#and you’ve fucking BLOCKED me????

[dreamsb0u]

Sometimes I wish my “friends” or whatever who ghosted me would talk to me again just so I could bite their fucking heads off

#rant #Tw rant #vent #vent tw #in tags #like you fucking said you were going on a mental health break and that’s fine but after WEEKS of radio silence I check on you #and you’ve fucking BLOCKED me???? #like what the fuck is wrong with you #this has happened multiple times and I think it’s justified that I’m fucking angry #they KNOW I have abandonment issues and they don’t even give me a notice they don’t tell me what I did wrong #I’m so fucking tired of this shit #I’ve tried to be supportive but all they ever do is fucking toss me to the side #I’m not sorry #I can’t even look at half of my sketchbook anymore because it’s stuff I made for them #I wouldn’t say that letting your friends know why you’re leaving them is a lot to ask #but hey maybe I’m the one in the wrong here #and I’m even angrier because I don’t hate them #I can’t really #but I’m so fucking mad #I don’t want any hug emojis I get that you’re trying to help but I’m really not in the fucking mood #I think I only have like two friends I can trust

[danggerine]

going insane thinking about the harrow and palamedes friendship. harrow, who has never met another necromancer her age forming a bizarro 3D chess rivalry while pal worries about her safety at every possible turn. harrow, who is up to her eyebrows in paranoia and secrecy, trusting the sixth house with gideon unconscious and hurt, letting them into the ninth house quarters unsupervised. if “i cannot conceive of a universe without you in it” is goth for i love you, “death first to vultures and scavengers” has got to be goth for i love you (platonic). pal’s first reaction when harrow comes into his bubble in the river is to scoop her up in a hug, and at this point she doesn’t remember anything about him because cutting out all her memories of gideon is impossible without cutting out memories of the sixth, but she still makes him a skelehand to inhabit anyway. when harrow’s memories are finally whole, she tells dulcinea she couldn’t face pal knowing that his pen pal girlfriend died on her account, but the next time she “faces” him, palamades’s soul is in someone else’s body and harrow’s body is full of nona’s soul. he spends six months protecting and caring for harrow’s body (and nona obv), believing in the possibility of bringing her back to it the same way cam believed in him. “god, do you know i miss harrow terribly.” and by the time harrow comes back to her body at the very end of ntn, pal is gone forever, fully pauled. the last time harrow and palamades see each other as their complete selves is in canaan house, alive and unlyctored. two of the smartest and loneliest people in the solar system meet each other in the worst of circumstances and spend the rest of the story dancing around each other as fragments of themselves, trying to care about each other in the interim but never fully meeting like they did the first time. a friendship made almost entirely of missing the other person. “do you know i miss harrow terribly.” god. i need to lie down

#behold: a block of text i do not feel like putting paragraph breaks in #i am so fucking crushed that they try so hard to take care of each other in different ways but never see each other ever again #he gave her a lift you off the floor hug in the bubble and she didnt even know why. #the thing that made him miss harrow was ‘look at me like you’ve worked out how to kill me’ bc he knows scowling is her display of affection #she couldn’t even REMEMBER him in htn but she helped camilla find his soul and put him back together anyway #is this anything. am i sounding as insane as i feel #tlt #harrowhark nonagesimus #palamedes sextus #katie don’t look #ntn spoilers #htn spoilers #gtn spoilers

[trans-androgyne]

A lot of what I’m seeing held up as the “transmasc” side of trans community discourse posits that transmascs are claiming transfems have “male socialization” and somehow have an amount of social power as a result. Who is saying that? Sincerely who? Because that’s fucked and not what transandrophobia/antitransmasculinity/however you call it is about at all.

#if you are saying that block me first because fuck you #but I sincerely haven’t seen this take in ‘transandrophobia’ circles #if that’s what people are seeing no wonder they think transmascs are transmisogynistic #but that doesn’t make it accurate to connect it to the term ‘transandrophobia’ #transandrophobia #transmisogyny #intracommunity issues tag #mine #adding that it’s not okay to stereotype transmascs as especially transmisogynistic just because of some people you’ve seen either

[batwynn]

Welcome to my annual TERF sweep and yeet!

If you are a TERF, gtfo. My blog is not for you. No arguments. Just go. Hit the bricks. Get gone.

#this is not a safe space for bigots #terfs fuck off #terf sweep and yeet #if I catch you following me after you’ve been warned #blocked and bad thoughts sent your way

[elliesbelle]

you CALL ME UP AGAIN just to BREAK ME LIKE A PROMISE

#i hate you i hate you i hate you #YOU unblocked me and fucking followed me #your fucking girlfriend CAME FOR ME #and YOU have the audacity? #‘i’m so tired of this’ i have fucking LEFT YOU ALONE FOR MONTHS #I HAVE YOU BLOCKED ON EVERYTHING #‘please move on’ you come into MY life when you feel like it to just fuck it up #fuck you #fuck you fuck you fuck you #are you not fucking TIRED OF DOING THIS TO ME #absolutely rich saying i’ve made you into a personal villain #look at everything everything EVERYTHING you’ve done to me #you’re telling me i have NO RIGHT to villainize you????? #this blog is MY own fucking personal equivalent of a journal sometimes so get the fuck out of my face #my life is fucking hard enough go fuck off and be happy with ur gf who’s fine with a cheater of a partner #fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you #v #belle speaks

[transboykirito]

You want respect… You complain about someone commenting on your body… And yet you sell your body… And make pornography… “I demand you give me respect even though I don’t respect myself”… Hypocrisy at it’s finest…

idk how to explain to you that me being a sex worker doesn’t negate the fact i’m a human being who deserves the bare minimum amount of human decency and respect.

i also don’t know how many times i need to say that the comment made me so uncomfortable and upset because the picture he was responding to was completely innocent and i also wasn’t even making that kind of content at the time. it made me wildly fucking uncomfortable and upset that the second i turned 18 my body was suddenly sexualised against my will by someone who had known me since i was a young teenager.

can you stop this bullshit that you leave in my inbox every other fucking day? you’ve been doing this since i first fucking mentioned it and i’m sick of being told i don’t deserve basic decency and being told that i deserve to be uncomfortably sexualised just for existing in my body.

#anon #asks #can you shut the fuck up. because in the last 3 days you’ve told me that not only did i deserve the comment. #but you also said i deserved being raped. #i’ve blocked you so many fucking times.

[loveshotzz]

Wow, I did something really stupid to cancel this date I didn’t want to go on tonight. I’m a horrible liar lol.

#it’s fine cause i’m free #just make sure you haven’t sent pictures you’ve already used as an excuse before to the same person #💀 #blocked his number so i couldn’t read his message calling me out #he’s a fuck boy it’s okay! not a nice boy

[fandomsoda]

Realizing something about a situation that definitely is the most reasonable explanation and was clarified to me a while beforehand. Sure there are what-ifs and it could actually be worse than I think now but tbh it’s probably not and I’ve probably been overreacting god kill me

#can my emotions please chill tf out for like a split second #like I don’t think my panic was fully irrational #but still #I feel guilty and stupid #Humans are built to be burdens #but I still hate myself for worrying too much #And jumping to conclusions #fuck me with a rusty razor I probably only made the situation worse #how do y’all put up with me #“I go no-contact sometimes” yeah that probably includes blocking everyone doesn’t it and would explain the situation perfectly #But of course I’ve gotta freak out like I didn’t know this shit already #To who this situation is about (you know who you are and you might see this eventually) I am so fucking sorry my dude #you’ve done nothing wrong I’m just an idiot

[rttnpnkpmpkn]

The fact that I accidentally left the “Student Driver” bumper magnet for my brother on my car, and people still be rude to cramp behind me on the middle island in the middle of the busy road, says a lot.

#not art #why you fucking horn at me you’ve been blocking my blind side asshole #pumpkin thoughts

[meaningtotellyou]

stop stirring up drama than people have you blocked for a reason fucking let it go.

how am i stirring up drama if im not even online. also i am so far removed from caring who likes me or doesn’t like me in this fucking fandom anymore

#if you love me i love you if you’ve got me blocked fuck you too #simple as

[roseofcards90]

I still have so much anger in my heart and I hate that :(

#I just want to not care anymore #I don’t want to give a shit #but my stupid brain keeps making me think the same things over and over and it’s literal insanity I need to soak it in bleach fr #and yet I also want to curse those who wronged me :/ you’ve fucked me up so much that I couldn’t even function on so many days #I hate hating but I *will* hate you which is why I will block and hopefully not see any of your kind again #fuck all of you #my posts

[wantbytaemin]

u are a LEGEND thank u so much for being a lee knower who's not making their friendship into a weird stereotype of what it atual is, it's so hard these days to be a stay and no meet ppl who are weird about it, all fandoms have big ships but this sucjs so bad, it kinda reminds me of larries back in the 2010

OOF i mean thank you for expressing appreciation but honestly not being a freak is seriously the bare minimum. as you said it’s literally the larry situation all over again (but i feel like it’s even worse this time) it’s harrowing.. i’m trying to think of it as a bunch of teens being teens for my own peace of mind lmao. the more distanced you are from fandom the better you’ll fare truly! and i’ve got my own little corner of the internet w normal people that allow me to enjoy my interests with the approach of peace & love 🫶🏻

#i hope you’ve also found that! it can get very annoying very quickly if you interact w the wrong crowd but to that i say 💖block & move on💖 #also not me being called a lee knower ah man.. the menace guy won and i can’t even plausibly deny it. unbe-fucking-lievable

[insanechayne]

~ ~ ~

#I have so much I want to say but nothing I can actually articulate #how do I make you see how much you’re hurting me? how do I make you see how much I love you at the same time? #you grew a conscience too little too late and I was left to hang for it #I keep trying to be who you want but it feels like there’s no version of me that will make you happy #and I feel the distance growing between us every day because of how you’re pushing me away #but still you’ll say everything is fine and I just have to accept things the way they are #it doesn’t matter what I say or do because everything I say/do is always wrong in your eyes #I’m always fucking things up somehow and making you angry #so it’s at the point where I just have to stifle my feelings and swallow my pride and try to keep you happy #do you remember how we became friends? you reached out to me to help me with my anxiety from a post you stumbled across #but I feel that now if I were to share any of those kinds of feelings with you I’d be mostly ignored or it would start another fight #how can you say you’re always supportive when there’s no way to talk to you when I really need you because you’re simply not here? #how can you be mad at me for wanting more time with you when there are days you only send me one message and nothing else? #and still the thought of losing you hurts so much that I’d rather just concede to whatever you want #I’d rather let you crush me and dictate how our whole relationship will go than see you walk away from me #I know that’s so unhealthy but I don’t care anymore because I just need you that much #I hate this stupid connection we seem to have and how we’re still so drawn to each other even when we’re hurt and angry #it would be so much easier if you were just some guy I could block #but you’re not because you’ve become my best friend and that in itself is so horribly pathetic it makes me sick #I just can’t get these thoughts out and so I feel sick and anxious and I just want to sleep this all away #how do I say any of this to you? i don’t think I could really #personal

[littlemsterious]

ok. i have an opinion i wanna share. ten years ago this would have been super controversial, but i feel like we’re at a place now where i can say this and not get killed instantly.

i have always hated Dobby. i thought he was annoying when i first read chamber of secrets and that opinion never changed. i do not understand the appeal of his character.

#i want your controversial media opinions #GIVE ME your weird media opinions that you’ve been too scared to tell anyone about #dobby the house elf #i hate dobby #damn i was hoping that was a tag already #I’m sorry he’s just so fucking annoying #tw harry potter #fuck jkr #fuck rowling #fuck terfs #this is not an endorsement of harry potter in anyway #have to clarify #i will block terfs #lmtposting

[morelikedoccock]

Alright I’m finally gonna address this because it frustrated me enough that it’s been sitting in my drafts for weeks (cw another long and angry ramble about respect and boundaries) ⬇️

This is just… very frustrating. I am an outspoken advocate for curating your internet experience, which means blocking people for any reason (from genuine irritation to just off vibes) if you feel the need to do so. I block empty blogs most of the time cause they annoy me. I’ve blocked people because I disagree with the things they post, or just because the way that they interact with me doesn’t feel great.

Not to sound like a real dick or anything, but I don’t owe any stranger on here anything. If we’ve been friends for a while, I might feel obligated to explain a hard block via DMs (which I have done before and will do again if the situation arises), but other than that, we’re all just strangers on here. If I have blocked you, it’s because I don’t want you to be interacting with my stuff anymore, that’s it.

The fact that this person felt the need to send this to me probably from an entirely separate tumblr, (despite us never having had even a whole conversation), just immediately tells me that they don’t respect my boundaries as a blog or a as person. Long answer short: no, I’m not going to explain specifically why, and I don’t think I need to.

If you’re decent and respectful, I promise I will have absolutely no problem with you. I appreciate y’all who follow me a fucking lot. Y’all have been lovely and kind and sweet to me, and I very much enjoy interacting with y’all.

If you and I don’t know each other at all and you do find yourself blocked here, though, I would prefer if you simply respect that boundary I’ve established and move on.

I’ve worked hard as fuck to try to have a good time on here, including being respectful and decent to others as best I can, but doing that work involves setting and respecting boundaries. I’m just an anxious human person existing in this wild hellscape, and I’m more than happy to do the complicated work of communicating with friends about conflict if need be, but I’ve also learned to be pretty hard and fast about those boundaries, and it’s helped me a lot.

Once again, to all y’all who follow me, appreciate what I do, and respect me (and also have gotten through all of this rambling):

I appreciate y’all endlessly. Please know that you boost my artistic self esteem and brighten my days routinely, and that means a heck of a lot to me❤️

#cerbin rambles #cerbin speaks #discourse #rant in tags #please for the love of god don’t do this kind of thing unless you have an established relationship #this is the internet no one knows each other unless you’ve been talking for like months and even then #I know very little about some of my internet buddies #I would be sad as fuck if any of them cut me off but also they would have the right to do that if they needed to #but I would simply have to accept it and just try to find other friends #I promise there are better and more interesting Doc Ock creators out there #idk I think I’m just pissed at this point but like #life is hard as fuck right now and I can’t deal with this #I just wanna make stuff and vibe with the people who vibe with me #have you seen the state of the US right now?? #I can’t handle more stress #also if I’ve ever blocked u and u DMed me and we talked about it I’m not pissed at you #it was a meaningless block in the first place otherwise I wouldn’t have accepted the dm #you’re good #but to send an ask saying it’s fine that I’ve blocked someone but they want me to explain why is really irritating #if it’s fine that I blocked u why do you want me to explain why #maybe I’m just a massive c*nt but here we are #establish boundaries yall it’s important

[zainmalik]

.

#last thing i’ll say on this discourse because i’m ready to block and move on #but as someone who’s masculine and soft #it hurts to see you think louis is perpetuating toxic masculinity for liking beer and football and trash food #because i enjoy those things too. i love football. i hate wine. i wear tracksuits and black clothes. and i’m very queer #these things don’t make me less queer #one thing is criticizing him for not supporting enough women and poc. that’s something worth criticizing him for #it’s another thing to straight up say he’s toxic for being masculine #it also makes me feel bad when people say louis can’t be pretty because he’s a man. and pretty is only reserved for women #and feminine people #because i call myself pretty and beautiful and gorgeous #and i am not a woman #and it’s incredibly uncomfortable knowing some of you who think this way may be my mutuals #and you’ve called me pretty #knowing you think it’s only reserved for women #louis and harry will never see this #but WE do #I DO #we see your homophobic misogynistic outdated comments #it fucking hurts #it’s been weighing on me for days now #but i realized it’s not worth feeling miserable over it #if you think this way you’re a piece of shit #and i can’t let these things get to me #i just needed to let it out #jackie.txt