#but i still want to move abroad

[449l7618]

why does no one talk about the traumatazing experience of growing up in a homphobic country with not supportive parents and the pressure of wanting to move abroad

#and if they do where can i find it #while i appreciate that i have good chances of studying abroad i'm still like 18 and ver scared of college and the future #theoretically i know i shouldn't be but things dont work like that !! #bc sometimes i feel like if eveyone knew i was bi i would be treated differently #i remember when i came out to my teacher ( she was so supportive too shout out to her !!) she told me that my personal feelings are nobody #buissness (or sexuality) but i feel like i'm lying to people sometimes #and i know i shouldn't bcuz it's survival #in the end #i'm very scared of being an adult and i don't want to fuck it up #i probably will fuck some things up #but i still want to move abroad #i can't believe my childhood is over #am i supposted to tag this with rant ? #rant i guess #bisexual #you know what my sexuality is nobodys buissness #all they should care about are how well i study #homophobia

[harundraws]

the only time the finnish in me really comes out is when i’m mildly annoyed

“vittu…“ (cunt/vagina basically used like the word ‘fuck’)

“ei perkele” (no, evil spirit/satan/devil )

“no voi saatana” (damn it satan)

“vittujen vittu” (cunts cunt)

“VITTU!!” (CUNT WITH EMPHASIS)

#harun text post #i may be ethnically somali but i was born and raised as a finnish person #i still want to move abroad someday! #kinda like how you want to escape a small town you live in lmao #i am at work and i am so sleepy #why can’t i just receive an anonymous check once a month? #in other news #i love how the taivan funko pops have essentially taken over the yj fandom #if i had moneyyyyy

[fridayiminlcve]

if i dont move to nyc or london or paris by age 27 what is the point of anything

#i looooove my city so much you guys like if i wasnt who i am (queer) rn i would be so fucking glad that i am in my current city but #i loooove art and history and fashion and stuff and this citymight be about second best for all that but its still soo crowded #people WILL judge no matter what you wear something cutesy and people dont shut up especially when ur 16 and tagging along with your mom to #the mall or something and everyone just stares and even among your classmates ive been complimented so many times #for my unique style or whatever (aka i have beaded shoelaces and wear lots of jewelery and absurd ass eyeliner) and theyre like oh #n******** is so fancy itni stylish bandi hai woh and its so attention grabbing but i dont want it to be a big deal !!! #i want to like 20 badges and wear insane makeup and dye my hair without calling much attention to myself!!! #of course i know that will change slowly as you go in to uni and meet ppl of your type instead of a bazaar market and youll pick ur own #friends who r like minded but considering this is india how many people can you truly find. #also my next two years are going to be spent in a college for jee and neet kids #you can wear what you want theres no dress code but you have to appear serious studious and simple if you want to be taken seriously #elle woods at harvard law type #i asked my mom to get an industrial & second lobe piercing and actual dyed hair and shes like turn twenty get into a good college then do #not bc she minds she allowed me to get my hair dyed at age 13 but to go in th college im going to there is SO SO much rigour #and if you dont show yourself as professional and shit they will keep you in lower effort self study classes instead of best of the best #i KNOW how difficult moving abroad is bc my family does not have that money i need to do it myself its so so expensive bc the money #itself has such a high value compared to here (you see americans cribbing abt 30$ hourly wage but here that is 2500inr) #2500 inr is as much as an expensive pair of jeans here. expensive clothes here r 30$ and in usa its 300$ . see the diffence #im changing topics so much but sometimes i do feel this place is suffocating #its a priviledge i have that i can even think about going abroad comapred to other indians but still #dp you get what i mean #and ik movies and all are very romanticised so it might not even be this way in western cities and just an idealisation but still #if things change around here then the entire question of going anywhere is out the window anyway #smalltown boy will byers moment #dni if you read all this and plan on replying unless ur a close mutual (close mutuals u know who u are) #also if someone says why would you want to go to usa uk paris when they colonised your country shut up <3 shut up very much <3

[voidwhalebone]

existential crisis feelings are hitting once again

#bros my free trial in life is slowly seeming to expire #okay uni is gonna extend it for sure but Still #im nauseous and have a headache i should go to bed #but i cant stop thinking about the logistics of How exactly should i go about moving abroad in the future #cos i really really dont want to stay here #stupid ass continent with all these different languages i dont speak fluently #whatever fuck it we ball

[oorevitcejda]

the Kingdom of Hawaii should be allowed to close their borders and recover for like 50 years, no nonHawaiians on the island and when they have healed they can enter the world when they want and offer tours or college or whatever on their terms and in a respectful way.

also usa reparations should include cleaning the oceans, at least pacific and atlantic

#ti talks #hawaii #landback #give back the countries we 'have rule over'; guam american Samoa the marshall and virgin islands Puerto Rico and anything i missed #then give hawaii back to its kingdom. for a limited time you get free shipping back to the usa as a non-Hawaiian #if you overstay passed the free delivery then its on you to pay and you get deported anyway #anyway then the residents of the us get to move anywhere within the continuous us. or abroad idk just not on hawaii anymore #then the usa residents leave same policy from alaska and the land is given back to the native #alaska could be its own country run by the sovereign nation. maybe it'll even turn into more countries!!! #that would be fucking awesommmeee #look landback doesn't mean you as a white person; are getting literally kicked off the land. but for a tiny island? #or a 'state' we bought from russia which was it's own occupied area. it wasnt russias to buy and not ours to take #but seriously the us is big enough for anyone who wants in. leave hawaii and alaska alone #we can even still have 50 states for the weirdos who like the 50 stars being 50 #honestly let mexico have texas too #landback for everyone and everything but im 100000% for starting with Hawaii and alaska second #if you know like everything about the us we go state by state and it takes for fucking ever #anyway rant over

[culmaer]

holy shit sina ken toki e so many fucking languages

i applaud you

ah, well, so about that. most of the languages in that list are supposed to be crossed out ! back when I made my blog you could do a few html things in the blog description, but it doesn't show up anymore, especially not on the app/mobile. so now it just looks like a long list of languages which is a bit misleading

I am definitely interested in all those languages, and have taken a few classes or self-studied most of them over the years, but I definitely don't speak all of them

should probably be edited/updated, but I'm not even sure I'd still remember how to do that...

#langblr #I'd say I speak afrikaans english and french #am conversant enough in german and dutch (they're basically freebies with afrikaans as an L1 (although that does cause interference !!)) #yiddish I studied while taking a course on the literature of the shoah at uni #and while i do still read forverts regularly #most of my jewish friends moved abroad after uni so I don't actually *use* the language anymore or have an active connection to it #so I don't think it counts anymore #xhosa and persian i've studied a lot as well #i can remember how the grammar works and a handful of words #but i can't speak or read or do anything to a useful/practical level #gothic and toki pona are special #and then nul points to sesotho and japanese. they're on my list. I will learn them one day #i also want to learn bambara and my friend has suggested we learn italian #but I haven't started either of those yet either

[swiftful-thinking13]

today in the car I was thinking about what my life would look like right now if the p*ndemic never happened

#I’m dying to see the alternate timeline #who did I end up taking to lover fest?? #would I have discovered BTS sooner or later?? #what did my college graduation pictures look like?! #did I end up applying to law school or moving abroad again?? #did I move out?! #did I ever circle back to the idea of being a therapist?!? #was I nicer to my mom?! #would my friends still be with their now fiancés ??? #did I work at another retail job or did I start a big girl job?? #I just want to know how everything would’ve played out #it obviously wasn’t meant to be in this lifetime but I still want to know !!!

[pixesemma]

I dreamt of my former best friend today and woke up crying. She froze me out of her life 2 years ago and I still don't understand why. I can take emotional distance from anything else yet this creeps up on me once in a while to ruin my day.

#idk man I'm just feeling sad and lonely #like i didn't even do anything like wallowing while awake this time i just woke up with my brain being like #Yeah wasn't it nice when you still hung out with someone you basically wanted to platonically marry? Sucks that doesn't happen anymore huh. #Like Yeah does is actually? fuck you too? #i mean there's still our other friend who's been studying abroad for a few years. she should be back for good this summer #but her family moved across the country in the main time so she's not even near me #and it was always the three of us against the world. it feels like something broke there with her too. that's unfair to her ik #but i used to base part of my mental health on the solid base knowledge that my friends loved me and that pillar crumbled under my feet #like i think she loves me. but do i know? i thought so but apparently sometimes people you love *do* just get tired of you and leave #like huh who knew. seems my social distrust was right all along! #like there's no trust there anymore and i can't mister up the same strong feelings even if she *literally didn't do anything* #it's genuinely not her fault and I'd never tell her that either #it's just... every time i think about this for a moment i understand how people must feel when their partner of a decade cheats on them #it just fundamentally changes your ability to depend on other people and it isn't fair to anyone involved

[teruthecreator]

me and my sister have such a good relationship. like i spent the day w her today at her fiance’s parent’s house (they live there) bc she was working from home and i didnt wanna spend the day w mom again. and we just spent most of it talking! and we talk abt life and i dont feel like i have to play up some persona around her. and im just rlly grateful that we were able to repair our relationship over the years bc prior to like......me being 13 i Did Not like my sister and we didnt rlly talk and now as we get older we only get closer and closer :-)

#ignorance cloud on #we still have our differences and i dont tell her Everything bc of boundaries ive set #but like. its nice! theres a reason i felt comfortable coming out to her first #also she was telling me abt her and her fiance's future plans and they wanna move to italy!!!!! thats so cool!!!! #and i rlly honestly hope she can manage it bc i think she deserves to go abroad and have fun #esp w the amount of grief shes experienced recently :-( #im excited for her wedding im glad shes letting me do what i want w my outfit

[yuugami-tan]

DONE WITH THE SEMESTER YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

#everyone's work turned out amazing #looking around the classroom was like seeing an exhibition it was amazing #now i can relax!!! play game!!!!! #currently finishing up dd and then i'll move onto soj #or maybe i'll just go straight into hotel dusk.......hmm.................. #oh i also found the rom for ghost trick!!!!! so i can run it on my emulator #i've been slowly working on kirby & the forgotten land.....might save that for abroad so i have smth new to play over there #so much 2 play.......... #but i also want to play stardew valley!!!!! #and i still haven't finished inscryption............ #OR zero escape.................................. #WEGH (<- me making an exasperated noise)

[intersectionalpraxis]

"If a pig catches both a human influenza A virus and an avian influenza A virus at the same time, it can spark a process known as viral reassortment — a genetic exchange in which flu viruses swap gene segments." "Those swaps can introduce dramatic changes, producing a new virus with certain properties of a non-human strain coupled with the capacity to infect and spread between people." "The death rate in humans may be upwards of 50 per cent, World Health Organization data suggests, though it's possible that milder infections are getting missed, skewing the case fatality ratio. Still, in a population that's never been exposed, the global impacts could be dire." "More human cases could also be happening under the radar among farm workers who've moved to the U.S. from abroad, don't speak English as their first language, and may be hesitant to seek medical help, he added." "So I think there's probably underreporting on both sides," Armstrong said." "If [H5N1] gets into a population where there's constantly animals going in and out … it might not ever leave."

I've been watching this develop for the past several days, and apart from being terrified most people will not take this seriously (I've seen a handful of people already shout conspiracy on social media and it's alarming to see, as always). What I wanted to point out is that pandemics are going to continue to be our 'normal.' I watched a great video on YouTube a while ago (I believe it was by Vice?) that touched base on how this is going to become our new reality because of multiple factors (such as our proximity to animals, and environments/etc). It was when Covid hit and they did a piece debunking some of the misinformation floating on the internet. If I can find it I will post it here because it was informative and relevant to pretty much any world crisis we will see around any virus that spreads among a human population.

This post isn't trying to fear monger anyone, I just hope more people are aware of what is happening because this is important to talk about. There are already cases (of cows getting this bird flu) in the US, and I won't be surprised if there will be instances in more countries around the world. As usual, keep washing your hands/keeping good hygiene practices, masking up (and if you aren't I hope you consider it), and taking precautions if you do happen to visit/work or go near a pig or poultry farm too:

I'll keep track of this here of course, but please stay informed folks. And also FU to any governments who will try to minimize this or try to diminish the severity until it's too late and community spread happens like Covid because their actions are influenced by capitalistic interests.

Update (April 7th, 2024, 9:32pm EST): to anyone wondering where some of the source information originates from -here is a link to the CDC. They are tracking documented avian virus outbreaks in the US and the public can access it here:

#current news #current events #global news #united states #cattle #cows #cattle farming #avian flu #bird flu #h5n1 #mask up #pandemic #covid #covid isn't over #covid conscious #covid is airborne #covid is not over #viruses #fuck capitalism #anti captialism #healthcare #public health #world health organization #cdc #news update #update

[floral-hex]

“guess you didn’t have a forwarding address after all ☹️” shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut up shut up shut up

#I am FROTHING #at the mouth I mean #I am so beyond unreasonably annoyed #dad sends bday card to old address bc we never talk and he didn’t know I moved #literally never texts me #I don’t really text him either so I suppose it’s a two way street #I had mail forwarding until Jan 1st so I dunno what happened but I dunno just the text out of the blue like that triggers something in me #could have just said “hey your card finally got returned. do you want me to resend it?’ #BUT NO fucking ☹️☹️☹️ guess you made a wittle mistakey son ☹️☹️☹️ #I’m most probably reading too much into it. probably. I’m hoping…. #I am just… seething… #whatever. it’s a two way road. you’d just think he’d care about his son to check in more often #especially when said son is not. doing. great. when said son is helping take care of his estranged dad’s sick ex wife whom he divorced to #to fuck off around the world and fucking go live abroad after having two kids. just fucks off. fucked off. f offed. off’d? LEFT #which WHATEVER your prerogative my dude my man I still love you but I’m gonna be resentful forever #and I’m getting off topic. oh yeah. and the last time we texted briefly I was saying how life was shitty #told him I had to move because of no money and mom got a transplant and is still sick all the time #and it’s all ‘well… let me know if I can do anything’ #fuck you #you want to be snarky go ahead and be snarky #go fucking drink by the pool all day with your dogs whatever #big fucking nice guy ‘uwu guess you didn’t really want my letter 👉👈😢 #I’m just… fucking sorry I don’t text you more. what am I supposed to text about? #i’m ashamed of myself. of my life. I’m a fucking 35 year old loser and I know I let you down. talking to you just reminds me I’m a fuck up #I’m a bad investment and you got out while the getting was good #fuck… it was just some shitty little comment that might not have even been malicious. just tone deaf or whatever #but now I’m feeling so shitty and I can’t stop it #sorry this was too much #I was on the verge of just starting to yell and stomp around like an idiot and decided to vent here instead #… but seriously what the fuck. what response is he expecting? I set up forwarding so idk. shit happens dude

[u-friend-or-ufo]

Mother: You're just existing.

Me: Oh I'm sorry! Do you want me to not exist? I've told you that I get panic attacks, that I selfharm and that I was thinking of therapy. But you just dismissed that. "There's nothing wrong with you." "There's nothing physically wrong with you. You don't have an arm missing." "You just only existing now. What you need is a good kick up the arse!"

Would it be better if I was 6 feet fucking under!!

#my ramblings #tw s3lf harm #Rant #I need a kick up the arse #That would solve all of my problems #It's not like I don't want to get help #It's that I don't seem to have a family that supports mental health #No no #I'm being selfish #I'm 24 and still living at home #I should move #Abroad maybe #American seems nice #Or how about Canada

[unreliablesnake]

Simon wasn’t the jealous type. He knew you loved him, and his size alone was enough to scare away men who tried to make a move on you. Easy. But then your childhood best friend announced their return from abroad, and he was shocked to hear it was a guy, but he never let it show.

Jealous!Simon who one day casually asked you if he had a girlfriend. Secretly he was hoping you would say he was only into men, but you went into details about how his last relationship with a lovely girl ended a month ago. “Tragic story, really,” you said with a sigh. “Sometimes I think he’s secretly in love with someone else.”

Jealous!Simon who had to bite his tongue for weeks after the announcement, having no choice but to silently tolerate your constant chatting with him either via calls or messages. Every time your phone went off with a notification, he felt like taking the device from you and throwing it against the wall.

Jealous!Simon who gave you a lift to the airport to pick him up. “I have time, it’s not a problem,” he told you, but the real reason was quite simple. He wanted to make sure that guy understood you had a boyfriend. A boyfriend who was committed, a boyfriend who loved you very much, a boyfriend he had no chance against.

Jealous!Simon who began to feel like a third wheel in his own home whenever your friend came over. A photo of him was probably placed next to the word perfect in the dictionary. He was younger than him, skin immaculate and missing the scars he had after long years on the battlefield, had a proper white collar career like you, and he still remembered little things about you, like what your favorite chocolate flavor was.

Jealous!Simon who got harsher in bed as his frustration began to grow. You didn’t complain, but he knew you were aware of when his behavior in bed usually changed. So you started to do little things for him, like baking his favorite cookies or learning how to make his favorite cocktail to make him feel better.

Jealous!Simon who overheard a conversation your friend had with someone, telling them about how you had a scary guard dog who made it impossible for him to get you in his bed, and how stupid you were for not seeing you deserved better. He had pulled out his phone at the beginning of the conversation to record it as evidence, and he was smiling to himself the whole time knowing you would probably go no contact with him after the way your friend talked about both you and him.

Happy!Simon who stood by your side with his fingers laced with yours and a satisfied smirk on his lips as you showed the video to your friend in your living room, watching him with an angry look on your beautiful face. When he tried to explain himself, you just raised your hand and told him to get the fuck out of your apartment.

Happy!Simon who finally fell asleep with you in his arms without worrying about that idiot.

#call of duty #modern warfare #mw2 #simon ghost riley #simon riley #ghost #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #mw3

[iamthekarmapolice]

trying to determine what a normal amount of yearly income is advisable to spend on travel + leisure

#when im doing Cold Hard Facts reviews of my finances living with my parents really pays off lmao #like yeah theres a lot of personal sacrifices involved but i get to save most of the money i make #and then i to have a lot of flexibility in terms of what i do with that #i still want living with my parents to not be permanent but ideally id like to move abroad instead of getting a place here

[kisari-v]

ew housing costs- ccc

#ew I have to figure out costs on where to live ugh #i want to move off campus so im making that school move out powerpoint #but i also want to study abroad a semester so I'm honestly looking more for term than for semester #but still #ccc #columbia chicago #columbia college chicago