#bashes head against wall

[inferno-ontherocks]

What it looks like: I've abandoned my fic

What's actually happening: It consumes my thoughts every single day. The urge to write gets stronger but my putty brain just. won't. let. it. happen.

#bashes head against wall #I'll get there one day! #writing problems #fic things

[09lover]

i think its about time i did one.. so.. [pinned]

— 𓄷 as you know, i go by es, he / they + 16. trans demi-boy! this is a milgram only (main)blog. UTC +8:00. i take doodles and writing requests, and random stuff, request rules will be added when made! ꒱

៹ ៸៸ basic — a really big es lover, i write and i also do art here while the rest of my posts are usually random rambles. i usually prefer people reaching out first than i do.

* if you want to be moots, do let me know! i dont bite at all, im actually looking for moots but idk how to. haha..-? if you need tone tags, please let me know!

disclaimer — i tend to talk/interact a lot, suspected auadhd but currently undiagnosed! also usually not caught up with trending or new stuff/drama, so if i am missing out do let me know if needed. much appreciated actually!

* despite being on tumblr for months; im still new to it. amazing right/s, so apologies if i do something wrong, do correct me please.

if i do make you uncomfy or offended in any way, please let me know immediately as well. i either reply to notifs fast or i dont, no inbetween. maybe there is tho. ꒱

៹ ៸៸ dni — basic dni, israel supporters, irls unless i permit you to interact, inappropriate mlgrm ships. nsfw (jokes r okay), pro/comship etc. i can also block freely if i want to, rarely happens tho.

* i dont mind anyone at any age interacting, so long youre respectful of my boundaries. just dont be a weirdo. ꒱

៹ ៸៸ fandoms — mainly milgram, paralive, aopl & much more which i forgot … but you can ask ! ꒱

៹ ៸៸ favs — es, muu & the whole cast right behind, nayuta & kanata yatonokami / cozmez, hajun yeon, honami osato, vadlip, hajime suzumiya ꒱

៹ ៸៸ funfacts — i love rambling & rping, i have 7 gmails for no reason.. i also have a MINIgram writing series planned! i love cream puffs and my phone’s battery is broken. i dont like donuts. ꒱

៹ ៸៸ tags :

#es talks — random rambles/talks

#es’ reblogs — my reblogs

#es’ art journal — my drawings/artworks

#es’ writing journal — all my works

#es’ [genre] journal — works w that genre!

#es’ asks — my asks

#es’ fav — personal fav things i love!

#es’ notebook — tagged to keep track of things.

* new tags

#es in his misery hole — vent tag, please filter.

#es’ moot battle — battle of his moots! who wins?

#mikoto’s workshift — mini mikopost interaction!

#new year phonegram — tsumi’s new years gartic! ꒱

៹ ៸៸ if you want to dm me about anything literally, feel free to do so; but please ask first! thanks.

with that, youve reached the end of this intro post, thank you for reading! hope you know me at least a little bit more now. ꒱

៹ ៸៸ last updated — 1 jan, happy new year. ꒱

#es’ intro #shoutout to fimi and bukit for being my besties.. #IF YOURE INTO PARALIVE AND AOPL PLS IMMED INTERACT WITH ME #my friend called me an es wannabe and i cant stop thinkimg about it #bashes head against wall #IS IT CAUSE I SOUND LIKE ONE…-????

[paper-lilypie]

me: I love being in control of my creative impulsivity ahaha

brain: draw CCRT inspired Valentine’s Day cards even though it’s neither February, Valentines Day, nor convenient right now or ever

me:

brain: also fuck you

#there’s no escape #head in hands I HAVE SHIT TO DO TODAY #bashes head against wall #fnaf #post fire au #ccrt #zip it lily

[kitsnicket]

Anyone else think this is insane lol

#BASHES HEAD AGAINST WALL

[scummy-writes]

My minds still stuck on the idea of gilbert licking up mcs spit from his thumb

#scum talks #gil posting #bashes head against wall

[transsexualhamlet]

i love doing art. every time i finish with my lineart it looks amazing and pristine but putting color on it ruins it every time what the fuck. and it's not like i can remove it once its there this is real paper. wtf

#rowan screams into the void #and like i WANT color on there it looks clearly unfinished without it i just SUCK at it and all my cool little lineart details barelu show #bashes head against wall

[cavprime]

fire emblem: the game where gay marriage isn’t legal but marrying time-traveling children is!

#bashes head against wall #fire emblem #fire emblem awakening #Lucina #prince chrom #byleth #fire emblem birthright #fire emblem heroes #fe:3h #fe:a

[girlkisserr]

heres my piece from the Hallowhome Zine! thank you to the mods for giving me this opportunity

Bonus drafts below

first piece + laid out idea: i wasnt satisfied with it seeing as it felt. empty

second draft: idea was there but i couldnt make the 3d aspect look nice at all

final is whats posted, and i actually took the palette from here! milk candy specifically, so thank you to OP for that

#||lost kin doodles #hollow knight #hk #i was never happy with my drafts at all so i settled for what i do best and its relatively simple shapes #i bashed my head against a wall for a long while trying to come up with this lol #hollow knight zine #hallowhome

[princessbrunette]

introducing… lord rafe! 🎀

comes with his very own gun and cocaine! pretty girls sold separately . ᥫ᭡ ₊ ⊹ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃

things were different since rafe took the reigns to tannyhill. you hadn’t seen anything like it in real life, only in tv shows and movies. the party house of kildare. a house where rafe was a god and everyone else bowed down. you were the fresh meat, just a girl who got swept up in it all when things began. the older more experienced kook girls had befriended you with a perverted and deranged look in their eye, promising you elite access to tannyhill and rafe’s seemingly endless bank account. you had nowhere else to go, you couldn’t say no.

it had all but progressed into near worship over the few weeks you were staying there. it was a blur of parties by night, and days spent in little to no clothes curled up to the eldest cameron’s side in a pile of other women that massaged him and pet you like a baby kitten. you’d smushed your cheek into his side, still drunk as the sun came up on his porch and asked if he was the king of the castle.

“more like lord of the manor type of shit, you know?” he’d smirked, peering down at you with his sunglasses still perched on his nose. it was from that day it began, all the girls — including yourself addressing rafe as the lord.

“yes, lord.” “yes, my lord.” “anything you want, lord cameron.” the other girls would pur — swanning around him like you were his playboy bunnies, but at the end of each day, if you weren’t his arm candy at a party it would be you speared on his cock — surrounded by the other girls. like mentioned, you were fresh meat. the other girls were happy to be accessories, walking around in bikinis to make the house look good but you — you were his star of the show. his favourite.

he lays against the pillows, sighing out shakily as you sink down on him. maybe the slight tremble was from the line of coke he’d done off your tits, maybe he’d just been craving the hot warm clamp of your cunt. a handful of girls — maybe 6 or 7, surround the two of you on the bed, like watching prey get devoured by its predator. moaning though no one touched them, sliding their hands over you and guiding your hips to ride him. the most established of the bunch appears at your ear, staring down at the way your cunt swallows him and whispers to you “thats it. keep pleasing him. you’re so perfect.” you couldn’t tell if they all wanted what you had, they didn’t show it, nor did they act out in jealousy — it was like it had been an elaborate plan to steal you into their clan all along.

people talked, and maybe you’d been a little reckless — rafe often choosing his moments to fuck you with the balcony doors wide open, giving anyone who passes by a direct view into the master bedroom where he takes you apart. you’d become desensitised, no stranger to asking ‘daddy’ to put a baby in you as other girls wandered in and out the room, sometimes staying to watch the show. it wasn’t often people dared to make commentary on the things they’d heard about the goings-on at tannyhill however — not wanting to lose access to the best parties on the island.

you still remember the way that drunk guy approached you all on the porch towards the end of the night at a party, interrupting rafe in the middle of his elaborate stories with you tucked up to his side, surrounded by some friends and the rest of the usual women.

“awesome party rafe. you gotta let me in on your secret.” he stumbles, and rafe’s eyes flutter in irritation at the interruption.

“yeah, no secret man. just a good place with good people.” he drawls, uncharacteristically humble before going on to continue with his story.

“i gotta ask though, is this some fucked up cult? i heard some crazy shit, bro. its a little weird, you know?” he continues on anyway, and you watch rafe stiffen, smiling disappearing into a tongue pressed to the inside of his cheek.

he pushes up slowly and you slide off his shoulder where you’d been resting, watching the man slowly wander towards the guy as he scratches at his cheek in thought.

you see him untuck something from his waistband as he approaches, and you don’t quite catch what it is — but as rafe looms over the stranger, pressing whatever it is to his lower abdomen and speaking in his ear, you’re guessing from the look on the guys face that it’s a gun.

“get the hell off my property and don’t come around here asking dumb shit again, a’ight?” he drawls out in a fairly quiet tone, but the atmosphere had fallen silent enough to hear a pin drop. the guy scurried away, never to be seen again — rafe saw to that.

you had never felt the urge to challenge rafe cameron, but now you were certain you’d stay submissive to him forever.

#i hate this sm i’m bashing my head against the wall #posting incase anyone wanted to see it . #kinda horror movie vibes ?? #rafe cameron prompt #lord!rafe

[dyingnerdyprude]

this musical is literally all i am capable of thinking about rn

#starkid #team starkid #new starkid #new starkid show #bashing my head against the wall #cinderella #cinderellas castle #nerdy prudes must die #tgwdlm #black friday #tin can bros #bryce charles #puppets

[grinkubus]

may I present to you

fem dante

im going absolute fucking bonkers

#artists on tumblr #art #digital art #devil may cry #dmc #dmc au #dmc dante #genderswap #yall. yall I cant #I absolutely cant #AIAOSHD8DNDH #dante sparda #Transfem dante #bashing my head against the wall rn #i'm so in love #dmc4 dante #dmc4

[2sw]

You have to kill me. Dean, please. You have to promise me.

Supernatural S2E11 Playthings

#tears rolling down his face............. #im bashing my head against the wall #sam winchester #spn 2x11 #s2 #gifs

[sunclown]

Glimmer ✨

#op #one piece #zosan #sanzo #zoro #sanji #Fellas is it gay to cradle your rivals face delicately and titling his earrings just so making them glimmer softly with the light?? #Was bashing my head against a wall while drawing this u dont know how violent they make me #(its 100% sanjis fault) #I keep forgetting to tag for searches cuz its so canon to me but #Trans zoro #my art #And giving bugs the credit for zoros face scarms muah

[notchainedtotrauma]

Okay, but maybe the lesson here is to leave AAVE alone so that it doesn't lose shape and meaning, and goes from some "cool" slang to something that white supremacists appropriate and then shape it into an unrecognizable dogwhistle. Like..."woke"...

#stories from the void #this is actually strategically savyy #leave AAVE alone #and you have less semiotic information #available for white supremacists to appropriate and utilize as vectors of communication #since you would rather bash your head against a wall #than respecting Black people #interestingly enough fighting against antiblackness #actually benefits you

[1982brucespringsteen]

in seven months pacific rim will be 10 years old

#eating my own hands tearing my hair out bashing my head against a wall etc etc etc #pacific rim #mine

[miles-wrightworth]

hello i am on a roll and my right arm hurts

have some cool silly gays

(reblogging my art really helpsss <3)

#miles edgeworth #ace attorney #art #aa fanart #phoenix wright #my art #wrightworth #narumitsu #GODDAMNIT I ALWAYS FORGET SOMETHING #SSIGH #FORGOR MILES' PONYTAIL #*bashes my head against the wall*