#fuck this mechanic in particular

[fastidious-and-a-mess]

i’m at fabian writing the essay and holy shit this is maybe my favorite episode of the season so far.

#fhjy spoilers #fhjy #dimension 20 #guys holy shit the mechanics in this one are so fucking good #yall remember when brennan’s mom told that story about him Wanting it to be a test? #i have that same thing and this episode is the most beautiful thing i have ever witnessed re satisfying that particular sensation #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year

[toyherb]

I'm sorry this is so low res. but here is my correct opinion on every bokumono game.

the list didn't have the awl remake but I would put that in ❤️ tier.

#i love love love love ioh in particular but jesus. its pretty bad... #but the 🤌 atmosphere #i even like the crop mechanics!!!!! i just think they should have explained them in the game and created an easy way to track them!!!! #harvest moon #story of seasons #and sos1 is good but like. be fucking forreal. the trade depot?!?!?! safari!?!?! snacks!?!?!?

[whatudottu]

New OC time, and for every person to call him an animal Wrau adds another tally to his shit list-

Ough fuck my hand broke

#wrau #vulpimancer #oc #ben 10 oc #ben 10 #fanart #it was a very interesting challenge to make wrau look pissed without eyes but i couldn’t use human standards #i looked at angry dogs to reference a more canindea face to snarl with- especially since adult vulpimancers (outside of ben 10k) go lipless #(or perhaps are a particular clade but i like the lipless look) #i hope he looks pissed enough he’s going to beat the shit out of you #it’s hard to come up with alien names when literally all vulpimancer characters are unnamed save for hero titles #so i decided to based wrau’s name off of a transliterated text of the sound that his name is #(by looking up what ‘woof’ is in different languages and just mixing and matching consonants and vowels) #on vulpin he goes solo and just fucks around in the numerad of intergalactic junk piles #real nasty places that tend to be avoided because sharp twisted metal and obscured vision does not mix well #that and the obvious ‘there is nothing of value here’ plants don’t grow here animals don’t graze here there is nothing to live off of #vulpinic tortugans have been here a while and have done some stuff with engineering and mechanics but not as good as the tortugan settlers #who were the ones who got stuck on vulpin in the FIRST PLACE #so while vulpimancers don’t desire nor feel the need to develop technology as a whole they’re apex predators already #(no i will not be debating their predator status- considering their teeth they have a varied diet if not a generalist species) #wrau wants to flip the bird to everyone else in the universe that turned his country into a landfill and forced his folk out of their land #they already gotta share with the weirdly hot mini towns of the tortugan who still have their eyes in the pitchblack planet #as a note: wrau is a weirdo and weirdo vulpimancers who metaphorically look to the stars are really just out to prove something #it’s just that wrau specifically is anger incarnate even to the baseline irritation of interplanetary vulpimancers #who feel the universal perspective of vulpin in its entirety weigh on their shoulders and only their own #as even vulpinic tortugan cannot speak for them for they are a descendent species of the KNOWN tortugan noted for old planetary colonisation #yeet that’s a tag ramble an d i have no idea how cohesive that is yeet

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

jsyk . if you ever get mad at traumatised people engaging with a completely sfw , non-k!nk / fe.tis.h related coping mechanism that sprouts from childhood abuse / neglect or just general stress, and label them a freak or bully them or anything along that lines, you're ableist, a complete cunt and i dont like you. this goes double for if you completely REFUSE to understand the concept of what the coping mech is and why its helpful. traumatised people dont owe you normalcy and we sure as fuck dont owe you an explanation 👍 and if you disagree w/ me you can piss off

#the captain's rambles #mental health #actually ptsd #this is about a very particular coping mechanism i have that i dont bring up on THIS blog for a friend's sake but i have a sideblog 4 it #im starting to really open up about it bc its not something i should be ashamed of . it's me taking care of myself #i dont care about what others say anymore . it's not gross to heal your inner child #i dont talk about my mental health here often except in passing when im discussing how my adhd and autism affect my life #but there's more than Just those two. im adhdtistic + have bpd ptsd and osdd (the specifics im not sure of but we Are plural) #anyways this is me firing shots to keep the rent down bc i just gave some1 i follow reassurance and i want to reiterate the msg here #ableists are Not fucking welcome here. leave your hatred at the fucking door and if you cant get with the times then get out #you dont even have to understand me to just be kind. it costs 0 dollars #im just praying this reaches the actual target audience #and that the people who engage with media in a way that actively trigger my flashbacks Dont grab ahold of this post #theyre on my dni. for a reason .

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#so on the one hand im having A Lot of existential thought spiraling issues lately. like. idk if its ever been so bad in my life #in this particular manner or about these particular things. so for the first time in literally years therapy is on my mind. #but on the other hand i have a psychiatrist to help w the actual mechanics of my intrusive thoughts-- IS THIS NOT WHAT THE MEDS ARE FOR?-- #&i have so incredibly little interest in general therapy. what the fuck is a psychologist supposed to DO for me. #my existential crises are not unique but the circumstances surrounding them are specific&as per there are only a million reasons why #general therapy isnt only probably useless for me it can be potentially literally unsafe if im totally honest-- you know. #how therapy is supposed to be used to actually see results. #so my solution to this has been to read a bunch of fucking books on dialetical behavioral therapy&cognitive behavioral therapy lmao. #next up: acceptance&commitment therapy. #if i could hack my literal physical health hell will be freezing over before i give up on hacking my mental health too lmao. #**therapist. what the fuck is a therapist gonna do for me.

[crescentfool]

fully agree that "akira has a palace" and "shadow yu/souji" fics activate the same feral part of my monkey brain lmao, and they often focus on similar ideas as well (lots of joker palace fics will have it be about him putting on facades around people, and i've also seen a couple shadow yu fics where his shadow changes to reflect the person he's talking to). very interesting to see a gameplay feature which is kind of a necessity of the social link system be adapted into a personality trait of the character

hi rage!! thanks for stopping by the inbox- so happy to see a fellow person of taste! 😌 i still need to read more fics of that genre but- they really do have the similar vibe! i remember people talking about how much of a shapeshifter joker is in his differing relationships. and ah!! thats the good shit! having the shadow reflect that kind of tendency too... ALSO VERY GOOD.

there are so many ways in which gameplay mechanics and features can be adapted into fics- and honestly i just really dig it? the vibe of those kinds of fics just really evoke strong memories of playing the games myself, which i love! New Game + AUs / or general timeloop concepts are also some of my favorites... i also like ones that focus on persona usage as well (like personas talking, tapping into character's element affinities and how it manifests, the general exhaustion from awakening a persona/using them, etc.).

ANYWAYS! wishing u a fab day with ur own writing and/or fic reading!! ty again for stopping by the inbox and have a good one!

#lizzy askbox #so many cool interacts today.... BLESS!!! y'all are fucking cool i love reading what y'all have to say #i read fics on very Specific and sporadic occasions but MAN. they r so good for exploring the charas in a lens that cannot be conveyed by- #gameplay (or the lack of writing / focus for a particular topic).. like MAN! love fic writers and ppl who come up with concepts #i will probably go back to my cave for a bit but. MAN. aus. overthinking gameplay mechanics. good shit (inhales like kirby) #hc and au nonsense

[the-moogle-of-your-nightmares]

i am at this point very certain that i am legitimately, actually cursed. the only degree to which this is metaphorical is that there's not a word for it that doesn't imply supernatural means, instead of ones that can be explained by science but haven't been yet.

#moogletalks #venting #negative #like. i have much; much; much evidence by now that this isn't a mental illness thing #it doesn't do my related mental illness/trauma stuff any favors! #and it's actually something that over the last few years has *motivated* me to put a lot of good work into addressing that #but this particular pattern has been escalating over the last few years in particular #and by now is a hundred percent reliable #it happens like clockwork in very specific ways that i have observed over and over and over #to the point where i will calmly and in full practicality mode say 'i am going to pay for this before long' and every time i do i am right #when that doesn't occur to me; it happens and i get blindsided by it #and then after a few minutes tops of thinking about it i can go 'god damn it i know exactly what caused this one' #this is happening. it is a fact. and i'm so fucking exhausted of not having words for it or knowing what the mechanism is #fucking i hate this. anyway my health condition from a few months ago has flared up again even worse than before #in retaliation for exactly the same *things* as before #and this time i'm at significantly higher risk for becoming quadruplegic! #and last night in retaliation for a particular thing that had happened less than 24 hours beforehand i've stopped sweating! #and i don't know if it will be permanent! #and as proof that it's in direct proportion to what it's retaliating against #a smaller; less life-changing hope spot than the things that've been retaliated against w/ Extreme Shit; which happened within the last week #led to me finding one of my fish dead the next afternoon #i am not kidding or exaggerating about this. It's Happening #medical stuff cw #health issues cw #pet death cw

[maybe-arts]

ok i should sleep but also i'm obsessed with @gurusgammamon's swap au that only has a handful of art and 4 chapters of chatfic

i had to doodle my version of swapped marx and ribbon

#kirby #kirby series #swap au #kirby fanart #zero's dreamland #marx kirby #ribbon kirby #i put their traits in a blender and turned it on #to start #marx is a full time noddy this time so even if he's a storage unit for crystals he mostly in his noddy shape #similarly the power up looks a lot friendlier than. whatever the fuck he became post-nova #his new motif is night! and moons #ribbon on the other hand gets butterfly wings instead of traditional fairy insect wings #and maaaaaybe becomes more insectoid as a boss who knows #also i swapped the location of their accessories (ribbon's now around the neck while marx' is on the head) just for the heck of it #idk if i doodle anyone else swapped maybe magolor and spooders #or maybe susie bc muriel in particular likes her being a friendly mechanic #and also the idea of susie going down in one hit without her machines is incredibly fucking hilarious to me ok

[infizero]

i just watched a video essay about the decline of paper mario and now im sad and mad thinking about paper mario again. can we have a violent overthrowing of nintendo

#i hadnt heard some of these quotes from ppl at nintendo before. ''it's no longer possible to modify mario characters or create new #characters that touch on the mario universe'' ''paper mario is all about paper'' can we all kill ourselves #THAT LAST ONE IN PARTICULAR MAKES ME SO MAD OHHHH MY GOD WHAT DO YOU MEAN #PAPER MARIO IS NOT ALL ABOUT PAPER. IT HAS BEEN FOR THE LAST 3 ENTRIES BECAUSE THATS WHAT YOU'VE TURNED IT INTO #BUT THE FIRST 3 GAMES THERE WAS BARELY ANYTHING TO DO WITH PAPER!!!!!!!!! #THERE WERE SOME MECHANICS AND STUFF BUT IT WASNT EVEN A PART OF THE WORLD????????? #THE FIRST PAPER MARIO WASNT EVEN CALLED THAT IN JAPAN. BECAUSE THATS NOT THE FUCKING POINT #PAPER MARIO HAS A STORYBOOK PAPER CUTOUT ARTSTYLE. ITS AN ARTSTYLE. #IT HAS NEVER BEEN THE *POINT* OF THE SERIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THE POINT OF THE SERIES IS A RPG OR AT LEAST RPG INSPIRED EXPERIENCE THAT PUTS A FOCUS ON STORY AND WORLDBUILDING #THE POINT IS FLESHING OUT MARIO'S WORLD AND TELLING COMPELLING STORIES WITH THE CHARACTERS #NOT THE FACT THAT EVERYTHING IS PAPER!!!!!!!!! #so much of the dialogue and in-universe stuff in the newer games being ABOUT everything being made of paper makes me want to kill people #playing the first 3 paper mario games you could imagine that this was all taking place in the usual mario world. YOU WERE KIND OF SUPPOSED #TO???? LIKE THE STAR SPIRITS APPEARED IN MARIO PARTY TOO!!!!! IT WAS THE NORMAL MARIO WORLD JUST TOLD VIA A PAPER ARTSTYLE #but now they've made it so it's an entire like alternate universe where everything is made of paper and everything revolves around paper an #arts and crafts and everything. and thats ''the point'' according to them. holy fucking shit im gonna explode #it makes me so mad and frustrated that not only is this just the case at all but the fact that they seem to not care and even take PRIDE in #this. it's awful augugurrghrghghhrhgh #no hate to the newer entries btw. as games on their own they're fine! it's just one of those things where its more about what they represen #and what they represent is. a very unfortunate decline #serena.txt

[troglobite]

[crying screaming tearing my hair out]

me watching this video before dming: oh these are good tips. and i'm glad that i already do most of these! okay cool.

me watching this video after dming: [inconsolable, distraught, curled up in a ball on the floor, begging, pleading]

#after our boundaries and expectations talk that i forced again session before last there have been a couple improvement #more ppl are taking notes--they're asking me for how to spell NPCs' names! i love it! #i'm like thank you for the reminder! lemme put that in chat for y'all! #the two players i had most trouble pinning down before a session were GREAT this last time #lemme know when/if they might be there and responded quickly to my check in a week before the game #i'm v happy and grateful! #but we're still butting up against not paying attn.....not keeping tracking of shit... #not knowing anything abt the world their characters would know....not wanting to roleplay with each other... #i've literally implemented a MECHANIC SYSTEM from connie chang to basically ~force~ roleplay #they wanted an overarching campaign plot and to have their backstories involved #INCREDIBLY YOUR BACKSTORY ONLY COMES UP AND GETS INVOLVED IF YOU FUCKING TALK TO PEOPLE!!! NPCS AND PCS!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!! #I WILL NOT AND CANNOT JUST HAND YOU IN PARTICULAR SOMETHING ON A PLATTER! THERE ARE SIX OF YOU! #PLEASE FUCKING ENGAGE I'M GOING TO PERISH!!!!!! #like i stg if i have to sit there and wait for mORE THAN ONE PLAYER to FIND/REMEMBER where THEIR OWN CHARACTER IS FROM #I'M GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND #if i have to hear oh yeah i skimmed it ANOTHER TIME I'M GOING TO LOSE IT #YOU ASKED FOR AN INVOLVED GAME AND WORLD!!!! FUCKING PLAY/ACT LIKE IT!!!! #also i'm sorry but fucking christ just TELLING me you respect my time & energy is not enough #i'd like you to fucking SHOW ME THAT YOU DO IN YOUR FUCKING ACTIONS. IN AND OUT OF THE GAME.

[ziskandra]

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

twisted palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t people say you'd like but you feel kinda meh about love regardless? (adjusted because most of your favs are fictional villains that Fandom says you shouldn't like)

papyrus: hilariously every song in my spotify on repeat playlist atm is from my meresino playlist. anyway the first that came up when I shuffled was rabbit hole by aviva

i swear I have whole AViVA albums on this playlist oops, listen this flavour of dark pop just works so well for them.

and as for why this song in particular:

I could say I'll take you

I could say I'll make you

But underneath all I plan to do, to do is break you

You could be my breakthrough

Watching demons wait 'til

I leave you, and they can initi-niti-nitiate you

[…]

I will always wait for you

I'll always be waiting

I will always follow you

'Cause you cannot escape me

Need I say more?

twisted palm tree: firstly can I just how much I love how that you had to twist this because loving villains I shouldn’t is basically my entire brand 🥲

It actually took me a while to think of a character that people assume I love that I don’t really have strong feelings about, and in the end the only answer I could come up with is Bellatrix Lestrange from HP (with the caveat that I don’t know how the fandom portrays her bc I don’t seek out content about her).

The reason I usually love villains is that I find them relatable — either because they remind me of the worst parts of myself, or because they remind me of people I’ve encountered irl, and I like deconstructing what makes people capable of such cruelty through the safer space of fiction because it makes me a) less vulnerable to manipulation irl and b) more sympathetic to people who I wouldn’t see eye-to-eye with. I think growing up as a Young Undiagnosed Autistic, I’ve always been mystified by the concept of being cruel on purpose, and I’ve always wanted to understand it more, and the reasons behind it (even if the reason is as simple as ‘maintaining the status quo because the person in power wishes to remain so’)

Anyway, yeah, I don’t find Bellatrix interesting for the same reasons I don’t find Voldemort interesting, but my favourite HP characters nonetheless are pretty revelatory about me: Dolores Umbridge, Rita Skeeter, Petunia Dursley … I am much more interested in analysing the type of cruelty I am more likely to encounter irl!

get to know me ask game

#asha answers #as a kid i was obsessed with umbridge to the point i dressed as her for book week #so nothing about me has really changed #except no-one called me an abuse apologist back then #honestly not to get too deep on main #but a part of the reason i’m fascinated by female villains in particular is because i did grow up with an abusive mother #and the coping mechanism that worked the best was humanising her #and it took me a long time for me to even acknowledge she was abusive #like it makes me feel uncomfortable to say now even tho she was even physically abusive towards me! #like the emotional abuse was worse but usually people recognise physical abuse more easily #so yeah it fucks me right off when people call randos on the internet abuse apologists because god forbid #anyone want to explore their own abuse in a safe space #a huge part of my healing was reconciling my own trauma was acknowledging my childhood abuse #and reconciling it with the fact i still wanted to repair my relationship with my mum #and that I HAD A CHOICE about whether to reconcile or not #and that I can love who she is now (after years of her own healing) #and still acknowledge that she Fucked Me Up #anyway agency is very important to me for obvious reasons #and if someone tells me i shouldn’t do something I wanna do it more oops #asha’s villain manifesto #mxkelsifer

[neuromantis]

aw2 gave me perhaps, one of the most important realizations of my life. just now. "how do you run from an idea?"

the world i created when i started writing. i liked it. and i liked my characters. they were real to me. but. i could escape there. but i couldn't live there. with my family and friends and loved ones, the only ones i've had then.

i needed to stay outside and keep writing them. i could never join them. so i kept writing. every day i would write more of it, obsessively. and with that came a realization of the genre of the story it was shaping up to be.

i keep calling it "automatic writing", because i really never felt like i was in control of it. ideas just used me as a conduit. the story was telling itself. and it wasn't. a nice story. not one with hopes or happy endings.

i once told someone a long time ago that i couldn't stand writing anymore because i loved those people. loved their world. but if i made more of it. they'd have to suffer for it. so i quit. i kept meeting new ideas and characters and i only wrote down the barest of outlines. because the narrative would inevitably doom them, there had to be no narrative anymore.

i think what also made me stop it, was meeting Adam. a guy i knew like 10 years ago who suddenly messaged me. he re-sent me my own message to him from 2013. "well what about the fact that perhaps there IS a god, but he just specifically hates you?"

the last couple of years made me accept it. Adam is me. N(adam)ian. The one who made it all. The one who set up the rules. The one they'd be suffering for. And I don't want to be that. So I chose to leave them. They don't let me. But at least I can not write.

#there's a particular plotpoint about a certain guy being involved who is more of a proxy of me than the main character ever was #that guy got... a rough hand. of knowing every plot point and story beat as it would unfold - before it happens #and his particular thing was knowing that no matter what he does - he can never poke a hole in the narrative #still he tried even if he knew it was absolutely pointless and that perhaps it's exactly his efforts that doom the narrative #because by being unable to give up on a story he is inside of - by continuing trying to dismantle it - he still played by the narrative #and since i am the only who also knows how it plays out and ends... i should put in more effort myself #and that effort is the only thing i can do - to stop writing #''you can change the story'' - i hope i find a way to #because my only ever way of writing was basically ''black out and come to a finished piece on paper/screen'' #i think... that's not a great way to be creative = it requires no input from me #i just let the story possess me and write itself #as i really have no imagination to be quite honest #but one of my goals for this year is to create more - no matter how scared i am - and maybe i can make that story MINE #actually be an author of it instead of a tool to write it or some dumb metaphor like that #also of course this is all such pithy horseshit #but i think aw2 shows a fairly similar situation pretty well #''you want me to write? the same thing that put Alan Wake in The Dark Place?'' #my story is a story of the complete obliteration of every story that came together to make it #an excercise in quantum mechanic bullshit that won't save anyone in the end as the only escape from it is to stop existing #it's an Apocalypse story in the meaning of ''there is no post-apocalypse. there is nothing anymore. at all. the end. fuck you'' #a pretentious excercise of trying to write a story that wants to stop existing in the first place #of people who fight and win by erasing themselves and their world #and it's really your fault if you picked up the book and liked them - because you made them suffer again #ew. i sound... like a fucking hack #no wonder my own meta-narrative ate me fucking alive #i am neither smart enough to figure how to undoom it nor creative enough to have anything else occupying my head 24/7 #truly fucking bleak

[biscuitdragonwithastick]

Imagine you're a scientist. You work for, probably, not the most ethical of organizations. The work you do was supposed to involve research demonic power and it uses to better the world. But, instead, you've found yourself observing and dispensing of gallons of demon cum.

The idea started simple. Demons generate energy through their impulsive and sinful natures. So, if one can find a way to "milk" out that energy, then it could be used a potential limitless source to power anything one can dream of.

The drawback is that, between the seven deadly sins, Lust has been the only nature that's consistently drawn the most power over time.

Thus, you - standing in front of the observation bay windows - watching a demon pound away into a milking machine. He was large and muscular, thick horns jutting outwards and sharp enough to kill a man with the smallest of gestures. He had a name - supposedly - but demon language meant nothing but gibberish to human ears. You just called him "Dee".

The job wouldn't be so bad, The cum wasn't very useful and you had the job of disposing of it, if it weren't for the fact that the more "higher up" scientists had noticed this particular demons energy output rose exponentially when you watched them.

It wasn't being in the same room, whether it be through camera or window, the thing somehow knew when you were watching him. In recordings, he would fuck into the machine, for lack of a better word, "vanilla". Rhythmically fucking in and out almost bored by its predicament. But when you entered the room... When you watched the live feed...

Dee's breath hitched and he picked up the speed. His hips pulled out in long and swaying thrusts, becoming more targeted to the phantom mares inner collection chamber. As if he were fucking a real body. His body hunched forward and he breathed against the metal frame and spoke in demon tongue. And his claws, they dragged into the ground, being careful not "hurt" the fake body it was presented with.

It was showing off. Everyone knew that it was thinking of you when it thrust inside. That it wanted you to replace that the unfeeling, robotic hole that it fucked day in and day out.

And, what started out as disgust, was slowly turning warmth and arousal. You were growing jealous of the mechanical contraction it bred.

It should be you.

[edit: Link to the next parts ]

#monsterfucker #monster x reader #monster breeding #terato #Biscuit tumblr fics #non specified gender

[griefbringers]

hc. Mykonos

they are, generally speaking, timid. bad at enforcing their own boundaries (or even recognising they have boundaries in the first place). prone to prioritising the wants of other above their own needs. they fawn constantly. they defer and cry and plead, and the thought of anyone being angry with them makes them crumble to pieces. it paints a very tragic, 'classical victim' picture. it's part of why graves is ashamed she even exists.

they are, however, also proud and volatile: emotionally unpredictable, quick to anger, easy to offend. they can be cruel. they often are cruel if they think it will keep them from being hurt. they will say things they know will hurt you because in their anger--so rarely something they're allowed to express--they don't care about the consequences and they think they're right. if they feel like their control is slipping (especially if it relates to their control over their fellow griefbringers) they're VERY likely to be a massive dick about it.

this is part of why their relationship with graves is so tumultuous, because graves sees how fucked up their responses to things can get (whether they're causing harm to themselves or to others with it) and fucking HATES it, but of course... mykonos can't see it. they are, after all, a creature of rose-tinted vision, unable to see red flags even when they're the one raising them. at best they get cowed into submission by graves' anger and disappointment and start fawning, but they have trouble learning why what happened to them--or what they did--was actually wrong.

#hc. #hc: mykonos #abuse tw #[ hopefully this is coherent. ] #[ theyre a very generic 'easy to manipulate and abuse further' type of victim character in some ways #because that's part of a story i want to tell. and because they're part of a collective rather than just their own character #those pieces of them make the rest of the griefbringers make sense. they're all part of the same story. #and in some ways every griefbringer is going to have A Particular Thing They're All About. #johnny is the most well-rounded because he's the analogy for a 'host' but he too has his purpose #but with meek like. yes i want her to be that classic genericass image of pity. #but it is also important for her to be a fucking DICK. #for her to have coping mechanisms and behaviours that SUCK. #because That Is So Often What Chronic Victimhood Does To You. ]

[voidmoth-slut]

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#predisposed to ramble and vent emotions #on account of other strong negative emotions i'm trying to ignore right now #bit of a bait and switch you see #in unrelated news #maladaptive coping mechanisms are fun #i'm a particular enjoyer of avoidant coping #wild that it took worrying about fucking up my relationship to really tear into my feelings about repeatedly cracking under the pressure - #-of trying to get enough money to eat and stay in a home #don't message me about this one. just needed to vent into a void a little less empty than my head #but not too much more empty you feel #vent