#don't look at me I'm yearning

[forgetful-river]

Jade Harley and her favorite barnacle

#don't look at me I'm yearning #but I'm also too tired/stressed to actually talk to people so #it's a vicious cycle #why is it so hard to be gay :( #arajade #aradia megido #jade harley #homestuck #hs #my art

[apricior]

i think transatlanticism by death cab for cutie should count as emotional terrorism at this point

#don't look at me i'm yearning

[luckycharms1701]

Hihihi!

First and foremost, I hope you're doing great❤️

Could I get headcanons for Leo with a fem! reader who likes to bite him? Like, when he least expects it, she love bites his arm or shoulder?

oh hell yes i am doing great looking at this ask! you can absolutely get some headcanons for this anon-chan!

… normally i’d pick one, but i want to explore their differences and similarities so you can have both.

edit: you: asks for headcanons me: but what if? it turned into a story instead? (sorry anon-chan, i uh got carried away)

Bayverse Leo: He would hate it at first. I imagine that he and Raph used to fight a lot as kids (“used to” lol) and as we all know, turtles bite. So when you first start doing this, he’s going to jerk away and think you’re crazy. Why are you trying to fight with him??? When you explain that you were just so overwhelmed with affection that you couldn’t help yourself, he might check your temperature to make sure you’re not sick. Eventually, he’ll get used to it. He seems to tolerate it at best. You have to be careful, if he’s in a certain mood he will snap at you for it. No matter how adorable his pouting is.

The change is, to you at least, sudden. He’s never made any indication that he does more than tolerate you biting him. But there is a day when it seems like everything has gone wrong for Leo. Mikey and Raph literally crashed into him while he was meditating during a prank gone wrong. He spilled his tea on Splinter’s favorite Lionel Ritchie album. Patrol was a hot mess that ended up with Raph injured. By the time Leo makes it to your apartment, all he wants is to lie down and not get up again.

You already have his favorite pizza, so he just needs to eat it and lie down with his head in your lap while you turn on some mindless television to take his mind off things. Your fingers run absentmindedly down his arm as you keep your eyes on the TV. You have to bite your lip to stop yourself from biting him, you know it won’t be accepted. You’ll have to find another way to show him how much you love him.

So you startle badly when he lifts his arm and holds it in front of your face. You look down to find him watching you, an intense look you’ve never quite seen before in his eyes. He nods. You hesitate only a moment more before opening your mouth and gently biting down on his wrist. Leo sighs as all the tension leaves him, and your eyes widen as he picks up your hand and brings it to his own mouth. He holds your gaze as he bites down, even more gently than you did to him. Oh. Oh.

After that, he doesn’t do it often. But if you catch him just right, he’ll give you a little love bite back.

~~~

Rise Leo: He would be amused the first time, and a little confused.  Would definitely make a joke bad enough that you start gnawing on him in annoyance. When you explain to him that he is just too cute and you couldn’t stop yourself, he’s going to stare at you for a second as he tries to comprehend that you think he’s cute. Then he’s going to strike a pose and say something about knowing how irresistible he is. He doesn’t mind at all if you keep doing it, but gets super uncomfortable if you do it in public. Every time you bite him, his smile gets a little warmer and more genuine.

It’s a normal day, the day you realize exactly how important you biting him is to Leo. You’ve just arrived at the lair, excited to see him. You drape yourself over his back where he’s reading comics on the floor and snuggle into his cheek, proclaiming dramatically how much you missed him. He leans into you with his customary smirk, not taking his eyes off the page in front of him.

Before you can give him a little bite on the shoulder, practically a customary greeting for the two of you at this point, Mikey calls your name. He wants to show you a piece he recently finished. You get up and follow Mikey out, not noticing the way Leo sits up straight and watches you go with a look of distress. You don’t think anything of the fact that you didn’t give Leo a love bite.

When you return, it’s to find your turtle sulking. When you ask him what’s wrong, he studies you without a word. Then he manhandles you onto the nearest soft flat surface and lays down on top of you. Leo nuzzles your shoulder and stretches his mouth around it, biting down firmly enough for you to feel it but not enough to hurt. You’ll have to apologize later, but for now you just hold him and give him a love bite back.

After that, you can never give him a love bite in public again. But he will bite you back.

~~~~~~~

head bonks: @yorshie @avery73 @justalotoffanfiction @thejudiciousneurotic @writinandcrying

#tmnt #bayverse leo #bayverse leo x reader #rise leo #rise leo x reader #aw fuck #theory tag #i'm not putting this in both #talking tag #hhhhhhhh as someone who would love bite everyone i know if i could this makes me yearn #d- #don't look at the time #just don't think about it #it's fine #i'm fine

[originalartblog]

I want drama!!! give me DRAMA!!

#also i'm. not satisfied at all with this but i don't want to look at it anymore take it out of my sight #you should be able to get my vision anyway #give me struggle give me nostalgic yearning and i'm sorry's don't just give me a suddenly unbrainwashed chuuya without buildup PLEASE #make it hurt before making it better i want HURT with my comfort #in the meantime let me live in fanfic world. not that asagiri is above giving us something similar to this (probably less tender though) #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanart #bsd 107 #bsd manga spoilers #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai osamu #bsd nakahara chuuya #skk #soukoku #nawy's art #also hehe yea i made it to match my corruption arc chuuya art for funsies

[stabbyfoxandrew]

kevjean sleepy kiss!!!!!!!! :D

24. A sleepy kiss

Jean never needs to set an alarm. His body wakes up at the same time every morning, no matter what time he goes to bed. It’s very annoying sometimes, when the dead haunt his dreams. Luckily, he’d slept well the night before. How could he not after the night they’d had?

The thought of last night’s events has him waking up elsewhere and Jean pushes those images away. It’s far too early for that. Even if it wasn’t, Kevin is of course still snoring into Jean’s pillow. He has his back to Jean, curled up on his side with his bad hand curled to his chest protectively. Even at rest, he can’t relax. And it’s been years.

Jean sighs softly, under his breath. He’d rather be dead than get out of bed right now. He’d rather be dead than a lot of things. But the reason he’s stuck around is right next to him. Close enough to touch.

So Jean does.

He places a hand on Kevin’s hip, “Kevin?”

He gets no response. He hadn’t expected one. His love will not rise for at least two more hours, he knows. He’d like to stay here until then. Hm. Maybe he will. Jean moves until his chest is flush against Kevin’s back and drapes an arm over him to pull him closer. Kevin stirs just barely and Jean sighs against his nape.

A sudden inhale, then Kevin is conscious. “Wha time ‘s it?”

“Seven. Go back to sleep,” Jean whispers.

“You gettin’ up?” Kevin mumbles, his mouth still not quite awake. Fuck, Jean loves this man. He thinks about it for a moment. 

“Non.” Jean says, “Not yet.”

Kevin turns his head a bit, to look at Jean. He has the nerve to look annoyed. It’s more cute than anything though. “Then why’d you wake me up?”

“I wasn’t trying to. You’re very holdable,” Jean says, emphasizing his point by squeezing Kevin tight against him. He watches Kevin roll his eyes, but there’s a soft, sleepy smile on his lips. Oh, his lips. 

Jean presses his own against Kevin’s shoulder. Once, twice, three times. Then his neck, his jaw, his cheek. Finally, Kevin gets the idea and turns around in Jean’s arms. His hair is an inky mess against the pillowcase and Jean’s never seen anything more beautiful. He rewraps his arms around Kevin and captures his lips in a kiss that is far from innocent. There’s more tongue than there should be and the morning breath is terrible, but he doesn’t care.

When he finally pulls away, Kevin is wide awake. And half-hard against his thigh. “What was that for?” He asks, breathless.

“Maybe I was trying to wake you up.”

#mari dayurno this was you right? i assume it was... anyway here you go. #pls don't look at me i'm YEARNING and it's embarrassing TWT #kevjean #the foxhole court #all for the game #aftg #answered #anon #my writing #🕊️

[spocks-kaathyra]

"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that

#joking but like. am I wrong though #yeah no one is able to overcome the inherent human flaw of emotion and anyone who thinks they can is in fact mentally unwell #except for me I'm built different I have actually managed to transcend emotion. this is a good thing and not a problem #I saw my father's anger and my mother's discontent and my brother's self loathing and my friend's yearning. #and I saw how it only made everyone more unhappy. and I decided I would be above them all and never let my emotions rule me. #I was scared of the dark until I realized that fear wasn't useful to feel. so I stopped feeling it #this is a good thing and I am a paragon of mental health I think #mmm alternatively I was made to play mediator in a family of traumatized ppl and learned to repress my emotions to the point of dysfunction #but I prefer to think I'm enlightened and have no problems. this is fine and will not blow up in my face #anyways. just now realizing that this might stem from my childhood. oops #also realizing that I'm probably not aro and I just learned to turn off romantic attraction bc I saw how miserable it made my friend?? #well. I still don't experience romantic attraction. but probably I should and I will if I ever sort out this repression thing. whoopsie #really she was ready to kill herself over some white guy and I looked at that and was like. nope. I'm never stooping to that level #mm might not help that my parents never loved each other and I never had a healthy romantic relationship modeled for me as a child #but still like really like what is the point. of having emotions. they're just not useful #oh hurr durr I'm angry at my friends for talking over a tv show. there is no way to act on this without damaging ppl and relationships #ohh I'm in love with this guy who will never love me back. THERE IS NO PRODUCTIVE WAY TO ACT ON THIS #literally emotions can only be destructive and I'm a better person for opting out of them #there are no downsides to being repressed! I can still feel positive emotions. I'm happy sometimes. sometimes I'm excited. it's fine #guy who is Unpacking Things live on ur dash. sorry #narcissus's echoes #vent

[ankerrigan]

everyone loves the golden retriever boyfriend but can we take minute to appreciate the great pyrenees boyfriend. the livestock guardian boyfriend. the loyal and kind boyfriend who's a little bit of a goober but who also can and will rip the throat out of anyone they must to keep their loved ones safe. the

#my diary #yes I'm yearning shut up don't look at me #this has absolutely nothing to do with eliot from leverage why would you say that #you can't prove SHIT

[throttlegainwell]

Bruised, emotionally drained boy stares into cracked, grungy mirror while crying in silence is its own genre of movie, and I know this because I watched them all in my youth. Bonus points if it's the opening scene (which, in this case, it is).

#as you are #look i know what i'm about and i haven't been shy about it #that and like many queer people i searched out and devoured every queer film i could get my hands on growing up #they weren't always queer but the best ones were most of the time #it doesn't have to be a boy but most of the time it was just because even indie films suffer from We Don't Care About Girls disease usually #or they did back then anyway #i really can't even tell you how much indie cinema i watched as a teenager #just all the weird angsty shit that was my genre (if you follow me for my fics then this will be unsurprising lol) #(ask me about Sugar sometime that movie fucked me up) #i dunno i yearn for joyful queer cinema too (always) but i'll always take the sad queers

[bunnie-bits]

i wanna kis (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) it's almost midnight ladies u know what that means .. (yearning hours)

#me n my friend got crossfaded n rly cozy and i wanted 2 cuddle but that wouldn't b appropriate btwn us (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) i wouldn't #dare ask omg. but now i rly want someone 2 lay on my chest n hold them n give each other eepy kisses ₍ ᐢ. ̫ .ᐢ ₎ #i also wasn't expecting company 2 day bc i didn't have the energy 4 stuff this wk and it's like (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) #i don't wanna kick u out given ur night but i should be laying down rn (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) either that or doin fuck all in the back lol #and so i brought us 2 the back n we smoked n talked in the dark‚ and got to trade ghost stories bc she also dealt w ghosts as a kid 0: #that was fun (❁´◡`❁) I'd been wanting to do that w her since i found out #it's nice having a friend who's been into horror since they were young too ╰(￣ω￣ｏ) that talk was after watching 2 movies hehe #we saw evil dead rise n malignant 😈 and then talking abt spiritually in a non-religious sense then ghosts #and originally i was gonna get food but nah we used a coupon for 2 pizzas n got delivery it's been an extremely chill night and i needed it! #things have been so crazy this week with work omg. my weekend is probs gonna b uneventful (hopefully!) and i wanna b at home!! #just veg out n play bibyo gaym (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) and buy more bags of food for the squirrels n birds #these squirrels omg 😂 i work in the back and they know i give them food so they've been getting up on my lap sometimes like hello?? #or i look over my laptop and fr see a squirrel just sitting in the chair across from me poking their head up over the table staring #i knoooow babies i know I'll get u ur food as soon as possible. omg and i have monday off?? i forgor ;u; !! n e ways I'm feeling good 2night #started out Yearning but (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) what a great way to start my weekend. she called me just as i was wrapping things up w work :3 #i can actually Breathe this weekend and I'm not exhausted (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠) nice. #im gonna go listen 2 my silly little music n go back 2 yearning hehe. but hiii a girl is Up now and im v stoned n in sleepover mode

[bixiaoshi]

#the more i think abt relationships n having a partner the more convinced i get that i'll never get to experience that loo #lol* for multiple reasons actually #idk i feel like im just not the kind of person ppl would have a crush on you know n for a relationship u need two ppl so #n i feel like that comes directly from the fact that as a teenager no one ever had a crush on me or confessed to me #n like sure relationships aren't everything but not being the person ppl had crushes on during teenager years just. gives u a feeling i #cannot rlly explain you know. the only ppl who understand me is ppl who went through the same as me #n it's so frustrating lol bcs when i want to express how that makes me feel im always hit with 'ohh but you're so pretty' 'but you didn't #miss out much!' 'if you don't look for a relationship it will come!' and it gets so tiring bcs it's always the same over and over!! #like i've never actively looked for a partner n it never came either way!!!!!!!!!! and i'd like to decide if it was worth it or not!!!!!! #idk man being almost 25 and never have been in a relationship did things to me that i don't think i'll ever get over #i convinced myself i'm never gonna get into a relationship to either get those thoughts out of my head or to like prepare myself towards th #future bcs honestly? i just think thats not for me #and it sucks a bit you know? like i'd love to know how it feels to have someone in love with you #i yearn for that but i simply don't think i'm someone ppl fall in love with. never have been and convinced myself i never will #i may delete this but i needed to get it out lol #ppl who never has been in relatiomships n are adults now let's all hold hands 🫴 #jo.txt

[hailtotheskull]

i think i'm going crazy a little

#5 hours is enough time. i'm going throw up in the tags so. idk. don't read if you don't want that or whatever #but i so consistently just feel. On The Outside of everything i guess. nowhere is where I am i sit on the edge of everything #i watch other people live and i watch other people function and i go “i wish that was me i wish that was me” and i sit there still #and it's true that i wish that was me but every time i almost get there i break down #i become convinced i'm hated convinced things are out to get me that they'll go wrong so i retreat and go back to sitting on the edge #i keep yearning for a life that feels so within my grasp and that i watch everyone else take for themselves #but every time i reach out i recoil without thinking and i go “why don't i have this life? why do i feel so alone?” #because you shut yourself away because you're so afraid all the time! look nash you can acknowledge it look! #but acknowledging it is pointless because do i do anything about it? do i try to change things? no! i don't! i just do this! #who knows. i'm losing control of my own life and all i have to do is grab the wheel and stop it but i can't do even that

[serenedash]

so I wasn't expecting my khux gameplay post to blow up this much because normally I just shout my khux thoughts into the void and that's that, but it's been really amazing and heartwarming seeing everyone's personal experiences with khux, like I can't say enough how much I LOVE looking at everyone's additions and tags :)

I had tried writing a long post about some khux feelings but it just wasn't coming out right. this post isn't about the game this is about me sorry tl;dr I'm a very anxious person and I love to see other people just as excited about khux as I am because I feel better about how much I like it. which is A Lot

#sorry for being vulnerable it won't happen again /lh #the real tl;dr is that I feel very dumb and stupid and anxious all the time constantly for being obsessed with khux #but again everyone's responses made me feel so much better #like yes its a major source of joy for me but I get so anxious #and I dont really talk to people at all bc of it like discord servers are a special hell but I try anyway #and majority of my khux friends drifted away from it forever ago so I feel kind of really alone by myself #I just love other people's posts and content so much I feel so stupid in comparison- I look up to so many people in the community #making memes is such a great joy for me but I yearn for more yknow. I can be a serious artist past all my clown behavior I promise #I mean all my fics are very serious and angsty but no one reads my writing Im not too confident on regularly posting it so its fine really #I'm just in my own echo chamber on here and I always assume everyone hates me or is at least annoyed by me #like people don't really comment on things I make or send me asks or message me #so not getting feedback except a decent number of notes on my posts is like. not the best #im not guilt tripping people into interacting with me really its fine I swear Im just having my own issues #really dont feel you have to because also Im really bad at conversations fr #my personal tag is 'im rambling' for a reason #but anyway this is my house and if people don't like it they can leave #at the end of the day I love to just create for my own enjoyment #and if people like it too then that's great!!!!! #but I'm also still very anxious all the time

[fictionadventurer]

Guys, I’m getting so excited for the Inklings Challenge.

#doing some blog housekeeping in preparation for the 9/1 launch #finding stock photos for an autumn header brought back so many feelings from last year #the autumnal atmosphere of excitement #the creative choices made at the spur of the moment to get this up and running as fast as possible #the joy of outlining the rules of the game that other people will get to play with me #it's so fun and something i don't think i've experienced since elementary school #setting it in autumn wound up being an excellent choice because it fits so much of that back-to-school excitement #that once elevated this time of year for me #now i want to look up so many stock photos and create so many prompts #(can't i just give fun picture and moodboard prompts? those always work for me.) #(and i am yearning for the low-stress mildly-creative exercise of just browsing through pretty stock photos) #still not sure if i can follow through with the september writing exercises possibility #(unless anyone has writing exercises they want to share?) #and i'm a bit nervous about how the symbols requirement will be received but i just gotta go for it and hope people can get creative #also it is just wild to me how quickly this was thrown together last year #i posted last year's announcement on 9/25! #for a challenge that started on the first! #absolutely insane that it went as well as it did under those conditions #i'm hoping this year will only be benefitted by the additional time instead of losing momentum over the longer sign-up period