#god help me in too deep

[pokimoko]

The fact that Main-verse Ooo is as good and as kind as it is (relative to the other universes shown so far, at least, it's obviously not perfect) all because of the same character that starts off as the OG series' antagonist, the person we were made to see as the bad guy (albeit an often ineffectual one) for several seasons, is making me lose my mind.

Imagine finding out the guy you spent your childhood beating up and saving princesses from is in fact a driving catalyst behind you being able to exist, and not only exist but also live in a world that knows what kindness is. All because that man, the same man who you've witnessed do terrible things, once met a little girl and taught her how to be good.

Simon's story really shows us that even if you lose your way and forget how it is to be good yourself, the world keeps the memory for you. That act of love Simon showed Marcy by protecting her and seeing her as more than the monster she thought herself to be created ripples upon ripples, small at first but eventually enough to help give their wreckage of a world—a world that easily could have been forsaken, its goodness overlooked because of its inhospitable remains—a chance to grow into something beautiful. Because of those very same ripples Simon created, the people of Ooo grew up in a world where they know enough about kindness that they were able and willing to spare the 'bad guy' some, to see beyond the wreckage and allow him to grow too.

In saving Marceline, Simon helped to not only to save the world, but also himself.

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #adventure time #simon petrikov #ice king #marceline abadeer #simon and marcy #meta #this was just a phone note to get thoughts out of my system but then it came out semi-coherent #so welp guess i'm writing meta now. i'm really in the deep end now. but yeah...Ice King and Simon's story being about the power of kindness #A cruel world requires constant cruelty to be maintained. But kindness? That reaches across time. one act of kindness sparks another #'I need to save you but whose going to save me?' That act of love and compassion is gonna save you ya dingus....eventually #In a less kind world finn and Jake could have watched those tapes about Simon and still decided IK was a hopeless cause. #That he was too far gone to be saved. But they didn't. They chose to treat him nicer and actually be friends with him. #One thing i always loved about IK's story is that he didn't have to completely change himself for people around him to treat him better #They changed their perspective and were kind to him and it was THAT that helped him change. to grow beyond the 'antagonist' role #to quote my go to and all time favourite good place quote: #'the point is people improve when they get external love and support. How can we hold that against them when they don't?' #Arrgh sorry I just always loved Ice King's arc in the show. From pesky antagonist to the person Finn dived into a chaos god to save #(the world's new beginning and its near ending being all because of simon. he has such main character energy and boy does he not want it) #And now we're getting Simon stuff and I'm so normal I'm so normal I'm so normal (<- has never been normal about this character) #(i...i have many MANY drawings of ice king and simon from 2015 and the years after. i was doomed from the start. F&C was the final straw) #(as was reading marcy's secret scrapbook recently...and here i thought i'd truly reached the capacity of hurt i can feel about these two) #Going insane over these last two episodes. 'she didn't have a me'. Fionna and Simon bonding. Gumlee kiss. PETRIGROF BACKSTORY #and the implication that Simon isn't remembering it accurately? Their sweet sounding love song actually foreshadowing their issues? #I am clawing at the walls. thank you AT crew you are enriching the enclosure that is my brain

[queencaramilflinda]

The real message of Lucy vs Buddy is that worshipping a divinity is about following the values that the god puts forth, not about preaching or praying or evangelizing.

When Buddy was offered to die a Helio worshipper or live with a different god, he chose to abandon the faith he claimed such devotion to. When Lucy was offered the same thing, she looked to her values as they related to her religion and decided that she would not add to the coldness of the world. Lucy, even in death, remains a light in the dark, the warm memory in the coldness of the ratgrinders. That’s true devotion. That’s the point of religion.

#thinking about. when I went to the leadership conference in January #and we each were given a list of like 100 values. and we each had to choose 5 to claim as Our Values #and at the end I looked around the room to find that 90% of other people had picked self serving values #family. friends. inner peace. self esteem. faith. etc #and I had things that helped the world. empathy. justice. knowledge. etc #and like… there is nothing wrong with valuing family or self esteem. those things when positive can make life worth living. I get it #but would those people who chose to value inner peace and family have chosen the god of rage? #if u value inner peace over world peace what decisions will you make that fuck over the world to save urself? #this is certainly too deep for a d20 post ignore me #cienna talks #fhjy #fantasy high

[majimasleftasscheek]

ayoo for peeps interested in more old man figures, amiami has these bad boys for preorder 👌

should be noted if you want the funky background thingie for these guys, you'll have to order off ebten via proxy 👇 as far as I know, amiami will not include that part but otherwise the versions are the same

if anyone's into that and knows how to proxy, linky be here

thank you @queensizedgoromi for wanting to spread the word! if yall ever want me to post up info/links whatever on merch n things, pls feel free to lemme know since I have a decent follower reach and I'd love to help ppl get in on the good shit 👀

#I'll be happy to help with merch questions in general too #me just like to have things in my lil goblin hands and I'm in too deep #I'm crouched in the bushes waiting for the next plush drop #look at the modeling on maji's pants god that looks so good #rgg merch

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[thebirdmanhewatches]

Going feral about hinndredd and hinndredd Louie really all the hinndredd characters and versions of characters it’s where a lot of the older ideas regarding when hinndredd was on earth went along with the door lore, the Hamilton rip-off, the older version of current earth patchwork back when he was just a original patchwork reboot and not his own thing inspired mildly by bojack horseman, the older nightmare fuel reboot and associated lore, thauriel, Magnus tilby, more distilled and combined forms of characters that are sometimes somewhat demigod esc, the tower with myself at the top of it, azazel/cult on his endless quest to dig a pit, the scp characters, Magnus tilby, stuff regarding the origins of bauddalins, both types of joy(which ended up basically zombies without me noticing), every dropped plot thread that has ever existed, Magnus tilby

#hark says i #100%birdmade #ocs #<*| hinndredd #<*| bauddalins #oc lore #my oc lore is so self referential and tangled no one but me can decipher it #when you get two separate reboots of the exact same guy deep you know you’ve gone to far #when every remotely separate evolution of Louie Howard has been made into their own characters you’re in too deep #fuck I’m actually three patchwork reboots deep if I’m putting the first fully fledged form of the first proper patchwork reboot in hinndredd #hinndredd doesn’t count hinndredd doesn’t count #see having new ideas is hard so when I get bored I go back to old ideas but do them different this time #hence the fucking joshes(technically louies but Louie would be so pissed if anyone else had his name and I respect him) #I offer him a seat as a god of this world Ives made but he has no free will so he cannot take it I keep the option open for him though #oh shit there is another Louie Louie from back when they went to space but as previously stated Louie cannot think for himself so he cannot #actually be pissed at me #I could just not have louie from back when they went to space but a lot of hinndredd stuff is from just after his era and he and all the cha #racters surrounding him are so unique from their later counterparts I can’t help but include them #old Nora and Eira where fucking wild #plus like I want space travel and no one else does that except from Bob who’s lore is exclusively a David bowie animatic and becomes the god #of natural death after getting scooped by birds #aka god aka myself #so many bobs too I just don’t make a big deal out of it because they’re all from mostly irrelevant lore and I don’t like them

[biblicalhorror]

Late s3 cordy showing up in the library when Buffy's there to aggressively flirt with Wesley only to complain about being soooo bored the second she's actually left alone with him lmfao girl I know what you are so bad

#poor girl this whole season is like okay im dating one of buffys best friends surely she will want to be around me now #oh now im kind of part of the group! but my boyfriend is kind of rude to me all the time and keeps embarrassing me in front of buffy #but i will be as helpful as i can and sit and read these books to help buffy! #okay well my boyfriend is cheating on me with another friend in the group and then i immediately got impaled right after finding out #thats soo embarrassing oh my god time to break up rebrand and disappear for a few weeks #wait shit i miss buffy :/ what excuse can i find to be in and out of the library constantly hmm #also she seems to be spending a lot of time with a new brunette oh shit oh fuck. gotta think fast #oh hello new twentysomething nerd who is around now and seems flustered by my presence. perfect timing #now i can get all dressed up and flirt with you in front of buffy to make her jealous and also piss off xander #surely this adult knows fully dating me would be illegal so i will never have to actually act on these flirtations right. right? #dammit now i said i wanted to be alone with him and im alone with him. i actually kind of hate this man. fuck. #oh god im in too deep #j rewatches btvs

[chappellrroan]

i worship god in a way they talk about him in songs as someone who exists and is absolutely of no help like a neglectful parent like they're someone i keep wishing to help me somehow but they won't he refuses to but he watches me i don't even hate him i am just hurt

#i can a write an essay and deep analysis about how there's something inherently wrong with all of this but i dont think i have ever had a #healthy relationship with religion i did once believe in god yes because my mom is religious but it's like i lost the faith when i lost my #childhood idk if it's necessarily due to the things around me there was a time i was a proclaimed atheist too but now i am like #i am testing of how far can i push my faith in this invisible being people boast about and if it ever will somehow help me like they claim #it'd be also the kind of distaste about religion and festivals comes with what it signifies to me the having to tolerate time with people i #hate in name of celebration also being queer doesn't help when they proudly shout that their god would curse and hate me hmm. i am having #a lot of thoughts this wasn't meant to be this long anyways so #v.txt

[brothersonahotelbed]

nico you're the best boy ever and don't you forget it <3 you're handsome and you are so fucking good at playing guitar and your voice is angelic (like i'm being so serious i could fall asleep to it every day it's so beautiful/handsome). you're so funny and kind and you deserve everything good! ily mwah mwah never forget what you're capable of because you are so strong and so brave about everything <333

SNIFFLES. OKAY. I LOVE YOU.

#Anonymous #i just had to set my phone down and do some deep breaths👍 when the kindness and validation hit....oh boy #i love you. thank you so much wha ttha hell #and complimenting my voice too it's so funny because today i was having the worst voice dysphoria so this really helped me :'] #god. 🥴🚬

[beautifel]

i. hate that i cant ignore any longer how fucked up i am

#ask 2 tag idk what to tag this but its negative. idk if i’m hormonal or whatever. it’s just that i’m so extremely emotional lately #like i always havebeen but it’s insane lately and i know some of the reasons but i have no idea what to do abt it. which is bad #i wish i knew how to confront …it all. im so avoidant it is genuinely pathetic #and even if i wanted to confront anything iwouldnt know how… n how to tell ppl around me #the pains ive taken to ignore my issues over the yrs n by that i mean suppress the knowledge that they even exist Lmao it is so pathetic #let alone the pains ive taken to hide from other ppl that which im suppressing. and to hide how badly i cope with anything #like any problem at all not just things that have anything to do with The Thing #i finally told my girlfriend about something i never thought id ever say out loud to anyone n it was so hard #the whole convo was so hard bc shes dealing with so much too and shes been getting help for 3 yrs n i know #with her baggage of trauma a relationship is one of the hardest things #n ive never ever regretted our relationship but with the things we are both dealing wtih. or rather not dealing with in my case #it is so . hard.. and i feel like ive been so unfair bc i havent been getting help even tho i need it. and she has. #the sheer irony of me refusing to get help or even admit 2 myself i need it even tho im literally about to be the person who helps others #this cannot go on lmao. the only thing im sure about is that i wanna spend my life with her but with everything tht we have on our plate #its so.. unsure i feel so powerless . i cannot change the past i cant change either of our previous experiences #its so unfair how we risk losing the best thing that ever happened bc of things out of our control #ive genuinely never been more scared of anything than i am of the idea of losing this relationship #we had such a deep conversation today and it was necessary and good but god we’re fucked up people #so i .contacted the uni psych today finally but im so fucking scared and idk what to even say when i get there #ive never until today said it out loud ive never even written it down anywhere

[spanishinfluenza]

Forks' resident hottest couple

#hnggggg im hot for them #i just think itd be neat to attend literally any hospital function w them #any evemt #any gala #i just want to witness them in the flesh is that too much to ask? #those are Esme's 'find me a supply closet rn so help me god' eyes #sorry to everyone waiting on a rope update but drawing uses infinitely less brain cells and im balls deep in assignments rn #also turns out this is the hardest position to convey fat on a person #so if i havent gotten it across here Esme is fat end of discussion #what i wouldnt give to be sandwiched between the #my art #i got the inspo for his suit off my sainsburys uniform only real ones know #esme cullen #carlisle cullen #carlesme #twilight fanart #i realise this is the second carlesme piece that ive done and theyre basically exactly the same but like there are just certain things #that i want to see again and again #carlesme being a hot couple is something i simply wont tire of #you know he's the one when ur eyes match his hair identically

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail #and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta #stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture #seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash #all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf #does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it #its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up #ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno #i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic #relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration #bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno #i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition #maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble #i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done #god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it #thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew #rewrite things. but i finished it somehow #ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will #i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_; #unrelated

[nightfallsystem]

tw stupid vent in tags

#tw self harm #tw vent #“being a teenager is the best!” I CUT MYSELF ALMST EVERYDAY. #IVE SCARRED MYSELF SO BAD ILL NEVER EVER BE ABLE TO WEAR SHORT SLEEVES NO MTTER HOW LONG IT SBENE SINCE IT HAPPENED #I ONYL SPEAK TO LIKE ONE OR TWO PEOPLE IRL I AM DETERIORATING #I ALREADY HAVE A FUCKING SCAR SO BIG U CAN FEEL WHERE IT GETS DEEP #HOW . #HOW IS THIS GOOD #HOW DO I HAVE HTE BEST LIFE HOW R PEOPLE JEALOUS #WHENEVER I GET MISGENDERED I CANT HELP BUT BITE MYSELF UNTIL I BLEED which is really hard to do... #IM SO SIKKC OF IT #IM SO TIREDD. #im going insane again arent i #THERES NOT BEEN A WEEK WITHOUT SELF HARM SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN #EVERY LIMB HURTS except my right leg specifically i saved that one for spare parts #oh and my goddamn mother only cares about how ill look because of the scars and not that im FUCKING BLEEDING OUT BCUZ OF HER NO LESS #DOES IT GET BETTER. DO I STOP CUTTING MYSELF?? #everytime i see a little too much blood it reminds me of when i did it and i feel sick to my stomach

[trashbaget]

#wrote a fucking poem #because a bitch is fucking feeling things #cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now #a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and.. #the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us.. #grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a.. #really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we.. #stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm.. #sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There.. #like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who.. #pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the.. #first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop #i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt. #that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got.. #reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss.. #Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we.. #were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with #other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do. #and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having. #feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL #INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for.. #this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally. #wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i #can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is #and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself. #if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers #i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring #please ignore the following organizational tags: #writing #poetry

[raksh-writes]

Gosh, Im turning 25 today not 65 so why does it feel like my body feel is gonna fall apart at any moment? 😩

#personal #vent #Im in So much pain today #got my period for my birthday of course #so there's cramps one hand #but the worse is the way my knees aching #it's like that bone-deep dull ache thats spread out into the calf and thighs kind #and its so intense at its worst it makes me want to sob and chew my own limbs off with my teets #god it sound dramatic but yestersay evening I did cry quite a lot from the pain #Ive had the joint pains for a long time but it was usualy one at a time and with weather changes #but like 1-2 years ago my knees synced up with periods and wheneve that happens it's-- #hellish #painkillers barely work and it builds up throughtout the day so it's prob not gonna be a nice evening today #distracting myself from it only works so far too #the moment the distraction ends Im crying 😣 #it goes from these 'can sort of manage' ache to 'full on out sob' in cicles that I can’t even feel coming #and I still have some time before I can take another dose of the strong meds that sort of helped today #(like 4 hours after I took them and only for a couple hours too) #I know I just gotta get through this but it Sucks #and I gotta do my taxes tomorrow at the latest fucking heeeeell I can’t focus for shit #hopefully it lessens enough I can do the needed adulting and then hide away until I feel human again 😣 #I might also be severaly overstimulated from work I think #ughhhh anyway I just needed to vent some #in hopes it maybe helps a little #might delete this post later #hope y'all are having a much better day!

[thelovelymissbigbadwolf]

This might sound really weird considering my history with theories, but... I genuinely for the longest time thought that, in Kingdom Hearts, Sephiroth was Cloud's Heartless and I'm not really sure why.

And now I think back on Zack on KH BBS (yes I am not over how they just let him to dust after that ONE iteration in khbbs) and now I wanna think that Cloud AND Sephiroth might as well be Zack's Heartless (Sephiroth) and Nobody (Cloud) and I don't really care for canon at this point, might as well have fun.

#kh #khbbs #kingdom hearts #zack fair #cloud strife #Sephiroth #idk #source: voices in my head #god help me for I am too deep in the kh rabbit hole