#can't find a better man

[plakatierenverboten]

Eddie Vedder & Post Malone: Better Man 

#youtube #pearl jam #can't find a better man #vitalogy #eddie vedder #post malone #grunge #1990s music

[canisalbus]

gothic lolita machete came to me in a dream

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#HHWAH #but he unironically kind of makes it work though?? #I never realized that the leap from what he normally wears to gothic lolita would be this small #basically the same thing just a lot more lace and frills and embroidery #loving! the pomegranates! #it always makes me ecstatic when people find a way to include them or his other... symbols? motifs? objects of significance? #it's nice you kept the red gloves and red heels #the little crosses on the capelet and the stockings too hah #and the massive bow where the fascia would go #I support genderfuckery Machete by the way #his design and mannerisms have always been somewhat androgynous or at least that's what I've been trying to aim for #despite his sharp angular form he's supposed to have an aura of elegance and delicateness #at least on his better days when he's not in full rat man mode #given the choice he'd rather be called beautiful than handsome I'm pretty sure #folks have been mistaking him for a goth lesbian a whole lot lately so I can't be too far off #thank you this made me grin like an idiot when I opened the inbox #gift art #aggiepython #own characters #Machete

[notbecauseofvictories]

I will say, while there are many parts of my job that I would happily toss into the sea, it's very neat to stumble onto people who have been doing their job with truly off-the-charts levels of competence, but---and this is key---without the Higher Ups knowing even a little bit about it. I've met at least three of them in the last week, who definitely have been keeping one of our branches afloat, just by dint of their extraordinary levels of knowing.

Or, alternatively---i have been working at my company for 7 months. I discovered today that the entire company has been keeping a repository of policies and documents, with version control and everything. I thought we had 3-5 policies stuck together with bubblegum and hope, but no, there is a whole database!!!

"I'm surprised your manager didn't...uh. Tell you?" said the very nice man who showed me how to find the database.

"Mhm," I murmured noncommittally, because the alternative was frankly, I'd be shocked if she knew it existed.

#I will fully admit to being one of those people who finds deep satisfaction in knowing things #but putting together the disjointed puzzle pieces of this company is like.... #hard drugs maybe? I've never tried them but I can't imagine it's better than telling the head of US legal that actually #you do in fact know the answer to that question. and then everyone on the call falls silent for you. #oohhhhh man that's the stuff. #no wonder the company has to secretly manipulate you

[softpine]

she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

#we're so back baby #i think i'm finallyyyy through the worst of this awful depression i've been in for the past like. month and a half #i mean i woke up this morning and thought ''the sun is so beautiful'' so i think i'm good for now fjksjds #which is great because there's some heavy stuff coming up that i just couldn't handle in that mental state #so i'm hoping i'll be able to move things along a little quicker #but also i might be getting a job in retail against my better judgement so who knows #i've never actually worked in retail... i've done food service and i was a cashier at a pop up shop but nothing like an actual store #but i seriously can't find a job with my degree nor can i even find a desk job. so i'm. man. it's rough out here #i might have to move. but with what money?? lmao the eternal dilemma #SORRY this is a whole diary entry #i hope you guys are well 💖

[hexeratii]

Has anyone read that one Junji Ito's Tomie short story where an artist struggles to recreate Tomies beauty within his artworks and slowly goes crazy attempting to capture her likeness over and over again?

Yeah that's me with Michael Sheen as Aziraphale. I find I can never draw him properly but godamnit I'm gonna keep trying.

#michael sheen is a beautiful man #I feel so bad everytime I absolutely butcher his likeness #I can't draw him as Azi at all but I keep trying #I think I'm getting a lil better #Crowley is my favorite character and yet I've drawn Aziriphale so much simply because I find him so difficult to sketch in my style #David Tennant is beautiful as well tho #good omens fanart #good omens art #good omens #aziraphale good omens #good omens aziraphale #aziraphale #doodle #drawing #art #artwork #illustration #sketch #digital art #digital doodle #procreate #good omens brainrot

[asharaks]

okay so a large part of my issue with halsin is that his character feels inconsistent, right. like larian wanted him to be a wise older man mentor character but then they wanted him to be fuckable, and they wanted him to be a nontraditional/nonmonogamous romance, so they made him sexually experienced and confident and casual, but he's also a romance option, so he talks about having Feelings for the player character. and then he needed to be a quest-giver, so he needed to ask for help. and what we ended up with is "guy who up and abandoned his responsibilities at the first chance of adventure, got captured and needed rescuing, makes all sorts of comments about his sexual experience but loses all self control and wildshapes at the first glimpse of ass, tells you he has feelings for you to get you in bed then leaves at the end of the game, and makes inappropriately sexual comments abt the sexual abuse victim if you're romancing him" - all of which reads as an uncomfortable, unlikeable mess of a guy.

halsin suffers from a lack of focus - he's neither a full romance on the level of the origin companions, nor is he a fling or sub-romance; he got more care and attention than wyll, in some ways, but the writing is flaky and weak and makes him look, frankly, like an incompetent, immature manchild. the bear scene is grossly pubescent (it should've been player choice to initiate that, not have it dropped on you that if he gets too horny there's a risk he'll CAST A SPELL and turn into a literal animal. by mistake. and if that's his reaction to seeing tits what's gonna happen when he cums) and the way he pushes for astarion to join you if you tell him you're in a relationship feels wildly inappropriate.

I know halsin has a history of sexual abuse himself (and I've seen good analyses/critiques of the way that's handled) but again I find it weird that finding out about that is locked behind not just a sex scene but a threesome+ scene - the writers really wanted to drive home that This Guy Fucks to the point where he comes across as pushy, and his trauma is reduced to background noise in a scene where he is essentially a sex object. he is simultaneously objectified by the writers, and in-universe by himself and those around him, but instead of exploring that we're just supposed to go with it; likewise, his lack of commitment and emotional immaturity aren't problems in and of themselves, but it feels like the writers aren't aware that that's the character they've written, and so these things are never appropriately addressed, and his arc and romance don't match up with the other characters' stories about growth and development.

not rly sure where I'm going with this, but it bothers me!! I think it's a nasty mix of the writers' intentions at a cross purpose with the push for fanservice, and the whole thing leaves a sour taste in my mouth t b h.

#ig I wish they'd diverted more of those resources to wyll and left halsin as a simple fling option or smth #I have many meaner things I could say about him but this post isn't about that #it kinda makes me sad. scarred up beefy older elf man should've been my guy but instead I kind of can't stand him:/ #this post was much longer with fix its but I cut them out bc I got bored lol #bg3 #and like. I wish they'd treated him Better he makes me uncomfortable and I find it difficult to empathise with him but. yeah he should've #got more development and better treatment

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[mamawasatesttube]

man. having read kon comics really makes the ao3 timkon tag an absolutely inhospitable place

#rimi talks #i relearn this lesson every week or so when i go maybe this time it'll be better! and then it isn't #<- my own personal sisyphean torment #even in the rare few fics in there that aren't about jason todd. like none of them have anything of substance about kon #and what they do try to do they make up rather than actually knowing anything about him😔 #which like i get it if you only know him from say yj98 you won't know a lot of his history but. #for me (guy who DOES know his history) it takes me so out of it every time. man. can't find any timkon fic to read while im sick. sad! #i should go back to reading star trek fic tbh #lots there to keep me occupied

[scalpho]

the thing about colin is that he's generally fairly passive in the grand scheme of things, and the few things he arguably takes into his own hands are not satisfying.

killing the banana man, an innocent bystander, is not a task he takes any joy in, and he makes an effort to try and atone for it afterwards. killing his shitty father was of course, sick as hell, but it's an act far too steeped in the feeling of "you should have never had to do this in the first place because he was not meant to be alive for you to kill, and, worse yet, he was not meant to be alive to orchestrate your involvement in the FDA, in the murder of a monarch, in what looks like is an attempt to destroy much of calorum" to be gratifying. the closest thing to an embrace his father has ever given him, the "i'm still proud" as he finally goes down - killing the man who is the cause for the majority of colin's hardship should be satisfying, but it's not quite there.

and the rest of it - being born under to a family name which serves as a death sentence, the FDA, delissandro giving him the title of skald, and then raphaniel giving him knighthood under the church - is mostly stuff that happens to him, or stuff he's guided into in some way. he's not completely passive or faultless, of course, but a lot is out of his control and he spends much of his life subject to the ebbs and flows of life, of power and of the powerful people around him

#it's interesting how karna and colin are both low-born and mistreated and don't find themselves in positions of power #unlike the rest of the party - amangeaux and deli are born into power and although raphaniel's gone off the deep end he was a bishop! #but where karna seizes what power she can get and fights to keep her head at least above water (and more if she can help it) #colin is more accepting of his position for better or worse. he knows he's powerless to stop deli but he can't stand to see it so he leaves. #he's a skald and then he's sir provolone and both are titles he stumbled into #titles bestowed upon him by others. titles he didn't necessarily want #ah well. the cheese man got me guys #dimension 20 #d20 #the ravening war #scal txt #colin provolone

[maddy-ferguson]

i don't like j0pper either but when people say joyce should've stayed with bob they always lose me because i have a hard time believing she even liked the man

#like hardcore twitter j0ppers have a point i fear she wasn't amused by his antics #and narratively he's very much her el and her steve the normal she can't go back to after the upside down stuff (like him wanting them to #move to maine) #something else about joyce and hopper. when someone said i don't think hopper's homophobic for saying like is he in s1 (i don't think he #would be based on that alone like it's not a convincing argument to me at all) someone else said you're crazy to think joyce would get #with a man who could be homophobic she would never do that to will when like. wasn't murray's whole thing in s3 that joyce didn't #like that hopper was a brute but that she also kinda liked it. now why they would choose to highlight that instead of continuing on the #path of s1-s2 j0pper idk but just. it's funny that they'd immediately go joyce would never do that to will when like. yeah. #i do think bob was the better choice...for will's stepdad lol. for joyce idk. #for jonathan...no idea #and hardcore j0ppers are cute when they say how dare you base your opinion of hopper on s3 that's like three days in his entire life WELL #we only spend one week a year with these characters blame the duffers for giving us this side of hopper and for leaving us with that for 3 #years. but i can also find stuff i don't like about him in other seasons so we're fine #and like i say: brf slt

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose #I'm just. I'm tired man. #I've been putting off a phone call for two months #i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious #I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much #I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make #I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again #and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign #and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens! #take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff #please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“ #there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship #I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours #mr. bees speaks

[cidnangarlond]

promo for jack? I am but a humble ursine who can climb ladders. take my paw and we can be friends

#can't say I'm a bear because I'm not unfortunately. in the animal sense or big hairy man sense #not yet anyway. we shall see #couldn't find a better image btw you're getting halsin on a ladder

[fiapple]

society if dc hired a writing team of colour who could acknowledge the racial coding of starfire & raven, explore vic's status as a Black man in modern america who's specific disability further means his body is going to be read a certain way by certain people no matter what he does, along with potentially finding a way to sort through the racisim + fetishization that went into prior depictions of dick's heritage:

#i say team as i think team books would probably benefit from more co-writers anyway. allows for more perspective. also pays more artists. #also i think a prior lack of racial sensitivity on the part of major corporations calls for paid opportunity to- for lack of better terms #because i'm stoned & can't find them- fix the fucking mess of it all #there's so much you could do irt to sociopolitical commentary if you just hired the right fucking people. i'm so over this jesus fuck. #dc #ntt #teen titans #the titans #like and even ignoring that there's so much you could do with the idea of friendships & teams as communities if the job was given to #someone who actually fucking CARED about any of those things. #anti tom taylor #legit if i see anyone on the dash praising it i will lose all respect for their opinions. #this man is worse than every insta poet put together and we could have had SO MUCH FUCKING BETTER. #cis white guys write the most absolute crap-paper worthy at best stories&comic companies are just like ''here go. fuck up even MORE stuff'' #am angry #if you see the version of this post with a typo just say nothing. yes my brain was just going ''why why why why'' that hard.

[girlwiththegreenhat]

a dude my ma works with at amazon died of a stroke on the job because they force them to work in hot conditions and they refused him water. they bring in modified temperature readers so they can say "see, it's a safe temperature in here, all up to code uwu" but someone snuck in their own temp reader and it was much hotter than they claim it is.

it was ninety degrees Fahrenheit. heavy lifting for several hours at a time, no water, in 90 degree loading docks.

stop fucking using amazon. or at the very least, fucking unionize.

#amazon #anti capitalism #fuck amazon #liz blogs #i am so relentlessly pissed off #stop accepting corporate nihilism. stop letting them get away with it. stop prioritizing convenience over human fucking decency #i have so many horror stories about amazon i am not fucking shopping there anymore #i mean i already have hardly shopped at amazon for years. i only buy a couple things there because i can't find them anywhere else #i am done. i am over it. no fucking more. amazon can eat my fucking ass #things aren't going to get better if people don't start giving a shit. i am giving a shit. #they treat my mom bad. they treat their workers bad. people are dying. #people are striking left and right. shitty unregulated chinese companies are stealing from people who can't fight back en-mass. #can't fucking do it anymore man. i am so mad. #on that note if you shop on temu/wish/shein/etc fucking block me.

[farseerofv0id]

*scrolling through the tag for the first time*

"Mizu is a trans man and so it's transphobic for the creators to show part of his life as a woman or talk about him with she/her at all"

*absurd amount of self control not to engage in what would become a fruitless discussion, ultimately keep scrolling*

"Mizu is a woman and it's disrespectful to women to call her a trans man because it takes away a 'strong woman' representation"

*scream into a pillow*

#blue eye samurai #the character themself doesn't care at all about their gender #which leads me to headcanon them agender BUT #they could end up being gender binary either way #they just don't have time/comfort/opportunity etc to think about it #that's an interesting character to think about the whole spectrum of gender #(and that's both a bit funny and a bit sad that even outside their show they can't escape the narrative (being gendered)) #i'm bad at explaining stuff sorry #in conclusion: stop telling people what to do 0_0 #and stop seeing everyone that disagree with you as automatically *bad* #most people seeing mizu as a woman arent transphobic #no more than most of those seeing mizu as a man are misogynistic #EDIT i think i've find a better way to say what i want to say #it is interesting for the story/the character/yourself to see or having seen mizu as a trans man or woman or nonbinary #and what they are intended to be/will maybe revealed to be doesn't matter and won't (or shouldn't) change that

[burr-ell]

ngl gonna lie it may be basic but i love the idea of percy charming and romancing vex

not just bc it's terribly romantic and im embarrassing but also bc it's genuinely super meaningful? percy knows how hard vex has worked to scrape for anything good in her life, constantly fighting to prove her worth, and she's just. so strong and good, in all the ways that matter. and yet she's so vulnerable in ways she only shows him because she trusts him. and i think beyond any kind of archetypal notions about romance, vex wants to occasionally be taken care of, to know that she's worthy of being taken care of, particularly by someone who otherwise gives her the tools to fight for herself. she's fought for herself so much, and she loves it and she's good at it—but it's also become a mask. and she's been wearing those masks of strength by herself for so long, and having someone she can trust who accepts her weakness for what it is and still utterly adores her and dotes on her while also bolstering that strength is such beautiful closure for her as a character.

idk just percy courting vex and sweeping her off her feet and spoiling her and treating her like a princess sometimes is something that can be so personal

#im a MESS for them #perc'ahlia #percahlia #percy de rolo #vex'ahlia #critical role #cr1 spoilers #to be clear this isnt aimed at anyone for anything its just something i think about #bc yeah percy and vex are the ultimate girlboss and malewife #but the reason they work is that vex is just as vulnerable with percy as he is with her #percy's issues are more obvious but vex wears her own masks and the only one she consistently removes them for is percy because he gets it #because he understands what that's like #and there's a relief in finding that person you can be emotionally AND physically vulnerable with #and i think vex would absolutely indulge in that physical security esp as it reflects emotional security #also vex being beautiful and desirable AND vulnerable and soft to an attractive man is even better now that she's portrayed as a woc #bc woc often get hit with the Strong Independent Woman stick and vex just can't be simplified that way #it's about the FACETS