#do not be outraged for me... feel sad that someone thinks this is ok.

[dinsdjrn]

fake

Let me be clear. I wasn’t going to respond to this because I simply didn’t care that you felt the need to try and bring me down while playing a fun ask game. 

I told a few friends I received this and they were outraged. Which is probably exactly what you wanted. I’m not mad or angry or upset. My response was “worse things have happened to me than someone hiding behind the anonymous button to bully me”. I don’t care that you felt the need to send this, I just wanted to show that this behaviour is NOT okay. And lately it feels like so many people are receiving messages with intentions of being hurtful that it is creating a toxic space. 

You curate your own experience, if you feel I am not for you I take no offence to that. You can unfollow me, because someone else will find my blog and connect with me and my stories and personality and those are the people I would like following me. 

So if you sent this thinking you’re getting a reaction out of me. You’re not. I am setting an example of you to show that this toxic cyberbullying is alive and well in this fandom space and I feel sorry for those that feel the need to participate in it. I would like to further say it is not okay and anon hate in the future will be blocked and reported for bullying.  

This next line is affirmation for myself, for the split second you let me believe you. I am honest and genuine and kind to a fault. I know that about myself, it is one of my greatest strengths and weaknesses, but you are not welcome to take advantage of that or try and bully that out of me.  

Please consider taking some time to self reflect and see that you’re attacking someone who is harmlessly trying to create a community space where we all know and love similar things. I hope in future you receive everything that you deserve and find ways to act kindly to those around you. 

#tw anon hate #answered #this wasnt doing what you thought it did and i hope you can see that you havent taken anything from me. #you have only reassured me that i am kind and genuine #and that is why people in this community choose to connect with me #anyways #this is what that post was about the other day thank you for the love #do not be outraged for me... feel sad that someone thinks this is ok.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the asshole for outing my friend's relationship to their family?

I (25f) have a friend (30m). We aren't as close as we used to be, but we still hang out. I want to make it clear as this always comes up, I have NEVER wanted to date him. When I was 16 he had a crush on me, but NEVER asked me out. I always saw him as a brother, he saw me as a sister eventually.

His family loves me, and a few of them still believe me and him will end up together. He has went on to date other people and so have I; currently i am dating a guy (28m) who i think I'll marry. But that isn't here nor there. Me and my friend were hanging out (my bf was on his way but got stuck in traffic, tho it isnt uncommon for me and my friend to hang out without my bf as we have been friends for 10 years and done it prior to my relationship). While we were hanging out my friend dropped the bomb on me.

He has secretly been seeing someone and hadn't told anyone as he wanted to see how it went. I was excited for him! He has told his immediate family who it is, and told his extended family he is seeing someone but not who yet. Again, excited! Until he told me who it was.

It is a girl I babysat. She just turned 18 this week, but apparently they've been dating for 2 months. Her parents were aware (which in hindsight make sense why there were asking me about my friend a lot and why they mentioned her "growing up" and "getting a guy" in the same sentence- also, his and her family have known each other for a few years, meanwhile I've known her family my whole life) and they approved it (I verified later with them, and they gave the ok before she was 18). I felt sick.

I'm not sure what exact order happened next as it was a blur. I believe the order went me saying I thought I would be sick, my friend getting mad and yelling, and then me having a panic attack. However the panic attack could have come before the yelling. I had a panic attack because I have had adults take advantage of me when I was younger, and he knows this, and he knows I do NOT approve of those things at all.

My bf came home and obv was confused and protective of me. My friend got kicked out and I told my bf what happened after I calmed. He was also disgusted. I feel sick remembering when my friend had a crush on me, but he had never made any advances. My friend has always dated his age or women older then him.

This was last week. This past thurs (so four days later) I happened to run into his aunt and cousin at the store. They asked how I felt. I tried at first to just be all "my opinion doesn't matter. Good for him" just to get them out of my hair. They kept asking me. The cousin asked if I knew who it was. I must make it clear that I knew they had no clue who it was. They kept pestering me about it and I told them to drop it, but tjeh didn't. Finally the cousin asked if I had feelings for my friend. I blew up as they had been following me around the store. I told them "I dont give a fuck. I think he's a creep for dating someone still in high school."

Aunt was outraged. At him. Not me. Aunt had zero clue. Cousin was shocked. When I got home his other cousin from his uncle (not the same immediate fam) texted me asking if my friend was dating someone underage was true or not. I said she just turned 18 and left it at that.

I ignored it and was going to have a nice dinner with my bf when my phone blew up with calls and texts from my friend. I got called a bitch, a liar, etc. He was irate that I stole this and told his family. He claimed that I should have known better because I was outed as bi and how thst hurt me and he comforted me, I was hurting him the same. I told him it wasn't the same. He called me a ton of other names. My bf blocked him on my phone. I then got a text from the girl and she said "Aunt (she called me aunt because I babysat so often) I am super sad you did this. We won't be able to enjoy our relationship. You have hurt me personally".

That is where I wonder if I am the ahole. Apparently the extended family is pissed. I am pissed. But I have a pit in my stomach wondering if I did the right thing or not, because this girl MY NIECE (not by blood) is distraught. So AITA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #grooming cw

[bitethehnd]

omg i’ve had the biggest brainrot over ur naomi & taylor!reader & rewatching the eras tour i have 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️ thoughts

i can imagine reader! having a chat w naomi when they’re ready to make it official and actually tell everyone they’re together (god knows everyone’s figured it out but shh let them have their moment) & reader! asks if they can make it official during the show but doesn���t tell Naomi how,, they’re just like trust me it’ll be good and naomi is like ok !! anything for u !! & during karma reader! sings “karma is my baby on the screen, coming straight home to me!” & they somehow get naomi’s live reaction on the big screen megatron thing of reader fully making it official to everyone mid show and they’re just in AWE

& in the same show when reader! sings “you’re in love” they do a lil speech about how this song was written for someone else completely and after everything that went down, they hated this songs because it brought back so many bad memories (or something) but now they have someone who makes them feel like this song is the reason for existence again and it just cuts to lil naomi sobbing aAAA i truly love that fic so much i still have so many thoughts about it thank u thank u thank u

⊹ ‧₊˚ ౨ৎ you are in love

pairing : naomi mcpherson x popstar!reader

a/n : ANON I LOVE YOUR BRAIN KISS KISS

at this point during your eras tour, the two of you are already together. you think you’re all sneaky but literally everyone knows… naomi looks at you like you gave them the moon so it’s quite obvious, but everyone lets you two have your fun!

the first people you told were obviously katie and jo. they both had fake surprised looks on their faces but said the two of you deserved to be happy. then ensue the countless jokes and comments from jo.

the boys were thrilled too! since phoebe had also opened for you, she had taken a guess that you two had a thing for each other and then her suspicions were confirmed. julien fist pumped naomi and lucy gave you a big hug!! you guys are adorable fr.

next came telling the world about the relationship. you two held off for a few months, wanting privacy, but it seemed twitter was already aware of it. everyone had their theories and some were so outrageous that you just wanted to tell everyone yourself.

you told naomi your feelings on the matter and they immediately agreed, no questions asked. they were ready to show you off and not have to hide. you suggested doing it during your next show, and like anon said, naomi is just like “whatever my princess wants, she gets!!! anything for her!!”

you quickly put your plan into motion. you decided your surprise song for the next show would be “you are in love” from 1989. it perfectly described how you felt about naomi. you came up with some ideas for the speech you would give before hand and it went something like this…

“the next song that i’m going to play is one that i haven’t performed in so long. i wrote it about someone who i thought was going to be my forever, but it just didn’t end up that way and it left me with some sad memories. i have never felt the need to play this song since then, but now everything has changed. even if i originally wrote this about someone else, my partner renewed it into something so pure and now has a reason to exist again. i love you.”

the camera doesn’t pan to naomi just yet, since you wanted to build suspense. for dramatic effect, of course. but jo and katie make sure to get their reaction on video. it’s just naomi basically happy crying and laughing with tears under their eyes. even when you guys are a whole stadium apart, the invisible string between you is there.

when it was finally time for the last era of songs, from midnights, you were planning to do a lyric swap in “karma.” the actual lyric was “karma is my girlfriend,” but obviously naomi was not a girl and the song originally wasn’t written about them, you planned to change it to something that made you happier. when the time came to sing “karma,” you looked right into the vip section where naomi was and sang “karma is my baby on the screen, coming straight home to me!” cut to the camera panning to naomi and they’re just giddy, laughing and crying all at the same time. when you told them you were going to make it official, this is definitely not how they imagined it, but they weren’t complaining.

you just wanted to show the world your love for them and honestly didn’t give a shit what anyone thought. the two of you just existed in your own little bubble, feeling like you were just singing to them.

after the show was over and naomi practically sprinted backstage, their beaming smile lit up the room as they saw you. they pulled you in for a fierce hug and pressed gentle kisses to your forehead.

“that was the sweetest thing in the entire world, baby. i love you so much.”

“so you liked it? it wasn’t too much?”

“never. that was, like, magical. can’t believe you did all that for me.”

“i’d do anything for you, nom.”

© bitethehnd

#bitethehnd #naomi mcpherson x reader #naomi mcpherson x you #naomi mcpherson au #naomi mcpherson fluff #naomi mcpherson fanfic #muna x reader #muna fanfic #popstar!reader

[lonepantheress]

♡ txt as sassy boyfriends

pairing: ot5!txt x reader

genre: crack

warnings: completely unserious.

a/n: working on masterlist and intro post and all soon. REQUESTS ARE OPEN BTW!! <3 tysm for all ur love. now onto the apocalypse of diva boyfriends... i got carried away

Yeonjun

He’ll “K” you if you piss him off

Actually just a sassy texter in general, but the “K” is the cherry on top because it’s like an invitation to curse him out.

Also an avid user of the eye-roll emoji.

you: who was that girl u were talking to??

yj: girl 💀

Oh! Okay!

I actually feel like he would “girl.” you a lot.

LIKE - he could be sassy outside of texting but he seriously gives me the vibe of someone who will deliberately and strategically leave you on “read” and “delivered” for hours.

Strikes me as loving to gossip about your life. 

Is someone pissing you off at work? Omg spill, tell him every detail deep down in your brain that you wouldn’t even think of repeating in the mirror!

But ask him about his drama? Nosy. You’re nosy.

Don’t ask him? You don’t care.

Soobin

The facial expressions he pulls

He is so sweet 

But if you say something that he is just not comprehending he is pulling the meanest face ever.

The eye-rolls, the snarls, the furrowed eyebrows, the sass shines through in that face.

Also gives the silent treatment real bad.

Thinking of that video where Yeonjun is like, “Are you actually upset??” and Soobin is giving 1. The dirtiest look ever 2. The cold shoulder.

He might also unintentionally say something super sarcastic and then shock both of you in the process.

“I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY I SAID THAT, DON’T LISTEN TO ME, DON’T TAKE ME SERIOUSLY, DON’T-”

He would give backhanded compliments because he thinks it’s helping to not hurt your feelings.

“Soobin, what do you think of my shoes?”

“Wow! They’re definitely unique! I wouldn’t have the confidence to wear-”

“Ok. I’m taking them off.”

Over-the-top reactions to very minuscule things. 

Like, gets a stain on his shirt and gasps like he just saw a dead body and you’re like “???????????? are u ok????”

Beomgyu

Invented being a sassy boyfriend. 

Everything the other ones do, he does, and then some.

But if I had to pick one thing that just screams Beomgyu it would be sucking his teeth when he’s annoyed.

He probably doesn't even realize he’s doing it so then when you call him out he’s like, “No, I literally didn’t.”

Also just says the most outrageous princess-behavior-ish things ever.

“Okay, I gtg get my beauty sleep in. Byeee!”

Like the pretty boys in movies, if you’re playfighting he’ll go, “Not my face!!!”

Drama queen. Always has to add a little flair no matter the situation.

if you're watching a sad movie together, he might start sobbing dramatically and saying things like, "this is too much for me to handle!" or "i can't take the heartbreak!" even if it's not that emotional of a scene.

Or asking you to play a game with him so he could deliberately beat you, and then getting all mad when you beat him, “I love you, a lot, so I was just letting you win..”

Taehyun

Sarcasm

Enough sarcasm and snarky comebacks to drive you crazy.

His smart mouth makes you want to smack him sometimes.

Also a dirty-look giver.

Picturing this exact scenario rn: You guys go out to eat, he gets something that looks good, and you ask, “Can I try it pleaassseeeee??”

Cue -_- “Are you serious.”

Don’t even try catching him off guard because he’ll come up with some sarcastic comeback in an instant.

I also think he would be mature when arguing but he could petty really quickly. Especially in a situation where you both know that you’re in the wrong.

“Ok, y/n, list one thing that justifies this situation.” Followed by silence for a solid minute. “Mmmhmm, right, nothing.”

Or if you say something wrong, he’ll just go, “No, that’s not right,” and then not fucking correct you and tell you why it isn’t right.

When you spill something or unintentionally make a mess, he’ll give you a round of applause before going to help you. (I do this tbh…)

Huening Kai

You learn early on that he has an attitude problem.

He also reads into things too much.

So if you give him a short answer, he thinks you’re giving him an attitude, and he fights fire with fire. 

Tries soooooo hard to act like he doesn’t gaf about anything

“Kai, what do you want to eat? I’m about to order.” 

“Ugh.. I don’t care….. like I guess some ramen or something would be good but like I don’t care…..”

“So, you want Ramen?”

“I mean I guess that sounds good, I don’t care but yeah it sounds good.”

Classic arms crossed hip popping mom pose. 

He's a master of the eye roll and will do it often, especially when he thinks someone is being ridiculous or when you're being too extra.

But god forbid you call him extra, he might actually have an aneurysm.

The type to send you videos on TikTok and be annoyed if you just heart them but don’t give him an actual reaction.

In his mind, he is literally the next Christian Dior, and he’ll spend time putting an outfit together and act like he doesn’t care when you give him a compliment. 

“Oh? This old thing? I just pulled out whatever from my closet, you know..”

But if you criticize him in anyway shape or form, he'll go off on a tangent about how he's a trendsetter and you just don't understand his vision.

#txt x reader #txt headcanons #txt fluff #txt imagines #txt scenarios #txt oneshots #txt drabbles #yeonjun headcanons #yeonjun scenarios #yeonjun x reader #yeonjun fluff #yeonjun #txt fanfic #soobin x reader #soobin fic #soobin scenarios #soobin imagines #soobin #soobin headcanons #beomgyu #beomgyu x reader #beomgyu scenarios #beomgyu headcanons #beomgyu fluff #huening kai x reader #huening kai #huening kai fluff #huening kai scenarios

[sco07ut]

what just happened!!!!!!!! s19 rambles (negative) ↓

going to be messy cos im just planning on writing whatever outrageous moments stand out as i go along

first of all????? DOC FUCKING DIED?????????? i literally had to rewatch a few times to realise that’s what they were saying 😟 when the fuck did he die bc doc eas Inside the staff of charon and wash was fuckijg idk?? on the surface of chorus right?? how did doc die saving him what (genuinely someone smarter than me if you’ve figured it out please tell me) bc like the point of the charon fight is that they were stuck in the mementos room right? idk

anyway he was done so dirty i literally do not think there was a reason to reveal doc was dead in the last five minutes

on that note, where was donut?? did he die too ? how long after chorus is s19 set like was that undisclosed location iris or what. did he do his whole ‘tour of the universe’ thing early? like i would’ve been fine with even just a passing comment but they were so vague with it

WHY DID SARGE DIE AND THEN PROMPTLY BECOME IRRELEVANT????? aside from simmons grif & caboose not a Soul mentioned the fact that a whole man was dead. i was so convinced that there would be some big funeral with everyone attending at the end

i did sort of like the plot though, simmons getting a leadership role was kinda fun

tbh i did like simmons this season it was so great seeing him finally get recognition but good grief i cannot talk about simmons without bringing up the ending/lack of grimmons

it makes sense that they wouldn’t get together if grif went home and simmons stayed in the army BUT WHY DID SIMMONS STAY IN THE ARMY?? RICHARD YOU DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING TEAM ANYMORE (on that note. where did lopez go. i’m only just realising that he literally vanished) i’m so insane why did they do that. they could’ve gone home together. and kissed about it idk

i mean i didn’t actually expect grimmons to happen but i thought they’d stay together?? it’s always been them. like that’s the whole point of their characters. every other person who’s been on their team before has died and left them (grif sleeping through being glassed, hammer dying during basic, the red team at rat’s nest and now sarge and donut i guess?????) why did they not stay together

also on the grif family note, the kai cameo was nice (though i will say i do Not understand the point of the whole retro con thing, i feel like it went on for ages, did nothing to set up the plot. the meta could’ve been introduced some other way surely)

also while i’m thinking about it, why did it take tucker/the meta months to get from chorus to a point where he was actively searching for epsilon ?

anyway sorry kai cameo fun but she should’ve had a bigger role idc

it kind of feels like they suddenly realised almost all their female characters were overlooked and they tried to shove them in to be like ‘ohhh look we care about our female characters’ and then screwed them over by making them either insignificant or nothing more than a cameo

with the exception of tex maybe. i fully did not expect her to come back prior to watching but when caboose was like oh help me remember i started to get a feeling it wouldn’t be church. i’m also so glad they addressed the whole ‘created from failure/destined to fail’ thing, tex fuckijg deserved that win. sad that she died though (i wasn’t expecting that either and was like fully geared up to start making post restoration fanart of carolina and tex hanging out and learning how to be friends/family again)

idk i just feel like we missed out on so much stuff due to time constraints, there were so many scenes that should’ve been put in imo like carolina and tex having some sort of moment together, grif and kai having a moment, carolina & wash seeing 479er again

ok wait different chain of thought. everyone was like really eager to kill tucker. there was no moral dilemma of everyone being like ohh beneath the meta hes our friend we can’t hurt him but we still need to take him down what’re we gonna doo. although on second thought it was red team so . yeah the mindless attacking does make sense a bit

new thought again overall it just felt weird like everyone had their assigned pairings and couldn’t acknowledge anyone outside of them?? like during the fights there wasn’t much of a reunion when tex/carolina joined and then wash (and apparently not fucking doc) like idk. i was under the assumption thatvthere would be a sweet little scene where they got the gang back together

whatever man that’s everything off the top of my head. i had no expectations going in and still somehow left disappointed. i Will be making an au version that fits all the things i wanted to see

#red vs blue #rvb restoration spoilers #rvb s19 spoilers

[streaminn]

Hmm.. Have you guys ever heard of the word bitching in an omegaverse context?

I was thinking of my scent blind au where enid so desperately wished she could've been an alpha so she would be right for wednesday during heaven and back

Content warning for straight up Addams obsession, delusional thoughts and Wednesday lowkey going to the deep end to make sure her and Enid get together even if it meant biologically changing herself

Bc yknow how Addams don't do things in halves, right? It's a whole fanon thing and I'm pretty sure there's signs of it in the show.

It starts like this, Enid is an alpha and Wednesday is a beta.

Simple facts, so very chill. They're still roommates, theyre older now and everything is OK

Except ever since Enid presented, having been a late bloomer like the show, she's been.. Different.

Wednesday isn't stupid, sure she may not have the safe rabid instincts as an omega or an alpha but she can smell well for a beta and she can see the way Enid's face will soften at any distressed omega nearby

It's irritatingly sweet, the way Enid would try to calm them down with her own scent. Except, since she's so new, she forgets how easily safety could equal something else

After the third time Enid has gotten accosted in the way to the dorm room, Wednesday quite frankly was irritated. She would love to stab those pesky students and go on her day but that meant showing that she was bothered

And Wednesday Addams wasn't bothered by anything, why should she? So what, her roommate is simply popular, it happens

Except, there's a part of her that feels wrong whenever she sees yoko drape herself over Divina. She eyes the way the omega would purr and how Divina would roll her eyes yet nose at her hair.

It's sickenly sweet

It's what her parents have it's what she wants with Enid

Being a beta in this au meant three things. One, you don't have an intoxicating scent and thus getting a mate is a tons more harder. Two, you're not built to take an alpha, it's a biological thing and three, the chances of getting a kid is all the more lower

Which is what most alphas would want

It's what Enid would want

So practically everything is against Wednesday. She can't entice Enid like most can do, she is literally not built for her and she knows of how Enid wishes for a family

Wednesday quite frankly isn't the type to wish for a family, quite aware of how troublesome it is but she's willing to change that for Enid

Anything for Enid, for the woman with nothing yet still tried to give her everything

Anything for her.

So, once again, it starts with the internet

Wednesday is ashamed, how far has she fallen to seek for reassurance that beta and alpha relationships could happen? Pretty badly, because when she scrolls and ignores the sobbing cries of beta's feeling inadequate in random blogs, she finds a reply to a rather sad post

It was a question of "pls guys, my alpha keeps looking at others instead of me. I know that I cant entice him like they can but surely there's smth I can do!?"

There were assurances in the replies, others saying that it's not the OP's fault that their alpha couldn't keep their nose to themself until one catches her eyes

It was a reply from a deleted user.

"have you ever thought of being bitched? You wouldn't fully be an omega but you'll pass as one to him and isn't that what matters in the end?"

The thoughts of other users below that were outraged. Whatever this bitching is, it's clearly taboo.

But those words.. "pass as one"

It's not the answer she wanted, but it's close enough.

It's enough to make Wednesday stay up and scour the internet all the more. She delved deeper into chat rooms, posing as an alpha with a kink because the more she went, the more she noted that whatever this is isn't normal at all. She couldn't come in regularly, else she risk losing actual good information

Bitching, from what she's seen, is the process of changing ones second status to an omega. Usually done against someone's will because who would want to willingly bitch themselves? Who would dare degrade themself into smth they weren't born too?

Me, Wednesday thinks as she notes it down. I would.

This is all she did for the next few days, staring at the pc and noting down as much as she could.

She got dragged out once or twice by a concerned Enid because ofcourse she did. The alpha has always been so caring, making sure to knock before cracking it open to ask if they'd like to eat together at the diner that just opened up

Wednesday agrees, she always does and so Wenclair set out. It's times like these where everything else fades away to nothing, status doesn't matter and it's imply just the two of them

Until the waiter comes in, all sly smiles and neck bared. Enid sniffs and Wednesday stops herself from stabbing her fork into the omega's throat when she sees those gorgeous blue eyes of enid's dilate

Don't look at anyone else, Wednesday wants to scream. You don't need them, I'm right here- But she can't do that, so she digs her nails into her palms as she slips into her thoughts

What happens in the diner is enough of a reminder that she needs to do this.

In the end of the weekend, Wednesday has finally concluded her research. The deleted user was right, she wouldn't be an omega but she sure will pass as one.

Her fertility will be the same but she can start producing the same addicting aroma and slick that entices all alpha's once she's done with the process

It sounds all well and dandy except it takes months to a whole year or two of constant dedication to get these results. It irates Wednesday but luckily, if the beta is reciprocating, the outcome is said to be all the more simpler, effective and overall efficient.

Wednesday couldn't stop a smile from growing as she eyes the last few words of her research.

if the beta in question was being bitched to the scent of one alpha in particular, then once the bitching was complete, both parties would become biologically attracted to one another’s scents and be driven to mate.

That was the confirmation wednesday needed, she would literally be made for Enid and Enid would have no choice but to realize it too once it was all over.

And finally, the best part:

all of the required steps could actually be accomplished without the alpha's participation or awareness

Good.

Anyways, degenerate Wednesday..? Love that, she can be such a creep and id like to build on it. If you wanna see more do send an ask! Aight thanks peace

Here's the continuation to this post where Wednesday gets what she wants

#Omegaverse #Wenclair #Au thoughts #🤨 #Do tell me your thoughts #I spent way too much time typing it out

[flowertrigger]

Fuck Inspiration Sunday

Thank you @mammameesh @a-noble-dragon @ramonaflow @trickiwooao3 for tagging me in the various end of week writing posts 💖

I think I depleted all my writing energy with my last fic. Despite desperately wanted to writing (<- omg plz just look at where my brain is at currently 😂), I just haven't been able to put anything worthwhile down 😩😭

I've started and abandoned so many fics it makes me feel sad that they may never be finished--if only someone else would write them for me!

Anyway, let's all look at this fucking adorable face instead. I mean christ on a cracker, look at him!😍 I love him so much, plz send help.

And here is yet another thing I started tonight:

-

A pale eyebrow raises up questioningly. He cracks the spine of the book, sniggering at David’s wince, and places it page down on the table next to the platter of fruit he cut up and brought out for them because David mentioned early on that fruit tasted better cut. “Come here,” he says, grabbing David’s hand and pulling him across the padded seat of their outdoor setting.

“What are you doing?” David shrieks in outrage, ineffective since they both know how much he enjoys being manhandled.

Patrick hushes him with a soft, “shh babe.”

His large hands gently clasp David’s cheeks and brings their lips together. David moans as they come together—Patrick’s kisses taste luscious and sweet from the peaches he’s been eating, his lips soft and supple, his tongue teasing and hot. He kisses with his whole body, hands strong and present on his face, through his hair, over his back. David will never get over how much of himself Patrick puts into everything he does. A kiss is never a simple kiss with him, every one bestowed like a gift to be treasured and savoured. David whines as Patrick crowds him with his broad frame, rising a little onto his knee in order to push him down onto his back.

“Can we do this here?” David gasps out as Patrick settles his weight on top of him.

“Why not? The backyard is closed off.”

“Okay but—“

Patrick cuts off his protest with a hungry kiss, tongue once more probing and tangling with his own.

“Shh baby it’s okay, I’ve got you.”

-

Ok, thank you, good night, sorry for this long ass post ✌🏼

#writing tag game #inspiration saturday #seven sentence sunday

[dreamsgazer]

Let Me Look at You - EDITED

Let me look at you

Tangerine x Fem!Plus Size Character 

Warnings: Smut, light cursing, body issue

Minors do not interact!

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He wakes me up murmuring my name in my ear, his voice gruffy and deep vibrating against my neck. I pretend not to notice the hardness pressing near my buttock “You ok?”

Tangerine chuckles, a velvet sound falling in the middle of the night “I was dreaming of you.”

“Good dream, I hope?” I smile, pressing my face into the silken wrapped pillow. His hand slides across my tummy, lazily wandering. It rests against my breast “The best kind of dream,” he confirms, squeezing it lightly and I have to bite back a moan “We were in my living room, and you were wearing that lovely lace stuff you bought at Harrods and haven’t worn yet.”

I stiff lightly. I didn’t think he has noticed it. 

The lace bodysuit had seemed a great idea, in the luxurious fitting room. I wanted something special to show him when he was back from his last mission.

For once I wanted to splurge. It’s so rare to find a plus size piece that is pretty, not too expensive for someone working as a freelance, and that makes you feel fucking fantastic. It’s not that I don’t like lingerie. I adore it. Sometimes, though, I don’t adore how it looks on me.

And it has happened again. Once I wore the bodice at home, under the pale light of my oh-so-not-luxurious one bedroom apartment, I had a pretty different experience.

Back in the velvety fitting room every curve seemed enhanced, my breasts look divine, my skin as rosy as porcelain. At home, looking in the mirror precariously hanged on the door of my wardrobe I just saw a pale, fat woman, with her boobs strangely shaped under the black and golden lace, and a lost expression on her sad face.

Pathetic.

I hate to feel like that. It has taken me years to learn to appreciate myself – and surely having a partner as passionate as Tangerine has improved my confidence a lot – and then for a thing as stupid as a piece of garment I felt insecure again.

He kisses my neck, making me shiver under his touch “I’ve hoped you were going to wear it soon. Not that I am complaining, mind you,” he sucks my earlobe “you can make me hard even wearing your robe!”

“I didn’t realize you have seen it. When…?” I whisper, while his fingers trace light circles around my nipple

“The day after I was back from the mission in Spain, and we had that wonderful dinner and even more wonderful night.”

I bit my lip, not answering, and he lifts his head, to try and look at me even if the only light comes from the sleeping city outside.

Tangerine turns me on my back, gently opening my legs with a calloused hand, the other flying again to play with my other breast “You are so damn gorgeous,” he whispers, lowering his head to suck my nipples through the cloth. I gasp, burying my fingers in his unruly curls. 

“So horny,” I tease, hoping this will distract him from the bodysuit debacle.

“ ‘ bet you would make me cum in my pants wearing that pretty, naughty thing.”

I sigh, shaking my head “I’d rather not talk about that, and I was thinking of returning it anyway.”

“Why?” his surprise his so genuine I can’t help but smile.

I trace imaginary lines on his cheek with my nails “You won’t like what you see. It shows… everything.”

“I damn well hope so!”

I can’t not laugh at his almost outraged tone. He kisses me lightly, biting my lower lip. Swirls of heat coil in my belly, but I still need to answer him.

“T., I mean it shows every roll, stretch mark, dimple, you name it.”

“I sure am going to. So, it shows your fantastic tits,” he breathes, lowering his head again. I yelp when he bites my hardened nipples, my cunt clenching with desire. He palms my breasts, weighing them in his strong hands “God, these are a work of art. But what else is that pretty thing going to show me, mh, love?”

I sigh, when he helps me discard my nightgown, and he kisses his way down my abdomen “Your soft, voluptuous belly?”

He bites the tender flesh there and rubs his nose against the skin. His moustache tickles a bit, and he takes his time pressing kisses wherever he pleases.

“I hope the lace doesn’t cover too much of your pretty, little pussy, though” he breathes against my centre, gracefully sliding down the mattress, the muscles of his back rippling under my fingers. I would be embarrassed by the sound that escapes from my throat when he presses an open-mouthed kiss to my throbbing centre, if I wasn’t too enraptured by the sound of him licking me.

I moan again and again, my back arching, when his lips close around my clit and he just sucks it. He presses his face between my thighs, humming and growling, when I pull his hair.

I know he likes it. I want to hear more. But I can’t focus on that thought for long enough, not when his slender finger circles the entrance of my womanhood, slow and patient.

I gasp, feeling the heat in my belly invading my bones like liquid silk, pushing down, down, down…

“Tangerine!” I bark indignantly, when he suddenly stops, leaving me on the brink of heaven. He grins, quickly discarding the soft pajama trousers he was wearing.

He takes his cock in his hand “You know I like the most when you come with me inside you.”

I nod. Of course, I do. I like it as well.

He is sheathed inside me with a single, a smooth push, filling and stretching my core to the point of bringing me back to that wonderful precipice.

 His hands slide between our connected bodies, touching my clit, circling it slowly and methodically. I gasp again, and again, and I am so lost in the sensation that I don’t notice when he puts the other arm under my back and rolls us over.

I hold my breath, surprised, faltering for a moment. Tangerine grabs my hips and pushes me down against him once more “Ride me, darling, I want to see you. All of you.”

I hesitate a bit. It’s not often I am in this… position. He gently moves his legs, rolls his hips. It’s all I need to find a rhythm.

I ride him as he has asked – begged – one hand near his head to balance me against the bed, the other planted over his heart. It’s pumping so fast and it’s all mine. It’s intoxicating, seeing him unravelled, reddened, vocal “That’s it, love, yes,” he breathes with a low groan “good girl, taking my cock so fucking well.”

His praises make me feel powerful, make me feel wanted. I lean down and kiss him, pushing my tongue in his mouth. He takes it, his dancing with mine. The kiss is deep and long and let us want for more, more, more.

“Harder,” he grunts, pushing his hips to meet mine more forcefully. The sensation sends sparks over my skin, and my toes curl against the mattress.

I am so close I can’t even warn him. One more push, another lewd compliment about how pretty is my pussy, and my orgasm explodes, my cunt spasming around his cock, a distorted version of his name cascading from my lips.

His fingers are digging in my buttocks, strong and restless, easing me through wave after wave of blinding pleasure. Probably he will leave bruises. I hope he will.

I look down at him, breathless, and I find his eyes fixed on my face, my jiggling breasts, and then down, where he can see his dick still pumping into me. It spurs him on pushing inside me with borderline desperation, and then he arches beautifully under my thighs, swearing and cursing and calling my name for the skies to hear.

He is so vulgar and so loud, and I wouldn’t want it in any other way.  

I collapse on his chest, his heart fluttering against his ribcage and under my palm. Tangerine pants heavily, still inside me, and I slightly clench around him in appreciation.

“Love,” he moans, shivering, still too sensitive.

I kiss his chin “Sorry, T.”

“You are not, you minx,” he lightly spanks my butt “and I love you for that.”

I feel I could fell asleep like this “Am I crushing you?” I mumble against his incandescent skin.

Tangerine scoffs “I hope you are kidding, love.”

I push my head in the crook of his neck,  already half-asleep, safe and satisfied in his arms “I love you, Tangerine.”

“So do I,” he whispers brushing my forehead with his lips “and you fucking don’t know how much.”

Next time I am going to wear my lace lingerie.

#tangerine x plus size reader #tangerine x plus size character #tangerine x fem!reader #tangerine bullet train #tangerine #bullet train fanfic #bullet train tangerine #bullet train movie #plus size character #female plus size character #tangerine smut #tangerine x me #tangerine x reader

[samwearsreebok]

Sam x Leah

Forewarning: I wrote this while drunk and in my feels about Sam and leahs breakup. Its pretty much gibberish

I was still trying to sort out what to do when I heard the most beautiful voice ever, "sir, are you ok?"

I turned around to see my gorgeous girl staring at me with concern in her eyes, as if she'd never seen anyone so torn apart before. She probably hadn't. In fact, I bet no one had ever looked like this to her before. Her long dark hair flowed down past her shoulders and covered half of her face. She was so beautiful. The way the light caught in her locks made them look almost luminescent. She wore a white dress shirt, tie, slacks, and high heels that matched the occasion perfectly. I almost forgot this was my engagement party. Leah could hold a candle to any woman's beauty.

"Hey honey" leah said as she walked over to us.

"Hi" I managed between breaths. I gave her a weak smile.

She smiled back, but it wasn't quite genuine.

"Let me help you up sir," emily but in putting her hand under my arm. "So you must be Sam, leah wasn't exaggeration, you are beutiful!" She enthused.

"Thanks, you're pretty cute yourself," I muttered as I got to my feet. My knees were still shaking from the shock. I took a deep breath and tried to get myself together.

"Are you okay, Sammy?" Leah asked it must be obvious how weird I felt. Like my whole world just turned inside out. I couldn't figure out why.

It was like when I'd first seen Leah and she was dressed up for the prom. Except then I knew her and was interested, or at least attracted to her. But now...now I didn't know what to think anymore. I think this officially made me worse than my father.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine, uhm...thanks." I replied nervously. Leah just stared at me, not sure what to say. I'd been acting really strange since i first turned, i knew that much. Becoming a werewolf then keeping it a secret from everyone isn't the easiest thing. Especially not when everyone is watching you, waiting for you to go crazy again and need to be but away. So I could understand her confusion. I hoped emily wouldnynpick up on her confusion.

Emily broke the silence finally, "i hope we can be friends"

"Sure," I replied, trying my best to sound normal. It wasn't easy. "I don't have many friends in this town. I feel kinda left out at the moment."

"That's sad," she said sadly as she looked into my eyes.

I turned and started walking towards the kitchen, hoping they'd make me some food. My stomach was growling loudly. I'd not eaten anything all day. All morning I'd been too nervous, then I'd gotten sick. I wasn't sure I could eat at all right now.

Leah grabbed my arm, stopping me before I got far. "Sam, are you sure you're alright? You seem kind of..." I watched as her words trailed off.

"What?" I asked.

"You know," she said hesitantly, "a little bit, um...well, different."

"Oh, I'm sorry, did i scare you?" I asked outraged.

"No! No, Sam, not at all. It's just...well you know," she stammered.

I sighed, "yes, I do know. I thought we were supposed to be moving on from this." I rushed. "Every time I have to talk about this I go back to square one." I could feel the tears forming. Just talking about it made me want to cry.

"I know, I'm sorry," she said sympathetically. "But it's good to have someone to talk to who knows what you're going through."

"Thanks," I said with a nod. "Sorry I lashed out, it's just,"

"Hard." She finished for me. "We all have to deal with it in our own ways, Sam. If it helps I'll tell you the truth, ive never seen someone phase before, " she paused, "but I wish I had been with you, it would make things easier."

"You know I'm a werewolf?" I couldn't believe she knew. I thought we were talking about my mental health.

"Yes, I've known since last year," she said calmly. "My mother told me about the story's."

"Your mother knew?" I blurted out, shocked.

"Of course she did," she nodded. "It's the tribs history, only a few people go though it. We keep it quiet, we don't want to risk your safety."

"You mean I could have talked to you about it?" I gasped.

"Maybe, if you wanted to," she shrugged. "But I'm not sure you would have."

"True, I might not have," I admitted. "I just didn't know you knew."

"How did you find out?" she asked curiously.

"Only once a changed did I believe it." I answered honestly. "I spent a week in the woods alone after I first became a werewolf. Then I came back and people started treating me differently. I was paranoid, terrified someone would see me change and think I'd lost it like the rest of my family. So I kept it a secret. Obviously the elders knew and told me I had to protect our people. So I did."

"I can understand that," she said sympathetically. "I'm glad my mom told me, it makes everything easier. I feel like less of an outsider knowing I'm part of something bigger. I just hope it doesn't get you in trouble."

"Hopefully not," I agreed. "Do you mind if we keep this between us?"

"Not at all," she smiled reassuringly. "I promise."

"Thank you," I said gratefully. "I've been hiding it from everyone."

"Like you said, it's hard for everyone to talk about," she nodded. "But I think it's important to know you're still human."

I sighed, "you might be right."

"So, you've been seeing each other a while now?" Emily asked as she enteredthe room. I was happy to talk about Leah. "I haven't seen her since the prom. Have you been dating long?"

"A couple months," I said with a shrug.

"That's not bad," she said. "You've been through a lot in a short amount of time. I'm glad you've found someone who cares about you. Do you two always stay together during these changes?"

"Most of the time," I said vaguely. I didn't want to get into it. "I'm going to go get some food. See if i can convince my stomach to eat."

"Alright, well, if you need anything let me know," she told me.

"I will," I replied as I headed for the kitchen.

#twilight #twilight saga #sam uley #leah Clearwater #sam uley x reader #leah clearwater x reader #twilight fanfiction #the twilight saga #twilight wolf pack

[beefboyandbabygirl]

my fic timelines (for fun) !

SPOILERS FOR ALL MY CURRENTLY RELEASED FICS, just thought this would be fun for anyone that enjoys my stuff. You can kinda get an idea of what the fic is before it's y'know the full, completed thing. Sometimes I write down specific quotes I want in the story, and most of the time I also plot out the metaphors I want to use and stuff to sort of keep everything connected (but i have decided to forgo the metaphor-plotting). Also sometimes I end up changing things from how it's originally intended (just in case u read smth and ur like "thats not the way it was!"). the girl code one is soooar funny frs

*also shiver me timbers doesnt have a timeline bc its so short lol

GOODBYE, FOURTH OF JULY:

party-party sad

how yn and chan met + how yn is avoiding him during classes now, purposefully making herself late so she can sit with someone else and chan watches her intensely across the lecturehall 

chan FINALLY gets yn to his house while hes getting ready for a date. theres like a semi confrontation where hes like “i can tell your lying u kno” og yn er like… “no im nooooot” 

yn is soooooo depressed. so seungkwan and soonyoung and host an intervention (seungkwan is a second opinion)

chan develops a theory that someone mightve harassed yn at the party and he has heard women can b embarrassed ab that type of thing 

chan finally rips yn to his house and hes ANGRY bc shes been ignoring him and shes scared and feels bad and they have this big argument (“WHY WONT U LET ME HELP YOU”)  where she ends up confessing and chan realizes in that moment that hes in love with her too

super hot sex w praise and sweetness and desperation TIHIHIHIHIH

JUDAS IN THE WINDOW:

Yn comes home, thinks about chan blah blah sees him in window

Yn explroes the suburban ass town, sees the church is drawn to it. Is surprised to see chan in there WEARING A PRIEST UNIFORM. Naur. They talk a little. Sees the judas stained glass. Chan invites her to eat at his house also invites her to like church get together in 2 days

Yn eats dinner at his house, finds out he BOUGHT IT OFF HIS PARENTS WHEN THEY WANTED TO MOVE. CRAZY. A lot of tension and maybe a small argument bc of their differences and how yn kinda judges him for staying the same in the same place and how chan kinda judges her for being a whore n shit 

Yn still comes to the get together much to chans surprise! She keeps trying to apologize but ppl KEEP getting in the way! So chan is like just wait here until after the thing and shes like ok lmao. 

Chan and yn sex scene but first they gotta like. Talk out their differences. “I always felt a bit like judas” 

“I can’t tell if its you or god I turned my back to” you laugh

He watches you with an unreadable expression. “Maybe both,” he whispers. 

GIRL CODE:

at a party, yn and the girlies and dare i say mingyu find woozis book hes always writing in. after much debate, they decide to open it, and what in gods name. its the girl code. the girlies r outraged. thats for girls only. they dont confront woozi, as he has left (he forgot the book lmao).

yn and the girlies confront woozi after class in a secluded classroom. they interrogate. woozi, usually cold and cynical, cracks under the pressure of vicious angry girls and admits. hes writing it down so he knows how to approach his crush. yn is sad. 

yn thinking over her relationship with woozi. yeri (roommate) is annoyed bc she can hear her thinking (outrageous). flashback to the party where woozi #fucked her and shes wondering if it was really that long ago (it was). 

the girls have adopted woozi, and yn kinda thinks its torture bc now she is sad around him (and v insecure bc DOES NO ONE WANT HER?). but they coo and they love him bc hes such a sweet boy, and they’re giving him tips while theyre doing their makeup for a night out  and hes writing it down diligently. he asks her if shes ok. shes a little taken aback. yeah i am. 

another night of helping woozi and adopting him. mingyu wants 2 join but hes NOT one of the girls and hes all whiny and sad about it bc he does NOT want to go out with seungcheol and jeonghan again theyre mean. too bad. ur not woozi. this is for woozi and girls only. i imagine woozi pulls yn to the side and asks her directly like. i know ur not okay. i can tell. there’s something wrong. yn is like. i dont want to talk about it. woozi is like fine queen. 

mingyu (who is closest to yn) WANTS TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING IN WITH THE ADOPTED WOOZI THING. hes asking her over lunch and shes all angry ab it. she finally spills that hewas writing down notes for his crush and now shes sad bc  she kinda likes him and thought they had smth going on. mingyu is shook. he partially thinks the whole girl code book is rlly funny but he also feels bad. he buys her a froyo. 

at another party and mingyus mission is to get yn laid so shes no longer insecure and so she can get over woozi. introduces her to wonwoo and they talk at the party. while theyre talking yn notices woozi storming off from the party and putting two and two together, she figures things probably went south w his crush. she catches up to him outside the party and hes all angry and buff and doesnt want to talk to her. a heated discussion w jealousy and woozi finally confesses by being like. ok wait and he goes into a random garden and picks out a couple of flowers and start reciting the confession script on his phone. yn is like. noar way. shes shook and doesnt say anything and so woozi starts being all apologetic like. i know its not roses and i know its not exactly the setting you guys told me- yn kisses him tihi. they kiss then have the sex. its great. jealous sex. yum.

I ❤️ DILFS / GOOD GIRL:

Bff Giselle convinces yn to go to seokmins party invite (and bring her) and also idk maybe seokmin and vernon and her as a kid flashbacks? - establishes yns character, and also seokmins kindaaa

At the party and jeonghan flirts w her haaaarddd and seokmin is like lmao stay away from her and then brings her to his room where she’s safe and they talk ab what they’ll do in the fall break and they realize they’ll both be at dorm during holiday and then they’re like we should hang out fo sho

They hang out the first day and there’s like an ooopsie moment like hm idk what yet, maybe like seokmin remembers from childhood that’s she’s ticklish and he tickles her and they’re wrestling and he ends up on top of her (sexual tension tihi)

They hang out again and they drink? and yn ends up spilling that she’s bad at masturbating…. N he teaches her while they watch porn….. hot (smut frs) 

Next day again and yn is insisting on returning the favor but seokmin is v v sweet and in luv n is like noarrr but yn insists and then she gives him a blowjob  

Yn facetimes vernon and it makes her feel like a whore and tells him she doesn’t want to do it anymore over text (she’s afraid if she sees him shell abandon all modesty and jump his bones) and they don’t see each other that day - conflict 

Seokmin at her door. She only lets him in when he says sum shit like “I need to know I didn’t make you uncomfortable”. Then they confess their feelings and they have fr sex (also virgin mode, #firsttime, #dickomode) 

i hav 2 more completed timelines, but the fics arent done yet >:)))

#personal #dickomode #why am i like this

[quarktrinity]

quark watches star trek season 2 episode 9

mccoy says the zebras and horses things doctors say

this lady needs to stop the cold war in space but unfortunately she has The Space Sickness so we need to fix her

Space Thing

"ionized hydrogen, but with strong electrical impulses" so. ionized hydrogen.

space turbulence

did they not have dwarf planets in the 60s

lets land on the not-dwarf-planet

my beloved friend tells me that dwarf planets were not an established term in the 60s

space guy thinks sick lady is hot

kirks in his normal shirt in this one

space guy is suspicious

space guy is Familiar

"do you feel hot?" "i feel infuriated, deeply put upon and absolutely outraged" me when im infuriated, deeply put upon and absolutely outraged

brief return of the Space Thing

love when kirk calls people "mister"

space guy says he was old but Space Thing made him young

is this pike

"zefram cochrane"

oh ok its not pike its a different guy

this dude flew into to space to die like an old cat crawling into the garage

sick lady is sick

was "the martian" based on this episode

space thing brought the crew here to be space guys friends bc he was lonely

sick lady has a nervous breakdown

zefram is immortal but not insane just bored

spock do NOT touch the space thing

leanord nimoy flails across the set

space thing is in love with zefram

we must kill the space thing

space thing is angy

kirk has Guilt

nichelle nichols has a cold or something

space thing is causing problems

space thing is a Woman

kirk says false imprisonment is bad

kirk says fuck science

"the idea of male and female are universal constants" shut the fuck up

zefram is uncomfortable with being pined for by space thing

spock says that dudes an idiot

sick lady is sad about not having a boyfriend

kirk says being bored is basically the same as dying

space thing is so desperate for zefram she possesses sick lady to have a human body

apparently its sick lady and space thing sharing one body? cool

sick ladys not sick anymore shes fine lady

zefram likes her now

alright bye

personally i think zefram shouldve figured out a way to fuck nasty with a weird mass of energy but this is fine too

someone else will stop the cold war in space its fine

#quark watches star trek #star trek #star trek tos

[theninjazebra]

As someone who has watched too much tv for a long time i thought i should share with the group.

TV recs for the upcoming drought:

Some of these are harder to find, the tone and quality vary wildly, they're in no specific order. I tried for not too obscure, but not too obvious. Some are still airing, some are 20 yrs old. I swear I have a life.

Slings and Arrows. Early 2000s Canadian dramedy about theatre and shakespear. Fun without being shallow, aged ok, lovely performances, great writing. nuclear grade comfort watching.

Halt and Catch Fire. 2014 - 2017, US drama. Follows four characters through the 80s tech industry. First time I got the hype around Lee Pace. S1 is ok, but nothing special, s2 is a lot more interesting but kinda goes round in a circle. S3 and 4 and some of the best tv I've ever seen.

Somebody Somewhere. This is actually a new show, but has 2 seasons out if u want a gentle but never shallow comedy. Fills my sad gay heart with joy. And if want more new tv with middle aged gays Deadloch is streaming on amazon atm.

The Expanse. Finished recently. The sci fi I've always wanted. Big and scary and wonderful and pew pew pew space battles and adventure. Balances the grim with a surprising amount of hope? Has repeated themes of redemption. Also a whole book series should u need more.

This Is England. UK drama. A film and 3 mini series set from 1983 through to 1990. Grim, sad af, also funnyand sweet? And characters that I love. The start of my undying love for Vicky McClure. Big ol CW for violence, sexual violence, and era specific racism (esp the first film). Very good, but very hard tv.

Kingdom. 2014. Can be a pain to find because so many shows are called Kingdom. About MMA fighters having drama. Also families, mental health, addiction, etc. Excellent performances. Both a very dumb and very sweet, painful show.

Animal Kingdom. Legit only watched it because I was searched Kingdom posts and AK was out around the same time. Awful family having drama and heists. Adaptation of an Aussie film into a southern California TV show. Kind of a mess? but very compelling mess.

Obligatory Succession (Kardashians for annoying people, aka me. I am the annoying person. this is my perfect tv show), The Bear, (hospo stress and family grief show) and Severance (people talk about workplace horror, but tbh it also gives big mega church horror vibes too)- new shows that live up to the hype, esp if you like sad people. I don't think they really need recs, but i really liked them.

The Thick of It. 2000s UK political comedy? Tragedy? Though these days it looking fuckin utopian compared to UK politics now. Feels a bit like a partial villain origin story for Succession. I like how sad and broken hearted it is.

Outrageous Fortune. 2000s nz dramedy that is the source of my love of family crime drama. Aged badly in places, but still very good character drama. Also, for The Boys fans, Antony Starr at his absolute best. It's a big nostalgia fest for me now. Cheryl West is a forever fav.

Justified. 2010 - 2016ish. i'm lazy i'm not looking stuff up. Yes a cop show, yes a dad show, but also rock solid tv writing and timothy olyphant in a hat. I've watched it so many times, and every time it rewards. and yes, am watching Justified City Primeval atm.

White Collar. A dumb, total fantasy art crimes and capers show. Shit, but if you need to not think and also have Matt Bomer do a shirtless painting montage for vague plot reasons then oh boy there is no other.

Being Human UK. A ghost, a vampire and a werewolf share a flat. it's sweet and agonising and 10+ years later I still love these characters so much.

Legion. 2017 - 2019. Why make tv comic adaptations that are trying for realistic and boring? When they could all be like this? Why make anything that isn't as visually interesting as this?

Doom Patrol - same for doom patrol - superhero tv that cut out the boring bits and just went for the weird and painful. I read a couple of random doom patrols years ago and was so surprised and delighted and loved them. the tv show has the same effect.

The Boys. new, and still going, as far as I know. but two kiwi leads means under nz law i have to be a fan? also it's awful, pulpy vicious popcorn viewing. appeals to the shithead 12 yr old in me. yes, it's vicious anti corporate thing is deeply ironic for an amazon show, but considering amazon saved the expanse with no sense of irony at all I figure take all their money and keep yelling.

Preacher. Another comics adaption. The Boy's weirder, less obscene, more disturbing cousin. Tulip is another forever fav tv character.

Banshee. Continuing the tradition of heth and i starting dumb Dude TV and then getting overly attached. kinda pulpy trash, but if you can stomach the violence it's surprisingly good.

All Star Treks. I love them so much. They're so weird, and uneven, and dumb, and they're all the best and I love them.

One season wonders -

Trust. about the John Paul Getty III kidnapping. also about italian countryside.

State of Play. UK. the tv show, not the film.

I dunno. I could do a whole separate post for sit coms and brit coms and the weirder, more obscure shows and movies, but ffs this is so long.

#tv recs #see my justification is that i can draw while watching #this is my list so i doubt everything on it would appeal to anyone else #but some of it might #i fuckin love me some dramedy #i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about tv #as a medium and it's role in my weird life

[raisinchallah]

lol season 4 teen wolf post for the people reading my liveblogs but it got very long everyone else please scroll along

season 4 has definitely had the most outrageous and entertaining on its own type plot but it does also feel like this kind of turning point for the show that the characters feel a lot more bland than they did in earlier seasons not like they have ever been terribly deep but i feel like with fairly simplistic character types you can either make their take on that type more extreme and heighten them a bit every season or u can kind of regress to the mean and make everyone more normal which is unfortunately what teen wolf seems like its doing the latter like scott went from charismatic and fun guy caught up in all this weird supernatural bullshit which is like a fairly stock protagonist type in a lot of these kind of urban fantasy monster mash sorts of shows but you know played in a fun and engaging way with funny lines to ok hes now got the power and has graduated to the more boring character type of just nice guy hero who does the right thing and has the powers rather than guy out of his depth overwhelmed by this shit happening around him and stiles is just idk hes not really much of a weirdo loser anymore hes like succeeding at things and is less funny i think its also focusing less on scott and stiles hanging out which feels especially weird cuz of the revolving door of the rest of the cast nobody else is all that developed lydia definitely has the most interesting plot and most consistent character and growth but its also like i feel like half of her plot should be given to allison lol like uncovering insane family secrets and tangles and ancestors and having weird visions allison should be doing that with kate coming back as a villain she and lydia should be like besties having insane visions piecing this whole thing together and theyre digging up the skeletons in the family closet and such and allisons like hey lydia can u sense if i will ever kill someone i feel like i might have something dark deep down inside of me and lydias like (lying) no u dont have any air of death about u allison go back to sleep (average sleepover conversation for them) also i cant believe we havent gotten back to kiras 900 year old mom like excuse me dont leave that part hanging weird kiras now i guess a member of the main cast but it feels like she is actually getting less to do than when she was a guest star last season.. i think im realizing the problem is i actually think what worked about the show earlier was small but distinct from a lot of teen dramas that the characters were allowed to be like besties and the two little groupings of scott and stiles and lydia and allison felt like idk very real little pairs of besties but since the cast is constantly changing we are in dire straits in bestie land and everyones now just doing like regular dating drama instead very sad

[verbo-s-e]

july 4, 2023 2:43 pm

entry #whateverthehell it is in this grief diary. a month though. that feels like something. well since i started this.

but it’s been a year. happy birthday, america. it’s a low mumble i can barely whisper out of my mouth. a year of what would’ve been us being back in each others lives. a year of starting over. a year since that afternoon in the smoke shop.

a year since i woke up from the most outrageously real dream. i felt you in my bed. under the covers like kids in a fort. 365 days.

and yet, here we are.

can’t say i’m surprised. it’s kind of our thing. the back and forth i mean. i’ve been watching too much sex and the city as a means to keep me mentally in nyc as much as possible. little did i know that life would imitate art for the billionth time between us. you, my mr. big. me, the wild haired, verbose carrie bradshaw. the irony is sweeter than a magnolia cupcake. big and carrie share our thing. but they got married. this doesn’t give me hope. no thank you. he did leave her at the alter after all.

it’s independence day or whatever. (don’t even get me started on the lack of freedoms this country has) but i’m celebrating my own independence today. cornier than a hot dog on a stick at the state fair, i know. but you really did set me free that afternoon in the park.

so why do i feel like i’m still in a gilded cage? it’s this proximity that will do me in. i swear it will.

last night — last night! it was such a shit show on so many levels (thanks full moon). i was going to go out at 11 pm on a monday for an emotional booty call. ended up backing into someone’s car. cried to taylor swift on the way to the gas station and went home after instead. but i was willing to make one stop.

any guesses? of course not!

i won’t fill in those blanks as my attempt to be coy.

——

5:42 p.m.

not even an hour later, just after 3:30 coming home, there you were. pulling out of your driveway and i, almost to my street. i pulled over so you could pass. you did the same thinking i’d move first.

i didn’t.

rooted in those old oak floorboards, i stood my ground. re-enacting my dream into the waking hours today feels way too cosmically aligned for even me. no accidents, after all.

and like my dream, when our eyes finally met along with awkward and small hands waving near the safety of our drivers windows, was the same look you gave me. haunted and desperate for answers, broken almost. pained. with how close we were, our hands could’ve touched if we let them.

how ironic.

the moons magic is sparing no one this full moon, us included.

nothing feels real, including me.

—-

7:48 pm

i keep thinking of the drive by. i really shouldn’t. a million questions burst through the door of an already extremely overcrowded room that is my mind. they’re amped up on speed (the sighting of you) and the loudest and flashiest of them all: why?

why this? why that? why everything?!

i can write you a letter explaining everything? right? slip it in your mailbox again? right? that’s ok? right right right!? i suppose you can read all these one day, but that’s not the point of these entries.

what is the point of these? a grief diary i suppose is what it’s become. ‘that’s the thing about pain. it demands to be felt.’ a memorable line from one of my favorite books. another winner: ‘we accept the love we think we deserve.’ i won’t tell you the title — you don’t get that kind of access anymore. but i will say, that like me, it’s a story about wallflowers.

that was me. a wallflower to your life, begging to be seen or noticed or included. part of me is coming to learn that you’re, just not that kind of guy. but i know different; i’ve held the letter in my hands. read the words you could never write. (for me.) you just weren’t that kind of guy to me. the (painfully) self aware part of me knows that’s not your fault. but the rest of me? god does it wish it was your fault. and maybe some of it is. some of mine. we’re so entangled and in such a mess! cuz that’s what this is: a mess.

i’m giving myself to the end of the summer to grieve.

i just want this to be over.

#verbo-s-e #verbo-s-e blog #eternal sunshine of the spotless mind #joel and clementine #Spotify

[shiningmystic]

Spirit asked me this recently. Obviously through the world around me/synchronicities. The only reason I am writing this is to hopefully share my lessons with the universe so you may learn something or hear something that may help you on your path. I love validating peoples experiences so let me know if this information has helped or if it’s even relevant to you.

First it was from an old family friend we saw at the super market who had lost her first husband and found deep love in her second marriage. It was terrible to hear that he also passed only 7 years ago and surprisingly even though I could still see pain in her aura; there was still intense loving energy that I couldn’t understand. Shouldn’t her energy be dark or sad talking about this? I thought. She told us it was worth loving and losing because she wouldn’t see the world as she saw it now without meeting that amazing person that she had looked for her entire life. I didn’t think anything of this meeting so I thought nothing of it.

Then the next synchronicity that spirit gave me confirmed that this was from the universe itself was watching Thor: god of love and thunder! I watched it the next day so it made it even more real in my mind that there was something to think about here. I’m avoiding spoilers but the same question was brought to my attention again in the movie and I could feel the message click within me.

Me being an analysis whore this question got me thinking:

I have been so lonely and by myself for so long it has dawned on me that I never give love a chance through people. Yes I raise people up and I try to serve myself equally as I do everyone and talk but I never try to connect deeply or be open about my emotions or my thoughts.

I grew up having to deal with my emotions alone and whenever I would try to talk about my emotions would be too intense for people to want to handle. So they always shut me down or told me I was over reacting.

I was a child guys, I needed someone to not tell me I was too much or walk away when I needed them the most. I even walked away from myself because that’s what people showed me I deserved. I ignored my pain because I thought it was ��too much”. So I stopped trying to connect. I stopped trying to explain what I was feeling or thinking and kept it all to myself and kept walking.

But connection is love. It’s being vulnerable enough to speak your mind even if it’s outrageous but it’s not love to another; this is a question of truly loving one’s self deeply as well as loving others. If you don’t love yourself enough to be ok with speaking up and being a fool to others how would you be vulnerable enough to love? Truly love? This blew my mind! Another perspective was given to me also when I searched up the question:

This was the most voted up response on quora and it made me think even more deeply on this question. If you loved someone deeply and they didn’t love you equally would it still be worth going through that experience? To still love them even if they hurt you? I feel this way towards family, the people you are “supposed to love” and they love you back even if they are terrible people. Obviously no. But I think it also makes you learn to love yourself more or even learn more about you. I do think she is right from a certain angle of this question even though from oft her perspectives I can argue otherwise but I know how blinging pain can be. At the same time if it was true love would she have answered differently? Would she be what she was now without the pain? With the pain? I’m not sure.

I will slowly begin to post again. I have been very busy as you guys have constantly been told I’m still moving and things are STILL up in the air. I have been taking care of myself and I am very blessed to have had this time to try and work on my life. Thank you for being alive and trying your best for yourself friends ❤️

Shiningmystic🌞

#shmtalks #spirituality #philosophy #my thoughts #Shiningmystic

[stayathomesurveys]

026.

Before you take a survey, do you read down through to make sure there aren't any questions you don't wanna answer?:  Sometimes. I usually go by the first few questions to see if it’s a boring survey or not. If there’s ever any questions that I don’t want to/feel like answering, I just delete them, lol.

Rate your confidence level on a scale of 1 to 10:  -10.

Do you know anyone who does not like The Beatles?:  Probably.

For every sibling you have, name one food they don't like. If you're an only child, do you ever wish you had siblings?:  Rebecca - I’m not sure, I didn’t grow up with her. Samantha - meat on the bone. Sonic cheeseburgers. Jacob - onions, tomatoes, most any vegetable.

Did you have a friend in middle school that you're now enemies with in high school?:  I am not in high school. I never had “enemies.” But yeah, I had friends in middle school that were no longer my friends in high school.

What grade are you in anyway?:  I am not in school but will hopefully be going back to college in the fall if I can manage to afford it.

Do people have any reason to believe you're an alcoholic?: Nope.

What is one thing you hope your children don't inherit from you?:  My mental health issues.

Why don't you want that passed on?:  Because, who would want their kids to have mental health problems? They are mentally and physically exhausting and cause so much damage and hurt your quality of life. Who wants to have to worry about if their kid is eating too little or eating too much or making themself vomit or misusing laxatives or exercising until they pass out or thinking about killing themselves or hurting themselves? Who wants to see their kids lose friends and have no social life/social skills due to depression or an eating disorder or crippling anxiety? Why would anyone want that?

Hey! Enough with that bad self-talk! Tell me something you like about your body: I don’t like anything about my body but I guess I can easily get a dumpy... the only good genes I have :p 

Rap music: Yay or Nay?:  Yay, depending on the artist/song/etc.

Whoever invented post-it notes was a genius, right?:  Sure...

Does the price of gas outrage you?: YES. It is just about $5 a gallon here.

Please tell me you know the difference between there, they're, and their!:  Duh.

Are you obsessed with cleaning?: Yeah.

Where do you keep your shoes?:  I keep them in my closet, on a shoe rack in the hallway, and in a shoe thing from Ikea in my living room.

What do you think of dating websites?:  I don’t have an opinion on them.

Are YOU smarter than a 5th grader?:  I guess.

Don't you think its funny how people will wear those AC / DC shirts but when you mention one of their songs, they go, "What?":  Who cares? Also, you don’t know if they got that shirt as a hand-me down, from a thrift shop, etc due to financial reasons.

What's the strangest thing a complete random stranger has ever done to you?:  I don’t know.

When you said something naughty when you were little, did your parents wash out your tongue with soap?:  Maybe once or twice.

What do you think of spanking little children when they do something wrong? Okay or not?: I don’t know.

Y'all got a southern accent?:  I do.

Is it true that British accents are overrated?:  Uhhh it’s just an accent. People’s weird obsession with them is overrated.

How does it make you feel that most American families are failing?:  Sad.

When you get married, are you gonna stick out with your husband or get a divorce on the first argument that comes your way?: I don’t think anyone gets a divorce on the “first argument” but ok.

Did you know that in Japan they have sushi flavored ice cream!?:  Yeah.

What are your thoughts on the popular movie Napoleon Dynamite?: I’ve seen it once and it was okay.

What's your least favorite month?: Who cares.

Do you ever just break down and cry for no reason? And doesn't it suck when people come over when you're crying, wanting to know what's wrong, and you really have no clue..?:  Yeah and yeah.

Wouldn't it be EXTREMELY weird if someone fell in love with you after reading your answers to this survey?:  Yes...?

What color is your hair, naturally? Assuming you dyed it, why did you do that?:  Blonde. Because I like change.

Have you ever tried that vitamin water stuff? Is it any good?:  I think I’ve had a couple flavors. The first time that I had it, it was gross to me. I think I liked it the second time around.

Do you love anyone?:  Yeah.

What do you do when you're bored in class and not paying attention to the teacher?:  Daydream.

#survey