#and more visibility is never bad

[alexenglish]

"There is a worrying tendency to attempt to hide behind some claimed complexity of the history, as if it's simply too difficult to understand without a PhD in the history of the region, and thus who can really say if it's okay for the IDF to blow up all these children today. Maybe there's some justification lurking in the very complicated history, who knows?

This is just cowardice you hear from people who don't want to admit they are not living up to the values they would like to think they uphold. They'll condemn atrocities, but only in retrospect, when the bodies are buried and the historical consensus is already formed.

The history of Israel and Palestine is complicated in one sense: in that a lot of things have happened, but morally, the situation is not complex at all. In fact, the more you learn about the history of the region, the less morally complex things become."

#free palestine #shaun_vids #i know sometimes it's annoying to click on these videos because it can feel like oh everyone knows this it's palestine 101 #or we've heard this before and from palestinians themselves and not from some dude from the uk #but the structure and his ability to tie in history and concepts and his articulation is very good and worth listening to #putting into words the way so many of us feel in a mature but most importantly kind way #it's a good reminder of how and why we're all connected to this cause #and more visibility is never bad

[nedeii]

wip X2

#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk #still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_> #and explore #and learn from #kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1 #i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like #and now i visibly lack it #SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING #WHO KNOWS #anyway #hello tumblr #I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime #thanks for sticking around #sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち #thatskygame #wip #skyblr #are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno

[hussyknee]

Apparently Zionists are harrassing Sudanese people who're risking death to post updates from their own genocide because they can't tell the Sudanese flag 🇸🇩 apart from the Palestinian one. 🇵🇸

Mfers 1) can't even identify what they hate so much, 2) can't leave any Black people alone if their lives depended on it.

#''harrassment'' doesn't really cover it #i've never seen this level of blood-curdling dehumanizing outright genocidal hate from so many people before #they're swarming on twitter. it used to be pretty bad even here but now I think it's palestinians dealing with the worst of it #the lower the number of bigots on a site the more exclusively they go after their targets #leading to their harrassment being invisibilized to the unaffected majority who gaslights them about it on top of everything else #i remember the level of tankie harrassment of ukrainians last year. not that it stopped #but it's gotten worse now if anything because so many of them have jumped on palestine bc it validates their narrative #maybe it's why eastern european zionists are so much worse #or at least more visible #i don't think it's normal for so many genocides to be going on at the same time? unsure #palestine has thrown all the others into sharp relief but palestine alone has us so helpless #that it's making us too drained to give as much attention to the others #free palestine #free sudan #gaza genocide #palestinian genocide #sudanese genocide #online harassment #online hate #zionazis

[tongues--and--teeth]

How much pain can you forgive?

What would you do for those you swore to protect?

#something something an eye for an eye but the actual physical scarring can be interpreted as symbolism of Dark Cacao and Choco's characters #bcs Choco's is like on his eye a very defining and public scar like it's one of the first things you see on his character which can be #interpreted as like how it's clear as day that he's not the same “noble prince” he was while Dark Cacao's (possible) scar is not only #never seen in any of his sprites but we never get a scope to how bad the injury was (even though it's possible he was hardly injured due to #like being immortal but I digress and also think that interpretation is incorrect) could be seen as how he hides his damage from the kingdo #and its citizens even though it's eating him up from the inside and eventually spills over into a more physical manifestation (the wall) of #his grief and all that he DOES try his best to hide how much everyone he ever cared about leaving him affects him. #anyway tl;dr Dark Choco's damage from their conflict is incredibly visible which is reflected in his eye scar while you wouldn't be able to #see Dark Cacao's as easily or at all. Anyway you get it. You see the themes. The symbolism. #tw gore #cw gore #Is this body horror???? #probably not???? #I heard somewhere that Dark Cacao's crown was supposed to look like thorns and y'know who ELSE #I'm not a christian but sometimes their symbols and stuff go hard tbh #its called like stigmata or smthing (just about the blood on his face) #crk #teethart #cookie run fanart #dark cacao cookie #dark cacao crk #cookie run kingdom #fanart #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[july-19th-club]

me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?) #but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often) #she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

[moe-broey]

Jacket!!!! Ye olde varsity I got at the very beginning of my transition thinking "Oh fuck yes I am going to pass so hard in this" and. Well. It never worked I just have never passed a day in my life I don't think 😔 Eventually it just became a beloved test subject and has since gone through a bit of a transition itself LMFAOO

Some Notes:

> A lot of the decorations are taken from old backpacks I loved dearly that got absolutely fucking destroyed by the weight of all the shit I'd lug around in highschool LMFAO (sketchbook, diary, all kinds of notebooks...). Never had the heart to get rid of them. Specifically: The pink zippers, the holographic pockets, the glow in the dark stars, and the holo angel wings!

> The pink/blue checkers are from a small decorative quilt I thrifted years ago, I wouldn't be surprised if it was handmade (it's super soft material, btw! Important LMAO). I only took out one line of squares, I plan on stitching the rest of it back together (haven't done it yet though LMFAO). The reason for this was to upsize the jacket, so I can button it without it clinging. The pockets were added for funsies ESP cause it lined up very well and aren't really practical LMFAO (BUT YOU CAN PUT THINGS IN THEM! If you want!! 🎉🎉🎉)

> The patches (esp the name/pronouns one) were the first additions actually. Eventually more and more things were added, but I will say all the pins on the opposite side of the patches were haphazardly placed for a concert I VERY BADLY wanted to look good for LMFAOO (that's when the stars were added too! Fighting for my life on the car ride over speedrunning sewing and trying not to throw up about it AHAKHSKSHDK)

> Spike placement may be odd and I'd like to add more, but also I do frequently still carry around big heavy backpacks so I have to take that into consideration. Which is also why the wings have been bolted on. Those motherfuckers are NOT going anywhere LMFAO (has a really cool visual effect too!!)

> The material of the jacket itself (sort of a swishy windbreaker fabric) IS ABSOLUTE ASS TO WORK WITH. BY THE FUCKING WAY. IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING. I would NOT recommend it to anybody ESPECIALLY someone who is just starting to fuck around and find out. I literally am just sticking it out bc of the sentimental value this fucker has to me 😭😭😭

This jacket was my first plunge into customization and punk fashion, I didn't have a plan and still don't have one (and I think it kind of shows lmfao). I do worry that it's too soft and cutesy. Kind of the whole point for me, when it came to leaning heavy into punk, was to feel sharper, like I had some bite to me. I might be getting closer, but I think I'm still just kind of a silly guy LMAO. But, I do think in a way, esp as my first project, it represents me well -- where I started, what I loved before the beginning, what I tried desperately to be, what I still wish for, reuniting with the things I loved and embracing them in a brand new context. It's still an ongoing project too! So maybe as I keep growing, it'll grow alongside me, maybe finding that grit I've been striving for along the way.

#the big concert was mcr. btw. and cause it was a stadium no one got to see the glowy stars anyway LMFAOOOOO #for that concert i desperately wanted to have a big piece inspired by house of wolves on the back. #but i have never been able to get it right. #but like. it is actually my favorite mcr song. i REALLY wanted to do something transgender w it too. #like tell me i'm a bad man. i AM a bad man. bad man in the context of the song AND bad man as in. in the eyes of the observer. #i am just doing it poorly. on purpose. fuck with me about it!!!!! #also 'tell me i'm an angel' would compliment the wings as well #but as an artist i find i am way better at cartoons/characters than literally anything else. #ask me to do something cool w fonts/words beyond simply being legible and i'll throw up and cry. #also something i don't want to say outright but feel okay sharing in the tags is Why punk is so important to me #is cause i am just. so sensitive. i always have been. #but in a world that is actively becoming more hostile to exist in as a very visibly queer person #AND as a noticably autistic person too know like i think i have gotten to the point where people notice Something about me #(which. is good. bc autistic masking absolutely fucking ruined me so fucking bad.) #i need to get stronger. tougher. sharper. more dangerous. to exist as i am and to do so so boldy #i need to have the bite to back it up. i still feel like a prey animal but i have teeth i have claws. #going back to my church even for a moment has made me 10% eviler also. inspiring me to be the thing they fear. #so i think once i've rested i'm gonna go back to the drawing board for that transgender house of wolves backpiece. #diy punk #my projects

[abeastfrombelow]

On one hand, I definitely understand all the trauma survivors who do not want to see or engage with any kind of media or romantic story that remotely could be traumatic to anyone involved. After all, one of the symptoms of PTSD is avoidance.

But at the same time, even ignoring all the kinks/fetishes one can acquire through going through traumatic experiences (of which I have many!), there's also the fact that people who have gone through abuse can feel most comfortable in those experiences. That's how a lot of childhood trauma survivors can end up in abusive relationships down the road, it's a documented phenomenon. And when you've been subjected to extreme abuse (RAMCOA specifically, but it could apply to any number of abusive scenarios) sometimes it can be helpful to reclaim certain painful scenarios and change them to be pleasurable ones.

For me, I know many parts of myself would desire to return to my abusers if they didn't have the outlets of putting their desires into fiction, into stories and drawings and private scenarios. They feel inherently broken for having desires, feel like they are destined to repeat what has been done to them onto others because of their desires or intrusive thoughts, feel like our abusers are the only ones who will accept them and understand them. By putting it on the page, they have an alternative. They can grow past feeling broken and like they have no future outside of what the people who hurt us dictated, because they have hobbies and outlets they enjoy. Making disturbing media is an effective coping mechanism for them!

I don't claim to have all the answers for the differing needs in the community of people who have survived trauma. I don't know the most effective way to separate myself from other people who want to avoid what I create, nor do I know how much should be my responsibility (should I preemptively block people who don't share my views? Should I just wait until they block me?) but I do know that we should all try to have compassion for the people on both sides. People who are repulsed by disturbing media should have compassion for those who find freedom in producing it, and vice versa.

As for me personally? I'll just continue tagging things appropriately and thoroughly, allowing others to decide for themselves if it is safe for them to interact with me and to what level is safe for them, and respecting when people block me or don't desire for me to interact with them because of the things I create. I'll continue coping as best as I can, and I dearly hope others can do the same based on what is best for them

#proship #ramcoa mention #im feeling very chatty and philosophical tonight #I'll never take it personally if someone blocks me as well #please dont feel bad about blocking me and use the block button liberally! #i just figured it'd be more visible to people if i made a post like this #i don't really care about being harassed but i hope no one feels the need to #ramcoa

[plexippusangel]

My dnd game today got called off without me getting a heads up, I was just sitting in front of my discord for 20 minutes like an idiot, and my hair is ratty and I can't find my hairbrush and my friend's gonna be here in just a couple minutes but at least he's coming, that wasn't a sure thing until just now. Ended up being a little too disabled in front of my roommates too many days in a row and now the vibes are off and I didn't have the energy to clean my space so if my friend does show up we gotta hang out in the common area bc my basement is full of dog shit I can't touch and my room is a mess, like an actual one, and I would really just like to have a little vacation from my life. Idk I feel like a lot of the stuff that normally I keep in place is just unraveling a little bit.

#faer personal files #fatigue files #i dropped chicken wings on the floor along with my plate which thankfully didn't break and then later i couldn't process words #that it turned out weren't even spoken to me so i could've just let it go. idk there's an amount where people start getting uncomfortable #unless they're really good about this stuff already. which like. i have 2 non disabled irl friends who are good about it #everybody else who's good about it has their own maladies #and the roomies are not bad about it! they never pressure me to do stuff i can't do i have a much smaller slice of chores etc #there's no resentment about what i can't do but like. stuff that's actively visible vs passively there is different #it's just hard sometimes and i'm annoyed bc it was stuff i usually compensate for more gracefully and i was just having an off day #idk i can normally balance everything better figuratively if not literally i'm just sick of being a struggler #ANYWAY thank you for letting me have sad little rat hours here so i can go out and be cool and sexy in the real world instead of crying abt #the horrors and whatnot

[llycaons]

im finally feeling awake now so @pharahsgf this is the post I was talking about

foolish. reductive. immature. disrespectful. willfully ignorant. WRONG

#I have had this person blocked ever since they said they were into xi//cheng #but I wish I could block them again just for this. it's so stupid and indicitive of all the most annoying misconceptions #first of all pretending that jc and wwx are still at the same emotional and social and moral level postres #when jc not changing/remaining static is one of THE most important part of his charact #and wwx changing and developing and growing up is so significant esp postres when he's wiser and quieter and more mature #even in the flashback arcs he doesn't dwell on his torture of the wens he doesn't 'love it' he doesn't brag about it #he doesn't ever WANT to do it again he clearly just wants to put it behind him #he's done bad things in the past and he wants ppl like xy to pay but that doesn't mean he endorses torture #AND it brings in the fiction that wwx is or needs to be protective of jc when postres he's the one who needs protection FROM jc #like yeah im sure after the verbal assaults and the triggering of his phobia and the physical attacks #he's just rushing to throw himself in front of jc to protect him from dcs #it just plays into jc stans' misconceptions that wwx is happy to sacrifice everything for jc and always will and therefore SHOULD #because ohh everything is about jc and everyone loves him. literally not true to any version of canon #I don't even think the torture dungeon has enough evidence to really consider in the novel and its not even mentioned in the show #but his unilateral violence towards people he suspects of being DCs is visible in literally the second episode #and idk why wwx would just start to 'love' that violence and aggression when it was once pointed at him #especially when he has the option to instead spend time with people who have never tortured anyone suspected of doing some vague bad thing #okay I'm done! I'm done. this got me soo mad though what a stupid fucking post #cql txp

[lastnightonthecyclone]

Another fucking wip on fnaf because inconsistency is my skill

#In my au the crying child kind of accidentally helped kill Charlie lol. He pushed her outside and locked her in the rain. Tee hee #And THEN. He went to go check on her because he felt a little bad since Sammy was going ballistic #and accidentally witnessed the last bits of his dad murdering Charlie. He then hides and was going to wait for his dad to leave but #Since OBVIOUSLY will needs to dispose of evidence he was going to stay there. So he kind of. Went over to his dad and they had a mutual agr #Will in return started treating him “better” and also stopped using him for experiments (as much) and instead tried doing remanent stuff #And then Mike and Elizabeth got kind of envious (this was also their father subconsciously pitting all three against eachother ) #so then they started to bully cc #Sammy comes into play because he also kind of helped cc push Charlie outside because Charlie was deemed “the favorite” and Henry truly #Never bothered to try and care for Sammy. This is not saying he treated Charlie good either #but. He treated her VISIBLY better than Sammy #and Sammy looked up to William (this is actually kind of relevant and is the reason why security breach and help wanted exist because… #Sammy saw William and his work as amazing and even when he figured out he used actual children for his stuff he continued it needlessly. #He usually spent more time in the Afton household than his own which is. Quite sad. William actually thought of him as the perfect nephew/ #Apprentice and taught him in his ways. He’s as old as Micheal #and also the Freddy bully. (I’m figuring out how to not make him white #Oh. Right #also cc was friends with sam #(the one u shouldn’t have killed) and she has two siblings #Why is this relevant. WELL. BUDDY. So the Bonnie bully is in fact Jeremy.F #he has an older sister named Ximena. She worked at Fredbear’s diner and then circus baby’s pizza world #and Jeremy was friends with Micheal AND SAMMY. eventually after Will murdered the og kids #Jeremy was tasked with distracting Mike. #Their younger half sibling is Sammy. Jeremy is also later tasked by William to distract Micheal in any means possible from what Will is doi #Ximena’s life was essentially theatened and in order for will to ensure the animatronics don’t target her Jeremy was forced to distract mik #Even though he was still grieving for his sister and grappling guilt over cc. Mike also was somewhat mean to him sometimes and Jeremy a #Babysat Elizabeth sometimes. By distraction William never clarified so Jeremy kind of went for a romantic ish approach. He’d constantly tak #There’s more but I don’t want to explain 😭 #Mike out from his house

[abodyfarm]

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#hey dont read these tags this is a Big Bad Vent ok . dont read its bigbad #filler filler filler filler filler filler puttung space between whqts visible and what u have to click read mroe to see filler filler filler #ok i think im good. #anyways i think gheres sometbing seriously fucking wrong with me why am i so incompetent #i cant even do basic tasks and i can barely get help from like caffeine and (in the past) the endorphins from sh #i thought earlier this year was the worst part of my life but i guess that part never really ended #it was just muted slightly by medications and avoidance #i feel so tired #im just so fucking tired. #i dont wanna wake up tomorrow i just wanna sleep until i feel better again #i just wanna sleep until im older and have control over my life #i wish i could have my responsibilities done by someone else #im so fucking lazy its unreal #mom was right dad was right im just fucking stupid and lazy and need to put in more effort.im not putting in effort. #i just wish things were fucking easy #this world wasnt built for stupid people like me #i wish i was born normal. i wish i wasnt trans and autistic and didnt have ocd or possible adhd #i just wish my life was easy. i wish i had it fucking eady

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #gonna talk about Dodie's music and why I like the lyrics and themes #she sings about being queer in a very vague way besides “Rainbow”. It feels very much more about relationship type rather than sexuality #“In the Middle” “I Kissed Someone (It Wasn't You)”. songs about wanting a different kind of relationship. feeling out of place because of i #dreams about people being okay with you wanting a different kind of romance or sex experience. #it's not “oh no ooouuu I'm gay” but a more subtle relationship style misfit. the closeted bi vibes. the poly forced to be monogamous vibes. #a kind of queer that gets overlooked because so many people assume that gay/lesbian people are still monogamous romantic who want to marry #“okay you can be gay but only as long as you aren't anything else queer.” you still have to find “the one” and settle down and get married #and if you want anything else then we demonize you again. we decide that this one thing is okay but everything else is still social devianc #idk. the sad loneliness vibes she catches are really good because it's not just lonely. it's being invisible while still being seen #there's people around you but you're still shut out. you're in a relationship but you still don't feel loved. #you're visible and yet they still never see you. #and I forgot to mention! the traffic idea of cheating. like. being pulled away from a relationship because it isn't for you #and knowing that you what you're doing isn't great but being unable to sit still in a bad situation. #we do not always escape situations well. or without causing harm to others. but we hurt others in our attempt to protect ourselves #especially clear in “I Kissed Someone”. like. when you're not happy with a situation but you opt for small hurt instead of catastrophic hurt #the fear of breaking up a relationship so you seek small escapes instead of destroying the prison you've built around yourself