#and i don’t really want to quit but

[otaku553]

Thoughts on being aroace

#I like doing these little introspective thought comics they’re pretty fun #I didn’t get to include this in the comic but I do feel like loneliness is maybe not quite the right word #it’s not quite jealousy or envy either #more like #the sad knowledge that you are lower on someone else’s list of priorities than they are on your priorities #something like that I guess #if this seems like a sad comic don’t worry! I am ok :) I have my best friend and we’re both very clear on how much we care for each other #so I’m never really left needing or wanting more love or anything #love is so weirdly defined anyways

[ink-the-artist]

“Social media has made this generation so narcissistic and self centered everyone’s always posting selfies and posting about everything they do during the day” shut up. The human desire to show you exist and you were here is innate and we’ve been doing it since the days we were leaving hand prints on cave walls

#I’m in a romantic mood rn don’t mind my bullshit lol #I have a lot of feelings abt the idea of how we want to show we exist and be seen #it’s really a shame I don’t see this idea explored much in media #there is stuff about leaving behind a legacy in media sure but that’s not quite the same #bojack did do this which I rly liked #in the episode where he’s giving a speech at his moms funeral #talking about how she said ‘I see you’ before she died #the desire to just be seen #also this book I like called moral lessons had a chapter on this #it was a chapter about smoking and how part of the appeal of smoking is #you sort of prove you’re existence. the smoke and the smell of it goes beyond you and your presence is undeniable #and the same is for wearing perfume #‘’​‘I am here’ she sniffs happily ‘I am really here’’’ #I rly like this book lol #edit: it’s mortal lessons not moral lessons #my bad lol #also the author is Richard Selzer #if anyone’s interested in reading it

[buddiesmutslut]

LISTEN. If we get a bisexual!Buck arc, I will ACTUALLY LITERALLY CRY, I’m already emotional just thinking about it, it will literally bring me so much joy

BUT

I don’t want it at the expense of an Eddie coming out arc…

Bc listen, I read a post talking abt how the writers probably won’t give both of them a really flushed out Queer Realization Arc bc it would be redundant, which like, okay sure, yes, I can see why you wouldn’t want to have two main, male characters going through the exact same thing, so sure, whatever, BUT -

I feel like, out of Buddie, Eddie is going to be the one that really struggles with coming to terms with his sexuality.

Eddie, who had to be The Man Of The House at 10 years old. Eddie, who grew up in the Deep South. Eddie, whose family is Catholic. Eddie, who already had a strained relationship with his judgmental parents. Eddie, who had a WIFE. Eddie, who says that what he had with Shannon was magic & compares every relationship he had to her. Eddie, who was in the military, which is infamous for DADT. Eddie, whose aunt constantly pushes him at random women because he needs to not be alone. Eddie, who canonically suffers from comp-het, saying that dating women feels like putting on a performance, not that he understands why. Eddie, who dated Ana & was planning on staying with her, even though he was unhappy, for his son.

I think Buck would be way chiller with realizing he’s queer - if he doesn’t already know, which is my fav head-cannon - & I feel like he wouldn’t struggle as much bc it’s Eddie, & Eddie is his best friend, and gender wouldn’t play as big a part for him as I think it would for Eddie.

I would love for them both to have an arc where they worked through their expectations when it comes to relationships & realize that they’re queer, but idk man, I feel like Eddie is going to be the one to really struggle & he deserves to really have that flushed out.

Idk, I’ve been thinking about this ever since I saw that post & nobody I know watches 9-1-1 😭

#buddie #911 abc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 #Queer Buddie Arcs #I want them both to have nice things is that really so unreasonable? #literally all of their other arcs take place at the same time #let them realize they’re queer & in love with each other at the same time too #honestly this only applies if Buddie goes canon which I’m not even convinced is going to happen #i have so many feelings #Buck would just be like “I’m in love with my best friend? fucking dope #bc my darling boy just wants to be loved & chosen & Eddie has already done those things #either way I wish they would stop putting them with random ass women who have been on the show for less than 10 minutes #I don’t need them to go canon in s7 but if we don’t even get a HINT of it this season I’ll probably quit watching #unless s7 is REALLY good bc they put some WEIRD shit in recently that I dfw #I have no idea how Tumblr is supposed to work am I doing this right? idk pls advise

[larkspurglove]

I’m genuinely considering breaking my f2p status to get this even though I swore off spending on gachas ever since the cookie run kingdom incident.

Only issue is the battle pass is 30 dollars 🧍‍♀️

#btw the CRK incident was basically me being mega obsessed with the game #and desperately wanting to get that frost queen cookie or whatever #so I spend ~$30 dollars on the game to get her #and then a few months later I quit the game and I haven’t touched it since #I’ve never regretted spending money more and I have made extremely stupid purchases in the past #and I’m afraid that if I do get the battlepass another 30 dollars will go into the bin #also breaking my f2p status even if the only benefits are like a bit of extra resources and jade feels like cheating #even so I am DESPERATE and I’m aware there’s an event happening where I can win a battlepass #but I don’t believe they specified if it was the $15 dollar one or $30 dollar one #and also I don’t really like commenting on socmed where hoyo actually exists #honkai star rail #hsr #aventurine #hsr aventurine #aventurine hsr #lark rambles

[decaffeinatedpartymuggoop]

Okay, we all know being a demigod is a shit position. Its scary and gets you killed in really nasty ways. But I feel like being a Big Three Kid has to be the shitiest position in all the shit positions.

Like, imagine being Thalia Grace. Your dad is king of the gods, lord of the skies. Led a war to get rid of a tyrant. And the only thing you get is his scorned wife AND brother, who both try to kill you (with one technically succeeding), a drunk of a mother, and brother who you thought was dead. Oh, wait, he’s not dead! No instead he was used as an offering to appease your dad’s wife and help fight in a war and prevent mass destruction.

Or maybe you can imagine being Percy. Son of the sea god, the stormbringer, the earthshaker. You get to live with a disgusting, abusive man for around 6 years. Who smells like literal shit. All because your scent as a demigod is too strong, BECAUSE of who your father is. You see things that you aren’t supposed to see and do things that people can’t do and go years thinking something is wrong with you. That your the problem. Then you get to the one place where you’re supposed to be save. But! Here is the kicker! You’re not! Your uncles hate you and you’ve been accused of stealing a symbol of power. A series of events that will kick off a war, and guess what. You’re a center point for it. Welcome to Camp Half-Blood.

Mhm, but then there’s Hazel. Daughter Pluto, god of the underworld and riches. But that doesn’t really change anything does it? She’s still living in 1930s America, in a red state. One where confederate flags still hang if you go deep enough into the city. She go to a school where the kids are supposed to be just like her! They still don’t like her tho. She’s got no idea who your father is, only that he left her with a parting gift. Only it’s not really a gift. Sure, she can pull rubies and diamonds from the earth, all worth millions. But anyone who’s ever gonna touch it will die. She lives with her mother, a woman gone so mad with greed it kills her. And Hazel, by the way. Laying dead Alaska, inhaling oil. But it doesn’t end there! She can’t have her mother suffering for eternity, can she? The answer is no. Hazel gets to spend the next 70 years in the Fields of Asphodel. It still doesn’t end! Because when she’s brought back to life, she gets to fight in a war against giants, her sad story seemingly never ending.

Nico’s a son of one of the Big Three, one of the most ancient and most powerful. But most people look at him as something bad, something not worth taking a second glance at. Something too look away from, mostly. He’s from the 30s, spent years in a magical time casino with only his sister at his side. She doesn’t stay for long though, she dies soon after they discover their heritage. And he doesn’t remember his mother much, a name without a face. A face without a name. He survived an attempted assassination at 2, though it wouldn’t be the only time his was life was threatened. He clings to his sister, even though she’s dead. He’s the son of the god of the underworld, is he not? There had to be a way, and there is. Only she won’t talk to him, she seems more concerned with communicating with the guy who got her killed instead. She chooses rebirth, and he decides to lay it to rest. She’s not coming back, and he has a war to fight in. (He gets stuck in a jar and forcibly outed a few years later, but that’s a lot to get into for now.)

Jason Grace is a pillar of New Rome, their golden boy, their American boy. He’s a son of Jupiter, a natural born leader. He’s been at camp for as long as he can remember, he wants to be praetor soon. He’s had a rocky start, but maybe he’ll be one of the lucky ones. Retire a veteran and live a long life with Reyna in New Rome. Only that never happened. He has no idea where he is, there’s a girl holding his hand, and she’s cute but it feels wrong. They get attacked and people come in and call him a Greek demigod, familiar, yes, but still wrong. It doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t put things into perspective the way it does for Piper and Leo. He’s goes to a quest to rescue Hera, the name sounds wrong. He nearly dies but at least he remembers who he is. He spends the next 6 months trying to get back home, even though he isn’t too sure on where or what home is. He gets there, eventually, but it doesn’t stop there. He’s dragged on quests and battles and fights in the war but at least he survives it, he’s still there. Apollo needs help, he and Piper give him aid. He gets dumped. He doesn’t get to he a veteran in New Rome. Not with Reyna, not with Piper, not with anybody. He doesn’t get kids or grandkids. No, he gets shot down, another demigod buried.

You could be any one of them, really. Pick your poison, but I guarantee you won’t like any of them. Spending years trying to find a place where you belong, where you feel safe. Only for it to never come.

Percy, who, if you really look at the books, isn’t really all that well liked until he’s at least 2 years into camp. Only to then be sidelined because the courages, brave, fearless daughter of Zeus is back from the dead. Nico, the son of one of the most feared and hated gods. Who has death written all over him, who excludes it so much animals can smell it and humans can sense it, who’s been ostracized and pushed off to the side since he was 10. Hazel, who was treated like disease as soon as she stepped foot on camp soil. Who’s gone her whole life looked as something that’s cursed, that will only bring misfortune, a bad omen.

Shit positions, all of them.

#Hazel and Jason make my head spin #also jaosn and Percy #I like how they both in a way didn’t want glory or to be some hero #i don’t think Jason mentions it much but they kids and grandkids mention in BOO is very telling #Percy’s is from the musical but whatever we all know the musical is canon #and show Percy thinking something is wrong with him and that he needs a mental evaluation of some kind is #everything #I’m making that canon now #I’d love to get a Thalia book #a trilogy maybe #first book is her with her mom and Jason + Luke and Annabeth on the run #ending with her dying #2nd book takes place after her resurrection and during the the war #final book is life with the hunters #and how she found peace in a world designed for her to struggle #I feel like out of all of them big three kids she’s the only one who got her happy ending #and in the fandom the hunters have gotten the reputation of being where Rick puts characters that can’t be shipped with anyone #but I really don’t think it’s the case with her #she’s also one of the only demigods where I think her story has come to a close #like it’s done #Percy’s story is almost done too #Nico and Hazel I feel aren’t quite there yet #percy jackson #thalia grace #hazel levesque #jason grace #nico di angelo #pjo hoo toa #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians

[naturecalls111]

I think I love Sanji so extra much because he’d acknowledge my ‘girl-ness’ in a way that I feel like has not ever been acknowledged in a way I wanted it to be wails

The chivalry intended not with hopeful reciprocation but with admiration. WAILS.

#nc111 talks #like growing up the whole concept of ‘being one of the boys’ was so stupid to me #mostly because I had so many guy friends and I was not appreciative of their treatment of me at all #there were definitely times where I wanted to tell them like. hm. I wish you would respect my girlhood a bit more #I love being a woman. I really do #my girlhood is something I keep very close to me. I was very jealous of other girls in my school who exuded that type of femininity #speaking purely from personal experience - just to make that clear #but I like being and being associated with traits that are quite literally stereotypically aligned with Girl-ness #so hard to explain!! but at its core I just love chivalry though lol #one of my friends was like ugh no I’d never want a guy to hold a door open for me just because I’m a girl #‘I’d want them to hold it open because it’s just a kind thing to do’ #and like. yes. core sentiment I totally agree with #but also I Do want to be acknowledged as a girl I spent all of my childhood and teen years having my Girl-ness barely recognised and #it sucked seing the disparity in the treatment #but it also sucked seeing the intent with which these guys treated women chivalrously #which is why Sanji appeals to me. his chivalry is not ill intended or manipulative. ever. and it acknowledges womanhood all the same #OK RAMBLINGGGG #lost the plot. point is I love Sanji because I see him do his little dance while giving Robin a dessert she never had to ask for and I sigh #WISH THAT WERE ME. #edit: none of this matters mostly because I don’t care to date men #but I suppose it’s like. even in my friendships with other girls I feel like there was an inherent establishment that ok so I act as the Guy #And She acts as the girl #when we go out their arms would wrap around mine #and mine never wrapped around theirs. does that make sense #hold their hand as they walked down the stairs in heels. helped them out of cars. you get the image #SANJI WOULD HOLD MY HAND OUT OF A CAR EVERY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him #I’d never have to ask! ah. love chivalry.

[shima-draws]

I’m not even at WCI yet so I don’t even have context but my brain won’t shut up about Sanlu Forbidden Romance where Luffy sneaks in to the Vinsmoke mansion (or wherever the hell they’re keeping Sanji) so he can tenderly kiss him under the moonlight. I am unwell

#Sanlu #Lusan #One Piece #Sanji #Luffy #Black Leg Sanji #Monkey D Luffy #And my favorite very self indulgent headcanon: Luffy being stupidly absurdly possessive esp since Sanji’s currently engaged #So he leaves um. Well you know. Marks. Everywhere :)))) #Sanji: NOT that high I don’t want Pudding-chan to see— #Luffy: Well I do. Sanji is mine and I want her to see my marks :) #Sanji: 😳😳😳 #Sanji: (Hope this doesn’t awaken something in me) #(Hint: it does) #The Vinsmokes are 100% unaware Sanji is secretly kissing his boyfriend while their backs are turned. It’s quite excellent #Pudding: He’s so obsessed with me it’s pathetic 🙄 #Meanwhile Sanji is currently sitting in Luffy’s lap kissing him silly #Luffy scaling a massive castle wall just to sneak in through Sanji’s window every night. #THE PINING. Luffy secretly panicking bc Sanji’s really gonna get married soon isn’t he. #Sanji just wanting to leave but he can’t 😔 #Luffy: Run away with me? #Sanji: 🥺🥺🥺😭 #CRAWLING UP THE WALLS I’M INSANE RN. I AM SO UNWELL #Shima speaks #SORRY I CAN’T BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM EVER. NEVER EVER

[touchlikethesun]

i’m trying to break out of it but, when it comes to their relationship dynamics, so far no fic has managed to top the one skiing au where bokuto and akaashi try and convince kuroo and tsukki to be in a poly relationship that i followed religiously back in 2015, like. (almost) no other fic has managed to tap into what i find so appealing about that group’s whole dynamic, their humour their earnestness their chaos as four, the way akaashi and tsukki balance kuroo and bokuto’s energy (except everyone knows the real trouble is tsukki and bokuto), and like the individual dynamics are incredible too, every pairing just worked so well, even ones i wouldn’t have considered before like kuroo and akaashi. like how in 100k words did this author manage to develop every relationship just so damn well??? there should be way too many moving parts, at least one of the dynamics should have fell flat or fell to the background but none of them did ughhhhh oh my god it’s so good i just need like. a dozen more fics exactly like it rippppp like i’m watching s2 (again yes ik) and all i can think about when i see the four of them interact is “wow that author really nailed their dynamics, what they wrote is exactly how those four would be in 10 years time” god fanfiction is incredible

#no other fic has quite managed to get it exactly how i like #tho i also haven’t looked allll that hard #and like i don’t necessarily want poly bokuakakurotsukki but just like even separated out into individual pairings #i don’t really care for how kurotsukki has been characterised by the fandom at large for one #and bokuaka… bokuto and akaashi are hard characters to write well i think in general #but im also willing to accept that i am exceptionally picky… i can’t help it!! #soma if you see this #i will not be rereading #but i want to #if i tell you i am rereading again you should scold me at the very least i should read the next fic in the series #bokuakakurotsuki #bokuaka #kurotsuki #haikyuu #i’m too tired to tag the rest omg no

[franklyimissparis]

obviously i’m very biased but i think it’s so funny when people (primarily on beatles tiktok or twitter) are like “i love john and paul’s relationship but i hate when people say they weren’t platonic” like… those bitches GAY even if they didn’t fully realise it themselves at the time

#sure there are a lot of rpf ships that are tinfoil hat-y #but the amount of evidence that suggests that john at the very least had romantic/sexual feelings for paul is quite literally undeniable #even if you don’t believe it was consummated or even requited it’s truly just fact at this point that john wanted paul #personally i do think there’s evidence of something more than that but i literally switch my opinion on what really happened on the daily #the beatles #paul mccartney #john lennon #mclennon

[gothamsfinestdummy]

Sorry I burned your eyes again

#uggghghgjhhh I’m so embarrassed but I’m posting this anyway :) #they’re just bein themselves cuddling and garbage like that #they’re so sweet aaaaaa #this is actually a redraw! #no you may not see the other one it sucks #I think the way I’ve drawn brain has really shifted into more of his 90’s design #I think I quite like that #I also do want to experiment with how I draw Pinky #anyway I don’t need to ramble about how I draw them under this hahaha #IM SO SORRY #bartart #brinky #pinky and the brain

[itspileofgoodthings]

so many people have said that as you approach your 30’s things start to fall into place but I don’t feel that at all. the closer I get the more it feels that everything is dissolving and falling apart

#it’s not all in a bad way! #I’m hoping Wendell Berry is right and it may in fact be that when we have lost our way our real journey begins #and there is something where in the dissolution of certainty God enters and directs us the way He wants us to go #and reminds us that we’re not strong and independent from Him but children in His hands #but I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss the certainty of 2018/22/younger Maria #I don’t quite know this new self #except for teaching everything is uncertain and I sort of daren’t pick up the colored pencils of life to do anything with them #I guess that’s what makes me really grateful for teaching #it’s firm and sure contact between me and the outside world #but everything else is just drifting and I am at sea! #anyways I am so sorry for putting personal self-reflection and analysis on your dash on this Easter morning #ewww ugh disgusting blegh I’m sorry #but trying to gain some clarity through words #Happy Easter! thank you for listening!! praying for you all

[otaku553]

Kind of enjoyed his character teaser! :)

I think Lyney will be pretty interesting especially if he’s the main character introducing us to Fontaine (similarly to like collei and tighnari being the first characters for sumeru). The relationship between magic and law to the truth are very counter to each other, because magic presents falsehood as the truth while law is meant to uncover the truth and judge impartially based on it. I think the fact that we’re seeing a family of magicians in our first banner instead of a judge or a lawyer means a lot of fun things are in store for the Fontaine justice system in terms of how it handles falsehoods presented to it and how it judges what it perceives to be truth.

#genshin impact #lyney #don’t mind ​me on my agenda to cover the skin on every genshin character #anyways! I just think he’s kinda neat #probably not gonna pull for him because I’m kind of broke after baizhu and I want focalors to complete the archon set #and also because I don’t really enjoy his design that much #might get spooked if I try to pull for freminet tho since I do enjoy freminet quite a lot… gender….. #definitely one of the regions that I Cannot Play In English because I’ve taken French before and one of my biggest pet peeves is #mispronunciation! like how hard can it be to say Fontaine normally like a nromal person. the Japanese is even more accurate on this than #the English. who in their right mind would look at fontain and say ‘fon-TAYN’ like no!!!! no hard Ay sound! an eh suffices!

[tanadrin]

Rarely do we predict the end of the world two or three generations hence; it’s always “this generation will not pass away before all these things have come to pass.” And I’m sure there are a lot of reasons for this—if you’re running a genuine doomsday cult, for instance, you don’t want to put the doomsday too far off. And I *think* part of the driving force there is that it’s really hard for us to imagine that the world will continue once we are gone, more or less intact. Like, it’s really weird to look at small children and know that, if everything goes right, they will see and do and think things you will never share in. That your life before they came along will be nothing more than the thinly imagined world beyond the borders of photographs that your parents’ or grandparents’ was before you. That however important and accomplished you are, the world will continue to spin when you have died.

That’s a hard fact to get your head around! And it’s sort of the inverse of the way we ofte treat our childhood as cosmogonic, as the default state against which all else rises and falls. We are prone to a solipsism where the bounds of the word are the bounds of our lives. That’s not a novel idea, but it does make me very skeptical of any eschatology positive or negative. The world has, so far, an extremely good track record of zero transformative catastrophes or eucatastrophes that take place with the sound of trumpets in the twinkling of an eye. Sure, it has lots of moments of *change.* Whole ages of them—dramatic sometimes, but always continuous. Differentiable, you might say, in that however rapidly the status quo is in flux you can see there is one, and how we got here from a previous state.

And not only do doomsayers have a pretty lousy track record, they frequently exhibit telltale signs that their doomsaying is based in something other than careful deduction—like Paul Ehrlich not only missing the Green Revolution (a forgivable error perhaps) but digging in even further the more reality continued to drift from his apocalyptic forecasts. One cannot help but think of Harold Camping, continually reissuing his predictions for the Second Coming. But also—peak oil was wrong; climate change has been bad but looks like it will not be “the end of industrial civilization” bad; a NATO/Warsaw Pact nuclear war never came to pass, (although arguably that’s the one that was in a lot of ways the most rational, and where we got luckiest). The non-doomsday-prophet types look at these fortunate turns and go “thank God that never happened!” But some people seem truly disappointed—after all, if the word will outlast you, how special can you or your era really be?

#nuclear war feels like the most rational thing #to have been doom and gloom about #it would be really really bad #in a way that I think is hard to comprehend #but still a lot of predictions for what it would actually look like #do not seem to me to be accurate #like you don’t want to understate it #you don’t want to be one of those Air Force psychopaths #that was like ‘we can totally win an ICBM exchange’ #but I don’t think the risk was ever quite ‘the end of industrial civilization’ #and certainly not human extinction

[comfymoth]

STOP SAYING TILIN COULD COME BACK STOP GETTING MY HOPES UP you know i’m delusional enough to believe it you can’t play with my feelings like thissssss

#i really don’t think they’d do it— it feels like it wouldn’t quite match with quackity’s lore plans #but god. God. #do i want to live in a state of denial anyways #qsmp

[lockandkeyhyena]

I’m sorry to be a party pooper, but as a transfem wc fan that “I've been seeing a lot of hosility towards transmascs in this community” is so weird. Because one they have my mutual who is also trans women blocked for some reason and I have never seen any negativity on transmasc in this fandom like ever. Which is crazy because this fandom is mostly dominated by transmascs and tmes.

For the first time in the entire fandoms history have we had a spike of people finally recognizing and treating trans woman in this fandom with respect, and yet that person post that begging for more mascs to be recognized. That’s not weird in the slightest.

I’m just tired… yall will NEVER treat trans women like the way you did with op.

It’s low-key disappointing.

i’m… sorry? i really don’t know what you’re talking about, i just wanted to lift up other transmasc artists- i don’t quite know what i did wrong? i don’t believe i said anything against transfems and i even said i haven’t seen any transmasc-directed bigotry?

here’s the post in question for those out of the loop

#i feel like you’re in quite a bit of pain but i just don’t know where it’s coming from? if i’m misinterpreting something please let me know #but i genuinely don’t know what i did wrong #i can make a promo post for transfems if you want? im very sorry to have upset you i just don’t know what i did #and i have to gently disgree with ‘this fandom is dominated by transmascs’ it’s really not. it’s mostly dominated by cisgender women and #i would hope you’re not lumping us into the same category #yeen rambles #ask

[sizzleissues]

criticism of your art does not reflect on your morals or abilities in their entirety but rather the merits of a piece and the critics subjective opinion

in other words

feel free to tear off your art teachers head she’s wrong you are the next Van Gogh

#sizzle rambles #So guess who just got back from art critique #I don’t want to swan dive into a lake - totally #WOMEN I MADE THE CHANGES YOU SUGGESTED AND YOU HAD THE GALL TO THINK IT LOOKS #WORSE NOW #ITS YOUR FAULT #’your technique and skill is quite good but *the idea she had* really brings if down’ #‘There’s just something missing - something wrong that I can’t place’ #WELL THEN MAYBE THERE ISN’T #MAYBE MY ORIGINAL IDEA WAS TO IT TO FEEL LIKE THE EMPTY SPACE WAS JARRING #LIKE A DISCONNECTION #AND YOU JUST DIDNT GET IT!! #I’m fine actually it’s just frustrating #Should have trusted my gut