steam it, we made a combination of grated lotus root, mushroom and whipped to soft peak eggs. We coated the top of the eel in the bowl and it gave a mountain like appearance. With this was ‘bekkou an’ a thickened sauce made from flavored dashi. In addition we remade nikujaga which came out better this time because we did it much closer to eating, so this time it was extremely hot.

Day seven was a day where we real immersed ourselves in learning to make sashimi. We learned the ways to tell the best quality fish (such as eye color and clarity, how tight the scales hold to the body, the feel and firmness of the flesh, and the gill color- vibrant vs not), the types of fish that degrade the fastest, and the fact that some fish such as tuna need time for the muscles inside of them to relax so the mouth feel is better when eating.

Sensei showed us the fabrication of seabream, mackerel, porgy, and flounder.

Sensei discussed to pair the whiter fleshed fish with a lighter ponzu sauce, while pairing fattier fish with a darker soy sauce. With all of our fish we cut the sashimi. This time we had some experience, so we were able to cut the fish in sashimi pieces much better. To accompany our sashimi, Chef Martin made us a tofu dish with a flavored dashi sauce, ginger, and scallion.

Day eight was yakimono aka grilled foods day. We used a grill box in order to cook our fish. We would skewer the fish so it was in a wave- like form, and we would cook it to get the beautiful dark grill marks, then add a glaze, and cook more to get the glaze locked on to the fish.

We made another dish with chicken and spinach that was coated in a tahini and tofu thick dressing. We also made a nanban tsuke dish with fried horse mackerel. The special thing about this dish was that we cooked the vegetables in a pan with a hard sear just to get the flavor that comes from the vegetable after that process while we didn’t fully cook the vegetable. The vegetable was put in a vinegared dashi along with the fried fish. It was curious to me that we put the fried fish in the sauce because it would lose the crispiness, but that was not the point- we wanted the flavors that would come with the frying process. The fish that night was excellent and extremely flavorful. I loved the flavor and crispness that came from the open grill. With the fish we plated leaves that beautifully represented fall.

Day nine was very similar to the day before because most of it was a repeat in the process wo we could better learn the techniques. In the lecture we learned more about yakimono and the different types of heat that one could use to cook yakimono. The direct heat methods include charcoal, gas, and electric, and all have their pros and cons. We also learned the main categories of grilled foods which include shioyaki (salt grilled), yuanyaki (marinated), teriyaki (glazed), misodengaku (miso topped/ based), and keshoyaki (layering and grilling with different sauces). We learned about salting fish and its importance. When fish orders come in it is typical to immediately break them down into their fillets so they can last longer. The extra step is to salt them for at least 30 minutes, rinse it off, and dry the fish before storing it. This process is done to improve flavor, to draw out moisture, firm the flesh, and to take out the fishy taste/ aromas. It was very fascinating to learn that most American chefs don’t even know to do this process, while it is critical in Japan. We repeated the nanban tsuke, the chicken and spinach salad, as well as our yakimono fishes. In addition we learned tamogoyaki which is the Japanese rolled omelet. Sensei showed us the proper heating and greasing of the pan. He flipped the eggs so perfectly that when he cut into it the all of the lines were even.

That accompanied our meal with everything else from yesterday’s meal. I was surprised that mine came out quite alright.

Day ten was Friday, aka tempura day. Today we made the tempura and plated it rather than frying it and eating it one at a time like we had in Tokyo. We did it this way because this day was more focused on learning the technique and the following Tuesday would be putting our skills to the test. We first learned to cut the ingredients. Shrimp specifically was different because we pealed the shrimps up to the tail, deveined, scored the belly side, then flipped it over and massaged the tendons on the side. This was all done so that when we fried the shrimp it didn’t want to go to its original form. In addition to shrimp we had anago, lotus root and, shiso leaves. We learned about the importance of the batter and how to make it right. This type of batter had a tendency to get over worked, so it was important to be constantly switching it out for new ones when we saw the quality decrease. It is important to make the batter with low gluten, so we used a mix of cake flour and tempura flour. When mixing together the batter it was important to use large chopsticks as a way to not over mix it. We also only mixed it halfway until homogenous. We were able to monitor the quality of the batter by the way it acted when it touched the hot oil. It the batter stayed in a little dumpling drop when a little was dropped in then we needed to switch it out, but if the batter frayed when it touched the oil, it was just right. We also learned how to monitor the proper oil temperature and maintain it. The optimal temperature range is 338 degrees F to 347 degrees F. The way we could tell the temperature was by dropping in some of the batter with the chop sticks. At 300 degrees the batter would stay on the bottom of the vessel for a few seconds, the batter would hit the bottom but just so quick it would pop up when the oil is at 320. At our optimal range, the batter would drop down only half way the depth of the vessel and come right back to the surface. At 355 degrees F or above, the batter would hit the surface and disperse. When dropping the ingredients into the batter and into the fryer we would use long wooden chopsticks, then to fish them out we would use long metal chopsticks; this was a way to keep them clean. In addition to the individual ingredients, we made kakiage which was many ingredients such as onion slices, cubed scallops, asparagus, and green beans- mixed with the batter and kept into a cake. This would go on top of rice with a flavored dashi sauce on top. The kakiage was my absolute favorite because it was so flavorful and it perfectly matched with the rice.

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omgkittymonster-blog · 5 years

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KAT'S KETO STARTER GUIDE

a quick guide to starting keto easily and without worries!

⦁ intro ⦁ science ⦁ myths and misconceptions

⦁ breakfast ⦁ lunch ⦁ dinner ⦁ snacks ⦁ food list CHEAT SHEET:

⦁ intermittent fasting ⦁ what to do when you go out to eat ⦁ what to drink and when

⦁ "carb cycling", cheat days, and how tos: ⦁ things to avoid that are a waste of money

INTRODUCTION TO KETO Keto is an amazing diet and/or lifestyle that when paired with multiple other forms of healthy choices can be a quick way to lose a few pounds or a healthy way to live longterm allowing you to still enjoy life without estranging yourself from your friends and family. It is very flexible and people that stick to keto find themselves in love with it and raving about their success, as long as they gave it the proper chance! I myself lost ten pounds the first week I did strict keto and I knew then I was hooked!

SCIENCE BEHIND KETO AND WHY IT WORKS The common american diet is very high in sugar, carbs, unhealthy fats, caffeine, sodium, etc. This recipe is a disaster waiting to happen, heart disease, obesity, cancers, diabetes, among a plethora of other terrible life stealing diseases that effect millions of americans. Whether you do a low carb, or low calorie, or low red meat and fat diet, the idea remains the same. Reduce calorie intake vs output, avoid foods that cause inflamations or gastro-intestinal upsets, and eat filling whole foods that offer a lot of nutrient density. Now, the reason that keto works so good is the science behind the diet: When you reduce the amount of sugar (glucose) your body intakes, which is its normal source of fuel, it panics, uses what it has, burns glycogen which is stored in the liver and muscles, and finally switches your body to KETONES (which burns FATS for fuel instead). When your body is in Ketosis, it will burn your body fat and consumed fats for energy, to do normal body functions. This sounds like a miracle, and I can honestly say it is. Most average americans have anywhere from a 20%-50% body fat ratio, men usually on the lower end of that, where anything over 30% is usually considered overweight. That being said, most people have a lot of fuel to burn that they would never have burned if they were eating a large amount of carbohydrates that the body prefers to burn first. You literally have your own fuel just waiting to go, and you will feel awesome when you see the fat melting off your tummy, thighs, back, face. :D

Myths and Misconceptions When I first started keto I thought I could eat as many hot dogs, burgers, chicken wings, ranch dressings, etc as I could stuff in my face. Truth be told you can, but your body will be severely lacking vitamins and minerals that you need to be healthy so I would suggest making sure to vary your diet, always include a healthy fat (example: salmon, avocado, macadamia nuts) and lots of greens whenever possible. If you absolutely cannot, taking a high nutrient density multi vitamin is really smart, as well as looking into electrolyte mixes or supplements. People will try to bully you or shame you for not eating "just one this" or "you have to try a bite" and after a little while, you absolutely can! But during the first month or so, til you become "fat adapted" it is best to be as diligent as possible, and you will be really proud of the results. Not all fats are created equal: While dirty keto does exist and sometimes is necessary, try to remember that quality of your fuel will always dictate how you feel. Will you feel better after a slice of greasy pizza or a big salad with lots of veggies and roasted turkey? Easy concept. You don't have to starve yourself. This was the hardest part for me to learn at first. Keto foods are filling, yummy, and full of flavor, so eat til you're about comfortably full and give the fork a rest. You'll find you're sated for many hours! Not all people get the keto flu. Some adapt to eating high fat really well with minimal issues. If you are feeling dizzy, lightheaded, or stomach sick, make sure you have plenty of water and if you need to, have a shot of pickle juice or a sprinkle of salt in your water. Vitamin water ZERO is also a decent way to get electrolytes without having to spend a lot on a supplement. I'd avoid zero sugar gatorade though, the sweetener in it is sucralose which is bad for ketosis.

NOW TO THE FUN PART: THE FOOD! I do most of my shopping at a normal grocery store, and most of the things I mention can be bought at meijer, target, walmart, or whatever your local chain is. Buy organic if you want! But it isnt necessary. Meats and dairy foods are best when bought all natural or organic if possible. Look for words like grass finished, or pasture raised.

Breakfast ideas: Omelets - add whatever meats veggies and cheeses from list fit your choosing Cauliflower "hash" - sautee pieces of cauliflower with meats, veggies, top with cheese and let it melt :D keto "cereal" - 2 cups unsweetened coconut, sprinkle with cinnamon, stevia, coconut oil, pecans, macadamia nuts, whatever. bake two minutes per side around 375 til toasted. cool and serve with unsweetened hemp, oat, almond or soy milk and fresh berries if you want! Chorizo and eggs with avocado and sour cream - they do make turkey chorizo too! or make your own by adding hot sauce and spices to ground turkey. :3 "Two Good" Makes a super low carb yogurt that tastes amazing - i eat it with berries or a "Quest" brand protein cookie for breakfast! Chia pudding - 2 T. chia seeds, milk substitute or water, stevia, and whatever flavor you want to add! Peanut butter, cocoa powder for PB cup, raspberry/almond, blueberry/pecan. Chill overnight, awesome grab and go Egg muffins - mix up eggs like youd be making scrambled eggs, add some ricotta or cottage cheese (full fat only), add toppings, bake for 5-10 mins til middle is set (use a tooth pick). Can freeze and pop in microwave or last a week in the fridge. I like mine with pesto and mozzarella with tomato on top.

Lunch ideas: La tortilla factory low carb wrap "blt" - these tortillas are amazing and come in many sizes. If you cant find those, find any brand that says "low carb" - look for net carbs under 6 for best choices. Add avocado, turkey bacon, mayo if desired, lettuce, tomato, peppers, etc. Eat with cheese chips (recipe in snacks) Soups: Creamy chicken chili, broccoli cheese (substitute heavy cream and broth in place for milk in recipes) bone broth veggie soups (imagine PHO or Ramen with no noodles!) MAKE A BIG ASS SALAD WITH WHATEVER MEATS AND CHEESE AND VEGGIES YOU WANT (that are safe on the list ofc) this is what i do a lot, and i put the dressing on the side so i can just munch on it throughout the day without it getting soggy. If you find yourself picking certain parts out of your salad right away, try to focus on those more until your body is craving other things. Some days i eat my meats right away, others i eat all my veggies. Your body often tells you what you need without even realizing. If you're a grazer make a fruit and nut tray, or "lunchables" almost. There is a recipe for whats called CLOUD BREAD. It's basically like a fluffy meringue that is made with cream cheese and eggs. I dont make it a lot, I almost always would rather have those wraps. They're that good and last longer :D Try to keep things with you that you know you will eat, rather than things you think you're supposed to eat, because cold fish sounds disgusting vs that yummy five piece chicken tender with hot sauce. >_>

Dinner Ideas: Dinner is my forte because for a long time I was doing OMAD keto, aka "One meal a day keto" where I would fast until dinner every day, except for coffee, tea and water. During these times I dreamt up many cheat meals that I JUST HAD TO HAVE and went home and keto-ized em. If there's a will there's a way, bahahaha. OMAD is not recommended at the start of ketosis because you may feel low on energy or dizzy sometimes and we want to avoid bad feelings during initiation so when you see the success you have you won't have a negative feeling as to why it happened.

LITERALLY IMAGINE YOUR FAVORITE DINNER. Whatever you're craving. You can hack it. We got this. Chinese/Take out? Easy mode. You can make stir fries, fried cauliflower rice, sweet and sour chicken (using parmesan for a crust!), peanut "noodles" or "zoodles", egg foo young, etc! American: Wings, burgers, brats/sausages, grilled chicken, etc - most cook out foods in whole form are totally safe. Pair with grilled veggies or a salad, or make a pasta salad from zoodles with homemade italian dressing. YUMMMM bish Italian: Low carb tomato sauces and "noodles", Fat head Pizza (link to fat head dough recipe will be at bottom. This shit is dope. I never even liked pizza before this). Chicken Parmesan, "Spaghetti and Meatballs", Lasagna: AND OMG GUESS WHAT. Alfredo is like totally fair game, and its really good with mushrooms and chicken. :P Mexican: HOLY FUCK I EAT THIS STUFF SO MUCH. Like, pretty much everything but the chips and rice are totally gucci for keto. Taco/Burrito bowls, fajitas, ceviche, salsa, avocado salad, guacamole, and for dipping I make cheese chips or thin slices of cucumber spritzed with chili lime and salt. Greek: Greek salad, schwarma, gyros (either without bread or use the low carb wraps), hemp seed "Falafel", tzatziki sauce, feta cheese, olives, etc. I have even made indian and thai curries, moroccan food, middle eastern We have made chicken tenders, french fries, chips, "nachos", fish fry, breaded mushrooms, mozz sticks, cheese curds. All your craving foods! The internet is wonderful for this, just make sure you are paying close attention to how much a portion is, or if its higher in carbs than you're allowed for the day.

Above I posted a picture for a shopping list.

This is a nice shopping list but I find it is sort of strict. Try to stick to these items to start but You can add in things like more nuts or avocados, almond and coconut flours (to make cakes and breads!), and higher starch veggies and fruits as time goes on. I get down on some cantaloupe pretty often, and have a cupcake at least once a month.

Intermittent Fasting IF is typically considered an advance technique or body reset especially after big meal days or cheating, and while it has amazing health benefits, I would suggest you research it yourself and decide if it's right for you. I had a lot of luck with it because I hate to keep track of my calories on an app so I knew if I ate whatever I could within a five to seven hour period that the chances that I would eat more than 1800 calories would go way down. Each person is different, if you feel physically hungry, don't deny that feeling. Here is a link that describes and explains types of IF. https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/intermittent-fasting-guide#methods

What to do when you go out to eat We live in a time where many people eat low carb, or restaurants are very willing to wiggle with ingredients or substitutions. Remember that nicer restaurants appreciate this less, but if you know that it will be happening, you can always call the restaurant and let them know in advance. Many chefs are reasonable and want your business and willing to help. Always check the menu for words like, naked, ask for sauces on the side, try to stick to things that are usually safe, blue cheese, ranch, vinaigrettes, mayos. When a dish comes with a carb side, most places will double up on steamed or grilled veg for very little extra or no charge. I get steak with a literal dick ton of broccoli or asparagus and lotsa butter and its good and filling. :D Burgers can be put on top of a side salad , or ask for a lettuce wrap. Make sure wings and chickens arent breaded before frying or baking. Chinese restaurants usually have a section that has all the same ingredients but sauce on the side and veggies steamed, good for when you go out. Egg drop soup is usually ok as long as you don't eat a gallon of it. If something comes that you really want, but can't have, just have one small bite and cover the rest of it with too much salt or ketchup or something than you can handle, or trade it away. This will prevent you from eating it all. There's lots of options and understand that whenever you go out, there is a chance that you might slip out of ketosis. Don't be discouraged because a small slip is a lot easier to deal with than a big one, and you will feel fine within 12 hrs.

What to drink and when Coffee, espresso, unsweetened teas, club soda or la croix like drinks with zero fake sugars added (look for aspartame, sucralose, dextrose, erythritol, etc), pure liquors with no added flavor or sugar (vodka, gin, whiskey, rum, tequila), dry red wine (cabernet, merlot) dry white wine (sauvignon blanc, brut champagne, pinot grigo, chardonnay). Keep in mind that alcohol still contains a lot of calories and while it will not likely bump you out of ketosis, it does delay your body burning calories because it is too busy trying to destroy the evil alcohol from your bloodstream (dramatic music) so limiting intake in the first month really helps you to get in the swing and feel good and hydrated :P. Side Note: Ketal One makes new no sugar added Botanical Vodka and the Peach one and the cucumber mint one are fucking amazing, the end.

"Carb cycling" cheat days, and how to IF YOU KNOW YOU'RE GONNA CHEAT mentally prepare yourself for that. Know what you want to eat, what isnt worth it, and how to stop yourself when you are done. Ever been on a bender where you drank like three days in a row and by the end you're like dude wtf happened all I wanted was to drink friday night and now its sunday where did it go". This has happened to me lots with holidays and special occasion weekends, and the best advice I have for you is to pay attention to how cheating makes you feel. Don't feel guilty unless you feel bad for your progress or your body. Sadly, potatoes make me feel like garbage so I try to avoid them like the plague even when I do cheat. Try to not eat for as long as you can handle after you cheat to allow your body some rest and to burn the glucose and glycogen that may be still in your system. If you feel good enough some cardio or lifting may help to get you back in faster. Ultimately, if keto is a lifestyle for you, remember that life happens and its ok to be human, and eat things that are unhealthy as long as its not the normal. Remind yourself that you deserve to be happy as well as healthy and balance that in your mind. Being positive and recognizing this will help you to not fall off the deep end either way, by being too strict or completely abandoning keto, which often in the early phase will lead you to gaining all that weight you lost back. Carb cycling is a form of keto diet for athletes or very physical people who benefit from a quick carb before intense activity in order to feed their muscles or whatever but as I am not one of those people, I just stick to my higher carb fruits and veggies when I think I might go for a run or walk, or drag my ass down the road, whatever you'd like to call it. >_>

Things to avoid that are a waste of money Don't buy "exo ketones" or "Keto drinks" or powders, anything "bullet-proof" is basically bullshit, you can make the same things for zillions of dollars less and it will taste better as well. Keto urine strips are pretty much just a waste of money, they aren't really indicative of where you are at. Expensive "keto" supplements aren't necessary, take your multi and drink your electrolytes and you should be good to go. Keep in mind if you are an intense athlete I am not so like talk to your doctor or coach dude.

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enamouredsonder-blog · 7 years

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So in the last week, I had to go away for a few days for work. It was actually a really pleasant trip. I had the opportunity to enjoy coastal Australia. I sat in a lovely restaurant eating my delicious breakfast of Torch-wood Mushrooms, Poached eggs and Polenta cakes whilst watching Whales breach in more shallow waters.

The picture above was taken by me at the stunning Middleton Beach in Albany. Pretty breathtaking really. I spent a good 20 minutes walking down that beach in the brisk cold. But I can tell you I enjoyed every minute of it. I love the ocean so much. But what I love the most is the calmness that it brings to me. Whenever I am near ocean waters I automatically feel at ease.

Apart from all of the stunning scenery and actually doing some work whilst I was away. Something else managed to happen. Whilst on my way travelling down, I received a message from a Tinder match. Given network coverage and driving laws, I waited till I had reached my destination before replying. It turned out the match appeared to be fairly communicable, which ensured further conversation.

Actually the conversation was so good that the Individual ... who for the purposes of confidentiality I will call Colin, decided to call me. It seemed like a good conversation at the time. Colin was very easy to chat to, created exceptional amounts of banter and seemed to want more than just a one night stand. (My aim is to avoid these as much as I can, I will discuss this more in another post).

When I got off the phone that night, I may have been a little Tipsy from delicious local wine, but I kind of felt hopeful, that maybe this time I could get past the first date goal post. When I awoke in the morning, Colin had messaged me a courteous good morning message, and I replied graciously. A few "How’s your day" messages were reciprocated to each other for the remainder of the day.

It reached the later afternoon, and my work for the day was complete, I was shooting off a few last minute emails, when Colin called me. The regular what did your day entail? Conversation was had, followed by more witty banter. We both decided that despite the potential of the both of us being incredibly tired as a result work; we would aim to catch up for a date the following evening. Towards the end of the phone conversation Colin asked me to send him a picture of me (A general one). I attempted to say no, on account of being very tired and in a casual state of no makeup and messy tied back hair. At this point in time Colin had seen pictures of me with makeup and with and without coloured contact lenses, and also dressed semi casual. Regardless of my hesitation to send a non glamour portrait of myself, I went against my better judgement and took a very average selfie and sent it away. What a mistake that was. Colin seemed to think I looked completely different. I did try and forewarn him, but I guess that was not enough. I then had to send some other pictures of myself from previous occasions in a semi casual state. It was damage control.

Putting all that aside, I went off to dinner, only to make myself feel bad for indulging in a carbohydrate heavy meal, inducing a "Carb Coma". Sometimes you just need to eat pasta. Upon return to my temporary abode, I called Colin as had been the plan. He didn't sound as enthused as the previous two conversations. The witty banter from before was not so present, and I wasn't quite sure when this left things. But we both en devoured to continue talking. The focus of the conversation had changed from the night before. I was even presently trying to firmly trying to communicate my want for a more long term and meaningful arrangement and Colin although stating he was on the same page seemed to be testing the waters on if a more casual encounter occurred. The plan to go out for a drink had turned into lets just hang out at home (the ever so present "Netflix and Chill' scenario. I protested the idea, and we decided to see how we both felt.

I could go on in detail and tell you all the laborious details of the date, but I am going to cut the chase, so I can actually talk about the main point of this post. A date was had, and it did end with Colin wanting to pursue a more physical and sexual ending. How could I be surprised, its generally how most dates end, these days. And how glad I am that I decided to leave before things reached a level of instant physical gratification. It would have been easy to go there. Colin was attractive enough. Not my normal type, but physically appealing in his own kind of way . But it wasn't the point, he knew it wasn't what I wanted and made a pretty dismal effort into avoiding it. The date ended awkwardly, with me trying to scurry away after things had ended hot and heavy, and me strongly confirming my want for it to not progress any further. It would be okay if that was it. But no. It's what follows that messes with your head even more.

I got home, knowing that was the end of that. But then Colin randomly messaged me a sleeping Bitstrip cartoon. Odd but maybe a small attempt at letting me know there was still room for communication. I had to reply with an equally lame message, communicating my desire to go to sleep. The next day was busy for me, but the realisation on how the previous night had ended had me wondering where exactly did i stand now? I wasn't sure if i even liked Colin, He was odd, maybe even a little socially awkward for me, but he messaged me before going to bed, so did that mean he was still interested in me?

Roll on 7pm that evening and Colin messages me asking me how my day was? A pretty evident gesture, that he was still interested perhaps. I waited half an hour before replying (I didn't want to seem too keen). Then there was nothing!!! I waited a full 24 hours before feeling exceptionally confused. Why message me if your not going to reply? Sure we all get busy. But so busy that you cant reply to one message, of someone you messaged in the first place. Would you message a friend ask them how their day was, only to actually not care. What shit is that ?

I waited till lunch time the next day, and in that time had realised that Colin was never a good match for me. Personality wise we were too different. My want to make things work probably blinded by capacity to see that we actually wanted different things. It was time to put this to bed. So being the transparent person that I am, i bit the bullet and sent a message saying that things had gotten weird, and perhaps I wasn't miss right, but i wish him luck in finding her. Funny how I got a pretty instant reply saying He wanted to message but was too busy and wasn't looking for something long term. Okay mate, why didn't you say that 2 days ago and save us both the hassle. Oh that's right you were taking you chances to see if you would get lucky in the bedroom, because you already knew I was never going to be the girl that you settle down with.

Guys these days seem to avoid responding to anything or owning anything. Maybe we have to move away from the time of "if I say anything he will think I am a psycho". We are all adults dating. How did it get to stage if it doesn't work, we ignore each other rather than acknowledging it, or we "hook up" because that fills one void, while only placing a band aid over the other. But it’s okay, right? You knew what this was.

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growingbabybear-blog · 7 years

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Relationship with food

I really need to address my terribly poor relationship with food. I want to lose weight. I want to be healthy and fit. I know how nutrition works. I actually have quite in depth knowledge of health and nutrition. I just really struggle to put my plans into action. I know how to eat healthy. I know what to avoid and what to eat more of. But I seriously lack willpower. Its 9am. I have been awake for 3 hours. So far I have eaten bacon, beans, mushrooms, egg, 2 slices of buttered bread. Then I had 2 scotch pancakes. And then a large slice of cake. At bloody 9am!! I had a cup of tea with 2 sugars also. That is just so much sugar and fat. And then I sit at slimming world every Tuesday acting all determined but really I know how to diet, I dont need a slimming club to tell me how. I need to address my issues as to why I cant say no to the junk food. Why I use food to control my emotions. Why I overeat. Thats my new goal.

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greensungnostic · 5 years

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(Grand)father's day

Well, it's Sunday. You promised the old man you'd come for a visit, have a special little father's day with him. It'll be nice, spending time with him outside of his study. You start things off by shuffling sleepily down to the kitchen, rubbing sleep from your eyes as you start up the stove. In a cast iron skillet, you lay down a few slices of thick bacon, a few rolls of sausage, and once they're starting to sizzle and fill the pan with a cheerfully popping sizzle, you crack a few eggs in the to fry in the fat. Next you add some tomato, a few mushrooms, and a strip of black pudding all together, two servings sizzling merrily away in the large pan. You pop a few slices of bread in the toaster, put on a pot of beans to cook, then put the kettle on while you wait for it all to cook up. A Full English Breakfast, his favourite. Once it's all nice and ready, you butter the toast, cut it into triangles, and plate everything up. With a newspaper tucked under your arm, you gather the pair of plates up, floating your teacups along behind you with your powers. You ascend to the second floor on foot, lightly tapping at it with your toeclaws to announce your presence. You call through the door -

grandpa! its fathers day! i brought you your favourite! breakfast in the study!

You finagle his doorknob with your hands full, using your elbow to twist it just enough to pop the latch and enter into the dim, musty room once more. He's here of course, staring long and thoughtful into the fireplace once more, which flares into life when you approach. He never seems to get tired of that trick! You set the plates down at the desk, pulling up the stiff side chair to face it.

oh come on i know you are busy but it is your fathers day breakfast, at least come over here!

He makes no moves from his firewatching vigil, so you roll your eyes and push him over there directly, leaving him standing behind his desk, looking at the pleasant tendrils of fragrant steam rising from his plate. He doesn't sit - never has been one to sit for anything but the fanciest meals. But you do sit, tucking into the hearty meal with a soft smile on your face. You don't go to the trouble of a Full English very often, but it is good. You can see why it's his favourite. He doesn't seem very hungry - he scarcely seems to want to touch it - but you can tell from the twinkle in his eye that he appreciates it all the same.

are you gonna finish that bacon and sausage? no? okay thank you grandpa! hehehe, i know, you dont want to mess up your mustache. it looks very nice today! so sharp, so smart!

You snag his uneaten meats, munching them up, as well as one of his little mushrooms. While you eat, you figure he'd like to hear any new news. You were just here the other day so there's not a ton new, but you can touch on it all the same. It's sweet of him to take interest in his granddaughter's life, after all! You look up at the old man in his Stout Dignity, offering a small smile while you speak.

hmm? no nothing super exciting has happened this week, honestly. just did some more gardening and stuff, you know i love to do that! yes grandpa i make sure im armed. no i dont think every earthworm has a chance to grow - yes i read dune, those dont actually exist or if they do the worms in my soil are not precursors to sandworms!! pffft!

How silly of him, to even think that your garden worms could become shai-hulud.

other than that, ive mostly just been playing this game with some friends! no like an online one! it is called mine craft and it has you... well, mine ores and craft things out of them! theres lots of adventure, monsters to fight, and more! yes im well armed ive got a magic bow and sword! i might be one of the better strife combatants on the server honestly. i run around on a horse named hubble, exploring for resources and building tunnels and quarries and supplying people with stuff! its really fun, id only ever played it alone before recently. you might not like it though, theres no guns! just bows and crossbows. maybe some could be modded in though! or shoot fireworks at people!

He seems interested, though a dourness seems to befall him when he hears there's no firearms. Maybe it's not a good idea, he'd probably kill all the cute non dog animals. At least he seems tickled by your horse's name. Always naming things for scientists, it's the Harley way. You put your fork and knife down, stacking his half full plate atop your empty one to do away with them both - a quick zap of dishes into the sink. You down your tea, then do the same with the cup. You rise up, looking up at the towering old gentleman.

so tonight is a werewolf night so i dont have aaaaalll night unless you really wanna see me go full furry and cavort around like a loon, but i thought you might want to spend some time together outside today? i set up a little shooting range so i can show you my marksmanship! wanna go see how im doing? im on my sixth prestige level on riflekind so you could say im pretty good!

Grandpa doesn't seem averse to the idea. He always wants to make sure you're well armed, well prepared, so showing your prowess is likely to be a good activity! You loop your arms around one of his, green lightning dancing around the two of you before the scene suddenly shifts to a spot outside in the fields. The fruits of your gardening labour, both figurative and literal, sprawl out in all directions to the edges of the ship. The Breeze ruffles through your hair and the looser bits of Grandpa's expeditionary outfit, the smell of flowers and vegetation in the air. Dotted here and there, you've set up little dummy copies of monsters - a papier mâché ogre here, a clay swarm of imps, little rudimentary robotic underlings bobbing and weaving as targets. You can tell Grandpa is surveying the targets, his grip on the Blunderbuss tight. But they're not his to destroy, they're yours. You draw out a stopwatch, taking a deep breath to steady yourself. It's quite a stressor, showing off your skills to your Grandfather. Okay, you're ready. You click the starter....

Strife.

Your spring into action, your GIRL’S BEST FRIEND deploying from within your specibus and into your hands. You fire a volley of pinpoint-accurate shots into a swath of imps, each one perfectly removing the heads in a spray of fine dust. You YOUTHROLL as if avoiding a barrage of attacks, stopping on a knee to switch to the GREEN SUN STREETSWEEPER and eviscerate a mechanical lich. You swap through your rifles one by one, blasting apart the targets you've set up, each shot dead in the middle of the bullseyes painted on them. You slide, you run up a tree and jump off to shoot upside down in midair, you rifle butt a basilisk. For a grand finale you light the papier mâché ogre ablaze with a green sun flamethrower to soften it up, then swap to your LITTLE BUSTER guitar-rifle to first ventilate it, then pummel it into cinders with the base of the instrument. You let out a little cheer and stop the stopwatch, dancing on the spot in celebration. You check the timer. 1:34.62. Just over a minute and a half, not bad. You bound back over to Grandpa, a big grin and a light sheen of sweat on your face. You gesture out over the dust of your destruction, other small bots already scurrying out to collect the destroyed targets, the spent casings.

voila!! howd i do grandpa?? not a bad time for all those baddies, if i do say so myself! do you like the bass guitar? it shoots .45s and also grenades from the headstock and its good for bashing with too! it dual-classes as an axekind weapon too, haha... i converted it from a regular old classic rickenbacker myself!

You hold up the LITTLE BUSTER for his perusal. He looks on with what feels like an air of appraisal, as if inspecting your craftsmanship. You stay quiet for a long moment to just let him see, before he seems satisfied. A glint of approval, what might be interpreted as a smile behind your grandfather's dense moustache. He's never been good at praise, but you can tell he's proud.

haha, thank you for coming out and watching, grampa. it means a lot to get to show you that, and all this too! do you like how the gardenship looks? ive been up to my eyebrows in dirt making it all cute! look over there, you can see rip van maple, just growing and growing! technically its only a few years old but the growth acceleration puts it at like three hundred!

You spend the next hour or so pointing out nearby points of interest, talking about the care and maintenance and upkeep of your garden, your robots, even the dogs. As if conjured by the utterance of his name, Becquerel appears, curling up at his master's feet like he's prone to. You scratch between your direwolf sized hound's ears and sit down against him, still quietly talking to grandpa.

so how has work been going in there, grandpa? oh, right i know, business trade secrets, cant discuss them! still i hope you are not working too hard in there. you always seem so lost in thought... maybe looking out the window once in a while instead of into the fireplace would give a fresh perspective! shhh i know it is the favorite spot but still! you might even see me running around from in there, haha...

You sigh, looking up at the imposing figure above you. The wind rustles his mustache, and he stalwartly gazes off into the middle difference. Maybe, he seems to think. Maybe he'll try it out. You can tell he must be getting tired though, time to get back to work. You lightly grasp his shirt hem, and Bec returns all three of you to the study. This time his perch does seem to be near the window, overlooking the grape vines and the little bench you built for Rose, just offset from the pane to spare himself the excess light and the ominous silhouette in the window. You pull a little box from your sylladex, a gift for your beloved Grandpa. You can tell he's too lost in thought to pluck at all the lavish ribbons and paper you've wrapped it in, so you unbox it for him. Within he finds a few Artifacts - the skull of a monster that you put onto his mantlepiece immediately; a bottle of his theoretically favourite Cognac, which you put on a shelf next to a few similar bottles of brown alcohol. Clink. And last but not least, a loud Hawaiian shirt with a computer woven into the threads. It's bright, it's garish, it's absolutely nobody's style. You set this neatly folded on his desk, where he can deal with it at his leisure.

okay grandpa, i know you gotta work... thank you for coming out with me today! it was nice to spend time with you... ill come visit again soon, okay? i love you soooooo much grandpa!! happy fathers and grandfathers day!!

You hesitate, then scurry over and hug the old man, clinging tight to his sturdy frame. A single tear runs down your cheek and musses his khaki attire, but it's only a small watermark. You gaze up at the lofty gentleman, ears angled backwards for a moment, wishing he'd return your affection now and then. But it's alright. It's tough for old men full of machismo to show their love. You know he cares from the wistful look in his eyes. You hold onto his hand for a moment, squeezing gently, then depart. As you go, you hear the soft chime of a wardrobifier, perhaps triggered by the teardrop. You look back, and he's wearing the shirt you got him. With a soft smile you slip from his study and close the door behind you, murmuring one more time -

happy fathers day, to a wonderful grampa...

#whoops a day late))#had to spend time with actual family irl))#long post #solo writing #solo rp #drabbles #death cw/#guns cw/

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meditationsinausterity · 6 years

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A Little Goes a Long Way: SO MANY MUSHROOMS

Here we are at mid-week with what seems to be becoming a regular round-up of what I've been cooking to make sure I use literally everything in the fridge. As per my last post I have decided that the best way to structure the way I note my week in the kitchen is to start with a master list of the foods i bought home from the trash cafe, so as to avoid continually repeating myself in the smaller run-downs at the beginning of each dish, and make plain the cyclical nature of my cooking week and how I play around with different combinations of the same produce.

I have to say, the trash cafe has yielded a lot of fresh produce recently, so my hauls have been very heavily canted in favour of that. Great for me because I do prioritise cramming in as many nutrients as I can when I cook, but it does put a stricter deadline on what I make and when. I think writing this master list is actually going to be useful in terms of documenting the varying trash cafe hauls, as well; as I've worked with the project I've been fascinated to see the ebbs and flows of what we get through the doors, depending on what businesses we're working with and what they've had an excess of.

I'm also noticing my week changing as I work more. I'm on about 50 hours a week on average at the moment, so I have less time to be in the kitchen, but also, I have to think about bulk cooking things I can take to work with me when I'm on a double shift. I do have the option of a free sandwich and chips when I work a double (I usually rack up two of these a week), but I don't often take the chefs up on it, which my coworkers think I'm crazy for. I'd rather just have it as a backup for if I've forgotten to bring food, or not been staying at mine, because I don't like being too carbed out at work, and lately, where I've been taking in leaner, more vegetable driven food and fresh fruit, I've been really feeling the difference in my body after my long days and walks to and from work.

To kick things off then, let's start with that big old list:

Things I got from the Trash Cafe:

a packet of six chicken thighs (These had been defrosted to use in the kitchen, but I got through four packs during service and still had leftover stew to send to another cafe, so I bought these home)

2 1/2 punnets of chestnut mushrooms

2 punnets of plum tomatoes

1 bag of lemons

1 bag of limes

1/2 pat of salted butter

A block of mild goats cheese (it behaved similarly to a sharp cheddar in texture and flavour)

A packet of mint

Rye bread with sunflower seeds

A bag of red onions

A bag of broccoli florets

A bunch of asparagus

A white cabbage

Half a bag of mixed salad leaves

2 pots of prepped pineapple chunks (I tend to just eat these as they come, with breakfast or at work, so they don't get photographed)

2 pots prepped mango chunks (likewise with these)

Now onto what I made with my bounty:

Mushrooms on toast a couple of ways

Way One:

Items purchased for this meal:

None

Items already had for this meal:

Eggs, from the previous week's trash cafe haul

Ciabatta bread, likewise, and I keep my bread frozen, as I always eat it toasted, so it keeps indefinitely

Garlic, always in my storecupboard

So I am not going to patronize you, this was literally just mushrooms, panfried in garlic and butter, with scrambled eggs. I do not need to tell you how to do any of that. i do need to emphasize, however, a belief I hold that cooking does not have to be overtly technically skilled to be good. granted, I know some amazingly creative and talented chefs, and what they do is mindblowing, but by the same token I know if they came over for breakfast, they wouldn't turn their nose up at this because it's still good food. one of my pet peeves in this life is the attention seeking cook, who only ever makes masterchef-esque showstoppers for the drama and attention of it. Sometimes life is literally just a low key breakfast while chilling with a magazine before work, and sometimes that low key breakfast may be the best thing you could eat in that possible moment. A true love of the kitchen and feeding yourself involves care and attention applied to even the quotidien dishes.

Way Two

Items purchased for this meal:

None

Items already had for this meal:

Marmite; an absolute store cupboard necessity for me. This yeasty little umami bomb is one of the very few things that will make me misty eyed and patriotic (the other two are Barbara Windsor and Kate Moss, in case you were wondering)

So this was perhaps a slightly more elaborate take. Inspired by a breakfast dish I had at The Garage Lounge in Southsea, which was mushrooms in a white wine cream sauce, on marmite toast, with a poached egg, and was amazing, I decided to work with what I had (SO MANY MUSHROOMS) to channel similar vibes.

I pan-fried the mushrooms with garlic, and parsley, and finished with creme fraiche, piling onto rye and sunflower toast with marmite, and added some bagged salad dressed in oil and lemon to mop up the juices,because I like raw food with my meal, and i do like something acidic to cut through a rich dish. This was incredibly satisfying in the eating, and felt far more indulgent than the small amount of creme fraiche I added would have suggested it would be.

Leftovers from these meals:

None

Baked lemon and oregano chicken with goats cheese and tomato couscous

Items purchased for this meal:

None

Items already had:

Pesto: there's almost always an open jar of pesto in my fridge. Like any ex-student I've done my time eating pasta with pesto at least once a week, but now I use it as quick flavour for grains and dishes when i don't necessarily have fresh herbs.

Couscous: another storecupboard stalwart. Really good for quick, cheap, light dinners and salads. Also, call it the Ottolenghi effect, but I'm never averse to any form of grain salad at lunchtime, so having enough of a grain to bulk batch them is always good.

Oregano: From last week's trash café haul

This was a doddle to make. I put the chicken thighs in a pan with a handful of whole, unpeeled garlic cloves, squeezed the juice of two quartered lemons over them and chucked in the lemon pieces themselves. I added a handful of oregano stems, some oil, salt, and pepper, tossed it all to coat, and left to marinade for a few hours, before baking in a gas mark 6 oven for about 45 minutes-1 hour, turning occasionally.

The couscous itself was easy, I diced onions, mint, tomatoes, and goats cheese, and tossed it together with a huge bowl of couscous i'd made up with boiling water and a glug of olive oil. lemon juice, salt, and pepper to dress.

The pesto cream was easy, I think I got this idea from one of those little booklets you get with cooking magazines, a little '30 low carb recipes for January' thing. it's just one parts pesto to two parts creme fraiche, and it's a pretty good, lazy way to perk up chicken. it's banging in sandwiches with leftover chicken as well.

A nice light meal, that was, I grant you, a bit late 90's housewife, but nonetheless, I'm always here for dishes that fill you up without bloating, and this was up there. Not to mention the flavours involved aided me in my current project to deny the fact that the weather is getting colder and winter is coming (other allies involved in this are the crisp blue skies Portsmouth is giving me, and largely being inside most of the time).

Leftovers from this meal:

4 x chicken thighs: Taken to work on two days to get me through double shifts.

About 4 portions of couscous: Taken to work alongside the chicken and some fresh fruit, because it does feel good to be smashing out your five a day even when you're working 13 or so hours of it. Also eaten upon returns home, in a bowl, in bed, while reading in my pyjamas. I guess most people have the luxury of being able to not eat late at night, but consider the humble bartender, doing a physical job until the witching hour, coming home shattered and grabbing the first thing they can find before they collapse. At least, in this instance it actually had some nutritional content. Back in my early twenties it would have been fried chicken, or spinach pastries from the 24 hour turkish supermarket at the bottom of seven sisters road (shout out to the lads at Akhdeniz, absolute fucking legends)

Tomato and mint Bruschetta with goats cheese:

Items purchased for this meal:

None

Items already had:

Salt, pepper, oil

I know, I know, another 'things on toast' moment. it probably looks like I eat far more things on toast than your average bear. I don't think I do, but actually,as a nocturnal worker, I tend to have more time in the morning to take care over what I eat and cook something from fresh.

This was a straightforward chopping of tomatoes, red onions, and mint, and tossing it with oil, lemon juice, salt and pepper, allowing to steep for a little while to draw out the juices of the tomato. then just piled onto crisp rounds of toast and topped with thinkly shaved goats cheese.

Another breakfast that allowed me to stave off the winter sads, whilst also getting the nutritional benefit of raw vegetables (I do, really, find any excuse to pack raw fruit and veg into my diet). Also, given how many tomatoes I actually had to power through this week, a raw dish of them was somewhat inevitable.

Leftovers from this meal:

Enough tomato mixture to fridge and repeat the exact same breakfast the next day before work. It was actually better the next day after the tomato mixture had time to mellow and marry.

Sweet Potato and Mushroom Frittata with chilli and soy green salad

Items purchased for this meal:

None

Items already had:

Sweet potato: from a previous trash cafe haul

Romaine lettuce leaves: from a previous trash cafe haul

Eggs: from a previous trash cafe haul

Birds eye chillies: from a previous trash cafe haul

Garlic, paprika, salt, pepper, soy.

The salad for this was simple. I snapped the asparagus tips at their natural bending point (the best way to make sure you're not eating them stringy, which is what puts most people off asparagus) and steamed them with the broccoli florets for a few minutes. I sliced white cabbage and red onion, and tossed the lot in a mixture of oil, soy, diced chilli, and lime juice, leaving to chill out in the dressing.

For the frittata I roasted diced sweet potato in oil and paprika until soft, before frying the mushrooms in garlic and oil, and adding the sweet potato to the pan. I added five beaten eggs to the hot pan and swirled over the heat to cook the base, before using a plate to flip the frittata,as I would with a spanish omelette, and cooking the other side. I left it to sit on a plate for about fifteen minutes to set fully, and then sliced it and served it with the salad, served on romaine lettuce leaves.

An odd jumble of flavours here, but it worked really nicely, and left me feeling really full up without any carbs to speak of. i ate it as a kind of hybrid breakfast/lunch situation, which is a pretty key mealtime on my days off where I don't have a strict deadline on my time.

Leftovers from this meal:

2/3 frittata: Taken to work with me to eat cold. Ideal take-to work food because you actually don't want it fridge-cold, so you can leave it in tupperware in your bag, as I did, and it's at room temperature come your break.

2 portions of salad: again, boxed up and taken to work. I find spicy food on my break means I don't so much get that just-eaten, sleepy bear feeling when I have to return to shift. That plus filling up on food that isn't carb driven means when it's time to go back on shift I've got a spring in my step.

Another week then, another series of purchase-free meals. This was the week before my first set of wages landed as well, so the purchase-free thing was still pretty key. I have, since, been buying spices and seasonings and storecupboard things, which will probably change the face of my cooking even more, but I think I'm really getting into the swing of making diverse meals over the course of a week that fill me up, are tasty, and are nutritionally pretty sound. I'm equally pleased that I'm managing to fit it around work, and that I'm also, despite being much busier these days, NOT THROWING ANYTHING AWAY. I thought for sure that being at work would mean I'd be busy, and neglecting the fridge, and ending up wasting food, but I've actually been so organized and on top of my shit that I've used up every last scrap of what I have, and I'm feeling super proud of that.

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How to discontinue sugar this year: ‘It’s a lifestyle change , not a diet’

Week four is when most people experience a accident, and mine is stupendous. But by week six, Ive come through the other side

Its Monday night, and Im clutching an eight-pack of mini Kelloggs cereals in the queue of my local angle patronize, hoping I dont see anyone I know. This is the next best happen to the full carton of Coco Pops Ive been praying all day.

Call it a regression to the simpler cracking, crackle and dad of children, but theres refuge in a container of something sweet and crunchy, topped with ice-cold milk. And during a particularly trying few months( Im is fully prepared to get married, my mothers been diagnosed with cancer ), it has become a accepted part of my evening number.

From the World Health Organisation halving its recommended daily carbohydrate intake from 10 teaspoons( about 40 g) to five in 2014, to the UK authorities plans for a taxation on sugary soft drink in 2018, weve all had the memoranda: carbohydrate is villainy. But me? Im a health eater. I juice in the mornings; I count my five a day. I deter a pile of snacks on my desk that have wholesome words written on them such as raw, natural and healthful.

Yet I dont feel so smug when Im wolfing down a container of chocolate-flavoured pant rice, just through the door, hair still on. I seem tired and crabby. Ive not been compensating much attention to my diet lately; I just know that my feelings are all over the place and my paunch is often bloated. Later that night, I log what Ive ate into the nutritional app, My Fitness Pal. A typical era green juice and porridge for breakfast; roasted potato for lunch; chicken, brown rice and salad for dinner; plus two pieces of return as snacks comes in at a whopping 47 g of carbohydrate. Im shocked.

Can I truly cut out carbohydrate altogether, and is there any degree? I sign up for an eight-week online curriculum, I Quit Sugar, created by a glowing, sparky Australian reporter announced Sarah Wilson. Shes no nutritionist: she discontinued sugar as an experiment, and met it so beneficial that she made a step-by-step program. One and a half million people had now been signed up.

Every Thursday, I am transmitted a shopping list and a snack plan for the week ahead. On Sunday, Ill prepare in advance and freeze what I can, aka The Cook Off. Theres a discussion meeting on the locate, as well as experts, including doctors, nutritionists and personal teaches, available to answer inquiries. Its a lifestyle change rather than a diet, the idea being that if you switch your palate to savoury, and replace sugar with fatten, youll eventually stop craving anything sweet. Follow the contrive, and you cut down in week one, proceed cold turkey between weeks two and five, and gradually reintroduce a bit of sweetness between weeks six and eight.

I feel overloaded by information. First, what am I actually giving up? When I talk about ceasing carbohydrate, Im talking about discontinuing fructose, Wilson tells me. Fructose is the foe. Its added sugar hidden in processed foods such as fruit juice, ketchup and dough. Its addictive, forms us ingest more and accumulates itself in the liver, constituting it harder to break down than fat.

To made this into situation, full-fat yoghurt naturally contains around a teaspoon of carbohydrate( 4g ), whereas fat-free return yoghurt contains around six teaspoons. Our organizations are designed to metabolise the fructose equivalent of two small-scale fragments of fruit a daylight. A small-minded bottle of apple juice contains nine teaspoons.

I approach week one thought motivated( cleansing out every last raisin from the kitchen ), until the prospect of cooking a batch of curried parsnip fritters followed by apple bircher muffins( and thats just on the first Sunday) pushes me over the edge. I shoot off a jittery email to the I Discontinue Sugar area to explain this isnt for me.

Theyre clearly used to sugar-free loafers; I get a friendly email reminding me that all I certainly need to remember is the slogan Jerf: Precisely Eat Real Food. You is fully penalty if you chew an abundance of fresh make, fleshes, dairy and fattens. If it comes in a packet, try and eschew it. If you cant, opt for the ones with the least number of ingredients, and always less than 5g of sugar per 100 g. The complicated-looking snack contrives are actually flexible, they say, and I am directed to helpful guides on the website( from an eating-out defraud sheet to a sandwich-making navigate ).

Replacing sugar with fatty is easier than it resounds. My brand-new breakfast is eggs and avocado, or buttery mushrooms on sourdough, while for dinner its bangers and mash or roasted chicken. I dont is very hard to supplant dessert with a cheeseboard, and a glass of red wine with dinner five times a week is promoted, because it helps digestion. But is it any healthier?

Week four is when most people suffer a gate-crash, and mine is monumental. I get really drunk on Jgerbombs( 25 g sugar per suck) at my hen do and nurse my hangover with pizza( 7g carbohydrate in merely a single slice ). I have headaches and psychological outbursts for eras. But by week six, I find as if Ive come through the other side; Ive is not simply stopped having hungers, I have a savoury palate.

Im hardly a posting daughter for the programme of activities Ive actually gained weight but this wasnt about dieting. Eight weeks on, Im in control of my desires, I have more force, and I cant even stomach a piece of fruit, let alone a bowl of Coco Pops. Alcohol is another story, but theres always 2018 to undertake that beast.

The I Quit Sugar programme runs every eight weeks, and costs from 89; go to iquitsugar.com for details.

Start here

Swap juice for a piece of entire fruit

Ditch processed foods and check names: avoid anything with more than 5g carbohydrate per 100 g

Switch to full fatty foods

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How to quit sugar this year: ‘It’s a lifestyle change, not a diet’

Week four is when most people experience a crash, and mine is monumental. But by week six, Ive come through the other side

Its Monday night, and Im clutching an eight-pack of mini Kelloggs cereals in the queue of my local corner shop, hoping I dont see anyone I know. This is the next best thing to the full box of Coco Pops Ive been craving all day.

Call it a regression to the simpler snap, crackle and pop of childhood, but theres refuge in a bowl of something sweet and crunchy, topped with ice-cold milk. And during a particularly trying few months (Im about to get married, my mothers been diagnosed with cancer), it has become a welcome part of my evening routine.

From the World Health Organisation halving its recommended daily sugar intake from 10 teaspoons (about 40g) to five in 2014, to the UK governments plans for a tax on sugary soft drinks in 2018, weve all had the memo: sugar is evil. But me? Im a healthy eater. I juice in the mornings; I count my five a day. I keep a pile of snacks on my desk that have wholesome words written on them such as raw, natural and nutritious.

Yet I dont feel so smug when Im wolfing down a bowl of chocolate-flavoured puffed rice, barely through the door, coat still on. I feel tired and grumpy. Ive not been paying much attention to my diet lately; I just know that my moods are all over the place and my tummy is often bloated. Later that night, I log what Ive eaten into the nutritional app, My Fitness Pal. A typical day green juice and porridge for breakfast; baked potato for lunch; chicken, brown rice and salad for dinner; plus two pieces of fruit as snacks comes in at a whopping 47g of sugar. Im shocked.

Can I really cut out sugar completely, and is there any point? I sign up for an eight-week online programme, I Quit Sugar, created by a glowing, sparky Australian journalist called Sarah Wilson. Shes no nutritionist: she quit sugar as an experiment, and found it so beneficial that she created a step-by-step programme. One and a half million people have since signed up.

Every Thursday, I am sent a shopping list and a meal plan for the week ahead. On Sunday, Ill prepare in advance and freeze what I can, aka The Cook Off. Theres a discussion forum on the site, as well as experts, including doctors, nutritionists and personal trainers, available to answer queries. Its a lifestyle change rather than a diet, the idea being that if you switch your palate to savoury, and replace sugar with fat, youll eventually stop craving anything sweet. Follow the plan, and you cut down in week one, go cold turkey between weeks two and five, and gradually reintroduce a bit of sweetness between weeks six and eight.

I feel overloaded by information. First, what am I actually giving up? When I talk about quitting sugar, Im talking about quitting fructose, Wilson tells me. Fructose is the enemy. Its added sugar hidden in processed foods such as fruit juice, ketchup and bread. Its addictive, makes us eat more and stores itself in the liver, making it harder to break down than fat.

To put this into context, full-fat yoghurt naturally contains around a teaspoon of sugar (4g), whereas fat-free fruit yoghurt contains around six teaspoons. Our bodies are designed to metabolise the fructose equivalent of two small pieces of fruit a day. A small bottle of apple juice contains nine teaspoons.

I approach week one feeling motivated (cleaning out every last raisin from the kitchen), until the prospect of cooking a batch of curried parsnip fritters followed by apple bircher muffins (and thats just on the first Sunday) pushes me over the edge. I fire off a panicky email to the I Quit Sugar site to explain this isnt for me.

Theyre clearly used to sugar-free slackers; I get a friendly email reminding me that all I really need to remember is the slogan Jerf: Just Eat Real Food. You will be completely fine if you eat an abundance of fresh produce, meats, dairy and fats. If it comes in a packet, try and avoid it. If you cant, opt for the ones with the least number of ingredients, and always less than 5g of sugar per 100g. The complicated-looking meal plans are actually flexible, they say, and I am directed to helpful guides on the website (from an eating-out cheat sheet to a sandwich-making guide).

Replacing sugar with fat is easier than it sounds. My new breakfast is eggs and avocado, or buttery mushrooms on sourdough, while for dinner its bangers and mash or roast chicken. I dont find it hard to replace dessert with a cheeseboard, and a glass of red wine with dinner five times a week is encouraged, because it helps digestion. But is it any healthier?

Week four is when most people experience a crash, and mine is monumental. I get very drunk on Jgerbombs (25g sugar per drink) at my hen do and nurse my hangover with pizza (7g sugar in just a single slice). I have headaches and emotional outbursts for days. But by week six, I feel as if Ive come through the other side; Ive not only stopped having cravings, I have a savoury palate.

Im hardly a poster girl for the programme Ive actually gained weight but this wasnt about dieting. Eight weeks on, Im in control of my cravings, I have more energy, and I cant even stomach a piece of fruit, let alone a bowl of Coco Pops. Alcohol is another story, but theres always 2018 to tackle that beast.

The I Quit Sugar programme runs every eight weeks, and costs from 89; go to iquitsugar.com for details.

Start here

Swap juice for a piece of whole fruit

Ditch processed foods and check labels: avoid anything with more than 5g sugar per 100g

Switch to full fat foods