#but bc i know that time is ending soon and more and more things are being added to my to-do list in the start of june

[sunkissed-zegras]

Paige nsfw hcs pls

─ warnings | NSFW under the cut! read at your own discretion!

─ taglist | @xocherishxo @iienstein @yazmunson @euphternal and here's a link to my taglist if anyone would like to join!!

─ ev's notes | the long awaited nsfw headcanons for paigey, i finally got the motivation to write it after i kept reading the INSANE smut yall keep writing (keep it up im lovin it) also this is such a mess, this is just rambling and not organized whatsoever, but wtv i hope yall enjoyed :)

woo, where do i even begin?

let's begin with the obvious, paige is a TOP, i can't stress this enough

i genuinely can't see anyone topping her she's just .... a TOP

but that doesn't mean she won't let you take the reigns every once in awhile, esp after a bad game/tiring practice because everyone once to be taken care of sometimes

i'm def not the first person to say this and certainly will not be the last but STRAP GAME GOES SOOOOO HARD

i feel like at first she's gonna be weirded out cus like... she likes only girls for a reason??? and she has her mouth and fingers??? why would she need a piece of plastic to make her girl feel good???

but the first time y'all try it, she's hooked

she forgets ab her hands after that

jk but like

yeah she's HOOKED

she gets really into it LOL, def can imagine her calling the strap her dick

oh and she fucks HARDDDD like, no room to breathe or anything

like you'll be gasping for air after and she'll be super duper proud

i read this one fic with like the dual ended one (i didn't even know that existed) and then i was like yep, yes this is the oneee

with positions, i can't see her doing anything more than like missionary (cus she loves to see your pretty face) and like from the back

but as soon as she discovers riding, it's OVERRRRR for you

she's making you ride her strap anytime she can, cus she loves it

she has her hands on your hips as she's guiding you and she LOVES IT so fucking much, like the power she has over you makes her go feral

oh and do not get me started on sucking her strap, cus again she loves the power she holds over you

she has your hair in a ponytail and the more you get comfortable with the whole thing, she WILL make you gag

she acts like it's her dick (yeah i know we covered that) but like esp when you're sucking her strap, she will just dirty talk u the entire time

"you like my dick, pretty girl? like gagging on my dick?" cus yeah, u do

oh and yes, she does have breeding kink

it breaks her heart that she can't get you pregnant 😪

but she sure as hell will pretend to!!!!!

will 100% bend you over and just yap about getting you pregnant

also if she's fucking you in missionary, she expects you to look at her the entire time

so if you turn away, she will grab your face and keep you looking straight at her

FUCK IDK WHY THAT'S SO HOT

paige is a D1 yapper i fear, and that would 10000% seep into the bedroom LMAO

mostly praise cus babygirl would feel really bad but when she gets into, she GETS into it

like she will call you her slut as she's about cum

that post-nut clarity goes hard the first time tho cus she's like no way i called my gf a dirty fucking slut 😭😭 she sits with her thoughts for a good 10 minutes trying to recollect herself

she is a munch for sure, like she will eat you out for hours and hours on end (not an exaggeration btw)

but she LOVES when you give back

it makes her go fucking feral when she sees you eating her out, like yessssssssssssss

she has to close her eyes bc if she keeps looking at your face, she WILL cum

she has a bad hair pulling problem, like she will grip your hair so hard your head will hurt after

it's apart of the appeal tho 🎀

her fav spot to get absolutely ate is her gaming chair cus like, she needs you in between her legs giving her support to get that victory royale 💯💯💯

she hates when she gets ass or tits bc she genuinely cannot pick

it depends on the day bc they're both great, she will never pick one

i feel like she's definitely thought ab fucking you in public but she can't risk it

SHES A D1 ATHLETE !!

the only time yall did was in a bathroom at an event and it was SOOO bad afterwards cus everyone could tell

you had to pretend like you didn't get your brains fucked out and paige had to pretend she didn't DO the fucking

but lowkey she enjoyed it a lot, but would she do it again?

maybe, a solid maybe (with the right motivation)

okay but like ....

she def has fingered u while the girls are over cus like, she was in a silly mood?

you just looked too fucking good, she had to

but thank god no one noticed (at least to yalls knowledge...)

she's a horny fuck ARGUE WITH THE WALL

she will get turned on by anything you do, like homegirl is just sooooo down bad for you

you could be applying chapstick and paige will be like "we need to fuck, now."

paige's aftercare is just giving you water and cuddling with you for 10 mis while scrolling on tiktok and then gets up to play fortnite with kk

she literally is the tiktok where it's like "after he rearranges my organs he goes and plays fortnite" i hope yall know what i'm talking about

but you don't mind ofc cus she makes you sit on her lap while playing

but then turns into another round cus shes a horny fuck

paige is all for hickies on YOU but she gets pissed when you give her a hickey cus she's like people are gonna see

like she's the only one who has to deal with the public 🙄🙄🙄

but she loves marking you EVERYWHERE, esp on your collarbone like it's so sexy

oh and god bless you in the summer, the ones on your thighs are getting AIRED OUT bc paige does not care

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#wcbb x reader #wcbb #ncaaw #uconn huskies #ncaa wbb #women's college basketball #paige buckets #paige bueckers x reader #paige bueckers #paige x reader #paige bueckers fanfiction #paige bueckers smut #paige bueckers x oc #paige bueckers headcannons #paige bueckers fic #uconn wbb

[puppyeared]

adhd is when you shoot for the moon but you forgot the rocket fuel and by the time you realize it everyones already on the moon and then you panic and crash into the sun and it explodes

#my meds stopped working and i didnt know thats something that can fucking happen apparently??? #like i knew eventually my body can get used to medicine that the effect kind of dulls but for some reason this time around i thought #that my body just decided to become lazier since the meds were already working anyway. cuz thats the thing as soon as smth is made #easier for me even if its the thing thats supposed to make the disability less disabling i get too relaxed and end up fucking up anyway #so i assumed my fucking cells worked the same way LMAO. they still technically work like i can feel my energy spike when it kicks in #but everything else like focus and memory went down and i thought oh so its just a me problem then. my habits are getting worse #even though ive been doing everything the same like setting reminders checking my schedule. hell ive been setting MORE reminders #to make up for the memory thing and i didnt even realize i just knew i had to compensate since it feels like my memory is getting #worse again. and i only figured this out bc my brother showed me an icecreamsandwich video with him talking about the EXACT FUCKING #THING IM GOING THRU WORD FOR WORD #i have to bring this up with my doctor next week so maybe i have to take different meds. i wonder if this will be a recurring thing #i guess one thing that hasnt changed is that im still slow as hell and stuff only comes to me 5 hours after the fact #its 6 in the morning and i only JUST realized that the word froyo is probably short for frozen yogurt #yapping #adhd

[natreads]

I got a job as a bookseller!!!

#nat talks #listen. it's not the dream bc I've already worked in a bookstore and it's actually terrible at times #but I only really worked during holidays and people were just so rude #BUT I do have higher hopes for this location #also I tentatively know two people who work there so it will be fun! #it's a sub role and a little unclear if I'll only work during christmas and the book sale in feb or more #it depends on if the people who are on sick leave will return and when #but I can keep freelancing and apply for corporate jobs I want in the meantime #at the very least I can work during december either way and if I end up finding something else maybe I can work weekends during the booksal #so to not let them down too much #I honestly am just looking forward to getting out of the house and meeting people and working with my body more #because my mind is very fried #I have a short shift tomorrow to train #then I'll see when I'll officially start but it will probably be soon! #I've had a very busy few days so I wish I had said I could do my training shift next week #bc they gave the option of this wednesday or next #but I didn't want to turn it into a “thing” by letting too much time pass bc I might get anxious about it #but now I wish I had lmao I'm tired #also forgot I was gonna be home alone with the dog tomorrow #had been looking forward to it tbh #oh wellll #work stuff

[nordsea-horizons]

i wanted to say a little thank you to the ac community for making normcore and a more relaxing gameplay style more popular again! I have seen so many people going back to enjoying the little things in the game and it has inspired me to do the same! I’ve had so much fun with that lately and it has made me remember what a comfort this game can be💛

#i know some people have been doing this since the beginning ofc #but i’ve def not been one of those people lol #anyway i am in a relaxing place in my life right now #but bc i know that time is ending soon and more and more things are being added to my to-do list in the start of june #i’ve really needed the comfort this game brings me tbh! #and ofc always thankful that i am not alone in still enjoying the game💛💛 #hope you all have a lovely day or night!! #acnh #animal crossing #animal crossing new horizons #new horizons #acnh community #ac community

[andthebeanstalk]

POV: You're already in the most unhinged horror story in the world, and suddenly there's a circus tent in the fog, and THAT can't be good.

#junji ito #gyo #gyo junji ito #ito junji #gyo manga #hey everyone this manga is buck fucking WILD and DISGUSTING in ways that continue to surprise me bc you canNOt underestimate my guy Junji #i can't tell yet how i feel about it but it is even more unhinged than advertised #it is the one with the shark on land with spider legs #ya know #normal stuff #I cannot emphasize enough that the shark on spider legs is the most grounded thing that happens in this manga #like it is not endgame it is one of the very first things that happens and it just gets weirder and more gross from there #I really thought it would like build up to the shark and that would be the end but I was so fucking wrong it's so gross #but also it's being illustrated by an absolute master of Horror art. I read too many chapters in a row today #because it's also funny at times and that made me think maybe it wouldn't be really scary and I was wrong! #the humor was like the sugar in a fruity cocktail. ya think hey it tastes like candy there can't possibly be much alcohol in this! #and soon you've collapsed under a table babbling about fish with spider legs

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

Saint Juniper’s Folly

YA paranormal mystery

follows a foster kid returning to the small town he grew up in, who runs from the judgemental townspeople and ends up magically trapped in a mysterious house in the woods

a boy who lives a boring life in the town until he finds him, and wants to figure out how to save him

and the young witch from the town over who’s heard the woods calling since her mother died, and wants to help

m/m, friendship & investigating a mystery

#Saint Juniper’s Folly #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this is….okay #writing is quite young - it feels like middle grade. would be fine bc i like middle grade but it's a bit at odds with the fact that #they’re 18 and talking about college soon and driving round in cars a lot #There’s very little ghosty or spookiness - it’s more just about the characters and their developing relationships #I felt like there were quite a few pivotal scenes missing? Like it skips from the kid being back in this town for the first time #to suddenly he’s stuck in this house in the woods. We don’t see him go out there; realise he’s stuck; or anything. #(unless libby skipped a chapter in my audiobook again?) #It also felt like it skipped any of them like testing the supernatural stuff? They go straight to researching the house’s history. #Once the end is revealed it makes sense I guess - but it’s like the because the author forgot to make the characters (who Don’t know) #do the first logical things you might do in a situation like that. idk. #the boys hating each other at the start felt manufactured for some hate to love thing instead of for any reason.....I didn't buy it #Also my pet peeve of: having a character call her dad by his first name! …….but it's an indication of their bad relationship. okay then. #(I know that is also a real experience but MAN sometimes people just do that it's not always a sign of emotional neglect!!!!) #Anyway - I didn’t hate it by any means; there’s just a few little things that didn't work for me

[thedreadvampy]

idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

#red said #the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early #metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of #Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together #but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant #i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning. #what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose. #i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy #so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that #but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person. #but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go #i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it #but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving #i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry #right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone. #that kind of thing. it's a safety thing. #it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it #but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that #and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time #anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.

[impossible-rat-babies]

Woghgogogo the bahamut raids………..

#they’re just. yeah #one day I’ll figure out eyrie’s post ARR timeline bc they are included #eyrie doing everything besides being in Mor Dhona #they are around when Moen is there though because it’s refreshing having someone new around #they like her and she picks up on it very easily that they do like her #I think about her quiet conversation in northern thanalan and how they talk a lot more after that #and how they fall into this friendship that ends all too soon #which after that eyrie spends even less time in mor dhona #I’m glad there were events to shake things up outside of eyrie’s control because they were getting close to violently shaking #things up themselves #tired of being asked to do things. feeling as if they had no choice. no one else can do this #when do they get a rest? who knows #oc: eyrie kisne #the bahamut raids were a case of a perfect distraction #from ignoring linkpearl calls #it just ended up being far more than they bargained for XD

[myketheartista]

HEY HOMIES !!!

Here’s the big baddie 😮‍💨 my final for Digital Illustration I ! I was so excited to do this assignment when I first heard about it in Week 1, I had kinda planned from the start for it to be an Aiah and Polor piece since I can’t get their dynamic outta my head. Came back to an old rendering style I haven’t touched in ages and really tried to push the color palette this time around (I learned about gradient maps ! They’re super cool !!) In the end, I think there’s a lot about it I wouldn’t change at all. This is honestly one of my best pieces if I’d have to judge, haha.

I’m super pleased with the finished version even though it drained every ounce of my life force <3 I now vanish to pursue more back-breaking projects

#enthusiasm at its best #original character #aiah #buttoncraft #polor #character design #digital illustration #minecraft oc #ain’t got nothin else to say about this it killed me is all #it’s so so sexy tho i’ll be sweet and loving to my art #everyone in class kept going on and on about how polor’s got the anime villain vibe going on and i went Yeah Where Do U Think I Got It From #tbh i did it without an exact ref but someone else in the class did a tokyo ghoul card and it reminds me a lot of kaneki’s hand thing #i’m rly obsessed with this palette tho it’s so … it’s so hot listen #im so crazy over their hair colors and how well it worked out im gonnaTRHWO UP #but no fr this piece rly made me want to quit school LMAOOO which i guess isn’t good but #i was working on it literally days on end and wasn’t finished even when i had to turn it in like 2 minutes before the deadline #i just refined it a bit on my own time bc i actually love it that much #hehe hoohoo so anyways more hw posts soon but hopefully they’ll be inchresting ! i’ve got my background to post of aiah’s hometown #concept art I is already killing me 👍 but we’re good #we know it’s life drawing IV it can die

[doublekanble]

ghost in your home was not supposed to end like that at all lol, wrestled with the idea of letting him have his cake and eat it too or shove it in his face a bit more and ended up with just letting him be

#/kbtalk #combine the symbols from the three plant mentioned (gardenia. ficus. begonia) and you got what it takes to keep a good relationship #if youre reading this and you want to know. one of the end was first step to reconciliation but i think that wouldve been too nice to him #maybe some other day ill do a rewrite/exploration of the concept bc i think a lot about- #the anguish of mourning someone who sit at your dinner table everyday #i think he would've been a bit more conceited and “hmp its not my fault” but youre from the time where he can only get by with a smile- #and a charming silver tongue so it balances out rlly #i shove the ghost theme last minute because i was going back and forth on what to titled the section and i remember the 21 grams soul theor #added like an extra 1k bc of it and ended up going back over the whole thing to put some more stuff in #brain is finally clearing up and i hope you cant tell when in the writing did that happen lol #next fic needs me to read a 200pg book about voodoo so i can set up one scenario ive been putting it off for some times now #for now im blasting too sweet and making a minecraft house #i need to download mods that give me a radio so i can make an alastor theme room soon

[sparklespectres]

‘My Frankenstein’ is a relatable song in general but specifically the line “it’s kind of messed up, I feel like a break up, except it’s all your fault, NOT MINE!” just HURTS on a personal level and I know that it’s been over a month since it came out now but I keep THINKING about it-

#dead end paranormal park #norma khan #the amount of times I’ve blamed myself for friendships ending bc apparently I said the wrong thing but didn’t know #and no one would tell me why they were mad and just expected me to understand so I just immediately resorted to ‘I guess it’s my fault’ YIKE #like I just feel the implications of this line DEEP in my soul #anyways de:pp season 2 when and also please let there be more musical episodes it’s what they deserve #if Netflix doesn’t green light it I’ll be SO upset bc it was just really good and I NEED something to cope with TOH ending soon

[filmcel]

Hey man, some advice from someone on their way into their mid twenties: don’t continue into higher education if you don’t want to. I know it’s easier said than done, but I mean it wholeheartedly. School is draining, and if just the thought of it is causing you stress, than actually going will be worse. It’s hard when it feels as though there’s all of this pressure to not disappoint yourself parents or anyone else that expects this of you, but you are what matters most. You should be your top priority. You should do the things that are in your own best interest. I tried to go to college multiple times after graduating (and struggling to do so immensely despite the fact that I’m smart and school came easy to me. I was just incredibly burnt out on life by that point) and it never ended up working out. College isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay. You’re not less than or a failure for not doing what society tells you you have to do to be successful. You can find meaningful work that doesn’t break your body and soul without college. You can maintain or create new friendships without college. Put yourself first, and you’re doing great 💜

thank you 😭

#saying more in tags bc i’m shy #currently bc i’m so young i’m just going to stay with what i’m doing #i was able to figure out my shit for today and i start next week #i’m an easy quitter so if i fucking despise it u best believe i’m leaving #but maybe it ends up being amazing. i rlly don’t know . #just doing this now to please my family. #i still work and i have friends. my future goals aren’t limited to school and i have to remind myself of that. #getting a life outside of school has helped me become a better person i think. #and i hope if i remember that i do have a life outside of school i’ll survive going to class if i know it’s not the end of the world if i’m #not the absolute best. #for now i’m too young to say no to my parents #all things considered i should just say no #but living w them is hell dealing w this #i think my best option is to dip my toes in and see how it goes. #i don’t even have to push myself too hard. and they won’t either bc they know anything is better than nothing #but i do not regret at all the time i spent out of school #i was able to work so much and as annoying as work can b i’m very grateful i got to do that #bc not only has that helped me make my closest friends but also …MONEY. #soon i’ll get a car. and soon i can start planning my own future #captain’s log #One step at a time ☝️🙏 #incoming transmission #i appreciate u anon . #but this year i’m going to try and b easy on myself #we’ll see how that goes #also it’s low stakes bc it’s just community college #maybe if i can take stuff that interests me i can figure myself out more #bc while ik ever job doesn’t NEED college degree. idk what i want to work in. #there’s things i’d love to do. but i have zero knowledge of anything

[blk-xniverse]

This year's just... yearing.

#So tired of folks thinking they can play in my face + continue to be disrespectful with little to no consequences in return #I am NOT the same girl I used to be #I'm not just gon sit on my hands + take it AND that infuriates them SO bad #cause it's like... 'who do you think you are??? you think you allowed to take up for yourself??? defend yourself?? set BOUNDARIES???' #and that shit blows bc then they feel like they can challenge me to see if I'll fold or not which is even more disrespectful on top of the - #- shit that was already going on in the first place #like if I gotta go through AAAALLL that for a weak ass connection then I gladly let it go but don't let me say that - #- bc then it's an even BIGGER showdown bc I be letting em know that if they gon keep disrespecting me + my folks then they need to get tf on #very simple terms imo but mfs want to fight + be passive-aggressive all day like.... ain't nobody got the time nor the energy for allat fr #and as soon as me and my sisters stand our ground we magically become the villains and the bad guys #and this shit is spread to whoever is willing to listen and this shit irks so bad sometimes ngl bc idfw ppl lying on our characters #this year has completely SUCKED in terms of my connections with ppl and that makes me real life not want to talk to anybody ever again bc #ppl always pretending to be something they not to get what they want out of us #+ as soon as we fall short/make a mistake/unable to do a thing then the mask falls off + they become the most disgusting person ever!!!!! #and it's like... who tf is this person???? this aint who i befriended???? hello????? #and the lamest part about all of that is that we are always 1000% ourselves so we automatically expect folks to do the same with us #and maybe that's our fault for thinking like that idk but at the end of the day the shit is wack #and I just plan on being in hermit mode for as long as time permits + until i get a sign/message to do something else #if anybody read all of this: thanks for reading + sending you so so so much love + kindness into your life! We for sure all need it 🫶🏾✨️✨️ #abtme #4:26 pm

[branches-of-time]

It (was) that time of the year again!

[Genshin Impact 4.0 Trailer Reaction]

More than 2 months after filming this, I'm finally able to upload it! While I fully expect no one to watch it, such is the nature of starting anything new. Even though I'm very late to the party, I'm not letting the footage go to waste- if I've got it, might as well post it.

Above is the first 10 minutes of my reaction, but I spent another ~30 minutes going back through, pausing and giving further commentary on the trailer, and then let the rest of the program play out as well. If you're interested in watching any or all of that, you can follow the link to the full video on YT directly below!

#genshin #genshin impact #genshin video #video #video games #Seven's Genshin Commentary #Seven's Clips #i have no idea what else to tag this as #anyways. apologies for how damn loud the trailer is and how quiet i am in comparison! #it's only like that during the trailer portion thank god. the audio levels are slightly Less Bad for the rest of the video #but my setup isn't the best anyways so ur just gonna have to live with my grainy facecam and quiet mic #no one needs to see me in any better quality anyways lmao i'm doing u all a favor #but yeah. probably said it ten times by now in various places but i'm gonna be doing my best to upload my backlog of videos #and hopefully soon i'll be on top of things instead of 2 months behind! #i know my videos aren't the most groundbreaking or interesting content but i'm just doing what is fun for me! and that's what matters #and i get more and more comfortable on camera every time i sit down to film which is good bc i almost died of cringe while editing this #'editing' being a few small bits cut out and two Very Impressive Zooms in on my facecam while i ramble at the beginning and end lmao

[trollrider1111]

Making ocs is an art that i think was lost on me, to do that i think you need to be able to figure out a life and in order to do THAT i need experience in making ocs. Dammit i gotta do this badly, scared and for the first time

#hex is a black cat with purple accents. hes a stocky but fluffy cat with medium length fur #i cant decide if he has purple eyes or brown #i want to draw him as a bartender #he should be able to wear hats. i think he would be good at wearing a hat #god im a boring person #hex has a sibling. i dont really have him fleshed out but hes called decimal #i think hes a brown tabby cat whos much fatter #hex is super bad at sports but he knows how to box bc he used to fight with dex #he used to be really into orange things and has a bunch of orange stuff left over from it but now hes more into black+bright/glowing pink #maybe ill draw him in a pink jacket one day #thats a lot already oh wow #hes good at playing cards and can deal like a showoff (i know nothing about cards) #hes good at caligraphy but his handwriting is like chickenscratch #hex #he signs all his cards with a giant flourish that takes up half the card but its pretty so they dont mind #he really loves fire lilies bc of his orange phase but couldnt bear to repot them for dragon lilies. like what is he gonna just evict them? #so hes has the extra thing of seeds next to the planter but no plans on planting them any time soon #hes a soft type of dude but once you know him he'll bite #he tries to be refined but it just ends up camp meanwhile dex would ride an atv through mud all day if he could afford to #he paints but hes never satisfied with it so he ends up just painting over it and making it an abstract portrait if he fucks up #when hes painting he always starts by painting his claws a matching color

[oatbugs]

i feel like i have rly strict boundaries w ppl eating my food but i feel like i shouldn't but i like . recovered from an ED and i hate having my food messed w / having less food than i thought but i feel like i shouldn't care/just get over it

#like imagine u rly care for smn but their house is kind of far so whenever u go there u stay for a few days #but they have nothing in their pantry to actually make a meal w except like. eggs and bread or smth #and they dont cook for u . but u cook for them all the time when they come over #and you are aware that due to this issue of like . never having food at their house they are often hungry #note : the food thing is less financial strain and more energy/they dont have the willpower to like. buy stuff to cook w ig ? but they also #dont order takeout so they just eat like. bread. and peanut butter. and eggs. #but anyway so ur like ok im gonna bring my own food this time so u do. they know abt ur ed thing. and u tell them youre hungry when #ur at their place so you brought this food for yourself. u are aware eggs and bread cut it for them and they feel full #but u are low on energy a lot bc ur not actually having a nutritionally balanced meal etc etc. anyway so as soon as u get ur food out they #start eating...ur food. and ur like . ok 😃 . like they dont rly ask they just grab a fork and they start eating #and ur like its fine theyre hungry they can have it . but u brought enough food for like a few days and now u have enough for like #1.5 days maybe. so u tell them..i feel like i miscommunicated but the food was...for me...sorry...but u feel HORRIBLE and guilty abt it #and then theyre like ok . and then they keep having ur food #and ur like #ok #:D anyway u made an extra bowl of the food and froze it for urself for when u get back home #bc u suspect u wouldnt have energy to cook . but u end up inviting them and they come along. and on the way #ur like i understand u were hungry but i made the food for myself so next time ig i can make 2 ppls worth of food so i wont have to like #worry abt skipping meals n stuff so much when im over at ur place . and theyre like. ok #and then u get homr. and then #they ask for that last bowl of the same food that u made for uself . and ur like 🫠 okkkk #obviously u give it to them but its like . oh my goddd pls just let me eat my own food i am HUNGRY TOO #and i made it for myself !!!! #but i dont want to be selfish and i rly rly dont want anyone to be hungry bc ik what it feels like and i hate HATE seeing ppl i love be #hungry but it feels like over this week theyve crossed this boundary like 3 times but its like #what if i fuck stuff up by telling them. theyre literally at ur place too w lots of ingredients u could have just made smth for them but #they chose that specific meal u made for urself for after u got back which is the same meal u made like 4 bowls of for when u were at their #place and its like . AUGHHSHDHDH