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dallasdoesntexist · 3 months

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thank you so much for such a comprehensive ask! i feel like ik a lot more little details about the city now that i wouldn’t have known otherwise — tysm<33

but if it’s not a bother, i just wanted to ask — what do you mean by this bit? “There's a lot going on politically within the uni at the moment, with gender liberation (especially trans rights, which sucks for me as a trans person)” i… am also trans, but i’ve not transitioned or come out (my family is quite transphobic, and my city doesn’t have the resources for trans stuff as far as im aware), so i was hoping to come out and transition after i move out and go to uni. but from what you say here, it sounds like if i do end up being accepted here, it might be safer to stay in the closet? i’m so sorry to ask this — i know it’s not a fun thing to talk abt. i’m just a bit stressed— since i do know people who live in the city and are doing well, but none of them r trans unfortunately.

also— i’m sorry, i promise i’m not trying to just dredge up the negatives😭😭 but ahhvwnegdjd there’s a housing crisis / cost of living crisis / overcrowded classes and courses / timetabling issues / assessment feedback issues?? i know, sadly, that none of this is unique just to Edinburgh, but i didn’t actually realise the city and uni were having all of these problems specifically. i’m sorry if this is a stupid question, but instead of asking you a whole lot, i guess i’d just love to know— is it… bad? as in, in your experience, worse than other unis have it?/if you could go somewhere else would you, that kinda thing. The timetabling issues sound crazy (6hrs of classes?!!) but i feel like i could deal w/ that, but oof, assessment feedback stuff? what’s your experiences w/ that been like, if any? i’m just not from a place where they really prepare us for uni (well, they do, just — my country’s school system and unis work very differently to those in the uk), so i feel like w/out feedback i might end up falling behind lol.

also!! yep, i did mean eng lit, not english languag — thank you SO much for so much of detail on all of that! it cleared up so many questions i didn’t realise i had. like seriously, your ask was so sweet and comprehensive, of course definitely no pressure to answer whatever is going on in this one😭😭

hi again!!! so sorry for answering so late, im only on tumblr every now and then at the minute.

about the trans stuff, I was in the exact same situation as you. I had the same idea with transitioning once I moved to uni and honestly, there will be pros and cons with doing that no matter where you go. At UoE specifically, there has been a lot of controversy surrounding multiple attempted screenings of Adult Human Female with it recently being found that the uni actually paid for an external security company to make sure the event went forward. Recently a trans-exclusionary LGB activist managed to secure a major role within the university. The Trans and Nonbinary Officer did step down in protest of both of these events, and the position is still unfortunately vacant.

HOWEVER there are a lot of positives to being out as trans (even if its just to your friends) at the university, such as:

The Gender Liberation Society which meet every Monday in Appleton Tower

The Gender Empowerment Fund which allows you access to packers/binders/wigs/any trans apparel you might need (with a limit of £150)

You can change your name on the University of Edinburgh system on your own (via EUCLID) so that your real/preferred name is the one on class registers, instead of your birth/dead name

Lots of tutors will as everyone to specify their pronouns at the first meeting, so you'll never feel targeted

There's trans flags spray painted on walls all across old town LMAO

GET A GP AS SOON AS YOU MOVE HERE! The waiting list for the gender identity clinic REQUIRES a GP referral and the wait list is only <2 years long!

(in comparison, Glasgow's is >5 years!)

All in all, the issues with trans stuff has to do more with the admin of the university rather than the people who actually matter to you. You'll find the admin of the uni suck the most more than anyone else at everything. Most of the normal people at the university are very understanding and polite about you being trans (one of my friends actually forgot I was trans once, straight up just thought I was a guy which was very flattering lmao).

In my opinion, it is very worth it coming out. There are people who have your back.

About all of the other stuff, though the University are at fault for not doing enough to help, often everyone affected works together to make it as easy a life as possible. If you are struggling with timetabling, or how full your classes are, or if the amount of assessments you have are driving you up the wall, there is always someone you can contact. In order of who you should contact first:

Your Student Advisor: they can help point you in the right direction and provide notes that can be used at the end of the year to apply for Special Circumstances (if, say, mental health or financial issues, etc, got in the way of your studies)

The Listening Service at the Chaplaincy

The Advice Place

Student Counselling service

Wellbeing officer

and im sure there are more but I've not had to go past this step

About housing-- it is a country-wide issue, but very apparent in the bigger cities like Glasgow and Edinburgh. Even some of my family in London have shared the same sentiment ("If an agency offers you a flat, just take it. It doesn't matter if it doesn't suit our needs, we can't afford to be picky.") Students at UoE have protested the University's lack of involvement in ensuring that students will not go homeless ESPECIALLY since they are taking on a significantly higher amount of students (especially international). There is really nothing that can be done about this, BUT I have heard of undergrads making friends with 4th years and taking over their flat at the end of the year when the 4th years graduate. That's always an option. Again, there is also the Co-op, but it is very competitive.

If we are to compare UoE to other universities, by far and large it is still better academically than most. The reputation is phenomenal and people will wow you whenever you tell them where you study. Being from Glasgow, it was a competition between the two of those Uni's for me, and I do feel like I made the right choice coming to Edinburgh despite all of its flaws. Remember, the university isn't your entire life -- the city can be part of it, too. It really just depends what you're looking for from both the university and life outside of it. I don't think I would have gone anywhere else (unless I could afford Oxbridge lmao). I don't want it to sound like I hate the uni, sure, it is frustrating, but I just want to be as open and honest with you about it as possible so that you truly know what you are getting into.

If you want any actually decent feedback, schedule office hours with your tutor/lecturer and talk with them about it there. The written stuff tends not to help me at all, I need to be verbally told what went wrong and how to improve. The written feedback tends to be more harsh than helpful, and doesn't help me understand where I lost marks.

Scotland's university system is also different to the rest of the UK (yay devolved government), meaning you will do 4 years of a degree instead of 3, and a bunch of other stuff that isn't coming to mind rn lol. School's don't prep us for uni that much either, except for if you do Advanced Highers (which I did for Eng Lit). They are technically the equivalent to first year of university (which I agree with).

#talking.txt #edinburgh #student life #study blog #studyblr #ask #anon #university of edinburgh

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finchleaf · 3 years

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hi!! your plan to self study an ap class this year is really inspiring!! (but no additional pressurebvs setting yourself up for success is the most inspiring thing)

can i ask a few questions? if not, then no worries!! and best of luck during your academic year!

here are the questions :)... how do you self study? do you take an online class? or buy the ap book yourself? and then sign up for the exam?

what do your classes look like? do you have a lot of ap classes on the roster? how do you balance?

i want to study psych bcs im interested in pursing a career in the field. but im all filled for junior year ... self study? or wait till senior year? or swap out an elective?

ik i asked a ton if questions, mostly as a result of rambling. by no means must you answer all or any! i also wont like... hold you accountable for my decisions hehe... i appreciate any communication! thank you ♡♡

x v

hiiiii thank u!! i haven't told my parents or my counselor yet, the idea literally popped into my head like.... 6 hours ago??? but i've already done some research online :) i guess i'd just study on my own! no online classes or anything. i'll probably set up a study plan according to the resources i've found: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. i also want to invest in a good prep book, i've heard princetons or barrons is the best (btw here's a pdf version of barrons i found in a youtube comment section :)) and then i need to inform my counselor in case she has any advice and i'll register for the exam next year with my school's ap coordinator

here is my current (in-school) schedule for senior year:

ap literature

ap calc ab

ap bio (it's a double period class! at least at my school)

symphonic band

and two engineering electives from the project lead the way program (digital electronics and engineering design and development)!

i wanted to originally take ap psych and forensics instead of those two eng classes because i was *obsessed* w criminal minds (recognized ur pfp!!) and criminology/psych in general. but now i either want to study engineering (probably civil) or architecture! so yeah i want to self study psych for fun since i already have other responsibilities in different interests (and maybe apes as well bc it would help w my major!)

my extracurriculars arent crazy this year (piano and a non-high school related sports team) and then i'm planning to babysit a few hours a week for a neighborhood family :) so i honestly don't think it'll be too stressful? once again i still have to consult my parents and counselor

if you're going into your junior year idk!! you just have to assess your situation (course-load, extracurriculars -- i think you do track right?, etc) junior year is famously known as the worst year of high school, but at the same time, you don't have the added stress of college apps? but then again in senior year there tends less pressure in classes because you are going through the apps process. and then once apps are over in like jan or feb, you get plenty of time to study! at the very least, it's ap psych; i've read it's one of the most easiest ap classes to self-study :)

anyways sorry this was so rambley but thank u for asking!!! i think you could definitely do it but just do as much research as possible so you know what you're getting into <3

#ask

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amphxtrite · 3 years

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heyyy!! can I get a ship pls( u can do this whenever no pressure tehehe) okay soo my names Alyssa, I'm a Slytherin i have black hair and black eyes (boring but shore). I'm really into the arts but I'm the best at art and dance ig? Im an infp, my favourite subjects are prolly DADA and herbology and irl: eng lit and lang. I'm very sarcastic and I don't mind sports LIKE IF I WAS ANY GOOD AT IT I WOULD BE OBSESSED.I LOVE WATCHING MOVIES AND TV SHOWS. Im always surrounded by Hufflepuffs and I like to be people who I can have a genuine convos w but at the same time j crack jokes w BUT NOT PRANKS IM TOO WEAK FOR THAT SHIT. ALSO IM PAN BAHAHA okay that's it lmaooo

i ship you with...

Cedric Diggory.

how you meet

Cedric had first seen you in his Defence Against the Dark Arts class, sitting with your hands folded and all materials on your desk as your professor began the lesson.

He chose the seat behind you and you immediately turned to see who had joined you. “Um, Hi I’m Cedric.” He smiles, placing his bag down and taking a seat.

“Pleasure to meet you Cedric, I’m Alyssa.”

He began harbouring a crush on you, it started small when he saw you smile or laugh, but as he started talking to you about projects and duelling, he knew he had fell. You were so passionate and kind to him, he couldn’t help but begin to fancy you.

“Alright class, who can tell me what a Boggart is?”

Your hand shoots up as the professor points in your direction.

“A shape-shifting non-being that takes on the form of the observer’s worst fear.”

“Very good Alyssa, five points to slytherin.”

The lesson goes on and he asks everyone to push their desks to the side for a quick activity.

A tall dresser is pushed into the room and the profeser begins to explain.

“In this closet is a Boggart, I want you to line up and practice your boggart-banishing spell.”

One by one the students line up to face their fears. Clowns, snakes, spiders and dragons were all seen and turned into something funny, they all seemed to be rather irrational fears until Cedric stepped up to the closet.

The boggart was released but took on a different form. A girl with black hair and eyes and a green tie stood before Cedric.

“You’re stupid if you think i’d ever like you.” The boggart laughed, rolling it’s eyes.

“It’s never going to happen Diggory.” It continues, stepping closer to the hufflepuff as the professor shouts for Cedric to use the spell.

“R-Ridiku-”

The boggart begins pointing and laughing at Cedric and the hufflepuff can feel his embarrassment grow as he finally manages to shout the spell and make the boggart dance it’s way back into the closet.

“Cedric, are you alright?”

The professor doesn’t get his answer because the brunette is already making his way out of the room. Your eyes are wide and your mouth open, but that doesn’t stop you from running after him.

“Cedric! Wait!”

He continues walking faster and faster until you’re running to grab onto him and catching him on the shoulder.

“Cedric, It’s okay. It was just a boggart.”

“But now you know, and you probably think i’m crazy for having a stupid crush.” The hufflepuff sighs, turning to walk again.

“I-I don’t think it’s stupid. I think you’re really sweet Ced.” Cedric freezes and turns back to you.

“Y-You do?”

You nod, a small smile growing on your face.

You walk Cedric back to class after that, shifting the conversation to your interests and you find out the two of you have a lot in common

You hang out a lot after that. Walking to classes or just relaxing in the library or black lake.

He loves your sense of humour, how you seem to light up every room you walk into.

He loves seeing you dancing across empty hallways as you show off to him, sometimes you’ll pull him into your dance and you’ll end up waltzing across empty corridors, laughing

You spend a lot of time in the library, reading and writing while Cedric skims random books and reading little blurbs to you whenever he finds a line he likes.

He invites you to his quidditch games, you tell him about your love for sports and he eventually convinces you to play with him. You play friendlies with your classmates sometimes.

Watching movies together on a mini projector as Cedric stares in awe at how it works.

You get him hooked on all your favourite shows and movies.

He sneaks to the slytherin common room often to catch up on shows he’s grown to love.

Him introducing you to his friends and all of you immediately clicking.

Them embarrassing Cedric as his face goes bright pink.

They invite you to all of hufflepuff’s parties and you all grow really close.

You catch Cedric in the DADA classroom again, sitting in front of the boggart cabinet and tracing the pattern.

“Ced? What are you doing?”

“O-Oh, hey Alyssa. I was just leaving.” Cedric sighs, standing and walking with his head down.

“Hey if you’re thinking about the boggart again, it’s not true Ced, it’ll never be real.”

“I-I know, but.” Cedric sighs, looking down at his hands.

“I-I still have a crush on you Alyssa. It hasn’t gone away.”

You walk closer to Cedric and place a hand on his shoulder.

“I think that’s for the better Ced.” You smirk, leaning closer.

“I’ve got a crush on you too.”

Cedric’s eyes widen and he wraps his arms around your torso as he begins to laugh, pulling you into a gentle hug as you push your lips to his.

Cedric responds immediately, pulling you closer to him as your arms wrap around his neck and your fingers play with his curls.

When the two of you pull away Cedric hugs you again, mentally flipping off the boggart cabinet as you pull him out of the classroom and towards your friends.

Thank you for waiting love, hope you like it!!🤍🤍

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sehyoons · 5 years

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get to know me tag! (read more since it’s not really ace related)

answer these questions then tag people you would like to get to know better!

tagged by @acestro!! thanks dude!

nickname: Kal

height: 5′10″

time: 9:26am

fave bands/artists: for kpop A.C.E, also really got into Tove Styrke and Pale Waves last year, waiting for new music!! also seeing Epik High in May and super stoked.

song stuck in my head: none I just woke up and I’m a lil foggy haha

last movie i saw: I honestly... don’t remember... maybe crazy rich asians? I don’t go to the movies often...

other blogs: @tulips2kiss, @freeacegifs, @acefanart, @acemukbang, @imiss2ne1, @bojackartman

do i get asks: usually only if I ask for em or if I accidentally pissed somebody off lol

why i chose this username: love me some king wow, the second the official spelling of their names was confirmed in the Callin album I jumped on that shit. I love my twitter handle (punksehyoon) but good lord I’d kill for the actual “sehyoons” url pighfhtdfgwgeofus it keeps switching hands and they’re all generally inactive multis and it’s KILLIN ME

following: 610

what i’m wearing: black shorts, gray tshirt

dream job: refugee resettlement

favorite food: I love food but I don’t have favs really. last night I had leftover kimchi jjigae and then made fried rice because I had some leftover and it was bomb 👌👌

play any instruments: nah

hair color: brown, really wanna fuck around w colors again but I’m also considering donating it again and I can’t do that if I bleach so...

language you speak: eng and some v basic korean

most iconic song: I was listening to Canvas by 4 Minute last night and it’s one of the best B-side’s I’ve ever heard and doesn’t get enough love

random fact: my History of North(ern) Korea class switched rooms today and I’m kinda bummed because I liked the people around me so I hope they sit by me again

describe yourself in aesthetic things: sleeping in sunbeams. nostalgic memories of camping at the lake. drinking caffeine and blasting music on a long road trip. the sublime feeling when you look out on a huge field of flowers and feel like you could swim in them. staying up too late with your friends as a teen and laughing until it hurt to breathe.

#not ace

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fairielust · 6 years

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hoOoOOo BOY HERE WE GO

so uhhh i had another meeting w wisteria after my exam today to practice for my speaking exam which is nEXT WEEK AHJFEL RIP LOL but unfortunately she had class so i had to wait outside in the cold playing games on my phone till p4 where i could go to the japanese classroom (besides we usually had japanese if this was normal times anyway Soo Nice !!! a class w just wisteria n i good shit !!!)

when p4 came i went up n she welcomed me in w a ‘douzo douzo.’ now you see i wrote a letter to my host family like two weeks ago after three years of silence (ugh i was really busy ok leave me alone i intend to write more after my final exams !!!) but i got a letter back from them last week n i cried they were so sweet !!!! i just had to show wisteria the comments they made about my level of japanese, how they were all really shocked n impressed to see that i had written an entire letter in japanese hELL YEAH !!!! n i told her how happy i was of myself for doing such a feat n she was really proud of me !!! she’s like ‘watashi mo, kei-chan, totemo ureshii ~’ aka ‘me too kei, i’m really happy !!!’ I LOVE LIFE !!! she was just smiling @ me smiling like crazy n asdfhkjl what a moment

suddenly she shifted into speaking practice n that caught me off guard for the first ten minutes or so bc yknow,,, nerves(TM). wisteria gave me another speech on how realistically i wasn’t getting a band six (bless her for not put pressure on me to do really well in speaking smiles) for speaking n i need to be ‘confidently incorrect ‘(‘you do realise i’ve told you this a thousand other ways kei’ ‘i knowwwwwwww,,,’)

we continued for another ten minutes n by some chance i got good ??? like i started throwing in some more complex structures n when they were right she’d nod n give me some kind of positive noise to encourage me further,,,

when we had finished wisteria was like ‘YES KEI THAT’S IT YOU GOTTA BOTTLE UP THE LAST TEN MINUTES N SPEAK LIKE THAT !!!!’ n was full on clapping n shit im sobbing she was super proud of me n i really needed this bc my mood has been shit during these exams,,,

(ie my parents didn’t even know i was doing exams n whenever i studied they just didn’t give a shit n i had lots of held-back anger n late night tears still in me buT !!! I DIDN’T LET THEM STOP ME FROM SPEAKING TODAY !!! FUCKING SUCK IT @ DEMONS IN MY HEAD)

after that i asked her if she was going to be there w us on the day of the exam but turns out she wasn’t planning to,,, nekminut she asks what day its on (‘23rd ?’ ‘isn’t it the 25th ? the day after my extension major is due ???’) n she said we could catch a train together to the place to get there ahHHHHHH it’ll be so encouraging if she’s there w us !! (lowkey w me !!)

after that we kinda wrapped up w speaking bc now we were on the topic of my major works n i asked if she wanted to come to the art exhibition my school’s holding in like three weeks to showcase all of the year12 visual arts major works (aka my work is apart of this i have to be there n shit),,, n she said she’d come,,,

bitch your girl fricking asked wisteria to come to two (2) major things coming up n she said she’d come to B O T H i stan myself

then i started rambling on about how i have to choose a title for my artwork n i told her what i thought was a brilliant idea in my mind bc it’s a line from one of coleridge’s poems (aka the dude i’m studying for english ex 1) where he’s like ‘hunger’d after nature’ only i’d write it in japanese thus combining my love for romanticism n japanese n she immediately got up to look up the translation for me lmAo she had no idea who coleridge was i feel like a genius for once

eventually it got close to lunch time n she walks over to her desk n goes ‘oh kei-chan ! one of the year sevens gave me these, it’s chocolate’ n gives me this lil packet that was super cute ahhh what a legend. (when i ate it later i discovered it to be white chocolate inside some kind of shortbread kinda biscuit it was sOOO GOOD TF i wanted more ????) but uhh how romantic ?? like it was the only one sitting on her desk,,, as if,,, she had intended to keep it to give to me,,, bc she knew i was coming after her year 7 class,,,, uh huh uh huh

as she packed up the classroom she asks in japanese if i had anymore exams n i told her (in japanese !) i had bio n eng ex I left n she asks what days n i said that they were both on thursday n she laughs out loud n gives me a pity look bc bio goes for 3 hours n that’s not enough time to study for eng ex but she’s like ‘you’ll be fine you know all of them anyway’ uGH SHE BELIEVES IN ME WAY TOO MUCH HAHAHAHAHA

adsfdgjk she was also laughing a lot today like she’s just so comfortable when i’m here n vice versa we love a connection

look i’m still in shock i can’t believe that a) i actually did well in a speaking task again n she got super proud of me n b) i asked her to come w us to our exam n invited her to the art exhibition skdskrsjhdf i LOVE HER OK SHE’S SO LOVING N SWEET N SUPPORTIVE OF ME JUST,,, WHY !!!

#musings #tc #tcc #teacher crush #female tc #female teacher crush #lesbian tc #lesbian teacher crush #teacher crush community #love #girl crush #woman crush #i love my teacher #sm #so so much #what a legend #i stan

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woozi · 3 years

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yes, english :3. it's funny my country is literally known for its diversity & endless languages (and it flexes about it too lmao) but in reality does nothing to help in/encourage learning other languages. hindi & eng are the only languages schools teach & 3rd one depends on what state you live in. minority languages are not even in options.

ahhh learning that people out there are trying to preserve their languages and culture <3 it feels good to know, i hope they keep doing it that's really great!

hehe that's good no? :3 trying out new stuff even if only for some time also has its charm <3 and oh godddd those are great picks! 24h & fallin flower will never fail to amaze me <3 callx3 & hit, so trueee i agree! i personally like 'oh my' too! along w/ these. since it clearly speaks for the song's lyrics. like wonu controlling the human cube in start & the thinking poses during chorus. it all vibes so well with the song's concept. i really like when choreo clearly speaks the song to the audience.

yesss ofc! i plan to complete vincenzo before year ends dhjdjdkd. NO WAYYY! PLEASE COME TO HOMECHA UNIVERSE <3 you'll love it here!! dimple couple are very wholesome so are others 🥺.

yes those are the playlists made by spotify! usually i don't like playlists' made by the app for other songs but with kpop especially for indie and rnb songs, i do sometimes check it.

cringe domestic boy made ME a cringe fan today, yza 😭 feeling so deranged rn </3. so many pictures by mr joshu??? are we living in right universe? (maybe i should b*lly him more? this is a sign) ALSO omg i've never heard abt joshua and woozi covering a 1d song fhdjjrkrkedn good for them djjdkddk.

HFJDDKSK 'forgotten love' <//3 next project. but yeah that's true, there is literally so much happening i feel like if i were to pay attention to everything i'd be overwhelmed.

the way you asked abt cb and they dropped the poster dhdjjdkd, i was going to say i actually don't have any particular thing in mind but i'd really like something like fear or good to me or getting closer. something stronger, also yes i agree w you we need some cock music <3 ( ik the insta pictures are behind pictures from their merch shoot but all these soft nature pictures on insta while their other social media accounts have dark layout is so funny to me 😭😭😭 pls don't shatter my strong fiery cb expectations svt)

i'm so surprised that they dropped the poster one month before cb, even more surprised with the scheduler too omggg 😭😭 i've become so used to 2 - 1.5 week before, cb announcements now lmao.

something abt this cb feels so different <3 ( also hoping for studio choom & dance relay this time </3 i miss it 🥺)

that's good to know <3 hope this good energy with uni persists for you <3. also saw that you'll get time during cb release that's so good <3 hope you get to enjoy it to the fullest. i'm doing great! it's raining too much here (it shouldn't rn 💀) so that's lil meh but overall i'm good, thank you for asking <3. omg pls 💗🥺 sending you a hug back!

hjdkdsk i was trying different font to make ask look lil smaller hddjdjkd but yes i do copy- paste bcoz i type in notes first :3 (in case tumblr decides its hungry which has not happened yet hdjdjd) - 🪂

ohh now i get it </3 it's still mostly like that here too, and a lot of native languages of ours are dying as well. it's one of the things i'm so sad abt :/ that's why i was v surprised when they somehow started incorporating more into secondary education!!

LOOOVE THAT PERSPECTIVE SM 😭 im just out here feeling like a jack of all trades, master of none lmao HFHJFDH ALSO YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! svt's peak summer concept (... or is it the only hdshjds) tbh <3 i love the choreo on the 2nd half of the chorus sm <3 also v great point!! a lot of creative directors focus on that and the way u presented this just piqued my interest bc... wow their methods Work Well HJDHJDSH

i haven't watched kdramas in a while (mostly bc they're so long fjfhdj) until i came across vincenzo and im so glad i did <3 JHDSHJDSJ SORRY I KEEP TALKING ABT IT ENDLESSLY!! BUT ALSO OMG a lot of my classmates have also been talking abt hometown chax3 and i keep putting it in my list but i saw that it's not finished yet?? is it not?? am i crazy??? from what i've seen on netflix new eps come weekly??? and if i become obsessed and the new ep takes a WHOLE ASS WEEK to come out... what then... but IM SOOO PUMPED FOR IT the previews i have been seeing look so cute </3

ALSO OMG ME TOO!!! i was actually v v surprised when i checked out one of the daily mixes and none of the songs in them were flops HJDHJ

HONESTLY,,, I GET IT,,,,,,, JOSHUA'S BEEN TAKING UP SPACE IN MY CRAMMED BRAIN TOO LIKE,,,, SIR,,,, NOT IN FRONT OF MY SALAD,,??? ALSO,,,,, JOSH FROM THE TEASER,,, OH MY GO,D,,, I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED BAD BOY JOSH IN MY LIFE????????? LIIKE??????????????? I NEVER EVEN IMAGINED IT WAS POSSIBLE????????????????????????? THAT I WOULD BE SEEING T H A T IN MY LIFETIME????????????/ CHURCH BOY JOSH,,, LOOKING LIKE THIS????????????????????????? HELP MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

and yes omg there were 2 performances of it iirc HFHJFDHJ here's the first one and another one 😭 also i can't find the josh x jihoon vid (i forgot the song title hfdhf) so here's predebut josh w sunday morning instead hfjhfd HJDSJHSD

and that's v v good that you're doing it at your own pace <3 love that <3 i feel like im working some kind of job keeping up w it all ngl 😭

AND HELL YEAH OH MY GODDD WE MIGHT ACTUALLY BE GETTING A MIX OF ALL THOSE BASED ON THE CONCEPT TRAILER??? WE'RE NOT ONLY GETTING COCK MUSIC, LOOKS LIKE WE'RE GETTING ROCK AS WELL 😭 ALSO UR SO RIGHT HFDHJDFJHFD there's literally no in between when u go to their official ig page they're like,,,,, here's some cute dicon teasers <3 oh and hoshi + mg being whores,,, AND THEN SOME COTTAGECORE BOYS!! <3 and now some fucking cock teasers <3 WHAT IS GOING ON 😭😭😭 everyday i wake up to new shit and although it is Some Work keeping up w them i love it sm it keeps me from going insane w real life fhjdfhj also i know we already talked abt this previously but w all the things coming out rn.... i ask... once again... How... do they have 276 hours in a day wtf 😭

ALSO YES WITH MY WHOLE FUCKING CHEST????????????????????????????????????? i was so surprised when it dropped 😭 i wasnt expecting anything so i turned off all my notifs that day so i could focus on studying and alas.... i was 40 mins late to the announcement oh my god

WHY ARE UR TAKES SO GOOD <3 UR SO VALID AND UR SO RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just know,,, that the studio choom vid will take me out,, i KNOW IT,,, they really seem to be hyping up this cb it really does feel v diff and v Big to me <3 by the looks of it they really should tho it looks like a fucking banger!!

AND NAURR THE WAY U EVEN SAW THAT </3 i have the power of god and anime on my side this semester ig HJFHJFDHJFD i was honestly super worried (i kinda need to touch grass rn lol) that i would be late to the cb since my classes end at 7 pm and the boys usually release by 6 HJDHJSD but it seems like they're targeting another market now so i'm also relieved and excited for them!! and thank u omg, WE will enjoy it together!! <3 the global warming really is so- also do u not like rainy days or 👀 on the other hand it's SOOO fucking hot here when it should be raining so????????????? god what is HAPPENING.

also that is v smart of u <3 i've had WAYY too many asks get eaten.. you stay safe out there 😭😭😭

AGAIN!! LOVE U THANK U FOR HANGING OUT W MEEEE <3 IM SO EXCITED TO SPEND THIS CB W U!!

#🪂 anon #anon #y.ask #long post

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pupa-cinema · 4 years

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Happy Go Lucky Heads - wosushi ~Wall of Sushi~ - English Translation

Lyrics: Sekihan Music: 324

魚魚魚　こっち側はシャリ Fish~ Fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the rice 魚魚魚　こっち側がネタ Fish~ fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the toppings 魚魚魚　こっち側はシャリ fish~ fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the rice 魚魚魚　こっち側がネタ Fish~ fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the toppings

業界用語 Insider argot 寿司はシースー If sushi is shi-su, then ルーウォーのブーオー Ll-wa f-o スーデーでシューモー Th-dea in the pit-mosh

しょう油つけ過ぎ　ネタ殺し Cool it with the soy sauce, topping killer しょう油つけ過ぎ　ネタを殺してる Cool it with the soy sauce, you’re killing the toppings しょう油つけ過ぎ　過ぎたるは Cool it with the soy sauce, too much of a good thing しょう油つけ過ぎ　及ばざるが如し Cool it with the soy sauce, is a bad thing

業界用語 Insider argot 寿司はシースー If sushi is shi-su, then ルーウォーのブーオー Ll-wa f-o スーデーでシューモー Th-dea upon the pit-mosh

魚魚魚　こっち側はシャリ Fish~ fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the rice 魚魚魚　こっち側がネタ fish~ fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the toppings

お寿司　お寿司だよ　パーティーナイト(シースー) It’s sushi, here’s your sushi, it’s party night (shi-su!) 踊り踊る　(魚魚魚) Dancing and dancing (Fish~ Fish~ Fish~) オドリ一気食い Take one big bite of this dance!

握り寿司　ハッピーナイト(シースー) Nigiri rolls, happy hour (shi-su) アガりアガる　(魚魚魚) Pumping the pumps up あがり一気飲み Take one big gulp of the refreshments

ネタとシャリ　ぶつかって(シースー) Toppings and rice, slammed together (shi! su!) 司る(魚魚魚) Cooking up the 寿の字 happy go lucky characters

思いやり　ぶつかって(ふわっふー) Show respect for your fellows when, slamming together (Ya!hoo!) 形取る(wow wow wow) Shaping up the 幸暴の陣 Peppy and fucky team

魚魚魚　こっち側はシャリ Fish~ Fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the rice 魚魚魚　こっち側がネタ Fish~ Fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the toppings

12 12らっしゃい One, two, one twelcome!

業界用語 Insider argot 寿司はシースー If sushi is shi-su, then ルーウォーのブーオー Ll-wa f-o スーデーでシューモー Th-dea upon the pit-mosh

That's purple haze！！醤油焦がすぜ Burnt soy sauce plz!! 脱法ハーブかい？ You think we've got a roll of drugs? nonno　こいつぁ　海苔だ nonno, this lil’ guy is the seaweed 目立って colorful です Such colorful eye candy ain’t it ちらし寿司 Chirashi rolls

はーいお愛想ねー！ありがとよ！ Aww, you guys are too sweet! Thankies! え？高すぎ？てやんでぃ！ What the fuck? Can’t afford it? Don’t give me that shite! 庶民派のあんたにゃ A commoner class normie like you, is gonna get ぐるぐるぐるぐるぐるぐる…回る Swirly swirly swirly swirly, spun around 回転寿司でぃ！！ Rotary sushi!!

魚魚魚　こっち側はシャリ Fish~ Fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the rice 魚魚魚　こっち側がネタ Fish~ Fish~ Fish~ Over here we have the toppings

くるり　手巻き寿司　クレイジーナイト(シースー) Twist and turn, hand-rolled sushi, crazy time (shi! su! 釘付けよ(魚魚魚) Nail it in ヅケをペロリ Take a lick of fish kebob

赤だしも　はいどうぞ It’s red and raw, ripe for the eating 出汁が命(カツオ) No dashi fish stock, no life (KatsUO) 妥協しないぜ We don't skimp out on anything

握り寿司　ハッピーナイト(シースー) Nigiri rolls, happy hour (shi-su) アガりアガる　(魚魚魚) Pumping the pumps up あがり一気飲み Take one big gulp of the refreshments

ネタとシャリ　ぶつかって(シースー) Toppings and rice, slammed together (shi! su!) 司る(魚魚魚) Cooking up the (Fish~ Fish~Fish~) 寿の字 Happy go lucky characters

思いやり　ぶつかって(ふわっふー) Show respect for your fellows when, slamming together (Ya!hoo!) 形取る(wow wow wow) Shaping up the 幸暴の陣 Peppy and fucky team

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Footnotes:

● The title Wall of Sushi is a pun on the mosh pit's 'Wall of Death' — "When the crowd splits into halves which then run at each other during a music drop or prompt from the artist. The aim is to slam into each other but to keep elbows down and not punch each other." via.

● ウォール, 魚, wow: these all include the syllable ‘wo’, a phonic akin to the celebratory cheer “woah!” 魚[fish] is normally read sakana, but the on-yomi is ‘uo’.

●Insider argot: The specific argot here is an outdated one, which revolves around the swapping of a word’s syllables to create a code word! It was originally used by insiders, entertainers or such people in the public eye who needed to avoid being followed to places, like sushi bars. Though the argot proceeded to then evolve into a trendy lingo, used during Japan’s 80s economy boom when a majority of people had enough money to splurge on high-class sushi and dance clubs often.

On that note, please try and figure out what the lyrics in this verse are saying~! Swap the syllables!

○ ネタ(neta): common chef lingo for ‘sushi topping’. It’s a shortened version of the original term ‘sushi-dane’ Turned into → ‘dane’ then into→ ‘tane’ (dane w/o the sonant dakuten), then finally into → ‘neta’ (tane’s syllables swapped). The syllable swapping spoonerism even in the origin may have been hat inspired Seki to use the 80’s argot/lingo in..!

○ ’Neta’ has even evolved to take a place in modern day speech as well! The origin is the same, but the use is different. ‘Neta’ is used as a slang equivalent to mean ‘lore’ or ‘memes’ etc. In the same way sushi/food has toppings/ingredients stuffed in, does content have lore...

Puns:

○ "おどり[Odori]" normally = dance. "おどり[Odori]" in the realm of sushi = nickname for the shrimp roll. This is because the shrimp look like they’re dancing.

○"アガる(agaru)", and its conjugations is slang for “pump up!”, used for concerts, clubs, etc. “あがり(agari)” is shortened term for あがり花(agari-hana), a fancy name for fresh tea used at restaurants or sushi bars . (Literally ‘Freshly brewed up flowers).

○"That’s purple haze！！Burnt soy sauce plz!!" ... Sekihan is matching ENG terms and JP terms which sound similar again! The same way "tea" has a special name, does soy sauce at sushi shops have one as well. It's “むらさき(Murasaki)", lit. "purple".

There’s many theories as to why it’s called “Purple”, from maybe the usage of different purple-colored beans to make it, to maybe color-blindness, to maybe because purple was on the top of Twelve Level Cap and Rank System and soy sauce used to be expensive…. Alas it remains a mystery.

○ 幸暴(kouboku) is a made-up word lit. meaning happiness and craze. They seemingly molded it specifically to harmonize with 寿(kotobuki), the more happy go lucky words the merrier.

Related Rockin' On Interview:

Interviewer, Tanaka Dai “The fusion of concerts and sushi in wosushi, is this turn of events also a product of your principles?”

Sekihan “That’s exactly right. Dominating our opponents with our concerts is high on our to-do list, and to that end we’ve gotta make songs which dominate the concert hall too! So we’ve gotta do ‘Wall of Death’s or ‘Circle Mosh’s. But we ended up discussing how scary for people it would be if we abruptly started doing moshes at this point, so we should stick to more pop-esque things... We didn’t give up though, we got the idea to put them together. 'What are two different that work well when slammed together…. Hmm… Rice and toppings. So sushi eh? A circle mosh is like a sushi wheel!’"

Interviewer "There are a lot of similarities between the phenomenons of sushi and concerts."

Sekihan "There really is! For example The lyric 'That's purple haze!! Burnt soy sauce pls’ is a tip to Jimmy Hendrix’s song ‘Purple Haze’ and the connection there is that soy sauce is sometimes called ‘Murasaki(purple)’ here."

Interviewer "Good thinking!"

Sekihan "Thank you. I don’t think it resonated with anybody though (laugh)".

Ponikingdom “The thing we ponder the most when writing is the jokes."

Mito-juu “What is the joke all about?”, is a key factor in our thought process.

mao “We try to tuck away hidden easter eggs inside the jokes as well.”

Sekihan “Early on we were doing this excessively to the point nobody got our jokes though (laughs). But now we’ve figured out the proper dose of joke. Leading to our new song ~Super Spa~.

Interviewer "You portray that the cleansing of the soul can be done at concerts and in the bath both."

Sekihan “Yes. We say it direct and outright. We intend to make songs with good balance like this going forwards as well.

Interviewer “'Ebi-Swinger’ has become a staple at your concerts, and that song is well-constructed too. It feels like it’s an attempt at rectifying the misinterpretations towards Nagoya, but at the same time, exemplifying the misinterpretations…."

Sekihan “You gotta be kidding me! That ain’t how it was supposed be? (laugh)

Mito-juu “We can’t necessarily deny that viewpoint."

Sekihan “Ebi-Swinger stemmed from the idea 'I want to make a song that gets everyone swinging their towels around’, but then the conversation turned to “Does anyone even enjoy swinging a towel around?’ ’No’ ’Then what should we swing.’ ’Swing… Swinging… Meat wings… Shrimp fried? Let’s make shrimp fly!’, thus it evolved into a song about Nagoya's famous fried shrimp. I was born in Mie prefecture (Which is directly South of Nagoya), and I even spent 7 years living in Nagoya when I was younger, so I stuffed the lyrics with my knowledge from then."

Ponikingdom “The song’s concept was 'Everyone is strapped in to prejudice so much that they’re blind to see true colors, aren’t they?” but… It wasn’t clear enough (laughs)".

Interviewer “(Laughs). Shrimp is a celebratory party food as well, so it matches up with the happy go lucky concept quite nicely."

Sekihan “Yes. The concept of ‘Happy go lucky celebration’ runs deep in the veins of the Japanese and, I hope it spreads to other countries as well."

HMV: https://www.hmv.co.jp/newsdetail/article/1801221004/

Sekihan “Our efforts to reinvent the WOD (Wall of Death) as suitable for those walking the path of Omedeta, resulted in a song about sushi. ~~ The songs chock full of homages and stunts so please probe into it. Let’s do wall of sushi and kaiten sushi at concerts y’all! The salt in our sweat will turn the rice group of the crowd into all-natural sushi rice, what a catch! This song is pretty much a salute to the crowd. "

#omedetai #オメでたい頭でなにより #Youtube

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the-bookler · 7 years

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A-Z Book Challenge

I decided to take on the A-Z Book Challenge by @macrolit

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe- Benjamin Alire Saenz; this is definitely high on my list of favorite books!

Butcher Boy- Patrick McCabe; I read this for Eng. class and the narrator is a young Irish boy and he’s a really unreliable narrator. He has some form of mental illness, it’s not said explicitly in the book because we see his POV but I believe it’s schizophrenia and it’s a really sad poignant read.

Crooked Kingdom- Leigh Bardugo. Currently reading so jury is out on it so far!

Duchess of Malfi, The- Christopher Marlowe. This is just gas, and really everyone doing a drama course or English lit course should know it.

Everything Leads To You- Nina Lacour; this is honestly one of the most beautiful books i’ve ever read and it means a lot to me. Lacour has a really soft, honest way of writing that I appreciate a lot.

Fangirl- Rainbow Rowell; I like this as a light fluffy YA read.

Good Omens- Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman; I mean everyone loves this. C’mon.

Harry Potter- J.K Rowling; I think that POA, GOF and OOTP all tie as like my favorite but also I really love PS and COS because nostalgia <3 fun fact, I bought my Deathly Hallows in an airport in Hong Kong and it’s my only hardback of my series.

I’ll Give You The Sun- Jandy Nelson; this is a change-your-life kinda book and everyone should read it.

Jerusalem- Jez Butterworth; this is actually a play and I hope to direct it in the future so keep your fingers crossed for me! It’s dark and fascinating and you should all read this too actually.

Kings of Clonmel, The- John Flanagan; this is book 8 in the Ranger’s Apprentice series which I read when I lived in Australia but never got to finish and they’re too expensive to get over here so they’re my ultimate goal to finish reading!

Les Miserables- Victor Hugo; Confession; I haven’t read this fully, only the first like 500 pages or so. But I plan to finish it!

Midsummer Night’s Dream, A- William Shakespeare. We got to fuq with this in a module in semester 1 and you haven’t seen AMND until you’ve seen it done as an acid trip or a hipster poetry recital. We also saw Lyric Hammersmith’s production and it was groundbreaking. Breathtaking. Flawless. Hysterical. Crazy. Just... so, so good.

Narnia, Chronicles of- C.S. Lewis; did y’all think i’d choose one?

Oedipus Rex- Sophocles; I do 3 subjects in college. I’ve studied this in 4 subjects in college. Yeah you read that right.

Perks of Being a Wallflower, The- Stephen Chbosky; will hurt you in a good way.

Queen of Shadows- Sarah J. Maas; honestly i’ve become a bit disenchanted with Maas’s writing but this was the only Q book I could think of.

Raven Cycle, The- Maggie Stiefvater; This definitely isn’t cheating shh. I love these books so much I reread them the most frequent of what’s on my shelf and i’m going to annotate them the next time I read them!

Secret History, The- Donna Tartt; This was so good when I read it first that I just have to reread it this summer c:

The Time Traveller’s Wife- Audrey Niffenegger; this is so so so so so good like I know people brush it off as airport reading or whatever but honestly! so good and it can be found literally everywhere for so cheap!

Upside of Unrequited, The- Becky Albertalli; this is on my to-read, I can’t afford it right now though.

Vicious- V.E Schwab; on my TBR.

Wonder- R.J. Palacio; kids in first year of my old high school read this and I think it’s a very good lesson to have at a young age. I’ll always be bitter I have the blue copy and not the red one, I love the red one’s cover illustration.

Xylophone... no really im stuck sorry

You mightnt believe it but im stuck on this one too!

Zen colouring books lol (Also stuck)

Guys this was fun and really difficult everyone should do it! I’m gonna tag @bookishbae, don’t feel obligated though!

#book tag #long post #this was so difficult oh my god #and i didnt get some i really wanted in there bc surplus of books to a letter #handmaid's tale should certainly be there anyways

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conflictedrabbit · 7 years

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2* the AvPD

Conversation w/ my friend I mentioned earlier. With their name / identifying characteristics edited out and some chopping here and there.

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I made a post abt avod once tho and it got like A few rbs and I thought "if this isn't irony idk what is" Trje

66ccff: ekjal;kdjd;

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me: why do, so many avoidants want to pay for being alive avpd Tumblr: hm . I relate

66ccff: ekleja;ejdl;k

___: me: I'm glad to know people relate but are we fucking ok

66ccff:

LOL i mean mood tbh

___: HINESTLT like I noticed i do it cuz of you NFBNSBDKSBDKSS

66ccff: though do you mean pay as in like. pay the medical system or pay as in guilt

___: Guilt

66ccff:

kejk;ldj;L yes ok that is definitely me me: i breathed 5 gallons of air within 3 hours i am so sorry world

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me: [realizes it's not entirely religious trauma and also probably just Guilt over taking up space and needing to help ppl otherwise Why Live?}

Oh god me

66ccff: (this is not even ironic i get like this multiple times a week)

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hdjhdjsd I've been having a bad ep lately actually and like I think I failed to look 5-6 people in the eyes today CUZ IM JUST [WALKS AROHND] WOW . TERRIBLE

66ccff:

omg it's ok i nearly cried in class today b/c i didn't have a good eng translation for this jp sentence

i was like.... no.... don't....

i stabilized cuz the teacher went on a tangent for a second but like forcing myself to look in his eyes and act normal was so hard i looked away so many times i wa slike. oog my god. end m i love it when walking around where there's other people makes me really nervous and irritable agoraphobia is great!

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GOD yea It's so awkward for me I'm fine if I have a safe person or I'm walking to class but like

66ccff: i came back from class today and took a 6 hr nap cuz of my shame and agoraphobia

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Rip Wish I could do that...

66ccff: well i haven't done my homework so

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I just. Cry a lot NDKSJDJDNSKDNS rip me: I'm strong Me: spent the last 5 days like crying over nothing

66ccff:

dkjle;ajd i mean... i used to cry but then i got mad at myself for crying so now i just Repress (tm) and sleep and then. the joke is that sometimes it doesn't work self harms... oops... that didn't work either better nap again

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zz Pillows keep u safe Idk what I've been doing lately but I thought I was getting better til I realized I was like Abstaining from feeding myself BFBJSBFSJJFD

66ccff: o h my god

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And I was like "oh fuck I'm a terrible person bc someone told me I should eat and j Didn't Do It I Failed Them"

66ccff:

ahahahahaahahaha i thought i was getting better too but it was actually because i was just forcing myself to study to give myself an illusion of doing my part and then i went to school and my actual performance is like bad b/c i avoid so many activities that would make me better and i just

___: samd

66ccff:

Wow i want to die!

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hdjsjdjs

I think I only managed to eat cuz my brother was expecting me to

66ccff: tavpdfw you want to be punished constantly so you don't have to have anxiety about existing

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Cuz he bought me dinner like 6 hours ago but I didn't touch it til now BFJDJD MEEEEE

66ccff: dkja;eljd;

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GOD me: ah I feel good today Me like 3 hours later: oh my God I shouldn't feel good abt myself that's so Selfish ? I am trash

66ccff: oh Mood

___: Avpd solidarity

66ccff:

honestly i love my environmental soicology class but liek it talks about how we're all consuming and putting things back into the environment

___: Idk how I manage to have avpd and __pd but that's how it is on ths bitch of an earth

66ccff: and i was literally contemplating if death was the only way to take myself out from the cycle

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Me Bhhjsfjd

66ccff:

i was like holy shit. it's not just consumption i forgot i also put bad gases into the air with everything i breathe i am Bad

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All day today I was hearing abt what happened in Vegas and we were like. Talking in my apologetics class abt the Nature of Evil

66ccff: the true environmentalist take is death

___: And I was just thinking "why must I, exist if all I am is bad"

66ccff:

oh my god same! i looked over my abt page and i was like this looks fake tumblerina

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apologetics: so mankind is basically evil Me: great! I'll die so there's less evil in the world

66ccff:

me ME

MEMEMMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEME

___: HHDHSBDJSHD

66ccff:

sometimes i have fantasies of like going backwards and apologizing to everyone i've ever talked to and to everyone who ever had to work to produce what i've consumed

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M. E

66ccff:

and then hoping that they forget about me and then like disappearing forever i jsut can't see how some people can be like oh yeah factories in china and mexico earn less than 2 dollars an hour to make our stuff and not jus twant to kill themselves

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I'm just pathetic and compulsive if I feel bad about stuff I apologize til like 2 weeks after God. Yea

66ccff:

the joke is that people hate if you overapologize so you jsut damned if you do damned if you dont :upside_down:

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me: uh sorry for being sad People: don't apologize for that Me: Avpd:. They are mad that I am apologizing also that I am sad Hhhfjjejd

Me:

ME WKJD;LKD "can you stop saying sorry" "sorry"

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me: oh God I'm so miserable Someone: oh im sorry Me: I wish I could accept this but Pity is too much for a lowly worm like me

66ccff: "what did i just say"

___: MMSNDNBHHHHHHGGGGG

66ccff:

:smile: :gun:

MOOD

___: avpd feel when you don't deserve to be pitied ?

66ccff: pity is too much kindness ___:

God yea

LIKE probably just a conflicted feel but I prefer ppl being active than pitying me but then I'm like

"that's selfish I don't deserve that ?"

66ccff:

someone tells you to watch where you're going feel like you're unable to go outside for the rest of the day

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m. mebdbdhdhdjs

66ccff: oh yeah the joke is that i want people to like. be kind to me but also i don't

___: hell brain

66ccff: so i can't say what i want

___: GGG YEAH

66ccff:

be kind to me except don't because i'll feel invalid either way so maybe just don't talk to me >feels worse anyway

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Hhhhhhhhhhh me Me: talk to me ? But I don't know what to talk abt ? But I am also not good enough for pity you could just sit there maybe But then the presence of another person will overwhlem me and I'll go cry again/s

66ccff: feel free to entertain yourself, and forget about me, ___:

Mebdndmdkskdjsja god [looks at all cluster c disorders] you are all bitches and I hate tou

66ccff:

tavpdfw u gotta depersonalize to make it through the day of talking to other people and acting like ur a normal human bean MOOD

___: GOD yea

66ccff:

i have a question though if im depersonalizing why do i still feel terrible even if i feel ilke im fake smh

___: God me

66ccff:

me: i'm not real so heres me acting like i am chill and cool person that is interesting maybe or maybe not me, inside: this sucks and i hate this but im not real so it shouldnt affect me but damn i hate this when u feel separate from your auto-pilot but you still experience all the shame you would without it :thinking: avpd is stupid and contradictory and evolutionarily useless

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__pd isnkind of the same but like if you manage it well you can get stuff done but you still breakdown over the TINIEST DETAIL I hate it And I waste more time thinking abt what I'm gonna do and not actully DOING MT SHIT

66ccff: cripes

___: LIKE A NORMAL PERSON

66ccff:

me in high school UGH i'm ahving that problem right now dude in high school i used to just waste my days reading manga and thnking i should do my homeworka

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me: I'll spend this hour scheduling [2hours later] Me: [stressed nbdjdjjsjdjsjdks

66ccff: and then i'd like. start at 10pm and fuck myself over ___: rip 66ccff: have a crying session at 4am every time an essay is due the next day ___: I actually didn't do one of my assignments tonight 66ccff: bad coping habits ___: Rip me I got discouraged over something lame JFJSNFKSNFD 66ccff: oh mood

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relationship issues: occur Me: well, I can't, do anything ever again

66ccff:

i shouldn't even be discouraged abt my classes bc i'm here to learn and i'm just like. i know nothing i deserve to die kejd;kakejd friend, disagrees with you on something you feel unsure about: WELL I GUESS I AM BAD AND THEY HATE ME NOW time to ghost them

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me: [perceives someone not caring for me] me: and Now...what is Mine Purpose...what do I live for...my Friends....have all abandoned m MEEEEEE avpd sounds super dramatic when you separate it from yourself but like In the moment I'm always just [jdut starts Fucking Crying

66ccff:

i just want to manage to some kind of social work, give my wealth to some impoverished family, and then kms before 30

yeah my therapists in the past are like why... so soon

___: Jfjdjfjdf 66ccff: and i'm just like "why not i need to minimize all my ills on the world and also on the emotions of my family" ___: That reminds me of like. One of my mutuals talking abt how early he sleeps and he was just 66ccff: this is the optimal time look my life plan

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"why be awake longer than necessary"

Hdhdhfjsjfdjdjdband. I was just . Me

66ccff:

because you hate yourself too much sleep :^)

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God yea That's true. Me rn

I should've been asleep like an hour ago but [plays secret of Mana and then mopes]

66ccff:

dude i used to have bouts of insomnia b4 i got drugs that knock me out (and help me w/ anxiety) like.... i would lay awake and every second of being awake was just making the situation worse

___: I feel like I should get meds to balance out my bipolar eps but

66ccff: but then i couldn't sleep anyway so it was a damned situation ___: my parents r so anti meds 66ccff: rrghbh

___:

also like Internalized ableism That I don't Needthem and So Many people don't need them

66ccff: oh yeah, why do my essay when i can read an hour of garbage romo manga and feel slightly less bad during that time and then hate myself more

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So I Can do it cuz I'm like Everyone Else and not like Those "crazy" people Rifp

66ccff:

man i don't wanna encourage meds if your side effects r bad but honestly how did i get the fuck through high school other than triggering intense anxiety about all assignments

like... i was so nonfunctional i shouldn't have even been in school

.....

66ccff:

all accessibility problems are solvable humans are so bad

___: caring ? About others ? What a concept 66ccff: except sometimes they are good but that is definitely not me

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Ok I try to overcompensate w good to make up for inherent badness THANKS RELIGION

66ccff:

the US is like: here's a pricetag for your life pay up

___: AAAA

66ccff:

yeah i can see how christainity wouldn't help there w/ the "original sin" and stuff that doesn't quite exist in other abrahamic religions iirc judaism doesn't even have hell

___: it's really weird

66ccff:

i'm guessing its bc of jesus like.... y'all binches killed him so now this is life - christainity

___:

Like. Christianity makes the most sense to me probably cuz I grew up w it but fuck Man

66ccff: o yeah i grew up w/ some christianity too ___: It's FUCKED!!!!!! 66ccff: i actually have agoraphobia issues w/ going inside of churches ___: Oh same 66ccff: :^) ___: I'm actually fairly anti-church just because the current state of them is very bsd 66ccff: oh yeah

....

66ccff:

how can someone like me, who is literally not deserving of life, raise someone else

scrumbles

___:

Me Hdjehdsk

66ccff: ___ we are so fucked ___:

It's true Life is fucked We, are fucked

66ccff: existence is violence

#1-#2-#3-#4-#5-#a bloo bloo bloob #avpd #ok done editing tumblr posted it b4 i was ready but yea

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2008 vs 2016 vs 2019

Do you still talk to the first person you fell the hardest for?

2008 - Everyday :) 2016 – All the time 2019 - It’s all I want to do.

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked? 2008 - Haha, no. And no thanks either. 2016 – You’d think so but nah 2019 - I consider Russel one of my best friends, the best of the best, so yes.

3. Are you obsessed with someone? 2008 - Other than Edward Cullen? Nope. HAHAA! 2016 – Ew ^ 2019 - Hella ew to both answers.

5. Do you like more than one person right now? 2008 - Nope. 2016 – Nah, I’ve never been so committed 2019 - Yes, ninety nine percent of the people in my life right now. Surround yourself w good people.

6. Name something that you would love to eat right now? 2008 - A poutine from New York Fries. Lol. 2016 – Pho from THDang. Best I’ve ever had and this cold is killing me right now 2019 - THDANG FOREVER.

7. Did you get any compliments today? 2008 - Mhmm. 2016 – Russel constantly reminds me how much he loves me everyday, if that counts 2019 - Russ called me beautiful otw to work this morning. He also told me he loves me, my favorite compliment of all.

8. Last Person you talked to on msn? 2008 - Laika.. Hol. 2016 – RIP MSN 2019 - Lowkey miss the MSN days.

9. Who was the last two people to call you? 2008 - In person? Or on the phone? 2016 – My mom, to check up on my sick ass and Jeffrey asking what my Tim’s order was 2019 - My cousin Leslie, but I missed it.

10. If you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life would you? 2008 - No doubt. 2016 – Hell yes. Fuck this -35 bull happening right now 2019 - Absolutely, global warming is real and it’s terrifying.

11. If you could have one super power what would it be? 2008 - To be able to read your mind :) 2016 – The power to heal any injured living thing would be nice 2019 - I’m honestly shocked that my answer in 2016 was so mature. I’m sticking w it.

12. Are you happy? 2008 - Not at the moment. 2016 – Happiest I’ve been in a ridiculously long time 2019 - Could be happier.

13. What’s your favorite smell? 2008 - Vanilla :) 2016 – Still vanilla. It’s nice to know some things just don’t change 2019 - Russel’s natural scent mixed w some D&G Light Blue.

14. Are you moody? 2008 - I don’t think so :S 2016 – Yeah, but I’m not going to apologize for it 2019 - Constantly. Right now even.

15. Last person you hung out with? 2008 - Whoever was there afterschool. 2016 – Does Russel count if we live together? If not, his cousins at their annual Christmas party 2019 - Went to Activate w the Espiritu’s last weekend. Otherwise it’s been work and straight home since. Adulting sucks.

16. Have you ever tried to NOT fall for someone? 2008 - Sadly, yes. Whompwhomp. 2016 – Apparently ^ 2019 - Every single person I’ve fallen for tbh.

17. Have you ever toilet papered someone’s house? 2008 - I wish, ahaha 2016 – Still on my bucket list unfortunately 2019 - Haven’t done it, but no longer on my bucket list. Think green, you know?

18. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? 2008 - Hello Jr. High. Haa.. 2016 – Story time, I actually had a thing for Russ in high school but didn’t tell him until we were officially together five years later. Lol 2019 - I just realized I was already dating Russ in 2016 and holy shit that year felt like a lifetime ago.

19. Have you ever gone camping? 2008 - Yes. And I absolutely hate it. 2016 – Yes, and I still hate it 2019 - Yes. I’m also willing to give it another try. The growth is real.

20. Are you a liar? 2008 - According to Roxanne I suck. Lol. 2016 – I’d be lying if I said no, so no 2019 - Yes, but terrible at it.

21. Have you ever gone to a nude beach? 2008 - No. 2016 – Nah, that’s not a priority of any sort 2019 - Still a solid no.

29. Have you ever had a stalker? 2008 - In a way, yeah :/ 2016 – Story time part two: Yes, and the only way to get him to stop talking to me was to constantly remind him that my boyfriend was in jail. Which wasn’t a lie, not entirely at least 2019 - Wow, completely forgot I had a stalker at one point too.

22. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? 2008 - No. 2016 – Still a no 2019 - This is definitely still on my bucket list.

23. Listening to music? What are you listening to? 2008 - Yes. Read the title of this note. 2016 – Starboy by The Weeknd 2019 - My 4.LT playlist on spotify for my emotional ass. Don’t Wanna Be Your Girl by WET.

24. Have you ever been betrayed by your best friend(s)? 2008 - Mhmm. 2016 - LOL 2019 - The number of times this has come up today alone compared to the last year is insane.

25. Have you ever lied to your parents? 2008 - Yes :/ 2016 - Unfortunately 2019 - Wish I never did,

26. Have you ever worn your best friend’s clothes? 2008 - Yeap. 2016 – If we’re talking about Russ, I’m wearing his shirt right now 2019 - Still wearing his shirt tbh.

27. Have you ever thrown up from working out? 2008 - Nope. 2016 – Thankfully not, although that makes me think I’m not working hard enough 2019 - Again, probably not pushing myself hard enough.

28. Have you had a bad haircut? 2008 - Tons -_-“ 2016 - Girl 2019 - Girlllllllllll.

29. Where are your siblings right now? 2008 - One is upstairs? The other is who knows where. 2016 – I honestly don’t know. I haven’t seen either of them in weeks. Horrible 2019 - Living their own/best lives.

30. Last place you cried? 2008 - In the car. Ha. 2016 – In my room, probably over some tv show for sure 2019 - Literally in this exact spot, minutes before I decided to do this to change the mood. Sheesh.

31. Name three things you did today? 2008 - That stupid english essay, ran around in the rain, and survived the day. Booya. 2016 – I tell you three things I didn’t do today: Sleep, go to work and get some fresh air 2019 - Work. Eat. Sleep.

32. Last person you text messaged? 2008 - Jodianne. 2016 – Jodianne again. Crazy 2019 - My groupchat w Pacifico and Michelle

33. Future kids names? 2008 - Lol. Yeah, I’m gonna name my kid Lol. NAT. 2016 – I’m really feeling “Riley” because it’s unisex 2019 - Still into unisex names. Possibly something in connection w my grandparents’ names.

34. What are you doing tomorrow? 2008 - My eng exam :/ 2016 – Waking up at 530 just to pick up my work equipment even though my two week vacation already started. Shitty 2019 - Working. Eating. Sleeping. Repeating. Adulting.

35. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid? 2008 - Of course! 2016 – Anything Britney Spears was my shit 2019 - I miss the days when Allan and I would blast the radio in the living room at the Banning house. Running around and jumping on/over furniture. Singing at the top of our lungs.

36. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? 2008 - Nope, sorray. 2016 – Over and over again 2019 - Until the end of time.

37. Are you allergic to anything? 2008 - None what so ever. 2016 – Hair dye 2019 - Hair dye and AHA’s.

38. What is your mood? 2008 - I feel so giddy, yet tired. 2016 – I feel like crap rn 2019 - Shitty as fuck.

39. Is anyone jealous of you? 2008 - How should I know? 2016 - ^ 2019 - If they are, they shouldn’t be.

40. When is the last time you got into a fight? 2008 - Yesterday. Not physically tho. 2016 – Got into a dumbass fight over being “the captain” with Russ a few hours ago. Lasted not even ten minutes 2019 - A few months ago Russ and I gave each other the silent treatment for almost three entire days. It was extremely difficult considering how entwined our lives are.

41. Where were you 2 hours ago? 2008 - Finishing my essay. Yay. 2016 – Exactly where I am rn 2019 - I haven’t moved in three hours.

42. Where were you 6 hours ago? 2008 - In eng class talking to Arlyn :) 2016 – Is it sad that I haven’t really moved all day 2019 - At work earning this comfy lifestyle.

43. What does your hair look like right now? 2008 - It’s in a ponytail. 2016 – It’s in a messy bun 2019 - If I’m home, my hair is in a bun.

44.Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend? 2008 - Yeah. 2016 – I remember exactly what Russel said when he admitted he was into me haha 2019 - I remember every single time someone has told me.

45. What have you eaten today? 2008 - Food. 2016 – Pancit, eggs, pizza bites, sinigang, and yet I’m so hungry right now 2019 - For breakfast I had a shitty Beyond Meat breakfast sandwhich and a coffee from Tim’s. I had a bagel w honey ham, mixed greens and sriracha mayo sandwich for lunch. For dinner, I picked up Tocilog and Sisilog from Mar’s Sisig for Russ and I.

46. Is your hair naturally curly, straight, or nappy? 2008 - Wavy? Wth is nappy? 2016 – Dang I was so uncultured ^ It’s naturally wavy 2019 - Wavy. Also, something worth mentioning, I haven’t blow dried OR straightened my hair all summer. Again, the growth is real.

47. Who was the last friend you were in the car with? 2008 - Laika.. Hol. :D Hehee. 2016 – Pacifico most likely 2019 - Ashana drove me to Selkirk the other weekend, but she’s more family than friend tbh.

48. What are you looking forward to? 2008 - Tomorrow, I guess :( 2016 – it’s the most wonderful time of the year! 2019 - I need something to look forward to. How depressing.

49. What do you think about marriage? 2008 - Too young to even think about it. 2016 – I ain’t stressing it 2019 - Should it happen, it happens. But honestly, starting a family is more of a priority to me right now.

50. Any of your friends getting married? 2008 - Not that I know of. 2016 – I’m at that age where everyone I know is either engaged, married and/or having children 2019 - This^. Stil.

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16. "If I could, if I could tell you About my longing for you, that grows like hair"~If You (Nu'est W, Eng.)

I walk down the street to the pharmacy, resisting the shop windows that call my name thanks to the little money shouting in my pocket that I got nothing to spend more than for the medicine for a friend. I walk into the right place and ask what's best for treating cold, then pay for that and walk out. I take a look at my watch. I still got a little extra time before the next class, I think to myself, so I stay window shopping and admiring all the luxurious jewelry in front of a expensive-looking shop. As I stare at the golden necklaces and lean a bit closer, avoiding not to let my nose touch the glass, I suddenly hear a familiar voice behind me. "It's you again," Minhwan's cheerful tone gets my attention and I turn around to greet him with a nod. "Hello, Michael," I use his American name. I see his round eyes travelling down to look at the plastic bag in my hands, then focusing on my eyes with worry. "Are you sick?" he asks and I let out an awkward laughter, shaking my head rapidly. "Oh, no no! It's for a friend," I smile. I could tell him the friend is YoungBae but that’s unnecessary, I guess. He lets out a relieved sigh and nods his small head. I can't ignore his small and cute features and gestures, wondering if he has ever think of becoming an idol. He would suit well as one. "I'm on my way to buy some food as my mom told me to," he gives me a sweet eye smile. "Would you like to join me?" I take a look at my watch again and since I still got time, I nod as a 'yes' and begin walking beside him. "I could get some banana milk too. To drink after dance practices," I say as we walk. He glances at me and insists to pay it for me. "No, I will pay for it myself." "No," he shakes his head and nudges my arm lightly. "My mom always gives me extra money to spend on candy since I was a little kid and, to be honest, I don't even like candy that much anymore. So, I've been saving that extra money for Playstation games and such. I don't mind using it to buy milk for a future star," he addresses me so sweetly and blinks his eyes a few times at me that I have to be okay with his offer. "Alright, alright," I give in defeated. Minhwan tells me that he's a stylist and actually helped to pick out the clothes for our teasers, although they don't show well because the pictures are only shadows after going through the edit but maybe the originals will be released later. I have no idea. I encourage him to tell me about his mom he mentioned before and it happens to be that she's very sick and the fact that he's taking care of her, well… He is taking the scores home from me. I think it's nice of him to do. He tells me how he used to walk her by hand to a food market when he was just a small child and now he always does her grocery shopping because she can't leave the house anymore. I assume he's still living at home. And now he's afraid that he has to cut down his job as a stylist, being very lucky to get to work less hours but having to still work a specific amount of hours for him to get paid of course. It’s just that taking care of his mom takes him so much time, it's sometimes a real challenge. He's very brave and hard-working, I think to myself as I listen to his story. It makes me think about my mom as well and how much I wish that she would still be living and breathing in this world. "Can I hold your hand?" he asks me, offering his palm to me. I look at it, pondering. I've been in the center of scandals before but the warm heart of his has gotten me in so much better mood. "This is how I would go shopping with my mom," he adds as he stares at me with his button eyes and I grab his hand without a second more of hesitation. And he looks at our hands, then giving me such a precious happy smile I wish I could give it back. In the middle of our shopping round, Taeyang calls me and wants me to explain what kind of medicine I got for him because of an allergy he has but I had gotten just the right one he had asked for. And as I in the evening, more like at the nighttime, take a bus to get to his place and bring the medicine to him like a real savior, he thanks for it deeply. Tae is a funny-looking sight but so adorable too, depending how to look at him, as wherever he goes in the apartment he's carrying a thick blanket around himself which drags partly along the floor, not forgetting a box of tissues in his arms. His hair too is a bit of a mess, although still kind of on fleek after last night's partying. He sits down on his sofa and tells me to come and keep him company for a moment. I leave my shoes near the door and walk to the living room, relaxing on the massage chair after a rough session of dancing. Tae takes a tissue and cleans his nose before throwing the pills in his mouth and gulping them down with water. He pulls the blanket up until his ears and makes himself look like a well-wrapped burrito. "Poor Young Bae-ssi," I chuckle silently at the sight. "How did this happen? Were you at a pool party in the winter or what?" I grin but Tae just huffs at me and snffs. "Pfft... I felt a bit sick last night already. I guess it's just this small break before next concerts that my body thought it would be a great timing for a cold. But I'm not pleased," his face crumbles as he says so and it makes me laugh a little at his misery. "But at least you have a saving angel like me to fly you some medicine," I joke and gasp as the massage chair finds a good spot on my legs. It hurts so much... But in the silence, I notice Tae looking at me suspiciously. Just staring from the dark. I raise my eyebrows at him. He humms. "How are you nowadays?" And there it comes, the question I expected from him. I just shrug casually like I had nothing special to tell him. "Maybe you can fool the others around you but I can see that there must be something. When you laugh, it doesn't sound authentic," he tells me and I stare at his bare face in confusion. My laughter? I didn't know he would pay attention to such a thing. "Really?" I only ask with a slightly quieter tone than before. "Mm," he nods firmly. I look at my legs momentarily and sigh. "I guess I'm just tired," I try to avoid talking about it for my own sake but he doesn't leave me alone. "Is it because of your mother?" "Not really," I answer and admit at the same time that yes, something is wrong. I hear him pulling a tissue out of the box and emptying his nose before he continues roasting me. "Just before you persuade me to talk," I stop him with a confident tone in my voice. "Don't pity me, will you?" I raise my chin and look at him. "I'm kind of done with that already. The whole company seems to have sad eyes on my back where ever I go because of my mom's death." Young Bae stays still, looking at me calmly and letting me do the talking. His throat must hurt too. I take a deep breath. "I don't know if you've heard about my ex from Ji, or if you even care to hear," I shrug by myself as I settle better on the massage chair and close my eyes because it feels easier to talk that way… "I wish I could hug you right now," a deep sigh escapes his mouth when I'm done with my story. I've cried a few tears, staring at the ceiling of his apartment. "I wish I could hold you," he says again silently and I shake my head a little. "It's alright." "It's just not always alright, okay?" I hear his calm voice talking. "What's alright is to feel weak and not alright sometimes." "Sometimes," I repeat the word he used. "But if I went the way and always showed my feelings like they really are, I would be weak and desperate all the time. It was," I breath out. "A big thing for me to let Ji leave the country. That's when I thought I had become crazy, literally. I started seeing a psychiatrist... And the person who took a good care of three kids including me with the little money she had for it, left so suddenly. And now this thing that is clearly my fault," I gasp for air as I start to feel uneasy again. "And that's not who I can be. I can not be a weak leader now. I must be a strong one." And all I can hear is Young Bae agreeing to my words with silence.

#BIGBANG #kpop fanfiction

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raceandspeculation · 7 years

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Johnathan Luc

ENG. 3690: Special Topics in Pop Culture

Invalidation

When Alien came out in 1979 film theory was largely centered on psychoanalysis and gender studies. Of course that meant, whether it was intended to be analysed or not, that it would be dissected under such lenses with endless scrutiny. Alien certainly met the expectations of film theorists, containing meaty topics about the anxiety surrounding the Aids epidemic, as well as containing feminist ideology. However, hidden behind and empowered by these ideas is a set of marxist undertones. In my pursuit of an article for this paper I was continually reminded of Franz Kafka’s The Metamorphosis, wherein the main character is suddenly transformed into an insect. Over the course of the book he becomes an insect in mind as well, and as he can no longer do his family duties because of his insectile body his sister must pick up the slack. Just as the main character had been previously been forced to work to make another man rich to support his family, now too would his sister. The Metamorphosis is a marxist story with feminist undertones in the same way that the Alien series is a feminist work with marxist undertones. At the same time the Alien series goes to many lengths to validate feminism and in doing so invalidate other important social lines.

In Aliens there is a character named Jenette Vasquez. One of the lines that is said to her is “you ever been mistaken for a man?” This immediately sets her up as this character to break the stereotype of feminine characters, to break this idea that war is a man’s territory. Yet, she does not say “yes” because that would create this idea that Vasquez is just a man in a woman’s body, which is its own social topic. She responds with a resounding “no.” In just two lines Aliens establishes that any idea that we had women being weak is wrong. If you take a look at the clip in question Vasquez is even standing next to another soldier, a man, that looks scrawny and weak in comparison to her. To further accentuate the muscular difference the director had the man do a pull up with a form that does not flex his muscles while having Vasquez make sure that her muscles were fully shown off. All the while Vasquez is busy validating the power of woman, the actress playing her is invalidating Vasquez’s hispanic heritage. The woman who plays Vasquez, Jenette Goldstein, is very light skinned and has freckles. To play the role she had to undergo full body makeup to darken her skin and do away with her freckles. This may sound familiar to anyone who has been paying attention to the media in the last few centuries, this is brownface. It is crazy to think that a character that empowers women, one disprivileged group, would take away opportunities from another. What exactly was the point of making Vasquez a hispanic character if they were not going to cast a hispanic actress? Was it to slip that one illegal alien joke into the movie about aliens? Regardless of the reason, by doing so it sends the message that women of color are not good enough to bless the silver screen, that movies are made by white people for white people. In a movie that was seemingly written to show women as something more than just a love interest, it does an awful good job of marginalizing hispanic people. It is this type of cycle of validation and invalidation that is ever present in the Alien series.

Enter Ellen Ripley, the strong female character that leads the Alien series. She is the very definition of a survivor, only eventually dying because she so chose to. She has survived encounter after encounter with the Xenomorphs, growing after each one. Of course this growth was in the shape her becoming colder and more apathetic, she still learned from her encounters and remained willful and calm protagonist that was was to begin with. Yet, she was more than the one-dimensional “strong” female character that is often portrayed nowadays. She is more than a ball of stubbornness, she embodies a very maternal role as seen when she rescues Newt and forms a bond with her. It takes a lot of willpower to be able to end your own life to stop a bioweapon from getting into someone’s hand, but that is what she does to make sure that the queen embryo does not end in the wrong hands. It is this combination of things that allows Ripley to stand as a character that is not solely defined by her feminism, while also not abandoning it entirely many cookie cutter tough girl characters have done since her.

While the Alien series takes the opportunity to empower and validate women, it inadvertently invalidates the ability of people to fight against Capitalism. Just as the aliens did not “bother about the niceties of sexual differences,” the capitalist, the ruling class which is represented by The Company and the USM, does not care about your sex when taking advantage of you(Aids). While Ellen Ripley continually shows off the ability of women to not only save the day but to do it when men are unable, it also brings women into a position to be taken advantage of for financial gain of some larger entity. This is reflected in day to day life, more women have jobs today than there have been in the history of the United States, 57% today versus 33% in 1950, and yet the income gap between the middle class and the rich has only grown(women). In her essay on The Metamorphosis Straus states that “human power may be exchanged and utilized by converting man into a slave” (Straus 128.) This idea combined with “making the hero a woman, however tomboyish, gender as well as sexual difference was de-established”(Aids.) The entire Alien series shows us the futility of just one person’s actions and how it is impossible to escape the capitalist. In both the first two films of the series Ripley has to lay her life on the line to stop The Company from being able to get their hands on the xenomorphs to create biological weapons. In each of those films she succeeds, but that is never the end of her battle. The Company does not stop trying to get a sample of the xenomorphs to create dangerous bioweapons. Ripley is only ever freed from this uphill battle when she chooses to die to stop the queen embryo from getting into their hands. Yet, even in death she is not truly free.

In Alien Resurrection, 200 years after Ripley heroically jumps into a furnace to stop The Company from getting their hands on the queen embryo, she is cloned by the USM so that they can retrieve the very embryo that she died to destroy. The idea that even in death a person can still be a pawn to the whims of the capitalist is the very embodiment of the quote “human power may be exchanged and utilized by converting man into a slave.” Sigourney Weaver confirmed that Ridley had no interest in returning from the dead, well not quite returning as remade, when she said “that sort of final liberty no longer exists and I was very curious to play someone who is brought back against her will”(ID.) If you only had the ability to choose when you were to die, you would not be considered free, and even that tiny decision was taken away. So while the character of Ripley pushes a powerful feminist message, it also shows us the reality that we are all under the foot of a larger power, one that only wishes to use us for its own benefit.

The cycle of validation and invalidation is unfortunate. While the feminist message is a powerful one, and one that is important for the world to hear, is the message that the capitalist is always around to mess everything up one that is fine for us, the audience, to hear? Does the Alien series spread the idea that it is fighting against corporations like The Company is futile, or does it make us think that we have to do such things for the world to continue as it is? It also forces us to beg the question, can we have a story that validates gender and sex without invalidating race? I like to think so, but Aliens is not proof of that.

Words: 1432

Works Cited:

“Transforming Franz Kakfa’s Metamorphosis” by Nina Pelikan Straus Corngold, Stanley, Ed and Trans. The Metamorphosis, Franz Kakfa. New York: W. W. Norton & Co, 1996

“The Alien Trilogy: From Feminism to AIDS,” Amy Taubin, Women and Film: A Sight and Sound Reader, edited by Pam Cook and Philip Dodd, Temple University Press, 1993, 93-100

‘You’ve Been in My Life So Long I Can’t Remember Anything Else’: Into the Labyrinth with Ripley and the Alien,” Pamela Church Gibson, Keyframes: Popular Cinema and Cultural Studies, edited by Matthew Tinkcom and Amy Villarejo, Routledge, 2001, 35-51

"Women's Labor Force Participation." Women in the States. N.p., n.d. Web. 21 Mar. 2017.

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fairielust · 6 years

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ahhhhhh ahh ahhhh

ok omg y’all today wasn’t that bad as i thought it would be

so we walk into class n before i could stop myself i just had 2 show the instagrams of these two people from this japanese reality show wisteria got me into n this particular pairing are super cute n both wisteria n i love them lmao

which turns into a whole twenty minute conversation about who we like / dislike, showing the class the other people from said show’s instagrams, n pointing out particular moments we’ve seen lmao it was great

then wisteria gets us to do some work n it’s all fine until she randomly starts laughing to herself five minutes later ??? it was pretty creepy n she shows us what she was laughing at,,, these old photos of us from year 9 that she’s saved to ‘identify’ us when recording marks n stuff eW

for some reason my name had a keyboard emoji next to it ? n another girl had a music stave thing besides hers ? i mean, we both did music at the time but it was really weird lmAo tf @ wisteria

thankfully we did not get into any kind of speaking practice, just going through comprehension questions n then going through all the grammar for the unit which is always a delight.

@ the end of class the rest of the girls left the room without waiting for me which was absolutely perfECT bc i could easily give wisteria this drawing i’ve done for the class (but mostly 4 her) so i kept saying sensei n held the drawing before her waiting bc she was looking @ something on her laptop n when she finally looked up she full on gasped n said ‘suGOII ??!?!?!?’ which is amazing in japanese n she kept repeating that n i was blushing @ this point but trying to play it cool (?) (‘ahaha yeah it only took me 5 hours nbd ahaHAHA’) i told her it was for her n she tried identifying everyone but couldn’t recognise herself bc she forgot what she wore on the day lmAo (yet she easily pointed me out asdfghjk my heart)

n she said ‘arigatou gozaimasu’ in the softest voice ever n i wanted 2 cry it was so sweet n honestly even if i didn’t love her the way i do rn i would still be a miserable mess bc this ?? is all i’ve ever asked for ??? for my own god damn artworks to bring smiles to people’s faces ??!?!?! i love that !!!! a kink(TM) !!! then i told her to have a nice weekend bc it’s the long weekend now n she said you too as i was walking out n i just,, heart sigh

then @ lunch i went to the library bc my friends were studying 4 a religion test they had on n it was cold n i wanted to finish the last of my etching for art later this afternoon n wisteria was on duty n she came over bc i was sitting w another group of friends of mine n she was impressed w my etching before she pointed out the wall (with a suspicious ‘is that a wAll i sEE’) n i laughed n told her it was n she reminds me of her crazy wall photo collection which i asked if she could share bc i need more photos lol

one of my friends asked if we could go back to japan bc she obviously had a great time w us hEhe

n then she tells us this story that happened to her yesterday,, apparently this year 7 brat was misbehaving n when wisteria called her out she said her class was boring. now, im glad i contained my emotions bc inside i was FUMING like ?? how daRE YOU ?? SAY WISTERIA’S CLASS IS BORING YOU UNGRATEFUL BRAT ??? FUCK RIGHT OFF W THAT BULLSHIT this is why everyone hates wisteria bc she’s either bitchy or they can’t be bothered to try in japanese like wtf ?? i was super pissed that frustrated me sm ://

when the bell rang 4 next class i had my class in a room in the library n wisteria was just standing there,,, n i was just standing inside the room looking like a creep watching her,,, before i ran out n called her n asked about what was happening w our 1:1 sessions. she said she still had to check our timetables against one another, either for a study or for lunch. ahhhhhhhh !!!

today was such a great day i was shocked.

then in eng ex I, our teacher was away n there was only a few of us n we ended up talking about random stuff. i decided to do japanese hw bc i was not in the mood to write anything essay wise n the other girls got curious n tried recognising a few characters n i was lowkey proud of them for remembering stuff from year 7 ahh !!! it was a lot of fun being able to show my love for japanese !!!

this is completely irrelevant but my art teacher brought in her little son today 2 workshop n he’s only 4 but he’s stomping around the classroom n smiling n laughing n being cheeky n touching my bracelet n it was just,,, so pure. my teacher was like, ‘so do you want to take him home ? he’s a monster, i’m telling you,’ n i just,,, really want kids one day but i don’t want to be the one giving birth bc i’m weak asf but i do want to have kids despite their troubles idc !!! this was just so cute !!!

ahh ok i’m gonna work hard on speaking this weekend bc our first lesson back to school is double japanese n i bet you we’ll actually be doing speaking then smh

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