#and if she ends up dying before then

[far-beyond-saving]

When Gwen ends up in a sapphic relationship (notice that I said when, not if, because that bitch is a lesbian), we will need to make some fucking noise. I want fanart, fanfics, etc.. I’m so starved for f/f content, dear god.

#if she’s not a lesbian #or at least not queer #i am rioting /j #and if she ends up dying before then #i will cry #but please do not miss out on the good sapphic content guys #i believe in you #gwendolyn bouchard #the magnus protocol #tmagp #cynic.txt

[mayasaura]

Harrow got so unbelievablely horny dreaming about Gideon's rolled up sleeves exposing her lean, taut muscle, a little dewy with sweat and steam but you know what.... thinking about it. Gideon does not disrobe basically ever, except in private to bathe. A tantalizing glimpse of forearm may legitimately be the most Harrow's imagination has to work with

#it takes a while for Gideon to be comfortable even removing her cloak at Canaan House #and that was a much warmer enviorment than the Ninth #kind of interesting that Gideon's seen Harrow naked and there's no evidence Harrow even knows what Gideon's shoulders look like #and how that corresponds to their different levels of emotional vulnerability #harrow laid it all out on the table: all her trauma her devotion her motivations and at the end her admiration for Gideon #meanwhile Gideon says she wants one thing then directly contradicts herself woth her actions #she flashed her heart once - you know I only care about you right? - before rolling her sleeves up and dying #this isn't a criticism of Gideon #their environment has provided a lot more security and support for Harrow #which is saying something #I also suspect she Gideon naturally has the emotional self-awareness of a cheeseburger which does not help her out but anyway #just think it's interesting how they've bared such different amounts of themselves to one another #the locked tomb #gideon nav #harrow nonagesimus

[prans-micellar-water]

Obsessed with love between diary and devil bc every character seems to think they’re living in a different genre. Xiao Lanhua is convinced she’s in a silly romcom (and she’s right about half the time). To her, Dongfang Qingcang is doing all these things for her because he’s helplessly in love, not because he needs her skill and definitely not because she has any kind of power over him. Lord Changheng is in a palace drama—he’s returned from the war and longs to settle down with the sweet girl who saved him once, but his arranged marriage takes precedence over his true desires. Dongfang Qingcang is in, like, a power fantasy xianxia webnovel, so taking time to care for Xiao Lanhua pisses him off sooooo much. He just wants to skip to the part where he beheads everyone who ever opposed him

#love between fairy and devil #maybe I’ll make another post about this later but it totally cracks me up when a character’s expectations of the genre #are turned upside down. like Lord Changheng COMPLETELY ignores how Xiao Lanhua got stuck in a fucking vibe when she was trying to be elegant #Xiao Lanhua complains about almost dying for about thirty seconds before completely changing focus and thinking only about #the pretty men in her life (good for her) #and. as mentioned above. Dongfang Qingcang is so so angy when he has to do romantic drama things for Xiao Lanhua. collect morning dew. #heat up her room. #count the flowers in the greenhouse. y’know. CLASSIC pill-refining giant-battle power-struggle webnovel stuff #also I’m only on episode five so maybe this framing won’t hold up at all but for now it amuses me to no end #*stuck in a fucking vine #not vibe

[carefulfears]

so ... demons coming right after elegy, in the middle of the cancer arc is a crazy choice and i know it means something. please share all your big brain thoughts on mulder & demons?

well...it's kind of like...in elegy, they're being haunted by the future (omens of scully's impending death), in demons, they're haunted by the past (visions from before samantha disappeared). both are highly metaphorical, and both are intrusive, even though he sought out the second. the first is too much. the second isn't enough. and after elegy it's becoming clear that...nothing will be enough. she is so close to death that she can see it. she can't...hide it from him, anymore. she's been dying for a long time. and she doesn't make him face it. she never has that moment where she tells him to just get over it. she never has that moment where she tells him to just accept it, stop avoiding it. she goes to all of her appointments alone. she bleeds alone. even in elegy when they almost argue over it, she tells him that she is fine, and then she goes outside and cries in her car.

but she's not fine, she's so close to death that she can see it, and he knows that. he's so eternally aware. mulder's fatal flaw is that he can see the world, he understands every underlying system, he knows people and how they think. and when he says "i refuse to believe that," he knows that doesn't make it go away. in elegy, he tells her that he's afraid, and she tells him that she's fine. it is a system established long before this particular death sentence.

in the script notes for the last scene of never again, it is remarked that: “if it were ever going to happen, it would be now. as they maintain the silence.”

the way i see it, never again is when they knew. they are not escaping each other. they are dying together. you are coming down with me. (hand in unlovable hand). and then, in the very next episode, comes a diagnosis. they are dying together. and they are dying now. silence is maintained.

so what does she do, after her diagnosis? she buys a journal, and she writes. she writes him letter after letter after letter. begging forgiveness. begging grace. begging courage.

the page that he found, that he read, this is what it said:

“mulder, i feel you close, though i know that you are now pursuing your own path. for that i am grateful- more than i could ever express. i need to know you’re out there if i am ever to see through this.”

i need to know you’re out there. a few months later, in demons, a gun to his chin on the floor of his childhood home, does she feel that he’ll be “out there”? she finds out she doesn’t have much longer to live, maybe weeks, in the next episode, and she doesn’t tell him. she maintains silence.

there’s so much discourse over the choices that mulder makes in demons…it was selfish, it was stupid, it was confusing…i see people ask all the time why he would willingly do something that causes everyone to kill themselves. the answer, of course, is that mulder wants to kill himself. that’s not new, we all watched pusher. (scully watched too). in redux it’s revealed that the “gethsemane” of the episode directly following demons is not scully’s inevitable and closely impending death, it’s mulder alone in his apartment with a gun.

i’m really uninterested in attempting to moralize these decisions…what’s “selfish” at the end of the world? i think demons makes people uncomfortable. to watch a dying woman care for her reckless partner. i also think that’s…the point.

demons is desperate. there’s an obvious desperation in mulder, of course, but also in scully.

throughout season four, we’re watching scully die. she’s getting smaller. she’s getting weaker. she’s getting sicker. but as it progresses, scully is realizing that mulder is dying too. and it all culminates in demons. and what can she do but be afraid? what can she do but get down on the ground and hold him? what can she do but write about what she fears will happen to him? she won’t be there.

nothing will ever be enough after elegy. and there’s nothing that he can do that’s enough. he can’t save her (so he thinks). and…he can’t solve the quest before she dies. he can’t give her the answers that she’s dying for. demons to me is such a last ditch effort. such a hail mary. she deserved to know the capital t Truth, before she’s gone. and i think they both know that maybe, when she is gone, it will never be found.

#they’re DYING. #he does this drastic stupid thing because maybe then they’ll know about samantha. and they can go in peace. #i also think about ‘closure’ and how that��s 3 years after this and scully is there doing EVERYTHING doing all of the work and it was still #so hard. nearly unsurvivable. #and i think about what if she had died. and what if somehow he kept going. and he ended up there alone. #and she’s thinking that too. he will be alone. he will have no one. he will not be ‘out there’ and if by some miracle he is #he will be facing it by himself. he will be facing the Truth and the loss and the grief alone. #that one shot of ‘demons’ where he just falls to the floor and she slowly kneels beside him and drapes herself over him and holds him #that’s this entire era to me. that’s what it culminates at. because they’re still not saying it but they’re seeing it. #and what is there to do? she’s so sorry. #and she’s so scared #asks #demons #Lol I wrote this and the tags months ago before leaving tumblr ✌️

[green-tea-lemonade]

And there she stood. It seems the stars had been kind enough to at least give her the decency of a normal appearance. She stood there, her tail gently swaying as he walked in her direction. She smiled, the stars in her form glowing a little brighter at the sight of him. He never realized how much he had missed seeing it. Seeing her. If not for the current state of things, it was as though the incident had never happened at all. It had though, and her eyes were the proof.

#art #digital art #homestuck #procreate #solnep #nepeta leijon #sollux captor #warriorstuck #as you can clearly see im still very much for warriorstuck #nep ends up dying and sollux was not very great after her death #he still has his eyesight in starclan like jayfeather style #it literally takes him months if not a full sweep before he even thinks about seeing nep again or dealing with the stars at all #he cant tell if he wants to yell or hug her or just shutdown entirely #he misses the only person who gave him any sort of semblance of hope that everything was going to be okay #shes been trying to contact him since day one of her death but sollux kind of goes through a whole bluestar breakdown deal #she finally stopped after a while of realizing he had to choose to reach out to her and when she stopped trying to contact him he got worse #theres so much drama and stuff in warriors au ideas

[mid-nightowl]

me, after reading batman/catwoman: the gotham war - scorched earth:

#gotham war spoilers #gotham war #i knew...I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE DISAPPOINTED #BUT???? #LIKE WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED #ABSOLUTE GARBAGE?????? #i did not think they would sink this low but they did and continue to #they faked out jason dying #dick and bruce got an “emotional conversation” with no build up that made no sense given what happened before #and bruce states that barbara and dick are the “parents” of the batfam; not him and selina #(I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START ON THAT DKGLNALKGNK) #selina quote end quote died????? #(pretty sure she's alive but they leave you guessing rather than confirming) #dc is pushing their whole tim is the second best robin agenda hard in this #(this event was not the time nor place when tim hasn't even been the FOCUS) #(nevermind my own thoughts about that agenda) #AND THEY DONT EVEN LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO JASON???? #IS HE STILL NOT FIXED??? WHERE IS HE??? #why didn't him and bruce have a conversation??????? #this feels so rushed and stupid and omg im still so ???????? #absolutely mindboggling #ROSENBERG PLS TELL ME YOU'RE FIXING THIS IN THE JOKER COMIC #I BEG #i just want my boy to have one ONE DECENT STORY AND WRITER #IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR #i know i know i shouldn't get invested and keep buying comics when editorial is this dumb #like the previous event issues were not....good but you could pull some good things out of them #but this???? THIS CONCLUDING ISSUE??? THE FINALE???? #no #there's nothing

[agentark]

Bill's death is one of the most (if not the most) horrific companion ends in all of Doctor Who

#like yes she gets to live on - after horrifically and painfully dying TWICE #she gets a hole blasted through her then waits ten years for the doctor #with a big mechanical box for a heart #and then gets blended up and dumped into a cyberman suit HOURS before twelve makes it to her #she's collateral damage in the millennia long tragedy of the doctor and the master #justice for bill potts #doctor who #dw #bill potts #honestly im with the toymaker's sarcastic 'well thats alright then!!!' #very few companions don't suffer heartbreaking ends but man twelve's era inflicts some serious emotional damage #im going to watch classic who for the first after i rewatch 13.... can't wait to get attached to a whole new crop of companions!!

[chibishortdeath]

Some attempts at a design for Selena :3. The second image is inspired by the wedding in Haunted Castle, but I changed Simon’s outfit cause idk I just can’t picture him being comfortable in a suit.

The last two of these are way more headcanon-y lol. They’re under a cut mostly in case my headcanons and story ideas change d(^^ ). One of them was inspired by a Kikuo song I was listening to while drawing lol, the song “Let’s Go to Heaven”.

#castlevania #castlevania games #selena belmont #castlevania selena #castlevania ii #castlevania 2 #castlevania simon’s quest #simon’s quest #castlevania ii: simon's quest #haunted castle #simon belmont #akumajou dracula #akumajo dracula #art post #my art #I remember seeing someone make a post somewhere about how it was weird that #a lot of the cut items from the first Castlevania were things like high heels and a love letter and stuff #I wonder if Simon’s wife/girlfriend was supposed to be a character at one point in it and she got cut for some reason #idk it’s interesting to me that she’s only ever appeared in like deliberately noncanon content ya know? #like Haunted Castle was even called not a Castlevania game by its own lead director #the two novels with Simon girlfriends in them were never intended to be canon just fun side stuff #especially the ones that were choose your own adventure books lol I love the art style in one of those #anyway I’ve been trying to think of ways to write her lately but its so easy to end up accidentally falling into annoying tropes alas 💀💀💀 #especially ones the series has already used before oof #currently my idea so far is since Simon himself is kinda the chosen one hero guy trope in CV1 #and ends up subverting that trope by genuinely failing a ton getting hated by the public and possibly dying at the end #maybe Selena might work as initially the damsel in distress and call to action trope and subverts that later???? #I also have always thought she ends up the Mysterious Woman somehow hmmmm #it’s a hard headcanon to incorporate without just pulling a Dracula X chronicles and oh no she’s a vampire aaaaa but that’s been done 💀 #I am also aware that not everything you write has to be 100% completely new and original and perfect but aaaaaaa

[aria0fgold]

Thinking more about my isat au and I'm gonna need to change a LOT more than I thought. First things first, Siffrin's connection to the wish. Since in Of gems and pages, all the wishes stayed the same. So why is Odile the one looping and not Siff? So basically, what I think I'd do in my au is that the Universe decided to change things up a bit.

The first time the Universe granted Siffrin the means to fulfill their wish, things went horribly bad (just look at Loop). So this time, the Universe decided to give this new Siffrin, something a lil different. They still gave Siffrin the timeloop But made Odile his proxy. So that Siffrin may have helpers in this new timeline, with Loop as the guide and Odile helping as well, it Should go better, right??? And since the wish is connected with Siffrin's emotions, the Universe can't just completely make it Odile's problem now, sooo basically... Siffrin can still remember Parts of a previous loop PRIOR to their deaths.

That means during the beginning of canon when Siff was crushed by a boulder, he remembers that. And found Loop as well, but when he accidentally ended up touching a tear, he now Doesn't remember being crushed by a boulder but by being frozen in time. At the same time, he ALSO doesn't remember Anything else prior to it. So he doesn't remember that there's a boulder that can kill him by the entrance of the House, he doesn't remember Loop. All he remembers is that somehow, one way or another, he was frozen in time within the House and needs to be more careful with the tears. And because of the way that the loops affect Siffrin now is faaar too different than how it affected Loop, he can't go forwards or backwards in time. Siff will always awaken back in the meadow and Loop will always have to do their whole speech all over again (which would most likely annoy them immediately cuz why? Why is it so different now? Why can't this Siffrin REMEMBER?)

Odile on the other hand, remembers ALL the loops and finds a lot of discrepancies with Siffrin. It takes awhile for her to meet Loop and they get to talk to each other. Their meeting would be pretty... rocky at first. Loop still getting regarded as a stranger by Odile, Loop finding out that Odile is the one getting affected by the timeloop from their own selfish wish. Even if that Siffrin isn't them, it doesn't change the fact that they both made the same wish. Loop thinkin bout being such a favourite cosmic joke of the Universe that not only were they turned into This, one of their family members are suffering cuz of them. And she doesn't even recognize them. It'd be pretty hard at first too cuz Loop doesn't know that their appearance changed yet, there's no mirror. For Loop, they might still look like Siffrin, right? But Odile's reaction to seeing them says otherwise.

Anyway in this au, stage wise, Odile is the actor, Siffrin is the director, and the Universe is the audience. Book wise, Odile is the character, Siffrin is the writer, and the Universe is the reader. Why is Siffrin the director or the writer and not the Universe? That's because the timeloops are Still connected to his emotions, if something he didn't want to think about happens like, that argument with Bonbon (just as an example. I'm wondering if that'll still happen here considering that only happened because of Siff had memories of all the loops in canon. He doesn't have that in this au anymore), time would loop back still, so in a way, Siff Is writing how the timeloops go.

#aria rants #isat spoilers #isat au #of gems and pages au #ogap au #also why did the Universe choose odile? i like to think that the Universe finds her as being skilled enough to be able #to easily help fulfill that wish considering that she Was able to deduce the timeloop when given enough clues #at the same time. odile also seems to be both really close to siffrin (the fact that they go on secret quests before) #and far away from the party emotionally. odile doesnt regard anyone as ''friends'' and so convinces herself that theyre just colleagues #but deep down. she also knows how much she cares for everyone to the point of willing to do unspeakable things to anyone that #dares harm any of them. she cares so much but doesnt know the word to describe it. friends doesnt cut it. the idea of them #being like family to her hasnt crossed her mind yet when the only family she knows of and have is broken and incomplete (her mom left them) #so shes seems to be emotionally distant from them. she wanted to ask bout continuing traveling with the others but doesnt know How #the Universe sees that and thought that should there be anyone that can easily help siffrin then itd be odile. unfortunately #for the Universe. they didnt quite expect siff being too closed off and dodgy in regards to his own emotions #so it still end up being difficult. even more so now that odile doesnt have the Full picture at all. she has no idea why #this is happening to her in the first place. she only knows it has something to do with siff and during the sequence #before new loop+ happened. the Universe most likely gave odile that chance both out of pity and hope that everything #will finally turn out better This Time. but because of the fact that odile Was dying and she exhausted her craft powers #she cant be brought back to the previous loops easily anymore cuz even if its still connected siff. her ability to be #brought back to loops hinges on craft power as well. siff is just the switch to it. so in a way. shes Supposed to be dead now #but the Universe heard siff's wish and granted the means to save odile as well as grant the previous wish he made #its just that such a wish cant be without a penalty. and that penalty is the timer on odile's life. they have only 99 tries left

[lightsinthemist]

Every time I read a post complaining about Lucille and how evil she is, I just think about how none of you would handle Milada from The Seven Ravens (1993). Not now, and definitely not as a kid.

#you can't convince me that milada wasn't frustrated her whole life that her brother doesn't want to sleep with her #sedmero krkavců (1993) #czech fairy tales #the seven ravens (1993) #crimson peak #there's just something so caring about lucille even when she's planning to kill you #milada will brutally kill your maid before your eyes frame you for it and then frame you for being a witch #and because your husband is a spineless waste of space you will almost get burned at the stake #unfortunately one of these is a fairy tale so it can't end with him dying or at least you leaving him and now that's the true horror #this is joke btw if it isn't obvious #you can't really compare them since one of them is straight up fairy tale villain but it's fun #with how much this particular adaptation leaned into horror #like THEY MADE SOME CHOICES and I love them for it

[mishy-mashy]

That opinion that every happy ending involves getting married and having kids and it's happily ever after? This does NOT apply to the Astrea family AT ALL.

Case Study #1: Wilhelm and Theresia

They marry and have a kid, go through that typical line of a happy end... but in reality, Wilhelm loves his wife too much, and it's a problem

(especially after said wife dies and he blames everyone else in his family and Oh, Look! Family Drama!™)

Happily ever after? He's estranged himself from the Astreas now, blames his own grandson, and goes on a long journey of revenge. His son's become an alcoholic, his daughter-in-law is dead to the world, and he just left the Astrea family to be handled by the mess that is Heinkel

Wilhelm was so obsessed with his wife, thought his kid might've been a genius (he was not), and when his wife was gone, he was pretty quick to turn around and leave

And where was he before Theresia even died? Where was Theresia, too? When Heinkel couldn't get a job, when Louanna became a Sleeping Beauty, or when people broke into the Astrea manor?

Reinhard was five when Theresia died. These events all happened before that, and they're... enjoying retirement, I guess?

Case #2: Louanna and Heinkel

First off, they married young. Well, to us, it's young, but remember, the age they can start getting married is 15. They're in something like a medieval period. Being around 18 or 19 is totally plausible to get married for them. As we've seen with Priscilla, age gaps aren't a problem either

Heinkel has a beautiful wife and has a kid, and all is well for exactly two years. Then his wife is Gluttony-ed, and everything goes downhill from then on

Heinkel...

... has little talent for the sword, yet is stuck between two generations of Sword Saints (his mother and his son)

... doesn't qualify for the "van" in his name

... can't even get a proper job on his own

... almost loses Reinhard when he's FOUR

... is searching for a cure for his wife that involves killing the dragon that protects their kingdom

... has not kept his wife's state under wraps so nearly everyone knows and can gossip

... verbally abuses even those who try to help him and then regrets it when it's too late

... lost to his own 5-year old kid in a sword duel despite training his whole life himself

... is aware that national laws have been made to restrict his son

... has a job for the sake of appearances with no actual responsibility

... 's job is being done for him by someone about half his age and is otherwise just a knight (Julius)

Heinkel grew up with two heroes for parents, realized he could never match up to even the family general standard, but he does get a beautiful wife and son... and then his wife disappears in what might've the peak of his marriage, and his son has all the talent in the world—something Heinkel might've dreamed of having

Case 3: Reinhard.

Reinhard is obviously expected to marry and have a child to continue the Divine Protection, but that too is just another responsibility he's burdened with.

He's someone with so many Divine Protections that he can see the reality of what each is like. What if he doesn't want his kid to go through having the one that brings so much family expectation (Sword Master)?

Does Reinhard even lose that blessing if it's passed on? Does he just keep his copy and the next one has it too?

Would Reinhard actually feel relieved because his own child now shoulders the responsibilities he had to deal with over the Divine Protection?

Does Reinhard even have a proper understanding of how to express love, or what parental love looks like, if the two cases above are his main examples?

It's been stated that Reinhard would marry whoever the world chose. He isn't going to choose, and especially not for love. Reinhard's just an existence trying to please everyone and live up to their expectations because there's too much at stake that it's impossible to do otherwise

Example: what if he doesn't do right and everyone is dissapointed or leaves?

What even happened during the shady relationship Reinhard and Heinkel apparently had when Reinhard was younger?

In fact, the Astrea family problems started AFTER they got married. Except Reinhard, but that's because he already has to deal with the problems from the marriages of those before him, and they still haven't been solved or even ignored

#just woke up so I'll look at this later #checked in and remembered this applies to Subaru too #he marries Rem in an IF and everything's fine... but then he's back where he started #sure it was a happy “ending” but it wasnt the right and proper ending #b99 Rosa said something about how marrying having kids and being happy is just something TV does #and a lot of marriages in Re:Zero have problems or a not-good future #Emilia's parents are an unknown #Julius's parents died helping others and Julius was thrust into the position of the Juukulius heir away from his normal #Carol and Grimm just witness the mess that is the Astrea family despite being from its time of even before the Demihuman war #Lilianas parents dont care that she left and just think it'd be cool to replace her with another kid #priscilla with all her husbands dying soon after marriage #regulus makes the problems in all his relationships #i had thoughts i couldnt articulate and now ive lost my train of thought #rezero #re zero #re:zero #astrea #oh well

[robinsteve]

“lucas, i’m scared. i’m so scared. i’m so scared. i don't wanna die. i’m not ready. i don't wanna go! i’m not ready.” if the duffers kill max in s5 after that we will be having words.

#not only would it destroy the message of hope and perseverance in the face of personal struggles- the message that’s been a consistent #thread through all four seasons- it would make max’s first “death” scene incredibly pointless when it could have been #so impactful had it been real #obviously i very much want max alive and healthy and happy but there’s something so cinematic and so awe-inspiring about that #shot of max in lucas’ arms with el by her side and the blue light bouncing off their blood-and-tear-soaked faces #before the camera draws back and begins to spin over them... anyway. my point is: #i will be very angry if they end up killing max via coma when they had OPTIONS. well. one option. but it was a really extraordinary option. #her death in s5 despite /everything/ would cheapen the final season immensely and would come off as almost laughably #desperate- but above all so so CRUEL to max and her friends #if she can't live and she can't just die in the attic don't prolong her and her friends' suffering for a far less impactful departure #and furthermore if she can’t live don’t purposefully degrade the meaning and remove the consequences #of a visually and emotionally stunning moment to string along viewers who want to know if max is going to be okay either!!!! #they're already on thin ice from the whole 'el revives max' thing (which i will expand upon in another post) but i've made my peace with it #because it kept max alive and it would actually tear me in two if she died for real but even so. thin fucking ice. to drag max over to #another season after all of that fragile ice walking- only to pass on resolving her arc in a careful way- would be devastating. #in terms of emotional and visual impact we have ‘max actually dying in the creel attic’ up /here/ #(imagine my hand hovering slightly above my hairline) #‘max pulling through the coma and learning to survive and thrive’ right /here/ (hand at eyeline) #and ‘max dying at the hospital’ allllll the way down /here/ (hand at stomach) #which would really fucking SUCK #to be clear i think she’s going to pull through the coma (thank god) because a) the duffers are cowarddddds and b) narrative reasons that #i don’t have enough time energy or tag space to elaborate on #but i also have trust issues from this season so i can envision a scenario in which they metaphorically pull the rug out from under #us and we all riot at dawn together <3 #max mayfield #stranger things #s4 spoilers #** #millie talks #st 4

[carefulfears]

thinking about the way that mulder spent his entire life hating and blaming himself for things that happened to people who don’t think anything of it except how much they loved him

#samantha didn’t even remember that argument they had before she disappeared #she just remembered her brother’s face #how badly she WISHED she could see him #scully’s biggest concern when dying of the disease he thinks he gave her was how much she did NOT want to leave him alone. #even jackson dreamt about saving him #sent those visions to scully #tried to protect him in the end #txf.txt #things that make me crazy in the head #it IS actually all about love you guys. it IS. #it’s all a cycle of mulder’s enduring love for the world -> people like scully and skinner committing to him bc they believe in and love him #-> bad things happening to them and mulder hating himself bc he thinks it’s his fault -> #them getting back up and following him more and loving him more and believing in him more #what if the ouroboros was the friends we made along the way

[microfeelings]

I finished reading Dungeon Meshi in a week...

#i am crying.. the amount of times this manga made me sob #i am an emotional bitch tho so its not like its hard to make me cry lmao #i have many thoughts #spoilers in the tags i guess #good ones regarding the manga itself #bad ones regarding the fandom but thats normal about every fandom so im not even surprised #youre telling me that marcille has such a complicated backstory regarding her lifespan #and having had to watch her father. her only friend. wither and die before her eyes #and shes terrified of her loved ones dying and leaving her alone and that fear is what kickstarts everything #and all the fandom reduced her to was cringe fail lesbian? :) #dont get me wrong i love when shes pathetic but the more i read the manga and the more we were revealed my first thought was #'why did i see like five essays for laios and not a single one for marcille?' #i see more posts of people paying attention to chilchuk cause hes a divorced dad and making angst about that #than about everything marcille has been gone through #god shes such an interesting character #AND I NEVER WOULD HAVE FOUND OUT IF I HADNT READ THE MANGA #not a single post about marcilles character thats isnt talking about how shes cringe fail or a lesbian in the tag #ended up giving up scrolling through it #i swear if this tags attracks people with no reading comprehension

[katyahina]

Paleblood Hunter could be Laurence’s reincarnation?

Or how things look different if you use cut content!

I received an ask from @marchioness-of-the-flowers-blog on my other blog that made me dive into a small bit of cute dialogue.. and then dive into an ABYSS of potential because I am unhinged fdshfhd Okay, so I presumed that you was referring to this cut dialogue:

There are different ways to go about it, yeah! The simplest way to interpret it is him 'speaking with a person that isn't here' thing - so he doesn't really call US Laurence, but just clings to the memory of him. Like, you know, same vein as the guy accomplishing something and casting arms to the sky all like 'Father I did this, do you see???' meanwhile 'father' is many years ago dead. You get the point!

But, heck, the version that he does start to confuse us for Laurence (whether because of going insane, or us looking similar, or both) is more interesting! I doubt that intention was within appearance because Souls-like games feature custom playable character in their trademark style! Sekiro is more 'a From's game' than it is 'a Souls-like game' after all.  So it is probably Gehrman's mind just falling apart!

However, there is another possibility. It could be that the paleblood hunter is a reincarnation of Laurence, or at least was intended to be such in beta version!

We can conclude that the Paleblood Hunter arrived in Yharnam already being aware of 'paleblood' - and even of the risk of losing their memory after blood transfusion! The bit about the very first note being written in your own handwriting is lost in translation so as always I am using excerpts from the lifesaving Last Protagonist's document ( x ).

Also, interestingly, with the context it seems like the Hunter chosen to arrive in the hood intentionally - as if knowing in advance that Yharnam would be hostile to foreigners from somewhere already. For one reason or another, Hunter was informed of what to expect and what they were looking for - be it some divine omens, dreams, them reading about it somewhere, some other character informing them, etc. Arriving in the city to potentially seek the red moon deity behind the Hunt and the Dream is... already very interesting. And very risky task because as gameplay choices show us - without memory it is easy to fail the quest. Not enough cords, not choosing to fight Gehrman...

But also, a detail often missed is that Paleblood Hunter is already not as simple! Here is the invitation in Cainhurst that you can find after imposter doctor invades Iosefka's clinic and takes her place, if you sneak from the secret cave through the woods. It is found in the exact same room where you start the game and where that first note about 'Seek paleblood to transcend the hunt' is!

Easily, she brought it! She, or Iosefka herself right after we left the room - they are most likely twins because devs aren't even subtle about them looking the same.

I talked more about the theory of Laurence having roots in Cainhurst in this ( x ) post, but the key point -  a portrait on the Cainhurst has both gold pendant and a necklace Church Servants wear. Can't imagine a more FAT hint, haha. Laurence was the one responsible for creating Hunter's Dream and associating with the paleblood / moon presence, and in that cut dialogue with Gehrman you see he mentions - "The way we've always said we'd end it, you recall".

So, perhaps Laurence could vaguely (or fully) predict what was to come - his impending early death included. Iosefka and the imposter are both in the Healing Church (and very likely both with Cainhurst roots as well - don't forget that Imposter Doctor can prepare the Numbing Mists that are "secret recipe from Cainhurst" and comments on us having scent 'of the moon' - with the only other character saying the same being Annalise). It is a possibility he entrusted one or both of them with the letter. Maybe name of Paleblood Hunter was known many years prior, or maybe they were instructed to write the invitation as soon as they spot a suspicious person seeking paleblood without being a Yharnamite... because that person WILL be important.

Alternatively - maybe the note written in Hunter’s handwriting was not written BY them, but their handwriting matches Laurence’s, so it seems like their! And the note was by Laurence as he knew where the future self would awaken. Then, maybe rather than one of the doctors bringing Cainhurst invitation, it was something along the lines of imposter Iosefka just fumbling around the place, finding this letter tucked somewhere and discarding it - letter he left? And maybe the reason him being reborn was apparent because of strange Cainhurst heritage transcending death as concept - or him having one favour from the Moon Presece for giving her a surrogate child (old man)? There are so many interpretations that choosing only one is already a hassle!

Laurence also lays idly as a beast, yet for some reason his human skull happens to exist in the Nightmare realm, but can't return his memories. So like... If you follow the reincarnation idea - would not that explain why his reaction upon receiving the skull he so desperately wanted is to turn hostile and attack us? Yeah, in the final game most likely he goes erratic when it doesn't help. But if it just so happens that Laurence is full beast, without any 'human but corrupted' sentiment left to him... would not that make sense why he attacks us? Because his actual soul is within HUNTER and now he realizes, and the way to actually return THE Laurence is to kill and consume the hunter.

And on the brink of the end of the night of the hunt, Gehrman just knows. He just can sense that even reborn as new person - this is merely Laurence's next reincarnation, and speaks hoping this part within the Hunter just... understands.

How is this interpretation?

Yeah, this is possible that it is a bit of a stretch, but that would explain some things. Especially the mystery of Cainhurst invitation and why the hunter specifically arrives to solve mystery of paleblood. Such a long time passed that Laurence found Gehrman again as a reincarnation - but he still arrived to at least free him.

Heh... worth a notice that in the cut dialogue, Gehrman sounds like the burning of the Hunter's Dream will destroy it for good, as opposed to the actual game where it seems to be merely a reset. Anyway, thank you for the ask, this was really fun to think about!

#bloodborne #laurence the first vicar #paleblood hunter #good hunter #bloodborne theory #not art #text post #i originally wanted to answer ask as normal but the post ended up diving far so i decided to make a legit post #pretty sure tumblr will eat mention notif and this user won't know i answered fdsjfhdsfd #tumblr am i right?????? #honestly this is really interesting #i like the version about moon giving him a favor of one extra life in case he perishes fast (which he did) #hmmmmm gameplay-less au where the beast does manage to swallow his soul back and recovers himself as laurence? #(before going insane from guilt of remembering his atrocities and dying again but from dread and shock now) #bloodborne is a happy game that makes me relaxed and not depressed at all!!!! :D #holy shit imagine micolash if he realizes he was trying to mess with laurence #reminds me of that time when touka from magia record remembered who iroha was and realized she tried to kill her sister #okay this is canon now #/hs

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David looking like his mommy <33

#david blames his dad for his mother dying #when he was young his mother was sick and didn't want to go to the hospital despite little david wanting it #but his dad didn't force her to go #so she ended up dying at home (after david had been taking care of her) #so he blames his dad for her death #then at 18 he left home wanting to become a doctor #but his dad said he wanted david to be a farmer like the rest of the family #in the door before he left david still blamed his dad for his mother's death #and one of the last things his dad told david was for him to go to hell #and then they didn't speak for years #i don't know #but i wonder what its like to have your son who remind you of your wife hate you for being responsible for her death #personally i don't blame the dad #its no one's fault really #its just strong emotion