#eh ill give it a go

[collecting--stardust]

Just checked the calendar and realized that I will miss the entire race day for Le Mans because I'll be on my flight back to uni 🧍🏻

#first time going back home for midsem break because the tickets are quite cheap than usual #wasnt planning to because i dont want to miss le mans but all my housemates are like just go homeee #my mom said so too so i finally give in and my bank acc is crying #and we decided to come back on 12/5 on the 5.20 pm flight from my state to klia and then 8.45 pm from klia to the state im studying at #and i was feeling a bit :/ at the time at first but was like eh #and then on the bus this morning i was reminded of le mans and checked the time here and UGH #moto3 will be at 5pm moto2 will be at 6.15 and motogp at 8 pm #and the next day i had my clinical posting so 💀 #if im lucky ill be able to catch moto2 but even then ill be watcing it delayed hhh #personal.txt

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

happy birthday to the man 💙💙 mwah

#DRAWING THE 5 TOGEHTER = COPIUM #technically im a few days late but im still marking it 27 just because JSBDBSHDBHSDH #its my boyfie's bday go give him a pat on the back<3333 YEAAAAA #im gonna go to sleep soon because ill be graduating ayeee!!! but omg im so glad I managed to render this or else i woulda delayed further #BUTBYEAHEGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMEE ILY PFPFPFYFHFH we are eating pizza instead of cake ehe #~ art #♥️ tomjesse #♦️ jesse protection squad #hes so happy guys pls look HES SO HAPPIIIIIII #jesse payton.insert

[ssoupcup]

real demon birthday hours

#magichemist #artwork #friend art #also happy birthday bestie #i am sorry its not coloured sjsjjss it took 16 hours to get to this point and I wanted to start a different art piece I hope you dont mind #anyways #my man. the details. the design is really fucking gorgeous but you must HATE yourself to add all of those details omfg 😭😭 #I could probably do a watercolour style colouring or just add some accent colours if you want btw. idm doing that just dm me lmao #idk really know what else to tag this #websmp #kinda. i mean its not websmp design but eh i hope you dont mind bestje #drawing #malifa'ar #sorry I cant stop saying that #malifar #there we go ill give you a normal one #arent i kind ☺️ xxx slash sarcasm #if anhone else is reading this i am so sorry #actually anyone who read these tags should be given compensation I think #should i perhaos stop adding tags now #omfg I was hangimg out with my friend yesterday and we didnt know what to do so i added acfivites onto a randomiser wheel and also put #organised crime on there as a joke and the first spin gave us organised crime #we cohldnt be bothered to organise a crime #so #we didnt #why am i telling u guys about this and why am i doing it in tumblr tags #rip #anyway hope u had a good day magichemist im sorry youre old now #lmao get aged idiot

[decaying-c0rpse]

android quality aside look at this shitty and very much tacky stick and poke before i go out

#one (1) like and ill write something even cringier in between. like vampires will never hurt you or smth. #no jk..... unless 😏 #idk its just. so empty compared to the other two i have there. plus its huge. idk why i made it so big #idk why i did it to begin with i hate all my tattoos cause theyre all stick and pokes and shit But i also dont give a fuck so. eh #ill get actual tattoos on my upper body. tho my left arm is also ruined by stick and pokes. #in my defense i only did them on the arm i want blacked out so eh. also i thought i was going to kill m-

[hecksupremechips]

They did Ryuki so dirty in aini and I’m gonna be salty about it for the rest of my life I think

#aitsf #ai nirvana initiative #kuruto ryuki #like cannot emphasize how they just did not use him in the second half of the game #and i dont wanna diss the mizuki side cuz i honestly really loves it and i love her so much but just like #why did they even make ryuki in the first place if theyre gonna cut him off like that #and same with tama too its like you spend this game getting attached to these two really good characters and then its like ha fuck you! #and then all the stuff thats ACTUALLY important to the plot and the case begins #they dont even have like a moment where ryuki can feel relief at date being alive like dude #they like. this guy drinks himself into oblivion and goes insane over the death of a man he loved whose death he blames himself for #and the game cant even give these two characters like even a kinda touching reunion they just straight up DO NOT ACKNOWLEDGE IT AT ALL #which dates role in the game in general i think was also done dirty but i digress #like yeah okay sure just have almost all of ryukis motivations revolve around date and wanting to become worthy of him #and ​then go eh whatever anyways #oh and then have ryuki literally get shot at the end protecting date cuz thats how much he loves him and just like. they barely even care #date is literally the only person that seemed to have acknowledged it happened but it was literally like #oh no!!!! ryuki is literally bleeding out uwaaa!!! anyways #i used this card hesitantly with pewter after finishing ai1 but fuck it ill say it with my full chest this time #im calling homophobia here like come on you cant ignore this one #sorry to pewter and ryuki for both being canon gay and really interesting characters but the game doesnt care about you 😔

[mechawolfie]

and then she messages me to start dinner & wash the dishes. did not think i could feel worse but ig she's always proving me wrong in that regard... this must be the power of god she's always going on about !

#smudgy.txt #.vent #eh ive got notifs off for her so i didn't see it n it looks like someone else started the food so #*shrug* #anyway i wish i could weld my room door shut #just never leave again #yknow whats frustrating is knowing that ill just keep going #like no matter what happens i will always drag my corpse out of bed every morning #make appointments talk to ppl like normal etc #like i was just thinking man im abt ready to give up n then i remembered i have a #commission to do. #n im like. aight. get it together noah the world hasn't ended yet #someone is counting on us to draw them a nice picture for 50 dollars. like #idk. idk!!!! #god i feel sick

[diodellet]

Thinking of Outer Science-fying Book 4 of Twst...

(yes that means ob!jamil as kuroha uwahhh i present to u exhibits a and b:)

(do u see it? im grabbing u by th shoulders and shaking u, am i making any sense hahahaha)

Like it just makes sense on a meta and visual way to make Book 4 way more of an angsty, heart-wrenching timeloop of trying to get through That Damn Boss Fight (all while dying lots of times in the process)

I say visual because the Snake of Clearing Eyes is a manipulative and violent motherfucker, and apparently its true form is a "solid black snake with red eyes" like huuuh.... it's as if the parallels literally write themselves

and I also say meta because lots of us players got stuck trying to beat him (by players i specifically mean /me./ I was stuck there for a week. deadass died fighting ob!jamil 4985034853 times and all i got was this cool title to slap onto my profile)

++On a lighter note, waaay after everyone's recovered from the ordeal, I think it'd be fun to see everyone else tease remind jamil of the funky shit he said during his overblot (ngl mans said some wacky things after a dope monologue like!! dude cuda stopped there but he kept going man i think the ink got to him oof)

EDIT: I JUST REMEMBERED... HOW COULD I FORGET SUCH BANGER ONE-LINERS THESE FUCKIN CLOWNS HELPPPP

kuroha "welcome to my womb" 🤝jamil "whoppee" viper

#since its kagepro day #happy august 15th!!! #i can never stop listening to the songs from there #IK the anime was eh but #the rearranges were good! #UGH i was worried abt coming across as crazy but idc anymore #if i have to go crazy thinking abt this i aint goin through it alone #if anyone who followed twst when it started (or even knows artists on pixiv) knows art of jamil as kuroha pls hmu #even plain ob!jamil fanart from circa 2020 will do pls tw*tter is so hard to search through #i need to see it for science for research for further enlightenment for-- #thank u riddle and leona for being the easiest ob fights (vil and idia were super easy too bless) #fuck u azul and jamil i h8ted the entire ordeal of their fights #ill prolly never write this but UWA my braincells are giving their final hurrah for the day #scrnshots are taken from the viddy link the translation is by sunnysubs #quotes taken from the kagepro wiki beware spoilers #twst book 4 spoilers #kagerou project spoilers #dellet-asides

[sunnydice]

man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over' #sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and. #eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig

[roseworth]

if i had a nickel for every time ive written an essay about antigone without reading it id have two nickels which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice

#ive had to read antigone for two different classes #and the first time i just didnt have time to so i read the sparknotes and paid attention during the class discussion #then the second time i was like 'eh i know enough ill figure it out' #i got an a both times #i love to bullshit my way to the top #this post is inspired by north posting about antigone and me going 'hm maybe i should read that' #but reading it now feels like giving in so im still not gonna #its a matter of principle now

[cursed-anduknowit]

Today's 30Min Muse: Portgas D. Ace!!

Rip this guy, he was a real one while he lasted 😞🙏

#30 mins or less #nah it definitely was the entire 30 mins #ngl i did go over the time by like 10 extra minutes but #you gotta admit this one turned out pretty good for 40 minutes 😌🙏 #portagas d. ace #one piece #cursed babbles #doodle #scribble #sketch #simple #eh this one was pretty complex ill give it that #fuck perspective tbh #more from the cursed realm of scribbles #anime #cursed

[thatfuckincat]

im actually so fucking mad right now. holy shit. Wow! i havent felt this frustrated in years if i do remember right! typing this to avoid having a breakdown in the middle of school in fact!

Music related vent below

Context: I love singing. Music in general is my favorite thing ever, and singing is easy and fun, since ive done it since 1st grade. However, in the summer before my 7th grade year, puberty hit and notably to this story: my voice dropped a whole 2 octaves. My falsetto disappeared, i had to relearn notes in the bass clef, i kept accidentally going an octave down, and a host of problems with projection. But i could deal with those just fine, only took a year or two and i was goin strong again.

Except for one area.

now, I could get lower than anyone else ive ever met in person (A1-C2), but on the flipside, I couldn't even get higher than F3 on a GOOD day!

I only found out i was accidentally going an octave down in 8th grade, and when i tried to correct it, i couldnt hit the notes! in choir i could only get to maybe 60% of the notes, and barely 20% of them in showchoir!

But thats not all, no way. I found that notes above around C3 actively strained my voice to the point where my throat would hurt and eventually just *close* after singing them for an hour or so. which cut down the notes i could consistently practice even MORE!

This lasted another 6 bloody years, and only got worse when i realized i was trans cause ⭐️Dysphoria⭐️. Most of my current self esteem issues can be tracked back to half of my vocal range being completely useless in all but a couple songs per year, even though nowadays i can get to and stay a note or two higher atleast.

Of course, until now. I finally figured it out. It all started a week or two ago when i was talking to my choir director about it. He told me something revolutionary: Apparently, not everyone has that problem when they go high! apparently most people's voices just crack at a specific point when they go too high! So i got to experimenting. i kept trying to figure out what i was doing wrong with my voice, and as of 1 hour ago i have succeeded.

What was the problem? what was causing me monumental frustration and sadness for a 3rd of my life?

Mother. Fucking. Placement.

It was as simple as adjusting my jaw a bit to open my vocal chords, and placing the sound at the front of my mouth. I did it by ACCIDENT!

THE ROOT CAUSE OF SO MANY OF MY GOD DAMN ISSUES AND I FIXED IT BY FUCKING ACCIDENT!

And 1 month before i graduate no less. i get to take advantage of this new knowlege for 2 performances.

just.

this was the reason i never even tried to join higher choirs. this was the reason i never thought i could get a career involving performing. The reason i was resigned to just keeping music as a hobby in private. My hatred of my own voice was a solid half of the reason i considered suicide.

i dont even know what to do now. I want a career in performing, but i let so many opportunities to sing more slip by cause who would want a voice that cant even hit middle C? who had to pretend to sing more often than not?

i certainly didnt.

#Hope the readmore works #i dont usually get personal on tumblr. dont like causing sadness #even if its for me #but i think i will just this once #To preface: dont worry about me. Ill feel better soon. #I always do. #reblog if you want i guess. #me #vent #might not post this #i dont know #feels better just to get my thoughts into written form. #just. wow. #i dont think i explained well enough how important music and ESPECIALLY singing is to me. #i doubt i could. #I dont think i could live without it. #even with how much i came to hate my voice over the years #At my worst it was the only thing keeping me going #giving me any sense of joy #(so no suprise that it also fucked me so hard eh?) #sigh #Its just so hard to process how. easy. it was. #a goddamn accident. #probably a good thing im not on estrogen yet after all. #bigger emotions is hardly something i need right now HAH #and question of my life. what now? #i dont know. i really dont. #oh i should probably #tw: sucidal thoughts #better safe than sorry

[highpri3stess]

If Ran saw me with the way my hair is right now, I'll be tied up and sent to the nearest hairdresser immediately whilst he is crying out: WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOUR BEAUTIFUL CURLS MONICA??

#in my defence I am ill and I've had a headache for weeks #i can't comb my hair without going through excruciating pain #my 4c hair has a mind of it's own #it locks by itself within hours (even with the conditioner #ran is the one who doesn't want to give up on my hair #while i'm just like 'eh' #moniran thoughts #ran x monica

[sar3nka]

Can't sleepy

#what did i expect... #im scared of falling asleep #dumbass junkie truly. hopeless romantic and a junkie at once. #well its not so bad #but eh #im done with rosa. #i also have like 10 diffrent delusions im trying to keep quiet #i feel like ill give birth to the antichrist #and also that my heart will stop beating and i wont notice #or that when i go outside people see me as a rotten corpse #💀💀💀💀💀

[27treks]

I. threw my watch away....

#long story short i couldn't find it and i remembered we took trash out earlier so brother came with me outside and i was able to have my #phone connect and have its “find me” alarm go off... it was indeed in a trash bag in the bin #🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️ #i got it and sanitized it its safe in the charger now im just in shock that i did that #and shocked that when i first couldnt find it i didnt just immediately give up and say “eh ill find it in the morning im sure its here” 🫠 #liam gets personal

[waywardsalt]

for the zelda ask game: 🎭😔👊⛩️

🎭 When you play Zelda games, do you imagine being Link yourself, or is Link a separate character to you? Basically, are you Link, or is Link a separate character?

I always consider Link to be his own separate character. There's juuust enough to him most games that he has his own character, and I'm not usually one to go full self-insert with video game characters unless that's what the game is really going for. So I generally consider him to be his own separate character.

😔 Least Favorite Zelda character?

Hhhmmmmmmm normally I would say Jolene (and i think she was my answer for a similar ask game a few years ago) but I'm trying to get myself to at least somewhat appreciate her so it would be kind of counterproductive to say it's her. But it's Jolene.

👊 Favorite Zelda Villain/Boss?

Yeah no Bellum is my favorite Zelda villain... also my favorite boss! I think he's a silly little thing and a lot of fun to think wayyyy to hard about and I really like the variety between the three segments of his extended fight, plus just on a story level his whole fight is really cool. I would normally say I wish more was done with him but I can make do with crumbs so it's fine actually. I kind of want a little plushie of him.

⛩️ Favorite Zelda Dungeon/Location?

Hm... it's hard to decide on just one favorite dungeon, I've always been fond of albw's dungeons and both oot and mm have really good dungeons, but I think I'd have to pick the fire sanctuary from Skyward Sword. I really like sksw's dungeons a lot, and the fire sanctuary especially just... looks really nice and is fun to spend time figuring out. I think it's the one I enjoy the most, while the others are just fine or have some snag to them. With locations, I’m a fan of albw’s Hyrule and Lorule, and Clock Town is probably my favorite town in the entire series.

#asks #doomed-era #salty talks #loz #legend of zelda #very phantom hourglass brained but sksw also owns me in a sense. big fan of control schemes that everyone else hates #not gonna tag games or anything this took me long enoguh so maybe ill be quick in tags? likely not #genuinely struggled to think of any other loz characters i actively dislike beyond a little eh i dont like em #cuz either i just dont really care? or i generally like em jolene might be the only loz character i genuinely cannot stand #its that combo of annoying game mechanic and character traits/personality/whatever thats just like. man i dont enjoy this at all #anyways. i think the general control scheme of sksw and the fact that i tend to play standing up helps me enjoy the dungeons a lot more #also they just are really cool. i love albw's dungeons sm and oot + mm dungeons are incredible but ough sksw #ph is fine lol. as much as i love it the dungeons are eh theyre serviceable theyre fine #i think some loz characters i kinda dont like are like. botw/totk link (oversaturation and totk taints everything it touches for me) that #one creep by gerudo town in botw/totk mayyyybe tingle but thats nothing new uuhhhh. god i dont really have any i dont like #cuz like with botw/totk none of the characters get enough screentime for me to give much of a shit #and for the other games i generally like all of the characters? its the fuckin. ph tunnel vision i have the strongest feelings abt ph #i do like the temple of the ocean king. and a minor location i like is that one island with the fairy upgrade spring thing #its a neat little island. and link just has too much going on w/ his place in the story and whatever that hes his own thing for me #also like. as. a fic writer. i kind of have to view link as his own separate character anyways #skyward sword scratches an itch in my brain i love the gameplay sm. i also really love its visual style its a nice game to look at #oot and mm are just like. good??? i replayed oot recently and ofc its fucks but i need to replay mm so bad i dont think ive ever replayed i #im just extremely fond of albw since its the first loz game i actually finished and i just spent a lot of time with it while younger

[chisungie]

.

#suddenly remembered a time when i used to have my smule link on my ig #and idk i guess i didnt actually want anyone to listen to it and TELL ME ABOUT IT #but literally the day after giving one singing girlie my ig she was like. so i see you do this thing on that one app. #and im like ??? girl what are u talking abt rn #and shes like the link on ur ig! i checked it out! AND SHE WAS COMPLIMENTING ME BUT I WAS STILL LIKE ????? #and that made me realize pEOPLE MIGHTVE ACTUALLY CHECKED IT WITHOUT ME KNOWING? #which is fine bUT THATS KINDA EMBARRASSING? #its fine when she did it tho bc tbf we were. going to sing together but i was shocked someone was interested in what i do ig LMAO #idk its so weird to me! like which recordings did she hear.. did she like some.. hate some.. did she like my voice.. ill never know.. #anyway! again- if anyone has smule <3 and sings enst or utapri <3 lemme join ur invites ehe <3 #44597 #OH. ending to this was i took my smule link off my ig bc i couldnt handle it LMAOO #idrc anymore tbh? i just hope the recording that gets listened to isnt shit ALSDKJS