#anyway feeling really normal rn

[zannolin]

—on siblings (and losing them)

shazam! fury of the gods (2023) // antigonick, anne carson // the haunting of hill house, e3 // ginger snaps (2000) // the x-files, s1e4 // the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe (2005) // the haunting of hill house, e3 // star wars: episode iii — revenge of the sith (2005) // antigone, sophocles // the scorpio races, maggie stiefvater // ready or not (2019) // shazam! fury of the gods (2023) // oxenfree (2016) // arcane, s1e9 // "killing flies", michael dickman // shazam! fury of the gods (2023)

#zanna web weave #web weave #anyway feeling really normal rn #no id

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk. #I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive'' #but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this'' #''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?'' #And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

[anna-scribbles]

congrats dr. swift on the new lovesquare album 

(lyrics from labyrinth by taylor swift) 

#feeling REALLY normal tonight thanks for asking #I. I need to go to sleep #truly unhinged of her to make me stay up till 4am tonight #and then have to wake up at 8 for the music video. doesnt she know I work on fridays #INSANE #anyway this is a marinettecore song. like. indisputable. #i'd write an essay rn but just look at the art. ill write essays later #goodnight #ml #miraculous ladybug #ladynoir #ladybug #chat noir #taylor swift #ts #my art #midnights #strikeback

[caluupin]

been catching up on TGAA/DGS !! :D

#caluuart #tgaa #dgs #tgaa spoilers #dgs spoilers #the great ace attorney #I just finished TGAA1 but haven't started TGAA2 YET. so yeah. I'll be avoiding major spoilers for now :) #MAAAN the ost slaps tho. I've been listening to it A LOT. it's so good. I love video game music. #I can't put it into words on what I liked abt tgaa bc it's kinda everything. so yeah. #also another thing is that I'm watching a play through and so. one day. I might get my hands on actually playing the game. it'd be cool. #there were a lot of moments where I would be FOCUSED on the game bc it's just. so cool. genuinely can't wait to continue onto dgs/tgaa 2 #It's a bit late in the night rn and so I can't really fully ramble n stuff but do feel free to ask abt my thoughts on it in the asks btw #I'd be very glad to answer and ramble on abt it!! #on another note: sorry for the inactivity! I've lost control over my routine :') I'm trying to catch it up to get back to normal momentum. #anyways! gn everyone

[jimmyspades]

#pissing alone handsome? #james spader #the blacklist #raymond reddington #* #umm I really wanna post that little boston freak from the law show #but this week has been. rough and that attorney makes me feel soooo crazy and intense I can’t even look at him rn!!! #like staring at the sun #which is completely irrelevant to this gifset. I’m just talkin #anyway. I’ll be normal again soon in the meantime enjoy the red content love you #something something need him up against the wall like this blah blah etc

[teplejtrouba]

my psychiatrist confirmed that i am in fact autistic

#all of my friends were like 'no really?!!! i had no idea“ listen i know we all know but i wanted to know For Sure #she's very 'aspergers' and 'you're going to learn how to make eye contact' about it because czech psychiatry is... well #but overall the other stuff she said checks out and im happy I don't have to live in constant self doubt anymore #now she's not completely sure i have adhd tho because my attention is mostly normal according to tests #but she's also not opposed to me having both like it's definitely still possible she just wants to focus on mainly treating my anxiety rn #she was like 'so it would make sense that you're living in social isolation' #me with most friends I've ever had in my entire life: :-) #i was like 'no i have friends they just all have adhd or autism too' #i mean i am still socially isolated. i oftentimes feel like other people are living behind a glass wall and i can't reach them #but i took it literally in the 'you are alone and no one talks to you' sense #anyway #i am disappointed none of my friends sent me 'náš auťák' from the czech Grease dubbing #i have many feelings about this but they are difficult to put into words so autism creature gift shall suffice

[chrisbangs]

🐺🫧

Here

Now go to sleep

#m.bubble #🤫 shh... just between you and me i took these #i'm feeling a wee bit nauseous .......... it'll pass (it won't it's actually my love for him and i don't think i'll ever fucking recover) #hesssss pretty pissseddddddd on bubbleeeeeeeeeee #i feel bad... he can't really outwardly say smth either... but he's mad 😭 it's so clear... i didnt expect anything but #an ig post and pics on bbl.. was a surprise #and voice notes ??/$:!:!: 😓😓😓😓😓 my heart .. #gosh i love him . i love him......... #i'm so tired i just want for him to be able to . have 1 normal day lmao #anyway... 😓👍 sharing these before i log off again.. im really just too exhausted rn ... 👎 to deal with anything #chan #soulmate

[justablah56]

do you guys ever think ,,.,..,, abt hero oak ,.,,,

#just blahs #im drawing her rn <3333 #ive drawn her once i think #but we dont talk abt that #no my design for her hasnt changed a ton #but . #my art style has #so ye old hero looks . not very good . #anyways #hero oak .... #last ep literally made me so emotional all over again abt hero n normal .. #like man ... #really feeling the hero kinnie come back to me w her n norms conversation .... #wah .. #hero oak

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[bingobongobonko]

question with anyone who knows better, its been a while since ive seen a psychologist and maybe my diagnoses changed and maybe ive gotten better but errrrr. right NOW i feel great, so it kind of is like. why go to a psychologist if i feel good?? normal even, functional. but i understand thats the feel right now, and my brain's gonna go crazy and ill be losing it at some point, its just kind of my schedule now. i see the pattern, but i guess its like. would it be better to do it while im in the bad state so ill be better at explaining whats wrong, or the good state, which is more better on appts and payments but at the expense of exaggerating how normal my head feels. does this make sense

#for lack of better word i understand there is something wrong with me but #its the days where i feel really normal and just. average where it makes me feel like maybe i wont ever feel evil and crazy again #i just feel human again #so #idk i would like that feeling to last but it feels weird to go to a mental health appt when i feel great and normal #well no not evil weird wording #im not evil i just FEEL evil for how aggressive and lonely i get but it doesnt last yk #anyway im normal rn pretty much

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[skitskatdacat63]

I reached 30 tags on the recent post, yeah I'm feeling very normal about these photos, don't know if you knew

#like i just. yeah. yeah yeah yeah yeha . #haha anyways vettonso art coming to you in four business hours! #like i really seriously just expected to wake up and maybe get like one pic #but yeah this happend. so #i feel so fucking joyful rn i need to sleep and im literally just +?!?!?@??@?@?! #but uh yeah was very happy with the fanart i drew. its quite fun and silly #but then I just won like the lottery so im just. gasping on the floor i suppose #i would apologize for acting like a maniac but i think it is understandable 😄👍 #like was actually screaming anf screeching into my pillow #i feel soooo normal rn :) #catie.rambling.txt

[silenthillbunni]

🚬🧸🧃🎀

#anyway so yeah im so sick of hating myself. of missing out on things and being too scared to go after things i want when i have the chance #so sick of almost being 25 and having spent almost 6 years alone in my room missing out on life #and my mom and sister might be moving in the not too distant future #so i have to try to get my life together for real now!!! or homelessness will be awaiting me :D #what i will try to do.. is start going to the gym (w my mom so i dont have to deal w the anxiety of an unknown place by myself sksk) #i'll workout 3-5 times a week. every week. i like going to the gym so if i just get started i dont have a doubt i'll not be able to do it #i'll focus on finishing my english class. hopefully in december even if i have the possibility to get it extended a few months #then i'll start my other 4 classes in january #i'll be patient and wait for my ultrasound and get the gallstone situation fixed (latest in january if i need surgery) #(and i have to try to make sure i eat properly so i dont wind up with b12 deficiency... i cant eat anything without pain but i have to..) #also i have an appt at the psychiatric in mid october. and im still waiting on what my healthcare center says. hopefully i can get cbt #if possible i will really really try to apply for jobs as a personal assistant sometime between january-may #if i have a job instead of being on wellfare i will 1) have way more money 2) not feel constabtly anxious abt being rejected and homeless #i'll stop caring abt me being 'old' and a late bloomer. the planet is dying. who cares if im 28 and start university???? #i'll take my time to finish high school. and the thing is i really should get a job before starting higher vocational education #bc the program i want to start i HAVE to have a laptop. and theres no way i can afford that now. cant even save up to it #also need to find and put myself up on waiting lists for student housing/apartments so i can actually move #i hate this city and i need to get the fuck out of here!!!! #but the world is crazy rn and it's super hard to find places to live and find jobs but it's not impossible so i need to try #i cant live like this & i have no idea how tf i'll manage to be a normal person and have a life but i need to try bc what else am i gnna do?

[cryptids-lobelia-garden]

Hey hey! I’m exhausted TwT BUT this exists, and I had 7 planned and pre-written already, just need to do edits and warnings, SO yay!!! But I also dropped off the face of the earth bc of Fatigue, so that’s great. Whoops. BUT hey I’m trying my best, and I might come in a little late but I do want to finish this and I’m gonna try even if it ends up late ^^ Why win a race when you’re enjoying the flowers on the side of the track?

Anyway. We’re focusing on Cheri for a change! This is probably a few years before Cheri meets Volo again, and a few months after getting back home from Hisui. He’s like 17-18 here, and as his body is maturing, so are his abilities. Which is VERY not fun when one of them is the ability to feel exactly what others are feeling and he doesn’t know how to turn it off. Poor guy :(

Warnings: lashing out at loved ones, emotional hurt/no comfort (despite people being there who very much want to provide comfort), caretaker makes it worse?? Sort of??? Also whumpee being scared to leave their room, not sure if that needs a warning but. Yeah I’m gonna warn on that anyway

6: Dizziness

Ana’s at the door again. “Cheri? You okay in there?”

Concern filters through the air, filling his head, and he lets out a low groan, burying his face under the blanket. “Leave me alone.”

“Please, just tell us what’s wrong.”

Another two sets of feelings joins the mix.

Worry, concern, fear, merging together, and he curls up tighter.

“We want to help,” Keyo murmurs, Sprigs meowing through the door in agreement. “Please let us help.”

So much worry is flooding him and he doesn’t know how to stop it.

The ability is both old and new. Ever since evolving, he had gotten better at reading people, better at understanding their intentions. He’d thought it was intuition at first.

But now he knows.

It was an ability, one that hadn’t yet fully matured.

He still hasn’t fully mastered it yet. Other people’s feelings crash through his body, and he wants to scream.

“You want to help? I’ll tell you what’ll help- go away!! And take Sprigs with you!”

He doesn’t want to be so harsh.

But he’s scared.

Being overwhelmed with his own emotions can mess with his head, knock him off balance, to the point where his other abilities will lash out even if he doesn’t want them to. He’s not sure if it’ll happen with other people’s feelings too.

He’s scared.

Pain, emotional pain as he dismisses the others so harshly, and he chokes back a sob.

He feels so much. He feels so much. It’s dizzying, feeling so many sets of feelings aside from his own.

“..I’m leaving food at the door,” Ana says. “Please come out and tell us what’s wrong when you can.”

And after a few moments, they leave, the intensity of the feelings leaving with them.

But he’s still crying.

Please come back. I just want things to be normal.

They can’t be normal. I can’t turn it off.

I’m so alone, so alone, it’s my own fault, I don’t want to be alone-

I can’t subject them to this. I don’t want to hurt them, I’m so terrified of hurting them.

He curls up tighter, squeezing the pillow to his chest.

I just want to be normal again. I never asked for this.

#🤍cheri #🤍keyo #🔥ana #pokémon whump #whumpril2024 #whumprilday6 #whumpril #emotional hurt no comfort #caretaker makes it worse #it feels. SO strange calling my guys whumpees ngl #bad stuff happens to them yeah and technically they are but that’s not the only thing they are?? #like. idk they All hold each other and they also All get hurt #like. eclipse is the only one I can really completely classify and not have it feel weird #not sure why #anyway Cheri’s fine he figures his abilities out eventually #he has to expose himself to other emotions to get it figured out but he figures it out and things get easier #and he’s able to turn that curse into a blessing later #but yeah poor guy’s magic puberty basically is a pain in the ass #also he and his siblings are VERY close btw. he would normally never push them away like this #so both of them are like ???? 🥺 rn #same goes for his Pokémon he pushed all of them away too #luckily he has a good supportive family who were willing to help and understand <3

[callixton]

like genuinely What is going on with my sexuality rn. love the idea of gay sex with you unfortunately the idea of being touched by anyone else makes me feel sick rn. i know that’s new. yeah i also can’t stop thinking abt being punched by a specific boy. no yeah he’s straight that’s a dead end.

#i NEED to get back on t that might fix some things #i’ve been good abt scheduling appointments maybe i can actually get on that #hold on. this is maybe in my power rn brb #i did it :) gonna be an early day which will suck hard but i think it’s worth it #anyway back to my original point probably some of this would be good to discuss in at therapy now that i’m going sometime . how the Fuck do #- you breach that though #i would also like to be able to have normal fucking sex without feeling like crawling out of my body #i really am regressing to high school that’s the last time my dysphoria was too bad to stand the thought #also it’s what i want regardless at this juncture by why is it so centered around that boy & why did it have to happen like that now yknow #ted talks #🗡️ #🥊.txt #minors dni #<- talk abt a holy trinity

[widevibratobitch]

took a bunch of clothes to my mom's to wash them since my washing machine is still down and she said 'ill do it dw about it' and threw my favourite white top in with the colours. i no longer have a favourite white top :)

#and i cant even be mad at her because her husband is dead #lol and lmao #anyway the top is now the ugliest greyish minty colour and it looks horrible #normally i wouldnt mind. like there were two white tops and the other also got dyed and idc #but this one had a more unique idc shape? whatever you call that. and it was one of the very few crop tops #that really made me feel good about my body. like not even 'ok i guess i dont look like something that crawled out of a garbage bin' #but genuinely 'good' #and it feels so stupid to be this upset over such a small thing but i feel like ive been at the very limit for the last few days #with everyone fucking crying around me #that this genuinely feels like a tragedy to me rn lol #anyway im being nice and i keep saying its no big deal and nvm but ig you can see that im upset #so now SHE'S mad that I'M mad even tho im not even being a bitch about it im just Sad lol #kms #anyway i feel like shit and it all feels so overwhelming and to think that ill have to spend the long weekend in may here too #my dad and his gf will be at my place in wrocław going to concerts cause there's some sort of festival #all my friends will be chilling and having fun #and i cant even go to prague or vice versa because ill have to be here. having the time of my life with my mother and my grandpa #losing my mind and getting panick attacks in the bathroom lol