#gonna go back to writing someday

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Hiiii, hope this text finds you well, this blog was the sweetest thing on Tumblr for me , I loved scrolling your blog for hours and how you would comfort a stranger or give them suggestions in the ask box, your blog has helped me to learn and deal with so many things and has opened my heart for beauty of literature, hope to see you around soon 🤍

I am flattered, I am glad to know my blog was helpful for you , i do love this app and people here but i happen to stop passing by on this app due to some issues life is really a mess apparently

Thank you for the kind words , you can still find my posts on my Instagram if you ever feel like reading 🫂💗

#once i get over what i am going through i will be here again :) #i did mess up again and fucked up big time #i honestly have no idea how i will deal with it #but i am trying to let things bother me #i hope things will get better and time will pass #someday I am gonna back and write everything about it here

[impala-dreamer]

is this too romantic? am I going too far? is there any other way to write romance than all in, all encompassing, perfectly magical? no. this is fine.

#talking to myself as i write #it's so flufffffyyyyyy #i should write romcoms i'd really be great at it #except someone would inexpicably die or get shot out of nowhere #and then ya know #“dying in the rain talking about theology” #classic me #also fuck you bc theres so much i cant share anymore #because you took it all away #why am i rambling in the tags agani #no one reads anyway #so screw you you hurt me #but im not going anywhere #i'm gonna stay here and write this stupid fluffy romanctic shit #and love it #and then i'll write my dean and jensen and misha #and i will love that too #and someday i won't be so sad or indifferently angry at you #and maybe i'll get back to writing what i used to but cant now bc you took it from me #i should delete this but honestly no #i'm not goinig to #now im just curious to how manyt ags i can have #someone count this i cant math #anyway whatever #writing #henry cavill #whatttttttt

[goldkirk]

as I'm going back over my past history and items and journals and years, I come across all sorts of things, like the pencil I saved from that so-precious memory from second grade, and a pair of flip flops I've been missing for two years, and (tw for murder/crime/killings) the modern-high-school-AU-kidnapped-by-a-serial-killer story I wrote in late high school jdfsjdfsjkjlksfd

#i can't wait to find out what red flags I didn't see in my own self back when I last read this thing in 2015 hfdhfdhjsfd #also. there's gonna be like a good sentence here and there and then CRINGE. the whole rest of everything is just me still trying to copy th #breathing pace (essentially) and ways-of-describing-things of mainstream authors like I thought I was supposed to #so this'll be somewhat painful but also god what a joy and a gift and an honor and a delight to get to hold this close to my heart #and witness it with understanding and empathy and slow reflection and care like my past younger self deserves #i'm so lucky i'm alive to be here and do this #i'm so grateful i'm headed towards welcoming back and embracing the last little girl i was that still felt a lot of things #so excited for her focus and precision and tenacity and constant curious joy and movement to be back someday #i'm afraid people won't like the me i was before rule after rule and then dangers #but my god it'll feel so good to be the fully-flowing energy machine and dance and conduit again how will I have enough bother to care? #people who are good to each others' nervous systems cumulatively feel better and better #if i'm not good for you and yours then you really truly SHOULD go elsewhere and find someone who makes YOUR self feel right and light + war #anyway now that i wrote an essay in the tags as usual [nervous laughter] #personal #add to journal #words n rhythm #WHY DID I FEEL CAPABLE OF UNDERTAKING A STORY LIKE THIS #cradling my past self gently but also BANGING my HEAD against the WALL lmao #i'm proud of myself for writing and sharing this and its creative ideas. even if i don't like it now or feel ashamed or see mistakes. #anything. it mattered that it came to me and it mattered that i explored it and it mattered that i poured myself through it to help shape i #and it mattered that I left it on the internet so that now it still exists. i'm going to honor this story no matter what current me would #objectively think about it if it was written by anyone else. #this is a gift i give myself now. #this is a lot of what I learn and learn to do #trauma evolution #mosswrites

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[imaginepostingonmain]

i have absolutely not listened to nearly enough woe.begone to have a concise or accurate grasp of the characters or their intentions or their motives and nor have i ever really written a full and finalised fanfic in my life

however-

#someday ill actually write a wbg fic and its gonna be so good yall will CRY /j #thisbis actually more of a hi im going back to liveblogging soon post. alas a man must ramble just an ickle tiny bitsy

[broke-on-books]

😍😍😍

#accidentally slept through my only class today #which whoops sorry. (my 9am english) #which kind of killed step 1 of a plan of mine but thats okay #anyways THEN i had to go downtown to pick up this award bc i forgot to show up to the ceremony like a dumb dumb #but the building was like a 25 minute walk and it was COLD (punishment for my dumb dumbness tbh) but anyways i got there early so i walked #around the block and then went inside and picked up my medal #and i was already far downtown so then i popped my head in a couple of stores as i slowly walked back #got a few things from target. new hair clip nail polish m&ms pens and then a mango. very excited to eat that either later today or tomorrow #then i popped in the calligraphy store and then the comic shop and looked around. saw some white ribbon in the calligraphy store which ive #been looking for but didnt get it because it was a bit wide and kind of expensive and i want a lot for my project idea #(want to write out some of my favorite poems on them in sharpie and then use it to accessorize) #and then i went to the comic shop and peeked around. saw a nubia issue and a few gl 2021s in the discount bin but i didnt get them bc #they were all middle issues and i havent read those books yet although i do want to someday bc my guys were in them. one of the gl 21s even #had simon on the cover so i was very !!!!!!!! thats my guy!!!!! #didnt buy anything there but i did ask the guy to make sure to order a copy of the spirit world tpb so ill stop by to get that in a few wks #and then i went to the bookstore cafe and got a cold brew and did a but of English there. they have tables in the stacks its nice. the one i #grabbed was just surrounded by old paperbacks of sci fi and thrillers lol. didnt see anything id read but recognized a few author names like #card (no enders game though) and the pern lady (idk her name i havent read it). anyways did half a blog post thats technically late (ill #backdate though dw) and then packed up and i grabbed a gyro from the halal cart on that block which i just finished back at my dorm <3333 #anyways good times. now im gonna try and spam some work and go to freaking trivia team for the first time in a month later. oops #blah #oh and i think the halal cart guy may have given me a free soda. unsure abt that though bc its possible it came with and i was just being #silly again. so anyways i had a ginger ale too

[the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis]

uh oh. experiencing feelings about susan pevensie

#don't go in the 'problem of susan' tumblr tag #bad idea. there are scary people in there #i'm gonna ramble about her on this post so that maybe i don't try to write a fanfic again #like UGH it drives me crazy seeing people try to justify how it's 'not that bad' #'it wasn't about being feminine it was about her thinking she was too grown up for narnia!' #first of all. you Cannot pretend CS Lewis was not misogynistic #no matter how much social context you put around him #fuck right off with that #even if the nylons and lipstick are more representative of adulthood at the time #it doesn't change the fact that the role susan plays is always one limited by lewis' misogyny #also!! it's still bad that she's closed out of 'heaven' for being too grown up for it! #& i don't care if she'll 'get back someday' #bc at the end of the day that's the other thing #these books are christian allegory #you can't separate it #& susan gets the worst of 'well-intentioned' christian cruelty #& the worst of the idea of heaven #& i just have strong feelings about 'heaven' & how you grow & live #and if all your siblings die in their twenties #& you reunite someday after you live a whole life #how happy of a reunion can it be? #plus just. she suffers that HORRIFIC tragedy #& we want to talk about whether it was 'her choice' not to go to narnia? #we don't want to think abt the tragedy? #& you can't say it's not that deep bc lewis ALSO dismisses her tragedy! #it's not like he gives her the time or depth or grief she deserves #ugh

[yellowloid]

hello hello, do you have a new fic planned? Absolutely devoured your last one (and every single one before that, you're amazing) and would LOVE to read a new one soon :)

awww thank you anon, this was really nice to hear rn 🥺💖

speaking of my writing plans, i definitely have something in the works, but there's still a long way to go and it's gonna take a while before it sees the light of day! that is, if i actually manage to finish it lmao

#it's been...........an interesting month #after the last fic i posted (which i'm very happy you enjoyed <3) i started two (2) new ideas and consequently dropped them 🤪 #they just weren't the vibe right now but i'm gonna go back to them someday #anyway the one i started working on after that is slowly but surely shaping itself so we'll see how it goes #thank you for the lovely ask xx🩷 #answered #writing stuff

[abyssembraced]

Okay, so! I have:

Changed the url of the blog (scale-tippers -> abyssembraced)

Changed the colour scheme of the blog (though it's still somewhat subject to change)

Updated the avatar to reflect the new colour scheme (though it's still temporary until I draw a nicer one)

Removed my old promo as my pinned post due to it being outdated (a temporary pinned post with links and stuff will be up in a sec; a new promo will come eventually, probably once I finish writing Rouxls' bio page)

Archived (dropped) Ryunosuke and Robin as muses for the time being.

#ooc #((plus side to making a poll about the url change and not just dming my mutuals directly:)) #((the anonymity and indirectness makes people less pressured to say 'yes' and thus will answer 'no' if they don't want me to change it!)) #((the down side to not talking to people directly:)) #((i do not know who i now need to apologize to for changing my url)) #((and the reason the blog colours are still subject to change are because everything is very ghost-centric right now)) #(( (oh btw tumblr stop trying to correct me on my spelling of ''colours'' i am Right) )) #((''abyssembraced'' is still a lot more fitting for ghost than it is for rouxls even though the new url was supposed to suit both muses)) #((but i chose to go for that name specifically instead of something like ''darkembraced'')) #((so i'm thinking i might change the blog's colours to be black/dark grey and blue/cyan to reference castle town)) #((so that rouxls feels more included given that he's Also a primary muse)) #((also i do still love ryuu and robin but i just. don't have the confidence to write them right now)) #((maybe they'll come back someday! but i'm not gonna promise anything and i wouldn't count on it unless i decide to replay their games)) #((but i don't really like dealing in absolutes so i'm calling them ''archived'' and not dropped)) #((their bios are still available on a separate ''archived muses'' page i just made that can be accessed from the regular muse list))

[sanguinaryrot]

sorry im not as hairy as the other bears and my beard isnt as full. im sorry. do you still love me

#im hairy compared to like. the average joe. but sometimes i see pics of other bears and im like WOWIE!!! #in The Bear Handbook: A Comprehensive Guide for Those Who Are Husky #Hairy and Homosexual and Those Who Love 'Em #it has a little code for describing how much hair you have so like. i think being less hairy than some of these men is like #inevitable and normal. but i still think #sometimes i want to up my t dose so i get hairier but idk if that. would actually work. have to go to an endo #anyways #ive started kinda getting back into calling myself a bear. watch in 2 weeks im gonna have a gender shift back into butch #and im gonna be like. no im not a bear and have never and will never be a mlm again. i live here. lol. #yall need to keep me humble/realistic. #im genderfluid and even if i stay in one gender for months you have to remind me. you will fag it up again someday #writing an essay in the tags. thats cause im a crazy person. lol <3

[tianhai03]

hey everyone. im not here to post art right now, i just have something on my mind that i kinda wanna ramble about, which i’ll put under a read more below bc its really long lol. i know this is kinda sudden but i promise its nothing serious. stick around if you’re somehow interested in listening to my ramblings, if not then thank you for reading this anyway, and thanks for all your continuous support :)

i cant remember the reason why anymore, but a couple minutes ago i felt like going through all the blogs ive followed on here. i only follow like 276 blogs if i remember correctly, it’s not much considering how i’ve been here since 2015. i probably felt like looking through it because i was reminded of an artist i follow here and i wanted to see if they’ve updated anything, i have no clue lol.

anyways i looked through the list, and i found a lot of artists ive followed since my early days in 2015, when i first started posting art. some i still remember fondly, some i have vague memories of, and others... i just dont recognize anymore. the only thing im sure of is that they were all artists i looked up to very much, artists who have also definitely motivated me to keep drawing just so i can be as good as them someday. im confident enough to say that ive gotten close to a lot of their levels already, and i am now very comfortable with drawing in a style that is uniquely my own. i have all these artists to thank for that.

but... another thing ive also realized is, most of them arent posting anymore. some have already stopped before i myself stopped tumblr briefly in around 2019, but a lot of them stopped at that exact same year. it makes me kinda sad, i remember looking forward to these artists’ drawings often, but a lot of them just kinda dipped out of existence 3 years ago, without other social medias that i can check to make sure theyre still around. it made me think about how hellish every year has been starting from 2019, it mightve only been 3 years but it sure felt like its been a decade. all i can do right now is hope that they’re still okay, somewhere in the world, still safe and still doing whatever they love.

and on the same note, i hope every single person who is still following me, who still constantly come up to this crumbling website, maybe even look forward to me posting my art; i hope you guys are doing well too. i know there are a lot of people who were from my old 2018 dmc days (since i came back to the fandom just half a year ago and a lot of people started checking up on me again), some of you guys were probably even from my earliest 2016 undertale days; whether you followed me 6 years ago or just today, i want to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, for always giving me kind support on the things i do. i am not joking when i said i wont be here right now if it werent for you guys. thank you so, so much.

#guess i just felt like getting sappy today. #im sorry if this makes anyone anxious; i promise i am totally okay and nothing bad is happening to me #it's just... sometimes you look back on your life to remember the things you've done that led to the life you have today #ive been doing that a lot lately. and i just wanted to talk about what ive thought about #i actually feel a lot better thinking about things like this. it reminds me of the reason why i started drawing in the first place #with how things have been lately especially with my own uni life; it gets so frustrating its very easy to forget why i liked drawing so much #but im not gonna forget about it now; even if i stop drawing someday i'll forever hold on to these memories #i probably sound like a broken record now but; genuinely; thanks for everything i really do appreciate it #allyrambles #long post #if youve read till here #through this long ass post ive been writing for over 30 minutes now #do me a favour and talk to a long time friend you have that you havent talked to in a while #yknow the ones. you were super close but then you just slowly stopped talking to each other? even though nothing bad happened? #do me a favour and just shoot them a message. a short one will do #even a little 'hey we havent talked in a while; just wanted to check up on you and make sure youre still okay' is enough #times are tough right now. it has been for the past 2 years for everyone #if you can do it; im sure it will brighten someone's day up; to know that theres someone out there who still cares #someone will appreciate the kindness #im gonna go now. this post has gotten way longer than i expected and its almost time for bed #i hope everyone has a decent day :) thanks again for reading #hopefully i dont regret this someday lol

[bo0zey]

everyday i wake up against my will n im lettin y’all know now that i’m abt 1 more waking up against my will day away from somehow someway making it god’s personal problem

#blueface baby ayyy #i love my cat but sometimes i am annoyed bc if it wasn’t for his existence i would said sayanora Long ago lmao #i wanna d word i was not supposed to make it past 18 i’m so fucking angry #im not gonna amt to anything in life i’m so scared of it all so pathetic and weak #i’m too weak for this world someone else can have my place i was never supposed to be here anyways hahah i’m not good at anything #i have zero talents ive wasted 10 years of my life writing books and publishing nothing i live in my stupid dreamworld #i don’t know how to hold a conversation i don’t want to go outside i want to rot in my bed i am so sick of myself #also don’t come in my ask box on some wahwahwah stop self pitying crybaby grow up ok bc i’ve literally been telling myself that for years #if someone walked up to me rn n was like here have this euthanasia pill and i knew my cat would #be safe and happy w someone else then yes i would take it in a heartbeat lmao no water necessary !! #im a burden to my family a financial burden all i’m good for is putting more debt unto others how USELESS!!!!!!!! #i have no friends but it’s my fault bc i don’t talk to anyone back i just i can’t #i think subconsciously i’m trying to push everyone further and further away so when i die they aren’t hurt #i don’t want a funeral i don’t want anyone to grieve me i feel like a narcissist even assuming someone would grieve over me lol #i just want to be forgotten about i want everyone to keep living and doing well without me to get in their way #i’m just an obstacle in other ppls lives a hindrance a fucking troll without a riddle just hurtful mean words #i’ll write everyone apology notes #i have so much guilt inside me it’s filled my lungs and heart sometimes i can’t breathe if i think abt all the ppl i’ve hurt by being alive #god put me on this earth to teach ppl lessons abt avoiding ppl like me #fuck god i’m done being his puppet i’m done hurting ppl i’m gonna go away someday and no one will ever hurt again #why do i want to cry i’m so fucking self absorbed why the fuck am i sad abt myself #i think subconsciously there’s something in me that wishes to stay alive and be the positive impact on ppls lives like i always wanted #i always wanted to help ppl and make friends and include everyone and now i’m just so toxic i let younger me and everyone else down so bad #i feel like my mom hated me too right now i feel like she deserved a better prettier smarter funnier more selfless daughter #im ok everyone btw im just being dramatic n venting lol dw i’ll start writing in a journal instead of tags soon #shut up cianna

[splendidcyan]

With my final semester of college starting tomorrow I decided to clean out and organize and label my email, and umm maybe gathering all my job rejections into one folder was a bad idea?? Aha I've heard from people that it's good to collect them and be able to look back and see how you've improved, but as someone who still isn't in the industry I want to be in it kinda umm just made me so sad LMAO. Self flagellating on a Sunday I guess

#was gonna post this to my main but then decided since it's about art that it goes on the art blog #and like I KNOW why i havent ever gotten hired #my portfolio is all over the place and I havent had the focus to niche down #almost like ive been attending college the past several years #and even illustration college still means stopping the concept art to learn anatomy and compositional skills and simply mature as a human #and its probably not fair of me to compare myself to the art prodigies that i adore who got hired out of high school #but oh as im writing these tags ive started crying which luckily is good for your eyelashes #i realize this is unprofessional but hopefully nobody will be looking at tumblr to hire me #this post ISNT to be oh woe is me -- its to humanize the blog and show you im struggling the way probably most artists struggle #and hopefully to look back on someday and be like oh silly me #i'll get where i want to be eventually. it will be okay and i will be okay #but right now i am sad and also hungry so im gonna finish crying and then go make some ramen with lots of yummy veggies #not art #aurora talks

[weepylucifer]

Hmm. Looking back on it all, I really do think the whole building an entire ass identity around a skill I might not be very good at, and probably never will be much good at, was something akin to a Mistake

#SIGH. i'll go back to writing tomorrow bc i'm an idiot and i don't know anything else. but really i'm just humiliating myself here aren't i #like. maybe it's time to leave the whole ''i'm gonna be a professional writer someday'' thing behind it's just. idk. #it requires talent i don't have #some people just try all their lives but never improve they always just sorta suck and i'm among those people #which would be fine if this was just a hobby and for fun and not like. the thing that's been most important to me since forever #idk what i'm missing. idk what's gonna elevate my writing from meh to good. maybe there's just nothing i can do at all #posts by me #and like whoo boy everyone just let me do this little clown dance of thinking i could write huh #like no one ever stepped in here and just told me ''yeah you suck shit actually shut the fuck up about being a writer already'' #i mean i KNOW no one owes me anything but. couldn't that have been someone's call to make

[lettuce-seize-the-day]

ran out of medication and there was an issue w the pharmacy and doctor so my refill was late. it just came in (to the pharmacy) but i couldn't get it today. really feeling the effects

#shut up hanna #and its just one of them lmao #and its the one i take 2 pills of. so when i saw i was gonna run out i set one in each slot at the start of the week #so i could be weaned off yo #*yk #but my anxiety is sickening and unbearable rn #thinking abt my student loans. finding a job someday. graduating. taking care of my cat #affording his insurance when i no longer work where i currently do (they give a huge discount) #going back to work tomorrow #monkeypox #my budget #what im gonna do next summer #my diet and how to get groceries without spending too much but still taking advantage of the walmart+ membership i #accidentally bought last month #but theres no one store that has everything i need #but i dont need $35+ worth of stuff from more than one store but the aldi parking lot is soooo scary #and i Have Food but like i need stuff i can cook with and incorporate vegetables in. and i need vegetables lmao #like im better from covid but i still feel like shit and part of that has to be that i have nothing but chicken tendies and fries #that i put in the air fryer and thats my Meal every day #writing all of this down im realizing how many decisions i make solely based on my anxiety #its. i never really considered how utterly debilitating it is lmao it really rules every aspect of my life #thats the other thing. i need to call my insurance and ask what therapy they cover in this area. and make an appointment

[rubberbandballqueen]

looking through my 8th grade science notebook n reflecting on that teacher's style and personality, and man, i think i might cry hahaha

#in a good way bc he was always so kind and earnest and forgiving #i think some kids thought his sincerity was cringe but *i* let myself have fun n now he's one of the teachers i most wanna be like #during study group today my classmates said they thought i'd be a good teacher someday bc of how clearly i laid out the processes #so now i'm going back to ye olde teacher thoughts bc i mean. that's gonna be real someday #n i'm finally writing down a lot of the things i realized through the years i learned from various teachers #what i liked abt their styles before i may have realized why they worked #i really don't know quite how to talk to kids in a way they understand (which is why i know i'm not gonna teach elementary school lol) #but i remember being in 8th grade n loving how clearly all the information was given to us-- it was obvious that the teacher had #written them himself just for us-- n like. this is basically my model for explaining things to kids #anyway the first thing i wrote down abt what i liked abt this teacher is 'made stories out of science n out of us as scientists' #n like. how can i not respect and admire the hell out of that as someone who love love loves story and art? #the way science and art became one... fucking immaculate dude!!! #anyway a lot of my most favorite teachers were; looking back; incredibly kind and considerate people #and i'm glad to have had the privilege of learning under them growing up #the man's not that old he's probably still teaching. i could like. add him on fb n ask to hang out at some point #bc now *i'm* curious abt how he got into teaching n how he developed his style #the worm speaks