#anywayss dids it

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[qjpsys]

our grandma just now questioning our memory and asking if we were her age considering how "forgetful" we are.. bestie boo i have something to tell you..

#❇️ ​fizzy #hey that last bit rhymed #anywayss #its kinda funny #but also really not #also idk if teo ever plans to tell her #we shall see #did system #actually did #did osdd #dissociative system #osddid #plural system #pluralgang #system things #traumagenic system #did alter #did community #traumagenic did #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative amnesia #amnesia

[martyryo]

man that joins your breast cancer club and then asks you to check if he has any testicular tumors.

#artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #pixel aesthetic #fight club #fight club 1999 #marla singer #genderbend #marlo singer #this is like the most rendering I've ever did #he was my specimen for skin shading practice #at some point I was so pissed cause I accidentally made the featured two femminine so he looked like a bearded woman #anywayss #really proud of it tbh #wanted to also incorporate some pixels in the rendering cause I like them a lot #I think it goes well for the hair and the fur #happy I got past the ugly phase #may doodle some more this weekend #idk I gotta lay out a whole ass book and also do sketches for the cover #I wanna hibernate so badly #also I'll add a specific tag to my art so if one wants to see all the stuff they don't have to scroll all the way through reblogs #m art yryo #< #it's this one hehe

[polaroidcats]

I'm still such a beginner at sewing but I just made my first pillowcase (on my grandma's old, almost 60 year old sewing machine!) and I'm so proud of myself!! It looked really nice and then I messed up the buttons, had to cut out the fabric where I had tried to do the buttons and inserted another piece fabric to fill the gaps where the failed buttons were but still!!! I made an actual usable pillowcase!!! leaning against the pillow as i am typing this, 10/10 experience, pillow is fully covered by fabric!!

#yes i'm aware that's literally one of the easiest things to sew bc it's just straight lines but still #i had such a shitty therapy session today and still feel really shit even tho it's hours later but all i did since therapy was make this #so i need to celebrate it as a win haha #anywayss #sewing #ramblings

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

goofy ass trainer couple red and jaide would like to battle‼️

#i told myself i wasnt gonna draw today but i saw the oras couple and dropped everything else #suddenly the art power came back #ANYWAYSS RAAGHRHDHDDFHF I USED GOOD PKMN BRUSHES FOR THIS I THINK IT LOOKS NICE #JAIDES HAIR IS A BIT TOO DARK BUT IDC I TURNED OFF THR PUTER #i love the idea of red refusing to lift his leg hes embarrassed hes not gonna let that happen #c'mon red you wouldn't wear matching luvdisc shirts with her and you wont LIFT YOUR LEG?? tsk... he still has a lot to learn..... #JOKES ASIDE I LOVED HOW THIS TURNED OUT ESPECIALLY REDS FACE SINCE. I DONT HAVE MUCH REFERENCES FOR HIS FACE BRRRR #if no ones making the canon red sprite art THEN I WILL 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 #~ art #anyways im hanging this on my wall #i really wanted to do that fake “wants to battle” shot but my resources are lacking and its 5AM #ANYWAYS IM JUST HAPPY I MADE THIS WHEHDHDHSJEJE #♥️ appleshipping #pokemon selfship #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #i also realized nero did this with my number one otp mikalei i am so dumb dumb #jaide (gameverse).insert

[purpleminte]

Hi helloo good morning (it is 1:30pm) who’s around

#random #definitely did not sleep way too much #or what feels like way too much because I’m not used to getting eight hours #anywayss I’m bored and lonely and can’t keep just keep rambling on my own hh #so umm yknow #blegh

[rillette]

I love when people draw Jason with unruly curls :)

me 2 bestie!!! (though they're a bit windblown here lol)

#jason todd #robin #basketball #asks <3 #ty for the ask!! #rlly liked this sketch from yesterday so coloring time it is :J #did i draw this yesterday i cant rememebr #ohwell!!! doesnt matter anywayss #jason deserves to have wild curls its where he stores all his drama

[devereaux]

SIMONE KESSELL as FAITH COOPER (part 2 of ? because i have no self-control) My Life Is Murder | 3.10 - Killer Fashion

#simone kessell #simonekesselledit #my life is murder #mlim #mylifeismurderedit #mlimedit #simoaners here's another gifset #this woman really has me in a chokehold it's not even funny #madam please STEP ON ME #i beg of you #losing my mind #anywayss i hope these gifs make you unwell too <3 #@lottiemilfews the simone/lucy gif is for you. they're gay :) #tumblr let me upload more than 10mb please #remember when the size limit used to be like 5mb or less #how did we cope #it was 15 frames in black and white. the struggle #*gdvrx #*alldvrx

[jaegerisim]

Boreddddddd :3 whats new?

oh nothing. just me being one of the most hated byler blogs lmfao

#what did i do to yall????? #like fr #anywayss #as long as i have my moots everything fine #*the b//ler tag explodes all around me*

[grodygreengoop]

look who i just found in my fucking closet

#mine #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 2k12 #raphael #tmnt raphael #2012 raphael #2k12 raphael #for context cuz i never mentioned it here i talked about how i owned a raph plush but i completely forgot where he went #and like hes kinda big so how tf do you lose him. well my brain is not very good #but anywayss opened my closet aand got a jumpscare #that Is the guy. when tf did he get a scarf

[insert-neologism]

just for once by lauren lopez in nerdy prudes must die

#yellowjackets #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #also #jeff sadecki #look this is what *I* call 'bonus content'. #a glimpse into my psyche if you will #mine art tag #? #ig sorta?? #anyways i made this AGES ago no idea why i didnt post it. maybe i did post it OMG I THINK I DID?? well anyways. #anywayss watch yj and npmd of you havent seen it (npmd is the last part of a triology but you dont have to have seen the first part just #if you are inzerested in watching it. dm me and I will tell you many many things #npmd #actually now im pretty sure i did post it but idc (i was not unhappy. abt the attention. I ens sted) JUDGE ME

[lyxchen]

I am having a crisis because I legit can't remember anything that happened this year except for most of december and that one thing I did in summer

#like if i tried i probably could still remember the most inportant things but.. #it just feels so surreal #like #what Did happen this year?? #i sure as fuck don't know #love having adhd memory /sarc #i get to find out what happened this year through clues in my room and the picures on my phone #like a detective #funn #my memory is muddy soup and i can put my hand in to hopefully pull out an important moment #or a piece of potato #yes i don't know what i'm trying to say with that either #anywayss #please tell me i'm not the only one who feels like that #lea's random thoughts

[gio-goose]

Gotta make it a rule to not play after a tiring day at school ;0; I don't have the mental fortitude to handle this. (working in the laboratory is so shit if you don't get specific instructions on what to do)

#just thunkin #I had to figure this out my self #why did i choose to do this #The amount of math I have to figure out is too much #Lab work is stressful help #Anywayss im gonna play anyway cuz I'm a doofus

[guideaus]

anyways hikaru no go was a great game series for a hot 12 volumes

#personal #and i had hope for 2 but those didnt go anywhere lol #im serious it was soo enjoyable but i dont think sai was resolved well. it shouldve been a relationship point to deepend their bond #then later maybe sai could leave when he has nothing left to teach or sai's hit like maximum pride in hikaru lol #sai did feel like a pet after a certain point and was too nice and hikaru shouldve picked up the slack after using him #and the series turning series sucked. sai and hikaru having fun was a huge factor to its likable nature vs akira and his father's seriousne #i think if sai and hikaru beat akira thru the love of the game and their fun attitude maybe akira could bond w hikaru to fufill #that youth vs prev gen theme hng tried. instead of hikaru becoming more serious like everyone else #anywayss i miss sai aaaaaaaa

[builderfreak]

Mimimimim giving you the silent treatment now mimimimimi. Anyways after my house is rebuilt who wants to come over ^^ badboyhalo not invited.

#yaoiverse #building plans #not gonna tag bad dont look i hope u see this 🔥🔥🔥 #anywayss. stand by what i said. i do know what i did wrong tho. 👍

[thatthingsittinginthecorner]

WHAT IS A CONSISTENT ARTSTYLE I FORGOT WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE anyways.

I'm beggining to create character sheets for my OCs so likes here's the first one I'll probably forget to do the rest.

Someone remind me to reblog this tomorrow with the next one please

#It's late and I should be asleep. #Anywayss #Rice against Corruption #Millie Thorne #Not me making tags for them as if I post that much 💀 #Main Arinee and Panide are a city and a country in this world btw- #God what am I doing with my life. #ALSO I CANNOT DRAW MAGIC I JUST DID THAT SO YOU GOT A GENERAL IDEA SORRY