#but we are close to done I promise

[ruporas]

soft (and some bittersweet)

#trigun stampede #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #i think they both spent majority of their lives in solitude and ofc vash went town to town and made friendships promises and etc along the w #way + he had his home and whatnot in the long years he's been alive but he still just seemed so lonely. #in prior versions of trimax he had friends at home at least and maybe he mightv made some but luida and brad are basically just his #guardians in this adaption. like brad used to be a homie.... vash watched that little dude grow up.... and jessica too.... but he doesn't #have that in this adaption. nor a town like july where he had grown close to the townspeople and shaped that tragedy to be closer to his #heart. and wolfwood spent years fighting under the eom and doing shit under their jurisdiction when we saw him so adamantly try to reject #and fight back against that fate. i dont think he had a second at all to get familiar with townspeople or even care to #so its just these two lonely ass souls and vash immediately seeing the good in ww and points it out #ww who is under orders again to be involved in vash's business but he's also SO touchy about it bc vash is so careless and lack that self #regard and also just is not seeing the world that ww is seeing. but then vash helps him and saves him by sharing a piece of what /he/ sees #and it fucking. rescrambled ww's brain for a sec. HE GAVE HIM HOPE!!! he gave him hope!!!! and in turn ww gave vash hope too and its #all done in like 3-4 eps. there's so much fervent attachment in what they managed to give each other in such a short time #but theyre limited to the contract to the inevitable confrontation with knives - so while theyd want to give into that chance to love this #person who managed to give them smth special they just can't at all #ruporas art

[jils-things]

SKADJKAJFKSFSAA content warning: embarrassing moment during my dinner out... /lh

#so - my dinner party right? while eating - i couldnt help but notice the waiters that attend to our tables were... young and nice looking #SAGFHHJAHJGSDSAGAS LISTEN JUST LISTEN #one of them stood out to me - he just looked.. really good looking #i promise you i dont fall easily irl -- but this guy just caught my attention #he had the whole waiter outfit though it was more casual - i frowned noticing that he didnt have a nametag on like the other workers ASDDJA #everytime i passed by - i would glance at him and just.. idk appreciate him adjsahsjfksfs im so sorry if this sounds weird HELPLASDAWHA #he just kept visiting our table since there were many of us and i would just smile when he pops up #now when everyones done eating - he would pick up their plates and bro. he took one plate in front of me and i was not ready for it SDFGSHF #picked up the dish next to my sister and i was like ASDAHFJSDAGSD (BREATHE) #BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOT WORST? (OR BEST?) #IT WAS GETTING LATE. THE RESTARAUNT WAS CLOSING UP AND THE WAITERS KINDA SLOWED DOWN WITH THEIR PACE #they were moving the chairs back in order. the guy i like decides to sit down. and hes there. just breathing #SUDDENLY HE STARTS TO REMOVE HIS BOWTIE AND I WAS LIKE.OH OKAY OKAY. OH #i thought that was it BUT THEN NOOOO HE UNDOES TWO OF HIS BUTTONS AND I SAW HIS COLLAR BROOO I WANTED TO GO HOME SO BAD #AND THEN WE WOULD ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT WHAT KINDA FUCKIN WATTPAD STORY IS THISSSSSSSS #I WAS SO . EMBARRASSED BUT ALSO LIKE AKSJDAKJFS WHY IS HE SO FINE HHHRRR #i was legit praying to just think back to steven like i dont know how to handle this genuinely ahjdfksafhsfsa #what a day that was...... #~ rambling #man i hope this never happens to me again /lh

[pearl-kite]

Space demon, now with twinkle. Better resolution still below the cut <3

#kirehn draws #fought with csp for over 4 hours to figure this shit out and it's still TECHNICALLY not exactly what I had in mind #but it's close enough and I REALLY like how it turned out #I did not intend for him to turn out so pretty I promise o3o #okay tags for actual things: #redacted asmr #redacted vega #redactedverse #rasmr #demons #demon #tiefling #digital art #digital illustration #artists on tumblr #art #this was a LOT of fun up until the animating part #and to be honest I still don't really know what was causing the issues I was having but whatever it works now #wanted to do some more twinkly stars but brain was very much ef this I'm done it's done so here we go #looks better on desktop tbh #and this time enlarging it on mobile doesn't help much 😩 #alas

[lbhslefttiddie]

Update: I read the fic instead of sleeping and got juked into around 40k words of YQY and SY father-son relationship feels and then maybe 9k more of actual Qijiu starting to happen (?). I'm fucking dying. I'm also crying as I type this because the entire sequence of the past few chapters is just :^)

eh... you mean mouse on the thorn? its not actually that long is i

what the fUCK

#asks #we ARE getting close to the actual 79s #not next chapter but maybe in like. three chapters #in maybe three chapters 79 will have An Actual Conversation (this time with zero stabbing involved) #it will be so fun and grand #13 is about 65% done so hopefully that is a promising forecast for that speed at which Things Will Happen #the last couple chapters (or really any chapter with sqq being Like That) have been trickier than is normal for me i think #bc im trying to balance some very conflicting facets of sqq's personality while he is also actively getting worse!! #but stabbing yqy was intended as like. the truly worst thing (for him) that he could have done #so he's more or less hit rock bottom. which is also to say that The Improving will slowly be creeping its way in #against sqq's will #mottau

[levil0vesyou]

Literally what are you still doing here!!! What do you want!!! Just unfollow me!!! What, you didn't notice you're the one mutual I deliberately didn't refollow with the new main??

What do I have to do to get your terf ass to finally fuck off

#for my other followers: yes this is about a follower but if you're unsure then it isn't you. the person this is about knows 100% it's her #or at least i fucking hope so #'i don't follow fascists' girl you are the fascist #i know i promised you we'd stay friends. but i didn't realise you'd join a hate movement dedicated to eradicating my existence #just leave!! it's been years!!! we haven't even talked to each other in ages!!!! #btw. this is me showing you the door nicely. if you don't unfollow me i might softblock you. and prolly hardblock on the old account tbh #just leave girl. what are you still doing here. have i not made my blog inhospitable enough to the likes of you? #ofc it hurts to cut someone out you've known for like a decade and were very close with. why do you think i've tolerated you here this long #but like. i'm at my limit girl. i should've done this years ago and didn't. pls just leave. just leave!! why are you still here!!! LEAVE!!! #personal #cw terf mention #mine #i do not want you here. i've already let you stay longer than was good for me. fuck off

[starlooove]

I think what bothers me about tim stans is that he DID go through it a lot but they try to make it somebody else’s fault every time; usually so tim can like. Yell at them or be justified in how much he self isolated when the truth is that it was very ugly and messy and there was a lot of fucked up feelings with nowhere to go which is partially why he dipped so thoroughly in the first place (mind you he wasn’t like. Completely cut off he was just choosing not to talk to anybody) but y’all can’t stand that maybe he made a choice for himself that sucked and wanna say shit like Dick tried to throw him in Arkham and he got abandoned by the hero community for no reason when searching for Bruce 💀

#TW some tim positivity #mutuals look away 💔 #I’m sorry i just think it’s so interesting #that a lot of his issues between Kon is dead and bruce is back was due to self isolation #on purpose! like he chose not to talk to anyone ever then got confused when he felt bad #exaggerating but yknow #anyways trying to blame everyone else is sooo #like even tim who looooves to point fingers didnt actually blame anyone 💀 #bc they didn’t do shit #it’s so much harder to grasp tim made an obviously worse choice than it is to think he was pushed to that point #when like. we know he makes bad choices he’s done so since he went to Dick and asked that grown man to be Robin again 💀 #what I think is so interesting about tim is that he likes to from his pov cut out the middleman #he’ll jump to an extreme outta nowhere and it works a lot but it also bites him in the ass a lot #and sometimes it’s so unecessary that it actively makes his life worse #and that’s so much more fun than ‘everyone hates him 🥺’ #I think my fave part is that from his pov it makes total sense but as ur reading u can see he’s off his fucking rocker (derogatory btw.) #and heavy on the derogatory on that part bc too many of y’all are so. consoling??? that’s not the right word but close enough when u talk #abt his flaws. like when y’all call him white or a loser but everyone can tell u relate #I promise u we can all tell #ur not slick #sorry this is supposed to be tim positivity adjacent #once again mutuals look away 😞 #turning off revlogs bc I exaggerate a lot but then don’t go i to depth and I don’t need yt ppl getting pissed about their fave AGAIN #just take it with a grain of salt and go #but also it’s been awhile since I read YJ and RR so if I’m wrong…idc it’s just TIM 😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣😂🤣🤣🤣🤣😂

[beanie-twink]

This time I got some sleeping at last recs for you!

Before I started compiling them I was convinced that it was mostly gonna be angst again, but honestly? I think this might have the highest amount of happy songs (4/7) I’ve recced you so far lmao

1. Mercury

→ we’re still gonna start with the angst tho

→ at first I was gonna say this feels a lot like anthony post leaving smosh…

but honestly? 

I really feel like it fits both of them pretty well during that time

“Rows of houses sound asleep

Only street lights notice me

I am desperate if nothing else

In a holding pattern to find myself”

“I talk in circles, I talk in circles

I watch for signals, for a clue

How to feel different, how to feel new

No one can unring this bell

Unsound this alarm, unbreak my heart new

God knows, I am dissonance

Waiting to be swiftly pulled into tune”

“I'll go anywhere you want, anywhere you want

Anywhere you want me”

(-> doesn’t really fit that time, but it still hits so hard with them imo)

“I know the further I go

The harder I try, only keeps my eyes closed

And somehow I've fallen in love

With this middle ground at the cost of my soul”

-> this part being about why Anthony left smosh and also kind of feeling like Ian "betrayed" a part of their soul by being willing to stay even though the content wasn't as good/connected to them as it used to be

(like obvi he doesn't think that way anymore, but I am soooo curious about what will be in that letter and I feel like it could be something along those lines)

2. North

→ literally their journey through the years 

-> like from the start of building smosh until the rekindling and working together again

“We will call this place our home

The dirt in which our roots may grow

Though the storms will push and pull”

“We’ll tell our stories on these walls

Every year, measure how tall

And just like a work of art”

“A little broken, a little new

We are the impact and the glue

Capable of more than we know

We call this fixer upper home”

“With each year, our color fades

Slowly, our paint chips away

But we will find the strength

And the nerve it takes

To repaint and repaint and repaint every day”

→ especially this part is so!!!

“Smaller than dust on this map

Lies the greatest thing we have:

The dirt in which our roots may grow

And the right to call it home”

3. East

→ both of them reminiscing on the past and when they first started creating videos together

“I set out to rule the world

With only a paper shield and a wooden sword

No mountain dare stand in my way”

“My kingdom towers above it all

While I sleep safe and sound in my cardboard walls”

“Now I bear little resemblance to the king I once was

I bear little resemblance to the king I could become

Maybe paper is paper, maybe kids will be kids

Lord, I wanna remember how to feel like I did”

4. West

→ Ian’s POV both during the “between years” and I also kinda see it as him reassuring Anthony that they will work things out together

“Maps stretched out

Too many miles to count

Let's just say we're inches apart

And even closer at heart”

“Another pin pushed in

To remind us where we've been

And every mile adds up

And leaves a mark on us

And sometimes our compass breaks

And our steady true north fades”

-> just the idea of both of them kind of thinking of the other as their compass/the person that gives them a sense of direction in life

-> and back to vidcon also as a reference to Ian loosing his "magnifying glass"

“We'll be just fine

I just know we will”

“Time moves slow

When half of your heart has yet to come home

Every minute's adding up

And leaving a mark on us

I can't get you out of my mind

I solemnly that I'll never try”

(I am so normal about the last part of this song, I swear! *sobs*)

5. I'll keep you safe

→ again, them reconnecting and deciding to create videos together again 

“I'll keep you safe

Try hard to concentrate

Hold out your hand

Can you feel the weight of it?

The whole world at your fingertips”

“Don't be, don't be afraid

Our mistakes, they were bound to be made

But I promise you I'll keep you safe”

“You are an artist

But your heart is your masterpiece

And I'll keep it safe”

“As you build up your collection

Of pearls that you pulled from the deep

A landscape more beautiful

Than anything that I've ever seen”

→ this part just reminds me a lot of the whole sun/magnifying glass conversation as well, if that makes sense? 

6. Light

→ the reconnection, mainly through Anthony’s POV; except for the orange line which was literally Ian when Anthony left

“May these words be the first to find your ears

The world is brighter than the sun now that you're here

Though your eyes will need some time to adjust

To the overwhelming light surrounding us”

“I'll give you everything I have

I'll teach you everything I know

I promise I'll do better

I will always hold you close

But I will learn to let you go

I promise I'll do better

I will soften every edge

I'll hold the world to its best

And I'll do better

With every heartbeat I have left

I will defend your every breath

And I'll do better”

“Cause you are loved, you are loved more than you know

I hereby pledge all of my days to prove it so”

7. Seven

→ I listen to the album this is on a lot but somehow this song always slipped past me before

→ but in connection with Ianthony?? hits so good istg

→ the final and (imo) happiest song on this list 

→ literally them right now, just being so excited about being best friends and working on smosh videos again <3

→ especially Anthony’s POV (mostly fueled by all the vidcon content)

“How nice it'd be if we could try everything

I'm serious, let's make a list and just begin

"What about danger?" So what? "What about risk?"

Let's climb this mountain before we cross that bridge!”

“'Cause I'm restless

For whatever comes next”

“How wonderful to see a smile on your face

It costs farewell tears for a welcome home parade

A secret handshake between me and my one life 

( →  them just doing the friendship high-five over and over again)

I'll find the silver lining no matter what the price”

“'Cause I'm hungry

For whatever comes next”

“But I want to be here

Truly be here

To watch the ones that I love bloom

And I want to make room

To love them through and through and through

And through the slow and barren seasons too

I feel hope Deep in my bones

Tomorrow will be beautiful”

“And I'm ready

Restless and hungry

For whatever comes next”

Honourable mentions: 

(As in not accurate enough for a whole song analysis for them, but some of the vibes are there) 

(These two especially leaning more towards the anxiety that Anthony has talked about) 

Neptune 

Pluto

Always gotta start with angst also I HAVE NEVER HIT TAG LIMIT B4 THIS IS WHAT YOUR RECS DID TO ME

#mercury ruined me #wallpaper-inside-my-heart you’ve done it again #‘I’ll go anywhere you want me’ and I’m supposed to be sane #‘the harder I try only keeps my eyes closed’ makes me think of like them trying so hard to make it work back then but not realizing #That they need to grow apart for a little #so like that part is like Ian #ALL OF NORTH IS SO THEM REBUILDING #can I just say east starts out so good that piano medley is so beautiful #EAST IS SO EARLY SMOSH CODED #AND….'the years wore on and changed my heart' is how they changed while making smosh and how Anthony lost sight of that start #‘we’ll be just fine’ in west oh okay I’m losing my mind #even just the title of ‘I’ll keep you safe’ is enough to make me lose it personally #Anthony being like no we can do it we can create again!!! and showing Ian when they have that first writing session #‘don’t be afraid’ SHUT UP RN. #not a single hehehe moment in the building rn #DARKNESS REWRITTEN BY THEIR REUNION. #‘your heart is a masterpiece’ my god please I’m gonna fall to my knees #‘the world is brighter than the sun now that you’re here’…I need therapy rn #‘I promise I’ll do better’ STOP?!?!?!? #‘I will soften every edge’ Anthony when he let go and stopped being bitter and angry #‘your eyes will need time to adjust’ bc they spent so much time apart #GIVE YOU EVERYTHING I HAVE. #OP PLEASE #DEFENDING EVERY BREATH. #YOU ARE LOVED?!)/&:&/@2 #you connecting the part in seven to the handshake IM SICK #THE WELCOME HOME PARTJSKAJSJSJD #‘I want to be here truly be here’ good fucking bye #literally Anthony #ianthony song recs

[bejeweledmp3]

computer how do i stop feeling insecure on my writting so that can i write. computer please

#talking tag; #ok so. story time sure why not #today is my first day of uni and i had classes from 8.30 am to 11:45 which was. fine i was exhasuted but it was fine #and then i had to wait to meet some friends for lunch and i started writting and it just hit me that totp is actually over 50k words #and it's like brooooo i literally wrote a novel length fic (that's still not done btw! not close!) and for whattt who even has the time #to read something like that like why bother. it's not even (directly) about the main characters and i just #i'm afraid that i'm repeating myself i'm afraid that chracters are not being developed like i hoped they would i'm afraid that no one will #care and i'm also afraid that the people that do care won't like it #and then i met with my friends who study cinema and they bumped into people from their classes and i was just. #there listening to their conversations without interacting like what the FUCKKK am i doing here pretending that i fit in with the cool #cretive people and that my prose is any good at all #just. 50 thousand words of fanfiction and i'm worried that none of them are any good #but lately my motto is that i will figure it out so. i will figure it out #i did cry about it (lmao) which i'm counting as progress from the empty nothingness i felt around this time of year a year ago #but yeah man it sucks. totp is my baby but (just like kim lmao) my default is being hard on myself. i just can't not be #i think i'll write on my diary about this and then!!! we move on. oh well #i will finish totp that's a promise but yeah. today just hasn't been great i guess #and i have no one in my life to talk to about this so!!!!!! shouting into the void i guess

[sashasluggo]

Sometimes I get sad thinking about all the potential friends I could have had if I didn't have the reflex to close myself off and just let the friendships happen instead

#slugrambles #there are so many people that have tried talking to me and that could have genuinely been good friends #but I was too scared to let it happen #cause I inherently don't like myself as a person and I don't see what people like in me #so I just closed myself off until it fizzled out and they stopped trying #I'm trying to work on it though #I've done a lot of progress but I still have a lot more to do #I'm not gonna give up #and if you ever tried befriending me and I wasn't receptive to it #i promise it wasn't your fault #and maybe one day we can try it again

[cigarette-room]

(pretty long thread rip)

I should be studying for tomorrow but instead I am restless and overthinking and thinking to myself about how there is so much wrong in approaching love from the perspective of trying to be liked and trying to be loved and trying to be good and trying to stick people to yourself with duct tape made of gifts and nice jokes and sweet words because well, it's not only tiring but they will leave in the end anyway, and loving and being loved is supposed to be rest and peace and a sound mind and the more you try the less you achieve any of that! Except I'm my mother's and father's child so I still do it anyway and hang around and try again and cling until it's dead because otherwise it all really hurts but it hurts anyway so

Just dgaf. And if you do then pretend you don't until you convince yourself and restrain your hands so they can't reach out to anyone once they turn their back on you and just. Let people live with their own decisions. I want so hard to be loved that I am making myself disposable like a used rag and for what? It's all gonna be good one day with or without anyone else

#i am perhaps just rambling to myself here #but i am tired of that tendency that was baked into me to try to get anyone to stick around #i remember when my first ex broke up with me i spent literal months clinging to her and trying to negotiate some kind of universe #where we would still talk and be as close as we were before #and she didn't wanna hear #until she did but we eventually distanced and when i moved on she was so upset and i wondered why because? you left me? #and i fought so hard to keep you there but you made your decision and now you're upset at me for moving on? #and the second time around i wasn't any better at it either #and only recently am i realizing that the reason she was so upset at me moving on was because i made myself so reliable #with those stupid promises that I'd be in her life always no matter what happened #and why would I do that? i always cling to people because they matter to me #and they always realize i matter to them once i move on already and am not willingly a part of their life anymore #and like sure i do attract people who tend to be assholes to me but it's on me as well #i am disproportionate in showing my care to people who don't return even 1/5 of it back #and when they get bored i am the one they call weird for that #so i really decided not even to listen to what I need anymore but only to what needs to be done and it's #just letting things go with the flow. i don't have to drag the dead weight of anything i try to keep on my shoulders #do i want to? sure. do i want to be as loved as i never am? i do of course i do #but i am trying too hard. and it's never gonna get me anywhere. because people only ever want me back in their life when i have moved on and #others value themselves more. others don't love anyone blindly so #i don't have to. even though i want. i don't have to #if you gift me a paper I'll gift you a paper. if you want to kiss me I'd want to kiss you too #and if you say you love me I'd love you back and if you forget my birthday I'll forget yours too and #if i hug you but am not hugged back i won't hug you again #i think that's the best way things can go when people are concerned #maybe this is a bit too transactional in a sense but i mean #it wouldnt be fair if it was unequal #if someone does everything for you and you don't return it then you are an asshole to them but #if you give and you aren't given you are a weirdo simply put #it's best if it's equal

[bright-eyed]

The Road Not Taken 

by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.

#i remember reading someone say once that this is one of the most popular poems in the english language despite being the most misunderstood #if you ask someone on the street what they remember it means they usually say it’s about taking the road less traveled and being independen #not taking the traditional way and forging your own path. at least that’s what culture has taken from the poem #but it’s actually about how no matter which path you take you always think back with regret that you didn’t take another #and that you think you can see what each path will lead to but you can’t and at the end of the day they’re not that different #when the older version of the narrator says ‘i took the road less traveled by and that has made all the difference’ that’s how they’re #contextualizing and giving meaning to their decision and their life but one can never know the ‘difference’ that was made because #we can’t live more than one life in order to find out if there really is a difference #we make ourselves promises that we’ll live every version of life and take all the paths we cross but we get older and we realize we can’t #not only that we can’t but we didn’t and we never will have done #when we say that choice made all the difference we’re not talking about how we won because we were independent or started a new trail for #others to follow we’re just saying that that choice made our life what it is and that can never be undone and we can never know what could #have happened #i think that take on it is more depressing for people so they stick with the other one #it’s more inspiring to think of it as a poem about making your own way rather than as a poem about how we are forced to make every decision #that will determine our fates without knowing what might happen and with our eyes closed and ears plugged and no matter what we do #we will probably live to regret something about it #anyway enough rambling #did you know robert frost was a march aries #w #robert frost #kennapost

[devondespresso]

i love gay people in fandom proving their gay ships with just vibes like you'll see a bunch of gifs of a pair interacting and theyre just like "this is not heterosexual behavior" or they'll have screenshots of like a character just fuckin standing there and be like "they're just fruity idk what to tell ya". its like not even like evidence that can be proved it just pure unfiltered gaydar

#gay to gay communication #sometimes i want to be logical and be like well if i was an actor trying to act like x character in x situation #then what other ways could i act this out to look less gay #and sometimes im like yeah no that look is like the only look i can come up with #BUT SOMETIMES #THERE ARE OTHER WAYS #TO CONVEY THAT CHARACTERS EMOTIONS #some examples in the steddie fandom is like that scene where eddies got the bottle to steve throut #if i were asked to act that i don't think i could come up with something less gay looking like that brand of fear and walking on eggshells #look is just going to be gay looking no matter what #BUT #the scene where eddies talking about how cool steve is #looking over to him like constantly #going back and forth between being super close and at a normal distance #steve trying to remain aloof but still being clearly effected by the praise #steve staring at eddies mouth while eddies talking about fixing a romantic relationship with nancy #even though theres no canon evidence to him needing to lip read or being hoh #(and i love hoh Steve i promise i do but the show clearly didn't think to do it) #that scene and most moments in it could've been done very different and still stuck to the same script #and thats why we love it :) #also shoutout to for your modesty dude they could've made that less gay but they didn't #devon thinks sometimes

[percyjacksonfan3]

ok then DONT think about Eddie and Chrissy alive and getting a kid together and Eddie taking that kid to go see the LOTR film adaptation in 2001. bonus if Dustin and the rest of the nerd crew come with. I’m sorry

Lol nonny I love how you said "getting a kid together" as if they'll just pick one up from a store or something, made me lol

But okay when I tell you the idea of them as parents has been consuming me?? Because they'd be so freaking cute, and you just know they would put 100% into not being bad parents like theirs were. Like they love their child(ren) with their whole hearts and I just... we were so robbed

And then you throw LOTR into the mix (to me, a confessed Tolkienverse lover due to Peter Jackson's movies) and I just... want it SO bad. And because those movies are gold there is no chance Eddie is not walking out of that theater vibrating from pure joy and unrestrained excitement and love, whereas Chrissy just shrugs and is like 'the characters were all pretty and I know enough from association with my husband (because yes they're absolutely married in this scenario) to understand what was going on and enjoy it'

Also the idea of the entire nerd crew being fun uncles and stuff to any edssy kids is too much for me to handle, I love it 🥺 they dynamics would be so good but they honestly all have such protective instincts after bonding over everything like they have so they would just be the sweetest with kids.

#this whole idea fills me with so much joy you have no idea #also sorry i know this has been sitting in my inbox for a while #lifes been busy! ive been working and last night i went to the shawn mendes concert (which was amazing holy) #and now im headed to scotland for a two week vacation with a friend on monday #so im hoping to have my next chapter of put your lips close to mine done before i do #but who knows #anyway so ive been busy #i promise im not ignoring everybody #edssy #eddissy #is the new name hellcheer? #or what? #i am not kidding when i say we need to decide on a ship name you guys #the loveliest anon to ever anon

[inkspottie]

AYE AYE AYE AYE- NAH- DONT MAKE ME CRY- YOU BETTER NOT BE BRING PIZZIA SIM INTO THE FIC SO SOON. IM TOO INVESTED- ONCE THE FIC IS DONE I WON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO 😭😭😭

The final storm is coming, it’s inevitable

#spottie speaks #so sorry! #we are closing in #it’s getting time for the end #but don’t worry once it’s done we have the sequel #I’ll take a small break but there will be the sequel I promise

[riverofrainbows]

I want to look like a boy so bad its lowkey ruining my life

#tw i am venting in the tags so read with warning if you're not in the headspace for that #own post #trans #dysphoria #i want t so bad but i cant until I'm done with uni to not ruin my state exam with transphobia and i kind of have to get top surgery first #because i cant wear a binder (because of the same disability that causes me to need an extra semester longer for uni i am so close to the #end of my degree) #and top surgery might also take time #and then t comes with a ton of requirements in my stupid transphobic country so it might take even longer #and there is a law in the making to make informed consent possible (and changing your name and gender marker without two evaluations and a #court case) but it'll probably take two more years and there is always the risk of them taking it to the next election period and fucking #everything up because we all know politicians never hold their promises #and i am so burnt out all i want is to sleep #i have been alone at home for a week and i realised i need so much more alone time than i thought as soon as i got used to it I started #having meltdowns going to the grocery store this is so stupid #and i could talk to my parents about it but what could they do? help me process my emotions? dont be ridiculous #they love me so much and support me in everything but they know jack shit about helping me with my emotions #so now i am emotionally neglected while having loving parents bc they were emotionally neglected and never fucking figured it out #which they should have #before popping out a kid #and i should go to bed because this is very much a 'dont trust your emotions after midnight' moment #but i am currently sobbing uncontrollably so that is not very practical

[sereina-archive]

honestly tho i miss rps like this w crazy note counts. where are the 80 note threads. what happened to them. they are an endangered breed but we can bring them back-

#🌹 ooc. #place ur bets for how many notes we'll get on this thread by the time we're done #i genuinely feel like itll be either close to 100 or over #these girls are like. a bit under halfway to gateon right now. there is still SO MUCH to cover #to the people managing to keep up and follow along still. godspeed. bc it's only gonna get crazier and we can promise you that