#and then the soul crushing part

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[elliesproperty]

I'LL BE FINE. AND YOU'LL BE FINE. AND WE'LL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN.

#tlouedit #the last of us #the last of us dlc #the last of us left behind #ellie williams #riley abel #riley tlou #ellie x riley #tlou #gamingedit #my gifs #mine #tlou part 1 #the last of us part 1 #their story is too soul crushing 🫠👎 #1k #riley

[uncanny-tranny]

Realizing you can never please anybody can be a devastating loss... until you internalize exactly what that means.

When you sacrifice so much of yourself for others, you forget that you leave yourself behind. Not being able to please everybody means you can start learning how to fully embody who you are instead of juggling everybody else's baggage, trying to make something work out.

You might feel devastated about this, thinking you're terrible for not pleasing everybody. The truth is, it was impossible from the start, and learning who you are is infinitely rewarding

#mental health #encouragement #encouraging words #people-pleasing is honestly (in my experience) the most soul-crushing things out there #and i wish more and more people could learn how to let go of the impulse to self-persecute... #...and to let go of the idea that literally the *entire world* comes before them #i think the thing that really set me on this path was realizing that few people would do what i did... #...that they would see that nobody is fighting their corning *including them*... #...and that few people will actually fight your corner *for* you... #...and part of that realization enraged me because it's like... everybody abandons you INCLUDING yourself... #...so you think 'how the fuck didn't i realize that?' and you start to question more and more the reasons you internalized the message... #...that literally everybody matters more than you ever will... #...part of that for me stems from deep systematic abuse and part of it is cultural... #...so you'll find that your drives to do certain things have differwnt influences and some are perfectly fine... #...while others are destroying and depressing and horrific

[kkoct-ik]

i got tha job! thank you scarian 🫶

#kostik speaks #kostik draws #part time work for equivalent to 15 dollar an hour #thats basically the minimum wage here. but its ok #i hope its nice #im just hoping it gets me into the industry and doesnt crush my soul #lets gooo #i had to bring my therapist in as a reference but i got tha job #yaay

[send-me-a-puffalope]

guys wtf i just had the most detailed dream last night about a girlfriend that doesn’t exist,,, like idk how to explain it 😭😭😭 and i don’t even remember her name, it’s at the edge of my memory but i can’t recover it. but i remember like all the events and her face.

#this is the most stupidly worded post i’ve ever made #but it was so fucking sweet 😭😭😭 and somewhere along the line i realized i was dreaming and that i was going to lose her #and it was soul crushing #the most distinct part was when i dropped by her house like i usually did #and she was throwing a party and i squeezed through everyone to find her and then she kind of ignored me so i tried to make my way out again #but then her best friend stops me by the door and asks me if i wanna sing karaoke with them and i was like ??? #and when i say oh okay. she says after all [name] threw this party for you #and this girl shows up in the doorway and asks me if i would do the honors of dating her #(and look this girl was way out of my league i assumed so) #(she was a really good artist and collected bunny plushies) #and i #SORRY THIS WHOLE THING IS SO STUPID BUT LIKE IT WAS A VERY POIGNANT DREAM #AND IT WAS VERY SWEET AND I MISS THIS GIRL THAT DOESNF FUCKING EXIST #BECAUSE OF A STUPID DREAM #nat’s rambles

[andthebeanstalk]

Calling it now that I think Simon is going to have to genuinely reconnect with Gunter and NEPTR and the other weirdos who kept him company in his time as Ice King.

#at #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #original #Gunter was his baby and I'm willing to bet Simon hasn't spoken to him in 12 years #Gunter loved him so much he used the crown to become another version of him #I think it could be a really beautiful way to explore the moments of love that existed in his life as Ice King #just some thoughts I'm having while rewatching a bunch of episodes from the original series. #Gunter is in most of ice king's scenes being his weird son #neptr also calls him papi #the man's mothering instinct stayed with him even in his insanity and he managed to find insane children to claim as his own #I just rewatched the Adventure Time holiday special with all the video tapes and I think those same tapes are going to come up #and Simon will notice that Gunter is with him in basically every one of them and realize #despite his soul crushing loneliness as Ice King he was never quite alone and maybe friends like Gunter still care about him #i don't think he should go back to being ice king i think he needs ways to make peace with every part of himself and his life #and also i really like Gunter i think he's a delight

[builtlikeastickofcelery]

part 2! poor little guys a bit confused huh (sunset duo my beloved)

first: https://www.tumblr.com/builtlikeastickofcelery/711564789459140609/movie-night?source=share

next: (COMING SOON)

#rottmnt #rottmnt comic #its a comic now??? #rottmnt movie #rottmnt post movie #rottmnt art #duskys evening post #tmnt #2018 tmnt #save rottmnt #soul crushing angst #im gonna try to add the little links for each part :) #feel free to send asks! #rottmnt raph #rottmnt mikey #sunset duo #rottmnt leo #AGAIN I AM NOT SORRY #also if it isn’t clear there’s a little forehead kiss in the first panel :]

[almondcroissantsandink]

Some Succession sketches that turned into a lighting/mood study 

#succession #hbo succession #succession fanart #greg hirsch #tom wambsgans #kendall roy #shiv roy #roman roy #gerri kellman #digital art #god...i love gerri #also i would love the siblings to like #actually band together and take out logan #im mid-season 2 rn so #also had to draw the crown and write 1 boy on it you know #that part crushed my soul #also I made the sketches for this WEEK ago and meant to delete the file #and i'm so glad I didnt because this was so fun to color

[stuckinapril]

The first episode of The Idol was BAD 😭

#to the shock of no one ever #but as a top 1% weeknd listener this crushed my soul and ground it into dust #like he’s easily the worst part of the first episode

[spittyfishy]

What did you think of Season 5 of ML, if you have seen it?

So, I have seen season 5 and frankly… I wasn’t a fan.

Season 5 was just chocked full of missed opportunities, because there were some interesting ideas there but the show's writing fumbled the execution so hard it was difficult to watch at times. Just seeing character assasination after character assasination unfold on screen was so unpleasant. I don’t think a single character came out of season 5 unscathed, I’m wracking my brain for anyone that got better this season, or at least didn’t get worse in some way, and I can’t think of any.

To be fair, there were a few bits I liked. A couple akuma designs were good (Hoaxer, Dark Humour, Queen Mayor, and Ryukomori). I thought the Ryukomori episode was well done, I’d probably say it was the best of the season (which is a low bar). But everything else with Kagami was bad. Full honesty I hate Felix and what his role in the story has been so far, but I especially don’t like that Kagami got brought down with him. Felix is the entire reason Hawkmoth got EVERY OTHER MIRACULOUS and it seems like everyone forgot that?? He didn’t get any consequences At All, and yet when Chloé worked with Hawkmoth (when he already had the miraculous for the record) she was painted as the worst person on earth.

I know I’m not the only one who’s pointed out the double standard between how the girl characters are treated compared to the boys, but it really got highlighted this season. Male characters like Andre, Jaggedstone, Felix, and even Hawkmoth himself can do any number of horrible things and still be ‘sympathetic’, but the two fourteen year old girls are irredeemably evil?

I’ll admit I'm biased, Chloé has been my favourite favorite character since I started watching in season one, but she really deserved better than the show gave her. I don’t have an issue with her staying a villain, in fact I think she worked really well as a minor antagonist in season one, she moved the story along and was entertaining to watch. But the last two seasons they’ve made her out to be this giant threat, but haven’t let her actually do anything! She’s been nothing more then a lacky to Lila and Hawkmoth, as far as having Lila in her ear telling her exactly what to say. If Chloé is as bad as the show claims then she shouldn’t need other characters to hold her hand and tell her how to be mean.

But the writing is just like that. They really need to get better at ‘show don’t tell’, and even more importantly, consistency. Because they keep adding things after the fact and retconning things from the earlier seasons to try and clap back at fans criticisms, and it’s just sad. I’ll never stop complaining about the absolute train wreck that was Derision. They made Chloé worse then she was in season one, and made Kim so much dumber then he needed to be. At the beginning of season one Kim was characterized as a bully, he antagonized Ivan in Stone Heart and helped Chloé willingly in episodes like LadyWifi. But for Derision Chloé had to trick him into pranking Marinette? Why?

The pacing in that episode was even worse, because so much of it was dedicated to a flash back everything else was rushed at the end. And Marinette saying she’d never crush on anyone again if she didn’t know everything about them was clearly just the writers trying to justify her frankly creepy actions in earlier seasons because people pointed out that it wasn’t cute or funny it was just weird. And her whole line and issues in that episode flat out don’t work as a retcon because A: why even crush on Adrian at all if she vowed not to like anyone associated with Chloé, and B: we’ve already seen her in a relationship with Luka where she didn’t show ANY of the obsessive behaviour she showed Adrian OR freaking out about going on dates. AND ON TOP OF THAT there’s been two other timelines where her and Adrian have started a relationship (Chat Blanc, Ephemeral) and she hasn’t had any of the issues that come up in Derision.

It’s just such a lazy way of writing the story, and that’s really the core issue with this season. It feels lazy, like the writers couldn’t be bothered to watch their own show and make plots that fit in the world they’ve already built.

Miraculous is a franchise that’s dear to my heart, it’s how I met my best friend and really became comfortable sharing my art online, and I still really like creating content related to the characters, but I’ve been very disappointed in the show since about the end of season three. I still have a small amount of hope that maybe the show will turn itself around and improve, but it’s dwindling.

But at least when cannon goes off it’s rocker that’s what fan works are for!

#this got longer then I intended and that’s even after cutting a bunch of other complaints lol #no matter how bad the show gets I doubt I’ll stop making fan art tho so there’s that lol #the class and the akumas were always my favourite part of the show so both of those getting sidelined this season bothered me #I don’t like the romance elements because like #these are 14/15 year olds why are we even discussing soul mates?? #people that age will have any number of crushes yes #but it’s kinda too young to actually start dating? #plus neither Marinette or Adrian are really in a position where they’d have the time to dedicate to a relationship it would need #anyway lol #how do I tag this? #miraculous salt #kinda? #miraculous season 5

[flowercrowngods]

what if who did this to you part 4 is tinged in the pale blue of max klinger’s l‘heure bleu and what if it’s so liminal it doesn’t feel real because the after never does when you don’t even know the before, and what if robin turns into a caspar david friedrich painting and what if steve becomes the blue that depressed robin but she loves him anyway and what if i just lose my mind about them

#seriously just. man the world is ending. and there are monsters. and eddie doesn’t know shit about any of that. but he feels this fear that #is palpable and he sees the way robin looks at steve and he sees the way steve lets himself be held #despite the broken ribs despite the bruises like he’s used to bone crushing hugs when his body is already crushed #he should flinch he should wince and eddie’s witnessing and telling a story he’s not even a part of #so what if it all goes blue but it’s the wrong shade it’s the sad shade it’s the liminal shade that traps eddie in this moment #so what if i go insane about how far removed eddie is from everything and still he sees it all but he has no way to come to the right #conclusions and tell the correct story. so what if the narrator is not part of the story he tells. so what so what so what #who did this to you #who did this to you part 4 #also everyone look at the paintings: l‘heure bleu and wanderer above the sea of fog #these paintings are what my soul looks like (when i dissociate) (which is often)

[moeblob]

sorry for ocs two days in a row have some babies from an adult's life time ago (aka 2005 I believe? is when I made them?)

#my characters #this plot was literally too many characters and so it basically become multiple plots #based on who it was the focus but it was all one cohesive .... mess. p much. #and if anyone cares the top two with black eyes are two thirds of triplets and technically very much side characters #the other one that i didnt even draw is part of the more main group lmao #and then the blonde girl judging the pink haired girls comment has a crush on the triplet i didnt draw but she scares him rip #white haired guy on the bottom who got threatened is honestly one of the funniest concepts i have imo #hes just a guy BUT hes also unlucky through life and so he walks into a fortune teller shop one day hoping to stop being unlucky #but when hes there he accidentally knocks a crystal ball on the floor that wasnt being used but was on display #and oops it had five souls in it and now they need a home so they take his body and can take control of it when they want #so hes got himself and five others trying to control his body which is really funny to me #he doesnt even HAVE a super power or strength like the others in the cast hes just a dude hosting five other souls its fine

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: MARS (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Maj. Kaidan Alenko, Lt. James Vega, and Dr. Liara T'Soni With: The Illusive Man and Dr. Eva Coré Your vision is pathetically limited. You were a tool- an agent with a singular purpose. And despite our differences? You were relatively successful. But like the rest of the relics in this place, your time is over. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #shenko #james vega #kaidan alenko #sophie shepard #liara t’soni #the illusive man #eva core #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #ITS PART 2 BABY! I COULDNT GIF PEAK SHENKO CONTENT AND NOT MAKE HER A 2-PARTER YALL #these are my favorite bisexuals on the citadel i had to give mars a double feature ✨ #‘the person i followed to hell and back the person i loved- are you in there somewhere?’ we cried. for real like this line THIS LINE #the first time i played ME3 it crushed me into a thousand pieces and it still does tbf #but like i also forgot how many good lines TIM has in this first mission until i was collecting footage while i was playing #like his lines go HARD (not javik ashes of a trillion dead souls hard but still) #also i may hate him but he looks fine as fuck in those new PV suits i will not lie #also im ngl the way femshep carries kaidan after he gets his head smashed against the side of the cruiser sends me every time i cannot #like sometimes you just have to carry your boyfriend like he's a sack of potatoes over your shoulder when he's bleeding to death! #like come on girl CARRY HIM BRIDAL STYLE or DONT CARRY HIM AT ALL #but on a serious note the way shep looks at kaidan back on the normandy? when he's in the med bay? #the way they just are so lost in him being injured?? in the possibility of him dying?? the panic in their eyes?? #the way they only get brought back to reality when liara starts shouting?? chef's kiss tbh #bioware VS canon may be poo but the end of priority mars will always be famous to me #thanks for reading two gif sets worth of rants if you stayed for both!!! #i hope you have a good day!! 🥹✨

[uncanny-tranny]

I'm by no means recovered fully, but it genuinely feels so... freeing and exalting to be excited to eat, to look forward to a meal you're making. I can feel it changing my brain chemistry 💛

#mental health #mental health recovery #disordered eating tw #disordered eating mention tw #ed tw #you don't GET it... i've spent DECADES struggling with disordered eating (mostly ARFID i think) and it's made my life HELL #i don't know if the 'average' person truly gets just how soul-crushing and horrifying dealing with disordered eating truly is #i'm by NO means recovered and feeling like a 'normal' person for one meal??? it's indescribable #my disordered eating made/makes my life exhausting and it's hard to articulate it to people who don't get it. i could cry right now #after DECADES of this one meal is all i could want to be thrilled by 💛💛💛 #that part in Take On Me where it goes 'slowly learning that life is okay' hits different for me now 💛 #positivity

[whoslaurapalmer]

one of the great things about the internet is being able to see other people have watched movies. this sounds like such a basic fucking thing but imagine, a twelve year old lulu, many years ago, watching double indemnity for the first time, and no one else in her age bracket has also seen the movie, and her only social media was neopets, and she has no one to talk to about any of the movies she's watching because they're literally all from the 1940s, and no other twelve year old is watching movies from the 1940s. seeing people watch the movies I grew up watching and loving them enough to say things about them and having a space to do it!!!! is such a thrill!!!!!!!!!! like, yes!!!!!!!! finally!!!!!! you've seen it too!!!!!!!!!!!

#I HAVE A LOT OF MOVIE FEELINGS. #why did a 12 year old watch double indemnity? my brother was the one making me watch all these movies and he had a crush on barbara stanwyck #yeah yeah yeah it's not just 'you've seen this movie too' it's 'you've seen a part of my soul' I'm aware I'm aware that's what it is

[originemesis]

//I see your eve!dash angst and raise you: the moment the two were tossed out of Eden and eve was the first to feel the future of unending sadness all at once. ✨

-in the backseat when you asked me"Is the sadness everlasting?"

I pulled you closer, looked at you and said: "Love, I think it is"

#//and there's no cure except them - at least pre cain and luci biz - making each other laugh #//yeeeeah- #//i see that part of their arc as the only time he was ever halfway decent #//also don't mind me its soul crushing angst day apparently #dash commentary #the fam ; // don't feed them past midnight #tempteve