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firefly--bright · 1 year

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Blooming Hearts

Jean Kirstein x reader (**implied fem, they/them pronouns used) mini series, reincarnation au.

** - implied that reader stays with Sasha and Mikasa in the girl's dorms as a cadet.

summary : you never thought that some freshly bloomed flowers and newly brewed tea would help you meet the one person you desperately wanted to meet.

warnings : some angst, mild manga spoilers

a/n : last chapter!!! sorry this came out so late i just haven't been finding the motivation lately but here it is!! hope you guys like it :D

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Chapter Five - Rebirth

You stretched your limbs, sore from the ODM gear and relentless fighting. You should have been used to it, really. All the killing, all the screams and blood. But you weren’t, even after so many years of being an experienced soldier.

How could you ever get used to killing? It was a ruthless thing, to kill a part of your own species, much less your own comrades. The face of the Commander Pixis as a titan was still ingrained into your mind, unable to cast it aside.

You stepped out to the deck of the ship, looking around for your lover.

You spotted Mikasa to your left, lost in thought, as her hair flew wildly in the wind. Your gaze turned forward, finding the back of your beloved, deciding to approach him first.

His forearms were pressed into the railing. To everyone else it would’ve seemed like he had everything together, but you knew better. His gaze was distant, eyebrows slightly furrowed and you could almost hear him grinding his teeth.

Your hand reached his jaw, caressing it softly, making him loosen the tightness he had welcomed into it. His eyes fluttered close.

“how’re you feeling, flower boy?” you asked gently, not wanting to disturb Mikasa.

The nickname seemed to relax him a bit, and his lips twitched upwards. You counted that as a win in your books.

He sighed heavily, his broad shoulders slumping with defeat.

“its… its too much. Its so much. I want it to stop and the worst part hasn’t even started yet.” He said, voice cracking.

Your hand travelled up his jaw and stopped at his cheek, where you rested your palm near the corner of his mouth.

“I know. There’s… a lot going on right now.” You sighed, “I dont know if it gets better. But, if its any consolation, I promise to be here with you when it does.”

His eyes opened at that, “it is. It’s plenty consolation, poppy.” He kissed your palm and kept his eyes focused on you.

“you’ll have your dream one day, Kirstein. After this last thing is over you’ll be able to live semi-peacefully, somewhere safe.” You said, leaning into him.

“semi-peaceful? Why not fully?” he asks. He wants to humour you, and you know it. So, you let him, just like all the other times.

“well you don’t expect your kids and two cats to be quiet, do you?”

He chuckles in what seemed to be forever. You hadn’t seen him laugh in so long, you had almost forgotten how good it made you feel.

His eyes crinkled shut, his hair flying because of the wind, strands of it framing his face. You almost forgot how much you loved seeing this sight, how much it only strengthened your feelings for him.

Your love for him was rooted so deep into you, and you had gladly let it. Your heart was in his hands, roughened by the years of abrasiveness to them, yet still so gentle to you. He had burrowed himself in you, in your thoughts and memories and happiness, that it almost felt like he was a part of you. you had etched him on to you like a promise you’d keep repeating to yourself, a line you kept saying so that youd memorize it. And truly, you had memorized him. you had memorized every wrinkle, every hair, every freckle and every scar on his body and mind.

And you’d never forget him. you would carry him with you till the day you died, and perhaps even lifetimes after that.

That wouldn’t be so bad, you thought, as he kissed your nose and looked out to the horizon again.

It wouldn’t be bad at all.

your mind was buzzing as you stood infront of the door to the “mansion” as sasha had put it, and she wasn’t wrong.

The house seemed to be massive, the gate itself had tight security as you spotted four guards near the front. You tried not to stare, but you couldn’t help it. You, like your other friends, looked at the structure in awe at the numerous amounts of windows, some with their lights on.

You could here soft music playing from the inside, followed by a rumbling round of laughter. It seemed like the party had already started.

Jean let out a whistle. “this is fucking huge.”

You heard Connie whisper a “that’s what she said”, followed by Sasha elbowing him in the ribs.

“should we… ring the bell?” you asked. Marco shrugged, still looking at the building, taking in the architecture. you took that as a yes.

The bell rang with the same tune you knew it would ring in; the tune that all rich families had in movies.

You knew Historia was a queen previously but you didn’t know that it would translate to… this. You hoped she had a relatively happy life as compared to her last one. She deserved that.

The music inside stopped, and the enormous front door finally opened.

A short, familiar looking blonde with blue eyes crinkled with a wide smile greeted you, “welcome, guys!” she said chirpily, but there was no fakeness behind her smile, no lie in her happiness this time.

You had seen her around campus, and had spotted her and ymir, you guessed, together at the tea shop in some of your shifts. You never recognized her, though. You’d never been keen to introduce yourself to her everytime you saw her, but it made sense now seeing her being historia.

The memories flew by everyone’s heads. You had gotten kind of used to this, as had everyone else, so you just mirrored historia’s smile, though yours wasn’t as wide. You didn’t think anyone’s smile could match hers.

“hey, hisu!” sasha said, and you could almost see tears in her eyes.

Your shoulders relaxed as your feet carried you to the blonde, hugging her tightly as she hugged you back. You felt sasha join, followed by connie, then marco and jean.

the warmth made your heart swirl around in your chest, like how your hair would sway with summer breeze.

It all felt so familiar, your bones almost hurt.

Then again, it could just be connie squeezing you.

The group separated from the hug, but jean’s hands had somehow found yours, with no physical inclination to removing it.

You hesitantly welcomed his gentle yet firm grip on your wrist, as historia led all of you inside the house you had stood admiring for three minutes. Historia glanced at jean’s hold on you, as she sent you a wink, and led your group into the house.

Historia was really one of the first people you openly admitted to having a crush on Jean. Though she couldn’t really help much because of your stubborn reluctancy, she did cheer you on from the sidelines as you did her with Ymir. You and her grew apart over the years, after she had been crowned queen, and with Ymir gone, you’d hardly hear from her for months. Regardless of her busy schedule and broken heart, she replied to almost all of your letters. The last one you sent stated about you were scared of the war, asking about how she was doing with her pregnancy. You didn’t know if she had ever answered it, and you wouldn’t have known even if she did.

You could almost feel the excitement as you entered the house. Your gaze was fixed on historia, talking animatedly with sasha and Connie, promising to give them a tour of her house. The hallway that led to the main drawing room itself was long, leading to a staircase.

“please give us a tour of the kitchen. I swear I won't touch anything I just really want to see.” Sasha pleaded. You smiled, biting the inside of your cheeks, seeing niccolo hide his face with his hand, pretending to be embarrassed, even though you knew he wanted to see the kitchen as well.

Marco piped up from your left, “calm down sash. Im pretty sure hisu has snacks for us.” He said, to which historia nodded enthusiastically.

“well why didn’t you say that before, and what are we still doing here-“

“there you guys are, finally! We were wondering what all that commotion was about.” You heard someone’s voice boom through the corridor.

Jean instinctively shuffled closer to you, shoulder touching yours as his grip slightly tightened on your wrist. Based on his reaction alone, you immediately knew who’s voice it was.

“Jaeger bomb!” connie almost shouted. Even though connie had met eren last week, it didn’t stop him from tackling him with a hug which eren thankfully reciprocated with the same energy.

“eren, wait.”

Mikasa.

Her voice was the same, gentle and scolding, kind of like a mother, though the hard edge of it was gone. She emerged in the hallway, her red scarf nowhere to be found. Instead, in its place, was a choker.

You had to admit, her aesthetic fit her more than you’d have imagined. She wore an oversized black t-shirt, paired with a short skirt that almost hid under the shirt. Her neck was adorned with about three chains, and you wouldn’t have been surprised if she had gotten a belly button piercing as well. Her eyeliner was bold, and she wore black lipstick as though it was made for her, and you were pretty sure it was.

Her hair was longer, tied into two buns. You left jean’s side and joined sasha in going in for a bear hug, swaying lightly as Mikasa swayed with both of you.

the sheer familiarity of all your oldest new friends almost made your knees buckle. You were pretty sure you’d have fallen down already if it wasn’t for Mikasa and sasha’s grip on you.

“come on, (y/n)! everyone else who’s done it has been caught!” sasha cried, holding your hand in hers.

Mikasa sat beside the two of you, on your shared bunk, as she watched sasha practically climb on to you, begging you to sneak into the kitchens to bring her a snack.

Everyone knew sasha’s definition of a snack was basically a feast.

“this is peer pressure! I will not succumb.” You said, but you already knew your resolve was crumbling. The smile on your face slipped out, and sasha knew she won, a smile of her own creeping on her lips, as she let out a small squeal.

It was almost a weekly occurrence : after your hand to hand combat training in which you’d always somehow end up paired with jean, sasha would get incredibly hungry, usually right after dinner time. Everyone else in the dorm would get ready for bed, half anticipating sasha to convince you into submission. She’d eventually sit right beside you, pleading eyes meeting yours as Mikasa would try to tell her to calm down.

Of course, after you caved, youd sneak into the kitchens expertly, escaping shadis’ hawk eyed rounds while sasha and Mikasa would cover for you. returning with some leftover bread and cold potatoes, you’d leave some for the boys near their dorms and make your way to your own bunk, where sasha and the rest of your friends would greet you with wide smiles and whispered “thank you’s” while grabbing some of the food,one of the rare occasions where Mikasa and sometimes even annie would crack a smile.

“when eren and I were in singhanshina, we’d always do this. Carla – eren’s mom – would always pull eren’s ear in the morning when she found out that half the bread was gone.” Mikasa said lowly and she munched on half of the potato you shared with her.

You smiled thinking about it.

“when I was little, I’d bring home all the produce from the garden but sneak some into my room before my dad found out about it. I don’t think he ever found out about it, actually. To be fair, it was a lot of produce. Oh and the mea-“

“don’t speak with your mouth full, sash. You’ll choke.” You said, swallowing a bite of your own potato.

“eh. It’ll be worth it. Better than dying at the hands of titans.”

“fair. I’d like to die doing something I love.” You said, which grabbed mikasa’s attention.

“and what would that be?” she asked.

“I don’t know. Maybe of old age? That’s pretty boring though.”

“oh, maybe you should go out in a blaze of glory!” sasha said, eyes bright.

“nah, that’s not my thing. Maybe just something peaceful, knowing I’ve done my job well, yaknow?” you whisper, stuffing the last bit of the potato in your mouth.

Mikasa sighs softly, “I just…. Don’t want to watch my friends die before me. I know it will be inevitable… but I don’t want to be the last one remaining.”

“you wont be, mika.” You say, turning to look at her on your left. Her gaze was fixated on her lap, the skin of the boiled potato discarded into her left hand. The soft glow of the candle made her grey eyes look softer than how they usually looked during training.

“yeah! Besides, we’re brave enough to protect ourselves. We want to be here for you too.” Sasha said, hugging mikasa’s side, as you did the same.

Mika placed her own non-dirty hand on the ones engulfing her in a hug, burying her chin into her scarf.

“thank you,” she says, “thank you.”

jean’s hand found it’s way to the small of your back, almost as if being with his old friends activated the reflexes that he forgot he had, as if his hand would burn off if he didn’t hold you in some way.

But everytime you moved away from his touch he felt his heart stop. He expected this, of course. He’d hurt you and it was idiotic to think that you’d forgive him just like that.

Jean watched from the side as you interacted with reiner and bertholdt, laughing at ymir’s harsh jabs at reiner. Jean mostly remained silent, watching the others joke around and catch up, adding his own opinions once in a while. Sitting on the plush couch that he knew cost more than his entire tuition, surrounded by his friends’ laughter and warm chatter, jean felt…alone. You were so far out of his reach now, standing near reiner, at the other end of the room, where your voice didn’t quiet reach his ears unless you were laughing.

He sighed slightly, getting up without an excuse to tell marco, exiting the current conversation between marco and eren. Something about eren’s degree that jean didn’t really pay attention to.

Making his way over to you, he stuffed his hands in his pockets.

“jean! How have you been?” reiner exclaimed, having noticed him first.

Jean shrugged, “can’t really complain. Glad to see you’re here, though.” He says, and he means it. Over the years, he grew to find in himself the forgiveness reiner needed, even growing closer to him after…everything. Now, especially in this new life, he knew reiner didn’t need to be blamed for that. Though jean still had troubles when he first met him, he quickly got over those bitter feelings. No need to carry them into a new life, right?

Reiner beamed at him, something he never did before this life. He seemed at peace, for once, and who was jean to ruin that?

Reiner continued talking to you, pulling out his phone to show you pictures of his dog, lola, who jean had seen multiple times before. Jean watched you coo at the pictures, zooming into them and pointing out details about the dog he hadn’t even noticed himself.

Jean’s eyes softened. He had to do something about this tension he so readily welcomed before, he had to fix this. So what if he felt like he would loose you again? he’d make the most of it, this time. He’d dreamt about asking you to marry him way too many times for it to not have become a reality. He was not going to hide behind his fears anymore, if he was taught anything from his past life was that he was a coward, but a brave one at that. He would prove it now, with you. he owed it to you, to himself.

He cleared his throat, a desperate act to grab your attention. You, however, kept on reiner’s phone, who was now showing you a video of his new coffee machine he got with bertholdt. Jean tried again, this time reaching his hand on the small of your back. his spot.

You look at him, finally, and jean cheers internally.

“can I talk to you for a minute?” he asks, and he’s sure you'll say no. you’re sure you’ll say no, too, but you couldn’t. like an instinct, something you couldn’t control, you nodded. You couldn’t throw away a lifetime with him for his stupidity, and you for one, were well acquainted with jean’s stupidity.

You excuse yourself from reiner, asking him to send you more of the videos of the coffee machine, and followed jean to one of the many giant balconies in historia’s house. How he knew the way, you had no idea.

He closed the glass doors as you stood by the railing. You knew he was nervous about explaining whatever situation he was in to you. mentally preparing yourself for hearing the worst of the words you kept hidden in your mind these past few months, you braced yourself. You were scared that hearing it from him would make it more real, more soul crushing, the fact that your past lover now loved someone else. You wouldn’t know how to handle it, if even you could. It was ironic, really, that in your last life you’d fought till your last breath, only to be scared of a mere sentence in this world. You wanted to delay this as much as you could, you wanted to keep the memories of jean in your arms in the nights you spent in marley, the only time you allowed yourself to have any semblance of a normal, domestic life with him.

Jean shuffled next to you, and you tried to control your breath.

“look…” he started, turning his head to look at you. you refused to meet his eyes, fearing the lump in your throat would bubble its way up through your tears. You kept your focus on the lone pole star that twinkled in the sky.

You heard him sigh, “can you… look at me, when I do this, please? I need to know what youre feeling.” He asks.

You let out your own breath, mirroring his sigh. Staring down at his shoes first, you reluctantly bring yourself up to look at him. the grip you had on the railing tightened, and his eyes flickered down to them. Swallowing, you nodded for him to continue, your face remaining expressionless.

“I’m… okay, I know I’ve been a complete dick to you these past few months. I have an explanation, I really do, but I wanted to say sorry first. You definitely didn’t deserve that. God, you… you deserve so much more than this, really,” he let out a sad laugh, “but I’m sorry. Im so, so, so sorry.” He says.

You blink, tilting your head slightly. You weren’t expecting an apology for his behaviour, but honestly, you took it. He had been a dick, for lack of a better word, and you were glad he was apologizing for that instead of telling you he found someone new. You knew it was coming, but you decided to savour this moment a little bit before jean continued. He opened his mouth to speak before you interrupted him.

“its alright. You have been…”

“terrible? Rude? Asshole-ish?”

Your lips twitch. “all of the above.” You inhale. You had to do this yourself, instead of hearing it from his mouth, the same mouth that kissed you in your last life so lovingly that you were sure he could’ve brought you back to life if he tried. “I know what you’re gonna say, and it’s… it’s okay. I mean, I’d only expect you to move on, you know? Its literally been a lifetime. I… its okay if you ran out of patience and wanted to-“

“wait, what? What are you talking about?” he asks. His hands are no longer stuffed into his pockets, instead reaching out for yours. He looks at you like he’s hurt, his eyes scanning your face desperately. Your own brows furrow. Okay, now youre confused. He hasn’t moved on like you thought he had? That still made no sense, jean wouldn’t have just ignored all your advances just because he felt like it. You trusted him more than your own hands to know that he wouldn’t do that to you if he wasn’t influenced to.

“I thought… I thought you moved on, that’s why you were being like that. I mean I am hurt, but I also didn’t blame you for finding someone else. was that… not what you were going to tell me? that you’ve found someone?” you asked, mind whirring. Your grip on the railing loosened.

Jean looked at you for a minute, unblinking, and you baited your breath. He lets out a laugh then, his shoulders slumping. His hands cover his face up as he laughs like a madman, and you're left wondering what could’ve been so funny about what you said.

His hands slip off his face. He looks at you, eyes fixed on yours, no longer uncertain or confused or guilty. Theres a glisten to them, like he’s about to cry, and if you didn’t know any better, youd think he was angry, but the crinkle in the corner of his eyes showed you otherwise.

“jesus, you thought I moved on? From you? are you insane? Fucking hell, (y/n), I don’t think I could do that even if I tried. You’re… quiet literally my soulmate. I don’t know how I even survived without you for so many years.” He says.

“huh?” is all you can manage to say. you let out yet another audible breath, feeling like your heart could beat again. relief floods your veins in an instant, like his words magically have that effect on you, and you’re sure they do. They have to. He has to.

His hands make their way on your waist, and the butterflies that should have subsided by two lifetimes flutter in your stomach once more.

Jean feels shitty, he really does, but he cant help smiling. You're allowing him next to you, you're letting him hold you like this, and it feels right, like your waist was meant to be held by him and him only, like the lines on his palm would spell out your name if he squinted. He wants to kiss you already, but he knows that would come later, after he’s done explaining himself. So, he gets on with this, refusing to waste another second hurting you stupidly.

“the reason I did that was because I was scared.” He starts. Now he’s the one averting your eyes. He feels your gaze on him, but he looks at his hands placed on your waist instead. “I was scared… that I'd lose you again. I didn’t want to love you just to end up being more hurt than I was last time. It's selfish, and stupid and, again, im so sorry I did that, but god, you don’t understand how bad it was after you…” he trails off, pausing to blink his tears away. Clearing his throat, he continues, “it hurt so much without you. it hurt to look at every flower and think about you, it hurt to live in the house we’d always talked about without you, it hurt to even… it hurt to breathe without you, love, and i… I didn’t want to live without you again. and just the thought of losing you a second time…. But I realised that loosing you was far better than refraining myself to love you. you’re hard to not love.”

He lifts his head up then. Your eyes are shining, your mouth slightly agape, and when he moves to rest his forehead against yours, you don’t stop him. you eyes flutter and he feels your hand reach for his cheek. You rest your palm there, and he fights all the cells in his body to not kiss your hand.

“im sorry I ever did that. Im sorry I hurt you for so long, im sorry that I had to consciously not think about you. please forgive me.” his voice cracks at the end. Your thumb traces circles on his cheekbone. Jean’s heart aches, like the way his joints do when he’s been sitting down for a long time and he finally stands up. jean feels like he has just woken up and is stretching his limbs from their position. He feels anew.

He only hopes you feel the same, and when you smile, he knows you do.

“youre such an idiot.”

He smiles too, and your feel his muscles move from under your palm, “the biggest.”

“you’re forgiven. Just… never do that again.”

He shakes his head, his hair tickling your forehead as he moves. “never. I promise.”

“just fucking kiss already!” you hear a muffled voice say. both of you turn your heads to see connie with his hands cupped around his mouth, and sasha with some popcorn in her hand, chewing them with a big smile. Marco stood along with them shooting you an apologetic smile along with two thumbs up, and you heard jean groan at the three.

Shaking his head, he looked at you again, “so… can i?”

Your answer came in the form of pulling him even closer, wrapping your arms around his neck and tangling your hands in his hair. He didn’t seem to care about the fact that you were messing up the hair that he meticulously styled for you, and you kissed his lips, his nose bumping into your cheek. You heard muffled cheers from inside the house, but the only thing you were focused on was his hands rubbing circles on your waist, one of them gradually finding its way to your cheek, trailing up your side in the process.

You swore you melted right there, and you swore he rebuilt you again, in two seconds, and when you both pulled apart from some much needed air, you sighed.

Pressing your lips onto the centre of his chest, you promised yourself to find him in all other universes all over again.

He smiled then, kissing the tip of your nose as shivers went up your spine. The soft yellow light glowed from the inside and he swore to himself that he’d find you in all other universes and hoped to kiss the tip of your nose just like he did in his last lifetime, just like he did in this one, just like he would in the next, and then the next, and then the next.

And even more after that.

He hoped.

#jean kirstein x reader #jean kirschstein x reader #jean kirstein #aot #jean kirstein x you #jean x reader #connie springer #sasha braus #marco bodt #attack on titan #snk #shingeki no kyojin

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taakosleftshoe · 2 years

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Welcome to my big log.

About me:

My main blog is @moreclaypigeons

my art blog is @sierraveree-art

I run @tazsapphicweek

I have listened to all of the TAZ campaigns!

My favorite is probably Ethersea but like also Balance<3 and STEEPLECHASE!!!

I try to upkeep the wiki, and am an admin there. You can find that at adventurezonewiki.miraheze.org, and our blog is @adventurezonewiki , where you can send any and all questions!

I love to draw and write, but I definitely draw a lot more lol

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My most grateful moments with the TAZ include going to the San Diego & San Jose liveshows, and having Justin and Griffin answer my questions in the Ethersea Wrap-up TTAZZ!

If you want me to tag anything just lmk!

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Convincing Justin to GM

WIP I wanna sort this better and update my tags 😔😔

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wuzetianadmirer · 6 months

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Manhwa: Depths of Malice

Tags: Smut, NSFW

This manhwa is an abso lute banger. Its fun, its satisfying, hot people, hot FL who's a psycho as well as a schemer. Hot ML, who's also psycho. Power couple and all that.

This is a rant as well as an appreciation post.

First off, the FL, Verta, is dead set on revenge and SPOILER she gets revenge. Its so satisfying to read. And I think its so refreshing

Verta doesn't hide who she is. She actively gets revenge on those who wronged her. And she's a good actress. No scratch that, a superb actress! She has people around her thumb. Its honestly terrifying.

Another thing is, she doesn't care about other people. She doesn't care who she has to use or take down to get her revenge. And thats so badass. Its so refreshing to see a FL like this, who isnt just rude or puting up a facade. She's here to slay and we're here for it!

And most of the men here are awful. Just horrible human beings.

Exhibit A:

Lawrence, her then-fiancee

This bastard enjoys watching other me violate her. Specfically bis subordinate Baron Jacob. Honestly an ass. He dies by the way. Killed by Jacob beating him to death, due to a drug that increases one's stamina (that Verta gave).

Exhibit B:

Jacob

He's a sexy motherfucker. He's in love with Verta, but he cant do anything to help as he's under Lawrence. No excuse though. The fandom collectively agrees thst he's a prick. Love or no love, he let her be hurt. Due to the drug, He ends up killing Lawrence in a rage. Goes to prison.

Exhibit C:

Marquis Proud Carter

Another sexy motherfucker.

Caused Verta's (before posessing her body) mother do kill herself. A pedophile. Kidnapped a princess to make her his love-toy. Instigated most of her suffering. Gets exposed and executed in the end. Die you bastard!

Exhibit D:

Baron Ralph Maximilian

A mildly good-looking bastard.

Tries to violate Verta. Is a prick. I dont like him. Personality like shit. Is canonically a looser (said by his wife) and utterly pathetic. Gets killed by Verta. So badass of her.

Lets forget about the bad boys, lets look at the good boys.

A: Nathan

He's actually not a ML. He's actually a subordinate of Proud Carter, which makes him our(the fandom's) enemy too, but from the comments I've read, he's not too bad, other than the fact that he's an underdog of Proud. I almost forgot! He's a deuch to his fiance. She's so sweet. But he doesn't like her for whatever reason. His loss.

But he's head over heels for Verta. If Im being honest I don't think he's that bad. He's actually kinda sweet. And like a softie for our FL. Too bad, FL had to seduce him in order to kill him so that she could use his body for someone else's vessel.

I honestly think he ranks second in my books as ML. We love a guy who'd die for us to be together in the afterlife (eventhough Verta technically tricked him). Honestly I love him.

B: Yersha

He's the wizard that helps Verta. Good guy. Not a ML but still that pretty face earns some brownie points. Also, he uses Nathan's body as his vessel after he dies fir personal reasons. Very helpful to our FL. I liked his face. Not complaining cause Nathan's face is fine too.

C: Blaine Shade

A hottie. The actual ML. Marris Verta in the main story line. A physco in his own right. Tried killing his sister. Manipulative. Very sweet to Verta. Awesome chemistry between them both. Sexy. Very suave. Head over heels for FL. Honestly very good ML.

I have to make separate post for the Prince.

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mudwingprince · 2 years

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*cough* au hunter stuff dont mind me

reblogs would be nice :D

also if you reblog this dont forget to tag it as spoilers qwq

#toh spoilers #toh #toh fanart #the owl house #the owl house spoilers #spoilers #toh hunter #the owl house hunter #hunter toh #hunter the owl house #toh au #the owl house au #uhhh huntlow??? kinda????#idk willow just gives him a flower its no biggie lmao #either that or im just being oblivious and cant tell when flowers are romantic or not lmao #IDK I JUST WANTED TO GIVE HIM A FLOWER #I THINK ITS CUTE #my art

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drew-camp · 9 months

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What's it like being an intern(?) now at disventure camp? Now that you have a more omniscient perspective compared to rest of the cast, have you found out anything about anyone **cough** Fiore **cough** that shocks you?

(also!! If you feel it necessary, dont forget to tag posts with "spoiler" :D)

SPOILERS (?) !!

1, im not a intern yet ! but i think there could be possibly high chance that im intern, just wait for the new episode :D aka episode 4!

2, honestly, i dont know, but, she seems kinda suspicious to me though, i never trusted her tho! :3

#disventure camp #rp #roleplay

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melancholic-entrails · 1 year

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about me post time?? yessir B}

yoo, you can call me star/sil, any nicknames, applicable slurs, whatever. i'm just here for fun, gushing about fandoms i'm into, and sharing art infrequently.

I'M ALWAYS OK WITH ASKS/ comments/ reblogs, as long as you stay civil please!

i use any pronouns, but i really like it when people use a variety- i'm also cool with neopronouns and i love it/it's pronouns <3.

by the way, i am a minor, if that makes you uncomfortable block and move on.

-------stances on proshippers etc-----------

i believe in ship and let ship, kink tomato, don't like don't read, and am heavily anti-censorship and strongly believe that you can enjoy things or find things attractive in fiction that you wouldn't in real life.

i also believe that bullying, doxxing, seeking out people simply because of the things that they like in fiction or what have you, are much much worse than lolis or shotas or incest in fiction.

<- that doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel uncomfortable with these things, it means you shouldn't to harass people over it.

i ship incest, i ship age gap occasionally, i ship all sorts of weird things. if that's not your cup of tea, block and move on. i forget to tag things a lot.

-------stances on labels----------

i don't care what labels you use, i care about whether or not you treat others with respect.

"terfs" do not treat others with respect. "radfems" do not treat others with respect. those who call others slurs- yes, even if they are allowed to reclaim those slurs- do not treat others with respect. those who use slurs that they are not able to reclaim do not treat others with respect. groomers, child or animal or anyone else molesters, etc, do not treat others with respect.

-------stances on endogenic/traumagenic system debate----------

man, i don't care. genuinely. and i mean that in the nicest way possible. i've noticed that people who are endogenic systems oftentimes do seem traumagenic. this doesn't mean that i think endogenic systems or nondisordered systems don't exist. i'm just saying that there isn't enough research about it, and at the end of the day, as long as you treat others with respect, and that includes yourself, it doesn't really matter.

-------stances on dysphoria or dysmorphia----------

being trans is feeling like ur body doesn't match up with your identity. that's not necessarily dysphoria. you don't have to have dysphoria to not be cis.

for dysmorphia, you can have dysmorphia for non human shit.

for otherkinity and the like, you do you! as long as it isn't hurting you if you recognize it, it doesn't matter <3

-------FUN STUFF! fandom list/tag system under the cut<3----------

i'm in way too many fandoms but the ones im most obsessed with are:

danganronpa: ( i'm currently playing drs, i've played all the main games and watched dr3, i won't spoiler tag stuff unless anyone following me specifically asks :3. i'm reading thru killer killer currently, and i already read dr0 and drif. i still need to read togami and kirigiri, but i'm sorta on a full on canon danganronpa content break, uknow. but if anyone wants to talk about dr with me I AM SO WILLING PLEASE :} ) btw, I 'most always tag #despaircest, so if u dont like them or are uncomfy block them!

yandere simulator: ( i just think they're neat, okay? i don't like the dev too much or whatever but its a free game that i play when i wanna lose braincells, also the lore is so fucked up and confusing and what can i say, thats awesome! ryoba my beloved <3 )

( under the cut for extras !! :D )

killing stalking: i finished the manwha a bit ago, i just think its neat, ok? also it made me cry.

emergence/metamorphosis: i have so much love for this hentai, it made me cry and that's weird as hell to say about a hentai manga. i just think it's neat and i see myself in her.

i love the game devs SadPandaStudios so muchhh, i love blush blush and crush crush ( both of these are free, by the way!! they're idle dating sims, and they did a collab with yansim one time, so ayano is a character in crush crush. i just think they're neat <3 )

i haven't watched it in a while but i have so much love for boy meets world,, AUGH pleaseee. also i watched girl meets world like 5 times before i dipped my dogs into the boy meets world series! shawn hunter my beloved..

i love doki doki literature club!! yuri is such a mood, i just think they're neat, natsuri ftw!

mirai nikki, i just think they're neat, it's continuity is weird, i haven't finished the series tho!! i started the manga before i started watching the anime series ( i think im on vol 7 of the manga? idk )

i love legend of zelda so much it's like my first fandom, i don't know everything 'bout the lore but i love it so much.

percy jackson, my probably second fandom ever?? i love it so much!! leo valdez is my fave, tbh, other than obscure characters. laughs in my silly heavy interest in greek/roman/egyptian mythology.

butterfly soup! i havent played it in a while but i love that vn series so much, pee pee ketchup man :3

i really really like stardew valley- i sorta play it in bursts where i obsess over it and then forget about it for three months, i'm in my not playing it for right now, but i really like it, concerned ape, tysm <3

UNDERTALE OMg. i kinda like deltarune more, just some of the characters, but the lore is so goddamn cool, i just think they're neat <- my motto lmao.

so i havent played all of the main ace attorney, i'm on the one where it's mia fey's trial, iykyk, but i haven't played all of it just so u know!!

Death Note!! I've watched all of it, still reading some of it but <333

Ouran Host Club i love her so much, she is babygirl, i read all the manga and watched the whole series.

Coffin of Andy and Leyley: i luv luv luv their dynamic, coffincest ftw ( block that tag if you're not interested!!)

i also really like yuri and yaoi, 'specially manga some of my faves are: bloom into you, strawberry fields once again, sasaki and miyano, and many moreee~

i'm reblog heavy, but i also draw and write/ramble. my small tagging system is!!:

art is tagged with #sildraws

misc/fandom rant is tagged with #silspeaks

and everything else is pretty chaotic. i very unreliably tag triggers or spoilers, i also won't tag anything for you, sorry. i'm unreliable and feel bad if i forget.

idm if you send art or writing requests: just go by the fandoms i wrote up above!!

misc section, kinda!:

i'm queer and leftist and pagan/occult, if that matters to you! also, for fictional others and stuff, i believe in multiverse theory, so idc about sharing or whatever. i haven't made an f/o list yet, but if anyone's interested i will :)

i wanna be an anthropologist/artist, i think. i mostly do traditional art, but i do ( crappy ) digital sometimes.

have a great day if you read this far!

#intro post!!#sil speaks

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polaris-the-north-star · 1 year

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guys ep 54 spoilers yes i know entame hasnt subbed it yet

very long post warning

before you ask, i saw the episode live yesterday :) yugipedia discord server (#spoiler section) was very helpful and provided a link (jkjk i was lurking they just posted one anyway)

also side note i dont understand japanese so dont ask me for a translation :D take this with a grain of salt

what i understood was manabu acting weirdly, that being an actual act, yuna challenges him and uh

so she has a sevens road knockoff series called 'celeb rose', which is funny because in a questionable dream i had yuna played a rose deck similar to aki's.

off track, manabu knocks yuna back so hard she hallucinates or something and sees elemental versions of her or something seriously referencing the 6 goha siblings from SEVENS and confirms that yuna is past yuo and not anyone else yay.

also, the water one says tsuna so that's hilarious

so we get a flashback of aitsu/that guy/yuga/whatever you want to call him making the card processor so yay ig teeny tiny plot hole filled

manabu has a maximum because PHASER WHY ARE YOU JUST HANDING OUT MAXIMUMS LIKE HOT POTATOES WHY

friendly reminder that aitsu could've just pulled out flagship or any other maximum (looking at you, yggdrago) and beaten ryugu into the dirt and we wouldn't've had this entire arc

yuna loses because that's what she gets for going first- anyway

yuna gets fucking carded(yeh i stopped censoring ikik) by the otes relic because WHY THE HELL NOT and thats the end of the episode now bye

jk NEXT EPISODE: asaka and yuamu fight for presidency like trump and biden and totally forget aitsu and yuna got obliterated by a weird stone thing that sorta looks like ryugu's earrings upside down and turned into cards that they WONT SHOW US WHAT THE CARD IS THEY SHOW US THE BACK OF THE FUCKING CARD AND THATS IT AND-

bye ig

(edit: oh crap i forgot to tag oof)

(other edit: was scrolling thru old discord posts and found a buncha people arguing about yuga's harem and i'm both questioning existence and laughing my head off)

(other other edit: lemme quote "the whole list is incorrect. yuga gets no hoes. absolutely zero")

#yugioh go rush #yugioh sevens #episode 54 #go rush spoilers #i beat you to the punch entame ahaha #jk jk i dont actually mean that #bye now

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blurrycow · 1 year

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I posted 9,089 times in 2022

That's 9,089 more posts than 2021!

619 posts created (7%)

8,470 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@burnmyself

@frog-in-a-jumper

@sharkneto

@sandersgrey

@italian-wall-lizard

I tagged 5,569 of my posts in 2022

Only 39% of my posts had no tags

#sunbow rants - 110 posts

#tua - 98 posts

#sol is tired - 94 posts

#the umbrella academy - 87 posts

#five hargreeves - 74 posts

#save for later - 69 posts

#tua s3 spoilers - 53 posts

#kit herondale - 40 posts

#my art - 39 posts

#asks - 37 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i take it he didn’t eat too too much in the commission probably because his stomach was the size of a walnut and couldn’t hold too much any

My Top Posts in 2022:

Paramore’s spotify bio I’m-

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klaus’s giving love language is words of affirmation and five’s is acts of service

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instead of calling crowds ’ladies and gnetleman’ just call them ’mortals.” saves time and intimidation + its gender inclusive

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five has two moods: killing spree to funky music or vodka cereal

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My #1 post of 2022

Made a new game to get to know your mutuals better :D like a bad icebreaker! Just digital!

Format: “Hi, my name is______. I’m _____ years old and I’m here to steal your _______.”

I’ll go first: “Hi, my name is cow that is blurry. I’m an infinite amount of years old and I’m here to steal your breadsticks.”

TAG YOUR MUTUALS!

@burnmyself @frog-in-a-jumper @conchshell @assaily @sandersgrey @stupidcanofpeaches @jbd302020 Im forgetting someone aren’t i? Well, open tag, and also no pressure. Have fun and give jokey answers :P

NOTE PLEASE DONT ACTUALLY PUT YOUR NAME AND AGE IN THERE YALL . pLEASE STAY SAFE THERE ARE CREEPY PEOPLE OUT THERE

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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #Oh yeah that one #Forgot about that post #Anyway

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elytrafemme · 2 years

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Not to be that person, but I secretly think you need to be more confident in your writing ability because you're really good! I also think to myself "Does Mare get sick of how much longer my cough syrup analysis asks are getting? 🤔" And then I also secretly think you causally enjoy the Phoenix/Edgeworth pairing because of your mentions of ace attorney!

galaxy u are the sweetest person ever i swear to God 😭 TYSM <3 I promise I'm pretty confident in my writing skills though, I'm generally pretty confident I'm just a bit of a perfectionist but CS is genuinely like a pretty solid fic I'd say :]

I NEVER GET TIRED OF THEMM PLSSS DONT WORRY!!! i take a bit to reply just cos I want ppl to have a chance to catch up in case like they forget to block the spoilers tag which i happen to use fucking terribly despite my best attempts, but they make my entire week i cant wait to reply to the one u sent me last chapt :D

now you made one big mistake in this assumption but this big mistake depends on whether or not you made a much smaller mistake which was mispelling casually, or if you meant causally here. if it's the former than the big mistake is assuming that i'm a casual enjoyer of phoenix/edgeworth. bc regrettably They consume my thoughts literally all the fucking time i NEVER stop thinking about those assholes God bless

[what do u secretly think of me ask game]

#nightmare.ask #galaxy tag :d #nightmare.fave

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flaynbestgirl · 5 years

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the one thing im gonna say on the topic of the aziraphale crowley relationship portrayal debacle is that i dont think theres anything inherently wrong with portraying relationships of that nature (i think it very much resembles roxy and calliope’s relationship in the meat chapters of the homestuck epilogue; being between two nonbinary characters and not inherently 100% romantic in nature, but still very queer, no matter how you look at it)

its just that theres a right way to do this and a wrong way

the right way, which im ironically gonna explain using my previous example from homestuck, is that its not the only kind of queer relationship shown. theres other, explicitly romantic queer relationships in homestuck, the least of which is rosemary, who share an onscreen (onpanel?) kiss and get married in the end credits. theres dirk and jake’s relationship, which is much less healthy, but queer nonetheless. theres meenah and (vriska), theres dave and karkat, and theres characters like porrim who have had relationships w people of same and different genders.

and this is the thing, the more gay and queer characters there are, the more you can play w the relationship dynamics therein. the more you can ask the question “what defines a relationship?” and “what defines gay and straight?” and the more different kinds of relationships you can portray. if you portray a healthy gay relationship as well as an unhealthy one, people arent going to assume that you think gay relationships are inherently unhealthy.

the arguably wrong way to do it is to make it the only canonically queer relationship. that way straight people can watch it and not be scared off by explicit portrayals of same-sex relationships onscreen. theres now plausible deniability about aziraphale and crowleys relationship if you dont check neils twitter or tumblr, which a majority of viewers will not.

while there are still people who argue about the nature of roxy and callies relationship as portrayed in the epilogues (esp when in candy roxy marries john and doesnt explore the concept of gender quite as much either), it doesnt affect how pro-gay/queer the rest of homestuck looks to homophobes. theres no plausible deniability when two girls kiss onscreen.

anyway yh thats my two cents on this thing. nothing wrong w portraying those kinds of relationships, just Do Better in general terms re lgbt+ representation if you dont want people to yell at you online

#i mean people will always yell at you online anyway but... uh......#i mean you cant please everybody right?#i mean look at homestuck! so many different kinds of relationship! still bad!#kath shouts into the void #should i tag this as d-scourse? probably safer not to #shant tag it w the series either #id just prefer to state my views on it outright than just stay quiet and have people make assumptions #long post #still one of my fave books tho idc #i read it for the idiot plot tbh #like... [counts] 8 years ago? 9?? jesus...#(and as great as the show is i still prefer the book oops)#hs spoilers #oop dont wanna forget that

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gale-gentlepenguin · 3 years

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Gale Reviews: ML Season 4, Episode 16 Hack san:

Before anyone asks. Yes I know this is usually up sooner. But I am taking Weekdays off from tumblr for a while.

My Live Reaction and Spoilers below

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Marinette is trying to get out of the trip. And her father is not having it.

-Wow the aunt sounds awful, IF TOM is talking smack

-Tom fears the aunt

-Marinette is Really trying hard. Gotta respect the hustle

-TOM REALLY DOESN’T WANT TO BE ALONE WITH THE AUNT

-Gabriel is studying Markov, The Kwami fear it

-I F***ING LOVE NOOROO! If Gabriel loses! We can be free!

-DID SHADOWMOTH JUST CREATE X.A.N.A!!!! THAT’S F***ING X.A.N.A!

-SHADOWMOTH YOU DOOMED US ALL!’

-All the couples are sitting together

-Kim thinks he can do 1000 push ups that fast. Either Kim is an absolute unit. Or a himbo

-Markov is just so smart he is kicking ass at chess and revolutionizing Science

-ALYNINO KISS not a drill I repeat! Not a drill! We got a lip kiss!

-Nino is way too chill with that.

-Sabine thinks Marinette trying to ditch. And now marinette feels bad

-This episode shouldn’t exist. MARINETTE HAS THE HORSE MIRACULOUS!

-Did Marinette just forget she could warp back to paris with the horse? I mean, Don’t get me wrong, I am fine with the episode idea. But this kind of makes this whole thing kind of dumb in retrospect. (Granted I know she gets captured so NOT really. But Marinette is marinette and if she had her miraculous probably could have worked a way out of it.)

-Trixx is a salty bean

-Alya prepping names

-Trixx REALLY jelly. I love it

-Tikki actually being a good encourager for Alya

-Alya now is paranoid about there being an akuma so now she is trying to help with EVERYTHING! I wonder how this will back fire

-Nino is concerned

-Marinette sending tips to Alya. Tip number 33. Just OUCH Marinette. Like I do think you are making him happy but ouch.

-Tom trying to find ways of getting out of the visit. Sabine is like “I know dear”

-Side note, Shadowmoth actually made a clever Sentimonster. I will give him points on that.

-NO MARKOV! THE CAT IS A TRAP!

-aND HE GOT HACKED

-Markov roasting everyone

-Alya is panicking. Understandable. So this is what marinette has to struggle through EVERY DAY…. Damn

-Trixx is an absolute salty bitch today. And I love it

-And now Markov gets akumatized again.

-Because Shadowmoth is a d***

-Markov is like “You d***! Fine I will help.”

-Oh! So that’s how the power works

-Nath and Marc confirmed weebs

-Daww, Max’s prize possession is the back up of his best buddy

-TIP 675. Marinette calm down girl. Also why is that the LAST ONE

-Marinette and Tom are the same

-OH NO, THE MOST PRECIOUS THING TO HER PARENTS IS HER!

-The Bug?

-She is trying different names! Lady luck is better

-Chat noir arrives

-Chat noir is SUS of the new bug! Which to be fair is reasonable

-Damn right into the chimney

-Look I know Chat noir is aggro and all but two things. 1. He is right to be sus. 2. How did he lose? Like Alya hasn’t even used the ladybug miraculous before? Is chat noir really that incompetent?

-Like I know its cause plot. But they could have had Alyabug be clever about taking him down instead of just beating his butt. Makes no sense. Like Experience wise and combat wise Chat noir has the advantage. (its anti bug all over again)

-So she convinced him by explaining that she said she would go along and laugh at his joke. Damn. That’s cold.

-Scarabella? Meh

-Damn! Adrien is Catty today. I love it

-NOT MY FAVORITE CROQUETTES! Even pissed he can make a joke. Chat noir is peak professionalism

-Side note, respect the fact that he could have TOTALLY looked to see who this rando was. But didn’t.

-Okay so yea, I am convinced Marinette didn’t need to hand over the ladybug miraculous. She was hidden for long enough to have transformed and warped to paris.

-And now SABINE tagged her

-So Robustus is changing strategy.

-Chat noir point out things are sus and Being right. Good on the episode for giving him that one.

-Chat noir is perceptive this episode

-Justice spots! Maybe we will get her real name sooner or later

-Shadowmoth calling alya out. DAMN

-Robustus is hilarious

-Chat noir being the serious one? Shocking

-So Scarabella is what their sticking with? I can live with that

-Chat noir giving the pep talk. This. This is what I wanted. Chat noir being the encouraging partner. (I can overlook that lame physical fight between them now)

-Damn Alya is clever

-She nailed the weakpoint

-DAMN! SCARABELLA JUST FOUND THE WIN BUTTON WITH THAT PLOY!!

-Shadowmoth should have listened to the robot.

-Marinette VISION!

-FRYING PAN! Marinette wins

-So that’s how they won

-Scarabella de-evilizing

-Marinette’s Laugh is adorable

-Alya telling her to talk with Chat noir. VERY IMPORTANT

-He wasn’t mad that she told someone her identity. He was sad that one day she could not be ladybug and that he would never see her again. Y'all SALTERS DONT DESERVE MY BOY.

-okay that last scene F***ING Hit me.

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I did really enjoy the episode.

Despite the rough intro of Chat noir with Scarbella, the episode did show off why Chat noir is a great partner. And I appreciate that. I also loved Scarbella’s plan. Solid plan. The last few minutes hit hard. And despite the sweet moment, we know s*** is gonna hit hard. It also makes Rocketear and Wishmaker hit so much harder.

So yea. 8.5/10

I am still annoyed at how easily Scarbella kicked Chat noir’s butt. (the competence of chat noir’s fighting ability is ridiculously inconsistent) BUT the main thing I wanted from the episode was there, that Chat noir showed why he is the heart of the team. And THAT is the part that mattered.

#ml #ml spoilers #hack-san #scarabella #alya!ladybug #alya cesaire #chat noir #ladybug #adrien agreste

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