#demo is sobbing.

[buppkizz]

tf2 karaoke! 🎤🎶

(here's a list of the referenced+a couple extra songs)

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #if you are upset spy didnt sing...i do think if he tried it would be quite nice #maybe ne me quitte pas by jacques brel? #i think it would be like haunting and it would make everyone tear up even tho they dont know what he's saying #demo is sobbing. #soldier is also sobbing because he's not speaking english and he's so confused

[friendlyengie]

If you are still taking requests can I please please either the normal mercs or your fem mercs with kittens pls it would be so cute

There’s a lack of actual mercs in this because I got carried away drawing her with other various tee eff two animals but. Hands her to you gently.

#tf2 #tf2 pyro #tf2 sniper #tf2 heavy #asks #my art!! #absolutely used this to just draw the worlds strangest bitty kitty. Thank u. #Not pictured (I forgot to draw it) : soldier and demo sobbing at nuclear fallout sleeping with the raccoons like emotional parents

[louroth]

Well, well, well. Would you look at what the cat dragged in. (it's me, Lou!)

The time is here, and oh man, do I have a lot to say! Ever since this post was posted on my personal tumblr, on the fifth of may, I have been working like a machine on all things OUROBOROS. I had originally planned for this to just be a progress report/ announcement on what I will be working on now that I am free of the shackles of work, but, somehow, I managed to finish all bullet points, and more. So, let's get into it!

First off, the title.  Ouroboros becomes all capitalized OUROBOROS. Idk. It's neat. Next!

Art. Whew. I didn't think I could draw like this anymore- drawing has been more of a struggle than writing has been, forever, always- it was something I really strived to become good at, for a time. And I gave up. Only to pick it up again when I started ouro, and ever since I released that pressure, something just clicked and I have been churning out art like never before. I don't know if this is a fluke, a stroke of luck or if all that hard work I once did slaving away with menial art practice… but I'm grateful nonetheless. (A note on official RO art: I lost my ipad pencil somewhere on the lawn, lmao. I haven't been able to get a new one yet, so there is a slight delay here.) I am hoping that I get to make some commissions too, in the near future. Visit the forum to see some works in progress (amongst them, Yor's RO portrait!)

Onto the hellscape that is coding! I have been growing more proficient with CSS and html with the help of the ones that run so that we can walk; I have studied and researched and tested and tinkered until my eyes crossed, finding my way into this medium with the incredible guidance of the giants of whose shoulders I stand on. I will talk about this in detail on a later date. So I think it's finally time to reveal that yes, I am working on a twine version of ouro. I will develop it in tandem with choicescript; the porting over from one to the other isn't the herculean task I thought it would be.

Why am I doing this? Because I need to have a save system. I am continuing to write the whole alpha draft in choicescript in hopes that CoG will announce the ability to have a native save/checkpoint system, but if that doesn’t happen, I can’t publish this story without one. Unfortunately, I am not willing to code in a savesystem in choicescript myself, because this will be a large game, with far too many variables for that to be sustainable. Trust me, no one is more disappointed by that fact than me. If it comes to the point that twine publishing will be what I do, I will set my sights on writing a smaller game for hosted games. 

Now the meatier announcements!

New Socials!

Tumblr: You are looking at it!  This is the new, exclusively OUROBOROS blog where I will share all announcements and sneak-peeks, and future updates. I worked together with the dev of the theme and made it oh, so pretty and functional. Please check out their portfolio here, if you are ever in the market for sprucing up your (desktop version) of tumblr. They were a pleasure to work with. Amongst other things, it has a gorgeous header (again, only if you visit on web and not mobile) where I am showcasing fanart and official art. Go check it out! This month, I am showcasing a truly breathtaking art from KAIRELART, and you can find the full art here, or follow the links in the “FEATURED ARTIST” tab in the top bar.

I hope you enjoy this new haven for OUROBOROS! I will be answering questions once a week (saturday) and ramping up as I adapt to this new schedule, more on that further below.

My old tumblr, honeypeabrain, will revert back to being my personal blog. Feel free to keep following me there, but know that it will be inundated with shitposts, crass humor and the occasional poetry dump and personal post. You’ve been warned!

Discord!

By the good graces, this was ROUGH to set up. Working with discord bots is akin to wrangling code, and it was well and truly, a war. But with the help of many, it is finally all done and ready for anyone to join and talk to me and others about OUROBOROS and anything else between heaven and earth. 

I will also greatly appreciate if any future bugs and feedback are submitted through here, so I can keep easier track of it. Come join us! (18+ ONLY.)

Patreon & Ko-Fi

Yep! Ko-fi is just a place to toss me a coin if you wish to help me towards the goal of new PC parts to make testing easier, or to just show appreciation for those that have it to spare. Patreon however, already has a multitude of posts and will be a hub for exclusive NSFW sidestories that you get to vote on, loredives and extensive sneak peeks, Q&A’s, polls and weekly dev logs. 

Right now, there are only two tiers, but I expect it to grow as my story does. I have many plans, but I am going at a steady pace. 

Amongst tiered content, there is a (free) NSFW story with female MC and Idren to read there right now, if you want to check it out! I am mgoing to post it on tumblr and the adult thread here over the weekend.

NOTE: I stupidly didn't realize that patreon had a review process after I pressed launch, which I did just a few minutes ago. Sigh. I am going to post the short on tumblr and the adult forum thread as soon as I get to it.

It is not mandatory by any means, so if you do choose to support me, you have my eternal gratitude as these places will be the sole source of income for me.

Onto writing:

The best news out of this whole bunch is that I have worked so hard on editing and writing, that in the past month I have all but finished a two chapter update! I have a chunk of about 5-6 thousand words left to write, and I am going to buckle down over the weekend to see it through. I wanted to have it done so badly for today, but I lost three days of writing time last week due to still being weighed down with work. I hope it isn’t too disappointing to have to wait until monday for the demo update! I am going to post a link to an as-I-write updated demo on Patreon and Discord, if you want to see the ugly face of raw wip drafts. Otherwise I will post the demo update here on Monday with a comprehensive post!

And now!  the biggest news is… from now on, I am writing full time!

This is what I have been tossing and turning about every night ever since Easter. It started as a silly idea while talking to some friends and family about how I was looking for a change in career. And then, little by little, that idea whittled down to a plan, carefully carved by my partner and his whispers of a happy future, a finished dream project, and something to be proud of until the day I wither and die. 

Somewhere between then and now, I grasped a tiny sliver of bravery and held on for dear life. 

I quit my job as a teacher, and instead of accepting a cushy office job, I started behaving as if OUROBOROS and writing was my work (for all the moments I could afford). I have researched and tried different methods from week to week, and although I was still tired from work, I felt like I was onto something that could build into a sustainable future. 

I have no doubts that this journey will be bumpy and long, but sometimes all it takes is to take that first step, and do it with determination. It might all crash and burn and fail in a spectacular way, or with a whimper, but then I will know that I have tried. I will know that I gave myself the chance to be who I want to be, work on what means so much to me. 

And that’s it. I think the hardest part of formulating this post (I’ve written about 50 versions of it!) is getting to the point; the kernel of what makes it so special to me. So, in my heart of hearts, what I'm trying to tell you is that I'm gonna give it my all- and while I know the road to having a sustainable career in writing is rough and ever winding, I do know for sure that I am ready for a challenge, to pour my heart and soul into it until the day I rush out of the office screaming IT IS DONE. IT IS DOOOOONE!!! 

If you decide to join me, I will treasure your company like a lantern in the dark. Hand in lovable hand, let’s fucking go.

#OUROBOROS #ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #hosted games #CYOA #twine #dev log #progress update #honeypeabrain #smacking tags on this post like they're skittles im aiming into a beasts mouth #I DIDN'T REALIZE PATREON WAS GOING TO REVIEW MY PAGE (literally cried about it because I planned everything so meticulously) SOB #anyway :') but a small stepping stone on the long journey ahead #I am going to take the dog for a long walk and then upload the demo/spicy short as I say hello to anyone joining the disc #I hope to see you there :>

[sonicranger1]

He's so cat-coded oh my lord

#anyway finished the TS!underswap demo #highly recommend super fun #i do not recommend fighting muffet with only one health item tho1 #my ramblings #ts underswap #sans #ALSO SANS BEING ON HIS TIPPY-TOES IM SOBBING

[sojourners-melancholy]

ASPEN PARK (my @apt502-if mc)

they/she (nb) / 25 / 5’8 / musician / lesbian

appearance: thin, straight black hair that barely falls past their shoulders / olive skin with a warm undertone / dark, coffee brown eyes / mole near the corner of their right eye / wears round, wire framed glasses

ROs: L and Cal (maybe A too)

tidbits about aspen below !

got a side gig as a church pianist to keep up with living expenses despite being an atheist (money is money, y’know?). the church has 5am morning services every week, and because they can never seem to sleep at a reasonable time, they end up staying up all night and then sleep in until the afternoon. said sleeping schedule may or may not be the culprit of the soft, late night/early morning cooking ruckus that the other 502 roommates hear oftentimes. but hey—at least being up for the sunrise is nice.

falls asleep at the piano more often than not. their poor, a-little-too-well-made bed seems almost a little lonely at times. hopefully that’ll change soon (wink wink nudge nudge). the thought of selling their mattress for rent money has definitely crossed their mind at least once though.

has a messy room—it’s littered to the floor with music books and binders and stray sheets. (somehow the bed is still untouched in the middle of all this. don’t ask why.) every single one of those is solely just music they’ve played or written (and of course they brought all of it to nyc; she “might need it one day”). they all have varying levels of notes scrawled on them, but each one has a couple dates written on them—one for when they started learning/composing them, and the others for when they were performed.

classically trained as a concert pianist while they were still in school, but ended up picking up some jazz near the end to find more music-related work. doesn’t regret switching majors over to music from architecture midway through college (this is ignoring the student loans though).

personality falls more on the quiet side; can seem pretty cold at first, but it’s actually just them being awkward. the quiet demeanor stills stays as they get comfortable, although then it has more mild/gentle undertones—kind of like a bear.

deadpans a lot, which can be a bit confusing with her monotone voice at first (sometimes it’s intentional!) but you get used it. they used hate it when people (rainn) would get the two mixed up and tried to make their voice more emotive-sounding, but eventually learned to stop caring and even started playing into it (“what do you mean you still can’t tell?” “shut up! i know you meant to do that!”).

definitely has that slowburn type charm; the one where you don’t think much about (maybe even find a bit boring) but find yourself choosing to hang out with more and more as time goes on and bam! one random day, you unexpectedly make them laugh. it’s a real, genuine laugh—the one where they’re going on until they can’t breathe and their cheeks are hurting from laughing so hard. and it’s at that moment, when you’re laughing with them, where it feels like when the first ray of sunshine hits you after a long, overcast day and you get all warm and fuzzy and—shit.

fuck.

you’re in love.

but hey, the sun’s finally out; maybe it’s about time you go outside and enjoy it too. you don’t know how long it’s going to be until it hides again, but maybe—just maybe—you won’t be so scared of it going away this time. because, rainn or shine, the sun will rise again. and i think it’ll be nice if you’re there for it.

#hope you guys like em :) #and if you read all the tidbits let me know what you think hehe #ik it’s long so i made the end a little treat if you do #finally decided it was time to debut them since the demo was released #apt 502 #apartment 502 #oc debut! #sobs and cries bc of fucked up tumblr formatting

[deluzionalfantisea]

Demo and Soldier being buddies and singing a song!!!

I haven’t drawn much of Demoman and his little buddy buddy with the Soldier makes me so extremely happy so I’m just going to live off of this high and continue to draw them until I feel practiced with Demo!!

#team fortress 2 #digital fanart #team fortress fanart #tf2 demoman #tf2 soldier #tf2 #fanart #buddies #best friends #drawing #artists on tumblr #team fortress soldier #team fortress demo #aaaaaa #sobbing loudly #SCREAMING WHAT EVEN ARE THEY THEYRE SO SILLY BUDDY FRIEND!! #boots n bombs

[plushpyromoved]

emesis blue screenshotz part 3!!

#okay im done for now >m< #tf2 #emesis blue #tf2 spy #tf2 soldier #tf2 demo #tf2 medic #ask to tag #<- u cant really see anything in the last one of spy but yea #also the top one it breakz my heart :sob: #🔥.screenshotz

[op3ra]

status: sitting in the commuter lounge on the verge of tears because autoheart sounds so damn good

#THE FACTORIES DEMO...... SOBS #rambles #i have been into autoheart casually since at least 2021 (before i became active on tumblr) but man my love is REVIVED #i also couldn't stop smiling relistening to juggernaut cuz it sounds SO GOOD #autoheart

[demonir]

i adore engie in all his shaved head glory but i sometimes see people draw him with just a tiny bit of hair and ngl i think it's cute...the idea that he's let his hair grow back a bit and you can just go and ruffle it and it does nothing bc its short but its a nice sensation

sincerely: a guy with very short hair who likes to ruffle it sometimes

#tf2 #tf2 engineer #I did almost shave my head entirely but my mom didnt let me #sob sob #demos ramblings #maybe im just projecting #and maybe i just wanna ruffle his hair who knows #but i just think its cute

[lost-my-dragon]

Some other doodles and randoms from today

AHHHHHHH MY INTERNET IS SO BAD pretend there are like tf2 characters drawn in poor quality in this post for a while thanks

#my art <3 #artists on tumblr #Tf2 #Medic tf2 #tf2 heavy #tf2 medic #tf2 demoman #tf2 demo #heavymedic #Tumblr isn’t letting me post images #Crying #Sobbing

[tennis-kittens]

AO 2024 • Doubles • R1 • Miscellaneous

#many mixed feelings in the last 24hours so i kinda needed to make a post about it #First I would like to thank the A team for saving my birthday by both advancing to R2 #Andrea ended 2023 on two titles back to back and i'm so happy he carried that energy with him this season🥺 #And Andreas having a great start with JP. Really hoping they'll stick together #( but only up to the grass season. Because grass season is Andi and Demo season. Yes i make doubles tennis schedules now) #Now off to the bitter sweet stuff... #Demo and Marcus being back together for the first time since 2021... #...just to lose their first match on Demo's birthday after rain delays dragged the whole thing for almost five hours 💀 #Matty and Bopi advancing to R2... #...beating Johnny Mill in the process who played his last professionnal match before retiring from tennis #look at the way Matty looks at Johnny i'm sobbing 😭😭😭 #why do retiring players always have to lose against their bestie? #the tennis Gods have no mercy #Rafa and Luisa went from winning the AO last year to needing a wild card to make it to the main draw this year and exiting after R1 #rafa comforting Luisa was so soft i love them so much 🥺 #i just want the doubles kittens to be happy #is that too much to ask? #thank you for coming to my therapy session #doubles trouble collection

[grislyintentions]

"Ah....my helmet I-"

Folks what would you do if the Hydro Archon herself steals your helmet? :/

#[ dash commentary ] #[GOD I LOVE FURINA SMSMSM!!! HER DEMO MADE ME SO HAPPY GOSH sobs also swing jazz/neo jazz etc is my jam so dOUBLE LOB for fontaine]

[rayofmisfortune]

Are Parade Masters usually hulking masses of mechanical components or did I take a wrong turn somewhere?

#lies of p #i'm starting to realize how much I sucked at the game back in its demo *sob* #THO GRANTED SOOO MANY THINGS HAVE CHSNGED SINCE THEN #little things- but it's things :3 #ray's ramblings

[valentinesparda]

going through the rebirth tag was a mistake. none of you bitches understand sephiroth.

#we just got done with the rebirth demo and. oh boy. i have some things to say. about a lot of it. #*sobbing and smoking a cigarette* theyre gonna fuck up vincent so bad too. i cqn feel it. #val.txt

[leondaltons]

Leon declines to attend the official party, offering to watch with you instead for emotional support. He sits next to you, squeezing your hand before the announcements start. "It'll be fine," he murmurs.

Leon and my mc Nina from one of my favorite moments of Keeper of Day and Night by @keeperofthesunandmoon It's small scene but it genuinely really hit me in the feels <3

Once again, thank you to the lovely @gncrezan​ for such a stunning commission, I'm always grateful for your work 💕

#kotsam #keeper of the sun and moon #aaaaaaaaaaaah i love them i'm literally in tears right now!!!! #I have wanted to see Leon drawn by you for a while now and it went beyond my expectations <3 #he looks so so so good #my poor little meow meow (both of them) #kodan #my poor little meow meow (both of them aksjaksa) #i will really not surive book 3 the demo is already killing me omg i'm so excited #anyways if you havent played this game yet.......go and do it and get ready for the pain #gosh i love them so much i'm sobbing #for me 💕 #kotsam: nina #otp: true love's kiss | leon x nina (kotsam) #click for better quality because tumblr as always kills it lol #commission

[saturnisfallingdown]

I swear gay people can never flirt normally its always shit like "We were free. There was nothing to think, nothing to know. Simply us. Being right there in that moment. Wasn't it so beautiful? Wasn't that moment so singularly, piercingly beautiful? We were free..."

#this monologue still makes me want to sob and this is how i express it #tsp #the stanley parable demo