#anyway im gonna delete this blog and myself

[suddenrundown]

sometimes i am being negative on my own blog about redemption as is my right and NOT tagging it. for a reason.

#post deleted! #no offense! but i dont want or need essays about how its good actually lol #sometimes im just complaining to myself and if i wanted a discussion i maybe would have tagged it #and let a bunch of people see it #like. i was there gandalf #i watched both seasons and thought it sucked. ive considered all the angles #and still think it sucks #and everyone is entitled to their own opinions and if you like it thats fine #but i dont think its necessary to give me reasons why you think its good actually #its not gonna change how i feel. you know? #anyway. cant a girl be a bit of a hater in the privacy of her own blog lol #it comes from a place of love it really really does

[mariusroyale]

that one clip of finn going ‘i’m me again.’

#yeah :) #im trying my best not to crumble underneath the weight of the shame of being perceived #and remembering that i started this blog in the pursuit of fun and storing my joy somewhere #i think at some point i forgot i can do that? #i don’t like coming here and feeling bad #i literally always just put that im cringe and free somewhere in the tags here #what am i doin!! stressing over silly things and silly ideas #anyway. im gonna start cleaning up some things on here so some reblogs and posts might get deleted #just feels right #‘marius where did this come from’ i started listening to hozier and remembered myself that’s what #text post

[emypony]

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#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more #this self conscious catgirl is so tired #sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok #i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment #genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me #and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media #in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end #YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!! #i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months #which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me #it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us #i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place #like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances? #anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically #idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i #personal #sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually #me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl #bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow #im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit #i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy #the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob #which i am feeling like right now! #vent #emy rambles #ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM #k really am #sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon #and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them #but yknow one can yearn

[redstrewn]

you know i started rb and queueing a bunch of posts bc i was afraid i wasnt going to be able to find much that fit for 2 years but now that my blog is expanding at an exponential rate i think i dont have to worry and actually have to start being pickier w what i rb 💀

#esp bc prerelease touchstarved is so ambiguous you can make anything w it forever like i didnt realize how fucking much i can make everythin #about it #anyway after years of being chronically online im a firm believer of actually having a blog that i go back through and not just #using social media to mindlessly hit reblog without actually using my blog for myself #you know so i actually like going through my blog #bc my old blogs got so congested and chaotic and unperusable that i just abandoned them and never went through them out of overwhelm #im gonna see if i feel like deleting some extraneous poems that arent hitting me hard enough to stay #CHOPPED blog edition #redstrewn talks

[strangecowplant]

its sooo funny when early access creators release buggy ass cc

#playing my game and i get the nude see whats happening thing constantly and im like so annoyed bc i KNOW im gonna have to fix it myself #bc i recently downloaded it and know it was older cc so theres no fix #as soon as i go to their blog i see they got ate up by the community for being a piece of shit paywaller like pretends to be shocked #im just gonna delete the cc bc its just not worth it theres like a million casparts #i even searched their blog for someone letting them know and they just went uhhh idk lol like and you expected ppl to pay for your shit? #anyway down with paywallers early accessers ectect #txt

[mouseoho]

whats worse? flopping hard (0 notes on your art except for your own self-reblogs) or flopping hard after you make a post saying you feel anxious posting art bc u frequently flop hard and your mutuals commenting saying you should post it anyway!! and then not a single mutual even interacting when you post your art ((((:

#this is about my original art on main btw not abt anything on this blog #like i genuinely ??? #im rlly tempted to delete the art bc its really fucking embarassing #like i think its good. but like theres genuinely no point “posting it for myself” bc like. im gonna keep making art regardless of posting o #not. the issue is sometimes i want validation??? #like why post if its not for attention. genuinely. bc im going to make art anyway. posting is separate #anyway im not blaming the mutuals on main its whatever its just annoying to get encouragement and reassurement only to get crickets #when i actually post :/ #to-delete

[rookieseasons]

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#delete later #this is a bit pathetic! #so #irls dont read mwah thanks #i dont want 2 just fucking vent on this blog all the time but literally why is everything so hard #not even everything im just so fucking depressed and its actually unbearable like i cannot keep going like this much longer !!!! #picked up self harming again and oh isnt that just great !! i will never be free of the bad choice i made when i was 11 !! #bc i was 11 when my mental health went 2 shit and now im turning 21 in less than a month and it makes me feel sick !!!! #it's literally not getting better i straight up think ill be like this for the rest of my life and i simply do not want to live it. #anyway! ill probably be fine! not gonna off myself bc i live with friends who got traumatised by our other friend trying 2 off himself! #fuck my life ‼️ #tw self harm #tw depressing stuff

[zero-a]

genuinely how do ppl self dx themselves cause ive done my fair share of research already and still cant trust my own conclusions

#mine.txt #i have reasons to self dx with adhd asd dpd and szpd #but im not comfident at all in that comclusion and feel like i need outside assurance #preferably an expert at all of those things #even tho i know that that will definitely lead me to harm somehow #the one im least confident in is asd #mainly cause ngl szpd explains it better #most of my more repetitive habits have some kind of past or current paranoia attached to it #and a lot of my sensitivities can be explained by the fact that ive purposefully neglected myself throughout the years lol #and the whole 'intensity and passion' thing i def dont have #im not even interested in my own interests lmao #like yeah i like consuming them but if they just disappeared one day i wouldnt exactly care #i mean id pretend to cause thats the persona ive decided to live by and i hate going against it #but like #i wont Actually care #my interests are just as replaceable as most aspects of my personality #and the ones that arent are really just mind stuff that will likely never have any kind of tangibility in the real world #anyways i feel like ive opened up too much and should probs either lock or delete this blog lol #but ive decided since i made this blog that im not gonna do that #this is where i put my feeling out to the rambling void in replacement of a therapist #and -- i hate it and i suspect its cause of the dpd -- if someone could give me some kind of input that would be great #id hate it but the severe discomfort that Being Acknowledged™ is personally one im used to #cause trauma elohel #while the severe discomfort of not knowing is long lasting and caustic and i hate it

[ellequarius]

How I Manifested $50k USD

Hi!!! I'm gonna tell you guys how i manifested $50,000 for my dad. So basically my dad had a bunch of credit card debt because he wasn't getting paid very well at his job. This had been going on for a couple months and he had racked up at least $7,000 on his credit card. He brought it up a lot and we'd have to start budgeting and stuff. Anyways a few days ago i wanted my hair done and my dad said we couldn't afford it. This deeply annoyed me for like two days but then i was like "wait, I could just manifest him some money." I've never really manifested large amounts of money like this purely because of limiting beliefs that i've had. Anyways i picked the first number that came into mind, $50k. I was in class at the time and was bored out of my mind and i was just like "fuck it." So i affirmed 3 times that my dad has received 50k and went on about my day, i affirmed any chance i remembered too and i think on the 3rd or 2nd day I woke up one morning and i heard my dad cheering and practically jumping for joy. Now mind you it was like 5am and i had only gotten like 5 hours of sleep (it was midterms week) and I was a little tired and i wondered why he was so happy and i thought to myself "oh must be the money i manifested him". Since then there's been no mention of the credit card debt, and when i asked him to bring me to get my hair done he said yes with no other comments! (im actually getting my hair done as i write this!) I saw his Bank of america transactions and that he received the exact amount that i affirmed for! Now idk if taxes is gonna take some of that money away but I am very proud of myself.

Sorry if this post was really long, I haven't posted on this blog for awhile but i promise i will be more active!! I also listened to adambjas "I am in control" tape a lot and this one https://drive.google.com/file/d/1yeGwSoOmOt4fUIG-wAzXJSBOcCoTLQvd/view?pli=1 , which I think helped a lot.

I ALSO FORGOT TO MENTION that i deleted tumblr off my phone cause i was overconsuming info and i was just getting stressed tf out. I think deleting tumblr was the last push i really needed.

#manifesting #loa affirmations #neville goddard #loa #loa tumblr #sammy ingram #voidstate

[xsunnysoftx]

Hi so i first found you through those Teacup tickle audios (not sure what happened to em but they wre very cute) and then i found the rest of ur blog and now i just follow u cuz ur actually just so sweet? Something about the way u draw is so soft and squishy and it looks like it smells like vanilla and its just awesome. Ur whole blog is just super sweet and supportive and I love it so thank u for putting it up in the world for all of us to see-FluffyPanda

Hi there! thank you!! that's so sweet of you to say!! i pride on making content that not only i can enjoy, but for others as well. this way i can make new amazing friends <3 i've made such wonderful friends on tumblr and i couldn't have been happier here.

in terms of the audios? yeesh... um- haha- the creator of those audios blocked me on discord out of nowhere, which was highly rude, sending mass paragraphs of nomad/christian bullshit, (i have nothing against those in religion but the way she did so was awful.) almost ruining kia for me, as well as wouldn't let me say my peace on the conversation (essentially ended our friendship in the worst way possible without letting my partner and i speak on it). she deleted every social media account she had, let alone blocked me on everything which absolutely shattered my heart as i don't know if ive done something wrong or not. and just up and dipped with out a trace. so unfortunately you don't find those audios anymore. thankfully i have saved them personally (like hell are you deleting that shit. i paid over 100 USD worth of commission work. i also am terrified to commission anyone else now because of what she's said and done.) so as far as i'm aware, i'm the last person with any known copy of them. i do not know if i have the right to repost them, even with credit? and even then because of all this, they're unfortunately uncannon and scrapped from the storyline. which is highly upsetting. they've kinda shattered my love for teacup and i don't use him much anymore. as he himself as a character was used in awful was during that conversation. hence why you don't see much of teacup tails anymore. i cant bring myself to listen to the audios with out being violently sick from heartbreak. my partner and i are slowly trying to rebuild its story as we speak.

i apologize to any teacup tales fans for the hiatus on the content. until i can safely feel like i can use him again, content of him is gonna be heavily scarce. i might post some soon? i don't know for sure. however im VERY grateful for those fans who came for the wonder folk but have stayed for the transition of kia. you guys mean a great deal to me <3 rant over! i apologize! this was kinda the perfect time to clear up why teacup and the wonder folk haven't been shown much since december. sum it up, i got used for hal and mary in terms of "you can still commission me but our friendship will now only be professional" ick. no ma'am.

anyways Hi! nice to meet you! and thank you for your sweet words <3

#sunny speaks #thanks for the ask #thanks for the ask! #sorry #that was a really long rant #i apologize. that creator broke the fuck outta my heart and hella hurt me. #i wont be saying anything else reguarding it other than ive disowned that person completely. i wish to be respectful. but at the same time #that was some bullshit.

[mijikai12]

BIENVENIDOS!!!!

hola chicos!! this is my main blog and this pinned post is also a more updated and simpler than the og!!

warning: LONG POST ⚠️⚠️⚠️

BLOGS ->

Main: @mijikai12

Vent: @kayventa

Reblogging: @mijikai12-reblogs

Ask(1): @just-ask-finn

Ask(2): @the-prismo-ask-blog

Com!/Colab/Art: @yoki-san

MusicBased: @cheryap

where you can also find me ->

spotify

wattpad

youtube

instagram

twitter

details ->

i am a minor (13) and my birthday is March 2nd! 🎂

i am a aromantic lesbian

i have adhd and some autism

im an extrovert mainly around people i know. but i am literally forcing myself to interact with people (i swear it actually works omfg)

i go by Kayla

i love talking to people here.

i joined i think in september or october.

i play flute, piano, and a bit of recorder

my favorite colors are 💚🖤🤍❤️

i like weirdcore

im a big adventure time fan

im open for asks

im in seventh grade

i like to draw, animate, make music, and write!

she/them/green

im a Pieces

i'm hispanic

i speak english + spanish

MAIN OC'S!!!!!!:

Mijikai Tsocka(mascot): she is a bunny hybrid bc of course. i gues she was tested on or something, i havent quite figured her lore yet. she's a she/them 16 lesbian female.

Sarahnah Dandila(princess): She's fucking annoying anyways; she is a she/her 23 straight female. She's princess of whatever idk i dont have a name for the kingdom yet. (most parent standard hehe)

Mattie Sercel: He's a he/it 21 bisexual trans (least parent standard haha) he's in college and majors in 3D art and animation.

okay! i really hope you enjoy my blog!! i cant wait to meet yall and to get into situations id rather die than be in!! 😊

edits below:

edit1: guys i made a Neobook account!! i dont know what shit to do there so it might be empty for a while.

edit2: im trying to make an ao3 account. i should be on by 1/30

edit3: i know ive already said this but my reblogs are slowly being deleted. so my art posts will go to Yoki while normal text/memes/etc posts will go here (≧∇≦)

edit4: i lied in that last edit. anyways, i am gonna make an insta soon (maybe tonight) and i might make a Pinterest account! 😆

edit5: I MADE AN INSTAAAA

edit6: i have a twitter if you didnt notice

edit7: AO3 DOESNT LIKE MEEE

edit8: i have a gf omggg i'll be posting a lot about it at @kayventa

edit9: yeah ao3 does NOT like me wow. anyways, so springbreaks coming up soon. i'll post about this on thursday or friday ✌🏽

edit10: ive had an c.ai account for months ive posted about it idk if yallve seen it yet 😒

edit11: i found out a few days ago that when ao3 said i'd be on by 1/30, they didnt mean 1/30/24, they meant 1/30/25. wtf

#pinned post #simple #main blog #about me in desc #mijikai12

[dullweapons]

hewwo i might spend today on some writing but my blog feeling messy ! so imma go through & delete old ooc posts & maybe fix up my graphics. but also tiny announcements that will be added to my rules . some not major , some kinda important so i would appreciate it if y’all read this ( i will be properly updating my rules when i can get to my computer ) :

🔻 i have health issues i am going through ( my heart has been having SVT episodes. basically this means my hearts being a bit odd & pumping harder then it needs to be ? i’ve having tests done so hopefully we figure out exactly what happened & what can be done . ) which makes me very tired. sometimes i can’t even get out of bed let alone write — so sometimes i will be MIA without any warning . i’m telling you this so no one thinks I’m ignoring them or anything like that .

🔻due to the anon hate i will be keeping anonymous asks closed for a bit . again, my apologies to those who have side blogs & use anon asks to send things in. simply send it from your main & i’ll put them in a separate thread ! i am also sorry to those who maybe be too shy to approach to ask questions but i truly don’t wish to deal with anon hate over petty things. which brings me to my next point.

🔻if you have any problems with me— may they be with how i responded in a thread , how i spoke ooc, or whatever it may be : please talk to me. i will not bite i promise you this but im gonna be 26 next month & i cannot handle people skirting around issues anymore . i cannot correct problems if i am not informed of them ( or at the very least explain myself ).

if i do turn anon back on — it is not the way to discuss issues with me. i understand you may be shy but hiding does not solve issues ( if i miss tagged something or requesting me to tag something isn’t an issues . i will do it even if anon asks. i’m talking about major issues . ) we’re all adults here trying to have fun.

there are things i won’t change — like i’m not going to put nsfw on a side blog but i will tag it as spicy tw or suggestive tw . ray is will always be auto angry at botw / totk zelda’s . ray will hate hylia by default . ( i’ve had ppl me upset at this, thinking their versions of these muses where better & didn’t deserve his reaction . they tried to push ray to be OOC because they preferred it … they quickly left but im using it as an example of things that could have been corrected with proper communication but they never heard me anyway so 🙄)

🔻to my last point : i understand the person in my DNI has deleted . i will be keeping them in my DNI incase they return as they hinted they might . i was informed by their friend to curate my space & i will continue to do so .

#psa / ooc. #( soooo yeah :D hope that clears things up ?? ) #( i gotta take my pills cause im an old man on like 10 different meds ) #( /rolls away )

[starrcandii]

HI HELLO, IM PINNING THIS POST FOR A REASON!!! YES, I HAVE A NEW NAME, LISTEN CLOSEEE THANKS!

Ok, so first off, thank you all soo hecking much!!! This year has been amazing and chaotic and it went by way too quickly! I graduated high school, actually got accepted into the uni course I wanted, and ive been drawing, duh! Like I said above, I made myself a lil New Year’s resolution!!~ And to better accomplish that, I made an important decision. I deleted my ‘main art blog’, which I used to use as a promotional thing for my non-tk art for commissions and such. + I had a bunch of other social media accounts for that same reason. But because I’m doodoo at managing them and I didn’t upload consistently, I came up with the grand ole idea of deleting/privating/deactivating them all. So now, I can fully focus on tumblr! Plus, the sfw tickle community here is by far the best >:3 and if I’m gonna try make more tk art, then imma do it here!

Anyways, thank you so much for hanging out! Whether you’re a mutual who stalks my account every time I post, or a passerby in the community, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart! I’m so happy that y’all like my stuff, and I can’t wait for another year of amazing stuff!!! 💛🩵💜

#digital art #tickle #sfw tickling community #my ocs #oc stuff #tickle art #sfw tickle community #sfw tickles #sketch #tickle fluff #art recap #2023 recap #starrcandii

[enhaheeseung]

So basically ppl were trying to sexualize riki, and someone found this message: https://www.tumblr.com/jwonsite/738013651737444352/for-the-riki-smut-writers

then if u look through the comments ppl were saying that it applies to all the members but idk much, just checking to see Ur opinion on it.

Hmm interesting I mean idk I guess to each his own I personally would never write anything for niki or even feel comfortable thinking of him like that but that’s just me plus I’m only attracted to heeseung so there’s that even the older members I’d never write smut for

As far as smut writing goes for the rest of the members I can say there is an extent that I’m willing to go and I know this is gonna sound hypercritical as a smut writer myself but I’ve seen things that just aren’t my cup of tea and I feel certain things could just be left unsaid especially assumptions about how the members are in real life it’s one thing to write fiction but to actually come up and state that (whatever’s being talked about at the time) is real that’s when I draw the line

Also this may sound dumb but I feel like most smut is just tasteless like there’s just no actual substance to what’s happening it’s just boom bang bam smut end and i feel those writers probably shouldn’t write it but this is all personal and I’m not claiming im a better writer in any way

Anyways to answer your question tho I’m 50/50 I do get why people don’t want the members being sexualized (even I feel that way sometimes when it’s just tacky) and I get that others just realize it’s fiction and entertainment that being said I do feel like there’s an over sexualization sometimes and that’s the 50 that I don’t like again I know that sounds hypocritical cause I write smut but there’s just a type of smut/hard thoughts that just disgust me at times (I hope someone else feels like this and I don’t just sound crazy lol)

So basically I like smut when it’s more vanilla and tame not just some wild fantasy that would 99% never happen (not kink shaming tho this is just my preference)

Oh one more thing it’s hard for me to talk about the whole niki situation cause even tho he’s young the people sexualizing him might also be young too it doesn’t make it any better but the fact is unfortunately this is an app that underage people can access as well as other apps with adult content it does suck cause these people are young and probably don’t really see the immediate problem with it but there is indeed things that need to be implemented to protect minors being exposed to this shit and that’s a whole other problem that doesn’t involve niki or kpop but fact is we live in a fucked up world with fucked up things going on and I guess what I’m trying to say is that atp there really shouldn’t be any surprise should we try to stop it? Yes will it happen? Probably not but unfortunately thats just the way it is same shit happened with other idols too I do appreciate the people who call out underage blogs tho it helps keep things a little safer for the younger folk here so yeah even I have thought about deactivating my blog cause I know I have an influence on my readers and minors might be accessing my blog so sometimes it just makes me wonder if it’d be better to stop writing cause if I could protect just one underage person from being exposed to content like this I’d delete this app in a heart beat it’s fun writing but it’s not fun exposing people to stuff they shouldn’t be seeing and I know the whole talk about it’s the parents responsibility to keep kids off sites like this and writers shouldn’t have to quit because parents aren’t doing their jobs and blah blah blah but if you have that understanding that these kids aren’t being taught properly now is where you step in and take that role to be better than the people who raise kids up like that

Honestly I could write a whole essay but I’m sure I have bored everyone else by now

Again I was asked my opinion and this is all just my opinion so do not @ me

#enhaheeseunginbox

[mixtape-racha]

guys im gonna be so honest rn. please don't come in my inbox having a go at me on anonymous - have the respect and decency to do it so i know who i'm actually talking to. yes, i deleted an ask that i answered to, because i shouldn't have to explain myself on my own blog. yes, i had a certain body type added for a reader in a teaser, and decided it didn't need to be added as a warning because its not that big of a deal. i honestly don't care if you unfollow me because you don't want to support me anymore - that's fine! my blog isn't going to be for everyone! but please don't go out of your way to try and make me feel like shit. if you don't like something, and you want to talk to me about it, feel free to dm me! but don't hide behind anon and talk to me like i'm an awful human.

i'm going to be less active at the moment anyway - law school is hellish and its kicking my ass - but this is just giving me another incentive to take a break for a little while. i'm turning off anon asks, and i implore you to please talk to people in a kinder tone.

#mixtape-racha #aria talks ʚɞ