#but in a platonic kind of way lol

[duskandcobalt]

Comfort Crowd

hi! this is my contribution to day one of #azrielappreciationweek2023 (cc: @azrielappreciationweek)

the prompt is "The Family You Make" so I wrote a little one-shot about Az and Nesta, my favourite little bestie pairing 💕

1.3k words - no warnings other than slight language :) just two friends notorious for not talking about their emotions, talking about emotions!

ENJOY XX

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Azriel struggles to hold back his grin when Nesta waddles into the library at the House of Wind where he’s reclined on a sofa in front of the fireplace, flipping through yet another report in preparation for a meeting with Rhys in the morning. She’s wearing a simple oversized nightgown in the colour of cream, one of her hands rests on her swollen belly while the other is pressed against the small of her back.

Nesta is only a few weeks from giving birth to his very first niece and while she’d only become more beautiful over the past few months, the scowl on her face tells him that she is more than ready for this pregnancy to be over.

Azriel quickly swings his long legs off the sofa, shuffling around and sitting up to make room for her.

“Oh, yes. Please. Go ahead and laugh at me.” She glares at him as he chuckles, watching as she carefully lowers herself onto the seat he’d left free for her. He knows better than to offer help but a few of his shadows gather around her just in case. “If you had been a better chaperone, maybe I wouldn’t be in this fucking predicament.”

“Right.” Azriel snorts. “As if my presence has ever deterred you two from…” He trails off, making vague gestures with his hands to convey his thoughts instead of using the obscenities that came to mind. 

She only rolls her eyes in response and he knows that she knows that he’s right. 

Nesta and Cassian had never been particularly shy about making sure their needs were met and as ravenous as the two of them were, Azriel’s ears had unintentionally been made witness to their activities more times than he cared to admit. Even the enchanted ear plugs Elain gave him for Solstice one year hadn’t been enough to drown out the sound some nights.

Azriel pats his leather covered thigh and Nesta’s lips tilt upwards at the corners as she turns to the side and lifts her legs. He reaches down and meets her halfway, grasping her calves to help her lay on the sofa with her feet in his lap. Nesta sighs with relief at the feeling of his thumb pressing into the sole of her foot.

“Oh you’re so wonderful to me, Shadowsinger. So good with those hands of yours.” She smirks. There’s a suspicious lilt to her voice. “I’ll be sure to put in a good word for you with you-know-who.” 

Azriel’s hands pause as he fixes her with a stern look. 

“Sorry, sorry!” Nesta apologises, laughing in a way that tells Azriel she isn’t sorry at all. “Please keep going, I promise I’ll keep my mouth shut.”

They spend most of their evenings together like this whenever Azriel is home from an assignment, whether Cassian is around or not. Most of the time, the three of them gather together in the library or the living room, chatting until the early hours of the morning. But sometimes it’s just him and Nesta, sitting in the comfort of each other’s presence, passing sweets back and forth while she reads a book and he reads his reports.

It was rare for Azriel to befriend new people but Nesta had seamlessly become a significant part of his life because they had understood each other so intrinsically from the very beginning.

Azriel had seen right through her abrasiveness. He knew that behind her snark and cutting remarks, there was a female that was so wounded that she’d rather push people away than let someone in close enough to hurt her. He understood that she was frightened to allow herself the things she wanted for fear that they would be taken from her.

Likewise, he had caught Nesta watching him with eyes that noticed too much on multiple occasions. He was aware that she saw the way he yearned for something or someone he couldn’t or wouldn’t allow himself to pursue. Azriel also had utter confidence that she would never say anything about it to anyone, or even to him, unless he brought it up first. 

Nesta would always keep his unspoken secrets just as he kept hers. 

It’s quiet in the library for a long while, only the quiet crackle of the fire and the sighs coming from Nesta as Azriel relieves the agonsing tension in her feet, when she breaks the silence. 

“Az?” Her voice is uncharacteristically soft in a way that makes her seem so small. When he glances over at her, Nesta’s eyelids are shut and there’s a tiny, sad frown on her face. 

“What is it, Nes?”

“I’m so scared.” Her words are shaky and barely above a whisper. “What if I’m not a good mother?”

Azriel’s eyebrows furrow together, his fingers stopping for half a second as he contemplates what to say.

“Why would you think that?” 

“I just…” She takes a deep breath. “I never had a good relationship with my own mother and I’m worried that I’ll end up being just like her.” 

Azriel opens his mouth to respond but stops when she continues.

“Cassian is so good. He has so much love and he gives it so freely.” Nesta swallows. “It’s harder for me. What if I screw her up?” 

“I think that being worried that you’ll be like your mother is proof enough that you won’t be anything like her. Bad parents don’t tend to worry about how they’ll treat their children.” Azriel says gently. “You love so deeply, Nesta. Just because you show it in a different way than Cass, it doesn’t mean that you’re any less capable of raising and caring for a child than he is.” 

Nesta exhales and Azriel can tell that her mind is still racing. 

“You practically raised, Elain.” He rotates her ankles. “I know how much you love your sisters and I know how much they love you. Besides, you’re already wonderful with Nyx. He adores you. He’s always babbling about his Aunt Nesta.”

Azriel smiles when he hears her laugh quietly. She knows that what he said is true. Because while Rhysand and Feyre’s son was often attached by the hip to Elain, Nesta was the only person he’d leave her to go running to the second he heard her voice or she entered his line of vision. 

Cassian, Azriel, and Rhys had all burned with jealousy that the winged boy they had waited centuries for had seemingly taken an immediate liking to the females of the family but with any luck, they’d get their revenge once Cassian and Nesta’s daughter entered the picture.

“You’ll be an incredible mother.” Azriel pats her calf in what he hopes is a reassuring manner. “You and Cass will be brilliant parents and that little girl will be so loved. You know I can’t wait to meet her.”

“You’re a great friend, Az.” She reaches a hand out to him and he takes it in his. Warmth floods him as she squeezes his fingers gently. “Cass and I are lucky to have you. She’ll be so  lucky to have you, too.” Nesta rubs her other hand over her bump and Azriel watches in amazement as her movement is met with a small but powerful kick from the babe inside her womb. 

“She agrees.” One of Nesta’s eyebrows lifts in amusement and she gives him her first proper smile of the night. 

His heart swells as he returns her bright smile with a soft one of his own. It swells even more when he looks up to see Cassian leaning against the doorway with his arms crossed, watching him and Nesta with a fond smile and eyes shimmering with tears.

Azriel couldn’t possibly think of anyone better suited to be his best friend’s Mate. Nesta was strong willed and stubborn but she loved so fiercely even if she couldn’t admit it to herself. She would lay her life on the line for Cassian over and over again, as she had done once before. It was the tough, relentless type of love that his kind hearted friend deserved and Azriel was proud that over time, she had slowly but surely become someone that he could not only call his friend, but his sister.

#azrielappreciationweek2023 #azriel fanfic #azriel fluff #azriel fic #azriel x nesta #but in a platonic kind of way lol #nesta archeron #acotar fanfiction #my writing #fic writing #azriel appreciation week #azriel shadowsinger

[dekupalace]

and yet there's no human in my reflection

hello again isatheads! I have returned with a siffrin + loop playlist full of metaphors and imagery that probably only I will understand. enjoy some self-loathing jams that will keep getting longer over time cause I never know when to stop adding songs lmao (non-romantic sifloop/sloop, cover made by me with art by insertdisc5!)

#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sifloop #adding the ship for clout /hj #isat siffrin #isat loop #isat two hats #is that a tag? it is now #in stars and time siffin #in stars and time loop #i want what they have (unbridled hate and rage enemies in a queer platonic kind of way) #im sure this goes without saying but this contains #isat act 6 spoilers #because uhhhh. Duh lol #busy.🐝 #Spotify

[thebirdandhersong]

something hilariously ironic and somehow kind of sweet: this is the first time I've ever received flowers from a boy in my LIFE. this is the first time, and they aren't from my ex-boyfriend (the thought never crossed his mind) or my father or my brother..... the FIRST TIME I've ever received intentional flowers from a boy, it's from boy problem no 2. 😂😂😂😂😂 like what on earth!!!!!

#if i don't laugh about it i WILL cry #this is the second emotionally unavailable engineer boy who is so gentle it breaks my heart #i am floored by how kind of a friend he is. he and another friend intentionally planned a surprise #knowing that i had mixed feelings about my birthday and knowing that friends in the past seldom organized things for it #i have FLOWERS from him!!! dianthus flowers. and a book of prayers!!!!!! #in some ways this too is a gift. #so is the even more ironic fact that he told me a few days ago that he loved me (he meant it platonically). im not making this up lol #you couldn't make this up!!! #from a narrative point of view this is yet another HILARIOUS situation in the ongoing series of romantic mishaps #it does make my heart twist a little but it is light enough that i can still laugh about it! #i have a great deal of fondness for this man and i will not agonize over this the way i did over the first engineer :)

[lesbianphan]

Dan: local man who clearly loves his partner claims love isn't real Phil: local man pretends he didn't just imply he loves his partner by including his friends awkwardly to sound nonchalant about it, making it sound much weirder than it had to be

#yep they've nailed it alright #dnp #phan #read love platonically or romantically but like #just saying you don't buy a house with a person you don't LOVE in some way shape or form #anyway Dan's energy was all kinds of off this video I felt bad he looks tired and kinda done #idk if it was just gamingmas but probs not hope he's doing alright! #and I'm not even talking about the existential speeches cause same lol #the video was really fun as usual I'm not complaining just like hope they take a longer break if they need it we'll complain but be fine

[coiled-dragon]

Sometimes I wanna write poetry about how I feel about People but then im afraid it'll be recognized by the people it is about

#Im so ridiculously embarrassed by how much I love #especially right now where it is taking a shape that is different from others #its different than the love of my wife or my partners or my boyfriend #its different then how I typically love my friends #its just so damn different and weird and heavy breathing through a deep chest #with strange envy and desires on the edge of incestuous #love as a jealous hunger the kind I write about but not with all the red flags I typically write about lol #but love also as an intense need to protect #put in my mouth and carry somewhere safe #or at the very least #to carry inside of me always #UGHUGUHGUHUGUHUGH #WHY CANT I BE NORMAL #so many close friends so many romantic and platonic partners #and yet I STILL Find new ways to love #new ways the burn!!!

[qqchurch]

frieren anime premiere was pretty great, melancholic with spurts of silliness so far

pretty much blind to the plot except maybe one or two bits i've come across all these years (that thing about demons) and the first manga chapter that i've read ages ago but i'm having fun with what's presented so far

also liking how much Time and Progress is baked into the world because it really has been almost 90 years since the "journey's end"

#qq watches #also kind of lol at coming across bitching over yoasobi being the OP again #the vibes of the OP were fine with me but wow did some comments reek of 'hating popular thing' thats common with subsets of fans #also hearing stuff about ppl shipping frieren and himmel and like what #thats like the overdone annoying man and woman thats tired of him dynamic no way #completely read it as platonic but then thats the himejoshi bias lol #also! ichikana as fern is great; it was kind of funny clocking her suletta voice when fern got older tho lol

[welcometogrouchland]

We all assign Lilith as the Philip parallel when analyzing the similarities between the clawthorne sisters and the wittebane brothers. But have we stopped to consider for a moment that Belos saw Lilith as the Caleb in her situation? An older sibling who makes a selfish decision (in Philip's eyes) and betrays their younger sibling, leaving them a monster outcast from society??

We as the audience know just how different those situations were, but from Belos' pov...

I'm not saying Lilith was seen as so disposable and worthless by Belos, not just bc she was a witch, but because she was a Clawthorne whom Belos saw as a mirror of Caleb...but that's exactly what I'm saying and I'm realizing that Belos must've hated Lilith's guts more than we thought

#the owl house #toh #lilith clawthorne #toh belos #philip wittebane #obviously we as the audience know Eda is more analogous to Caleb #(someone longing for freedom and seemingly running from responsibility to get it) #(all speculation of course since we know so little about caleb but that seems to be the gist of things) #and that Lilith is the Philip in their relationship #(the more emotionally dependent and socially maladjusted one obsessed with conforming as a way to achieve status and love- #-has a (seeming in Philip's case) inferiority complex and can't comprehend their sibling making choices that don't include them) #but i remembered that Lilith is the older sibling and then this dawned on me lol #and yes i think Belos definitely had some kind of knowledge of the curse thing considering him and Lilith's deal in s1 #my personal hc is once Lilith rose the ranks she had a moment of semi breaking down and confessing to her ''sins'' #both in a creepy christian confessional way but. also i was thinking of andrias and marcy from the frog show hsbsjsnfk #anyway. Belos fucking hated Lilith didn't he. he was just waiting to screw her over #it's honestly kind of sad considering how much Lilith worshipped him and craved his (platonic) love and approval #obviously she was aiding a corrupt system but still. if anything that's just another parallel between her and belos lol #we all wonder why Lilith seemingly never interacted with other coven heads or why she resented hunter and I'm like #i think belos definitely isolated her on purpose yknow? he gave her the mission to find eda and then she put all her time into that #she probably barely talked to anyone other than kiki and the scouts. and the loneliness just fueled her desperation to get eda back y'know? #then for the hunter thing like. obviously it's Lilith's own insecurity at this teen prodigy seemingly favoured by Belos #and like. i doubt anyone in the castle besides kiki and some select coven heads really knew what went on behind closed doors #so Lilith just sees this kid who gets to be by Belos' side all the time and she doesn't get what he has that she doesn't #and because she's an emotionally stunted nightmare woman she turns it into this silly rivalry #and because Belos hates her he's like. lol okay i am not reassuring you abt your place in this hierarchy. i want to watch you suffer #and let's her feel these things and poor hunter is just like WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU??? #and he's mad abt it #anyway. Lilith thoughts out of my system for tonight but can you tell i love this cringefail slug woman?

[red-hemlock]

Your Aesthetic Word Is...

Cafuné

Cafuné means running your fingers through someone's- perhaps a lover, hair. It's such an intimate, affectionate way of showing love. If you got this result, you're a romantic at heart; very sweet, delicate, precious wandering soul. Aren't you scared of your heart being too big for your body? Somehow, you remind me of that pretty coral pink that bleeds into a soft indigo when the sun is slowly setting. What I'd like to tell you is that we can't save everyone, and that's okay. You're doing your best, and it's enough.

Tagged by: @gnarledbite and @mute-call Tagging: (Whoever wants to do this too! <3)

#Kill City Killer ( Riverisms ) #(THIS WAS... AN INTERESTING RESULT. I actually expected her to get supernova too haha.) #(BUT IT STILL FITS. River is kind-of a romantic at heart.) #(Loves poetry and romance novels filled with idealistic instances of love. Would prefer flowers and candy to expensive gifts.) #(LOVES RUNNING HER FINGERS THROUGH HER LOVER'S HAIR AND HAVING IT DONE IN RETURN LOL.) #(She does love hard too whether it's in romance or even platonic friendships so that whole 'you can't save everyone' bit hurts. 8T;;;) #(Couldn't save her kid's dad or her lil' bro... One of her lil' sisters in a way... And now on-edge about losing her kid too. DX)

[capaldiera]

man idgaf about what treville and richelieu have going on (mostly nothing) (they dont like each other but they work together a lot bc of their jobs.) (i guess treville holding onto a sense of honour whilst working with the cardinal is interesting but like that's not. thats not really those two having something interesting going on). lets talk about the king and the cardinal man.

#the way the king sometimes resents the cardinal's influence but is so easily manipulated to feel lost without it. #the fact that he'll openly acknowledge the cardinal wants him to rule unfairly and play favourites. with a fond look on his face #''i will disband their whole regiment if that's what it takes to make you happy. only please don't leave me alone'' with tears in his eyes #all of which was exactly what the cardinal was going for and he just gets away with it! #the queen finds out he was trying to have her Killed and she says yeah fuck you obvi but i wont tell the king tho bc he loves you ? #i'm not saying any of this is like romantic to be clear lol. it's just very interesting #i mean i dont think it can probably be categorised really. but im definitely not calling it that #it is super interesting though the way the cardinal needs to undermine the queen and place himself closer to the king to succeed in his aim #it would be somewhat appropriate for sure to say its kind of a parent-child relationship in some ways but that's definitely not all of it #in terms of the way the king relies on him and his guidance. but again thats not all of it and he's not a child. or not actually a child. #and i could say this about any of the relationships between men on the show but of course Because they're both men that means the #Possibility of it being anything but fully platonic is not something he can acknowledge and for that reason whether it is or Not there's #still going to be a level of repression and denial that just complicates things. even though/if theres not truly anything to deny #meanwhile honestly i think the cardinal is personally being normal about it even tho he's a freak about a lot of other things #i mean idk that was my impression. i am sorta-watching through s1 again so maybe i'll develop my ideas on that #anyway #me.txt #musketeers posting

[amysosamybeloved]

it's kinda funny how it took me a rewatch to get really warmed up to the idea of frenchie x kimiko as a ship and then i watched the episode with the kiss and liked it, just to find out that the writers wrote in that 'to state it was weird for the audience because it's weird for them' or something???

also canon family(?) zoning aside why the fuck would you refer to them as siblings like holy shit there are other platonic relationships that aren't blood bound i just found that part really stupid and very funny because the way they state the relationship and the way it comes off onscreen is very different imo

#i was more surprised than anything when kimiko kissed frenchie #so i'm not too heartbroken over that weird 180 honestly #but it is dumb how they lingered on both of them reacting positively to the kiss only to pull that shit #i'm sorry but weren't they smiling softly before frenchie got taken and everything? #a part of me feels like this is just the writers bullshitting the audience #and kimiko and frenchie have never experienced this kind of connection and the most kimiko had that was equal to this was family #so she kinda rolled with it which is something i wouldn't mind i like them being partners in every other sense of the word #i just don't like the way it's being talked about like them being in a relationship is the worst thing ever lol #does eric kripke look down on romance or something lol need answers #also once again siblings do not behave the way kimiko x frenchie do i'm sorry to break that to the boys writers #they made the relationship veer very much into not platonic territory idk why they're backing out so hard now #anyway i do really like the show and i can't wait for the finale this week #the boys s3 #frenchie #kimiko miyashiro #frenchie x kimiko

[tooies]

i am relistening to this album because its dark enough outside in the mornings now and i forgot how much i love these songs. and now you have to listen to one of them too because im telling you to. either way check this song out because i think that this is what love sounds like

#tooies favourite songs :3 #to clarify: i dont mean love as in just one type like romantic or platonic or whatever #i think this song is like. the whole thing. like if you took all the love in the universe and bundled it all up into a perfect sphere #well the shape doesnt matter. but like you get the idea #its like. what it feels like to be loved by the universe because you are part of it. you know? #like the kind of love in the mines craft end poem. that kind #^ spelling it mines craft so i dont clog up the tag with my ramblings lol #either way i think thats everything i have to say about it. if you have questions let me know and i will give more incoherent ranting #but still listen to it btw

[steelandscience]

To be quite honest? As long as we acknowledge that they are incredibly important to each other, and they have a connection that few in-universe understand the depth of (and is also pretty unique in the show in general)… I love platonic jayvik as much as I love romantic jayvik

#it’s their emotional closeness that makes it so good #it’s the ‘you’re my soulmate’ #not in the ‘we fuck’ way #but in the ‘we connect on an intellectual and spiritual level’ way #it’s the once in a lifetime relationship thing for me #and all of THAT is why they’re so good as partners and why it’ll be so good and painful when they divorce into their lore selves lol #(I do still think it’s Neat(tm) when they fuck tho lol) #although TO BE HONEST #when I first started shipping them I imagined it as purely romantic? #that was also like… back in November tho hahaha #but I think the sex is the LEAST important part of the relationship (to me at least) #and when you remove that… #platonic and romantic don’t have to be that different for them? #I don’t see Viktor as being a ‘this is my boyfriend’ kind of person so just being Partners feels like that’s their vibe #and what that means to them is up to them and their closed lab door LMFAOOO #also just… Jayce doing ANYTHING to protect Viktor #including kicking Heimer off the council #that is phenomanal loyalty to a friend or a brother or a partner #and Viktor immediately only caring about what JAYCE thinks about his use of shimmer #they just mean SO MUCH to each other and ig that’s what I care about at the end of the day #jayvik #viktor arcane #jayce arcane #sir e speaks #arcane thoughts

[lunarblue21]

I was just mulling over Manny/Diego (mango)  versus Sid/Diego (siego)  in terms of how people tend to view the pairings, and since I just love Ice Age so much my face was blushing from the intensity of my feelings (this happens A LOT WITH me when I think about Ice Age!) and I came to this realisation about the love (which, I must say, is purely platonic, but regardless... if one looks at it from a shipping viewpoint) I notice the love between Manny and Diego is a much quieter love yet it is still visible, because it originates from sacrifice, a willingness to pay anything at the cost of another, and it just sings faithfulness. 

siego, on the other hand, is more attractive to people shippers, who, in this fandom show themselves to be quite obtuse when it comes to subtext, since it toys with tropes shippers are familiar with, though I don't see it at all since I think canon - from the original movie even so far as continental drift - leans more in favour of mango. However, I personally think that for siego, the shipping is more popular because of the largely BST-y interactions between Diego and Sid, and people just loooove to jump on that when it comes to shipping. (see: makorra)  

Anyway, mango is the pairing (if I shipped slash and if there is one slash ship I love, it’s Mango though my wont is to write them bromantically) that would appeal more to me, since Manny and Diego don't even need to say anything to each other, but their bond is crystal clear. Their love for each other - since love should truly be synonymous with selflessness - is always front and centre. 

okay, leave me to die in my platonic mango feels. 

Oh, and the mentioned fic in the tags is called “A Spark” and comes highly recommended by me! :) You can find it on ff.net. 

#Ice Age #Ice Age meta #dynamics #shipping #and yes 'mango' is the pairing name for Manny/Diego #it originates from a 2007 Original film fic by an author called Semine Moonlight #which is a really good fic #and I was clueless for years what she meant about 'sorta mango' #but now I realise and feel silly that I didn't notice it #lol #Manny #Diego #Sid #Bromance #Ice Age feels #old Ice Age meta of mine never posted so here it is #Oh and Mango is the best becos it can be shipped platonically/bromantically #or through slash lens #it can be read both ways lol ^^ #which is why I LOVE Mango as a ship of any kind #q

[shopcat]

"how can you not like jonathan and nancy if steve's your fave" well because i actually like him ☠️

the litmus test for actually liking steve is u have to love robin and the litmus test for actually understanding steve is you can't like st4ncy

#asks #also not sure what brought this on but you people are gonna get me killed #To soothe any troubled souls i will just rehash very quickly i like nancy just fine but i like her potential and i don't want her AROUND #HIM RIGHT NOW they need a restraining order 300 feet #and i like jonathan when he's with his family and when he's with argyle and otherwise he is kind of a flop especially re steve obviously #but really i just like whatever fanon jonathan that's been magicked up i never vibed w him to begin w bc i found him annoying and tiring #SORRY!!!! but i hate the ohhhhhuuhhhhh i just want to listen to the smiths and read poetry i'm so tortured types We would not be friends #but then again i wouldn't be friends with like. eddie. also i didn't like eddie either LOL i had to warm up to him as i watched #AAAND. i don't personally like nancy No but i think ppl fall for the misogyny because the duffer brothers are. misogynists. #i would wager platonic st0nathan do still have potential bc the fact really is they just haven't interacted at ALL #i don't even think they've said an actual word to each other since season 1 really #and i am AWARE his little season 4 STEVE? was meant to be lighthearted and then nancy's response is like to open up however the hell #they're going to attempt to fix the st0ncy triangle BUT GOOD GOD loving a character who the narrative hates is soul crushing OKAY #bc i fear they will not fix it in a way that doesn't completely decimate his character let alone nancy's either. Okay let's go outside #oh and i like when ppl like do the fix it nancy treatment like i said i do like her and her potential i think they can all be besties #but s4 also traumatised me #sts