#created my dating life

[savethepinecones]

okay i was totally right about not putting my rant in the tags of that last post because ive been writing it up and its getting out of hand even for its own post and im not sure if im gonna finish writing everything out or if im gonna just scream in my head for a while. anyway on a related note who wants to hear about my very boring dating history

#honestly i keep blurring the line between 'personal anecdote related to the topic' and 'oversharing on the internet yet again' #and after typing a bunch of shit out ive realized im not sure which category the post is ending up in #so im not sure if i should post it #but also i typed a lot so i dont wanna just toss it #idk its basically just a bunch of explaining mormon shit #and how it affected my dating life #created my dating life #whatever #but also im not sure whats common knowledge about how the mormon church works and whats not #so i think ive overexplained a bunch of shit in an attempt at clarity #which is definitely a reoccuring thing for me lol #anyway im starting to realize that its probably not interesting to anyone but me so idk if im gonna bother typing the rest out #like theres no reason to put any more effort into some tangent if no ones interested in the result idk

[thisischeri]

instagram: cheri.png

#I still think this is a beautiful landing page #with good negative space and everything #for the first time in my life I can identify that i feel lonely it’s wild I do not recommend it #the dating apps are the most toxic tech that was ever created #not one bone in my body wants to play the games with the guys #imagine studying chat psychology for 5 years then witnessing boys trying to play you with it #ANYWAYS #cybercore #y2k #old internet #old web #cyber y2k #00s #2000s #tech #moodboard #cyber core #old apple #apple #user interface #y2k nostalgia #nostalgiacore #nostalgia #girlblogging #techcore #tech blog

[cove-simp]

When the Baxter DLC drops…

#unapologetically going to date this man #I know cove gonna be punching the air when it happens #sorry the video is laggy idk how to create on tiktok only scroll mindlessly #enjoy this trend on my fyp tho #cove holden #baxter ward #our life #our life beginnings & always #gb patch #gb patch games

[fangirlforeversthings]

Attack of the clones belongs to the girls.❤🌸🌅

#late for aotc release anniversary #attack of the clones in general belongs to the girls with mullet obi padaani padmes sunset lake dress the picknick and anidala wedding #the wedding😭❤ #their wedding is the most beautiful and majestic movie wedding ever created i can never see it too often 🌅🌸 #i gotta hang it up my wall in wall life size as tapestry #mullet space jesus obi 💞 #the picknicks their cute dates❤ #padmes wardrobe in this movie🌸 #*edit ani looks so pregnant and obi being the proud father in the fifth gif🥺 #star wars prequels #star wars #obi wan kenobi #mullet obi wan supremacy #star wars fandom #attack of the clones #space jesus #anakin skywalker #padmé amidala #anakin and padme #anidala

[lovrbooy]

i feel like i have very unpopular opinions on dennis within this fandom. i am scared of fandom spaces so. to the tags i go

#i fear that some of you see dennis reynolds in a fanon way that you have accepted as canon ... #he is not . GOOD! guys. i say this as someone who deeply relates to him #he is canonically unmedicated for bpd and i Am medicated so i feel extremely attached to the mindset he has that used to be my LIFE! #i dont believe dennis would ever willingly put himself in any sort of situation where he isnt in control or powerful. its why he creates #entire identities just to have power over women for a few weeks. he doesnt date because at some point they become powerful and he losespowe #i am certain that there are parts of his psyche that love his friends and family bc he DOES have feelings ! but i also believe its hard for #him to accept that or even think about it if he wanted to because he is so obsessed with his delusions of grandeur #i dont think love is ever something he could give to someone easily and if he did it would be a painful toxic wound #we already know this. he loves dee and they are horrible for each other. and hes worse for her whether some ppl want 2 admit it or not #dennis is my favorite character on this show and i wanna reiterate that because im scared ppl will be annoying I Dont Share my Opinions #about Media a lot even though i think Tons of them #iasip #dennis reynolds

[oneiricazalea]

Happy 5th birthday to my dear OC, Sei ♥

#my art #illustration #original character #oc | seijaku #world | luxenvalice #sentimental rambling in the tags #my dearest girl!! light of my life!! the only reason i get out of bed sometimes!!!! #she was drawn earlier than Feb 14 2019 - but that is the date she was first posted to ToyHouse #and so that is the date she was probably truly solidified in my mind as an OC that was going to stay #Do you ever have an OC and don't realize how much of you - the creator - is in that OC? #realizing stupidly late that this is why it bothered me immensely when people took art involving her to repost #I still feel kinda gross posting personal art because of it but #that's why my watermark is a little more annoying now #Anyway it feels like a lifetime has passed from her starting off as a BNHA OC #Don't remember anymore why I made the conscious decision to watch the show when I always had and still have trouble starting/finishing medi #but while I don't keep up with it anymore - it did result in me creating her #first as a student character and then changing her immediately when I saw a certain villain loool #there was a lot more I was going to say down here but the internet has cut out #So for now I'll just end with... #thanks for your time if you read this 💕 #and I look forward to doing more with this character in Genshin and other fandoms #and ofc the collab story she is involved in 😌

[saetoru]

i feel like some ppl need to realize ppl in their 30s are not old it’s just that ppl in their 20s are just young 😐

#⚠︎︎ tw: tee is talking! #i saw this tik tok about age gap relationships #and while i am heavily against the idea of a 30 year old dating a 20 year old #i don’t think the reason that’s bad is bc a 30 year old is actually old #bc they’re not old #the reason it’s bad is bc their life experiences and maturity levels are very different #at 20 or early 20s #most of us are just stepping to adult responsibilities #and there is a lack of understanding of the real world around us #so #to date a 30 year old #almost always means being taken advantage of in one way or another #so yes if my friend dated a 30 year old i would be very very alarmed by their intentions w my friend #but they are not ‘old’ #like we need to stop pushing this agenda that once u hit ur 30s u have become ancient #it’s ridiculous and creates a lot of insecurities in other aspects of life #okay rant over my bad #fjskmfkekakf

[elidelochaned]

ohhhh the urge to delete instagram

#reels are brainwashing me fr . like they just make me stupid #first of all why is there a label for everything. idgaf about a girl's girl or a guy's girl or mogging or looksmaxxing whatever tf #it doesn't matterrrrrrrrr #all instagram does is ruin self esteem and create mob mentalities and destroy critical thinking and im so over it. IM SO OVER IT!!!!!!! #don't even get me started on how reels have ruined my own self esteem and my perceptions of dating like it's all just so fucking stupid #even when im outside living my life away from my phone i am STILL worried about how im perceived by people. FOR WHAT. why can't i just be m #anyways fuck instagram i hate what it's done to me and literally my entire generation #and i hope there will be a day when i can be my normal self again and let social media and all of its bullshit go. i just wanna live

[strawberrybabydog]

as another newly discovered lesbian in his bodily 20s, i dont think we have to do all the required reading immediately. i think we get to play around in our label/identity and figure out if + how it fits us first. our history IS important but so is our self-discovery. we need to allow ourselves to play in this space and try it on before we commit full hog to this. youre allowed to explore your sexuality before going down the list of required literature :°]

🫂 thank you anon. been feeling lonely about it thru reflecting on how all of my peers seemed to Know they were queer when we were in middle/high school, and i had an idea (ID'd as bi and always got butterflies around butches) but .... all lesbians know how complicated flirting can be !! :0P its comforting to know there are other queer people at my pace. thank you for sharing this

#beginning to think i just grew up in a shitty area with just so many mean fuckin people lol #i think i shared this in notes on another post but my queer friends in HS never saw me as queer #i even got 'called out' (bullied and humiliated) for dating a man longterm when the teacher was absent #i think THAT paired with adults constantly telling me i just 'dont understand female* friendship' created this little ball inside me #and im at a point in my life where i have to face it ...... i was posting about it here because i was trying to be brave #i dont feel very brave but what choice do i have. im ready as i'll ever be :0) #not dog #personal #asks #should i tag these posts as anything specific btw i dont rly know cuz i dont intend for it to be a super regular topic

[necrogfie]

i hate dating sim/otome game where you have no clear way of checking the targets affection for u .. the one im playing right confuse the hell out of me and idk what I'm doing ??

bcuz i obvi went for the emotionally unavailable musican and like, one instance he tease the hell out of the mc and is like very close to her and the next he filrt like hell w an another girl and im like ?? who do u want (also often he filrt w this one girl that we/the mc know has feeling for him, if she isn't lying and it's like urgh !!)

and then the next, when ur spying on a private chat between him and another girl with whom he filrt too soemtime, she is like haha ur so silly x3 but also ... im jealous that [the dude she's interested in and it's painfully obvious] doesn't look my way and look at mc ... she rlly is popular isn't she? he's like lol wdym, and she is like it's so obvious [her crush] like her and he's so over the top .. but aren't u jealous, don't u like her ? he's like lol noo and poof u can't spy on them anymore like BABE u do not know im here, she told u who she like and ur willing to do the same ??

aaand also it feel very confusing when the girls crush literally wasn't talked to us since the first episode of the game when we go on a date w him bcuz it just doesn't work and when we finally talk a bit it's bcuz u girlie are here and is his old friend he meet will traveling the world and u both have like a very close relationship??? how tf am i stealing ur spot, ive been trying to either get in the musican or the sea guy pant, not ur man !! not sicne the beginning at least !! (and i haven't tried w the business mam bcuz a third girlie has her claim on him and hell no i am not fighting her for ... mr business)

#rambles 🧸 #did u know i have a big thing for otome game / dating sim #and places myself at the place of the mc and play those games like my life depend on them #like they will be impacting my life #also without the context of the game this must be so confusing to read im sorry #anywho i feel so confused and i feel loke they are toying with me right now #+ now im thinking of playing the musician route at 100% and create myself 3 others accounts to play the 3 others guys routes ... #bcuw u can't save your entire route in this game ? just the ending and i don't wanna undo everything to just play an another route and just #have the ending of the others

[creampuffqueen]

y'all don't even know about The Timeline 😳

#mal's shitposts #for context whenever i like a media of some kind and it ends #i almost always end up creating an entire labelled timeline of my headcanons #the most intense one i think is my lunar chronicles one #where the birthdays of the gen 2 characters are dated and TIMED #yes i labelled THE TIME OF DAY THEY WERE BORN #someone should do their star charts lmao #yet another example of the only part of my life that's organized being. my fanfiction

[carmsgarms]

My husband is roasting me in the groupchat again.

((If everyone in the chat responds to a message with the same emoji it gets pinned so I'm gunna be roasted forever now))

#shut up carm #my life #my husband and friends were all straight when i met them #they have all come out in different ways since knowing me #theres a running joke in my friend group that nobody who is friends with me for more than a few years stays straight and/or cis #husband told me i just create a space where it feels comfortable to be queer because im such a walking rainbow #but also i roasted him for years bc on our 3rd date he spent a full 45 minutes talking about how ryan gosling had a perfect face #and i was like lol are you aure toure straight? #anyway the point here is i am agressively supportive

[emmyrosee]

HAIII EMMY!!! 35!!!! (though i could probably deduce it by now LOL)

35 what I find attractive in a man

Honestly if you’re funny, or can at least take jokes and run with them. Comedy really does make me melt

Physically though, I like tattoos and piercings a lot. I also really like rugged, bulky men, or short kings. My tastes are very varied KDBDODNDOS

#or Miya osamu #he’s pretty perfect too HSBSKSNDJS #my writing has honestly ruined the dating pool for me bc I can create and solve scenarios #and yet when it comes to real life it’s like 🙃🙃🙃🙃 oh yeah #I can’t control these men KDBDOSNS

[dollsuguru]

i care less abt suguru in this fic i’m literally just thinking abt haigojo rn and their dynamic

#they go on fun dates + they’re always touching somehow + they’re also SOOOOOO protective of each other #that’s something that always FASCINATED me abt haibara……… he’s so insanely protective #forbidding his sister from going to jjk high??? bc he wants to protect her??? bc he’s the eldest??? #trust that THAT vibe will be present in my fic… protective!haibara my beloved #haibara loves his friends & boyfriend & family more than life itself… gonna use canon haibara in my fic too like personality wise obvi #ALSO HAIGOJO JUST LOVE TO HAVE FUN AND BE TOGETHER #they’re sooooo. cuddly and snuggly and clingy towards e/o #i think haibara also is so energetically blunt and satoru loves him for it #because satoru needs someone like haibara in his life Okie he needs someone to rely on & be taken care of too!!!!! who better than loverboy #and vice versa… haibara loves gojo bc satoru is so cool & playful & strong-willed and also. is LOADED #they’re just soooooo. loving & devoted & Understand Each Other #i think ppl always think they’re Too Much but they get e/o in a way others don’t… never feels like a chore being w one another #not me creating haigojo lore mfnfnfnf this really is just for me to have fun w these characters #personal #snippets

[miodiodavinci]

writing out my to-do list for the semester and feeling an overwhelming wave of terrified nausea like ohhhhh this is going to suck so so bad huh

#and i haven't even gotten to writing down the weekly responsibilities of my actual Internship yet #this is just the university and state deadlines ! ! ! ! #(and not even all of them because my professors have not released all their due dates yet) #lads i think i am going to be crying and having many a panic attack this spring unless i can forcibly shift myself into a dissociative stat #that craves neither rest nor pleasure nor any other state beyond being hunched over a computer and writing for my life #(face in hands) i'll survive it for sure but. god. #the really frustrating thing is that the department that is supposed to be preparing me for The Big Test has. #created artificial deadlines for each component of The Big Test that. do not include the final component of The Big Test. #they really just said 'oh yeah and fit that last on in there somewhere when you get the chance :)' #'yes we plan for you to be ready to submit the second to last part within days of the submission deadline' #'but just remember to also fit in that last part somewhere' #'during your free time probably lol' #anyway skfdgjkhdf #i'll survive i'll survive #i have survived literally everything the education system has thrown at me thus far and none of it has resulted in physical harm #i am pushing the boundaries of my body's stress tolerance and that means that everything in the future #will be that much less stressful in comparison #just gotta get through it and then i never have to do it again . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #(unless i go back for my masters or something which i will. probably do at some point unfortunately.) #(this user is prone to suffering)

[seishun-emergency]

Also guys i fuckign missed my one year of playing enstars because i'm a fucking idiot . so. happy late one years to me (jun 21!!!) AND happy 1 year to the day i binged the entire anime in the span of like. one night an dthen two hours the next day (jun 26/27) this is what started me on what is now a year long and counting spiral . i would get emotionally but its 10 am im not awake enough to have emotions yet

#leo composes #I'M. MOSTLY JOKING ABT THAT LAST PART ir eally am soooo grateful for all the friends and mutuals ive made here.... #the enstars server shan made.... #rae and puddle and reze and khio and everyone i talk to o rmet thru tumblr #running the bigbang has been SO exciting i love. being part of a community and helping that community flourish #enstars has been such a bright spot in what has otherwise been a REALLY hellish year #corny 2 say. or whatever. but its true #not saying enstars saved my life bc it did not. but it did give me a lot to look forward to #a lot of fun things to create! people to meet! #helped me bond more with my qpp since i got them into the game before we started dating LOL #anyways. emotions over i just care a lot abt this idol boy rhythm game and theppl ive met thru it :3