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whateverisbeautiful · 20 days

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Hi! I just wanted to say that I discovered your top 30 Richonne list a few days ago and I've been down the meta rabbit hole you've so wonderfully crafted this entire week so far. I've cried and smiled so much reading them. Each post is just so beautiful.

I was reading one of your Reveling in Richonne posts this morning for episode 10 x 04 where Michonne talked with Ezekiel about how much she still misses Rick and loves him so much and that she misses his walk and now I can't get over it. Now I'm thinking about all those times when she looked at Rick walking towards or away from her pre- and post-canon where she would be thinking the man I'm crushing on, then eventually the man I love is so sexy. Is there any chance you can do a post speculating those moments where they are both checking each out specifically regarding Michonne checking out Rick's walk?

Also I cant wait for you to do a Reveling in Richonne continuation based on TOWL 👀? So excited! Lastly I just need you to know that my Richonne withdrawals have been pretty bad now that TOWL has concluded. So discovering your blog and your metas have been giving me my whole entire life and I just want to say thank you and that I really appreciate all the thought and beauty you put into your posts. You're amazing!!!! 👏🏽 👏🏽 🤩 💖

Hi @rct85 ! I'm so encouraged by your message, thank you so much. 🥰 I love that this richonne reveling rabbit hole could help with the richonne withdrawal. I’m feeling it too and really miss seeing them on screen each week. 🥲 Thank goodness we were spoiled with years of richonne content that I’ve just been playing on a loop in my head. The second I'm finally able, I'm looking forward to going all out and writing about every golden moment from TOWL. The towl thoughts and observations are abundant lol.

And I really like that thought of highlighting the times that Michonne was looking at Rick and thinking this man I'm crushing on and later in love with is so sexy. I can definitely speculate on those moments and I've placed my extra self’s speculation right below. 😊⬇

I focused on Michonne specifically for this one because if I were to make a list of times Rick was looking at Michonne and thinking this woman I'm crushing on/in love with is so sexy it would be wildly long because it's every single moment he and Michonne are on screen together. Like truly from TWD 3.06 at the fence to the TOWL 1.06 finale Rick looks like he's thinking that. 😋 While Michonne can be a little more subtle than Slick Rick, she's still head over heels for her husband and I think I pinpointed some clear moments where she was noting how fine her man is and appreciating that walk. 😏 Thanks again for reading my posts and for this kind message! 💗

Moments Michonne Was Checking Out Her Man’s Walk/Thinking Rick Is Fine 😋

Exhibit A:

It started real early if you ask me. 😌 At this point our Michonne had been abandoned by her only friend, unsuccessfully gaslit by the governor, chased down and shot by Merle, and passed out killing walkers at the prison fence. She’d been put through a whole lot in mind and body…but her eyes clearly still work just fine as she seems to be taking in this handsome stranger in front of her.

And sis is an observant person so I wouldn’t at all be surprised if she had a conscious thought that this man from the prison is attractive, even here in their first exchange. Thinking about how she described Maggie and the Governor based on appearances in this ep, I’d bet that had Michonne had to describe Rick this early, some type of good-looking adjective would‘ve been used.

(*Also the footnote for all of these bits of evidence is that Rick is absolutely captivated by her in each of these moments too 💯)

Exhibit B:

Clear is where that Richonne attraction was loud and on display from both of them. We don’t see Rick walk away in this scene at the end of the ep but uh Michonne does. 😊 And of course she likes what she sees with that lingering look and smile she gives. And all that car key shuffling - it’s giving Rick is pretty eager but maybe she is too 🤭

Exhibit C & D:

I put these two moments side by side because I love how similar they are in the way Rick walks up to her and the way Michonne smiles at him. To think one scene is during their early s4 crush era and the other is during their s7 honeymoon ep, just goes to show these two have been smitten a long long time and always will be. In both moments I know Michonne loves seeing his walk just like Rick loves seeing her smile.

Exhibit E:

As she observes Rick here, I think Michonne has a lot of thoughts going through her head, which naturally are deeper than just checking him out. On a larger level, she’s realizing that Rick has unique qualities that she loves and respects and recognizes in her own self. She saw firsthand the way Rick walks the walk when it comes to protecting his family and she’s fallen in love with him. But I think an appreciation for his literal walk can be included in those thoughts during this scene as she starts to slowly become more cognizant that she sees Rick as a lot more than just a friend.

Exhibit F (Pt. 1 & Pt. 2):

I may have forgot if this was a list of Michonne’s thoughts or mine with exhibit f lol. But I’m just gonna venture to say that she and I shared the same appreciation for Rick’s walk in that barn. It’s Season 5 Rick - of course Michonne was feeling a type of way about him. And she might not have agreed with him punching Aaron but I know she wasn’t mad at that walk.

Exhibit G:

Seeing Rick’s clean-shaven face for the first time was Michonne’s most blatant display of attraction towards him pre-canon and she was definitely noting how fine he is. And from my posts on the scene, it’s no secret how much I love this moment and it’s no secret how much these two were into each other. I also just added a later s5 moment of Rick seeing Michonne in the constable windbreaker for the first time because it gives a similar energy. It’s cute how Rick and Michonne both have such obvious attraction and intrigued reactions to seeing each other in ways they haven’t seen each other before.

(That’s also why I thought it was so funny and doomed that their plan was to pretend like they don’t know each other at the CRM because Richonne hasn’t been able to mask their blazing attraction to each other since season 3)

Exhibit H:

This is such a sweet moment and I always adore seeing the slightly bashful way Michonne can’t help but stare at her man and smile after their first night together. And the way Rick can sense her looking at him and then smiles and reaches for her. It gives me life. This had to make this list because I’m pretty sure “the man I love is so sexy” is one of the direct quotes from Michonne’s mind in this scene.

Exhibit I:

Even when injured Rick’s walk is hot and Michonne knows it. 😋 The scene above and a couple more in this episode were clear signs of Michonne admiring her man inside and out. They were both so cute and couply and in love in this ep and I’ll never get over it.

In The Ones Who Live…

Each of these towl moments deserves dissertations so I’ll wait to elaborate because dissertations are coming later on. But I still had to include them on this list because they’re prime examples of Michonne loving Rick’s walk and/or loving how sexy her husband is - with the last one being the pinnacle 😍

Exhibit J:

Exhibit K:

Exhibit L:

Exhibit M:

Exhibit NOPQRSTUVWXY&Z:

#richonne #richonne family #richonne list #thank you for giving me an opportunity to be extra again and go down memory lane 🙏🏽💖#the ones who live #towl #rick x michonne #reflecting on richonne

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beesmygod · 2 years

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look: the only arguments in favor of webtoons ive ever heard hinge greatly on the idea that the vastness of the audience on webtoons is crucial to one’s success in the “webcomic business” nowadays. people need money to live. to make money quickly in the entertainment business (and i would like to stress that this is the first time the artist makes a choice: when they decide to pursue art as a career. deciding to do this is not a choice that should be made lightly. additionally, i do not believe that people are being forced to turn to webcomics in order to make a living lol. can you even imagine), they turn toward the algorithmically curated and inflated numbers offered by webtoons.

i’ll start this off with my bone fides so i have to clarify any of this in follow up posts: i started workshopping my webcomic on tumblr in 2012 with doodles and by answering asks people would send me. i would also just post lore dumps for funsies. they are so barely related to the comic now, but they created interest and people asked me cool questions that made me think about the world i was creating. i started the comic in 2013. holy shit i really am coming up on a decade of webcomics. hold on i have to stand up and walk around for a second. picture to break up all these words so your eyes dont slide off the page:

i made enough money on patreon (as a very early adopter) to live in beaverton, oregon (with first 3, then 1 other roommate[s]) living the most spartan lifestyle a person could manage in order to avoid having to go back to my hometown. now i live in confusing moderate comfort in a house my bf and i bought in a burst of sheer market based luck right before everything exploded. we used all of my savings i earned working from age 15-30 as a down payment.

i still try to take care of myself entirely and contribute a proportional amt of my income to the bills. i use government aid and use(d) it get a lot of medical help that i would not have been able to afford otherwise (medicare for all btw its unconscionable that this isnt the norm). i sincerely enjoyed my poverty and i felt like i understood how to live under those parameters with ease and comfort. i was poor but i was free. i do not like that i have to disclose this in order for people not to immediately dismiss me as coming from a place of monetary privilege. this shit is none of your business. im not interested being assigned a perception to my work and character that does not come from my words and deeds. i do not want “poverty artist” to be the signifier attached to me, forever, that people can scrutinize and obsess over whether or not i deserve the adjective i dislike.

but for things i do like: i like my audience very much, and i hope that they understand that they are under no obligation to care for me, keep me alive, finance me, etc. that is entirely my responsibility. but it is through their continued donations and support that i am able to draw my comic full time in a lifestyle i found comfortable, something that i sincerely imagined would not be possible while i was still working and in college. my audience of ~1.5k (i think, google analytics is kinda whack. lotta bots. this is with all that shit i could find filtered out) has been built up gradually over the past near decade and is comprised of funny, lighthearted freaks of nature who make me laugh very frequently. i just cant let them know that or they will become too powerful and use jokes to destroy me. i dont think i have a single bad thing to say about AGS readers. you guys are a hoot lol.

i do not have a discord dedicated to my work because i find the idea pretty unappealing and have had moderator experience in the past on other websites that i did not enjoy. i did not have comments on my comic until this year. previously the only way to contact me was via twitter, tumblr ask or email. i advertise my comic twice on update days, once in the morning and once at night, so i dont flood dashboards. i do not sign up for zines or jobs. i do not promote my work otherwise. well, there’s a link in my sa avatar, but let’s be real. no one’s clicking that.

WITH ALL THAT SAID:

i cannot empathize with the people who pursue the webtoons line of monetization and i find parts of (what must be) their reasoning morally abhorrent. im not even going to get into the predatory and laughable “pay per page” concept, an idea so blatantly evil that if it were pitched in any other medium it would get you laughed out of the room at best. im not going to talk about the ridiculous audacity of a comic host demanding you produce a minimum number of panels “per page” (im old lol bear with me) in order to be granted the golden laurels of “publication” (another choice the artist makes is the choice to pursue becoming a “webtoons original” as a financial goal. i think this is wildly unreasonable for every reason. but whatever. you might as well bet on winning the lottery). im going to talk about the bizarre mentality i cannot wrap my head around when it comes to what people are expecting when they sign up for a website that openly flaunts how disinterested it is in anything other wringing its user base financially dry.

if webtoons is not interested in anything other than financial gain and their purpose is to make more money every quarter at any cost, then why would that mentality not directly impact and poison the relationship between you and your audience, as well as your relationship with your art?

but lets put even THAT aside. god there’s so much i could hammer on. i will just focus on audience right now.

1. the quantity of an audience is not proportional to the quality of the audience. i dont think anyone is going to debate with me that the webtoons audience is good lol. this is because the webtoons userbase is comprised almost entirely of random teenagers and adults under 25. this age range is permitted to act like insane hooligans (to an extent) because that’s what the vast majority of us were like in some capacity or another at that age. i frequently hear complaints from creators about how their webtoons audience are frequently ungrateful, irrational, and impatient to them. this is the obvious outcome when two parties, especially parties that are doing business with each other, are shoved together due to algorithmic decisions and not by their own volition. both parties have been robbed of the opportunity of building up a relationship of trust and respect between the artist and the audience. however, building up this relationship takes time. and people want to be be making money as artists right now. presumably.

2. the primary purpose of an audience is not to obtain money from them. at least, dear god, i really hope this is not the idea driving people’s desire to do webcomics as a career. the creators entering the field with this mindset are DOA, straight up. even if you were capable of hiding your odious motivations, whose money are you willing to pursue? would you change your comic if it meant making more money from the audience? do the highest bidders influence the artistic choices being made? is that the relationship you want with your audience? in that case, why not just take furry porn commissions, a field which makes fucking stacks upon stacks of cash? why bother with webcomics and all this extra work?

3. why would an audience of teens and young adults have money to spare? lol for real tho. teens dont often have unfettered access to cash. college age adults are famously deeply in debt to the nightmare state we live in. to jump into this audience with your hands held open is going to result in disappointment when they’ve already prioritized giving what little they have to artists they already know. i dont know what people are expecting with this one. it’s like panning for gold in a swimming pool.

this doesnt even touch on the uglier stuff. but the choice to go all in with webtoon is foolish, selfish, motivated by greed and childish false promises of fame. i do not have any respect for the artists that line up in the hopes that they can simply “jump the line” and skip one of the most, if not the single most, important aspects of a career in art, as though it’s a tutorial mission they are simply too advanced and skilled to sit through. i am not going to feel bad for or comfort the people who saw a company strangling and smothering everything it touches, a company that is subjecting its customers into increasingly more incremental means of payment, a company that has objectively unreasonable demands for the art they host compared to what they pay out, AND WILLINGLY SIGNED ON TO SECURE THEIR OWN BAG.

so that they didnt have to build an audience! the fuck!

my assessment is that to use webtoons is to have a vast amount of disrespect for your audience.

#webtoons #long post/

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artsyaech · 1 year

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okay I love language so I wanted to say: the Icelandic language is so beautiful!!!! Are there any fun facts about it you’d like to share or favorite Icelandic words you have?

ooo imma have a field day with this one!

so fun fact: the icelandic language is the most gendered language i’ve ever come across. i’m making a video essay about it. so basically:

objects have genders “hann stóllinn” (he chair) “hún mjólkin” (she milk) “það sjónvarpið” (it tv) (the translations sound so ridiculous lol) this is similar to french. you know what gender a word is based on its ending, usually. masculine words end with “inn” , feminine with “in” and neutral with “ið”. this is only when a greinir is added to the end (hard to explain).

adjectives also have genders depending on who you’re referring to. “hún er svöng” (she is hungry) “hann er svangur” (he is hungry) “það er svangt” (it is hungry) so if you wanted to use the recently coined pronoun hán, you’d use the same adjectives as you would for the “it” pronoun.

hán was actually put in the dictionary! i think we’re the first country to oficially put a neopronoun in the dictionary. hán is a blend of hún and hann, making it a good gender-neutral pronoun. it also fallbeygst (bends) really well. i’ll explain that better in my video essay

my favorite words… hmm

my favorite name of a place is without a doubt the small town fáskrúðsfjörður because it’s funny to see non-icelandic people say it.

my favorite noun is probably drengur meaning boy, óskasteinn meaning “wishing stone” (it’s an icelandic thing) and spasl/stúss/bauka which basically means… i cant explain it lol @moth-season help?

if you want more icelandic knowledge and want to make lexic terms i’d be happy to help

#aech’s asks #iceland #icelandic language #icelandic

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st5lker · 1 year

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i think its kind of wild how nobody understands what a slur is like from an english language perspective because its really not that hard. people either think slur means any word that can be kind of insulting ever or they'll claim that nothing was ever a slur (except the n word thats the only thing theyll say is a slur because theyre white and so they cant argue that.) when the truth is like so simple.

a slur is a noun used to dehumanize a group. thats it. "gay" was never a slur because its not a noun. nobody was ever called "a gay". i mean a few people will say that but even bigots will look at those people like they dont know english because gay is in all context including homophobic ones an adjective that precedes "person" or "man" or what have you. sometimes people will say "gays" but that doesnt work with the "you dont tell people to tag g slur!" argument because i guarantee you there are zero gay people out there who think that being called "the gays" instead of "gay people" is the more respectful term. but you can just get called a queer. for many people "a queer" is the primary way that word is used. people still get called "queers" all the time by bigots specifically so that they dont have to call them people. that in of itself is why "queers" has a different impact than "queer people" but for years and years "queers" was the primary use of it. thats why "queer studies" sounds particularly close to "studying the queers" to people who have been called that word by people who refuse to use any terms that might insinuate they're a human being. like sure, there are groups of people, primarily lgbt ones, that were introduced to that word primarily used as an adjective that doesnt dehumanize. but that is not all groups of people LOL. and to act like it is is just so incredibly short sighted.

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doeblossom · 2 months

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❓❤️💔💘✨

you've been waiting long enough for these answers lol

original post with prompts

❓ — three adjectives that describe you

creative, friendly, non-confrontational

❤️ — what are some of your best qualities?

idk--my ability to empathize? i try my best to be there for my friends whenever i can (even if i sometimes dont know what to say). im also darn good at keeping things private when need be

💔 — what are some of your worst qualities?

well there's plenty--like my self-consciousness, how easily i'm distracted, oversharing, and taking jokes too far sometimes

but my worst one is my general doormat nature. it gets in the way of a lot of stuff. i once ended up in a friend group that made me extremely uncomfortable--they were fun to be around, but said a lot of uncomfortable things and broke boundaries that i was too scared to set

💘 — what and/or who do you consider near and dear to you?

my friends! and my stuffed animals hehe

i used to go on rambles all the time about how much i love m friends and i am far overdue for one. i might write one within the next couple days if i have the spoons (energy)

✨ — what would you change about yourself, if anything?

my weight/my pickiness

this is an obvious one hehe... i do preach self love and self acceptance a lot, but there are times that stuff like this gets in the way. i feel terrible all the time that i'm the one who has to determine the menu when my friends and i get together. one of my friends even got a food she didnt like just to accommodate me (which i super appreciated but felt terrible for). one of my friends commented on it, that we always get the same thing when we go to the theme park and use my meal plan to get free food. i had to explain that, not only is my safe food shareable, but it's all i can really eat. i still think about it a lot.

i do wish i could change it. i wish i could just squish my body into at least a size L and eat more than four kinds of foods. this has been my whole life, and i spend a lot of time kicking myself over it, no matter how many of my friends tell me it's okay or it's no big deal. i worry that stuff like this makes it difficult to spend time with me. i worry about meeting online friends and them seeing my size, or wanting to go out for food and i order something embarrassingly childish. i think all the time about it; if i get to go on my first date, do i order something i wont/cant eat? do i have to swallow it down just to make him happy? what happens when he sees me dressed my best, and is still unimpressed? what if that's my entire life..?

i love my body and what it does for me. i try to give it the nourishment it needs. i recognize that not everyone find my body gross or anything--but i still wish i could change it, you know?

#tmi thursday #tmi tuesday #ask meme #munday asks

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saintarmand · 11 months

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15 Questions 15 Mutuals

for once i am actually answering one of these things! tagged by @medusadeux

1. Are you named after anyone?

-nah they just thought it fit my vibes or something. they were planning on naming me helena but when i was born my mom was like this bitch looks like a saara. (it looks weird to foreigners with the double a but it's v boring & common in finland. (yes the "saera" in my bio is just targification))

2. When was the last time you cried?

- a couple days ago lol i was trying to explain to my mom that something she did really upset me and she kinda made fun of me. she apologized it's fine lol

3. Do you have kids?

- no, i might like to but i don't think i ever will cause i cant even handle my own shit let alone a whole other person's lmao

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

- only every other sentence

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

- i don't. i did modern dance for a couple years in elementary school and thats it as far as voluntarily moving my body

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

- idk???? whether they seem chill or not ig

7. What's your eye color?

-im going to too many adjectives to describe eye color jail but dark greyish muddled blue-green. it's just that blue-green on its own sounds to me like some sort of bright anime eye i dont have those

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

- depends on the mood

9. Any special talents?

- special? no. i have a good eye for all kinds of visual stuff & allegedly have a brain if only i could get it to focus on anything useful. also ppl are like mindblown i read books and stuff in english despite it not being my native language

10. Where were you born?

- finland & lived here my whole life

11. What are your hobbies?

- tv & movies, reading, video editing (yes i still do this! i just dont finish things.) very rarely i knit

12. Do you have pets?

- i have a black cat named milla she's the light of my life

13. How tall are you?

- 162cm. if you dont know what that means google it yourself ive had to do it too many times

14. Favorite subject in school?

- english (as a foreign language) and also finnish i guess. i liked psychology too

15. Dream job?

- oh god. tv/film director or editor or writer/showrunner. shut up

tagging @saurongirlboss @maniacpixiedreamgirl @marycrawfords @cannibalshiv @brightfelon @blaqueswanza @indifferentvincent @indelicateink @blueiight @lestatslestits @thefairylights @myrskytuuli

#s #tag game

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porcupine-girl · 1 year

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Okay, I am fascinated and I have SO many questions about "it needs [verbed]".

I begin with the basic assumption that there's no right or wrong way to speak a language. And I am not poking fun with any of my questions...I genuinely cant tell what will sound wrong to your ear, and I am just really curious here.

Because it's not just removing the infinitive, it's removing the verb "to be". Once I get a hug, I can say "I am hugged" (or I have been hugged). That's "to be" plus the (I think) past participle? But this form uses the participle without "to be". So is it only "to be" that can be omitted? And is it always omitted before the past participle, or just when it comes after a verb? Or only after certain verbs? Is it just before a participle, or before adjectives as well?

You say, I think, "My workspace needs organized." I would say it needs to be organized. Or, less likely but still possible, my workspace needs organizing. But if it doesn't need it? You'd use the verb "to be" in that case, wouldn't you? You'd say "My workspace is organized", right? Or no?

And what about an adjective, like maybe "careful"?

He needs to be careful? Or he needs careful?

Does it apply with "going to"? I might say, "My workspace is going to be organized." Would you say it differently?

Only slightly related: I worked with a guy who grew up...I don't actually remember where? I want to say Pennsylvania, and since I dont have a good sense of what counts as "midwest" I don't know how relevant this is, but I'll still say it. He said that because there is so much German (or German adjacent) history in the area, people will sometimes use German form in English. The example he used was "Offen the light" for "turn off the light". I wonder if something like that is at play here?

Regional variations are just an incredible wealth of information about the linguistic history of a place??? I would love to know what theories there are about why this exists, and why only there. (You work in a linguistics lab, did you say?? Do you know of any?)

Wow, this ended up as a very long ask. Feel free to disregard, if you dont feel like geeking out about this with me.

LOL This is all so wild because it makes perfect sense to me and it's baffling that it's so complicated to anyone else???

The easiest way to explain is that anytime you would say "X is (past tense verb)" you can replace the "is" with "needs" and it's fine? "This needs organized," "the floor needs vacuumed," etc. Most of your examples/questions outside of that very specific range wouldn't work.

Sometimes "wants" works, but it's rare and sounds odder because "wants" implies agency whereas "x needs to be y" is passive. Like if someone said "the plant wants watered" I wouldn't blink, and I might say it myself, but I wouldn't write it whereas when it's "needs" I do it automatically even in formal writing.

However, "the dogs want out" is fine - do you require the verb "to go" there?? I honestly have no idea!

That happened back in college, I haven't worked in a psycholinguistics lab in decades. I emailed the prof I worked for asking if he knew anything about it and he never replied so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#language #linguistics #pg irl

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harestigm · 2 years

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I’m so trapped. I feel so stubborn and spoiled. Like I’m crying like a child, my face all scrunched up and snot flowing down from my eyes, and my big eyes looking up at a light so big that it encompasses me fully. My hands are grabbing so vigorously onto the hem of my shirt. And my knees are dirty from crawling on them all the time. My hair is in big puffy twists with flower and bow braids at the end. And every time I moved them they made a passive clicks sound. I’m told I was bossy, a perfectionist, determined, outgoing. I think it was the internet that happened that changed me. Not tik tok I don’t think, but YouTube, TV, outside, and then tik tok, or musical.ly lol. It made me want to be all sorts of things. I want to go back to that middle space where I wasn’t aware. But even then I didn’t really have a set personality. But even then I didn’t really exist. But even then I still didn’t see myself.

That light, the light that encases me. It could be anything. I wish I could draw it, I could try. But I have so many images in my head it’s hard to picture. Oh and I’m so tired.

I never cried loudly I don’t think. After, I mean. And I think I really became an attention seeker when my parents argued and I’d start crying because I wanted them stop, but I also knew I would be consoled. I can’t think of a lot of times where I was comforted. And that makes parts of us angry and jealous at ourselves because we should remember because that was very important, and we can’t say “oh our parents didn’t console us after each round of WWE they played” and what if this isn’t the right road to go down. What if my life really isn’t as bad as I’m making it out to be. Parts of me think this is overrated, others are tired of being caged. I think I’m tired of being caged. I think I’m tired of wanting, I think I’m tired. I think I’m really really tired.

Now when I cry, it’s either silent, or it’s loud, and there’s no in between, and both of them last awhile. The loud ones make me think I’m dying, my lipid get supper chapped from too much and not enough air. The silent one isn’t any coughs or screams or tantrums. Just quiet, nothing if not a sniffle. And my therapist always makes it a point to let me know that everything I’m going through is not unique or special in any way.

I’m so selfish, and inconsiderate, inconvenient, disrespectful, rude, liar, attention seeker, faker, wanter, haver, spoiled, no good, and all these other adjectives that I can’t think of but know I am. And I could blame it on “my trauma” I guess, but it’s not even really trauma, I think I just wanted a reason to hate my family. Which I don’t understand, why would I hate them? I love them, they love me. Love is sacrifice. My life is not just me life. And I’m very selfish. I’m so tired, and I can’t get a grasp on who I am, it’s my cousins birthday, and I’m getting my makeup done tomorrow, and I can’t stop crying. I’m so selfish. I’m so horrible. I cant. I don’t know what to do anymore I don’t know what’s going on I don’t want to do this anymore I’m so tired. I’m such a child.

#tw vent #tw abuse #tw suicide #vent tw #tw cursing #cursing tw #tw religion #tw trauma #tw mention of suicide #tw suicide mention #tw christianity #tw repetition #I don’t know what’s going on and I don’t know how to feel about it

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eirian · 1 month

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back at it again with the trying to figure out a name to go by online outside of my art business.. an internet nickname.. i just think itd be fun and also slightly reduce the risk i face by using my honest to god actual name on social media lmfao

i have a few contenders but some of them are like...character names? and while im not 100% OPPOSED to using a character name i also feel like if i used one id feel inclined to like..take on a persona that reflected that character bc of the name? for example id love to go by scourge, its a kickass name for a kickass character who i love very much. but also if i went by scourge id 100% feel the need to give my persona green hair, sunglasses, and a leather jacket LMFAO. i dont want to fall into kinnie territory again im done w that

so i guess im thinking of more "neutral" names, definitely noun names bc i love those (or even adjectives/adverbs depending??? idk. i just know i dont want a traditional Name name), but also ones that sound Cool. scourge is one of those but again itd be because of the character and i dont wanna go down that road in that way again 😔

moss was a good start but it didnt click like i thought it would/hoped it would even after trying it on for a while. i am still considering soda, but the only thing holding me back from that one fully is that it's also my fursona's name and i kinda wanna keep that associated with my fursona :/a itd be confusing for me to go by soda and also have my fursona go by soda... i know ppl use their actual names for their sonas sometimes too but it doesnt vibe with me for mine lol

im very envious of ppl who have found their noun names and stuck with them because i do see them like..a lot, and i have for a long time. a few that come to mind are splash, blue, flighty, moon, fire, and spy (if you know you know). names like that really appeal to me

right now the only one i have besides scourge and soda is something like frontiers?? or maybe even just frontier. i cant super tell which one feels better to me yet, if i were to use it.. but all i know is that it feels like its going in the Right direction. i can feel myself getting closer to a noun name that i really really vibe with but its juuuust out of reach rn

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flovverworks · 2 months

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hold on im rereading (skimming thro) owens affection story and the way cain first went 'whats up do u wanna grab a meal?' and then akira (who has been watching) approaches owen like 'hello how have u been do u want to eat together..' LOOOOOLLL

also i know this gets brought up early pt2 alrdy when akira speaks to vincent, but akira calling all of the wizards by name (and heathcliff heath etc) but using miss for canary. lord. also the way akira starts thinking everyones handsome nonstop and brings in a billion 'this person is so pretty' adjectives in every other sentence LIKE U RLY DONT HAVE TOOOOOO <-person who thinks its hilarious. i sometimes go 'please understand' when i have akira think someones handsome Once. i need to upgrade it to ten times

Akira: I’m taking notes on everyone here in case I suddenly have to return to my world. That includes you too, Owen.... Could you tell me more about yourself? Owen: I was killed by you. Akira: Eh...!? Owen’s delicate lips twist at my exclamation. Owen: What would you do if that was the case? What if your memories from your other world were all false? What if you were a criminal in this world? Alternatively, what if your lover was someone you happened to hate? What if I was your lover?

completely normal conversation. but also owen who only seems pleased if akiras annoyed when owen says he hates them,,

Owen: What are you trying to accomplish? Owen’s irritation catches on to me, and I begin to feel irritated and sad. Akira: Then fine. I don’t care anymore. If you’re not going to talk about yourself, I’ll never understand you. And next time Mithra is about to find out about your injury, I won’t know what to do, so. I’ll leave you alone. Bye.

THIS IS THE PART IM OBSESSED WITHHHHHHHH GUY WHOS BEEN TRYING NONSTOP TO BEFRIEND SOMEONE LETS THE BAD MOOD AFFECT THEM the second part wording is ssooooo bad too LOLLLL theyre so annoyed i love it sm. but also this being the time when owen accepts talking to them,,,despite also being rly annoyed,,

but also akira like Just having owen agree to their request, immediately saying 'ya i thought ur room would be strange' and trying his bed is so funny. 'i finally realize why i cant bring myself to hate owen' oughhh but also both akira & owen sitting there confused while owens trying to talk abuot himself LOL i like them so much. i think theyre rly neat

reading mithras too, and the way oz is like 'why would i do that' but then akira asks and hes like '...i guess since the sage is asking..' LOOOL

Akira: Ah... Mithra, it looks like you have a visitor. Mithra: You get the door. You’re capable of that much, right? Akira: (He’s just non-stop snark right now....) Ye~s, who is it?

this fkng interaction skull emoji (laughed) 'mithra u should say thank u too' like a mother....

anyway the way mithra talks about tiretta,,,,,,'only just said goodbye to her 10 or so years ago' T_^ (also thinks its funny/endearing how he says the twins said she was like his mother while mithra says she was more of a master/comrade/little sister<-especially the last one makes me laugh. i lov tiretta

My lips curve upwards, and I can’t help but stroke Mithra’s hair. Mithra doesn’t resist. Akira: I can sort of understand why people want to pat you on the head, Mithra. Mithra: Okay..... Is that so. Akira: It’s like when you’re next to a wild beast that you usually don’t see around. It makes you want to touch him while you can..... Mithra: You’re treating me like a rare animal...... Mithra rolls onto his other side. In the next moment, Mithra leaps up, pins me down, and bites my shoulder. Akira: Gya....ah! Mithra: Ahaha. I scream, and Mithra laughs. Apparently he only pretended to bite me. But I had prepared myself for death, so my heart won’t stop pounding. Akira: (What the heck goes on in his mind..... Was he playing around with me because I called him a beast? I thought I was going to die.....)

THIS PAAAARRTTTTTTT IM ALSO OBSEESED WITH 'i had prepared myself for death' JKADBKAD I THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME. guy who doesnt act like both owen & mithra could easily kill them

also what da hell was the next part about. when akira can wish that mithra wouldnt do things thatd make ppl misunderstand & dislike him. also oz giving tips to akira on how to make mithra sleep but its just ways to make kids sleep,,,,,the dad,,,

#stardust speaking !#i need to reread more of these. cuz i rmbrd arthurs and his 'yes sometimes i edit books because theyre wrong about oz:]'#and akira sitting there like. person who has heard multiple ppl say oz went for world domination w/ figaro trying to find a way to tell his #son that his gentle sweet dad kind of Did do that actually #LIKE I RMBR READING IT AND BOTH ME AND AKIRA GOING O_O LIKE WHAT A THING TO THROW ON THE READER #also i forgot owen even brings up that 'what if' scenario. theres surely more ive forgotten in these #god akira getting annoyed with owen is truly everything to me 'ok whatever i wont help u next time since i wont know what to do bye'#MY GUUUYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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crazyw3irdo · 4 years

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so there’s the seven birds in taz and seven hargreeves siblings in tua... has anyone done something with this yet or...

cmon guys they both have a Dramatic Gay haunted by their dead sibling, big strong man with romantic problems, girl who was more powerful than they thought that nearly caused the end of the world, a short and chaotic yet smart leader, a dude who’d be a lot more useful if he was more focused on their missions (and if he were less horny), and a smart yet under appreciated person trying their best with love as a major motivator

#i know klaus is pan im just using gay in a bit of an umbrella term way (no pun or rhyme intended)#taz balance #taz #tua #the adventure zone #the umbrella academy #cmon their names are sorta similar! the [adjective thats not really an adjective] [location]#the umbrella zone! the adventure academy! how have i never seen any crossovers or aus about this #their seven bird names could also be their superhero names- nevermind ‘the lonely journal keeper’ doesnt really work. ‘the twins’ is a #little weird too. if the hargreeves were the birds (the umbrella zone) their relics would probably be different. i mean ben doesnt strike me #as a phoenix fire gauntlet kind of guy. it’d probably be linked to their powers. i dont think theyd have them in this au- like theyd be d&d #classes not superheros- but their relics would be reminescent of their og powers. like klaus’s relic would bring back the dead and vanya’s #would be a violin etc. the IPRE in tua (the adventure academy) would probably have the same powers as their counterparts tho. idk what kind #of powers they’d have otherwise. maybe lup with fire and merle with plants but other than those two? im not giving barry pants powers lmao.#the comission is the hunger!! i know that based on my current roles for them five is davenport and diego is merle but im not sure if i’d #want diego to have the meetings with the handler instead of five. its just... i keep thinking of fifty shades of green and i cannot picture #five doing that so i cant justify just changing their roles. then again this does mean five can only say ‘five!’ and is a weird butler but.#idk it makes more sense than him being merle to me. i guess instead of the handler john could be lila? since merle was so friendly w john i #guess it’d make sense for five not to go to the meetings lol. yknow davenport having most of his memories erased sorta lines up with five #getting stuck as a teen too... also like. lup is literally trapped in an umbrella. the connections are mocking me.

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elysianslove · 3 years

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so after reading the sub megumi x yuuji x reader drabble i cant help but think about how megumi def is a switch and he kinda comes to a lil and realizes whats going on and flips the table on the reader and yuuji and yeah.... imma just sit in this corner😁

omg pls i love switch dynamics so much😭😩

pls megumi is SUCH a switch. i just know he’d able to dominate and control both you and yuuji so easily, you’ll be cowering beneath his gaze and obeying everything. ugh anyways here’s a drabble bc im weak for this dynamic and everything about it

trigger warnings; d/s dynamics, choking, sex toys, orgasm denial, threesome stuff, possible grammar and spelling mistakes lol

“you think this shit is funny?”

funny isn’t the adjective you’d use to describe you and yuuji’s situation at the moment, or megumi’s state either, but if it’s the word that will make megumi’s words bite harsher, sting deeper, then you’re tempted. awfully so.

you’re on your knees, the hard wood of the floor digging into your skin painfully. you’re already feeling humiliated enough as is, body naked and trembling in the cold of the room, goosebumps riddling your breasts and nipples perky and hard, that you can’t find it in you to complain.

similarly, yuuji sits to your left on his knees, but his state is much worse than yours. he’s been reduced to tears, sniffling and chest heaving as his lungs race to catch a steady breath. his thighs and abs are spasming, and his entire body is endlessly shivering. his chest, along with his neck and face, is flushed red, and you don’t blame him, not with what he’s been enduring. yuuji’s lower lip trembles and quivers, and he nearly doubles over as a buzzing fills the room. his hands are bound behind his back tightly, so much that you can see his arms bulge and strain as he pulls and struggles lightly. the buzzing increases in speed and volume, and in response, yuuji throws his head back, wailing loudly, his back arching as he pushes himself up on his knees.

you watch, entranced, as yuuji’s cock bobs desperately, thick and leaking pathetically. from above you, where he sits on the bed right across from you, megumi tuts, and spreads his legs wider. you can see the bulge straining against the navy blue formal trousers, his cock borderline twitching at the sight of you, on your knees so obedient, and yuuji, so desperate for him.

“yuuji, settle down,” megumi dismisses, as if bored and exasperated.

yuuji howls, sniffing loudly as he forces himself on his knees. “can’t,” he cries. “please, fuck, let me cum. please, please, megumi, please.”

megumi cocks his head to the side, as if barely sparing either of you any thought, and his deadpan, unimpressed expression makes you clench your thighs, embarrassed to feel the slick coating them. finally, after a few moments of yuuji’s broken moaning, megumi sighs, and turns to you. “sit on his cock,” he instructs, and you don’t even think twice before you’re scrambling up and crawling towards yuuji. he turns to yuuji next, and adds, “cum before she does and i won’t be so nice.”

yuuji’s whimper dissolves into a small whine and sob, but he still nods helplessly, he still lowers himself onto his ass, spreading his legs to allow you to sit more comfortably on his lap. the vibrator inside him shifts, but it’s buzzing has been reduced significantly, mercifully, thankfully, so much that when you quickly rush to sink down on him, he’s able to bite down a whimper.

your slippery cunt barely brushes against the flushed head of his cock when a large hand slips into your hair, twisting and knotting and gripping it so harshly and pulling you back that your head tilts back, forcing you to face up. you’re met with megumi’s glare, a disappointed grimace on his lips.

“don’t hurt yourself, stupid slut,” he warns, releasing your hair a little so that your head tilts forward again. his fingers remain in your hair though, and beneath you, yuuji looks at the both of you with stars in his eyes. “you’re this hungry for cock?” he sighs, but the soothing pat of his hand against your head as you slowly grind your cunt along the tip of yuuji’s cock is praise enough. “slow, slow— slow.”

you do as he says, head falling back to glance at him as yuuji’s cock finds your entrance, nodding and whimpering while you sink down as slow as you can manage. megumi maintains eye contact with you, gaze only faltering to glance at yuuji and between you where your cunt is swallowing the pink haired boy’s cock. bit by bit, yuuji fills you up, and god it’s such a stretch. you can tell you’re too tight, by the way you’re endlessly spasming and clenching around the thick cock, by the way yuuji’s hips barely, just barely, lift up, by the way his muscles strain and tense.

while you loved the harsh treatment megumi provides you, the mean tugs and the humiliating words and the stinging slaps, yuuji thrived off of praise. the threat from earlier rings loud and clear in his ears, and it takes his all not to cum the moment you sit all pretty and full on his lap.

and it all shatters when megumi’s other hand reaches over around you, grasping at your throat and squeezing so tightly that you moan terribly loud and clench down awfully around yuuji. it’s so unexpected and sudden that yuuji is given not one second to process anything before his eyes are rolling back and he’s spilling inside of your tight cunt. it’s sudden for you too, the feel of him coating your inner walls so sloppily, and you gasp.

megumi’s hand tightens around your throat angrily as cum spills down yuuji’s cock, oozes from your cunt and drips onto his lap.

“you never learn do you?”

yuuji’s still trembling from the aftershocks, sighing and delirious, his eyelids fluttering and soft moans tumbling from his lips. you feel your clit throb— god, you might cum just as simply too.

at yuuji’s unresponsive state, megumi snarls, pushing your head back again and ordering you, “use his cock; i don’t care if it’s soft. make yourself cum.”

his words send yuuji in a frenzy, and the latter sits up straighter again, his eyes widening. “wait!”

but you’ve already starting moving.

“fuck— fuck, m’sensitive— fuck!”

megumi’s lightly praising you, ignoring yuuji’s cries and begging, as you ride yuuji’s half hard cock, bouncing on his lap eagerly.

“can i—” your voice cracks as you feel your body tense up and your limbs start to lock. “can i touch myself— pleasepleaseplease.”

yuuji’s loudly crying now, noisily wailing and sobbing as you use him, watching with hazy eyes as you ride him. “so, so pretty,” he mumbles in a low voice, breath catching in his throat as you meet his eyes.

megumi’s voice is shockingly and unexpectedly close as he whispers, “yeah, go on, touch yourself.”

as your hand quickly lowers to between your thighs, yuuji’s mouth falls agape, and his hands tighten into fists. the pain from his sensitivity is bleeding into pleasure, especially with how sloppy and tight your cunt is around him, wet from your arousal and his cum from his previous orgasm. as you rub at your clit, furiously and messily, yuuji’s hips start to rise to meet yours, while megumi’s hands lower to your breasts, tugging and pinching at your nipples.

your eyes cross as you babble, “gonna cum— please, can i cum? can i cum— ugh— fuck,” and megumi’s lean fingers pinch harder.

“what do you think, yu?” he wonders lazily, casting a glance at yuuji. the pink haired boy stares up at him dumbfounded, his eyes falling to you momentarily, pained and desperate, before they fly back up to meet megumi’s again. “think she should cum?”

yuuji’s nods are slow and careful, and he hears you sigh and sag a little in relief while megumi hums in amusement, before the latter twists his head towards you, and whispers, “well, go on then.”

as if you’ve been trained for years on this, the band within you snaps upon his command, and your legs shake helplessly on yuuji’s lap, your tits bouncing as your body shakes. around yuuji’s cock, your cunt spams and creams, and above him, your eyes roll back and your mouth parts, your back arching. megumi’s voice is distant, as is yuuji’s whimpering, and it’s only when megumi’s lifting you up from yuuji’s lap as if you were merely a rag doll do you realize yuuji’s cock had hardened fully.

you’re tossed on the bed, but not in the direction you’ve expected, with your head near the edge instead of the pillows. still recovering from your strong orgasm, you don’t properly process what’s happening until you see the two boys on either side of you, and until you hear megumi say in warning, “you cum last,” before you feel his cock nudge at your sensitive cunt, and yuuji’s sloppy and cum covered cock brush against your lips.

holy shit is tonight going to be long.

end note; okay i actually don’t know if that’s good or not but i hope it’s as good as it seems in my head hvwjsjdhw and i hope y’all enjoyed 😼

#itadori yuuji smut #megumi x reader smut #itadori yuuji x reader #fushiguro megumi smut #fushiguro megumi x reader #itadori x reader x fushiguro #yuuji x reader x megumi #jjk poly #sal’s thirst tag <3

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bugambilias · 5 years

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i feel so stupid because i was stuck with just one idea about my career but going into uni made me realize i didnt know shit and it’s just more complex that what i thought and im just a stupid dumbass who just wasted a year because i couldnt just research a little bit more before making the biggest decision of my life lmfao but whatever

#i just want to finish this semester and stop going into classes where i dont understand anything and i had to stop myself from crying every #single class and i hate my life so much i really hate it i wish i could just not wake up tomorrow lol i cant believe this is really happen+#happening to me what did i do wrong please can somebody answer me #i literally cant hear the word architecture again i feel so sad and disappointed when i hear it and i used to love it but now its just gonna #remind me of this period of my life of feeling so useless and stupid and lost and every negative adjective i can think of

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wickymicky · 4 years

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(((also the romanization of sunmi's 보라빛 밤 has me going ??????)))

it’s definitely an interesting way to do it lol

in that phrase, two of the ㅂs are actually pronounced like ㅃ, as far as i know, but the first one isnt lol. i know for sure that the b in bam is pronounced like pp, since it follows the t in bit. borabitbam = borabitppam. and then im pretty sure that the b in bit is pronounced like a pp as well, for a more complicated reason.

korean used to make a lot of compounds using ㅅ (s), though that suffix isnt productive anymore. that means that it’s not used in the formation of new words, though it still exists in a lot of older words and people still know what it means. like the english noun suffix -th in words like “depth” (from deep), “width” (from wide), “growth” (from grow), etc. we know that those words are abstract nouns relating to those adjectives or verbs, but we can’t form new words using -th. sexy is a more modern word, and you cant say “sexyth” haha, that’s nothing. the productive suffix we use nowadays is usually -ness, so like... sexiness. there you go. anyway lol so this ㅅ suffix is not productive anymore, but it’s still recognized in a lot of compounds. it links two words together, and like you can kinda think of it like the english ‘s that we use to mark possession. a native korean word for sun is 해 (hae), and light is 빛 (bit), and sunlight isnt 해빛 (haebit), it’s 햇빛 (haetbit). think of that like saying hae-s bit, or “the sun’s light” rather than just “sunlight”. the ㅅ turns into a t at the end of the syllable, but like that’s one of the first things you learn when you learn hangeul, so you probably knew that lol. when a b follows a t, it’s pronounced like pp (same goes for g, d, and j, which are pronounced like kk, tt, and jj in that context).

but like, the ㅅ suffix isnt always written nowadays, even though it’s there sometimes. another word using 빛 that has that suffix but, unlike haetbit, doesnt write it, is 눈빛 (nunbit), meaning like... it’s kinda hard to translate lmao but like the gleam in one’s eyes, or their glare, or it feels like sometimes it’s just like a poetic way to say “eye contact” in kpop songs haha (though it’s probably a common enough word outside of song lyrics too). nunbit isnt written with ㅅ, but it’s pronounced with that suffix. it’s not pronounced nunbit, with a full regular b-sound, it’s pronounced nunppit. long ago maybe they would have written it 눈ㅅ빛 (but with the ㅅ in the same part of the block as the ㄴ, like other consonants can be, like ㄶ). in that word, it’s like saying “eye’s light”. i think borabit is also like this, pronounced like borappit. there’s no reason it can’t be boratbit, it just like... isnt, lol. im not sure if borabit is an established word or not, but it seems like the general rule of thumb is that compounds with 빛 tend to be pronounced as if there was also the ㅅ suffix, whether or not it’s actually there in the spelling. i mean in haetbit you actually pronounce the t, whereas in nunbit and i assume borabit you would not (you would just pronounce b as pp), even in careful enunciation. (it means purple light, of course, btw)

i could be wrong about this!!!!!!!! since borabit doesnt seem like the kind of word you’d include in a dictionary, i cant find reliable ways to seek out someone pronouncing it in a really clear way, but to my ear entering 보라빛 밤 in google translate and having the korean text-to-speech voice say it out loud makes it sound like it’s a pp, but like since it’s like a robot voice i mean it’s hard to make out, lol.

either way, the b in bam is definitely pronounced like pp there, and the b in bora definitely isnt lol. sunmi probably chose that romanization just for fun. the b in bora would be pronounced close to the english p sound, but i just mean that it wouldnt be the distinctive korean tense ㅃ sound. those tense consonants are interesting, i like them a lot, and i dont have as much trouble recognizing them when i hear them as i thought i would when i first started to learn about korean. they’re one of my favorite quirks about the korean language lol

#kpop linguistics #sunmi #see????? if you give me a prompt i will infodump like nobody's goddamn business #most of this is like moderately common knowledge...#its not like something everyone knows about but its something you'll encounter a lot so #anyway i just had to explain all that in order to say why the b in bit might be a pp #long post #Anonymous

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1, 4, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 13, 15, 17, 20, 23, 29, 38 😘❤️ Hope you’re having a wonderful day!

Hi mimi thank you so much for all the questions!!! This is gonna be really long lol - also, sorry it took a while, Tumblr kept glitching and erasing EVERYTHING

1. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them? Oh my god SO MANY! I have roughly 50 works in progress, and so many more ideas running through my head - I just haven't had the energy or the time lately to actually work on them. One that keeps coming back to me is Sam and Danny chilling in bed on a lazy Saturday, after a sleepover, and Sam announces that if they had sex, it would be the best either of them ever experienced. They debate for a while, and of course end up getting it on... it'll happen someday.

4. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic. There's a lot of fluff and heartfeltwords; I try to keep it lighthearted too, though, and throw in what I hope is some funny stuff; smut of course, or at least some kissing; metaphors and figurative language galore. I feel like I'm still very much trying to find my voice and my style, so I think my fics differ a lot in their styles, but there are things that I generally like.

5. Share one of your strengths. Hmm, I was going to say that I know how grammar works (that feels rude but- ) actually I'm going to say that I always turn out things that I really enjoy. That may be more of a personal strength - i.e. it only matter to me - but if I post something I am satisfied (enough) with it. I like my work! I write what I want, even with requests, and I put my all into my writing because I want it to be such good quality that it would make me squeal if I came across it.

7. Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

"Dude, that's disgusting."

Danny just smiled at Josh, showing off a rather gross mouthful of mangled food, and kept eating his pineapple pizza.

"Seriously, pineapple doesn't belong on pizza. Can't you just eat regular toppings like the rest of us?"

Danny shook his head and swallowed. "Nuh-uh, I can't. I'm not like the rest of you."

"Hmm, you know, you're right: you're not like the rest of us. It's way hotter in the Wagner corner." Josh looked at him coyly, licking BBQ sauce from his chicken wings off of his fingertips.

Danny froze and Josh laughed, using a napkin to scrub away the rest of the sauce and continuing to messily eat his 'regular' pizza. Danny shook his head, closing the lid of his box to save the rest for later.

Idk if anyone other than @satans-helper would be interested in Josh and Danny (like, together, or at least flirting) but.... I thought this was good. It was fun to write - still not anywhere near done, though - and I think it captures them pretty well. I think dialogue is good when the characters speak for themselves, literally, without having to rely completely on prose to give it meaning.

8. Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

"The bass pumped through Sam in the same rhythm as his cannabis-speckled blood, sludgey warmth crawling in his veins as he took a second hit of the blunt being passed around. Hidden away from the eyes of management constantly trying to tighten the reins, as if they weren't rock stars in - or perhaps even before - their prime, he let the dark corner he and a few new acquaintances occupied be his cover from an eventual scolding."

Let this be a little teaser for the Collab Zara and I are doing (!!!) lol. I think it's some of my best writing; lyrical but not too long as I'm learning how to do it right, offering information with every little part, setting the scene in a concise but not info-dump way, some bit of irony and humor.

9. Which fic has been the hardest to write? Ohhh man, well there have definitely been MANY that I've gotten stuck on for months, if not over a year -- but, the finished fic that was hardest was probably "Forever", to be totally honest. I think it turned t out very well, but I revised over and over and over, and scrapped a very large portion of it. I know what I wanted, but it wasn't coming for a very long time.

10. Which fic has been the easiest to write? "Blood Brothers". It just flowed so well, I sat and types furiously in my phone for a good 3 hours without stopping, and it was born.

13. What’s the best writing advice you’ve ever come across? There's quite a few pieces that I always think of: write what you want to read, adjectives and adverbs slow the pace (learned this recently and it's very handy), sometimes straight-forward is best, don't be afraid to scrap things and start over.

15. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose? Oh man, that's a hard choice. I think that "Eyes of Juniper" (metallica fic, not finished 😔) would actually be the best choice, because it's funny, I would love to see the guys in the 80s, and, while it deals with bodies/nudity/sexuality it wouldn't be a straight up porn film lol.

17. Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order? A mix of both, I think it just depends on how my ideas are flowing. If I'm really on a roll and know I won't be interrupted, then I'll just write it chronologically. But, if I have a small idea, or I know how I want to end but dont know how to begin, then I'll just start writing something. I'm always afraid I'll forget what I want if I don't write it down, so I work on what I'm able to and fill in the rest later.

20. Describe your perfect writing conditions. Well, I usually end up doing the most of my writing hunched over sitting on me bed in the dark and furiously typing on my phone lmao. I would love to get a laptop and a dedicated space, but it's just not gonna happen rn. So, I'll go with dark, undisturbed, comfortable

23. If you were to revise one of your older fics from start to finish, which would it be and why? there are quite a few that I can look back at and be like noooo what was I doing. I think, though, one that could be really really amazing if revised would be "Black Dog", a guns n roses fic I wrote. It was good, but one of my firsts. My style has improved, and I think I could just make it a lot better, and the dialogue at the end could be a lot more clear and realistic sounding

29. If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose? Oh mannnn there are so many fics that have made me want to somehow write/find more, I'll go with "Angel of Apple Valley" (pairing: Duzzy fandom: gnr, on rockfic, I cant find it rn though sorry). It was so amazing and I still think about it. I don't think I could do anywhere near justice to the original, so of course I wouldnt actually, but I just really want more

38. Talk about a review that made your day. Ohhh ok pretty much every review makes me suoer hapoy, but the lovely helena_s_renn left me a comment on Ch. 4 of "Skin on Skin, Hearts Laid Bare" and it nearly made me cry

"Girl, I think you've discovered your voice. This has an intensity beyond any of your other work that I've read thus far (not saying the previous isn't good - it is!!). I was glued to my phone by the eyes, didn't want it to end, and yet it did in what seemed like 5 seconds. Danny's acceptance of Sam's physical needs without asking anything more of him than "just sleep with me" is love. On that subject, I think you've thrown more words at the wellspring of Sanny Love from Sam's perspective than one would have thought possible, and they all ring true."

Like, holy shit thanks?!?! Lol. But really, I've been seriously trying to find my style, and to hear this from one of the writers I respect the most was huge. I felt like a favorite teacher was giving me a hug and telling me i did good!!!

#mimi🌼#asks #asks answered #im sorry this qas really long

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