#but do you see me enforcing that

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[cairafea]

i think the fast travel in this game is very cool 👍

#ghost trick #ghost trick phantom detective #sissel #my art #fanart #comic #pov the ghost you just met after dying can travel through telephone lines (he is breaking privacy laws and you work in law enforcement) #look i know the phones are more like level select but they're also narratively fast travel #and i know sissel doesn't have a corporeal body but work with me here #sissel can just Say Things and the souls he talks to will just have to accept that because they're Level 1 Dead #what they don't know yet is that sissel is only Level 3 Dead with a severe No Context debuff #uh nothing i drew or said in tags should be a spoiler since it's all introduced in the prologue #knowing the ending of this game it's actually hilarious that sissel can go anywhere he wants to mess with every object in the vicinity #but only if he can reach it. #no watermark or signature do you see how low quality that sissel is #don't repost or i'll {Trick} your kneecaps next

[snekdood]

i hope all the terfs looking at my blog rn are able to grab me a beer and maybe make me a sandwich perhaps while they’re at it

#im sorry its so hard to not want to be misogynistic to them in a jokey way about it #i mean- if they're gonna keep pretending im a woman i gotta keep reminding them im not /jk #its just that so many of them are white cis women who have no real problems. its hard to not want to remind them that oppressing ppl like #me isnt about to change the fact that plenty of cis men still only see them as objects #like idk bitch maybe if you actually shut up with your transphobia and worked with other oppressed minorities we wouldnt have red pillers #out and about. but naw. your attachment to your womanhood is too important ig. #more important than stopping your actual oppressors. #yall would rather uphold white supremacy than do any meaningful change for women. #otherwise maybe you'd actually listen to us when we talk about shit that effects BOTH os us- trans people and women alike. #its almost like enforcing the binary is entirely counterintuitive to your actual fucking goals of equality #its almost like reinforcing the binary back to cis men and pretending its valuable only reinforces to them their misogyny and idea #that men and women are entirely different species #its almost like your insistence that theres a binary actually doesnt serve you at fucking all and actually only AIDS in your oppression. #whatever happened to 'gender equality'? or is that too trans friendly for you now #ig women cant do everything men can do #imagine calling yourself a feminist and genuinely believing this

[leotanaka]

gotham's commitment to the "there are no good people in gotham" or "no heroes in gotham" narrative and that it's something that only law enforcement and the villains say and when you look at the regular citizens, the show constantly demonstrates that it is not and never has been true and they might not be successful and usually die in the process of trying to do the right thing but they still do it regardless.

it's also why, when you look at season 5, it's not the heroes or the villains who save the day, who stop bane and prevent the destruction of the entire city, it's the regular, every day citizens. if they didn't show up, gotham literally would've burned.

#gotham #gotham rewatch #gotham 2014 #gotham fox #gotham meta #writing this made me emotional actually but it's one of my favourite themes in the show because once you look outside of the #heroes; villains; law enforcement; politicians; businessmen #you see all the people in that city fighting like hell to do the right thing and protecting themselves and everyone around them

[musical-chick-13]

Regarding the whole "Fandom Is An Escape, so why should I have to care this much about misogyny/racism/ableism/transphobia/etc." thing. Idk about the rest of you, but it gets kind of hard for me to "escape" when I keep seeing people say the same vile things about characters who share aspects of my identity that I hear all the time in real life.

#gotta say: it doesn't make me feel any better getting ignored/disparaged on account of my gender irl and then seeing every fictional woman #also get ignored/disparaged when there is no material difference between her and popular male characters other than her gender #how do I escape from irl misogyny if y'all keep willfully ignoring and flinging gendered insults at 99% (<-lowball estimate) of #female characters? how do I put aside the ableism I face in real life when y'all discuss disabled/mentally ill characters in the most #absolutely out-of-pocket way? how do I forget about biphobia when the 'arguments' you make 'for fun' about bisexual characters #in fiction sound EXACTLY the same as the things people say about my bisexuality outside of the internet/fan culture? #and then obviously this gets compounded if you are trying to even simply EXIST in fandom as a poc or a trans person or an intersection of #any or all these varying identities/life experiences #like yes caring about fictional characters is not the same as caring about real people OBVIOUSLY I can't BELIEVE I have to keep clarifying #that. and at the same time!! because multiple things can be true at the same time!!!! engaging in behavior that enforces pre-ingrained #societal biases and prejudices!!!!!!!! does not help dismantle those biases and prejudices!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in a real-world way that DOES #involve caring about actual people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it's also. interesting. when people go on & on about how some newest show about thin cis white (male) gays is So Important & Revolutionary #So We Must Do Everything To Keep It Relevant And Visible and then act this way about women/poc/trans people/disabled people/fat people #in media. so like. you DO agree that seeing a variety of life experiences represented in fiction is beneficial. you DO believe in the #value of depicting marginalized people. interesting that that only seems to apply to a VERY narrow and specific category of marginalization #(ugh remember when I talked about this and someone called me a straight person good times)

[pacificgasandelectric]

it would just be very very cool. if more ppl would be capable of being anti-israel, anti-genocide, anti-colonization and anti-human-rights-violations, and ofc pro-palestinians without also being anti-jewish about it.

#mine #sarah rivka rachel and leah fucking save me. #i don’t deny that there Are genocide apologists out there ofc & many of them use judaism as their justification #but literally so do christians and so do fundie sects of islam and so do various other religious & non-religious groups bc It Turns Out: #taking & enforcing power by hurting ppl is NOT unique to One Group Who Has All Power Ever. #literally makes me want to start biting to see ppl parroting ‘jews are all rich & powerful & have dual loyalty’ tropes #but it’s ok! bc instead of ‘those filthy jews’ they said ‘those colonizing israelis’ or ‘those genocidal zionists’! #if your rhetoric is indistinguishable from the way that literal nazis veil their rhetoric. maybe. the things you are saying are Bad. #‘oh well zionist just means ppl who support israeli colonization! they’re Bad so it’s ok to wish death & violence & extermination on them!’ #oh so suddenly words are devoid of context & history? sure jan. 🙄

[obstinatecondolement]

Wish my parents would take the "not swearing at me and shouting about how they own the house I live in" challenge every time I push back mildly against them treating me like a literal child challenge.

#they're on the 'you can't lock your door' thing again #and once again using fire safety as a fig leaf for being mad about not being able to get into my room without me unlocking it #and I didn't even say no is the thing #I said that I didn't feel I had any other way of enforcing privacy as a boundary #and that I didn't think it was reasonable that I should be Disallowed from locking myself into a room on fire safety grounds #when they both do that all the time #so why is there one rule for them and one for me? #the answer you will be pleased to hear is #'do whatever you want then you selfish fucking bitch' #and 'I pay the rent!' #there is not rent #they own this house outright #and a second house which my sister lives in rent free #they don't give a shit about 'what if there is a fire?' #the problem is #'how dare you presume that you can lock part of my house away from me #and how dare you presume that you are a person with rights and not an extension of me I should be able to control at will?' #if fire safety is such a fucking risk then why can you lock yourself in a room to get away from 'the madness' but I'm not allowed? #also fwiw I never raised my voice or said anything harsher than 'I feel that I have no other way of having my privacy respected' #and 'I don't think that makes sense as a reason given that you lock yourself in rooms all the time and I don't see how that is different' #but anything other than unflinching obedience is verbal abuse time #like always #love that for me

[aleatoryw]

Asajj Ventress as this quasi-eldritch-horror figure who everyone used to know as a sith, who uses strange green magic and moves completely silently, who can kill you in a dozen ways even without the use of her dual green sabers, with eyes that reflect the light and intimidating tattoos and a smile that's still just a little wicked...

but no one can say shit about her living in the temple now because they know she's one, quite genuinely redeemed, two, immensely helpful in fighting the new sith empire, and three, master Obi-Wan's beloved partner. he's mostly known for his leadership and diplomacy after his injury on Mustafar, but if needed this feral green blur will come eviscerate you and then return to his lap, so watch out!

#ventrobi #asajj ventress #see THIS is what i mean when i say unhinged ventrobi posting #this is the core of my beloved 'post order 66 but some jedi survived' au #the jedi need to adapt or die in their new situation as wanted criminals. with kenobi at the helm they're doing exactly that. #so who better than to teach them some stealth and resilience and law enforcement evasion than a reformed ventress? #some of the jedi don't like her but what're they gonna do? say that to their leader kenobi who openly treats her as his emotional rock? #but also just... fucking violent defensive asajj who will fuck you up if you even barely threaten her injured partner #asajj as the attack dog kept on a leash only by her loyalty to kenobi. negotiation is his first weapon. she is his second. #i think in this au kenobi was physically wounded on mustafar and says he's still healing but also his hands shake when he holds a saber #only asajj knows about that which is why she keeps her own close at hand and kenobi at her side at all times #come play in this space with me babes i have aus for days

[b4kuch1n]

Hi, I've been inspired by the composition and abstract style of your artwork for a while now, if I made an experimental art piece inspired by your composition style would you want me to credit you as an inspo? or would you just not be comfortable with me using your art as inspiration altogether? (which is fine btw, i don't wanna do smth that would make you uncomfortable)

oh sure! feel free! I don't mind at all lol

#ask #bakuspeech #tbh I do think this question is like. somewhat redundant in art. or idk unnecessary? #all of art is inspiration man. very frequently from art by artists you're never gonna have the chance to reach out to #large cause bc they've been dead for decades to a few centuries #and like. idk as an artist you kinda have to accept that people will actually look at ur art and interact with it in their own space? #so like. yeah there are things that if I see you do with my art I will block you for. but on principle I cannot bodily stop you #this is all to say that like. if the question is about my personal boundaries it's gonna be more complicated. like if you make something #with ill intention and then cite me as an inspiration source. of course I'd not like that #but also that will be on me to reflect on that and like. do what I need to do #but outside of that. saying 'don't take inspiration from my art' is 1/genuinely patently unenforceable and 2/antithetical to #the way that I do art at all #like! I thrive on remixing! it's what transformative fanstuff is. how would I ever get on someone else's case for doing the exact same thin #anyways yeah don't worry about it I guess all of the above is more like. somewhat of a blanket permission #do whatever you want with my art! if it's cool and u want me to see it feel free to tell me. if u know I wont like it dont get caught by me #I am aware that I have before mentioned things you can't do with my art. those are personal boundaries. I enforce it in my own spaces #I have no power in yours. it's just how it is. use ur judgement. have fun chillin #that's it babey I go get snack now. its past mid autumn so the moon cakes are on sale so Im gonn #a get a bag of dried corn

[katyspersonal]

3 for Aldrich, Aldia, Willem & Laurence

9 for Maria

11 for Micolash & Aldrich

24 for Laurence

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

3) What first drew you to this character?

As for Aldrich, I vaguely recall finding out that he checks the traits I like the most? He was one of the characters I've learned about through fandom and not on my own, and I think this ancient meme about summarises it:

Also:

@val-of-the-north SHUDDUP you're basically so horny for Laurence/Logarius/Snatchers that you can't even picture them in your mind in any way but being naked!!!!!!! *casts the stone back at u*

With Laurence, like with Mico, it was the very first glance at the character in Youtube compilation with boss themes and concept art image. I did not know the lore yet, but the design and the music made me imagine Laurence as sort of aged, sagely librarian. I could not imagine back then that his boss fight would be him being a "helpless abhorrent little mewmew" as kids call it! Heck, I thought he'd have dialogue despite the monster form x) In a way, my first impression was not wrong, with the cut content of him actually talking even in a beast form, and implication of him being a son of Cainhurst cut content librarian NPC! I have intuition for cut content before having information, hahaha!

I have nothing to say about Willem. It might be a memory gap thing, but I swear at some point I feel I was turned off and then booted back up with liking this character already installed in my system x) As for Aldia.... ugh for fuck's sake... yeah, it was this legend:

I was absolutely floored by this stupid vid even without knowing any context, but I also instantly liked this character. I didn't even know his name yet, but the voice acting and long yapping about philosophy already pulled me in XD (Also unironically, this video is precisely how I give relationship advice fhfhdds)

9) Does this character remind you of anyone you know? Does that affect how you see them?

Yeah, I know this person. I know them very well. I know them more than anyone else. Someone who was misguided (by their destructive influence mentor figure, by their own foolishness and past history, or combination of both, who can tell anymore?) into committing awful things, then despaired over their sins and attempted redemption but also failed in some way? This person is me. At some point I've found myself in front of horrible truth about my past life and personality, and knew I was guilty and sullied forever. That it was over for me as a human being, but that didn't matter, and I could only keep people safe by locking myself away and trying to serve something better.

......annnnd it took a few years of more informed people to (metaphorically) shake me and slap my face into lucidity, explaining to me that I've fallen for the "BPD demonization" that was going far beyond than my individual failure as a friend, and we are always accused of abuse and causing irreversible harm when the worst we do is being emotionally overbearing. I kept losing trust to those friends, telling them that they were enablers who tried to gaslight me into thinking I was not 'that much of a monster', until it was other people with BPD who 'shook me and slapped my face into lucidity'. xd Nonetheless, even though now I know the truth about how society treats BPDs, I remember the feeling of being so monstrous and harmful that I was not even allowed to "touch" people with my dirty hands, how my reality used to be. So, I could write Maria going through this effortlessly, especially considering what she did was more plain and tangible!

In fact... thank you for asking me about this, because I kept wondering why I had such frequent dreams about being Maria, and why the Maria in my dreams acts like abused child that took back control against Gehrman despite my portrayal of the guy being so different. And now the puzzle is solved! That part of me still lives inside, it seems.

11) How did you “fall in love” with this character?

Already answered this for Micolash here: ( x )! As for Aldrich, it was through properly analysing the bigger picture and context of his actions. I've figured that his madness was, in fact, being informed on what was far too ahead of everyone else around him! He, like the rest of the cast, is trapped in the rotting, doomed world in which the only choices are 1) "die with dignity" or 2) commit something unthinkable from moral standpoint for a chance to escape. And will morality of the rotting world will matter in the new world anyways? Won't it all be left behind and be forgiven?

The guy also tried to take everyone else he could with him, like sort of a fucked up Noah's Arc! I can tell that they reused the concept with Rykard, at least, I am glad they know what works xD I'd say that the sadism he experienced upon eating people was either result of insanity (he understood a thing no one should understand), or still didn't exclude the bigger purpose (egotistically revelling in how holy he is helping everyone and doing what no one else dared, which would be like my Laurence). In any case, I have the strongest respect to the courage it takes to transcend the bonds of morality and compassion in order to to greater good. Being burdened with the knowledge of how the world really works, and choosing to push through instead of still being bound... This is why I also like Fauxsefka; learning how this world works, she chose to turn people into Kin so they can't ever become beasts. I am weak for this trope, you don't understand.

24) Do you ever dream about this character? If so, describe a dream you once had about them.

Laurence appears in my dreams only in two contexts: 1) Micolaurence or 2) dreams about finding secret files in Bloodborne that reveal his canonical appearance before beasthood! I can tell the latter comes from my everlasting unsatisfaction with my design for him, because I love it but it doesn't feel "fitting" and I can't identify why!

The former, I think, fandom rubbing onto me x) In two of these dreams, I was Laurence. In other two, I was Micolash. In one of Laurence dreams it was mutual, in the second one I was in love unrequited. In one of Micolash dreams, it was mutual, and in another it was not.. Basically, my dreams allows me to experience this ship from every possible angle. o_o Waiting for more I guess fhhdfsfd

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Thank you for asking! And.. without exaggeration, you've just done quite a psychological work on me by just asking the right thing. I need to think about that, hahaha

#bloodborne #dark souls 3 #aldrich devourer of gods #laurence the first vicar #soulsborne #ask replies #personal #memories #dreams #honestly I remember Maria in my dreams hiding in the closet like an abused bullied child.. that big strong woman reduced to this #and I finally know why it was this way #I'd rather not sully Gehrman with something as dirty as my stepdad of course he deserves so much more and he is his own man #I just don't like the approach of turning characters with their own stories and personality into vessels for my trauma #it feels like frenzied flame: you got infected by it and you have unending need to spread it. to scorch the world in your pain. #I don't think this approach would help my healing but instead make me feel worse by nourishing the trauma #I am keeping it sealed away from the world forever now </3 #see this is why it hurts me so much when gehrman haters accuse me of being insensitive to people that want to project their negative- #-experiences with men and misogyny onto him even if that means twisting the actual story and character. I do have a reason to do it myself #I just choose not to because I personally dislike the idea of making fandomry about myself more and about source material less #I don't want to bring the pain and horrors inside me into something that doesn't have them. some things can stay clean! #the passive aggression between canon worshippers and fanon enforcers is something that cannot be avoided in the fandoms #and I disapprove of the lie about 100% peace and mutual respect between the 'camps'. we will never FULLY like each other #each thinks their approach is more productive for the community. and that's fine!

[gideonisms]

I can't read the aj book reviews on goodreads though because I feel like people collectively did not get that the gender thing was A) in service to her other themes not the entire point of the book B) not a girlboss everyone's a woman now thing either

#maybe the idea started like oh what if i just used she pronouns for everyone but the writing is more nuanced than that #it's the empire taking over different cultures it's not like universally a good thing #it's what many of the characters grew up with so it doesn't occur to them that they could be a different gender #it's not a universally bad thing either it's not like the book goes 'oh the empire is wrong not to have two specific genders' #it's just like. in the same way this empire enforces gender and restricts bodily autonomy through constant surveillance #your empire does the same to you. it's just like asking you to question things #but some characters have no problem with their given pronouns. it's all socially constructed that's the point #breq was probably the first time i was really envious of someone's gender though #there's no like. status significance to her pronouns in her culture. she doesn't wear different styles based on it #then you see her having to translate herself to other people's expectations when she's outside of the empire #and she's constantly botching it even after 20 years #never related to someone's experience with gender more #it's like i don't really do that. lol. but you're welcome to interpret me however. it is simply none of my business #i'll be whatever is most convenient when i'm trying to rent a place to stay. assigned woman at rental application #i never agreed to this system it's just a weird cultural quirk that makes my life slightly worse but otherwise isn't important to me

[queen-scribbles]

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#''i know i give anders shit but at least he's *interesting* carver just sucks'' #ma'am MA'AM #if you want to influence a companion so they like you better you have to USE THEM #you can joke about carver being an ass(he is) and say he sucks and never bring him along #BUT you're never gonna get friend/rivalry points to shift your relationship #it's possible to practically max his friendship in act one but you won't see that if you never bring him anywhere #doesn't help she's playing a sarcastic hawke so like #sure be dismissive and joke about his frustrations #that won't enforce his irritation at ALL #like a big part of why carver is the way he is is being an 18-19 year old KID who's had to give up what he wants for the good of the family #without even being asked his feelings on the matter #HIS WHOLE DAMN LIFE #he feels like his opinions don't matter and he has no control/choice in his own life #GOOD JOB REINFORCING THAT #i have a sneaking suspicion she's gonna wind up with templar!carver and that's just gonna exacerbate her opinion of him #it's just aggravating watching someone feed the self-fulfilling cycle #of ''carver sucks so i won't use him so our relationship stays static so carver sucks so-'' #carver is one of the most fascinating characters in the game and it makes me aklnfjsbfjksbdsjkdb when ppl miss that bc they knee-jerk #write off any comps who don't instantly kiss up to the protag without trying to figure out why they're like that :| #i stand by saying she's doesn't have to like him! i do! #it's just frustrating when half of the REASON she doesn't like him is something she could DO SOMETHING about and she ISN'T #max friend!carver is AMAZING and it makes me sad so few people actually get to see it #/sigh #/end rant #sorry #maybe i should just skip to act two in this stream >.> #(a note: mechanically speaking i get not using carver bc she's using fenris and they're the same role #but again. not using carver means no friend/rival gains so not changing the relationship)

[jukeboxhound]

Oof, court was intense this morning. A summary as well as today's affirmation:

A C A B

#'why don't survivors get restraining orders -- ' well for one thing they're only as effective as the officers willing to enforce them #hound goes to work #<< i don't usually post about work but occasionally i do and so you can blacklist that tag if you prefer not to see those posts #i'll never post details but i know that even vague references can be a challenge for folks #hound barks #oh goddamnit now the DOJ portal is giving me 504 errors #can't have shit in this system 😂🙃

[lhrry]

x

#I’m so sick of people acting like harry is some kind of a villain or a maliscious person i’ve had enough #him being the villain when he lives in a society in which homophobia is still rampant #and that homophobia keeps pushing him to conform to heteronormative models and when he does that he gets criticised for conformig #when he does not conform and expresses himself in a gnc way and repeatedly indicates he’s not straight in a way that many queer people #should understand #he’s accused of queer baiting bc of not coming out which effectually just enforces the heteronormative norms because it says that you’re #not allowed to be nonconforming unless you kabel yourself #so he’s not straight enough nor is he queer enough he can’t win and it’s infuriating because he’s doing so much to just normalise being #yourself and someone posted a TikTok of a guy talking about it and this normalisation is so important and something i so crave because i #im uncomfortable with the concept of coming out #but anyway personally harry helped me so much in terms of loving myself and who i am and embracing it and being myself #like he saved me in that aspect #and his picking up the flag again and again so clearly means so much to him and to so many fans i still can’t explain how i felt seeing that #live and feeling the love #this is a man who cares deeply about the community #watch his Oslo speech that’s not an ally speech that’s a man who stands as a part of it #in the best way that he can given his situation which people know fuck all about #he’s someone who helps fans come out at shows calling their parents on the phone and talking to them #he’s someone who makes sure to get a flag before a song because the fans have prepared a rainbow flag project and he cares so much #he goes back to pick up the flag before the song even begins #he tells people to hold their flags up #he encourages people to be themselves night after night #he is the source of comfort and inspiration for many queer fans to be themselves and he’s so brave doing it #and he CARES he’s not a maliscious villain profitting from pretending to be gay or whatever the fuck is being said #he’s a human being navigating an unimaginably complex situation #he’s under constant scrutiny and had been since he was 16 #he has a long-term partner who is in even messier closet situation #he has a team making very questionable choices #he is choosing to express himself and show he’s part of the community to the best of his capacity and for the community to punish him for #him for it like they are now doing is cruel and disappointing

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Thinking again about New Management AU and it just occured to me

If I go the blorbo route and stick to Roxy as being the first one because she's one of the biggest pains in the ass they have to keep making compromises for, then wouldn't she kinda go mad with power

Like, there's no way she'd believe she was given any power out of nowhere like that! Wouldn't she test this by making the stupidest demands possible just to be like "Ha! I told you I had no power!"

The question is, what would she do to test it? Something very much against the rules probably.

#fnaf security breach #how to find out if you were really given free reign of your attraction or not: set up a free movie night with a rival company's movies. #sdfdfs can you imagine if that actually works #or maybe she just goes absolutely ham on the health and safety stuff because she knows fazbea ent would rather implode than make the plex- #safe. #like #they would rather make their animatronics waterproof than fix the leak in the ceiling #so now roxy is making the raceway the most structurally sound and safest place in the entire plex. #and she gets away with it! #just sat there like 'are you kidding me' #because faz ent literally just. #let her do it???? #they let her spend their thousands on improved seatbelts and racing overalls???? #for realsies??? #dayum #freddy: you... improved the safety? of the raceway? #roxy: obviously. it needed to be done and it was the best way to see if faz ent really had given me power or not. #freddy: ........... i thought you hated health and safety???? #roxy: only when you're enforcing it. #freddy: >:O #lmao sddsf #no though what kind of shit to you pull to see if fazbear ent are letting you do stuff now??? #what would piss off corperate more than safety??? #hmm #/lighthearted /thoughtful