#but i still daydream about them.

[fandxmslxt69]

Gasp! You have OCs? And I didn’t know?!?!?! :O

Well, now I gotta know everything about them!!! But, just to make your life easier, how about we stick to basic introductions?

So, 1 and 2 for the OC asks!!! :D

HELLO MY LOVELY :D the way i threw aside my book soooo fast (ok not threw. put aside quickly and with the intent of completing a mission)

i have. So Many OCs its not even funny lmao

I LOVE THEM ALL SO SO MUCH!!!!

a lot of them started off as just like Very Specific Readers and then I was like oh fuck it I CAN DO WHAT I WANT (one made her way into being the lead in my novel with many adjustments but her spirit lives on lmao)

OKAY !!! i have many but lets focus on my #1 gal

What’s their full name? Why was that chosen? Does it mean anything?

Okay do I have a full name for my girl? No i dont,but that's okay :D um, her name is Dahlia and she is my baby my favourite child ever. It's an arabic name (bc of course it is) and it means flower. It's not a very common name but its cute and it just has such a nice ring to it....

I mostly picked it because I was like "oh my god i need an arabic name that is not the most generic basic ass name ever" and it came about and now I can't see her as any other name!!! its fitting to her now that I think about it? She just. blossoms.

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

Umm she's a prodigy, dunno if I would call that a TITLE. but to her man she is nothing but A Queen. no fr, um, in my mind and in the like 2 pieces of actual character plot I sat down to WRITE for her, she gets a PhD so she has the title of Doctor though she only uses it to abuse her power. she's used to the usual Miss/Ma'am that everyone is accustomed to using

#oh my god can you tell im just rambling #i think abt her every single day but i have exactly 3 sentences abt her written down on a google doc #asnyway i never even mantioned what she's for #im slowly chipping away at the ice berg that is my very long Loki series and i was like #why not make her The Shit and so i did #so she's become my main lead. will her & Loki's story ever see the light of day? PROBABLY NOT #but i still daydream about them. #clem talks <3

[cookie-nom-nom]

It is Link’s sworn duty to locate ancient awe-inspiring relics from thousands of years ago brimming with history and potential, and then to break these ancient potteries so that Zelda can put them back together like little jigsaw puzzles. It’s enrichment for her archeology hyperfixation.

#Is this something she asked him to do? #Did link simply assume this is what would make her happy? #Either way Zelda swings her legs and props a chin in her hand and restructures them while daydreaming about ancient history #the legend of zelda #zelda #link #tears of the kingdom #totk zelda #totk link #zelink #zelda x link #I still stand by it they’re both autistic #something to nom on

[iztarshi]

One thing about 87!Donatello's occasional desire to be a normal turtle is, it's worrying, but it's not suicide adjacent the way it would be for any other Donatello.

The context in which he starts to think about it is one where they've pursued a newly mutated sumo gerbil (yes, seriously) back to the petshop where it was trying to break in so it could "go home". When the unstable mutation wears off it's happy to be shut back in its cage and Donatello thinks he recognises the petshop as the one where the turtles were originally sold.

For the gerbil being given sudden sapience isn't a gift or the beginning of its existence as a person, it's a weird and scary thing that left it adrift in a world it didn't understand and that didn't understand it. Having it wear off is a happy ending. After all, if a human was turned into a dragon and given massively expanded intelligence, a thousand year lifespan, and the power of flight and fire, but still wanted to go back to being human that would be understandable.

Donatello remembers being a turtle - his sense of his own identity doesn't start with sapience - so seeing another animal unmutate and be happy when he's unhappy with nearly but not quite fitting into the human world makes him thoughtful.

There's still a lot he does and enjoys that a turtle couldn't do! And most of the time (such as when being threatened with de-mutation by Shredder) he doesn't want to go back to being a helpless turtle. But there is that lingering feeling that he might fit into the world better (and be liked by humans better) if he was simply a turtle they could keep as a pet.

#87 turtles #something there that's not #what if I didn't exist #but what if I was less #smaller #less smart #quieter #Donatello already tries a lot of the time to soften himself #he talks gently and is still often too blunt #because he doesn't know which things about what he says are upsetting #so maybe being a cute pet is the ultimate softening? #but then when he daydreams about a society of turtle people instead of being an animal #he thinks of them being able to 'stand tall' #...so I guess that's a sign Splinter redirected him in a healthier direction? #a place where he can be himself instead of a himself that he can be here without censure

[hekateinhell]

R63 human au where Lestat begs Armand to let her go down on her while she’s on her period 🥹

I feel like when I think about it, it's Armand doing it to Lestat because in my head, Lestat's almost always such a pillow princess! And Armand's a stone cold service top — she lives to please. And in the AU they established these dynamic early on when Armand would (literally) pursue Lestat after the classes they shared and pull her into an empty room, yank down her panties, and eat her out without saying a word. All before they ever actually had a proper conversation.

So I'm imagining Lestat getting her period once they're "properly" dating, and she's an absolutely miserable whiny mess. Achy and crying and extremely temperamental and argumentative (seriously... imagine Lestat with a period. I dare you). Armand knows that orgasms help with cramps and she just wants to soothe her pretty bratty princess and get her to shut the hell up, so she gets up and silently retrieves some towels and lays them out on the bed before summoning Lestat to strip all the way, yes, all the way, down.

Prior to getting with Armand, Lestat has had a lot of sex, she's a slut and proud of it (as she should be 🥰), but it's mostly been of the vanilla variety so she hasn't really had a chance to explore her kinks or be introduced to new ones.

Armand isn't always physically aggressive in bed (although it does come out when she's feeling possessive) but she is very domineering and when Lestat hesitates, Armand kisses her cheek and walks her to the bed before pushing her down and making quick work of her pants, panties, and pad. Ass on the towel, knees up and legs spread. Armand is so dedicated, and she absolutely takes advantage of how extra overly sensitive Lestat's nipples and clit are when she's on her cycle. It's a mess and Armand is just enough of a kinky freak to romanticize consuming the blood from her girlfriend's womb. 🥹 And of course Lestat's so sweet and cuddly after she's cum no less than five times in 45 minutes, at least twice on the strap-on.

Good for her.

Also, separately — I want genderswapped vampires but Lestat is simulating the act of eating out Armand on her period, like biting her tongue and pushing the blood into Armand's pussy and licking and sucking it back up while nicking Armand's clit with her fangs (I wanna work it into the sapphic L/A fic that's been vibing in docs for months now, pray for us).

#i love them your honor #i actually had to stew on this one for a couple days i might not act like it but i take my smut so seriously lmao #it fits in so nicely into a lesbian college AU i've been daydreaming about for a while not really a fic plot just blorbo thoughts yk #i'm sorry if there's typos my headaches have been so bad but i really do still want to talk to you guys :((( #tw: periods #armand/lestat #genderswapped vc #you ask and hekate answers

[ox1-lovesick]

hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow) #is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER) #I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

[v3il]

systems with MaDD how do i tell if the 'conversations in my daydreams' are just alters communicating??? 😭

#like ik an obvious answer is 'if u cant control them theyre alters' but im already dissociating 99% of the time when im daydreaming #so i wont exactly be thinking about that until afterwards kfjdhf #so i wanna know like. the specifics ig #ive always had a feeling some past daydreams were rlly just alter interactions in the innerworld but its still hard 2 tell most times hhhh #srry if this doesnt make sense lol its late #claudia.txt #did #did system #dissociative identity disorder #endos dni #osdd #osdd system #osdd1b #system #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd #did questions #system questions

[nerves-nebula]

Idk about your intentions, and feel free to ignore me if I’m wrong, but Mikey sounds like a maladaptive daydreamer lol.

Just some background, maladaptive daydreamers use these huge fictional worlds called paracosms to escape reality. Some people do it because of anxiety or stress, but some do it as like a coping mechanism (which is how I’d see Mikey doing it based on your dissociation post) People with maladaptive daydreaming can stim while doing it, like rocking back and forth, pacing, etc, but some can master the art of being able to sit still and just daydream whenever. There’s almost an addictive aspect to it, and a lot of daydreamers have to take adhd or anxiety meds to shake it

Would Mikey stim at first but learn to stay still after Splinter lectured him too many times? Would his paracosm be the book that he’s writing about killing splinter? Idk feel free to look at this like I’m crazy but this subject is very close to my heart as I’m a daydreamer myself.

OK SO like. I don't know. and I don't know if Mikey has maladaptive daydreaming for a specific reason.

That being that I'm basing him on myself. I spent a lot (AND I DO MEAN A LOT) of my time in my head as a kid. I don't really know what a paracosm is so I'm not sure if I was exploring within them. but there are huge chunks of my childhood i really only remember via the emotional exploration I was doing inside these fictional worlds. Like most of puberty for me was just imagining gay fictional gods and forbidden love and abuse and violence and at all that. and it's hard for me to tell if that was a bad thing because it's linked to a very integral part of my personality- that being the desire to tell and experience stories.

I was always dragging around paper and pencils to draw these imagined worlds. But i was also often just sitting with my eyes closed (or sometimes opened, but closed if I wanted to really focus)

if I was painfully bored, or very anxious (which happened often, basically any time i was outside the house or not watching tv or playing a game) I would do this. If I was stuck in a car or a room while my siblings were fighting violently, I would force myself to try to only think about my characters. If the talk radio host was getting on my nerves I would try to drown him out by thinking about my characters going through their worlds and getting in fights and having sex and all that stuff.

this got even better (or worse, considering how you think of it) once I got earbuds/headphones and access to my cousins old ipod. I was finally able to fully block out the world and only, ONLY ever think of my stories. just how I'd always wanted.

and sure, I was always kind of spacey, but even when I wasn't thinking of stories and art I was bad at paying attention the way adults liked. I think adults liked me more when I was just sitting there thinking anyway, instead of being hyper and then having an emotional breakdown when i realize they thought I was annoying.

There was a particularly vibrant time for daydreaming around puberty where i had dozens if not around a hundred different intricate stories that I started to overlap, just because. And I'd go through them over and over, adding or changing little things, making up reasons that the characters would all end up living in the same bunker or fighting the same enemy. making up reasons for the god of war and his little lamb prince to be torn apart. making up reasons for them to attack each other. then forcing them back together through all the trauma.

and recalling these spaces makes me kind of shiver because they're almost like real memories to me. I remember thinking of these scenarios more than I remember my real life around 11-12 years old. And i think that's largely because after I got my blackbelt at around 11 years old, my parents let me quit karate, and didn't force me to do any more sports or anything. So for the most part I legit never left the house. My entire life was in these stories and in my art.

I really only stopped doing this once I got sent off to high school at around 13-14 and was basically FORCED to participate in the real world more.

but I did that all on purpose. i was bored, and i hated other kids because they never clicked with me. and it never seemed to interrupt my life in a way that my parents noticed or cared about. in fact it was the only thing that kept me from being actively suicidal for a while there!

so like. i don't know man. i don't know.

#nnstuff #ask #tmnt mikey #maladaptive daydreaming #i havent thought about those worlds in years #its surprising how few of them i still maintain considering they were all i had for years #personal

[echo-stimmingrose]

I so desperately want to be this big multi-fandom person but I've been hyperfixated on the same thing for two years (PJO) and before that was a five year long hyperfixation for a series I don't post or read about anymore cause it makes me feel icky. Also getting into new fandoms makes me nervous cause I don't know how the people in the fandom are gonna be and I won't know anything about it going in, and it's always a fandom that's been around for years and I feel weird about joining it so late. It can also just be incredibly overwhelming, I so desperately want to be a marvel fan but the sheer amount of media there is to consume just makes me panic.

#idk i made this post. i just feel guilty that i only ever post about one thing fandom wise. #also all my irl friends are apart of multiple fandoms but im still stuck on one and am way more obsessed than they are #i also maladaptive daydream due to childhood trauma and i did that with the 5 year long hyperfixation #i ended up not being able to tell the difference between fiction and reality and when i came out of that i had to be hospitalized #its a horrible feeling cause i could no longer enjoy the series even without the author being a shitty person #i am apart of multiple fandoms but i can only focus on one at a time and theres not a lot i am apart of #i love #the owl house #arcane #pjo #nimona #but i really only post or think about one of them. i cant bring myself to finish toh for some reason and im waiting for S2 of arcane #echo's silly little rants

[meymeyzart]

Comfort

#zoom in on Eichi's face and hand <3 #anyways I tried a whole new method of rendering for this and it was so much fun. took less time than my usual process too #goodness they live in my brain all the time. I need to draw them more and more and more #enstars #wataei #eiwata #ensemble stars #tenshouin eichi #hibiki wataru #wataru hibiki #eichi tenshouin #fanart #my art #just saw this on mobile and the quality....... really went down.... #Also about today's element episode. I knew they wouldn't animate daydream but I'm still disappointed somehow 💔

[syrupyyyart]

I cant wait until we're far enough into Motley that I can start posting memes about it

#ive got a whole folder just for that specific purpose #first i must introduce the characters. but after that ........ oh im gonna make fun of them so much #i have so much planned and so many ideas for it. ive basically already written a whole story bible by this point lol #not art #1am posting. daydreaming about my ocs. thank you for reading motley #it passed 500 followers on webtoon which is fucking CRAZY to me. i truly genuinely thought itd only hit like 50 max #i am just very :') that people care to read it #but honestly even if no one read it id still be making it lol. you can pry motley from my cold dead hands

[kyouka-supremacy]

Mmmhh...

#(Basically rant on my last two posts) #I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoying– #but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind. #I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happen‚ #in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spaces‚ #especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable. #Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11 #(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have) #and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worse– #in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work. #If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow. #Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!! #It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now #I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blog– #and that's a little too much even for me. #On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blog– #when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share #On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully. #Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to invest– #in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything else– #for everyone to see... #The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day) #((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.)) #That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out #Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog #Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them

[goldendoodlerlockerlove]

I’d like to throw hands with the Anon that sent @devilh0rnsinc that incredibly rude ask yesterday morning.

Okay, I don’t actually want to throw hands, because I wouldn’t win in a fight, but still. What an incredibly rude thing to say and do to a person, especially one as sweet as Devil!! They’ve done nothing but be kind and organized a wonderful ship week back in December.

#personal #doodler’s daydreams #i’m just super salty about this because devil is one of the kindest individuals #and i thought the bb community here was better than this #this is why i hope that the anon is from reddit and not from here because that would make a lot more sense #because i keep hearing about how terrible reddit is particularly the bb reddit #i still haven’t forgiven them for their words about my precious baby boy #anyway devil deserves better!!

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Nothing better than when you brainstorm a whole new angle on a story that opens up a wide vista of possibilities and turns a blocked idea into something that could become a complete and satisfying narrative.

Nothing worse than when you write those new ideas down and discover it's still nowhere near enough to write a whole story.

#adventures in writing #twice this week already #once with the maid maleen #which was a wonderful daydream but turned out to be mostly an opening scene or two #and some painful yearning in the second half of the story #and now today i came up with a whole new angle on an old cinderella idea #figured out who these characters actually are as people instead of just slotting them into their fairy tale roles #and trying to make them match the characters that inspired them #figured out a writing style that could overcome all my structural difficulties and make it possible to write this story #i have all sorts of meta about the central couple and their backstories #and then when i go to outline it's like #where's the plot that holds this together? #i did find workarounds for my flimsiest spots i think #it would probably still be much more complicated than i want to write at the moment #but oh the daydream was so beautiful #it pains me that i can't share it just as it was #before the polish rubbed off

[tired-biscuit]

y’all are getting way too into your heads because of that size difference post……. who cares if they’re supposedly shorter than you or are the same height; they are fictional

just IMAGINE them taller

#most of my f/os are shorter than me since i’m a tall girl myself #but i still write and daydream about them like they’re towering over me because i want it that way lmao #that post was not meant for you to get insecure about your height!!!!!!!!!!

[cookinguptales]

I generally spend summers out west visiting with my parents because it's much colder out there, which is better for my chronic illnesses. I figure that there's nothing much keeping me here during the summer, especially because it's not really safe for me to go outside when it's hot, so until something comes up that makes traveling for long periods less attractive (like a job that requires me to stay put, a partner, home renovations, etc.) I'm gonna keep doing it.

But brooooo the only thing that makes me occasionally consider staying here for the summer is plants. When I used to stay here during the summer, before my parents moved to California, I used to grow the most beautiful plants. I have this raised garden bed that I got when I first moved in and I've never really gotten to use it because I'm just never here during a full growing season anymore.

I have grow shelves in my office and that's nice, but it's nothing compared to actually being able to grow tomatoes and stuff in my garden. And OH if I were able to use that space out there to get a little apple tree! One of the self-pollinating ones with multiple varieties! Or one of the dwarf peach/nectarine combos...

I'd cry!

But those things need a little babying and I'm just not here enough to do it properly. Which is sad, because gardening is actually pretty good for my mental health. And while I love my parents' area, a lot of fruiting plants just do not do well in that environment. I love the plants that are there, but every time we've tried to do tomatoes or cucumbers or something, they just do not thrive at all. Way too cold and gray. We can grow pea pods, but I hate pea pods...

*staring into space daydreaming about franken fruit trees because someone on my dash had the misfortune to reblog something about plant grafting*

#plant grafting makes me feral #whenever people sit still long enough I always eventually start telling them about apple biodiversity #and how if you plant apple seeds they will not be the same variety as the apple it came from #and you can only truly replicate them through grafting #and that's why -- oh no I'm doing it again #once I did some stupid 'what ___ are you' quiz #and at the end they were like 'tell me something fun' #and I legit just launched into the apple lecture I'm so sorry I love the apple lecture #I took this class on food science in college #and I had to do a presentation on how to read and order from a seed catalog #and I honestly just fell in love with it I now read those things like they're magazines #sometimes I just daydream about being able to move somewhere with land so I could plant everything #but I know my body would never let me anyway #BUT I CAN DREAM...

[theflyingfeeling]

because today seems like a great day to make unwise decisions, I secured my ticket to BC's Berlin show and am about to do so with Leipzig as well, but is it just me or is there no pdf-ticket (€ 0.00) available for Leipzig?! 🤨

#halpppp #still not 100% sure I'll be able to make it to leipzig but if i have the ticket i gotta make it work somehow eh? 😌 #but why would i want to pay for them to send me a physical ticket if i could just print my own for free WHY WON'T THEY LET ME?? 😭 #germans pls explain #(i'm on the english website of eventim btw so it's not about the language barrier lol) #other unwise decisions today include 1) watching the olli/allu parts of aleksi's spooky stream again. yes i have a problem ✌️ #2) daydreaming about a new olli/allu fic idea when i should be marking student assignments and planning lessons 😌 #but i'm also doing laundry so it's not like i'm completely wasting time either