#been on my mind A LOT lately

[jeongin-lvr]

I know I talk about perv jeongin A LOT but like.. imagine every time he hugs you he gets a boner <33 he has zero self control and you enable him by getting on your knees or mindlessly jerking him off whenever he needs :3

#perv jeongin makes the world go round #been on my mind A LOT lately #jeongin skz #i.n smut #i.n imagine #skz smut #stray kids smut #jeongin smut

[aurazoo]

for my whole life, before I came out, while I still was in high school, my whole life was about carving out alone time (I lived in a single wide trailer, me my three siblings my mom her boyfriend and the dude who slept on our couch. I shared a room with my two brothers until 11th grade).

I wore my headphones all the time at home, constantly listening to any music I could, I used to go to the movies weekly by myself (I did the up until I moved to buffalo), I tried to live in my own world and I was pretty successful too. I mean I hung out with friends as much as I could, but by far most of my time was in my world, just like consuming mass amounts of media to block life out.

In high school I went to a few concerts, mostly by myself and with my mom who would drive me (ty mom) but not with friends. it was cool but I did not get into it the same way I got into my CD player.

In my college years (the height of my depression, oddly enough) my friends finally started going to shows with me, and it was like a whole other world. I fucking danced and holy shit did I want to. not even with my friends, just knowing I was experiencing the same thing as them was what changed it. for the first time I was like, truly sharing my escapism with those around me, those I knew, those I loved.

it's odd, since coming out and having my life completely and entirely changed, I haven't really had the kinds of relationships or friendships I did at that time in my life. I'm so much happier in general, but in a lot of ways, I feel more isolated. I don't really go to shows that much any more, going alone is hard and the few friends I have really aren't "going out types" (for various reasons, all cool).

about 2-3 months ago I started getting into dance music for the first time in while, and more into it than nearly ever. I think it was kinda to cope with being alone in the winter, making my headphones feel like im not alone. the curse is these past months of dancing alone in my house is rapidly building up and needs release, I want so fucking badly to go out and be surrounded by sound and people and then just fucking the feeling of elation after, the cool air on my sweaty skin.

I'd like a friend to do this with, to dance and lose myself and it feels effortless. I know I need to go to shows alone to move myself forward. I know I just need to get out there and dance (and be the only masked person doing it). but it would be so much easier with a friend who wanted to as well.

#sorry journaling on my blog #been on my mind A Lot lately

[attentionwhore-552]

Who will find me when I finally decide to end it all?

I’ve closed myself off from those closest to me and it’s normal in their eyes. They’re not far off I choose to be alone. I’ve thought about this concept many times… who will find me when I die? Would anyone care? My family would be sad but they would move on like I was never there. They’ve had to before.

My friends barely know I exist except when things get hard and they need strength. See that’s all I am, the tough one. The strong one. The one that keeps everyone else standing… but who holds me up? I stand alone.

All these things inside my head but the only answer I have is no one. There will be no one there with me and no one to notice. Would anyone truly miss me? And what would they say? “I never saw this coming.”? “She was always so happy.”? “Why would she do this?” “She had her whole life ahead of her.”? “How could she do this to her family and friends?”

“How did nobody see this coming?”

Idk what they would say or how they would react… all I know is I will die alone.

But I again I ask… who will find me?

#just some thoughts #been on my mind a lot lately #let me go

[bloggingboutburgers]

Quick reminder since apparently it bears reminding in both directions: if bigoted people, closed-minded people overall, or your own internalized insecurities misinterpret a queer person’s message in a way that hurts/endangers you, yeah, it sucks, but it’s not the fault of the queer person in question, nor should it be a reason for them to silence themselves. They’re probably as hurt/pissed as you are that someone misinterpreted and misused their message to do harm.

Of course sadly there’ll still be queer people that actually DO mean harm and dismissal to other queer people – I ain’t speaking for those and it’s not the best way to ensure their and others’ wellbeing imo. I’m just saying – not all people will be like that. That’s what I want to believe. So hopefully let’s not put everyone in the same bag, keep supporting each other, WHILE allowing each other to advocate for our own visibility, without having to self-erase or self-censor to accomodate to what haters might say.

It’ll be tougher this way, maybe, because humans seem to like to draw extreme conclusions very quick, but I don’t believe there’s any better way for us all to be alright and stay alright on the long run.

#no one can know i don't like sex #queer solidarity #asexual #kink at pride #tw queerphobia #bleh i'm rambling but i hope this'll come across OK #this has been on my mind a lot lately #my art #nonburger

[kmesons]

"AREN'T YOU GOING TO TIP ME? (GET YOUR CUP OF COFFEE) LOOK AT THE FUN WE'RE HAVING ALREADY!"

#this guy again #the guy who didn't like musicals #tgwdlm #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #starkid #my art #bonus points if you can guess the music in the background (it isn't inevitable I'm afraid) #I've been seeing a lot of infected paul art lately so I suppose it's just the hive mind acting again #edit: what. are you guys doing. why on earth does this have 847 notes

[justafriend-ql]

reminder to all gifmakers that your work is always a unique, valuable contribution to the community. even if someone has already giffed that scene. even if you're not 100% happy with the coloring. even if it doesn't get many notes because sometimes people only look at the 'top' posts in the tags (which are usually just the first posts on the scene after an episode drops).

frankly, the culture of expecting gifs to be made within 15 minutes of an episode airing and only reblogging posts made within that timeframe is stressful and unsustainable for creators, and it prevents people from discovering and appreciating the wonderful diversity and abundance of work that can be found here.

follow your favorite gifmakers, reblog generously, and have some compassion for people that devote their time to making beautiful things <3

#this has been on my mind a lot lately but i particularly wanted to send this message out before only friends airs #seeing as that series is very popular and lots of people will be giffing it #and feel pressured to get sets made as quickly as humanly possible #art is not a capitalist product - it's made with time and love and should be recognized as such #sorry for the rant this has been bugging me big time lately #only friends #ofts #only friends the series

[genderqueerwhohatesithere]

spent the last few hours looking at the r/phallo subreddit and taking in all this information is making my head spin, i think i would want to do ALT because i wouldn’t want to have a scar on my forearm but i don’t know if that would be more complicated or if i qualify for it? it’s all very confusing and all of the clinical terms confuse me a bit and i’m very tired. but i’ve learned a lot more and seeing more pictures and peoples experiences has been comforting. i was surprised at how fast some of the healing was. and i learned about medical tattooing! apparently you can get tattoos on your dick for finer details like veins and stuff so that’s very exactly because having a dick that looks more detailed is important to me if that makes sense. i’m starting to think that i would just want phallo and to not keep my pussy but i don’t know if that’s just dysphoria kicking my ass bc i do like being fucked and i haven’t ever been able to take anal, and it’s hard to know how sex would be like for me when i can’t experience it with different genitals. lots to think about

#chatters #trans masc #phalloplasty #transgender #been on my mind a lot lately #and i just can’t stop thinking about it #i almost want to stop because it’s painful #but i can just see it #and feel it almost #like a phantom limb

[ruporas]

feast (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #tw blood #im posting this so late because october escaped me Suddenly.. hello.... #i wanted to make it a photoset with this other vampire vw wip but i don't think i'm finishing it any time soon and the mood of it is #completely different anyway. also i don't think i ever shared anything about my vampire au on here !!! it's all old art by now so im shy lo #but maybe i'll do a photodump of it. long story short vash is a vampire since birth and ww is a human vampire hunter that turns during thei #travels together due to EoM experiments + getting vash to drink from him at some point. #humans turn once they get bitten but bc ww has been experimented on #& got bitten by a bunch of human turned vampires thruout his hunts he thought it wouldn't be a problem for vash to drink from him but alas. #theyre both ok though theyre traveling together definitely not hating themselves for what theyve become and feeling guilty for what theyve #done to each other. theyre completely normal about it. the biting part is really appealing to me in vampire aus so i draw it a lot but #in reality vash only drank from ww once and ww mightve done it twice under the realization he might actually die otherwise #since he wont drink from humans after being turned.... he's combatting the 5 stages of grief at all times #if this is all nonsense im sorry DMGKSDF I'M NOT good at explaining and this au came from nowhere in the depths of my mind its a mess #ruporas art

[chaotic-solutions]

some martyn looks... he serves in every outfit he's ever worn i don't know what to tell you

#hes been on my mind a lot lately. i have so many art ideas and thoughts in my skull #martyn littlewood #inthelittlewood #traffic smp #trafficblr #life series #lifeseries #3rd life #third life #last life #limited life #art tag

[justsmiledoe]

#small sketch #before i go to bed #Donna has been on my mind a lot lately <3 #digital art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital sketch #resident evil village #infinite painter #donna beneviento #resident lover #hello #this is my pookie #she hasn't slept for 100 years

[welcometogrouchland]

I've been binging Batman Beyond recently (Terry ily so much) and thought about how- bc of the JLU twist which I think isn't even canon to the comics BB verse but shhh bare with me- he'd technically be Damian's half brother??? Which is just so ridiculously soap opera to me. I need them to interact in a silly time travel adventure so bad you don't even understand (ID in alt)

#dc comics #damian wayne #terry mcginnis #batman beyond #batman and robin #mine #also feat the mild damian uniform redesign i like playing around with. it's fun i like her. i love u classic robin colours #the backstory for this image in my mind is that Terry knows of Damian/has maybe met him #in the future (whether we're going w the rebirth ''damian rejoins the league'' angle that i. don't love conceptually but can't judge- #-bc i haven't read. or if we go w/ some other potential future route for damian) and Terry is like. experiencing whiplash at meeting him- #-as robin. like you are 5 feet tall why r u so bossy. where is your dad good god. this is why i don't have a robin (?this is pre matt-robin) #but Terry's in an unfamiliar time trying not to cause a paradox so he puts aside his indignitude(?) at being bossed around by a kid #just long enough to make sure nothing goes horrifically wrong. hence this image takes place #<- i could've been a lot more eloquent explaining this but it's very late and i should've been asleep ages ago #anyway. absolutely crazy to me that Damian has had multiple flavours of secret brother plots and terry is a potential addition. rip damian #(also in my ideal future damian took up the nightwing mantle (EVERYONE READ NIGHTWING MUST DIE!!!) before retiring( #idk what his future career is. lowkey hes a webcomic artist in my brain but that's so horrendously self indulgent i can't condone it #also i decided to try my hands at lineart again. evil. how are you so stiff looking and difficult to do. waughh #anyway if things look weird. no they don't

[spiderzwebb]

needy, whimpering men

#send tweet #been on my mind a lot lately

[surreal-duck]

june brides in may

#been listening to this one a lot lately #duck scribbles #doodles #enstars #midoyuzu #girl the one person i was trying so hard to hide my art acc from found it. im going to sob #(al kalo kamu liat ini bukan lu kok) #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #i actually had a literal dream abt smth like this at some point #ES bridal projects joint shoot or w/e (ring.a.bell wedding march and that one undead kaoru centre i think) it was an interesting one #my finals are over so if you see a strange uptick of activity dont mind that

[inadequeer]

i think the best thing someone can do to be a better ally to disabled people is to just believe other people. believe people know their own abilities and limitations and understand your own.

just. fucking listen to people when they talk about how they are feeling, because most likely theyve been feeling this way for a long time before saying anything either. trust another person to know their body better than you. they know what they can do and then please don't question it.

laziness is a myth.

don't apply your standards for your ability level (even subconsciously) onto other people. be gentle and forgiving with others and most importantly yourself.

#this has been on my mind a lot lately #as the 'debate' over remote work continues #journal tag #disability tag #disability pride

[shkika]

I just hope you don’t come to regret it..

You can think of this comic as a part 2 to the UI leaking the rot comic. Please check it out! (x)

#rainworld #rain world #unparalleled innocence #grey wind #chasing wind #rw comic #my art #i can finally faint im so tired haha #this was alot of work #excuse any mistakes i might have made especially near the end #a lot of it was done quite late #anyway this has been on my mind for a while #grey knows how it feels to be misunderstood #so while everyone else takes UI’s silence as telling #grey decides to investigate what happened. and figured she judged her wrong #this is pretty much how their friendship starts! #UI is right by saying she has a short lifespan. by the time of riv shes gone #even pebbles with his intense rot was still standing #ill take a break and look into my inbox later today #thank you for the patience! #hope the comic is enjoyable

[sonknuxadow]

i think people give elise too much shit for her little outburst at the end of sonic 06 because if i was running a country at 17 and had been repressing my emotions for 10 years straight and one day i got kidnapped like 500 times and ended up befriending the guy who rescued me and while spending time with him i felt like i really got to be myself and have fun for the first time in forever and formed a really meaningful relationship with him only for some weird demon rat thing to show up and kill him right in front of me just to make me cry so the destructive fire god that my dad sealed inside my body would be unleashed and then in order to save the world i had to reset the timeline and forget we ever met i would have become the joker

#posts that sound insane to people who dont know the sonic lore #been htinking about sonic 06 again lately #also i didnt know how to work this in but remember the scene where she jumped off eggman's airship not knowing sonic was gonna catch her . #yeah #also i think its pretty obvious that she wasnt actually gonna let the world end so she could stay with sonic #considering she ended up blowing out the flame anyway. she just had a lot of feelings about it. which shes allowed to do #anyway. people alwasy say elise is boring and has no personality or character #but i think shes interesting. once you actually start paying attention to her #also i dont even ship sonelise but i think its pretty clear that sonic and elise meant alot to eachother #even if i prefer to make it platonic in my mind #people who say sonic hated elise just hate elise themselves and are projecting that onto sonic #< TO BE CLEAR PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS CAN STILL BE VERY DEEP AND MEANINGFUL #idk if my wording on that was weird