#been feeling a bit sad lately

[todoroki-waifu]

To try and help me out of my long writer's block/lack of motivation, I'm going to post some short fics here and there. It's just these random ideas that pop up in my head, but don't really have a big plot to it.

If that makes sense? lol

#todoroki-waifu's blurbs #been feeling a bit sad lately #but feeling a bit better #motivation slowly coming back lol #writer's block sucks

[creatingblackcharacters]

Can I be vulnerable with y'all?

Low-key, this blog saved my presence on Tumblr and creation, fr. I was ready to pack it up and quit, leave it all behind. I'd been feeling miserable and unwelcome about many of the things I saw in the spaces I was in. Figured that it was never going to get better, that people didn't care and didn't want to care, so why bother? Why couldn't anybody do something about this?

Unfortunately, I've never been a quitter 😭, because THEN I thought- well why not Ice? (Said in the "por qué no los dos?" tone) If there was something I could contribute to maybe make the space around me better... Why not? I've always created what I wanted to see, why not this? Can't say I didn't try, you know?

Anyway!

This experience has been overwhelmingly positive, and I cannot thank y'all enough for that. I was truly scared starting this blog, and I still get nervous, but I like to think that it's made a difference. Y'all have shown me it has, and that's all I can ask. It makes me want to keep doing it. Thank you for caring 🙏🏾

#ive been feeling a bit sad lately #like i was never gonna solve poorly drawn Black characters all at once lmao #horse before the carrot and all that #but then i remember that there ARE people that care #and i feel a little reinvigorated #creatingblackcharacters

[indigopoptart]

gonna get back into the swing of things with!! some faces I did a bit ago!!!

+ closeups and oc creds under the cut!

the welcome home guys ofc <3

some of my guys!

(Niebla belongs to both me and @akemima ! <3)

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And now, some friends’ ocs!

Lady belongs to @gremliinsart, Keira belongs to @funonion001 !!! :3

Sundown belongs to @carnivalcarrion !! <3

Damon belongs to @sammysun , Wizard belongs to @akemima !! :33 <3<3

#this was a while ago it feels SO OLD #by the way. this was hell to format. tumblr web and mobile both have skill issues idc #welcome home #welcome home fanart #howdy pillar #sally starlet #eddie dear #eddie my beloved <3 eddie my love <3 #frank frankly #oh hes my baby…my babygirl…frank… #sorry i forgot how ill i am about them #laughingstock lowkey been ruining my life lately (bogs fault) #AUUUUGHHH FUCKKK I MISS STAMPS. #oh i got a stamps ask a bit ago. gonna finally respond to it #BTW: saying this now bc its been a problem with a lot of people/for a while. i will answer asks that are asks! #people popping in to say hello is always loved ofc <3 but. it clutters up a lot. if youre new/sharing kind words ill respond ofc! #but if youre in my inbox just to be there/to grab my attenion. im not gonna respond😭 this keeps happening and it makes me kinda sad idk #ANYWAY ANYWAY. not gonna waste my tags with a ramble #oc fanart #sherri stitch-up #hotel hubbub #niebla valentine #puppet oc #daiki iyer #indigo’s art #art #indigo’s ocs #other people’s ocs #puppet ocs #expression practice

[sysig]

Utterly Defeated (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #<Sticking to my tag so they're all together ♥ #Dexter Favin #Max Vyer #But really that's ZEX in there! What's left of him anyway ;; #ZEX #Hhhhhhh it was so goooood and saaaaad <3 <3 #Helix is a tragedy - on repeat in my mind ad infinitum #I made most of these upon initially reading - and then I had to sit on them through all of October!! Can you imagine the impatience?? #I've been absolutely chomping at the bit for these hhhhh feelings!!! So many!!! Max's eyes and ZEX being behind his single remaining ;; #Dex wanting him to be safe and knowing he used to and now he can't offer it anymore I jifdsahfdjsaf #Have I mentioned I love them lately I love them <3 <3 All of them! Dex and Max and ZEX! And DAX I'm sure ZEX misses him so badly #In a way it was good that I had a bit more time to set it down and come back - I reread it very recently hehe <3 #I still get teary at some scenes ah </3 It's so beautifully sad #But it also gave me some time to finish ZEX starting to shape the word ''Max'' and then back off it ahhhh it hurts!! #The rest were at least all lined at the time - came back in to tone some recently but they were all ''finished'' October 1st ah #Especially of Dex waking ZEX to call him by his title hhh they both just want peace so badly but it looks so different to both of them #Lingering on his scar and then carding through his hair <3 Comfort and softness and it's all not enough #His scar is quite fun to draw as well ah - scars tend to be like that haha ♪ The stitches and discolouration give it a unique look! #And the way his hair pulls back from it ah #I had a lot of fun with his hair hiding his bandaged eye as well - just barely peeking out always just enough of a reminder #And all his lying-down poses - his hair is fun to pose like that as well #One of the original Landel doodles of ZEX talking about what Hell would look like for a VUX really struck me as well #Dex can't help him in so many ways ehn </3 He wants to! But he wants Max and he just can't have him anymore #Hhhh it was such a good read <3 <3 <3 Thank you again to Zarla it really made and still makes me happy to read it ahhh ♥♪ #Now that I've (finally!) gotten my thoughts out I can read the other!! Yay!!

[codakk]

dave "the only touch i know is my older brother's violence" strider and jade "i've long forgotten what the touch of another human being's felt like" harley both being lonely best friends struggling with their touch starvation but maneuvering through it and healing from it with each other's guidance and company

#xi #davejade #dave putting up walls to hide his starvation from everyone else #jade softly knocking at the walls hes put up and waiting for him patiently until he feels ready to let her in #even if waiting a thousand years for him meant letting her touch starvation grow hungrier and consume her completely #dave finally letting jade in but bit too late and now jades been left waiting and starved for too long. she just misses the warmth of a hug #dave hating the sight of his best friend so... sad and weak and tries to awkwardly hold her even if he doesn't know what a real hug is like #dave tentatively reaching out for jades hand for a few moments before his own starvation gives in and pulls her in for an abrupt embrace #its awkward. very. dave hugs jade with his elbows pointed out weirdly and with his hand hanging in the air not knowing where to rest itself #but once jade hugs back by looping her arms around him and pulling him close all the tension disappears between them and it feels just righ #just. the thought of both of them being just right for one another. willing to sacrifice themselves for each other. #your honor i love them

[pleasantmsp]

I love Beauyasha so much. I miss them so much.

The reunion gave me so much joy and now I'm in this weird happy but melancholy state. I love the Nein so much and I want more of them. And I especially want more of Beau and Yasha. If we get a Fjorester wedding one shot, I will be stoked. But then also give me the Beauyasha wedding too!

I'm really just hoping they keep doing these little reunions cause I love the Mighty Nein so much and seeing them makes me so happy.

#critical role #cr spoilers #beauyasha #the mighty nein #echoes of the solstice #and the rest of the tags are a rant #got a bit carried away lol #my depression has been real bad for the past like 9 months and i dont have the money or resources to go to therapy #so i am in a real interesting head space lately #this one shot gave me so much joy #i haven't felt that engaged and excited and happy in a long time #but now that its over that feeling is being joined by (like i said) this weird melancholy that i've never felt in this way before #tm9 mean so much to me #beauyasha means so much to me #especially in these times with the strikes and all the cancelations of wlw inclusive media #i've been trying to get back into c3 but getting through those first arcs is proving difficult #bh just doesn't feel the same as the m9 to me which is fine but sad in a way #cause I feel like there's still so much the nein could do and participate in #i definitely understood what ashley meant when she said she didn't feel like she was done with yasha #i feel the same #so i hope they keep doing these one shots and i hope they release some news on the animated show soon #and here's hoping that as I catch up on bh i can come to love them even half as much as tm9 #cause that'd be enough to keep me coming back and then some

[nyupuun]

Recently I've been seeing more tension in the Yugioh fandom against each other. Really feels like we're back in 2016, so I wonder what's up with that.

#also something I noted on twitter and its just kinda odd #I dont actively engage in the fandom so i dunno what changed but it seems kinda annoying #discussiond about wether or not gx or 5ds or zexal or arcv or vrains or 7 or go rush is better is so. ? #like i feel like it just boils down to personal preference. #Also Ive been seeing so many people put the protags against each other again and I feel insane. #bringing up discussions about winrates like. where am I. #idk everyones been so miserable lately (even people in the TCG just been doomposting all day) which is a bit sad to see but ah. #random ramble #personal #might delete later #yugioh

[turrondeluxe]

#feel so sad about not drawing for funsies lately but got to use my silly art somehow for extra cash #also feel bad about not sharing art at all for a bit . been very busy bee lately and i dont really like posting any commission i make kjajk #anyways might stream tmr at like 4pm??5pm? (perú hour) or smt i got a 2012 turtles commission >:] #will go on until kinda late and i will prob stop for a few hours because gotta cook for everyone here but then i might continue #idk!!! we'll see!! :] #fer talks

[cheesecake801]

#submas #me talking #self drawing #artist talk #i wish I'd have more time and energy to post art of them #i've been getting tired lately #and a bit sad sometimes #but seeing the love my art received really made me happy even when I was feeling down #so I'm really really grateful you have no idea #trains guys invading my life was surely one of the best things that happened to me this year #my art #cheesecake801art

[inferno-silentdragon]

Another omori pixel doodle while I procrastinate

#ok you know i'm like so out of it i accidentally post the same doodle with a new one #omori #omori fanart #omori hero #see you tomorrow #this was also spawned by tsuki XD #tho i honestly felt like i needed more hero art in my life so i was more than happy to do that #but ye i'm kinda curious what songs do people associate with hero? #for me it's see you tomorrow; the sunset bgm #since that's when we get to see hero and i just feel it fits him #that also makes me think the morning/daytime bgm is for kel #i guess you can say hangin out with the boys is for hero but i think that's more for the brothers instead of just one of them #and now for a bit of a ramble because the second image is sad #i've been a bit iffy lately since it just seems easier to just draw in pixels #and i'm just a little afraid of people (and myself) thinking that i should just do this #just a bit a fear everytime i majorly shift in styles #jack of all trades master of none #it's been happening as i keep one upping myself on my own project #but i guess that's to be expected with the order i'm doing everything #my art #pixel art

[maddies-chronicles]

quick rb if you want more canonically non-binary main characters in fiction

#ME #obviously #i've been yearning for nb x male specifically lately #obviously queer fiction in general is still a bit lacking #but i feel like genderqueer people don't get any rep #not as mcs anyway #and that makes me sad :(

[pinkanonhopes]

you know what?? i did feel sad today but i also felt better than yesterday. maybe this is what it's all about sometimes. that day when you feel a little better.

#i have been feeling sad because of a couple of situations lately #1. a family member is ill #2. i feel my friendship with my best friend is ending #and i'm still struggling with some mental health stuff #so feeling a bit better after two months of dreading and tiredness feels so so so good right now #so. yeah. #recovery #mental health #cate's posts

[goldeneclipsee]

I’ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(

this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-

#seriously guys. y’all really have just helped everything. #Mostly north and L I love yall #But I’ve kinda felt sad cuz. If I died people would actually be sad?? #And gosh I’m scared of how everyone would react if one day I just stop responding to rps. If I stopped messaging them and stopped making ar #You guys have just really fixed everything. I love all of you more than you can imagine xxx #thanks for everything #and also know that it’s right back at ya #If you died I’d care. If you died I’d cry for days #Please. You’ve done all this for me and made me feel valid so I want you guys to feel the same #If you ever need help I’m here #Just know I will always love you #This is a more serious post but uh. The feelings have been very weird lately #And you guys are all I have #And I think I really appreciate that now. I think I’ve realized how much I need you guys #You were here for me. I’m always here for you #love yall sm #anyways it’s a bit of a ramble here in the tags lol #Anyways byee I love you mwah mwah mwah #tw sui attempt #maybe?? I mean I’ve tried to before but #Idk I dont wanna trigger yall-

[jorvikzelda]

today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

#z talks #like the misidentifying as ace was Inevitable i think. that was due to repression that realising i didnt like men would not have fixed #(context: id’d as bi ace like. i wanna say 2016/17-2021/22 sometime and then went into ace and Questioning) #remember the time i really solidly settled on being aro because ‘romance has never not felt like a chore and putting on a facade’ #babe no thats because your most recent and also singular long term relationship was with a Man #and thats the only one youre looking back on #its so funny how i dated a guy and it was so thoroughly Meh that i just didnt feel like pursuing anything romantic for a very long time #(A REACTION I HAD NOT HAD AFTER MY PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS WITH GIRLS) #And DIDN’T somehow consider that maybe I just Didn’t Like Guys #its nothing i grieve or feel sad about dw its honestly mostly funny to look back on #no wrongs were committed and i dont hold a grudge against the guy it was just me being confused and compheted #(…which is also a weird word to apply because at the time i identified and was out to my friends as a trans guy Binary. #This Was Also Wrong.) #was a weird time man. a truly weird time #anyway. all is well i have now been on 2 dates with a really cute girl and she gave me tulips <3 #as part of a Care Delivery bc i had a Migraine and No Painkillers Or Snacks #get well flowers <333333 #and now i dream of kissing her under the moonlight #With the uh. Hornetposting lately it May seem unlikely but yes I DO interact with real women! Romantically! #They coexist Wonderfully <3 #Anyway. I’m gonna go to bed #Realising that im a lesbian solved all my identity problems including my fucking gender which is just fantastic #I am very happy and whenever I think of being a lesbian it grounds me to reality a little bit stronger and i go yeah. Yeah.

[dreamwinged]

i feel like posting but i have nothing to say 😭 sorry guys i feel like im so boring all i do is irlpost lately :’3333 but im just so fixated on 🔮 and he hasn’t gotten any new content lately so there’s really Nothing to Say sadly. and im too exhausted and demotivated and busy to create content rn so nothing to post snjdnsjcnsjxnd.

im so sorry waaahhh im hoping it calms down soon so i can actually do the Selfshipping part of the Selfshipping community ykkk. but rest assured im stillthinking about him constantly and stuff i just. WAHHHH sorry i’ve been so lame recently<////3

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #merch collection is growing tho and that’s super cool. sad i can’t post a pic SHDJSNXJDD #anyways sorry i do genuinely feel bad that i haven’t been like posting anything good lately #i just. Sigh. you know #give a mentally ill girl a 6 class course load in one semester in a country where she doesn’t know the language and she may suffer a bit #IM LOVING IT DONT GET ME WRONG . the 6 classes thing is just kind of a lot. and i’ve been rly busy outside of that jsjdnsjxndjxndjd AUGH

[itsame-ariana]

Lil adventure time post:

Don’t come at me yet read first. Am I the only one who gets kinda sad and bummed out every time we see shermy and beth in an ep? (which I know was literally twice but just bear with me)

Not anything wrong with the characters I actually really like them and I think they have a cute dynamic and are fun. I love when people make comics of them etc

Just- knowing that it’s the future of Ooh and seeing how different everything was- like how their world is kind of a reminder that all of the characters we love except bmo are dead- (including possibly pb and marceline even though they were supposed to be immortal together forever 😭)

And also for example seeing in f&c how divided Ooh seems :C

And I know the whole point is that things end and change but “everything stays- ever so slightly” and it’s okay.

Which is actually a really nice message and sweet- but like even if the message is good and the characters are fun and reminiscent of the ones we love;

It just a still makes me a bit sad, you know?

I guess now im in my older teen 16/17 yr old philosophical existencial adventure time arc and no longer my 13 year old silly goofy arc. Me and Finn twinning frrrrr

Anyway thanks for coming to my Ted talk I continued some thoughts in the tags

#especially stuff like the fact that it’s been so long that bmo can’t rember Finn’s name #but they still call him their best friend #but like they’re all alone with that little robot heart #bmo stuff has been so sad lately fr #different conversations #I actually love shermy and beth but also they make me so sad #shermy and beth #adventure time #distant lands #fionna and cake #bmo #adventure time finale #come along with me #literally the exact feeling the music hole was talking about #finn the human #fionna kin #I guess im in a bit of a silly mood 🥲 im vibing tho